#relationship with academia. i dont even kno what i would want to specialize if i went down that path. maybe illustration
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#ugh. im feeling chatty today. probably bc i feel kinda weirdly anxious. like when u can Imagine bad things happening in detail#and like it feels like ur wait for it even tho its in ur imagination? whatever. anyway. ive been watching a lotta#stuff on like professional artists and idk maybe im just in too deep on science academia but i dont. i dunno the culture#seems so weird to me? like what does one do in art school? i guess i took a lot of art in high school but my teacher was kinda trash#all we did was paint realisticly using a grid and i hated that. but i image ur supposed to exercise different styles and medias? how tf#does that get graded? i dunno. i haven't taken any uni level art classes. i should tho. id probably like it#its weird tho. anything that tries to give structure to art stuff seems so weird to me. like u go to school for science stuff to build up#ur background knowledge and i guess u can do that with art but it feels different. i guess bc ur training muscle memory. i dunno#i like to imagine an au where i go to art school but i legitimately cannot fathom doing that. cannot fathom a life outside of my toxic#relationship with academia. i dont even kno what i would want to specialize if i went down that path. maybe illustration#bc it makes me happy when ppl say my style looks like something out of a kids book. i dunno#i guess classes would help with things like forcibly learning shadows and anatomy and composition#maybe i just need to make art friends. like what is ur life like? im too much in a science bubble#i guess going to art school also just devotes all ur time to art. not just tiny pockets of time between all the things u have to get done#god. i can only imagine the panic of procrastinating an art project and physically not having enough time to finish it#thats how i felt with my masters thesis. there was just physically not enough time for me to fix my code in all the ways i needed and rew#rewrite things. but i finished it somehow#ugh. god. i have things i need to finish coloring. i will finish them today. i will#i hate coloring. but colors r so pretty ;_;#unrelated
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last
1. drink - water
2. phone call - mi pops
3. text message - my friends
4. song you listened to - midsummer madness
5. time you cried - when I watched incredibles 2 several weeks ago yea im a weak ass bich
ever
6. dated someone twice? - no
7. kissed someone and regretted it - no
8. been cheated on - no
9. lost someone special - probably
10. been depressed - not quite
11. gotten drunk and thrown up - no
fave colours
12. Mustard yellow
13. Soft pink
14. Black
in the last year have you…
15. made new friends - yap
16. fallen out of love - i think not
17. laughed until you cried - yea i emotion v easily
18. found out someone was talking about you - aunties and uncles sum1 pls stop them
19. met someone who changed you - yap
20. found out who your friends are - 8 yrs n counting!!
21. kissed someone on your facebook friends list - is this like poking anyway no
general
22. how many of your facebook friends do you know irl - almost all
23. do you have any pets - I wish!
24. do you want to change your name - nop
25. what did you do for your last birthday - dont remember prob nothing
26. what time did you wake up today - 12pm
27. what were you doing at midnight last night - playing fire emblem heroes I’m horrible
28. what is something you can’t wait for - the 14th episode of hero academia lel
30. what are you listening to right now - the sound of my nails on the keyboard click clack clack
31. have you ever talked to a person named tom - yea
32. something that gets on your nerves - uncooperativeness
33. most visited website - utube
34. hair colour - dark brwn
35. long or short hair - is mid-length considered long
36. do you have a crush on someone - would b nice I’m bored as f
37. what do you like about yourself - lots of sympathy
38. want any piercings? - can’t commit the ones I have already closed up
39. blood type - b
40. nicknames - ju, juju, jurie, juls
41. relationship status - luvin myself
42. zodiac - Leo
43. pronouns - she/her
44. fave tv shows - Brooklyn 99
45. tattoos - can’t commit
46. right or left handed - right
47. ever had surgery - nop
48. piercings - non
49. sport - id like to think I could’ve been in track back when I was actually athletic
50. vacation - last year New York n conneticut
51. trainers - Pokémon training w my rowlet
more general
52. eating - sour cream n onion chips
53. drinking - water
54. i’m about to watch - theres nothing to watch
55. waiting for - stamina to refill on my feh
56. want - $$$$$
57. get married - I’m only 19 I don’t even kno if I want fries w my burgers half the time
58. career - front end web dev
which is better
59. hugs or kisses - hugs
60. lips or eyes - eyes
61. shorter or taller - taller
62. older or younger - older
63. nice arms or stomach - arms
64. hookup or relationship - relationship
65. troublemaker or hesitant - troublemaker
have you ever
66. kissed a stranger - no
67. drank hard liquor - ye
68. lost glasses - at the bottom of the ocean
69. turned someone down - yea
70. sex on first date - no
71. broken someone’s heart - I don’t think
72. had your heart broken - one sidedly
73. been arrested - no
74. cried when someone died - yea
75. fallen for a friend - i lov all my friends and they all lov me
do you believe in
76. yourself - trying to
77. miracles - yes
78. love at first sight - nop
79. santa claus - when I was a lil one
80. kiss on a first date - shore
81. angels - yes
other
82. best friend’s name - em, Lisa, kelly, blue, thao
83. eye colour - dark brown
84. fave movie - graveyard of the fireflies
85. fave actor - terry crews
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