Realizing I got the perspective wrong but I don’t want to start over

Okay, I have to talk about this because it's been bothering me so much. Furiosa: A Mad Max Saga releasing brought up a lot of the Fury Road arguments from years ago... Where a lot of people (see: men) don't understand that outside of maybe the original Mad Max film.... Max Rockatansky is never the main character. He is always That Weird Guy who gets mixed up in some local skirmish, someone else's journey and really just everything that has nothing to do with him... He's the connective tissue through what is, in the mainline series entries, basically anthology.

ANYWAY... All of that MM discourse made me remember how a lot of people (see: men and Johnny Depp stans) thought that Jack Sparrow was the main character of the Pirates of the Caribbean films... Which is also objectively just not fucking true. The worst movies in the franchise, AKA the last two, tried to make Jack the protagonist but the series only ever functioned with him as a wacky supporting character to Will and Elizabeth... Because Elizabeth Swann was the main character of the Pirates of the Caribbean trilogy -- She has the most defined arc aside from Will, but unlike Will, she is brought into the world of Pirates from the outside and sees a full fledged transformation because of Will and Jack, two pirates, change her entire life.

Basically.. I’ll get to my point: Fury Road was always Furiosa’s story so of course the prequel we have out right now makes sense!! But also Elizabeth was the main character in the POTC trilogy -- The most I'll concede on is that you could see her and Will as two halves of the main protagonist -- And it was never fucking Jack Sparrow!! He was the Han Solo of the trio, he’s there to balance things while also adding some humor and scoundrel flavored mischief and tension!!

It’s just annoying when people erase women from narratives that rely on their role and existence.. All to prop up a man. Anyway I wrote all of this to say they should bring Keira Knightley back to POTC!! Fuck Johnny Depp, the people yearn for more Elizabeth Swann.

If you make a transfem feel bad about getting bottom surgery you can go fuck yourself and die. If all you like us for are our penises then you are no better than a cishet chaser.

My biggest doubt that i have with getting bottom surgery comes from the queer community (& a few trans men, yay) telling me i will lose everything about me that is desirable. It's so utterly fucked. I don't see any depictions or talk about neovaginas in the queer & trans community. I know one (!) tumblr blog who writes smut about it. Fuckin' nothing else. No casual talk about neovaginas, no thirsting over them like y'all thirst over girldick. It makes me feel like i'll just be an inferior kind of woman with nothing "interesting".

When it should be the opposite! This is one of the most gender affirming things i will ever do.

IM LIKE IF A BOY WAS A MANIC PIXIE DREAM GIRL WAS A SCENE FAG

Whenever I see adaptations of novels, comics, and games that elevate the source material, I get deeply and monstrously bitter. Wheel of Time, Foundation, Percy Jackson, The Boys, Outlander, Big Little Lies, Pachinko, Sharp Objects, WATCHMEN!!! All are so good, so beautifully written and moving that when you stack shit like Game of Thrones beside them, it falls flat on its face.

I still think about Jon telling Angela that he is in every moment they spent together all at once. Every time I think about Watchmen S01E9, my throat gets tight and my mouth wobbles. A triumph of storytelling. When you compare this with the disappointment that is Game of Thrones, it becomes clear that being mediocre, white, and a man often leads to success even when you fail.

I get angry because it’s possible to take novels/comics with so many moving parts and rich history, update them for our time and make the rich source material even richer. Those men just didn’t know how. 

And before anyone says the first three seasons are good. Are they? Are they really? Or are we just blinded by the perceived faithfulness to GRRM’s work when we weigh it against the utter shit show that was the last season? The show lifts all the best parts wholesale from the books and magnifies all the worst parts. 

They portrayed the Dothraki with a lack of care compared to the Free Folk. They furthered the lack of non-white perspectives by erasing what little we had. Presenting freedom as if it is worse than chattel slavery. The extinction of the Dothraki in service of white Northerners who were less than welcoming. 

The show does not name more than half of Daenerys' more prominent Dothraki characters on screen. Killing Irri, Jhiqui and Doreah to further isolate Daenerys. Transferring all the better traits from women to the men in their lives. Turning Jorah from an old paedophilic creep into whatever the fuck that was on the show. Alluding to the “first they came” poem for rapists, slavers and other monsters. Peddling the gentle slave-owner myth as if owning a person is not inherently violent. 

Having Missandei be beheaded in chains to fuel madness for literally no reason. Cersei could’ve bargained for her life or at least some concession from Daenerys with Missandei’s life, but they have her behead Missandei for no other reason than to piss off a woman with a large army and an even larger dragon. It made little sense then, and it makes even less sense now. 

I know it’s a bit much to still be so affected by that dumpster fire almost a decade in, but I saw that interview with those idiots yesterday, and I have been furious ever since. 

kinda hate the stereotypes of Asians having this clear soft pale skin like no my culture isn’t just fucking anime and k dramas there’s other things to it :/

I have re-written the epilogue to this fic so many damn times. I get an idea and write it, and tear my hair out rewriting it, and end up hating it, and then get a new idea and rinse and repeat, and it's so depressing and frustrating, and I know it's "just" fanfic and only like 6 people will ever read it, but I want it to be good dammit.

BUT last night I took a long walk in the woods and it clicked. It doesn't always work, but every time I've been stuck a walk in the woods does it. I guess my brain needs foot power to turn the lights on? Not saying what I got is great by any means but I'm satisfied with it finally. (watch me re-write and start hating it by tomorrow)

thank goodness she got the ladybug miraculous

*excitedly finds the soundtrack files to an old 80's shoujo*

*the original uploader didn't separate all the tracks so it's just one big lump and the timestamps don't line up*

Me: *sighs and opens up Audicity* This is Fine...

Uhuhmmmrrrrrrrrr

Pet peeve: when someone doesn't like something and starts inventing like production fanfic on why it's actually bad. I saw someone say a show I like isn't good anymore because they think it's not a labor of love anymore and just like...if I made something and poured my heart and soul into it and just got like "oh it's different now, they must not care like they did in the good old days, bad show now i guess" I'd be so sad...like they have no basis for it it was just about something in the credits being different.....

I'd almost respect it more if people were just saying they didn't like it without having that production fanfic sounding like they're trying to justify their opinion and make it like canon that it's bad because of these things they just like...made up that they think happened with it. but everything just feels like console war bullshit in fandom where there are cool Good ones and lame Bad ones and it wears me out cuz i'm a big sensitive baby when mine are in the lame Bad ones camp. i guess it's prolly always been that way but it just feels so draining lately.

woke up at 4am feeling the weight of my life crushing me, so I’ve been sitting out in my car for the last couple of hours because I just need. to. be. somewhere else.

whenever there’s discourse like some gay guy listed his fave queer movies and didn’t include enough wlw or whatever, all i can think is. holy shit you guys are cis.

tfw you more or less agree with someone's sentiment but their fundamental understanding of the topic is so flawed that they make you and everyone who shares their opinion look like uninformed yahoos

for the past few days i've been feeling kind of empty and hopeless for the future and i've been finding it hard to find joy in things that i usually enjoy lol so umm. can people reblog or comment with even just little things that have happened recently that have made them happy?