#putting yourself out there for ppl who aren’t your internet friends
Text
i really need to get my act together for this whole writing a book thing so i can quit making eggs all day and instead just write porn for a living
#i know i could do it#deep down i KNOW i am capable#but man#putting yourself out there for ppl who aren’t your internet friends#ahhhhh#fucking awful and terrifying#and don’t even get me started on the whole author influencer thing#why do i need to have a platform to write books#why can’t i just be a little faceless guy forever
20 notes
·
View notes
Note
Hi! I’ve been following this blog for a bit and I love that you are having a HH phase, bc same. Can I get a matchup for the event?
★Gender and pref: I’m a he/she and choose how I present myself based on the setting bc I’m not that open with ppl (yeah, I think it’s important to express yourself but realistically that won’t get me far in certain settings in my country); no gender pref but I’m not too fond of some writing choices when it comes to women in Viv’s works, depends on a character though
★Style: kinda rockstar gf vibe? Sometimes softer colours too
★Personality, hobbies: I’m social and extroverted. Usually that leaves me as a leader of whatever group I’m in. I have a little bit of a hater in me, but I don’t show it if ppl don’t encourage it. I do like when it’s being enabled though. It’s not convenient when you’re in a position where ppl ask you for opinions and actually follow your guide, yk, if I manage an event I’m not going to go around shit talking everything. It feels nice to have someone who does that though, makes it easier to join in and not feel like a jerk (or at least be jerks together I guess??). I write my own songs and am in a band as a backup vocal. Kinda proud that it’s my band but I need to get better until I step up as anything more. I’m a bit of a perfectionist. I like to tease ppl if given the opportunity. Others say I’m flirty. Bold with it at that. I’m ambitious too. Kind of a big thing but I have npd (if you want to look it up without reading scientific papers, go on tumblr, bc the rest of the internet is filled with ‘demonic narcissism’ bullshit) and it influences the way I am. I care lots about my image and don’t have a ton of empathy. I don’t go kicking puppies, but it’s noticeable how I lack in this department. Sometimes people say I’m ’too nice to have it’ cause i do well with kids and do all the youth group volunteering. Also, I do some martial arts and other sports. Kinda sceptical of romance at this point cause I had lots of it and I don’t mix well with a lot of people, but maybe I could do something serious for once if I had the right person. I try to be responsible and respectful but I have no issue finding my place at a wild party or something. I'm pretty chill in general, but I can be soft-er if I want, like with children or if the few ppl I actually am close with (I've got many friend groups but I struggle to make meaningful connections) need me. Usually I just stay my highly analytical, laid back self and say my silly little comments every once in a while. Heard I’m pretty funny if I want to be. My love language is acts of service. I like small things and I do them a lot. I can do words too, but I don't care for them in return. Like, you can be an asshole (up to a limit, I know my worth) and it’s cool with me if I see you have your ways of caring like putting on a song I like in the car
★❤️&💔: love movies like Fight Club (my fav), American Psycho and Donnie Darko; hate sharks, they freak me out; my fav book is The Catcher in the Rye; hate it when people push me to open up and be emotional; love music and I unironically had a few guys play songs AT me and I actually like that too, tho I get why ppl clown on that
★My type: I like people who are more negative than me and aren't afraid to shittalk everything. Just saying whatever, not caring if they offend ppl (up to a point, some issues aren’t debatable ik). Don't really care for morality (to a certain point, again) if you're charismatic and fun to be around, I’m along for the ride and happy to support whatever you get yourself into. I think I would get along with someone who had a little npd too, I like to be able to relate to my partner a bit. If they work somewhat similarly, I don't have to struggle with understanding some stuff, bc I already know how to manage an ego or grandiose behavior. As for looks. Idk, I don’t have a set type. I think ppl that are bigger than me maybe? I’m pretty athletic so it’s not hard, but I guess that’s been a pattern? Also, I do enough of leading as is so in relationships, I don’t mind watching from the side and supporting whatever my partner is doing
-★🎶
I love that for us anon^^
I match you with...
Husk!
Man is definitely a hater too. I can definitely see both of you just talking shit about whoever you don't like.
Doesn't mind your flirtations but don't really expect him to reciprocate unless he's out to fluster you.
Silently supportive of your hobbies and your band. He likes that you're a perfectionist but won't let you overwork yourself to the point you forget to take care of yourself.
Demonstrates he cares for you through little things, he won't make a big fuss about it.
Watches whatever movie you like and is there to listen to you if you want to talk about it.
He's pretty chill with anything so you wouldn't have to worry about being judged.
I feel like you would definitely understand each other, he has toned down a lot since his overlord days.
Likes having you sitting at the bar and just be in your presence. If you shit-talk Alastor in front of him he's yours forever.
Hope you enjoyed it and I didn't mess anything up (feel free to reach out if so).
12 notes
·
View notes
Note
Love the blog theme and colours! Esp the header. Can I get a HH matchup? The description is mostly pasted from another ask I did before, but like, I really don't have a new way do describe myself. Idk if this is as bad as sending the same propmp to two blogs, lmk cause I don't want to be disrespectful here
★Gender and pref: I’m a he/she and choose how I present myself based on the setting bc I’m not that open with ppl (yeah, it’s important to express yourself but realistically that won’t get me far in certain settings in my country); no gender pref but I’m not too fond of some writing choices when it comes to women in Viv’s works, depends on a character though
★Looks: my style has a rockstar gf vibe? Sometimes softer colours too. I'm 5’7, athletic but not ripped, gray eyes and wavy blonde hair. Ironically (in this context) lots of ppl call me an angel/angelic-looking. Not going to lie, that feeds into my ego a little bit but I don't really get what they mean. I wear makeup too, love the fox eye trend
★Personality, hobbies: I’m social and extroverted. Usually that leaves me as a leader of whatever group I’m in. I have a little bit of a hater in me, but I don’t show it if ppl don’t encourage it. I do like when it’s being enabled though. It’s not convenient when you’re in a position where ppl ask you for opinions and actually follow your guide, yk, if I manage an event I’m not going to go around shit talking everything. It feels nice to have someone who does that though, makes it easier to join in and not feel like a jerk (or at least be jerks together I guess??). I write my own songs and am in a band as a backup vocal. Kinda proud that it’s my band but I need to get better until I step up as anything more. I’m a bit of a perfectionist. I like to tease ppl if given the opportunity. Others say I’m flirty. Bold with it at that. I’m ambitious too. Kind of a big thing but I have npd (if you want to look it up without reading scientific papers, go on tumblr, the rest of the internet is filled with ‘demonic narcissism’ bullshit) and it influences the way I am. I care lots about my image and don’t have a ton of empathy. I don’t go kicking puppies, but it’s noticeable how I lack in this department. Sometimes people say I’m ’too nice to have it’ 🙄 cause i do well with kids and do all the youth group volunteering. Also, I do some martial arts and other sports. Kinda sceptical of romance at this point cause I had lots of it and I don’t mix well with a lot of people, but maybe I could do something serious for once if I had the right person. I try to be responsible and respectful but I have no issue finding my place at a wild party or something. I'm pretty chill in general, but I can be soft-er if I want, like with children or if the few ppl I‘m close with (I've got many friend groups but I struggle to make meaningful connections) need me. Usually I just stay my highly analytical, laid back self and say my silly little comments every once in a while. Heard I’m pretty funny if I want to be. My love language is acts of service. I like small things and I do them a lot. I can do words too, but I don't care for them in return. Like, you can be an asshole (up to a limit, I know my worth) and it’s cool with me if I see you have your ways of caring like putting on a song I like in the car
★❤️&💔: love movies like Fight Club (my fav), American Psycho and Donnie Darko; hate sharks, they freak me out; my fav book is The Catcher in the Rye; hate it when people push me to open up and be emotional; love music and I unironically had a few guys play songs AT me and I actually like that too, tho I get why ppl clown on it
★My type: I like people who are more negative than me and aren't afraid to shittalk everything. Just saying whatever, not caring if they offend ppl (up to a point, some issues aren’t debatable ik). They have to be somewhat funny. Just… not serious all the time at least. Don't really care for morality (to a certain point, again) if you're charismatic and fun to be around, I’m along for the ride and happy to support whatever you get yourself into. I think I would get along with someone who had a little npd too, I like to be able to relate to my partner a bit. If they work somewhat similarly, I don't have to struggle with understanding some stuff, bc I already know how to manage an ego or grandiose behavior. As for looks. Idk, I don’t have a set type. I think maybe ppl that are bigger than me? I’m pretty athletic so it’s not hard, but I guess that’s been a pattern? Also, I do enough of leading as is so in relationships, I don’t mind watching from the side and supporting whatever my partner is doing
-★🎶
first of all, thx!! my blog is all lute themed because i love her sm haha, also imo it’s not disrespectful so dw, but if some other blog gives you crap, i gotchu, anyway this was such a hard tie between quite a few characters, but here’s who i decided to pair you with…
Angel Dust !!
I was debating so hard between him, Husk, or Charlie — but decided with Angel cause he’s a happy medium imo
I feel like you and Angel can bond well, but under the correct conditions and circumstances, like you both have been through shit and it sucked — and it probably still has a tight grip on you today, but you guys give each other the boost to keep trucking along, you’re each others reasons to get out of bed each day, each others cheerleaders for lack of a better term
You definitely enjoy Angel because he’s not afraid to talk a bit of shit, but he’s also not as serious as Husk, he can have a good time, he also matches your flirty energy a lot so you guys kinda just bounce comebacks and random shit off eachother
Angel is ALL IN for your “rockstar + angelic partner” look, thinks it’s hot asf, genuinely thinks you were in Heaven at one point or another because of how undeniably beautiful you are
Angel also enjoys the kickass hater in you, you guys could sit and gossip and talk shit for several hours, but you both kinda keep eachother in check from going too far — especially infront of others
Despite Hazbin being a musical, I’d like to think Angel is canonically a good singer, because cmon, how could he not be with a VA like Blake Roman?? So he could easily sing at and/or for you, bitch would serenade you😩😩
Also bro finds the fact that you hate sharks hilarious asf, I could see him deciding to be a little fucker and getting you a shark plush as a gag/joke gift on Christmas or smth (or I guess Hellsmas?? Idfk.)
#reqs open#x reader#mio’s writing ! ☆#fanfiction#x y/n#x you#hazbin hotel#hazbin hotel x reader#hazbin hotel x y/n#hazbin hotel x you#angel dust x reader#angel dust#angel dust hazbin hotel#hazbin hotel angel dust#hazbin hotel angel#mio’s matchups ! ☆
10 notes
·
View notes
Note
Can I get a romantic matchup from Hazbin? Here are some informations abt me
Gender and pref: I’m a he/she and choose how I present myself based on the setting bc I’m not that open with ppl (yeah, I think it’s important to express yourself but realistically that won’t get me far in certain settings in my country); no gender pref but I’m not too fond of some writing choices when it comes to women in Viv’s works, depends on a character though
Style: kinda rockstar gf vibe? Sometimes softer colours too
Personality, hobbies: I’m social and extroverted. Usually that leaves me as a leader of whatever group I’m in. I have a little bit of a hater in me, but I don’t show it if ppl don’t encourage it. I do like when it’s being enabled though. It’s not convenient when you’re in a position where ppl ask you for opinions and actually follow your guide, yk, if I manage an event I’m not going to go around shit talking everything. It feels nice to have someone who does that though, makes it easier to join in and not feel like a jerk (or at least be jerks together I guess??). I write my own songs and am in a band as a backup vocal. Kinda proud that it’s my band but I need to get better until I step up as anything more. I’m a bit of a perfectionist. I like to tease ppl if given the opportunity. Others say I’m flirty. Bold with it at that. I’m ambitious too. Kind of a big thing but I have npd (if you want to look it up without reading scientific papers, go on tumblr, bc the rest of the internet is filled with ‘demonic narcissism’ bullshit) and it influences the way I am. I care lots about my image and don’t have a ton of empathy. I don’t go kicking puppies, but it’s noticeable how I lack in this department. Sometimes people say I’m ’too nice to have it’ cause i do well with kids and do all the youth group volunteering. Also, I do some martial arts and other sports. Kinda sceptical of romance at this point cause I had lots of it and I don’t mix well with a lot of people, but maybe I could do something serious for once if I had the right person. I try to be responsible and respectful but I have no issue finding my place at a wild party or something. I'm pretty chill in general, but I can be soft-er if I want, like with children or if the few ppl I actually am close with (I've got many friend groups but I struggle to make meaningful connections) need me. Usually I just stay my highly analytical, laid back self and say my silly little comments every once in a while. Heard I’m pretty funny if I want to be. My love language is acts of service. I like small things and I do them a lot. I can do words too, but I don't care for them in return. Like, you can be an asshole (up to a limit, I know my worth) and it’s cool with me if I see you have your ways of caring like putting on a song I like in the car
Likes and dislikes: love movies like Fight Club (my fav), American Psycho and Donnie Darko; hate sharks, they freak me out; my fav book is The Catcher in the Rye; hate it when people push me to open up and be emotional; love music and unironically had a few guys play songs AT me and I actually like that too, tho I get why ppl clown on that
My type: I like people who are more negative than me and aren't afraid to shittalk everything. Just saying whatever, not caring if they offend ppl (up to a point, some issues aren’t debatable ik). Don't really care for morality (to a certain point, again) if you're charismatic and fun to be around, I’m along for the ride and happy to support whatever you get yourself into. I think I would get along with someone who had a little npd too, I like to be able to relate to my partner a bit. If they work somewhat similarly, I don't have to struggle with understanding some stuff, bc I already know how to manage an ego or grandiose behavior. As for looks. Idk, I don’t have a set type. I think maybe ppl that are bigger than me? I’m pretty athletic so it’s not hard, but I guess that’s been a pattern? Also, I do enough of leading as is so in relationships I don’t mind watching from the side and supporting whatever my partner is doing
-★🎶
I match you with...
Husk
~He likes listening to you sing
~He doesn't get flustered much but he has a couple times by you
~Both of y'all are skeptical about the whole romance thing, But y'all are trying
~Likes watching movies with you
~Yall are both a bit emotionally stunted, that's okay though
~He loves your style
~He prepares drinks for you
~You do a lot of the talking between you two
~Yall shit talk together
~He likes your sense of humor
3 notes
·
View notes
Note
Here’s the infir for our trade:
My style has a rockstar gf vibe. Sometimes softer colours too. I'm hourglass shaped and almost curvy, but I spend lots of time training (MMA) so instead im lowkey athletic with some muscle. I've got dark gray almond shaped eyes and medium lengst wavy blonde wolfcut with (renee rapp-style) bangs. Ironically (for Hazbin) I often hear that I look Angel-like? Like, even from strangers on the street?? That or that I’m intimidating. Ngl, that strokes my ego a bit (as all the other times I had strangers compliment me, tho I try to be neutral abt it bc ofc I’m pretty), but idk what really makes me come across that way. Got some casual makeup on usually. I’ve got some scars and bruises from training, don’t mind most, not too fond of my scar from a sword fight (long story), bc it’s big (and I hate that somebody might think that I lost it; my ego >>> my body - with injuries like that). Also, got a hidden tattoo. Yeah yeah, my youth group (idk how to actually say it in eng) doesn’t allow it, I’ve got my rep but give me some sweet hypocrisy as a treat (/hj), I think the tattoo looks awesome (yeah, it was diy). I’m social & extroverted. I write songs and am in a band. Other than that I like to tease ppl if given the opportunity; others say I’m flirty - bold with it at that. I’m ambitious too. I don't take shit from ppl, im far from meek. I have npd (if you want to look it up without reading scientific papers, go on tumblr, bc the rest of the internet is filled with ‘demonic narcissism’ bullshit) and it influences the way I am. I care lots about my image, don’t have a ton of empathy etc. I don’t kick puppies, but it‘s noticeable how I lack in this department. Sometimes people say I’m ’too nice to have it’ cause i do well with kids and do all the youth group volunteering. Kinda skeptical of serious romance cause I had lots of it & I don’t mix well with a lot of people. Maybe I could do something serious for once if I had the right person. I try to be responsible and respectful but I have no issue finding my place at a wild party or something. I can be soft-er if I want, like with children or ppl I’m close with (I've got many friend groups but struggle to make meaningful connections). Usually I just stay my analytical, laid-back self and say my silly little comments every once in a while. Heard I’m pretty funny if I want to be. My love language is acts of service. I like small things and I do them a lot. I can do praise too, but I don't care for it in return. Like, you can be an asshole (up to a limit, I know my worth) and it’s cool with me if I see you have your ways of caring like putting on a song I like in the car. Unrelated but some say I’m kinda closed off and ‘mysterious’ or wtv . Hate it when people push me to open up and be emotional; love music and I unironically had a few guys play songs AT me and I actually like that too, tho I get why ppl clown on it; despise the ‘I can fix them’ trope, it just feels wrong; obvi love my band, we are awesome; Deal breakers r: boring ppl, too romantic or sentimental, ppl who can't be casual with me, ppl who only approach me bc of my looks (yeah they are important, but my personality’s too good to ignore in the long run, come on), for Hazbin - no Val. I like ppl who are more negative than me and aren't afraid to shittalk everything. Just saying whatever, not caring if they offend ppl (up to a point, some issues aren’t debatable ik). I like to join in sometimes. They have to be at least a little funny. And determined abt their goals, like a lot, no matter what it is. Don't really care for morality (to a certain point, again) if you're charismatic and fun to be around, I’m along for the ride and happy to support whatever you get yourself into. Like, my perfect dynamic is usually when the other person says the wildest shit and I just go like ‘yeah, go baby’. Ppl try to argue? I pull out the ‘who?… who cares?’ card.
1/2, just a few sentences got cut
-★🎶
Hellooooo! Here's my part of the trade!
Your match for hazbin hotel is.....Velvette! With Adam as a close runner up lol
Okay so as I said in messages, Velvet would be a perfect match for you (with adam as your very close runner up). You said you don’t like sentimental or boring people but you like them ambitious and audacious. Tell me how it’s not our dear Velvette. Now okay, given her little screentime there’s a chance she approached you first for your looks but put her in her place and there you go. A nice enemies to lovers’ story. Who asked the other one first? Her. She was pushed to the edge by the other V’s teasing.
Something that fits you both in the relationship is that you don’t expect the lovey dovey atmosphere. It’s more like…that’s my demon, fuck off. She likes that you retaliate and doesn’t get hurt easily because she won’t have to watch her words. It’s not uncommon to find both of you bickering but if anyone dared to try and side with one of you they’d get hurt. Velvette love language is probably gifts and fancy dates. She likes it when you do small things for her and will show it off by saying find a better lover than mine or something similar. Your relationship will be public but the amount of photoshoots you two do together depends on you, she won’t force you into an influencer life.
Now Velvette likes your style and you two give me the same vibes. But you know what she likes more? Matching outfits with you. She will probably offer to do your make up for you if you let her. As for the tattoos, if the relationship gets serious then she will get one for you. In private, she does fuss over the bruises you get during training and even proposes to….take care of your opponents. If you do any matches she will clear her schedule and assist.
Besides her brutal honesty, Velvette is the best critique you could ask for. She will help out your band as much as she can. Leave the costumes and decorations to her lol. Now onto some personal headcanons, I think that Velvette would enjoy a lover that’s stronger than her (physically. In termof powers idk) but wouldn’t abuse it. Someone who’d pick her up and spin, her around or just someone with who she can get lost in their arms in private. A lover who won’t judge her and accept her with all her flaws. I also think she’s the type that enjoys late car rides with full on music to destress. But for all of this to happen and for her to let her real walls down the relationship would have to become serious. You’re both in it for fun and it’s easy to get backstabbed in hell after all.
Hope you like it. I tried to include everything
3 notes
·
View notes
Note
HELLO!!! NEW ANON HERE BUT,, i enjoy your writing very much :3 i wanted to request something for tommy :D bare with me here: remember how tommy said he barely seen the apartment before moving in? WELL- what if him and the reader (who aren’t together but have very obvious crushes on each other) move into the apartment, and both find out theres one bed. So basically a bed sharing trope :) you can take creative control from there :3 i don’t wanna keep you from adding your spark to it !!! - :3 anon
a/n: HEELLOOOO MY LOVELY ‘:3’ ANON! :> UR SO AWESOME HEHE. I LIVE THIS AND DECIDED TO MIX THIS UP WITH ANOTHER REQUEST IVE GOTTEN? i don’t think I can put two requests in one fic like tumblr wise, but it’s just some word prompts that I liked!! SO YEAH HOPE THIS IS GOOD ENOUGH? ILY! ur added to the anon list that’s pinned on my masterlist :O
look at this boy 😭 ^^^^^^ HES SO <333
Sharing it is then
a Tommyinnit/ You!!!
summary: you and Tommy are best friends, and super close. And god, did you have a crush on your pretty bestie, he was just breathtaking. But, you moved into a temporary apartment, and Tommy didn’t wanna check it before hand. That’s how you found out there was. ONLY. ONE. BED.
This is a ROMANTIC fic, it starts of platonic. There’s nothing weird in here I’m sorry I even have to say that, but there’s such weird ppl on the internet. Yes, the plot is that they have to sleep in one bed, but other than cuddling and a kiss or two nothing happens of course. Any weird comments will be deleted.
NO PRONOUNS USED
swearing (once), kissing.
Another Tommy fic. Yes.
A sigh left the blonde’s lips. You looked at him. You were on the train to Brighton, where you were getting the keys for your new, shared apartment. It was just temporary, but god, it was still so exciting to move in with someone you loved so much. You were in love with him, it was no secret to yourself, but it was difficult. What is more difficult than having a crush on your best friend? Nothing. You thought. A whistle snapped you back into reality. It was Tommy. ‘Whatcha staring for?’ He said, grinning. You tried not to flush a bright red, but it was really hard for you. You laughed it off. ‘Sorry, I zoned out.’ you excused. You were nervous, excitement bubbling up inside you. You imagined what your life will look like every day with HIM. Late mornings, shared breakfasts, movie nights, cooking for him, cuddles maybe… No, no. Needn’t get your hopes up, it will ruin you. You shook those thoughts off of you, and smiled at your best friend again. ‘There’s still like 4 hours before we can go into the apartment, watcha wanna do?’ He asked, returning your smile. ‘Hmmm, aren’t there woods over there? Wil was talking about that right?’ You suggested, and his face lit up immediately. ‘YEAH! I mean, yeah dude, that sounds cool! We should do like a picnic? I’ll get some food on the station in a minute’ You blushed a bit at his idea, it kinda sounding like a date. ‘Yeah, alright’ and you both looked at the passing landscape outside again.
Your hand brushed over the picnic blanket you bought last moment, at a shop you passed on the way to the woods. It was quite extraordinary, it had pretty white lace on the edges, which contrasted beautifully with the dark ground you were seated on. Tommy noticed it too. ‘That’s very pretty actually, you should keep that. For our apartment’ he pointed at the blanket. You nodded, a big smile on your face. ‘You know what? Yeah, let’s keep it’ he was thinking about your shared apartment, it was obvious, and you loved it. ‘Are you nervous? Your leg’s bouncing.’ He commented. You stopped quickly. ‘Oh, uh, I don’t know? Maybe, but I’m mostly excited’ you answered honestly, and he liked that. He looked you directly in the eyes, nodding happily. ‘Me as well. It will be okay, we got this’ He comfortingly put his hand on the leg that was previously shaking, brushing along the fishnets that were on your legs. ‘Those are really pretty,’ he said, talking about the fishnets. ‘Thank you!’ You smiled even wider. You knew he liked those, that’s mainly why you wore them today, but it still made your heart flutter.
He took your hand as everything was propped in your bags again, and you walked out of the beautiful, forest green woods. To your surprise he held it for the entire walk, and you couldn’t believe that you were ACTUALLY holding his hand right now, but also ACTUALLY were getting the key in the next 15 minutes. You arrived and quickly met up with the guy who would be handing you the keys. It was a bit of a fuss though, there were some miscommunications, but Tommy managed to get it all together. You thanked him honestly, and he petted your back twice. He gave you the honors to open the door for the very first time, and you looked at each other happily as you stepped into the room. It looked pretty good, it was quite cold though, but it was pretty inside. You looked at the bathroom, a office area, and the kitchen. You smiled as he fell on to his bed. ‘Wow that’s soft, and it’s so big? Wtf?’ You giggled at him. He stood up again, hooking his arm through yours. ‘Now let’s see where you shall sleep, hm?’ You nodded. But quickly you realized that there were no rooms left. You looked shocked, and Tommy immediately took the stairs downward to ask the guy what went wrong here. You sipped your water, still taking in what happened, when he came back. ‘And?’ You asked. He was refraining from looking you in the eyes. ‘Well, Y/n, don’t be upset, but I kinda didn’t look at the room first and..’ he began. ‘YOU DIDNT REVIEW THE ROOM?’ you yelled, maybe a bit too hard. ‘Nope, I mean, it’s temporary, and I didn’t think it was necessary’ you nodded. He could be like that. ‘When the man told me it was a two person room, I guessed that there were two separate beds, right’ he said, still looking anywhere but your eyes. You slowly got it all. ‘There’s only one bed.’ He said, reading out your thoughts. ‘There is no couch, Y/n, we don’t have a extra matress..’ He made clear what the situation was. ‘Right’ you said.
You chilled on the bed, hanging out, on opposite sides. You looked at him, you still hadn’t come up with a solution. One of the episodes of the show you were watching was playing on the tv, but you were still focused on the situation you were in. ‘Look Y/n, it’s late, I’m getting tired, I will sleep on the floor’ he said, and he moved up. He was stopped by your hand grabbing his wrist. ‘No. No, Tommy, I will’ you said. But he quickly shook his head. ‘I’m sorry, I mean I created this situation, it’s my fault.’ You were close to him, from having him pulled back towards you. ‘No! No.. It’s okay, i- I don’t, I don’t mind actually.’ You whispered the last part. ‘What was that?’ Tommy looked into your eyes again, a crimson color spread around his nose in a blush. ‘I don’t mind there being one bed, I kinda, well. I really, like you, Tom.’ That took you all your confidence, but you said it. His eyes went wide, and you were scared to see what would be next, as he stuttered a bit. ‘Really?’ He asked, and you nodded. His eyes looked deep into yours, and then fluttered to look at your lips. Your breathing quickened, and he got even closer to you. ‘Is this okay?’ He asked, as his nose brushed against yours. ‘Mhm’ you hummed, your head red as a tomato. And quickly after your response, he pushed his lips against yours, you meeting each other in a loving kiss. He pulled his arms around your waist, yours brushing through his lovely golden curls. It was like coming home after a long time. It was like finally having a large weight off your shoulders that you carried around for long. It was amazing. He pulled away, but still remained close to your face. His breathing was warm, and your heart was racing in your chest. He smiled. You smiled. ‘Sharing the bed, then?’ He commented. You nodded fast, which made him giggle. You quickly got under the covers, warming your body. He pulled you back quickly, meeting his embrace in a close cuddle. This felt fuzzy, like a dream, but you knew that this was the best decision of your life. A kiss was pressed against your temple, and your nose, and he softly whispered ‘I love you’ as you both drifted off in a comfortable sleep.
You fluttered your eyes open, as you rose with the sunshine peeking through the windows. It was bright yellow, like sweet honey in morning light. You smiled, the new room already growing on you. You turned around, and saw a sight which made you smile even more. Your heart jumped as you saw Tommy’s soft golden hair shine in the sunlight, his cheeks a soft rosy color. His eyes were still shut, and watching him breathe for a while, you were sure he was still in a deep sleep. You couldn’t help but touch him, your fingers softly brushing his cheek and neck. You got an idea, and you quickly gave him a peck on the forehead before you got up from the bed. It was chilly, and you made a mental note to ask about the heater later that day. So you put on one of Tommy’s jumpers, it was big on you, but you loved it on you. It was comforting, and you looked at yourself as you moved into the kitchen. You looked into the cabinets, and got some ingredients. You tried to make a breakfast for the both of you with the lack of groceries you had, but when it was done, it was quite okay. Your stomach was hurting from the hunger, so you quickly poured a glass of orange juice as you moved the meal into the bedroom. You placed the tray on your bed, and crawled onto the matress as well. You smiled, thinking about how he’d like it, and you got up with an idea to wake him. You kissed him on the lips, his still sleeping figure not moving. You littered him with little kisses, and he slowly opened his eyes. ‘Good morning, darling.’ He smiled, all the memories from yesterday came back to him. He kissed you again, pulling you in. ‘Hi baby’ he said, and he looked at the tray you were pointing that. His eyes widened quickly. ‘AWWWWWW THAT LOOKS SO YUMMY DID YOU MAKE THAT?’ He said in his high pitched voice, his brows going up. You smiled, and answered with a ‘YEAHHH’. He tickled you and pulled you close again, and you ate the breakfast together in a comfortable silence. It started to pour outside, so you staid inside that day, in bed, cuddling. You looked at your hands, which were intertwining in front of you. He stroked yours, nuzzling his head into your head. ‘Y/n?’ he whispered. ‘Mhm?’ ‘What would you think of… being my significant other?’ He mumbled. You looked up at him, and you nodded happily ‘I think that’s a lovely idea’ you smiled, and pulled him even closer.
a/n: I should be sleeping rn, have school tmmrw BUT I JUST NEED TO WRITE RN. SO I DID. I DONT WANNA PROOF READ BUT I AM GOING TO RIGHT NOW, IM SORRY IF I FALL ASLEEP WHILE DOING SO LMAOOOI’m sorry for the lack of things lately :( I love you so!! Take care of ur selves, ur actually so cool did u know that???!! :O
#tommyinnit#dsmp#dreamsmp#cricket crew#mcyt#mcyt imagine#tommyinnit x reader#tommyinnit x you#tommyinnit fic#romantic tommyinnit#tommyinnit imagine#tom simons
426 notes
·
View notes
Note
Hey I’m allistic and I just wanted to know if you feel comfortable outlining some of the ways allistic adhd ppl over talk autistic ppl (so I can avoid that). There is overlap in within the neurodivergent community but I don’t want to silence my friends and peers
Well, I can't and won't try to speak for every other autistic out there, but I can try to respond from my point of view ( I hope this comes out well ) :
As one sight puts it "People who have traits that stretch across both autism and ADHD diagnoses often face more serious challenges than those with either diagnosis alone- they can have greater impairments in adaptive functioning ( a term that refers to self-care and daily living skills, and more "severe" social/cognitive 'issues'"
According to the CDC, 14% of people with ADHD also have Autism- those with both - again - are more likely to have learning and social imparimetns and difficulties.
ADHD and autism are related BUT they are not the same. I say all this as a preface -
I'm not saying allistic ADHD people don't struggle at all, but bare with me -
It seems like the best way I can tell differences is 'degrees' - sure people with ADHD may struggle with social issues but if it is nigh impossible to communicate effectively and hold up friendships/any social relationship you start going into Autism territory. People with ADHD may have sensory issues, yes, but if you aren't completely overwhelemed to the point you cannot talk adn you withdraw completely into yourself or meltdown/shutdown then you can't honesly relate to an autistic person's point of view and daily living.
Yes, ADHD has a major impact on one's life - but not to the likeness and perhaps even degree to autism does. I don't believe in pitting each other against one another as we are one neurodiverse family - but more and more I see people with ADHD either claiming to be autistic ( which, ok - not touching that part just yet ) or claiming autistic traits to be ADHD ones. ( Much like those claiming raptor hands as an ADHD thing when it is very traditionally and perhaps diagnoistically an autistic thing ).
Or if an autisitic only group is specifically speaking about autism and autistic experiences - often we have allistic ADHD people butting in like "I DON'T HAVE AUTISM BUT---". Those shouldn't happen. If it is an autistic only space/post, then it is an autistic only. I don't care if we are neurodiverse cousins or whatnot - allistic adhd people have no right to barge into autistic spaces and pretend to understand everything we go through, to the degree we go through it.
There is overlap. They are also different things. Very different. I have an allistic ADHD friend - there is a distinct, obvious difference between us. ( I have adhd, autism and learnign disabilities and was in special ed ).
Claiming words like "special interest" which is an autsitic only phrase, and using it interchangably with "hyperfixation" is something i see often and it ( maybe im one of onnly a few bothered with this one ) upsets me.
you can be allistic ADHD and have sensory problems, etc, but from what i see we autistic people still experience this world very very differently and allistic adhd people butting into autsitic only spaces by claiming autistic platforms by over-speaking us, stealign our terms, etc, is disrespectful.
And yes a few people with ADHD may very well just be undiagnosed as an autistic person as well. I'm not talking about those cases.
But it seems like adhd people have become too comfortable with the fact there is overlap between adhd adn autism that they forget there are major differences - there are several circle charts on pintrest and tumblr and the internet that show it better than I can word and explain in.
I guess i could just say it as "Stay in your lane".
One thing that also gets me, personally, is ADHD people not realizing that yes you expereience similar things to what we Autistics do - but just because you can relate does not mean you are autistic. I don't wanna come across as gate-keepy and I hope i'M explaining this right. If I mis-answered you, please let me know. Communication is very hard for me even though I can type well.
Also there are other creators out there who can better explain things and provide examples case by case whereas I can't without naming names and making this seem like a call-out post and I want to avoid discourse as this blog is a safe spot for me
#actually autistic#actually autism#actuallyadhd#actuallylearningdisabled#actually dyscalculia#neurodiverse#adhd vs autism
28 notes
·
View notes
Note
Can I just say that I appreciate your post on r-spawning so much? You're the only person on tumblr who I've seen who isn't being a complete asshat about it. As someone living in an abusive environment and has been struggling with a lot of mental health issues, I despise what I can only call "forced-lifers" who try to ram their "you're meant to be here! pull up your bootstraps and stick it out" agenda down ppl's throats. Jfc. 🌹
I'm glad you appreciate it <3
I won't ask who you are and I hope your home life gets better, I know how it feels in away. Not exactly because I'm not you. But it's tough, really tough. And I'm proud of you for getting this far.
------------
Cw it gets long winded from here! Just skip to the bottom if you want.
I agree it does seem forced though I don't give it a name. I tend to just ignore it. For me, I don't ever want to come across as, or be, someone who is hateful towards respawners or other subcategories of shifting. I'm kind of in a middle lane, I don't want someone to die physically but is it really my right to decide? No. Nor can I stop it, so what's the point of excluding others? There is none. I fully acknowledge it can trigger other people, it can be confusing, or a touchy subject. That's totally valid! But having a forced attitude to "stay" isn't right in general.
For example, if a friend told you they wanted to end their life and you told them "no you must stay, you're not welcome to talk to me, don't speak to me, etc" then there's something wrong there. It's not necessarily the "staying part" that's the issue, in my opinion. I see it as the more of the forceful and low-key hate that's a result if you don't listen to them when you refuse to stay. It's really rude and disgusting in general. If they claim to want people to stay and live but then have a forceful and hateful attitude then W H A T . (And no I'm not pointing fingers, I just see it pop up every now and then.) If they truly want to "help" (as they say) then they shouldn't push someone away immediately just for saying it. It's not right.
I fully acknowledge, again, it can trigger some people by the mention of death. But in no way should someone completely exclude someone but then say they support anyone who wants help. (Unless you're triggered by the mention of death but even then please ignore the topic and take care of yourself. Triggers are hard to deal with but it's also hard on the other side too.) Respawners aren't mentally ill (And, FYI, mental illness shouldn't be treated as an insult.) And respawners don't always "need help." To be clear, there are different types of respawners. There's people who want to respawn to not come back (which can be done with shifting as well), there are people who respawn for spiritual reasons which has been a practice for years, and so on.
I think the only time I have a problem with Respawning is when it turns dangerous. For example, someone doesn't care if they shift or not in the process. Which is a different type of respawner entirely. And again, I don't support the action when it turns into that but I will fully support the person. Life can be really tough and when someone doesn't care if they shift or not in the process is when I really want to go to their house and violently care for them. Obviously, I can't because 1) Social distancing 2) I'm not allowed on social media so it would be hard to explain JDBSJDND 3) I'm not sure they would consent to me coming to their house 4) Caring or loving someone doesn't solve the issue 9 times out of 10.
BUT, back on the topic. What I'm trying to say is when someone is like that, don't push them away. Respawners are still people. People will emotions. Pushing someone away isn't really helping their "you should stay" point. Because it just makes them look rude or with a goodie goodie attitude that really isn't goodie goodie.
------------
Another thing, I'm sorry that you've gone through that and honestly the behavior is beyond rude. I'm not saying I should force people to accept eachother because obviously it's 2021 and it's the internet, no one is going to get along completely. But I would like the community to AcTuaLlY do some effort into accepting respawners OR AT LEAST accept that they are also a part of social media and excluding them isn't going to do anything. It's the internet.
Honestly, I won't ever understand what you've been through because I'm not you. But if you're really sure Respawning is for you then I won't object. Like I said, I'm in the middle lane right now because that's where I want to be - but I'll support you as a person and, again, I'm really proud of you for getting this far and actually choosing to go find another life. It's a difficult decision for people in abusive situations to choose a new life. It often comes with guilt, questioning, and worry (and I'm sorry in advance if that's not your case and I'm assuming.) But to put it short, I'm really proud of you for choosing to have a new life instead of just ending it without any plans. Yeah I know Respawning it technically death but I'm proud of you for at least choosing it instead of leaving entirely without it. You're worthy of a new life and I'm still very proud of you for making it this far.
#tw#tw respawning#reality shifting#shiftblr community#ideal reality community#desired reality community#shifting#reality#realities#shift reality#shift realities#shifting reality#if someone sends anon hate#try me bish#i know how to see whos anon#i will hunt you down and take away your mobile device#thats it ill just take it away#but try me you wont have it anymore
35 notes
·
View notes
Note
several years ago I asked you "tips on turning 21?" and you gave some damn good advice that helped me so much when i turned 21. so, got a tip for turning 25 and suddenly being very aware of the process of self-actualization?
[continued] “i asked my older sibling and they said "don't eat trash food" lmfao”
well i actually first off actually unironically agree w your older sibling -- it feels like a drag to get nagged abt it but genuinely switching from like. “hot pockets from the corner store every night bc i’m tired” to gritting my teeth and putting in the planning and time to cook for myself and eat in ways that were kinder to my body did a LOT for like, both just my overall wellness and also my fucking wallet bc trash food is literally so fucking expensive out the gate. there’s like. a whole BUNCH i could get into as someone who has worked in The Health Food Industry abt how a lot of what you’re paying for w processed food is convenience and immediacy and that a lot of times “Healthy Food” costs more in terms of time and preparation and getting WAY fewer calories per dollar in ways that aren’t feasible if you’re food insecure etc etc etc but i’m not getting into that i’m just gonna say: when you CAN, whenever you’re able, gritting your teeth and prying yourself up and over to the kitchen and not having trash food actually does do a lot for u overall.
anyway. cw for brief suicide mention as i talk abt this but i’ll try not to get too heavy abt it
i’m abt to turn 27 next month and have finally hit the point where my life has like... stabilized in a way i never thought would’ve been possible. (i got married, did i say that on this blog ever? hi, it’s me, ira, i got married to the coolest woman alive and moved to spain.) but the thing is i’ve said that every year. like, fuckin, on an absolute clockwork schedule once a year i’ve been like “hi guys wow things have been so crazy but everything in my life has FINALLY settled so i’ll be around a lot more” etc etc. so: your life is never settled and it is also always settling and eventually i have found i just stop noticing. i think also as things settle i’ve noticed i’ve started like, really getting struck by my life STRETCHING OUT in front of me, esp since i was suicidal for most of my life til now and like, i never had to THINK abt or plan for stuff, and now suddenly sometimes it’s like. even tho i’m so happy w my life now it’s still so exhausting sometimes to think abt doing this fucking forever lmao. forever! every day! life is so long and my brain is so small!
all this to say: never expect stuff to be Done esp a concept as huge as self-actualization and also expect to be tired. expect to freak out a little. i know we’ve all heard “nobody has it figured out in their 20s” and we’re like “yeah yeah cool except i look around and other ppl in their 20s seem to at LEAST have it more together than i do” and my solution for that so far has been oh my god stop looking in other people’s windows, ira.
i’m getting really rambly and disorganized here so i’m just gonna post a list of things that have really, really helped me in the mid-20s zone and that made me healthier and happier than early-20s me
i don’t drink or use substances when i’m in a bad mood anymore. ever. even if i’m just like “lightly bummed out” -- total stop, total red light, no substance use. this one rule has changed my life entirely and i take it extremely seriously. i have to be happy and feeling good going into it, or i don’t take anything/don’t have any drinks, period. (i tentatively make an exception for this re: using weed to medicate anxiety but i personally still try to keep that a last resort.)
every time you feel like bitching about something you don’t like on social media, make a post abt something else that you like instead. every time u feel like saying something meanspirited or vague or unpleasant abt someone you can’t stand, find a genuine, wholehearted compliment abt someone you really like instead. i’m obviously not saying “never complain ever” but i’m saying only complain when it like.... matters, and take vicious, merciless inventory of when it actually matters bc it u might find that inventory doesn’t line up w your actions generally
related to that: be very cautious abt like, friend groups who bond over shit they hate instead of bonding over shit they like.
talk to yourself a lot. talk to yourself before you say or do things. ask yourself questions about how you’re feeling, why you’re reacting to things the way you do, esp if you’re feeling/acting negatively and feel lost abt Why. cultivate a relationship w yourself in a tangible, daily way so that you can understand your feelings and actions better
find something screenless that you enjoy doing every day. i’m not trying to sound like crotchety specter of Fucking Log Off but i am that and i think the internet is evil and i think it’s making our brains dribble out our ears in liquid form and finding offline things to fill my days up with every day and only coming online when i’m done with those things has probly done more for my growth as a person than anyone else. this place is evil
related to all of this, i guess: everything 21 year old you thought was super boring/would have refused to do if commanded is probably really really good for you and will make you feel better
that’s my advice happy birthday
66 notes
·
View notes
Text
got tagged by the ever wonderful @fortiesbucky to answer 73 (!!!!) questions. since i’m a lil wine drunk and waiting for my pokemon game to download i figured why not, let’s do it!!! here goes nothing. my answers are under the cut!
this is a ridiculous undertaking but i’ll tag some ppl i guess. if you have some time to kill....go for it! @dansmlth @mabelmcbae @mirandabeach @the-best-of-what-we-had-youknow @stormerforweekes @unseenpolarstars
on a scale of 1-10, how excited are you about life right now? like a 4?? we’re in the middle of a global pandemic (Yikes) but my big job interview is finally over with and it went really well so i guess that’s kind of exciting!
describe yourself in a hashtag? #DoItForDua
if you could do a love scene with anyone, who would it be? i’m ace let’s bake a cake together instead (looking @ u dan bastille)
if your life was a musical, what would the marquee say? this is not a musical despite the copious amounts of terrible singing
what’s one thing people don’t know about you? i WILL cry when ur least expecting it
what’s your wake up ritual? make coffee/breakfast, mess around on tumblr for a bit and catch up on messages from friends, then log on to start work at nine
what’s your go to bed ritual? i’ve been playing animal crossing for like an hour before bed every night. that’s about it
what’s your favorite time of day? morning after i’ve had my coffee and i have my one hour of motivation to do things sxkljsdf
your go to for having a good laugh? vines that cured my depression compilations on youtube
dream country to visit? oh this is a hard one!! would love to go to the UK someday
what’s the biggest surprise you’ve ever had? my 13th bday party when my mom got all of my friends together to surprise me 🥺
heels or flats/sneakers? converse baby
vintage or new? new. i’m not trendy or skinny enough to pull off vintage anything
who do you want to write your obituary? anyone except my mother
style icon? when dua lipa went through that phase of wearing sweatpants and bras onstage....yeah i vibe w/ that
what are three things you cannot live without? music, my hydroflask, and my electric blanket
what’s one ingredient you put in everything? GARLIC
what 3 people living or dead would you want to make dinner for? listen...i really just wanna hang out with dan smith. also niall from 1d. and hm....maybe....ok this is a weird answer but marina keegan. she died at 22 after graduating from yale and her book literally changed my life
what’s your biggest fear in life? love & intimacy oop
window or aisle seat? window
what’s your current tv obsession? too hot to handle is the funniest thing i’ve ever seen
favorite app? rn i’m using discord a lot. also instagram
secret talent? i know every word to every cover the glee cast ever did
most adventurous thing you’ve ever done in your life? studying abroad in ecuador!
how would you define yourself in three words? positive, introverted, and....and.....maybe simple? (in the sense that i’m ok with just living a life without fancy things or huge ambitions)
favorite piece of clothing you own? my fuzzy north face fleece jacket!
a must have clothing item that everyone should have? buy yourself a good rain jacket pls just do it
a superpower you would want? being an empath would be cool
what’s inspiring you in life right now? my friends!!! i have so many ppl to talk to rn and staying connected with them is really keeping me going
best piece of advice you’ve received? everything works out in the end, don’t stress about what you can’t control
best advice you’d give your teenage self? just tell ppl you aren’t straight it really isn’t a big deal
a book everyone should read? out east by john glynn
what would you like to be remembered for? loving my friends and writing some stuff that maybe impacted a few ppl
how do you define beauty? kindness! openness!
what do you love most about your body? my smile i guess?
best way to take a rest/decompress? listening to music, wasting time on the internet
favorite place to view art? ....online?
if your life was a song, what would the title be? Avoiding Intimacy
if you could master one instrument, what would it be? guitar
if you had a tattoo, where would it be? i’ve been thinking about this lately. probably on the inside of my arm somewhere?
dolphins or koalas? DOLPHINS (are fish! no they aren’t. yeah they are. just cuz they live in water doesn’t mean they’re fish!)
what’s your spirit animal? penguin
best gift you’ve ever received? my boss surprising me with those brownies yesterday was pretty cool
best gift you’ve given? i made my best friend in college this little jar full of our inside jokes written on little slips of paper. i thought it was pretty cute
what’s your favorite board game? rummikub, life, cards against humanity
what’s your favorite color? yellow
least favorite color? brown
diamond or pearls? diamonds
drugstore makeup or designer? drugstore
blow-dry or air-dry? blowdry (with a diffuser of course)
pilates or yoga? neither wtf do i look like a flexible person to u
coffee or tea? coffee
what’s the weirdest word in the english language? my roommates and i were playing that avocado smash game a few nights ago and now the word ‘avocado’ will never sound correct ever again
dark chocolate or milk chocolate? dark chocolate
stairs or elevators? elevators (i’m lazy)
summer or winter? summer!
you are stuck on an island, you can pick one food to eat forever without getting tired of it, what would you eat? BAGELS
a dessert you don’t like? anything with a jelly or creamy/custardy filling
a skill you’re working on mastering? playing the guitar
best thing to happen to you today? my interview went really well!!!
worst thing to happen to you today? i had like three crazy stress dreams about said interview so i was exhausted all day lol
best compliment you’ve ever received? ‘your smile just lights up a room’ 🤧
favorite smell? vanilla
hugs or kisses? I WUV HUGZ
if you made a documentary, would it be about? how the portrayal of sex in modern pop culture affects our views of love and romance and intimacy in negative and unrealistic ways!!!!
last piece of content you consumed that made you cry? bitch every livestream dan bastille does makes me tear up
lipstick or lipgloss? the only correct answer is CHAPSTICK
sweet or savory? sweet
girl crush? dua lipa and it’s not a girl crush i full on fuckin LOVE HER
how do you know you’re in love? don’t ask me this
a song you can listen to on repeat? anything by bastille
if you could switch lives with someone for a day, who would it be? would love to be a cat just chillin on the ground someday
what are you most excited for about this time in your life? normally i’d say all the concerts i have coming up lmao screw you corona
6 notes
·
View notes
Note
You know you gotta elaborate on that dick pic hc right like pls don’t tease me like that 🅱️ls
Well, since you said 🅱️ls...
Nothing too graphic, so no cut, but there’s still dicks going on lol
You felt like a piece of shit.
Your best friend, a kind, amazing girl you had known since you were a child, had done a lot for you over the years. She was only concerned, you knew, and you couldn’t blame her, but she had gone through a lot of trouble for you and you couldn’t even appreciate her efforts fully.
Standing awkwardly in the corner of the crowded room, you fiddled with the hem of the skirt you wore, tugging it down self consciously. It wasn’t all that short, really, but it felt like it. A Halloween party was the last place you wanted to be right now, let alone in a cheap, plasticy outfit hilariously labeled ‘sexy psycho’. It was a poor excuse for a costume, an uncomfortably tight skirt and half sized button up in bright orange, complete with fake bloodstains and a little rubber knife. You had dropped the knife almost immediately upon entering the party, but now you held your phone in one hand and a watered down drink in the other, texting rapidly with half an eye on the screen.
You didn’t want to be here, but you did want to be a good friend, for all that was worth, and she had insisted on your attendance, paying for your ticket herself, getting you into an exclusive party and not taking no for an answer. This whole event was agreed to under the pretense of ‘spending time together’, but it quickly became apparent that your friend was more concerned with who else you were spending your time with.
“Hey, he’s cute,” she yelled over the music, poking you in the ribs to draw your attention away from your phone. “Go talk to him, he’s looking at you.”
“Who?” You ask, still firing off a message as quickly as you can while typing with only your thumb.
“The guy in the big, feathery hat thing. Look, right there.”
“Uh-huh, gimme a second.”
“Who are you texting?” She sounded a little pissed, which wasn’t unreasonable considering the price she had paid to get your unsocial ass in here. She leans over your shoulder, trying to get a look at your screen, so you quickly turn it off, tucking it down the front of your ridiculously orange top.
“No one,” you say with a strained smile. “Now what hat did you want me to see?”
She frowns at you, eyeing the place where you hid your phone suspiciously. “You’re acting weird. You said you aren’t dating anyone, I thought you’d appreciate a night out. I mean, it’s been a while.” She gives you another rough nudge and a wink and you laugh nervously in response.
There wasn’t a good way to tell someone who cared about you that you had pretty much moved a serial killer into your apartment and weren’t really on the market anymore. That kind of thing tends to create worry and questions, neither of which you need anymore of.
Your phone buzzes loudly from beneath your shirt and she watches you for a moment, daring you with a glare to respond. You fidget in place, wanting to reach for it but you can’t have her seeing what’s on the screen either. You already know what the message contains, and that would probably be just as hard to explain as anything else she’s wondering about you right now.
“Alright, I’m going to get another drink and check in to see if that shitty emo band is through yet, then you’re going to enjoy this damn party if I have to make you. Get all that texting shit out of your system while I’m gone.”
You wait until you see her disappear into the crowd before finally digging your phone out of your bra, unlocking the screen to open your messages.
Yep, just like you thought.
Fuck off or that shits going on the internet, you type, message popping up under a horribly composed dick pic. Obviously he was taking these one handed, but that was no excuse for poor quality. Two more blurry pictures pop up before you can type anything else and you roll your eyes. You regretted making the joke that had started this trend of his, knowing you brought it on yourself by introducing him to it.
It’s Halloween shouldn’t you be off murdering ppl or something
You tuck your phone away again after that, taking a few sips from your drink and trying to stop a grin from spreading over your face when it buzzed rapidly with multiple new messages. It was really hilarious how easy it was to get under his skin sometimes. There were quite a few awful costumes imitating the dreaded ‘Shape’ walking around the party, and you had been quick to snap a photo of the worst one you could find.
Found a new boyfriend lol, was all you had said, along with the snap of the person wearing the misshapen mask. It was amazingly low quality, all cheap rubber and crazy, unstyled hair that was entirely the wrong color, but apparently it was still enough to set him off.
You see no sign of your friend returning yet, so you sneak another look at your phone when you realize it’s been a few minutes since the last one. Half a dozen more pictures, each looking more and more frantic and desperate, greet you once you click on your messages, but it’s the most recent one that catches your eye.
“Oh great,” you mutter under your breath, finger hovering over the screen. “He’s figured out how to take videos.”
Glancing around you can see that you’re nice and alone in your corner, but you bite your lip nervously. You can’t say you don’t want to see the video, because you can feel your stomach clenching at the thought of it, but it’s one thing to sneak peeks at pictures and another to play a video. You wait a bit, but decide that you can’t just not watch it. Another look around confirms you’re as alone as you can be with this many people in a room, so you hurry to slide down the volume, just in case, and press play.
You were right when you guessed the previous pictures looked desperate, watching him buck hurriedly into the tight grip of his hand, cock swollen and pink. His movements quickly turn jerky and rough, and you desperately want to inch up the volume to see if you can hear any groans or hisses as cum spills over his fingers. The video is only a few seconds long, just enough to make you frustrated when it ends, and you huff to yourself. This was supposed to be annoying for him, not you.
“Woah, who’s dick is that?” You turn with a scream, drowned out by the music, nearly dropping your phone.
“No wonder you were so interested in your phone, you freak.” Her tone is teasing and friendly, almost congratulatory, a big grin on her face, but you feel your face turn hot and red under her gaze.
“You weren’t supposed to see that!”
“Well, no duh, or they’d be sending that shit to me. Feel free to pass that dude my number, though.”
You don’t think you can be any more embarrassed, but your wish is granted almost immediately when your phone dings again. You lock eyes with your friend, seeing her grin widen, and you go to put your phone away before she can ask.
“Aw, c’mon, let’s see how the movie ends,” she laughs, tugging at the sleeve of your shirt playfully. “I gotta know what happens!”
“You’re so embarrassing!” You complain, pulling away.
“No, really, I wanna see round two!”
“Oh my god! You’re shameless!”
“Hey, I ain’t the one getting hit up with homemade porn here!”
Your phone buzzes again, drawing another laugh from your friend, who seems to be genuinely delighted by how embarrassed you are.
“Go on and look, I ain’t judging you. Tell him to knock it off though, I paid good money for your ticket so you’re getting drunk tonight if nothing else!”
“I’m gonna go to the bathroom.” You murmur, slinking off with your friend giving you a knowing grin and wink as you rush towards the nearest door.
It’s not a bathroom, just the entrance to a small hallway meant for staff members, but you’ll take what you can get right now. You sit your unfinished drink on the floor, sure that your weak nerves don’t need anymore alcohol after that. Your face is uncomfortably hot and you can feel sweat running down your back as you lean against the wall, grasping your phone in one hand but not yet looking at the screen.
Okay, things were a little out of hand here, and now you had to explain away the person sending you graphic videos and dick pics to your best friend, but it was salvageable. You could fix it! Getting naughty texts from someone doesn’t mean you’re expected to introduce them to your family or anything, you can play it off as a one time thing. No one needs to know about the serial killer in your apartment.
With a few calming breaths you finally open your phone. You feel better now, realizing how insignificant the slip up was, but that comes crashing down as you see the three new photos you’ve been sent, each one a blurry and poorly lit shot of you from just moments before, taken from a distance and slowly moving closer. Well, okay, this was honestly something you should have seen coming considering the fact that he’s snuck up on you like this before, but never somewhere so crowded or public.
And what if he killed someone? It was Halloween after all, and that was his whole thing, and while you were a little less concerned for random club goers, your best friend was out there, not knowing any of this. You went back into the packed club in a rush, swinging open the door and running straight into a solid chest.
“Oh, hi.”
Michael looks down at you from behind the mask and you just know you look flustered and guilty. You glance around nervously, concerned that he might draw attention, but he isn’t very out of place at a costume party, much less one where there are multiple other ‘Michaels’ running around.
“So, uh, just so you know, the whole murdering thing is off limits right now,” you hiss, grabbing a handful of his sleeve and pulling him behind you, heading away from where you had last seen your friend. “Nothing personal, but I just can’t have that shit happening right now.”
You find a secluded spot by the actual entrance to the bathrooms, ushering him into the bit of cover provided by a merchandise stand that had yet to be filled out.
“What are you doing in here?” You whisper, far enough away from the music that it won’t cover your voice. “Those tickets are pricey, how did you get in?”
He looks down and you follow his gaze to the very real and very bloody knife in his hands. You yelp, grabbing his wrist and pulling it between the two of you to hide the weapon.
“You can’t have that in here! And no more stabbing,” you stop, and reconsider your words. “Or anything else fatal.” You amend, giving him a firm glare that you’re sure won’t stop him at all if that’s what he wants to do.
“Yo, am I interrupting you guys? Cause I kinda hope I am!”
You look around Michael with wide eyes to see your friend standing there, a big smirk on her face and a drink in each hand. You realize with a pang of horror how things must look from her view point, a big man standing over you in a dark corner, your hands hidden between your bodies-
“No, you’re not interrupting!” You nearly scream the words in your panic, wrenching the knife from Michael’s hand and dropping it carefully behind the merch table. He lets you take the weapon, turning as you do to face your friend, who’s smile widens at the sight of his ‘costume’.
“Holy shit, great get up dude, that’s the best mask I’ve seen all night!” She looks him up and down, presumably to take in the rest of his attire, but you know her well enough to realize she’s probably gearing up a flirty one liner. “So, you two know each other then?”
You’re a little thrown off, not sure what excuse you can come up with on the spot for her question, but Michael beats you to it.
“Boyfriend.” He rasps, and you’re not sure whether his voice or his answer throws you off more. You look at him in awe, mouth open in surprise. Your friend looks stunned as well, but for a different reason.
“Ohh, really,” She says, giving you a sly look. “So is he…?”
She makes a crude pumping motion with her hand and you’re absolutely sure that if it was possible to die of embarrassment that this would be the finishing blow. Michael watches her hand, and when she looks to you both for confirmation he gives her a slow nod. She cackles loudly, clapping her hands together in glee.
“Oh, why didn’t you tell me you were dating someone?! He’s hilarious, too!” She passes one of her drinks to you to free up a hand, waving it around in her excitement. “Where have you been hiding him, girl? What’s your name?”
The last one is directed at Michael, and you give him a moment to see if he’ll speak again, but apparently that was a one time deal because he remains silent. You speak up before the silence turns awkward, an evil little smile on your face.
Grabbing his wrist with your hand, you lean against his arm and answer, “His name’s Audrey.”
#Slashers#Michael Myers#Slasher x Reader#Female Reader#further proof that michael is a thot#as if we didnt all know#he has no shame lol
189 notes
·
View notes
Note
Noona, HK anon here 🥺 We had a sit in at the airport today because everyone was so pissed about the stuff the police did ytd (headshot the first aider makingher go blind, attacking protestors on the escalator, tear gased the metro station, undercover police dress like protestors to arrest ppl!) I was there for about 2.5 hours and around 4:15pm my friend called and she was crying n asked me to leave cause she’s watching live online and she saw the police were gearing up outside the airport
Some people witnessed undercover police officers getting into the crowds and they are canceling all the flights flying in and out of HK which leaves all the protestors inside the airport .... airport express and some buses stopped running also the airport currently do not have any internet service and we wouldn’t know what’s going on inside 🥺 I’m worried sick
I’m lucky I got the phone call from my friend so I left early but a lot of them aren’t willing to leave When I was on the bus watching the news, I saw the Chinese government is calling the protestors as FUCKING TERRORISTS They are the terrorist, not us!!😭 Idk if you’ve heard of transformation camps in China If you don’t pls look it up there’s a video from BBC covering this topic I’m so worried they will put HKgers in these camps in the future ...
China doesn’t have a great history with allowing subsets of the population live independently according to their culture or their tradition. It’s become clear that they feel the same way about Hong Kong. It makes me so sad for the millions of you who are seeing your independence and freedom being chipped away.
The fact that the Chinese government is willing to use “transformation camps” and other horrific measures to force acculturation and compliance... it’s terrifying.
The fact that we are seing an uptick in dictatorships and fascism and loss of individual freedoms in so many countries across the world (the USA included) makes it seem like the whole world has gone mad.
I hope that you and the protestors are victorious. You are on the side of right. But you are facing a formidable enemy and whatever decisions you make for yourself, please know that I support you.
6 notes
·
View notes
Text
winner +
street racer!wonwoo x you
let's get this revved up, shall we?
jeon wonwoo was a quiet guy in high school
he stayed focused on his studies, kept his head down and out of trouble, walked home and took the bus to school, the internet cafe and to his part time job at the cat cafe
but college was where he went kinda wild thanks to his best friends mingyu, minghao, and junhui
gyuhao were the ones who introduced him to the world of street racing as they were both up and coming racers with consistent records
junhui helped in organizing races and getting gyuhao into the more competitive circuits but his connections as a mechanic really helped connect them to the svt crew
the svt crew was started by the famous racers choi seungcheol and kwon soonyoung, who handpicked some of the best racers and mechanics to be in their crew
and bc gyuhao wanted to prove they have what it takes to be in svt, they taught wonwoo how to race and drive competitively so they could all practice and join together
and bc of wonwoo's gaming skills and his smarts, he was able to pick everything up fast
it was seungcheol and soonyoung's main mechanic jihoon who scouted them out at a race, who happened to also be in the same advanced mechanical engineering class as wonwoo at uni
but jihoon reassured them that they've had their eyes on them for awhile and wanted all of them to join
and so the four of them were warmly invited into the svt crew, meeting mechanics seokmin, jeonghan and hansol, race organizers seungkwan and joshua, and another racer named chan
they've become a small family in the garage of seungcheol, soonyoung and jihoon's house :’)
and even tho wonwoo's a part of one of the best racing crews around, he still retains the same fashion sense and humble demeanor from long ago
wears his cozy sweaters and hoodies and glasses to the races and doesn’t really care if he looks out of place bc 1) he needs his glasses to drive and 2) it's cold at night
he's usually leaning against his car under the street lamp with a book open before the races begin
and that's how you first spot him
you work the evening shifts at a restaurant with chan, who's loud and energetic and always telling crazy stories when it's slow
and he said he was a street racer and raced in the streets after work with his crew
and you honestly thought he was making up stuff bc there's no way street racing is still a thing so you call out chan's bluff and he persuades you to come with him after work to an event he's racing in
and boY were you wrong
the streets are filled with ppl showing off their cars and there's so many headlights shining and ppl everywhere and loud music blasting from speakers
chan pulls up to svt's area, opening the door for you and introducing you to a couple ppl at a time to prove he wasn't bluffing about racing, "some people here are racers, mechanics, organizers, influencers, fans—the whole nine yards"
chan has this satisfied smirk after you meet with jeonghan and seokmin, "not to say I told you so, but—"
"okay fine, I believe you, but like... " you smack chan in the arm, "isn't all of this illegal??"
chan is about to introduce you to more of svt when seungkwan calls him over about the race, "(y/n), just stay put right here—wait, let me introduce you to wonwoo, he's right here!"
wonwoo's head tilts up at the sound of his name and there's you nervously pushed next to him
"wonwoo, (y/n). (y/n), wonwoo! I'll be back!" chan runs off as you stand in awkward silence next to chan's friend who's v into his book
"uh, hi I’m (y/n), I work with chan"
"wonwoo" he nods and continues reading as you glance around at the masses of ppl and cars and lights flashing everywhere
and this guy reading this hefty novel is clearly out of place like you so you try to make conversation with him, "isn’t all the lights and the music distracting? from concentrating on reading?"
"it used to bother me a lot but I’ve gotten used to it"
"oh, that’s good" you note, peeking down to glance at the book cover but you can't read the title bc his hand's blocking it, "what book are you reading?"
"my book? oh," wonwoo proceeds to tell you the title and starts giving you a summary about it before you interrupt him
"wait, I've definitely read that before! I read it last year and fell in love with everything! the narration, the writing, the adventure of it all! oh my gosh, the ending—"
wonwoo smile gets wider and wider but then his eyes bug out, "don't tell me the ending! I'm not finished!"
you laugh at his expression and he actually puts his novel away, tucking his kitty cat bookmark into it and holding it against his chest, taking more meaningful glances at you as you watch ppl pass you by with a content smile, "so how did you get here?"
"oh, by car"
you hold back the urge to smack him as wonwoo pretends to hide behind his book, "I mean, who dragged out you here bc you clearly look like you don't want to be here"
wonwoo deduces that you think he's not a racer and he decides to play along, "uh, my friend mingyu brought me here and minghao, technically both of them and junhui too"
"who?" chan's introduced you to a lot of ppl so you're not sure who is who anymore
wonwoo straightens up and points to his best friend who is leaning against a white car of his own, "that guy, the one in the shiny jacket over there"
"who?" you lean and stretch your body to see who wonwoo is talking about but you can't see bc there's a crowd of girls surrounding his friend
you try stepping to the side to get a good look but you're accidentally shoved aside as more ppl run past you, pushing you into someone else
and of course, that someone else is of another crew, one of svt's main rivals
"hey, what's your deal?" the man lightly pushes you off him, and looks at you like he's immediately repulsed by you, "aren't you… something, who let you in here?"
wonwoo comes up behind you, "let it go, eric. she ran into you by accident"
"she your girl?" eric blatantly checks out you, "you could do better way, way better, jeon"
before wonwoo even says another word, you're V OFFENDED, "excuse me? you have no right to say anything about me or any other woman for that matter, beauty is not a competition about someone else doing or being better than another—"
"oh god," eric interrupts you and waves you off, "jeon, collect your girlfriend"
wonwoo narrows his eyes at eric, "don't talk to her like that"
eric scoffs and rolls his eyes, "go back to your deadbeat car, driving miss daisy"
"hey I'm not done talking to you, you!" you're trying to get at eric again, but wonwoo pulls you away back to where his car is in svt's zone
"(y/n), come on. he's not worth it" your temper is still cooling off and you're glaring knives into eric but wonwoo blocks your vision of him and gently places his hands on your shoulder, "don't listen to him, anyone would be lucky to have you. I just met you but you seem really intelligent and sweet and you're really pretty and eric's just being—"
"a stupid jerk who has no respect for women and is clearly an obnoxious piece of sh—"
"yes yes, he is all that" he agrees, "but you're okay though, right?"
wonwoo is still concerned from when you were first pushed aside and you're about to answer him when minghao comes up behind him, "wonwoo! the race is about to begin in ten, you ready?"
"y-you’re a racer?" your eyes are wide and you're just confused, "wait, this is your car? that you drive yourself? and race in?"
"yeah, is something wrong with that?"
"uh, you just—you don't look like you'd be a racer? no offense! I just—I mean, everyone I've met is showing off their cars and talking to ppl and you're just reading your book by your car and everyone is dressed up and stuff and you're wearing just a hoodie and your glasses—which are cute, I mean cool—" you take a deep breath before you expel anymore word vomit, "I didn't think you were a racer but you are and that's cool! don't get me wrong!"
wonwoo chuckles at your awkwardly cute ramble going at the speed of light and how you fumble with your hair as you talk
just then minghao and junhui and everyone interrupt your bubble and start prepping wonwoo and chan for the race and you almost get lost in the back of the crowd
seokmin and jeonghan pull you closer to their group and you watch chan and wonwoo drive their cars to the starting line with two other cars
as soon as the flag is dropped, everyone takes off and there's the smell of hot rubber on the asphalt and smoke in their tracks
hansol and seungkwan make conversation with you as everyone just waits for wonwoo and the others to return, with mingyu popping in every so often to study you bc hello who are you talking to his best friend earlier like
someone shouts that they can see one of the cars coming back in the distance and when everyone crowds the finish line again, mingyu holds you back from falling face first
but he also lets go of you when him and svt see that it's wonwoo's car that passes the line first and then chan's and then their rivals
you try to get close to chan and wonwoo, but everyone is crowding them, you decide to fall back near minghao and hansol, who are waiting out the victory
when you go up to wonwoo, he's leaning against his car proudly but when he spots you, wonwoo straightens up off his car
"congrats! I'm not sure what you win in a street race, but congrats on whatever that is!" wonwoo is amused by your positivity and he can't stop smiling either
"thanks (y/n), I'm happy to just do well" him and you are just standing together next to his car when minghao, junhui and chan come by and congratulate wonwoo
chan is acting like a sore loser bc he reasons "second place is losing first" but you cheer on that he did well and promise to buy him dinner when he takes you home
and wonwoo frowns on the inside bc he lowkey wanted to ask if you wanted to get food with everyone but you did have to get home soon and chan was the one who brought you to the race, so you did have to leave with him
they all start talking about the race and their cars so you stay quiet, but wonwoo is subtly making faces at you to keep you entertained
after awhile, more and more ppl are going past you guys and they all start up their cars and drive away, making you question what's going on
minghao and junhui leave to see what's happening but then joshua and hansol rush to you all, "the cops are coming! meet us back at the house"
you're lost as what to do, but chan pulls you away to the passenger seat of the closest car, which happens to of course, be wonwoo's car
wonwoo is already in the driver's seat when chan yells for him to take care of you till they all meet up at the house, apologizing for shoving you into his car
he drives off and he keeps his eyes on the road in front of him, obeying all the traffic laws while you nitpick at your jacket
he lets you pick out the music to play in his car and he hums along to the music you chose:)
when wonwoo stops at an intersection, he turns into the lot for a fast food place, prompting you to ask, "you want to stop to get food as we drive away from an illegal street race that you won?"
wonwoo meekly nods his head, "aren't you hungry tho?"
"I mean, yeah... I will never say no to food"
you both order your late night cravings in the drive thru and before you start digging into your meal, you remember you're in wonwoo's probably v expensive, suped up racing car, "wait, is it okay to eat in your car?"
"huh? yes, go ahead"
"are you sure?"
"no, I’m wonwoo" you groan at his joke and he laughs it off before he reiterates again it’s cool to eat in his car and you hesitantly start eating
as you feed yourself, you notice wonwoo's trying to sneak some fries out of his bag while he drives, so you decide to help feed him
"thanks" he's kinda blushy as you feed him french fries and his nose scrunches up adorably when he focuses on where are the fries are before guiding his mouth to them
for some odd reason (call it coincidence), but a toy is somehow in your bag of food, and it ends up being a miniature trophy!
you hold it up for wonwoo to kinda see as he drives, "look, it can be your trophy from the race!"
wonwoo and you end up talking more about music, school, books and everything you like and dislike as wonwoo drives around
he purposefully takes the long way to the house to talk to you more but mostly it’s also bc he’s lost bc he usually doesn’t take the long way
when he passes by lost cats in the streets, he immediately pulls over the car to see if they’re someone’s missing cat who they can return home or just a stray cat in need of shelter and care
there’s two kittens wandering around about when wonwoo notices them before he turns into the neighborhood
you and him take them into the car and see on their collar that they belong to a family living in the neighborhood and decide to take them home
"oh my gosh! thank you thank you thank you!" the parents of the little girl thank you two profusely for finding the kittens and their daughter is overjoyed
"what do you say to the kind couple, soojin?"
"thank you very much, miss pretty lady and mr. handsome man"
"soojin!" you both laugh and when the parents offer you money as a reward, you two kindly refuse but they give you a little bit anyways
"thank you so much, I hope you two have a good night!" as you and wonwoo walk back to his car, you definitely agree that it’s been a great night:)
when you two pull up to seungcheol, jihoon and soonyoung's house, everyone and especially chan is like "where have you two been! we thought the cops got you"
but you guilty hold up the fast food bags
"you promised me food" chan pouts, and you give up half of your fries to him as an apology for worrying him
chan decides to take you home and you say goodbye to all the guys before getting into chan's car
but before you go, you hand wonwoo the mini trophy from the fast food bag, "congrats on winning the race tonight, maybe I'll see you around?"
wonwoo grins as you walk away to chan's car, but it's after you leave does wonwoo realizes he forgot to ask you for your number
but when wonwoo checks the mini trophy toy you gave him, where he sees a napkin stuff into the bowl of the trophy
it's from the fast food place but your handwriting is on it: text me when you finish the book! I'd love to talk to you more xx (y/n)
and at the very end is your cell phone number;)
what an great night
street racer jeon wonwoo doesn’t look nor act like your typical racer and you’re perfectly okay with that bc it means you can have the soft man underneath it all to yourself
.
#Seventeen#wonwoo scenarios#jeon wonwoo scenarios#seventeen scenarios#jeon wonwoo#seventeen au#seventeen imagines#jeon wonwoo imagines#wonwoo imagines#my work#my text work#so this turned out to be fluffy what did I do#gosh I hope the ending is okay
411 notes
·
View notes
Note
can u please explain what an phanti//anti is (like moree specifically)? ive only really ever seen ppl talk about dan & phil from the perspective of they’re (prob) together or they don’t feel comfortable with speculation/don’t care either way
oh my god anon i’m so glad that things have changed so much that this is the culture now. oh my god i’m so glad you don’t know what a phanti is
i think in the most basic sense of the word, a phanti is someone who believes that dan and phil are heterosexual, and that they’re just friends, and that shippers are super disrespectful/being bad people for forcing the idea that the two of them might be together on them & in their faces. phantis tend to think we’re seeing things that aren’t there/making things up, and they’re really, really shitty in the ways they aggressively will argue with people about it. they have blinders on, essentially, when it comes to the ways dan and phil have been subtly coming out for the past few years.
and an anti is someone who’s opposed to a ship? so like ok cool, that’s a fair word to have made up, but most of the time that you see that being used on tumblr, i’d be wary. a lot of people who talk about antis in general on tumblr are complaining about being criticized for fetishizing mlm or shipping unhealthy ships, and i’m going to go into more detail about that under the cut but i’m gonna put a few trigger warnings first bc it’s some potentially triggering reasons that people get criticized and then pull out the word anti.
the overall point about the general word anti is: it means someone who’s against a ship, but usually if people are making posts about how antis suck and you shouldn’t police other’s enjoyment of fandom, be wary/check out OP’s blog before reblogging because it might be someone defending a really shitty stance.
(for under the cut: csa tw/, pedophilia tw/, incest tw/, rape tw/; i’m having a serious discussion of toxic parts of fandom under the cut so please take my trigger warnings seriously and gauge your comfort level/whether it’s healthy for you to click to the read more. i don’t want to feel responsible for causing hurt, and the discussion under the cut doesn’t have any information that’s not explained in broad strokes in the main body of my post.)
oftentimes people who use the word anti are adults who shipping an adult character with a minor & not listening when people tell them that doing so supports pedophilic attitudes & contributes to societal grooming of minors to be abused by predatory adults; this is the most common original poster of things about how antis need to stop policing others’ enjoyment of fandom, and i’ve seen a number of people who describe themselves as fandom moms who also behave in this way. typically the antis in this specific scenario are minors who are saying that the adult’s actions are making them uncomfortable, and the adult will mobilize their larger follower base against the minor who spoke up about their discomfort.
and i’m not talking like, an 18/19 year old who’s shipping two characters of a similar age to themself together when one is still like 16/17; that’s different; i’m talking like. someone who’s 20+, usually mid twenties or older, who describes themself as a fandom mom and who will not listen to criticism or people who tell them that they’ve been made uncomfortable. i’m not saying that all fandom moms are like this, i’m just saying that i’ve seen it enough times that i get wary when i see someone constantly and proudly self defining as a fandom mom.
other times the unhealthy ship will be incest, or will be focused on dub con/non con. and there’s a place for that in fandom; i know that there’s a lot of people who process traumas through writing fic about characters that they relate deeply to, and rape survivors and survivors of incest should have a space in which to do that, too. i’m not talking about that kind of fan content though; there’s people who get pissed about being criticized for eroticizing rape, incest, and dub con, and for romanticizing abusive, unhealthy relationships, and when they get pissed for the valid criticisms people are bringing up, they roll out the word anti and start getting self righteous.
fandom is a really wonderful place for the most part, but a lof of minors get exposed to extremely toxic ideas by adults and those ideas get normalized through the constant repitition. that normalization can leave a kid vulnerable to manipulation by predatory adults, or lead to the adoption of unhealthy behaviors or a kid being put into unsafe situations. this especially happens due to the way that sex is discussed in fan spaces without regard to age a lot of the time.
i really want all minors to be safe, and i think talking about this is important, because none of the adults i was following when i was a minor were discussing this even though it should be the adult’s responsibility to protect minors and make sure they’re not interacting sexually with young people, even when it’s about a fandom, not about people’s personal sex lives. this is a hill that i’m willing to die on, and although i turned out okay and didn’t end up in any bad situations, i know that i was exposed to some super toxic ideas through fandom when i was growing up and i did internalize a fair amount of shit.
so. yeah. beware people who use the word anti and if you’re an adult reading this, don’t behave sexually with minors on the internet. nobody tells us that it’s our responsibility to protect minors on the internet, but it is, and this is me telling you that if you’ve not already realized it yourself.
#den posts#den chats#ty for the ask anon sorry for getting preachy in the readmore about toxicity in fandom#anon#den replies#den thoughts#adults in fandom
39 notes
·
View notes
Note
cute nickname asks: **all of them**
angel - what’s one character trait you like about yourself?
uhhhh like physically or personality? bc there’s not anything i can think of lol.
doll - what’s your favourite outfit?
at the moment, i rlly like dark or red clothes. sometimes light colored clothes if i’m wearing something black with it and i can match another thing of the same color. i really like baggy/loungy clothing but rn when i’m feeling Particularly femme i like wearing my black skinny jeans with a pink turtleneck and black wedges, a kinda dark plum thin turtleneck sweater and black wedges, or a red turtleneck with red converse or black wedges. (can u tell i like turtlenecks). otherwise i like wearing oversized shirts i stole from my brother, the windbreaker i stole from my brother, jeans or joggers (that are my own), and converse (i like my boots but it’s too warm for them now). i also like wearing jewelry. i think i look better in gold than silver but i have a lot of silver jewelry i rlly like as well. the two things that i always wear are the gold mini hoop earrings i got when i was a babby and the silver heart ring u gave me freshman year.
pumpkin - what’s your favourite weather and why?
i like when it’s nice out bc i like going out on my deck and laying in the sun. i also like when it’s nice but not too nice bc that means there won’t be kids at the playground i like going to and i can go on the swings
baby - what makes you feel better when you’re down?
idk i don’t rlly do anything to make me feel better… i’d like to say listening to music, but all my playlists correspond to my mood, so if i’m sad i listen to one of my many sad playlists bc listening to happy music will just make me feel existential. i do have one “listen to this 2 make u happy” playlist but that’s rlly a small pick-me-up for something very minor.
sugarpie - what’s your favourite sweet treat?
i don’t have a favorite bc i don’t actually like sweets all that much. i do like those chocolate cookies with white chocolate chips. when it snows i like making that canadian maple syrup snow candy. i think the closest thing to a favorite “sweet treat” would be chocolate chip pain au lait.
kitten - are you a dog person or a cat person?
cat but i like dogs too
princess - if you could live in any other time period, which would it be?
relive the 2000s but as a teenager
peach - what’s your ideal aesthetic?
oversized black clothing (with tucking in ofc bc i always tuck everything in), chunky boots… comfy goth basically
darling - what romantic gesture makes you feel the most loved?
this isn’t rlly a romantic gesture but i feel rlly loved when i have long and not necessarily deep conversations that just go on and on. i also feel particularly loved when i’m just remembered??? idk. once freshman year i took the bus home on a wednesday and a guy i was friends with (not into or anything) was like “????? why r u here u said u have speech and debate on wednesdays” and it was something i had mentioned weeks before and i was just so surprised and touched that he remembered something miniscule like that. wow none of these are romantic gestures. i think it’s that the things that make me feel loved aren’t rlly romantic gestures.
button - do you have a type? what is it like?
i recently realized that i miiiiiight have a thing for ppl that aren’t necessarily younger than me just younger/youngest in comparison to the people they’re around. i also thought that i can’t possible have a thing for tall people because that’s just evryone, but i notice that,,,, idk,,, i find it more with people who r like tall tall and not just taller than me or average height.
sweet pea - what’s your favourite flower?
i like hibiscus flowers bc they’re a perfect biological model for parts of a flower.
petal - what’s your favourite smell or perfume?
i currently use a perfume that according to the internet “has a variety of spicy and savory notes, almond, vanilla with raspberry,” however i rlly like jasmine and i kinda wanna try ylang ylang. but i think i rlly like savory scents like spices and candles more.
sunshine - what’s the nicest compliment you’ve ever gotten?
ghfhdgfdgj i LOVE when ppl compliment my hair when it’s curly i love it so much and when they compliment my haircut i’m like “!!!!!!!!! thanks i did it myself!!!!!!!!!” nd they’re like “!!!!!!wow!!!!”
baby girl - how do you like to be held?
okay first of all the nickname for this one rlly came for me like that hhf. nd uhhh i rlly like being held tightly around my waist and hips. whether it’s spooning nd there’s an arm around my waist, or sitting together and a hand around my waist and holding my hip…… i lIKE FEELING BIG HANDS ON MY WAIST OKAY hfjgd. nd i like when i’m “lower” like i’m laying against someone’s chest…. i just like feeling small nd tiny uwu….
lover - how do you show someone you like them?
i’m a shy bitch honestly the most i do is reciprocate when u show me u like me bc i hate making the first move.
buttercup - what does/would your online dating bio say?
“call me cold bitch cuz a bitch cold” idk something that makes people go “what the fuck” and message me because “what the fuck”
boo - what’s your dream date?
idk whatever u want
cupcake - if you’re treating yourself, what do you do?
i don’t like treating myself bc i always feel guilty abt it but the one thing that never directly makes me feel guilty is facemasks
wild thing - what’s something about you that surprises people?
i say Fuck. people think i’m too small and cute for that.
bubba - tell me a funny story from your childhood.
i gave my fourth grade teacher SUCH a hard time. not bc i was a bad kid or anything, i was just…. unique… and put him in a lot of tough situations. once, a kid in my class was pointing to a dictionary in our reading corner and telling me and another kid “owo this has a bad word in it” and we were like “?????? no?? it doesn’t?” and he kept insisting it does and we kept insisting it doesn’t and he underlined with his finger and said “look: d-i-c” and we were like “dic??? dick?? dick isn’t a bad word??” and he was like “HJGFJSDFJ omg stop saying it” and we kept insisting it’s not. so i called my teacher over bc he’s an adult and he knows everything and tells him “____ is saying dictionary has a bad word in it. he says that dick is a bad word,” and i still remember the pained look in his eye when he realized he had two options: reprimand the kid in front of us and also tell us Not to say that, indirectly teaching us a bad word, or lie to us and reprimand the kid in private, also indirectly teaching us a bad word. so, he lied. at the time, i mistook the utter agony in his tone as he said “dick is not a bad word” as disappointment for the kid telling us false information, and not because i gave him one of the hardest decisions of his teaching career and he had to tell two nine year olds “dick is not a bad word.” i remember how smug and prideful i felt that i was right, that dick is not a bad word, that ____ was getting punished for lying to other students about bad words.
honey - what’s your favourite hot drink?
chai
love bug - what song would you love to have sung to you?
i either want to be held close as serendipity is sung to me or someone to spit fire at me with p.a.c.e or better yet double not bc i think i need someone to tell say “yeezy” and “like mate, stop procrastinating” within twenty seconds to me
cutie - what’s your favourite fairytale?
wow um,,,, i was never really a fairy tale kid?? my mom just kinda handed me harry potter and went “figure out the big words urself.” the closest thing to fairytale that i like is how i go BUCKWILD whenever i encounter biblical allusions, especially to genesis. like if there’s imagery of apples AND snakes??? FUCK yea that’s tasty
dumpling - what’s your favourite movie right now?
i’ve never been able to choose a favorite. my top have always been 3 idiots, lion, english vinglish, the martian, and bird box
my love - what would your dream home be like?
idk,,,,, whatever u want as long as there’s plenty of natural light and plants. oh and i also want 2 grow local plants to reduce habitat fragmentation and in the space that isn’t used for that a functional kitchen garden.
dear - pick whatever question you’d most like to answer!
well i already answered ALL of them soo (i hate u)
2 notes
·
View notes
Text
One more P5 post
I wanna know how much time the creators spent arguing with people on twitter, considering the comments on the Phan-Site polls. Will put behind a cut.
I mean, they hit all sides from auto-believers, internet trolls, people who are like ITS STILL ILLEGAL!!! and THIS IS THE POLICE JOB pics or it didn't happen, whatever. But my favorites are "IF UR SO JUST, SHOW UR FACE", "I bet they're crying LOL", "Shibuya's fucked", "Hang in there you guys ;w;", "WHAT A TIME TO BE ALIVE", "world-famous fail looool", "kill this stupid website" or whatever else. Or the timeless “so wait, who do we hate?”
QUESTION: Do you believe in the Phantom Thieves?
This poll is adopted on 4/15.
0-10%
"'of hearts?' What tryhards"
"I've been waiting for this!"
"Isn't it just a prank?"
"Never even heard of them"
"Who made this site? Ridic"
"even kids aren't that dumb"
"gtfo with that shit LOL"
"is this a cult?"
"my friend says they're real!"
"sauce plz"
"viral marketing...?"
10-20%
"It's just a coincidence..."
"Petty criminals? Pointless"
"This is getting good!"
"Too elaborate for a prank"
"Vigilante justice is wrong."
"What about the pupils?"
"What's gonna happen now?"
"What's he gonna be hit w/?"
"i just can't"
"pics or it didn't happen"
"ppl really believe this? lmao"
"ppl who buy this... -_-"
"they can't catch EVERYONE"
"they're just making threats"
"thieves are the bad ones"
"was it rly a phantom thief?"
"what a joke"
QUESTION: Are the Phantom Thieves just?
This poll is adopted on 6/11.
10-20%
"Akechi-kun is right!"
"Isn't it a crime?"
"It's called the law..."
"NO! justice ain't that simple"
"NO. They piss me off."
"Steal dem corrupt hearts!"
"They seem full of it, so NO"
"They're still thieves..."
"They've always been fishy..."
"This is the police's job."
"better be arrested soon"
"don't even bother with this"
"get off your high horse"
"hmm seems interesting"
"i hate Akechi, so YES???"
"if ur so just, show ur face"
"they're allies of justice."
"they're up to something"
"this has to be fake, lol"
"this is so immature."
20-30%
"Isn't it a crime?"
"Probably at least somewhat"
"They seem full of it, so NO"
"They're cool, so HECKYEAH!"
"They're still thieves..."
"get off your high horse"
"i dont buy into that stuff."
"of course not. done"
"that "justice" stuff is ehh"
"this is so immature."
30-40%
"both are crossing the line"
"fukkin hypocrites"
"get rekt, scumbags lmao"
"Hang in there you guys! ;w;"
"I bet they're crying LOL"
"Neither are just"
"Shibuya's fucked"
"they're both shit."
"What cheapass justice, lol"
60-70%
"AGAIN, YAAAAAAS!"
"Such annoying marketing"
"Their word is final."
"better than the cops"
"i bet it's worldwide news"
"justice was w/ the thieves."
"what a time to be alive"
80-90%
"Calling card! YAAAAAAS!"
"Exterminate his family too!"
"Here comes the apology rofl"
"I've been waiting for this"
"Leave everything to them~"
"Make him beg!"
"No apology yet? :["
"Ooh, a calling card! kekeke"
"SO MANY COMMENTS OMG"
"Take him out. It's an order"
"The world needs to see this!"
"They better not screw it up"
"Yeah, get that greedy CEO!"
"an apology isn't enough."
"become prime minister plz!!"
"dat okumura stock drop lol"
"destroy all evil!"
"let's hear from the workers!"
"no more big bang burg, lmao"
"stop fucking around"
"we're with you, p.thieves!"
"❤❤❤ Phantom Thieves ❤❤❤"
On 10/12, the support rate drops from the 90s to the 70s due to the death of Kunikazu Okumura.
70-80%
"Is he really dead...?"
"Now, who's next? ;)"
"Well that was disturbing..."
"die capitalist pigs!!!"
"whoa wtf"
On 10/13, the support rate drops a bit again to the 60s.
60-70%
"Awww, what a waste"
"Evil has perished."
"Gotta break a few eggs"
"So, whodunnit?"
"Were we deceived?"
"do we know how they do it?"
"eh, good riddance"
"killing ppl's a no-no"
"omg, the comments hahaha"
"omg, they went overboard lol"
"they got carried away..."
"what about his daughter?"
Over the next week, the support rates drops to the 50s, 30s, and then 20s.
""justice" sounds hollow now"
"—DELETED BY ADMIN—"
"Are the calling cards fake?"
"Blame the politicians too."
"Bloodthirsty killers!!!"
"Enough is enough!!!"
"Even Akechi's lost it"
"False charges happen, but..."
"Hurry and arrest them"
"Hurry up and execute them!"
"I dare to support them."
"I kiiinda sympathize..."
"I reported this website."
"I told you so..."
"I'm scared to go outside..."
"Is the admin an accomplice?"
"No hate-slinging, please!" (a message from the admin, Mishima)
"Officer, look!"
"Oh how far they've fallen"
"Pls don't kill me ;_;"
"Police were negligent too."
"Shut this site down!!!"
"That was traumatizing..."
"They must be punished."
"They need to be executed"
"They were screwing with us."
"They're assassins."
"Ugh. We were fooled."
"We can't leave them be"
"What about the politicians?"
"awful, they betrayed us"
"bring on the breakdowns~!"
"cant say w/o evidence"
"cmon, just kill everyone!"
"didnt expect much anyway"
"got anything better to do?"
"he had it coming, amirite?"
"id bet money on the rest"
"its just coincidence, yep"
"just turn yourselves in pls"
"lel, regret backin em yet?"
"lol dont be fooled so easy"
"lol, ppl still like them?"
"low expectations, ho!"
"media's garbage as expected"
"overhyped imo"
"p quick to switch sides lol"
"support went to shit lmao"
"tbh i just wanna troll, lol"
"their fans are guilty too"
"they even steal LIVES???"
"they're just suspects..."
"throw em in the slammer!"
"trash talking feels risky..."
"typical bandwagon, gg"
"uhh, yea they're evil"
"waste of tax money imo"
"wat do they want, anyway?"
"world-famous fail loool"
QUESTION: Are the Phantom Thieves innocent?
This poll is adopted on 10/29.
Around 20%
"—DELETED BY ADMIN—"
"30 million yen OMG XD"
"Akechi-kun, save us!"
"Enough is enough!!!"
"False charges happen, but..."
"Is the admin an accomplice?"
"Oh how far they've fallen"
"Record-breaking evil"
"They gotta be arrested now"
"can't know w/o a trial"
"id bet money on the arrest"
"if ur innocent, show yourself"
"lol this place went to shit"
"ppl still stand by them?"
"that freaked me out omg"
"they're def guilty"
"they're freaking out hahaha"
"they're running loose rn..."
"this site pisses me off"
"waste of tax money imo"
"what if they are LOL"
"who cares either way?"
After the protagonist fakes his death, and approval drops to 0.3%.
"Akechi got the last laugh!"
"AKECHI IS BAE!!!"
"A worthy end for a villain"
"c'mon, leak his name!"
"Evil is destined to perish."
"he went down easy"
"hope things are safer now"
"Justice with Akechi!"
"Just like Akechi-kun said!"
"kid had it coming, lol"
"So did he do it or not!?"
"so he HAS to be guilty"
"The truth's lost to the void"
"We'll finally have peace"
"we do need a new authority..."
QUESTION: Do you support the Phantom Thieves?
This poll is adopted on 12/7.
Around 0.8%
"a lil too late tho"
"dat comeback looool"
"I'd never support them"
"I'm getting confused..."
"I can't believe anybody..."
"i don't really care"
"Is Shido gonna apologize?"
"It's happening again..."
"just typical slander imo"
"lol no way i'd support them"
"may just be election shit"
"moar like phantom GRIEF"
"Must be tough for Shido-san"
"My scandal sense's tingling!"
"no one wants you thieves"
"phantom thieves WIN PLX!!!"
"political attack, REALLY???"
"ppl still defend them? lmao"
"Shido, just take the win"
"Shouldn't Shido explain?"
"Show yourself, Akechi!"
"smear campaigns are gross"
"So he didn't die..."
"srsly, a tv hijack?"
"Stay strong, Shido-san!"
"stop makin such a big deal"
"talk about election drama"
"they're still criminals"
"they can't take a hint"
"this country is effed up"
"this is a murder warning..."
"This isn't debunked yet?"
"this site's still up? :o"
"TV hijacking is terrorism!"
"was it the others? :o"
"was that statement a lie?"
"what about the election?"
"what a comeback..."
"Why isn't this on the news?"
"wow, ppl are desperate..."
QUESTION: Do the Phantom Thieves really exist?
This poll is adopted on 12/19.
Around 19%
"And then, there were none"
"can't someone just fix it?"
"cmon thieves, say something"
"Enjoy prison, Mr. Shido~"
"even shido... FAIL"
"everyone, just disappear"
"Everyone was shameless"
"—GAME OVER—"
"go ahead & celebrate, idiots"
"I feel like an empty husk"
"im just like... so what"
"In the end, who's to blame?"
"i shoulda known better..."
"ive lost my will to live..."
"just destroy this country"
"kill this stupid website"
"my support was a waste"
"Next person please!"
"nobody asked for this"
"no thanks to those thieves"
"nothing changed. boringggg"
"Someone do something!"
"soooo is shido alive?"
"so wait, who do we hate?"
"so what WERE they??"
"The election was a farce."
"the future's screwed LOL"
"they're harshin my mellow"
"They better settle things"
"thinking hurts my brain"
"this country's done for"
"This is a stain on history"
"this is fucked up..."
"this is going nowhere"
"useless scum"
"we need answers"
"What's with this question?"
"who cares abt the election?"
"why'd we even bother"
"why this. even now???"
Then the dramatic final cut where everybody believes in them and it’s like # OF FANS ---> FAN POWER LEVELS ---> FIGHT Q( ‘-’Q )
4 notes
·
View notes
Last Seen Blogs
aaaaaaaaaaal
آل
anony-mossdraws
An Art Blog
masamune3
MASAMUNE
teanoff
Эмо-террорист
prettyprivebaek
K-Pop Reacts