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day-dream-clouds · 2 years

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Lol did another incorrect quote also revealing my henry design here lol

BTW I made this at like 3 am so sorry that it looks the way it does lol

Taglist: *let me know if you wanna be on it/taken off it!

@kal-selfships @proship-flower @selfshipdorito @aeshiteirus-self-shipping @proship-blissbliss

#i didn't realize till now that i forgot a detail lol #proves that i need to go to bed #selfship #selfshipping #plant dad (henry💚)#parental fo #incorrect selfship quotes #selfship quotes #selfship community #proselfship #selfproship

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sarioh · 2 years

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GOD ok so. in last life, the rules state that while you are boogeyman or red life, all prior alliances must be severed. which means that, by the Actual Rules of the game, etho and bdubs technically spent more sessions as "enemies" than they did as true allies: session 1 when bdubs was boogeyman, session 5 when etho was boogeyman and bdubs was red, session 6 when they were both boogeyman, and session 7 when bdubs went red. it genuinely feels like the game itself was taking every opportunity imaginable to force them to betray each other by inflicting them w the boogeyman curse far more than any other duo and they instead used every one of those instances to intentionally defy the rules of the game and further prove their loyalty instead. it still makes me insane to this day

#THEY WERE ONLY ALLIES FOR 3 SESSIONS TOTAL LMAO #and u dont even realize it bc of how they are #sorry i am having an ethubs relapse rn #i know i know everyone is not a fan of the rules of last life being so constricting for alliances #but if the rules werent there these actions would not have been half as meaningful i think #i think the rules existing made loyalty even more rewarding bc u had to jump over so many other obstacles to prove it #sorry 4 ll!ethubs posting A YEAR LATER but sometimes i just get insane thinking abt it #ok going to bed now. just realized the enemies thing and needed 2 get it out lest it keep me up all night #ethubs #rio posts

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soldier-poet-king · 9 months

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pf session tonight joy and laughing for the first time in eons vs stress bc I have to drive to work for the next 3 weeks and haven't really done that since I once again failed the advanced permanent test in June and have sorta just sworn off this whole thing out of anxiety and self loathing vs bg3 release week is upon us and I have a long weekend to play it vs I have been SO desperately sad and empty lately ????

#franposting #it is too much I'm going to bed #but that also means tmrw gets here sooner #and work is just. been bad lately. and now we're adding extra stress via my commute #like driving doesnt even shave THAT much time off bc the 401 is so bad #and the ttc sucks but at least i can zone out and not fear for my life #i would legit rather drive downtown than on the 401 #fuck highway driving #i need to move to an apt on the subway line so i can have a reasonable commute and also not have to drive #my intermediate license expires in a year and the absolute terror of having to try the highway test again #this is a stupid system and i want to kms over it! i am a safe good regular driver #the city highways are actively hostile to human life and i dont want to use them why do i have to prove my skills on them #i need to stop im gonna work myself into a frenzy again #LITERALLY WHY IS ONTARIO LIKE THIS AND NOWHERE ELSE #stupid multi tiered driving system

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transinniter · 2 months

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i envy everyone posting about their other interests on the dash honestly. i have none lmao. im still gonna be posting about dsmp because i don't think theres any way i could not. i wish i was more level headed to talk about this & say the right thing but i don't really have any other outlet to calm myself down than the one that's now all fucked

#i think ill try to read fics to go to bed #theres some amount of denial thats necessary to like. go about my life #<- but to be clear by denial i mean. pretending like its not happening. never ever denying the situation. my position's final #<- unless well theres some kind of miracle that proves we were all wrong but thats not happening despite how much i wish so.#and sorry i feel like i keep repeating myself but. the important thing here is to send support to shubble #this blog is an outlet because i need to talk about it and i cant do so irl and idk what ill do if i bottle it up #but please please don't think that i dont understand that shubble is the victim in this situation and no one else

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theres-whump-in-that-nebula · 10 months

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Oh my god. You know it’s getting bad when you start doing things you don’t even want to do to procrastinate on something you really do want to do.

It would be one thing if it were something like a hobby; but the thing I want to do is also extremely necessary to my life.

#Hhhhhhngh #for three weeks I’ve been doing this #I’ve had all the time in the world #and I have a sneaking suspicion that I’m doing this out of a subconscious desire to prove to myself that I’m actually fucked up in the head #Which is already proof enough that I have that desire in the first place; but I keep going because it’s not enough #I only ever feel like I need care when I’m at my absolute worst #And suddenly after being so exhausted that I fell asleep at 7:00 some days; I’m staying up until 2:30 AM and waking up at 8:00???#and I feel fine and perfectly awake; but still can’t manage to get myself out of bed until 10:00 because Comfy #I sit and I read for an hour; then I go on my phone and emerge at 5:00 PM #If I go in the bathroom it takes forever to get back out because I end up talking to myself in the mirror about god knows what #I feel like I need some kind of… idk… very strong stimulant in me so I can actually care about things #not that stimulants work like that; but I need to have some kind of catastrophic life event… to get beaten up or something #something to put pure fear and concern in my veins #It is summer and there is almost no chance of me getting kicked or catching a football in the wrong place #and I don’t have to run right now either #I could do something #I know how #But even that is a damned if you do damned if you don’t situation; because that ALSO makes me not want to do things #At least then I’d have a palpable (literally) excuse but uh…. I’m still kind of getting over the last time #I am on my phone all day and I recognize that’s bad; but the thing I need to do is to send an email… which is on my phone; so there’s that #hypocritical #idk there’s something about using limited supplies to deal with a problem that needs more and hoping for the best #it excites me #Makes me feel like a big boy who can handle serious situations #But if I create the problem then it means nothing except that I cannot handle problems at all #I should not have all the responsibilities I do because I am not entirely in my right mind #I am thinking about it though #It’s tempting #get behind me satan

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rainbun · 2 months

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My creative process in a nutshell

#it's funny because the comic progressively getting messier happened fully organically #as I got bored of this drawing I stopped trying to make it look neat #which ended up kinda proving my point tbh #art #my art #art struggles #relatable #or at least I think it's relatable? idk #ah well #the gremlin that lives in my brain is running in circles screaming #and painting on the walls of my brain instead of the nice canvas I laid out for it #ignore me I need to go to bed before I start writing bad poetry #(or whatever you would call this)#If you're still reading this for whatever reason I would like to say #May your idea factory operate at a reasonable pace and may you actually finish all your WIPs😌

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party-lemon · 5 months

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not to be heterosexual, but nick miller is so hot dude

#he makes so much eye contact #and have you seen the way he kisses jessica damn day. holy shit man #the “i meant something like that” !!!#the “then prove it” !!!!!!!!!#jfccccc #I'm alright guys i promise #new girl #nick miller #is this a shitpost?#i need to go to bed i think

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ididgettomeetyou · 1 year

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aang is childish nah bro you just don't understand how having adhd works aang clearly has ADHD even if its not even intentional..

#as someone with adhd i see aang and go you have ADHD #and some day i will share gifs to prove it #people with adhd prob do appear as childish man e hav trouble paying attention and ar easily bored we cant help it #aang #atla #the A in Aang stands for the A in adhd (:#eyes nonsence in tags #this is why i need to go to bed earlier...

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aleroin · 8 months

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"I'm tired, I'm not gonna stay up" has turned into "there is no time, there is only Merrill"

#OOC / HOLLY.#I'm putting myself to bed I DO need to sleep #listen tho — Merrill having a bit of an accidental superiority complex around being Dalish is something that is so rarely addressed #but so good to explore and have challenged #she doesn't even realize it's there #which does allow it to get ugly in her worst moments #i.e. if you're on a rivalry path with her and do Feynriel's quest in Act II she has some nasty things to say #I don't think that's who she is at heart but we see this ingrained kind of 'Dalish ways are the true ways' attitude in other places #it's the sort of thing that if left unchallenged will fester #going back to Feynriel — she doesn't talk that way if she's on a friendship path and is in a better place mentally + emotionally #she also doesn't talk that way in Act I where she's bout ready to throw hands with Vincento #so it's a matter of like 'here's a thing I was raised with and have never known differently.'#'if I go down a bad path and don't challenge it it will fester and eat me from the inside'#she does think of all elves as her people / part of the People but she was definitely raised to believe that #their way is the only way to be a True Elf and that the People have lost their way #that the only way they'll get the Creators to hear their prayers again is if they prove they haven't forgotten everything #and are 'true elves' whatever that means #which also something she has to challenge. like what does that even mean what does it look like etc #I'm veering off topic tho #everything circles back to the eluvian and how there is a I suppose religious motivation to her conviction #GOOD NIGHT see y'all tomorrow

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rottengurlz · 10 months

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I finished my book

#many many thoughts….#I’m not sure if delilah ever loved Lauren I think she wanted to love her to prove to herself she could be lovef #loved #but Lauren loved delilah so much she built her entire being around her #and she started shaping deliah into who Lauren wanted her to be and delilah went along because no one else had ever accepted her before #but to Lauren this was love even if she was hurting Delilah relentlessly because she was convinced she was saving her #alsjdjwldkdlfkf I need like a week for my mind to recover #what crushed me was Lauren telling Delilah that she would always be there to catch her when she fell but when Delilah needed the most #no one was there to save her and she just kept repeating ‘Lauren will save me’ 😭#AND THE ENDING #Lauren realized she is hurting Delilah but can’t bare to leave her but at the same time she wants to kill her #she knows Delilah is going to leave her and is better off without her #Lauren’s entire life is built around Delilah so the only option she sees that she has left is to end her life #she literally dies embracing Delilah and that’s how Delilah wakes up and finds her #Delilah cried over her she was thankful it was all over #but also because she mourned the love Lauren had for her because Lauren loved her so much it destroyed her #the ending is surprisingly uplifting because Delilah realizes her self worth #and that life is precious and beautiful because SHE made it that way #I know Lauren is the villian of the story but I truly loved both characters #I have more thoughts but I’m so sleepy I’m going to bed so I can shut up!!

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oldtestleper · 5 months

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all that shit would have never happened if they had followed OSHA guidelines

#but seriously. i know it was meant to but it made me cringe to see them j walking around under the giant swinging yacht anchor.... smh #that's a pinch point!! or something like that l o l #ig thats what you get for trying to prove anything. you can't try to show evil artifacts who's boss! like your brother is out...#lock it in a basement or preferably a steel cage with that same rig walk out & throw away the key. but at least put some guardrails up damn #it is kind of a good(?) question like how do you destroy something that can read your mind and control your body and make you feel or see #anything it wants. guess it's not to be done. kind of a drag plotwise i think. idk.#no actually here's how you really break it. you pack it super super super tightly in a thin-walled shallow box and ship it fedex overnight.#probably the hairline crack was from mishandling in transit. anyway. i have to go to bed but i will probably still be thinking about this.#how would i destroy an evil mirror that can invade my mind and wants me dead. you never know when you might need that kind of information.#.txt #oculus

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gingerteaonthetardis · 9 months

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love the little tic with his hair though. it's so annoying thank you david duchovny <3

#he's really giving us Anxious To Prove Himself it's good work a+ nice acting #i need to go to bed and stop thinking about the wedding ring. possibly forever #abbey.txt

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gatun-gatunesco · 1 year

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#the results finally came: i have hepatitis. Is not longer just simple sickness and liver malfunction. Now i have chronic illness #and i am back into my place. after being far away for some weeks feeling like a victim of the narrative #how foolish and stupid i was #i tried not to think about it. to not give it importance as she said it was not that serious #but now that i am alone in here again i realize that everything it was my fault #“is our mistake” i can hear her say. but it is my fault: i was the sober one. the one in control. the one that did not let her go #“she was teasing you. was somerhing she wanted” some people reply. but that is no excuse for my behaviour #i was supposed to protect her. to let her be free with herself. and in the end i only gave her pain and regret. i destroyed my last chance #perhaps being denied to fix what i did. to prove myself better. is my punishment and i should accept it #not able to know about her life. if she is okay. if her heart is recovering. if her mind is not killing her. is part of the punishment too #sure. the guilt is destroying me. but i deserve it. in fact. i deserve all the problems i am having. i deserve to be out of her life #my chairs are screaming. my bed is punching. the blankets are a burden. the walls compress me. the juice is sour.#i can no longer make that dish. not that snack. and just thinking about the strawberrys dessert makes me nauseous and want to puke #i am totally sure that event damaged her more than she wanted to admit. if is this devastating to me. should be x10 worse for her.#but i will never know and that is part of the suffering i deserve #i hope she manage to heal. to forget about me. to find someone better that can truly help her #i hope she never wanted to came back. it will only bring her pain. see me will only make her remember the trauma #i am not free of sin. i betrayed myself that day. i betrayer her too. i do not deserve forgiveness from both #the walls are not the culprit. yet my anger keep me punching them. i could damage myself but my liver is already doing that #perhaps this illness will set me free. but until that happens. i still need to try going forward.#mostly becasue is not fair i just give up and end my suffering that easy. i must face my punishment #yet i hope she is not being tormented by my mistake. i doubt it. but she deserve better #hopefully she will never read this and therefore never try to contact me to debate the mistake if she still think was her fault #hopefully she will heal and grow. happy and independent. free with lots of friends. loving herself and someone special for her #i tried to be a saviour but at the end i only destroyed who i wanted to save. along myself in the process #better to stay alone that to hurt someone and myself again #i wish life to let me be in the void where i belong. feeling desires is gross and awful. better to not feel anything like i was before #tried to distract myself with funny stuff and healing posts. heck even some sad and broken stuff to feel understood #but nothing of that was really helpful as i was only neglecting the reality and severity of my actions. i must leave #so goodbye. i should come back when the illness and the guilt stop killing me (if it does not succeed)

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hotboxd · 1 year

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i miss feeling happy

well these asks just did a 360 but yeah as do i

#j.d answers #keiko tag #the only thing that's making me get out of bed at this point is the fact that i need to prove to myself that i'm actually smart #november break please just. start now please #i don't wanna go to school tomorrow #i don't wanna leave my bed ever

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gatorinator · 2 years

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What

#this is the only thing I have going for me rn why would you take the one thing proving my life hasn’t completely fallen apart away from me #if I don’t make my bed in the morning i will die #something in my bedroom needs to look clean

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dragons-and-yellow-roses · 2 years

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My parents told me like FIVE DAYS AGO that they're going to come visit my apartment tomorrow. I haven't even fully unpacked even though I moved here three months ago, so I was like "Perfect! Five days is enough time to get the place straightened up, especially now that I have some good motivation!!"

But my brain doesn't work properly, so I kept thinking "Parents are visiting on Sunday. Parents are visiting on Sunday," but I wasn't registering that Sunday is an actual concrete date that's coming up. So my apartment is still a mess because the passage of time escapes me, and I have to fix it all tonight.

#and of course im sick tonight #i went home early from work because im sick to my tummy #and now i have to get the apartment in good order before i go to work tomorrow #i just want to rub it in my mom's face a little that im thriving without her #idk if that makes sense #i moved away from home at 18 and never looked back and i feel like she definitely thought i would fail and come crawling back to them #they never visited me at my old apartment despite me living there for a year and a half #but now theyre coming to the first place ive ever lived alone (last place i had a roommate)#and i want to prove that im doing well #i got a bit of cleaning and unpacking done so its better than before #but i still have so much to do #my bathroom is dyed blue because dyeing my hair is messy and i didnt clean it up when it happened so now i have to clean the entire bthroom #i need to clean out my fridge and do the dishes and take out the garbage #it seems that cleaning up one mess always creates another mess #btw im laying in bed writing this instead of cleaning #ooh its thundering and lightninging outside rn #my brain is happy now #btw at the last place i lived i never really felt at home because i moved in with someone #so none of my stuff was every in the shared spaces it was all just crammed into my bedroom except for the dining table and chairs #because he didnt have a table and chairs when i moved in??#now i have a bedroom kitchen bathroom entryway and living room and im still havinf trouble fitting everything #this is bullshit #god i want to go back to sleep but i cant let anyone see my apsrtment like this #i dont want to see my apartment like this #wish me luck. send psychic vibes to force me to clean my apartment

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