love being here cause i can be free and happy of shit and be oblivious and watch funny people do march ideas and cat photos and cool people showing me characters i have no interest it. its great i love it! its such a great place to relax and im so thankful to this place for teaching me "hey. chill. enjoy yourself. dont let other people force you into things you dont want to do and convince you youre evil for not doing it. maybe shit stucks, but fuck it we ball, and we're all together for this shit in the end"

journalists underestimate the magnitude of my addiction and how far i'll go for the bit

charlie kelly - season 16

of course the night i need to get to bed at a reasonable hour bc i have a early rise is ruined by my own brain working me up into a complete meltdown 😵‍💫 i am a prisoner to myselfffff

insane brain telling me to turn one of my oldest wip fics into an ask blog instead vs i dont wanna draw

lil more effort for day 13 bc im in a drawing mood (for now.)

came back to tumblr just to find that @worldsnotsaid is gone? girl whyyy☹️

Hi anon!

It was kind of abrupt, and I do apologize for that -- truly. It's why I am tackling this ask! But, it was very freeing to delete that blog, and it felt as if a weight had truly been lifted from my chest to see it go. Bittersweet, yes! But absolutely needed. Constantly seeing asks box jump from 300 to 400+, the constant hate messages, the inboxes -- it was all too much for me to tackle, and honestly, it felt as if my blog was just no longer productive at that point.

I am always 100% behind the points made on that blog, and the problems in SJM's writing. My passion for those points will never fade or change for that matter. But I think the book community and publishing are just not ready for an actual change -- and it's tough to have the conversation about racial and abusive themes in books when people pick and choose when to chastise and ignore. It's literally like having a conversation with a wall. I can't honestly have a conversation about tackling racism in the book industry when people can't even let go of a book series that isn't even well written. We aren't being militant about the problems in the book industry, and its exactly why it looks the way it does. I don't know, I think I've grown apathetic to it. The urge for docility among reviewers disguised as 'allyship,' the flip-flop about abuse and abusive themes in books. None of it makes sense. And it's like the legwork to make it happen just doesn't seem worth having someone constantly throw vitriol in your face. It just seemed like it becomes a tit-for-tat straw-man debate in the end, and that -- again -- isn't productive. 'Tamlin stans this' and 'Nesta stans that, and it was like ?? Can we just think outside of that? We can't complain about the way PoC are always treated in the story and then turn around and defend an author who would 100% kill them off and let her white character wear their trauma like a second skin. Like how serious are these conversations when the ones having them are unwilling to stop supporting the author propagating these harmful tropes to other authors. FBAA ran because ACOTAR walked; ACOTAR ran because Twilight walked. These harmful stereotypes in these books melded and made the environment we have today. And it is what is.

As another blog asked, I will not be returning to that blog as it was deleted. But there are so many beautiful and articulate antis in the tag that adeptly explain the problems in this series and in much clearer and more concise ways! My blog was a rambling mess anyways!

Funny addition: And do you know the sheer frustration of typing up an entire post that's 2000+ with links and citations talking seriously about abuse and racism and how its portrayed in the media just for someone to skim the post and make a follow-up, sub-post that starts with: 'Tamlin stans always think.' -- yeah never again.

love going on the “hi yeah I haven’t even looked at my inbox/messages for months sorry sorry sorry it’s nothing personal my life’s just been in shambles and I’m starting to pick it back up even though I know I’m gonna drop all the pieces at least 3 more times before the year’s over” shame tour I’mma make t-shirts later for it

had a convo w my friend abt weed and addictions bc they r sober from alcohol (and yes they’re both diff) but they convinced me to delete / block my dealers numbers and tell my other friends

So I just sent voice messages asking them not to smoke around me bc im tryna detox

Ya know, last time I talked about the rise of puritanical ideas in fandom spaces I was upset. This time I just wanna point out something I find funny.

A lot of the media the puriteens consume and get so protective about, especially when we talk about cartoons, are made by people at least a little depraved at heart. The people drawing their cartoons draw some WILD shit on their free time. These teens would be pretty upset, I've met plenty of people in animation, it's wild.

Even beyond that, my favorite e recent lost media story is how we finally got a copy of the fabled book of adult humor drawings of sponge Bob characters done by the sponge Bob crew way back when. It's just a scan of a photocopy and just a few pages, but they even got signatures. Animators and story boarders would close the door to their offices when kids came to visit the studio.

Conclusion: it's pretty common for people with the creative drive to at some point want to be creative in adult oriented ways.

bf links!

all from anime.chap on audiobookbay. you need an account, but it's just username/password/email. i only torrent, so i have no idea abt the veracity of the direct downloads. scroll waaaay down past the file names & you'll see the lil row in the table that says "torrent downloads: torrent free downloads | magnet". i'd also obv recommend picking & choosing what files you want unless you've got a big ass harddrive lol

bf dw complete to 2021

bf dw 2022

anime.chap's page for current individual/monthly releases

as always remember to seed! 🌱

GOD THIS IS GOING TO BE MY 100TH FIC ON AO3

accidentally creating more art for a friend's concept vs creating a new concept in and of itself

Going to create my own model for my cc. Cleo is stunning but I feel wrong using her. 💕

i actually finally started tagging my uploads but ive only made it to the beginning of february of this year because it takes forever but you can find them here:

#gm - good morning/day of the week images

#jpg - all other low res images in that vein

if i move blogs do Not be surprised guys!!!!!! 😂😂