who is your fav f/o? i want to give you a doodle!!!!

OHHHH HI HI HELLO. YOU DO NOT HAVE TO DRAW ME ANYTHING I PROMISE <3 although i will in fact be using this ask to gush so prepare yourself.

SO. THIS IS KIND OF A LOADED QUESTION FOR ME i have had a less than stellar experience with both fandom and self shipping so im still very very very shy and afraid 2 talk about my f/os too much so please be niceys thank u <3 putting this under a cut just in case it gets really long LMAO

so. i have multiple f/os that i consider my mains, but my longest term one is actually antisepticeye !!!! i cannot help it i was so deep in youtuber fandom in 2016 and my brain latched onto him like a baby duckling and now he lives here forever . however i do not associate myself with that fandom at all anymore so he has basically become like an oc to me LMAO. i had a reallt specific fanon version of him that i used to draw all the time and a backstory that i had basically written out entirely and then when my bad fandom stuff happened i decided "nvm you guys cant have him anymore hes mine now" i have been shipping with him sinceeee i believe late 2016/early 2017 ?? yea!!! hes my fucked up little guy forever i love him so much. hardcore comfort character do not mind the fact that he is covered in blood ans has probably murdered people. hes silly <3 my tag for him on this blog is the knife emoji (🔪) and i dont really have an s/i i just ship him with. Myself.

HOWEVER I AM SELF AWARE and i understand that youtuber characters are on a lot of peoples dnis and theyre not everyone's cup of tea exactly. so i will give you options here :] my OTHER mains are !!!! sun and moon from fnaf (☀️ and 🌙 respectively) who i started shipping with early last year !

AND SPEAKING OF SELF AWARE some of my other beloveds are gordon and benrey from hlvrai (☢️ and 🎮) WHO I HAVE CREATED A SELF INSERT FOR AND THEY ARE ONE OF MY FAVORITE OCS EVER. oh my god. their name is mickey and i have managed to fit them so very seamlessly into hlvrai's story im so proud of how well they fit into canon and ive given them the chef kiss perfect amount of angst and silliness !!! a lot of my lore for them was on my old blog which got deleted in late 2021 and i havent been on a huge hlvrai kick since then so they dont have a whole lot of content on the current iteration of mac softspooks dot com but their tag is "🧟 mickey" i believe. (ill add all the character tags to this ask in case u wanna look at them :])

OH YEAH ALSO. BECAUSE IVE BEEN SHIPPING WITH ANTI FOR SO LONG i have naturally made. so many aus for him. i have like 20 different aus for my ship w him (as i said. basically an oc. mine now) my favorite of which is called hunting haunting which is a buzzfeed unsolved inspired au where we hunt ghosts together but with a dramatic twist ofc because im weak for human/monster love stories. so u will see me talk about hunting haunting a lot here thats what it is hehe

I just read the “you won’t regret marrying me” for wriothesley and let me tell that this man is definitely going to cry on the wedding day

related 'you won't regret marrying me' fanfic here ! OH OH OH OHHH HE SO TOTALLY WOULD ?!??!? Like;;;; anon. when i tell u i got a vision when i received ur ask and i had to type it IMMEDIATELY thank u for sharing your thoughts im a mess now LMAO

Reblogs are greatly appreciated !!

GUYS I LOVE THIS ONE SO MUCH I ALMOST CRIED WRITING IT DONT LET IT FLOP PLS 💔

i like to think that you're both a bit unconventional with how you go about your wedding— for one, you had gone to each others' fitting for your wedding day outfit. Wriothesley had damn near cried when he saw you in the wedding garb that you would eventually choose as your piece— he had barely managed to keep it together when he saw his engagement ring on your finger, and you dressed in white, looking so breathtaking, and his to be together with forever.

He had to turn towards the corner in the fitting room for a second, frantically wiping his eyes and willing not to cry, because he was up next after you, and he didn't want his fitting to be with puffy red eyes. You had clung to his back, giggling at how cute and sweet he is, all the while you petted his back and hair comfortingly.

On your wedding day, though? All cards are off the table. He doesn't care about keeping his composure in front of the audience. Doesn't care that even Furina is there, or that Neuvillette is there, or even Navia or the traveller. He doesn't give two shits about how he's the Duke of Meropide, and he has a reputation to uphold.

The moment those big, grand doors open and you walk yourself down the aisle, a beaming grin on your face, he fucking cracks. He sniffles first, and there's itchiness in his eyes, and then fuck, tears are genuinely welling up in his eyes, and he groans, pressing his palms into his eyes to stem the stream of tears, but it's absolutely no use.

Because fuck, he's here, you're here, you're both wearing white, there are the rings, and you're about to get married. You're about to spend the rest of your life with him, and you look so excited for it. It makes his stomach flip like crazy, makes his brain turn to mush because he loves you so much, doesn't want to spend a single day not being yours for the rest of eternity.

He sobs into his hands, and Neuvillette, who's officiating the wedding, hands him a handkerchief, which he dabs at his eyes with, to no use. He can't stop the tears from flowing, because he's so happy.

And oh, you have a trembling smile on your face when you reach him, willing yourself not to cry too because you just know that if you do, you'll be a teary mess just like him, and the wedding will never finish at that rate. But you can't stop yourself from rushing into his chest, wrapping your arms around to hold him, and he holds you back too on pure instinct— buries his face in your hair as you bury yours in the crook of his neck.

"We made it," you tell him, squeezing his body to yours, smiling through the tears.

Wriothesley gives another hiccuping sob, holding you so close you think you could pop like a balloon. He leans further into you, like he wants to melt into your very person. "Yeah, sweetheart," he breathes, voice shaky. "We made it."

✰ butters & cartman w/ a boyish s/o！,,

WARNINGS: none

PAIRING/S: butters, cartman x reader [ platonic // romantic ]

PRONOUNS: none specified

GENRE: fluff

REQUESTED: yes // no

" hi!! can i req butters and cartman ( separately ) with an s/o whos pretty boyish and rough? thanks! "

– @kennyphobia

A/N: sorry this took so long omgg here u go

stotch, butters ✰ !

butters admires you a lot!!! he thinks you're rlly cool and you look cool too

he rlly likes the way you dress and he doesnt rlly question it even though most girls in south park are the total opposite

he loves just cheering you on when u're playing games and sports!! he might ask advice from you or "how you do it"

he doesnt rlly mind how energetic you can be, or how competitive you are towards the other guys–he actually wants to be more like you

i feel like if the other guys question him about you though and he'd just say that u're "different" and "not like other girls" HELPLP

they just shrug it off and kind of agree w/ him (and also kind of influences some of the others to want boyish girls like you)

he rlly doesnt care if people call you "unladlylike 😡😡" or "not feminine 😱😱" he doesnt agree!! just because someone doesnt like or act stereotypically girly doesnt mean they're not feminine (just like doja cat said)

and speaking of that!! he rlly admires how headstrong and confident you are–he wishes he could be like you!!

he wont force you into liking generally girly things!! he rlly likes having a boyish s/o

basically he's in love w/ u and u're basically his role model

cartman, eric ✰ !

cartman probably wont rlly mind LMAO at least he doesnt notice at first

that's until he looks between you and the other girls and he's like 🤨

but even after that he doesn't really care

while on that, he probably also realizes he prefers boyish girls over generally girly girls

i mean yk how stubborn and impatient he was w/ heidi right?? complaining abt how extra she was and how much time she was taking to get ready for halloween

he brags about you to the others and how you're really chill and not "annoying" and they rlly js want him to shut up because they dont care 😭

you two rlly get competitive when it comes to video games and sometimes you'd go for HOURSS bec he wont accept losing

he sorta has his moments where he's like "theres no way a girl is better than me, no. thats a lie what no" but i mean this is cartman

he DOES however love how you basically put the other guys to shame when it comes to video games and sports if u play those

he also thinks baggy clothes suit u so well and sorta has the urge to lend you clothes of his but he thinks thats embarrassing and cheesy LMAOAO

he's sorta upset he kind of cant act like "the man of the relationship" but he loves u either way HAHA (pls dont embarrass him any further if he loses to you)

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Reblogs are appreciated !

i need your cognizance … im kind of new to the al pacino fandom and ive binged watched his filmography in over 3 days and i LOOOOVED EVERYTHINGGGG but mostly just staring at his gorgeous faaaace (im rolling my eyes and biting my fist as i type this)😮‍💨🥵😩 but im rlly having trouble finding my footing with the elephant in the room … and that is him having a baby at his present age and dating a woman 50+ yrs his junior… like im in too deep now, i just watched his nypd episode and that’s how far ive already went😭(not complaining👀) but im also at this stage where idk what or how to feel about him doing that. obviously ive acquired an above-average-more-than-wikipedia knowledge about him (i like him a normal amount, trust me) and i won’t willfully overlook the fact that he’s kind of a womanizer and one that is commitment-phobe, so i guess him having new girlfriends isn’t out of the blue but to date someone THAT young? like that could be ur daughter😭 in fact his eldest daughter is a few yrs older than his current gf

anyway what im rlly trying to say is, i need u to weigh in on this and pls tell me ur opinion. ive read ur impressive work and it encouraged and inspired me to read the godfather as a book, and not just settle on watching it. and with that in mind i thought u were the right person to provide insight on this. as u can see i love al so much, im actually thinking of making myself a bday cake with his picture on it, similar to a pic i reblogged a few days ago, but im soooo conflicted on this. like i truly am. i know it’s bad to have parasocial relationships w celebrities (especially younger versions of themselves OMG) (but im rlly not i just love him sm and admire him) but im at this phase where im afraid that finding out more of his humanly desires would disappoint me? and yes ppl might say i shld avoid putting celebrities on a pedestal bc they rlly dont give a fuck abt who u are😵‍💫 and i would definitely love to be one of those ppl that could simultaneously admire a person for their achievements and recognize their kind behavior but also acknowledge their wrongdoings … but if i do that isn’t it kind of telling on my end, of my behavior and shaky moral compass😫? or, now that im in too deep, maybe im just trying to maintain this idealized version of him in my head and this is simply a reality i refuse to accept😭? bc honestly when the news broke out a lot of ppl were divided, with most responses pandering to eerie and just odd reactions, but a small minority claims a different take, along the lines of ‘if two consenting adults wanna make a family then why not’ and this rlly bugs me bc ??? apart from it being an awfully lazy analysis there’s just SOO much to unpack about this situation. like theres just way too many layers and there’s nuances too. one of the replies actually said men at the age of 60 should already be neutered to prevent from procreating ever again and why i kinda agree to it ?? 😶 like im so conflicted … like i rlly am … this is eating me out and consuming me i honestly dont know what to do.

anyway IM SO SORRY FOR THE RAMBLING AND FOR HOW LONG THIS WAS … im sorry for the overcomplication … pls take ur time in answering this im rlly sorry id rlly appreciate ur stance on this … I LOVE UR WORK SO MUCH IT KEEPS ME SANE. especially with the gifs🥰🥰🥰🥰 bc of u i still get to fuel my indulgences. THANK YOU

Ah my dear, welcome to the Pacino fandom, first of all. 🤣❤️ We Pacino girlies welcome you with open arms here lmao I know exactly how that intense ass Pacino brainrot can hit and how hard too. 🥵

You're right first of all about the fact that there's a lot to unpack beyond the "it's two consenting adults in a relationship" piece but here's the thing, it's not meant for us to unpack. At the end of the day, all we can do is hear news, gossip and read articles about Al's relationship and this and that but we don't know how much of it is actually true and what's really going on, and we can't know. It really has nothing to do with any of us, and those two don't care what the public think either. It's Al and his gf's private life and judging on how shit broke out, they seem to have a lot more to worry about on their plate than anyone else's reactions.

Al is basically a womanizer from what I've read lmao. He always really has been and I know things obviously changed when he got older but an early article that came out saying Al and his gf are dating mentioned the age gap doesn't bother either of them and his gf has dated men around the same age and even older than Al. This is their personal and private life, after all. Men can have children at a very old age, this is just how science works lmao although it can be baffling at 80+, it's still a thing. From what the gossip online says, it looks like this was an unplanned thing and Al isn't doing so good. He doesn't seem to be jumping over the moon about everything from what I read either. I think this is hard for him, tbh.

And some people may think it's weird someone as old as Al is still having sex but given his track record, I'm not surprised at all lmao. To avoid disappointment from celebrity parasocial relationships and putting them on pedestals, you need to come to an understanding that you're also recognizing and putting up (in a way) their flaws on that pedestal too. Al is not a perfect human being, nobody is, but he isn't out here trying to be perfect or live up to anyone else's definitions either nor should he.

I love that you admire and love Al like the rest of us, but you also need to come to an understanding about the things he's done or said or whatnot that you don't agree with or necessarily like. He's just a human being at the end of the day, it's so complex. Don't think too hard on it, because everyone has their flaws and mistakes and as we recognize this, we can still love them for the great things they do. That's really the only thing you need to do.

I think the fandom as a whole looked way too far into this man's personal life. It does not effect us whatsoever and it's honestly none of our business. Al doesn't owe us anything and he's not trying to be a role model to us; we shouldn't be this held up about his personal life. I know it can be hard not to care, but sometimes all you need to do is acknowledge it, accept it, and move on.

I would also recommend reading the biography "A Life on The Wire" by Andrew Yule. It has a lot about Al's life from early days, to romance, to his personality and everything inbetween. It's seriously extremely detailed and gives you a whole new insight on just who that man is!

Feel however your heart wants to feel. You don't have to get held up in Al's personal life like others or form a strong opinion just because someone else has. Something like this doesn't need to stop you from admiring what a phenomenal actor Al is and how he's a fine ass man too. 😭

i dont wanna reblog on this acc for reasons, but i just finished telepathy (got off track so many times im sorry) and its literally the best thing i have ever read in my entire life. like istg there were a few moments when i laughed out loud (taehyuns "thats nepotism" caught me so off guard i giggled) (there was another moment at the beginning i don't remember the line) and i genuinely laughed when he first found out what she listens too 😭 i think this fic is the most relatable to me, tbh, bc like if you saw me in the street, i look like an innocent chubby girl, not someone who writes hybrid smut about people on the internet 💀 like im totally the type to get off to someone i saw randomly somewhere (ive done it before)

AND THE SCENE WITH HIM JACKING OFF>??????? like i was reading with a straight face until the fUCKING BUTTON UP???? LIKE ITS THE LITTLE DETAILS THAT COUNT ISTG (mental reminder for when i write later)

i already knew what was gonna happen as soon as i read pseudo-fingering in the warnings last night, but reading it was a whole fucking other story, i swear to fucking god. i've become kind of immune to reading smut in my experienced age (😭), so it's rare for me to find a fic that gives, like, ALL the tingles (iykyk)

and this one gave so much more than that- like if i was home alone right now, this would be jackoff material, i am not kidding you. like the pretty girl thing was already a little sjkhbdehdfb to me, and then just the whole "dont make it obvious" was so sjkdhbshjdi

AND THEN THE FUCKING SCENE???? LIKE IM SORRY I WAS NOT EXPECTING THAT AT ALL and like, im sorry gyu but if this ever happened to me i would not be able to stay quiet at all. like legitimately i'd be crying.

i was just WAITING for that ending if im being honest, like i LIVE for stuff like this where its so nonchalant at the beginning like "are you alright? 🥺" and i was just waiting for her to recognize his voice ACK and then the "pretty girl" GOT ME LIKE IF THIS HAPPENED TO ME AND IT WAS SOMEONE SO FUCKING ATTRACTIVE ID FAINT

here's my actual reaction to that last line (the middle is cut off because i had my hand over my mouth going "oh my god oh my god") (and dw im okay that squeak was a laugh)

ADA I LOVE U.

mannn what if i cry. then what. genuinely that is such an honor :'))) no bc same, like u would never guess what i do on this hellsite j from what i look like LMAO

SCREECHES i loveee adding little details to my scenes (it's also why my fics are becoming obscenely long,, sorry everyone, idk what happened to the 7-8k projection,,,,), idk why but writing that had my heaving trying to hold myself together...yeah

pseudo-fingering LOL i truly still don't know how else to describe it...my guy was mind fucking her fr,,, can't believe i actually broke ur immunity for a hot second that's so funny to me

HGKDJL i was projecting heavily in this one i'm ngl 🤣🤣 like exhibitionism is kinda,,, yeah. Yeah. i also dream abt being called pretty girl one day 🤣 manifesting it rn actually

HAHAHA no bc same, i wouldn't be able to keep it together i'd writhing and crying and disintegrating LMFAO,, mc was so strong ngl i wish i could be like her.........but alas, i am Weak

UR REACTION I'M FUCKING DYINGGG,, but that was what i was going for so i'm glad it worked 😁 THANK U FOR READING!!! AND SENDING ME AMAZING FEEDBACK ILY ADA PLS TAKE CARE OF URSELF <3333333

Hi! I just saw the Daniel edit: it’s very good. I dare to say, it’s TOO GOOD lmao I got a little disturbed. But I don’t think that is a bad thing! Because it is a Halloween thing!

I think you shouldn’t let people with mean comments bother you, you know? You are being creative and you are being SO clear that things are edits for a specific purpose. You are using tags correctly too. If anyone is bothered by your edits they can unfollow, they can block, they can filter tags. They can stop interacting with your content.

I want to make it very clear: I DONT THINK THE PROBLEM IS YOU OR YOUR EDITS OR THE PLATFORM ITSELF. THE PROBLEM IS PEOPLE NOT BEING ABLE TO TAKE RESPONSIBILITY FOR THE CONTENT THEY CONSUME.

And it’s okay if you decide you don’t want to reply to this ask, I just wanted to tell you what I think and let you know that although I don’t want you to stop posting your edits, which I find better every time and also more creative as you develop your talents and learn new skills, I respect whatever you decide to do. But please know you do not owe anyone anything and it’s not on you if people are mean or rude. I have many many thoughts on this so please take away: I support you and please you do you no matter what anyone says.

Literally, thank u so much for this ❤️ i am so thankful for your endless support

But for now I’m just done. Tbf it’s not that ask particularly, it was just like the last straw tbf.

It has been happening for a year, where no matter what i do or post; people come in my ask to shit about me. I can’t even reblog some drivers without people being like ‘wait ew u support him?’. I can’t joke about stuff without people giving me their opinion without me asking, where they just write about how wrong my edit is and how cringe it is and asking me basically to take it down. Or asks I receive when I’m sharing personal topics where people call me literally crazy and that I should be in therapy or making friends instead of being here because I’m out of reality. Or even people pointing out what is wrong with my edits (tips: if i dont ask for an opinion pls dont give it).

I love editing but if what i get is shitty anons instead of them unfollowing me then it’s not the case. Because for me, these comments are not helping my creativity. I’m not saying i don’t accept criticism, I just don’t accept the way people here give it to me. I’m having enough of that irl i dont need it here. Like, I know i should ignore comments like that, sometimes i just simply delete them but at one point it hurts me and yes it hurts my feelings

I’m just going to keep posting random and simple and easy gifsets because this doesn’t bring negativity, will keep the f1 edits for myself or share it privately with friends because i dont feel like sharing stuff

I’ve been in many fandoms (i was literally in the 5sos fandom… when all the drama happened) and god the f1 one is the one where I’ve received rude messages

So yeah i have a few more halloween edits to posts, a few more f1 ones and then i’ll stop and just go back to simple gifs

i have been doing okies thank u so much for asking <333 how are u, hows life going for u? :3

but expanding on what u said, jaes characterization in electric bugaloo is definitely one of the best ive seen (esp for a free fic on tumblr) !! there is so much depth to his character, from the way he thinks and the innate care he still has for his sister, but at the same time hes unwilling to let go of his evil (what he deems “good”) deeds but at the end u can truly see that hes not heartless and is truly just a human but yet !! it makes u wonder how hes used that + the charmspeak to manipulate others and use their sympathy. so yes like u said, a villian is much more dangerous when u start to sympathize with them 😭 tldr; jaehyun evil but also not really but like very evil actually

also yes renjun is such a tsundere even to his members 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫 but i loved how u charaterized him to consistently think “im in love w yn im in love w yn omg hug kiss mwah yn” and then be completely stoic on the outside. i was a bit frustrated at first bc i was like “just kiss her !!” but ykw thats just him and ill have to deal with it 🤞😔 #touchygfproblems

i hope u have a wonderful weekend lovely <333 also im sorry if im basically blabbering in ur inbox about ur fic and i totally dont mind talking about something else i just really really like the way u write lmao (/ω＼) and i rarely get to talk about tumblr fics so in depth (with the author too !!) so this is (⁎⁍̴̛ᴗ⁍̴̛⁎) very nice

- morknon

ahhhh i’m so sorry for this late response, my love!! i’ve been doing great 🤩🤩🤩 my birthday was on the 26th so my friends and i went to an anime convention and just had a fun girls trip for the weekend 🥰 i’ve also downloaded the sims 4 bc it was on sale for $5 and now all i’m doing is downloading mods and playing dress up DJSJJS 🤧 how have you been, lovely?

omg pls thank you so much i’m so honored that you think so highly of my characterization of jaehyun you are too nice 🥺 i really did try to cram in as many layers as possible in the fic like a smushed onion or something 😭 bc i didn’t really give him any development in jeno’s fic which i regret </3 but you’re so right!! my goal was to humanize him bc i think it’s much scarier for the characters and the audience when the villain seemingly still has sound of mind y’know? and i wanted to people to think about what they would do if they were put in y/n’s position (obviously bc y/n is a self-insert but you know what i mean HDJSJS 😭) ! it’s also been super fun to see everyone’s reactions bc a lot of people feel sorry for jaehyun and even forgive him despite what he did, in fact, the scenes with jaehyun are actually the most talked about (from what i’ve seen in reblogs and asks) even more so than the romance 😳 it makes me really proud that so many people empathize with him bc that means i did my job properly :’))))

YESSS renjun’s characterization is my fav to write!! i just love a tsundere whose love language is acts of service 🥹🫶 if anyone has seen the anime “my sweet tyrant” renjun is literally akkun like pls 😩 OMFG I KNOW THE FEELING I’M SUPER TOUCHY AND CLINGY TOO 💔💔💔

please don’t apologize, my love!! i should be thanking you for taking the time to talk to me about my fic 💞💞💞 it’s every writer’s dream to engage with their readers about what they liked or didn’t like about their fics so i’m really happy you enjoyed the fic enough to write such kind feedback <3333333 thank you so so so much again 💖💓💘💝💟💕

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muah thank u for reading, take care lovelies !! <3 (✿˵ ꒡3꒡˵)

cries in throay pain and 2 cups of tea didnt help

Water worsened it 😨

miau

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https://pin.it/1RoBPRx i want her to throw me on the ground w her thighs like how she did to that robot.

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I woke uo at 5:59 am and couldnt sleep due to my throat pain n made a cup of tea, didnt help so i made another at like 7 am and that also didnt help ☹️☹️ i also havw a stuffy nose so 💔💔 AND I HAVE CLASS TODAY. ☹️ i terrorized my friend yesterday teehee

How did ur day go? Also i saw that anon thingy..

“Stop stealing black womans work.” (Or whatever they said) and where is the proof? I can ASSURE you that chichi NEVER stole a persons work.. if ur talking abt reblogging then they r tryna make more people see the authors work 😭 nor r they rhe type of person to steal someones work??!! r u jealous she is an amazing writer lmao..

Anywyas

Hope ur doing well<3

( ding ! ) reminder; it doesnt matter if you fail, as long as you keep trying me and the others will be here to support you and help you on your journey<3 :3

-💞 anon

OH NOO :( im so sorry, love ! throat pains are the worst </33

ty for the pins, lovely ! and ur so right clorinde makes me...iqwhdd

im so sorry abt your cold, sweetie :( sending 100000 hugs n forehead kisses for u ! pls get better soon, ok?

my day went good ! tysm for asking, love :D also ikr that ask was very random sob.. i dont know if they mixed up reblogging with reposting but um yeah uidoqw tysm for sticking up for me, love !

thank you for the reminder, honey ! please make sure to get some rest and take things easy on yourself, yeah? we don't want your cold to get worse </3

not a bot pls

anyways, hi, im bea! im not exactly new to tumblr, ive had a tumblr account for quite some time now (about a year or so ago?) (also its @artsyinapaintbrush lol) but that blog has been dead for so long that ive decided to start over with a new one! so let me introduce myself to you because my info on my old account is definitely hella outdated lol.

as i said, my name's bea and i go by she/her pronouns! (not going by artsy anymore, sorry)

im a minor

im filipino, buttt im currently living in new zealand (its quite cold here lmfao) (it also explains my url! its a little inside joke me and a few filipino friends of mine have made)

as uve probably noticed from my old account's name, im an artist! what u probably dont know yet tho is im also quite fond of writing, so expect to see both of those on my blog!

lastly, im in a lot of fandoms lmao. like, a lot. i swear, you'll see me posting about total drama island and a second later u see me reblogging bbc merlin fanart (that ending killed me btw.) so dont expect me to stick to one thing lol

trust me, i am so incredibly sorry for the long introduction post but dammit i cant help myself AND i need to undo all the embarassing shit ive done on my old blog, so here we are lol. thanks for reading, and once again im not a damn bot

im gonna rant here, but if anyone wants to give me advice 😭

so. there was a girl i used to talk abt a lot here. i might rb a few things that i mentioned her in. anyways. i had a big old crush on her in hs. but i moved away for school and that was that. what might have been during hs was kinda dropped. i still saw her when i came back for holidays it summer, but she was more of my bffs friend than mine by the end of hs, so i only saw her once in a while. and by the time i finished college. ig i still remembered the crush i had on her, but i felt like i had gotten over it.

the thing abt this girl is she's a very big jokester and kinda deflective. shes kinda like. an elementary school kid who has a crush on someone and only knows how to handle it by being mean to them? thats kinda her. but with jokes??

well, i never took ANYTHING she said abt us srsly bc. its just what she does. she jokes.

and a few weeks ago, my friend invited us to a little kickback and she was there. i made a post abt it i think, bc obviously everyone needs to be in my business. but quick run down. she made a joke abt kissing me. when i didn't go along with it she said, "why didn't you lean in?" and that's the moment it kinda hit me that she might be fr 😭

and the she got "defensive" again and she told me she was gonna talk to the cute girl over there or w.e.

(and im not a jealous person when im not in a relationship with someone. even if i like them, im not gonna play jealousy games with ppl, sorry, so if she wanted a reaction from me, she did not get one)

okay, we've seen each other a couple of times since then. nothing big. someone realized i had a little crush in her bc apparently i act a FOOL, a SIMP, even when we just talk abt her.

now the NEW MAIN PART OF THE STORY (sorry that was all suppose to be a quick recap lol).

my close friend always throws a big old costume party for her birthday since she's an october baby, duh. and shes make a deal of inviting anyone she was ever cool with. so some ppl from hs, some ppl from shows she goes to, shes knows a lot of ppl. and ofc this girl is gonna be there (lets not talk abt the fact that my ex and her new girl was there lmao, i didnt mind, i just had no idea how to react)

and me? im a little loose from the alc. i dont even remember how we ended up hanging together, but we did. we played beer pong (and ofc we're both amazing so a lot of celebration hugs).

and i think from there we stick to each others sides. kinda close. right?

and she says things I once thought were jokes, but now im like 😳 u think my beauty doesnt compare fr ??

well by the end of the party we're making out. again, i dont remember how it happened. just that it did.

and we went home and I have not texted her since then and vice versa.

i had a conversation with ANOTHER friend yesterday tho. who told me while i was in the bathroom and they were all drunkenly hanging out outside. she told them she's been having a crush on me since hs and she's always been too scared to do or say anything. now lets forget abt the fact that my dumbass is living through a 7 year slow burn with a apparently a shit ton of mutual pining. lets forget abt that. or else ill punch myself.

point is, she has yet to contact me and i have yet to contact her. and im scared if i do she'll pass everything off as a joke. which will hurt. but i still want to reach out. i just dont know what to say. i dont talk to her much outside of in person situations. i should've stolen her sweater so i could have an excuse to give it back 🙄

anyways. that was my little rant. im still stuck on what to say. if anyone has advise. ill give u a little digital heart or smth idk.

the solution might literally be so simple, but i dont have an outside perspective rn, i have dumb dumb lovesick brain rot >:(

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personal info update yeehaw

chels

18

single

low femme

lesbian/bi (questioning currently:'^) hnn)

youngstown, ohio

current likes: weed!!!, thrifting, sunny days, uhh fuckin naps.., food?, nighttime, tarot readings, plants, burning incense and sage, watching yt for hours

personality/abt me: im lovable and loyal as hell? im very cuddly and i like a lot of interaction with the people closest to me. im basically like a mama bear ig? im naturally lazy and i love being lazy with my close friends tbh. compassionate is definitely a word id use to describe myself. definitely sensitive due to past trauma- mainly when people raise their voice at me i tend to freak out. somedays i can be off putting and an asshole but im trying my best to do better, dealing with my severe depression and unstable hormone condition is really rough; but i usually get by. ok also i cant believe i almost left this out- i can be energetic as f u ck? im diagnosed with adhd and it can sometimes just go nuts

i just hit 0 on my bank account and ya girl is scaRED