Love You to Pieces (pt 1 of 'Pieces')

Character(s): Harper @campwillowpeak x reader, mild mention of Friend from @stnaf-vn

Okay but i saw that one post about ‘what if someone murdered CM…’ AND OH MY GOD THAT POST??? SENT SHIVERS??? DOWN MY SPINE??? AUGH love me a silly goofy psychotic guy who mourns me and just feels like shit after he gets my revenge because that isn’t what I would want for him… 

(SASJKDHASDJK @the-wannabe-hero thank u for the idea omg i forgor to credit--)

Part 2 !!

Trigger Warnings: death of a loved one

Main warning: SHIT TON OF ANGST DUDE I CRIED WHILE WRITING THIS (i mean my standards could be a lil too low idkkk)

ALSO MAMA SLOTH I HOPE U ENJOY IF U END UP READING !!

Fic under the cut!!

His eyes widened, pupil shrinking as he watched all the blood spill from your stabbed abdomen. The coward who had stuck the knife there immediately ran away before Harper could catch him.

Harper knew he could run after him, knew he’d have a pretty good chance at killing him. But there was also something else he knew.

After years of killing others, he knew how fatal your wound was.

No, he didn’t want to even think about what was happening.

He caught your fumbling body before it hit the ground, cradling your upper torso in his arms, all fear evident on his face. “C-Cara mia?” He knew how broken and fragile he sounded and how that would scare you a little, but he didn’t have the effort to hide it from you.

You winced as you shifted in his arms, “Harper…” You grit your teeth and flashed him a smile. “I-It’s fine, everything’s going to be alright, hm?”

God, he loved your smiles. The ones you would make when you enjoyed his food, the ones you made after kissing him and leaving him breathless, the ones you reassured him that he was not a bad person and would never be, the one you made when he first got on one knee. All of them.

Even if you were dying, you still managed to smile for him. His heart stuttered in his chest, his love and fear for you both taking over. He let out a watery chuckle, shaking his head in disbelief, “Y-You’re so bad for me, darling.” He brought the hand that your engagement ring sat on before kissing it. The cool metal brushed his chapped lips as a tear slipped down his face. “...Please don’t leave me, cara mia. We still,” His breath hitched and a silent sob wracked through his body, “We still haven’t gotten married yet. You can’t… You can’t do this to me.”

You coughed on the blood coagulating in your throat, droplets of blood making it onto his shirt. “A-Aw man, I got your shirt dirty…” Your eyes began to gloss over with tears, hearing Harper beg for you not to leave made things feel a lot more serious. “If it cheers you up, Harper, I do.”

“W-What?” His confusion caused him to blink back his tears before he tilted his head to the side, “I… What?”

You let out a set of broken laughter and he had to suppress a flinch. You never laughed like that, you never laughed like you were having a bad time, you never laughed like you were going to die-

Oh.

His eyebrows furrowed as if that act itself would stop the tears from forming.

And of course, because you knew him so so so well, you tried to give him a reassuring smile, “I do, Harper. I do love you, and I will marry you. Through life and through death.” Tears trickled down your face as you wiped at the dry tracks of Harper’s face, “Through sickness and health and whatnot. Harper, will you…aghk― will you marry me too?”

He stifled a whimper, his bottom lip trembling, “Of course I will, always, always, always for you, cara mia.” He craned his neck so his face met yours and he kissed you before setting you back down in his lap.

“Harper, Harper, it hurts…” You gave him one last weak look before your eyes flickered up to him. You entwined your fingers with his and brought them to your lips. “I love you, Harper. More, hgk— more than, more than I’ve ever loved anyone. Okay, darling?”

He begged through tears, grasping your hand so tight, he could’ve broken your hand. But he’d never do that to you, he loved you so much. He loved you too much. He wouldn’t let you leave. “Please. Please don’t say that like you’re…” His chest wracked with sobs he was too heartbroken over to care. “Like you’re dying. You can’t. You can’t leave me, cara mia. You wouldn’t.” His lungs cried and wailed for proper oxygen intake, his brain told him he needed to breathe, but how could he? How could he dare to breathe when he knew soon enough, you wouldn’t share the same air as him.

And god, if that didn’t shatter his heart into pieces.

“Please, please, please. They can’t― They can’t take you—! Please, please, please, please…” Each repeated word was followed by tears falling from his face to yours.

If he wasn’t so overcome with his sorrow, maybe he’d have already noticed how you had already died.

Your blank eyes stared back at his glassy blue ones. He rested his face in his hand, propped on his knee as he held you to his chest, cries unabashedly rocking through his body as he had to believe it.

Believe you were gone.

Believe some coward had taken the light of his life away, forever.

Believe some scum had taken away the person he was supposed to spend the rest of his life with.

Anyone else on the street would’ve seen him chanting meaningless words of ‘please, please, please’ and ‘love you so much, love you, please don’t leave me.”

But all Harper could see was you, broken and shattered in his arms.

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Harper couldn’t eat, he couldn’t sleep properly. Everywhere he went was a reminder of you.

He tried, he tried so hard to move on. He tried not to isolate himself. God, he had even shut himself off from his Nonna. She didn’t deserve that. It was all because of him, because he would never be good enough to save you, to save himself. Because it was all his fault that he couldn’t have seen it coming. He should’ve been more careful, been more cautious. 

Friend had come over to reassure him that he understood losing a loved one, but he just… he just didn’t. He didn’t know what it meant to lose the love of his life, didn’t know how Harper had spent nights just replaying it over and over in his head. 

Some nights were even worse because some days, he’d never tell a single soul, some days he forgot what you looked like, couldn’t picture your face anymore because it had been so long since he had seen you smiling at him. Those nights were the worst. How could he have forgotten his spouse, someone he had dedicated his life to?

God, he was such a piece of shit for forgetting you.

Friend only had his sweetheart, but Harper had other people to care for.

His Nonna.

But he couldn’t handle the pain your death had caused him and refused to let anyone else share it.

He had to look at your photos just to have some feeling of what it was like to be yours because he kept forgetting. He kept forgetting and forgetting what it was like to love someone like you.

You were his world and how could he ever forget it?

Was it because you weren’t there to remind him?

Ouch.

A/N: dw dw harper gets his revenge

You're one of my favorite moots, and the only who shares my love for platonic hsr characters so c'mere sit down while I ramble about the idea that just popped into my head

Also MASSIVE penacony spoilers ofc (including 2.2)

Blablabpa

Anyway, imagine being the youngest sibling between robin and Sunday, just a toddler when that guy (I forgor his name) adopted the two halovians but like u were rlly sick and weak so he leaves you behind saying that u were already dead

But not long after robin and Sunday are taken away the astral express finds and adopts ur lil ass and you become the baby among the trailblazers lolol

Time skip to current trailblazer mission and robin and sunday see you, their "dead" baby sibling, and are understandably freaking tf out but you don't even recognize them cuz ur like 17 now and haven't seen them since u were a babyyy

And it's like

Robin and Sunday: omg wait is that literally our sibling

Robin and sunday: look how much you've grown omg and you have so much personality what kind of hobbies do you have, do you follow the harmony? Blablablah yapyapyap

Reader: —

tysm mootie, youre one of my favorites and I love your ideas too 🫶

lol astral express taking care of a baby while traveling and sealing stellarons 💀

you saw robin on media before, she looked like you and you looked like her, this confused u but u thought it was just a coincidence and didnt think much about it

then you travel to penacony and you saw the two siblings who look very similar to you????

you three talk and it turns out youre their lost baby sibling! shocking all of you

robin and sunday are happy that the nameless took care of you and that you survived thanks to them

reader might choose to stay with their astral express found family who raised them or return to their biological two older siblings

talk to me about ur ocs u seem silly (sory for showing up unannounced i opt to not control the urge to hear ppl ramble about their self-made lil guys)

WIDENS EYES SO SO BIG OMG

OKAY OKAY OKAY

SO I HAVE THESE TWO LITTLE GUYS

MILO AND AND JAX (no relation to tadc) (I will now stop yelling)

Milo is an angel and Jax is a demon (giggles)

they are both 20 yrs old, Milo is transmasc (he/him) and "straight" (he is actually so bisexual), Jax is gay (he/it)

(runs to my notes app) (lil warning, quite a bit of their story is Jax helping Milo through his fear of his own sexuality, so yea you can guess there gonna be certain themes)

Okay so Milo is like low-key famous up in heaven (he's the son of the king of heavens "manager" I forgor the word) (ITS ADVISOR, THE KINGS TOP ADVISOR TAHTS THE WORD OMG)

so he's constantly trying to keep his public image intact..

but that starts to get harder after he's sent on a mission to deliver a message to the king of hell

down there he sees the king's son (spoiler: it's Jax) and is like " Oh shoot oh no he's hot wth why do I like this guy I'm straight wait what"

OH YEA SILLY HEAVEN LORE DROP: Being queer is totally fine up there, Milo has been out and transitioned for years, but from a young age all angel's are taught that engaging in sexual activity or having sexual thoughts is a big no no

lore drop over, back to the other lore drop :3

so for the next month or so Milo is having progressively more risqué thoughts and even dreams (woagh that's crazy) and he's getting real stressed out because I LIED MORE HEAVEN LORE: when angels start losing their "purity", small parts of their body start changing to red, ie some of the hair, eyes, any markings. SO HES ALL STRESSED CAUSE HES STRUGGLING TO HIDE THE CHANGES :((

ANYWAYS- He gets sent on another mission to hell, this time to ask if preparations for Jax's coronation have started, and gets suckered into helping. The two start getting closer~..

ONTO JAX LORE!!!!!! YIPPEE

Jax is the Prince of Hell, and has been conditioned by its asshole of a father to eventually become king since he was very young. His father would often push Jax past its limits both physically and emotionally. When he couldn't deal with this, his father decided to start just straight up abusing him. (I wanna kill, him. YES I KNOW IM IN CONTROL BUT HES IMPORTANT TO THE STORY FOR NOW 😭)

Because his mother was an incubus (she's uh- out of the picture... also incubi and succubi can be any gender so fun fact!!!) it decides to deal with his issues by whoring around (he's so silly!! <- the poor guy needs severe therapy and to get away from his dad)

One day, an angel comes to deliver a message to his father (WOAGH I WONDER WHO THAT IS!?!??! 🧐🧐) and he becomes absolutely infatuated after seeing him once (bro is down bad frfr)

as it nears time for his coronation, the same angel comes to visit to help with preparations. once again, the two start getting closer~..

NOW GENERAL STORY STUFF!!!!! I cannot thank you enough for the chance to be so soso abnormal abt my silly little guys btw

Before they get closer, Milo is like "nuh uh being friends with a demon is wrong HECK NO" (he doesn't swear :3) but eventually they start talking, Jax opens up about his daddy issues (trauma is the first conversation topic as always with these DAMN QUEERS-) <- I AM A DAMN QUEER YALL

and Jax learns what life in heaven is like (and is absolutely horrified to learn that sexuality is frowned upon)

it now has a goal to help Milo understand that his teachings were incorrect

to directly quote my notes app: One night, Milo comes back to his guest room to see it destroyed.. (While they were working, one of Jax's old boy toys wrecked it in a fit of rage over Milo getting close to Jax) As they don't have any other rooms available, Jax offers to let Milo stay in his for now. Milo accepts, then panics once he learns that Jax only has one bed. Jax doesn't see an issue, and they sleep in the same bed with a little persuasion. (THAT SOUNDS WEIRD, I PROMISE JAX ISNT A CREEP OR NOTHIN)

uhhh umm the next part is kinda- uhmmmmmmm 😳 I don't think I'm gonna say it here

just know some of Milo's dreams come true :3c

SADLY I HAVENT WRITTEN THE STORY PAST THIS PART SO THATS IT FOR NOW :((

TY FOR ASKING

tlt update

@vincentaureliuslin @tatsumisheep3

drafting this in the morning bc

we got make up and hair designs!!! so thats super fun :DDD

ok first of all its really funny that they just put a costume mask in the make up section (s for the statues, we have full masks) but also i am The Only statue with short hair i think so :PPP

also they included me in the dead for doa and im really hoping they didnt need me to buy blue lipstick TwT (im dj cerberus i literally have a dog mask on the whole time)

also they seperated the dead and shades into two seperate categories even tho im pretty sure those are the same thing?? and also they put the same info into them so??? idk

aaaa ok evening now

i almost forgor about this :P

OMG OMG OGMOGMGOGOMGGMGOMMGOO

MY FRIEND FINISHED THE WINGSSSSS

i felt kinda silly bc she said she was gonna work on it afterschool and i forgot about it and totally went and got boba instead :P

anyway

THEYRE DONNENENENNENEN!!!!!

YAYYAYYA

ok um

im normal now

what else

ummmm rehearsal was pretty boring :\\ we just ran through a couple scenes and then had a vocal review

while i was backstage i decided that this dagger looked really tasty

i still wanna eat it :(

it looks yummier in person i swear--

also i just realized that that sheild is probably on top of the lighting board which is probably not good--

ummm thats not my problem tho :]

heres a handy dandy lil graphic i made to distinguish ambrose and preston bc i did a doodle of ambrose earlier idk

theres lots more stuff but it was for my friend who hasnt seen it yet so mostly spoiler free :P

umm yup i totally was paying attention during vocals and not at all doodling silly little guys

also heres an emotional support hugo bc he's always needed

(from my math textbook bc i had to walk up to the third floor to get it this morning TwT and then again to put it away and say hi to my friend before break TwT)

ok yeah idk what else to say bye

Could I learn about your B and James interprets lore 🥺🥺🥺

Errrm well tbh I kinda already said most of the stuff abt my interps the last time I was asked but I guess there r a few more things I could talk abt :3 

Mk sooo more abt B’s whole being way older than he should be thing n more abt what his life was like b4 he got lost in the backrooms. So pretty much he was born in the year 1950 in America around the Texas-Louisiana border[silly goofy projection we will not see more of that later definitely not]. He was pretty poor for most of his life, especially in childhood, but they made it work. He might have had siblings idk, neither does he [boom vague Reagan reference where is my gold sticker/SILLY] He was very close with his mother bc his father wasn’t around a lot, mostly out working bc the whole living in poverty thingg. He actually learned 2 speak japanese b4 he learned english bc that was his mom’s native language so that’s pretty silly :3. Well everything was well and fine for about the next 20 years but then uh oh! B’s mom becomes terribly ill one day and ends up dying a few months later! [how sad] This event is pretty much the catalyst 4 every bad thing that happens in B’s life 4 the next like 50 years. Cuz a bit b4 this he’d found out how to no clip and did it a few times but he was just so distraught in the moment that he just kinda went 2 the backrooms and just walked around 4 so long until he passed out n when he woke up he couldn’t no clip back soo yeah that’s basically his epic backstory yay. On the lighter side this is something I meant 2 explain A WHILE ago but just kinda forgor abt it so sad ik but uhm this dude n his fuck ass jacket omg. Basically his like overcoat thing is like a backrooms artifact n its pockets r basically like tiny little openings 2 an empty pocket [pun not intended] dimensions that just stores stuff n that’s it. As long as something can fit around the opening it can be put in the pocket. That’s y blud was pulling out whole ass water bottles n flashlights from them in my fic [read my fic btw chapter 4 just came out last month] Also this blud is like ADDICTED 2 Almond Water actually………. Like. this guy can’t go 15 milliseconds without a lil sip. Smh this goofy ass guy😔😔[SILLY]…..

Ok now James’s epic backstory yippie 😁😁💥💥!!!!!!! oke so like I already talked abt his sad backstory where he lost his eyes n stuff but ig I'll talk abt what he was like b4 that :3. So basically growing up she was treated as like a child prodigy. Like. VERY good in school. Skipping a couple grades type beat. With her being so “gifted” n all she wasn’t really ever given a chance to be. like. a normal kid. Everything throughout her life up until the “accident” was always just focused on just “being the best at everything™” bc that was the mentality that was instilled upon them by their parents. And oh boy. The parental issue I gave this mf. Unreal. Someone needs 2 lock me up[JOKE]. Bro’s whole life he was constantly told over n over again “work work work study study study get into a good collage be successful be somebody important” nothing but that for like 15 years. Like bro had no friends until the age of 26. shitz crazy[silly]. So like time goes by n he’s successful in school n college n gets his job as a professional chemist. So fun n good she did what she was suppose 2 yippiiee nothing could go possibly wrong!! But then the whole explody eyes go bye bye thing happens [not as fun]. N so now this is the catalyst 4 their suffering yippie <3 [sarc] N it’s kinda ironic bc the reason he ended up being so careless in that moment was bc his upbringing made him so unreasonably confident in his abilities that he disregarded even the most basic of safety protocol. So anyways bro wakes up in the hospital blind, scared, confused and alone. Is told what happened. Is so mortified that she has a meltdown right then n there [things r not off 2 the best start]. Not just over the life long facial disfigurement but also over the fact that they failed. They failed to be the perfect scientific prodigy they were supposed 2 be. N in the process, didn’t just fall themself but failed everyone who ever believed in them[At least that’s what they thought at the time]. Like bro didn’t even get fired he CHOSE 2 resign bc he was so ashamed of himself n what he’d done. a lot of this built up trauma n self resentment is y she’s so attached B n Hashely bc they were rlly like 1st ppl in her life 2 show her any kind of unconditional support or affection. Bc after the accident when she was at her absolute lowest point her parents like just softcore cut her off. Like. she tried multiple times after the fact 2 try n contact them but nothing ever came back so they just stopped trying after a while :( Also kinda related is that I think their hair is like naturally curly but they straighten it bc it being curly reminds them of the past n they HATE being reminded of the past. 

Erm ok kinda ended in a doomer note but erm oh well :33

oh! i forgot to tell yall that i finished the first naruto series and i've moved onto shippuden :O and finished season 1 !!!!! >:D

my thoughts were like oh wow damn!! lol 😂 okayokay so season one starts out like 'omg they found sauske and he's got new clothes and he's SO SUPER FAST YALL HOW SMOOTH' and then it was like 'no wait, we'll come back to that later' 😅 anyways i was super happy for gara getting that position but so sad to see him get beat up :( noooo my sandy dude you can't lose to the explodey bird guy :'(((( (side note Kankuro literally says gara so much like all the time like literally everytime he's on screen he says '.....gara......' 😂) anyways then naruto was so pissed and sad and angry >:'(((( a lot of the fights dragged on and on tho :( that ravine with all the tree trunks in it is in fact the longest ravine in the history of the world like what the hell 😂 was kind of ready for naruto to fuck shit up but kakashi put a stop to that :/ and then omg they saved gara and walked him back home 🥺🥺🥺 his whole village was there to greet him and they were all cheering 😭😭😭 his dreams have truly come true!!!! T_T love to see it also gara's VERY smooth move to hold narutos hand 😌 get it hun okay!!! then!!! they introduced Sai and Yamato!!!! i was surprised that yamato grew on me but it's hit or miss on how well he can handle naruto (i guess i'll see in the future if that improves) also i'm pissed that jiraiya didn't tell naruto about his freakout (maybe there is more on that in the future) but the warning that yamato gave him seems to have worked (so far) because even faced with sauske he told the fox he didn't want his power anymore T_T oh naruto... and I was surprised that Sai turned out like he did lol 'i wanna see this 'bond' between naruto and sasuke' like yeah man 😂 okay also why'd they dress him like that lol

okay and just a lil more ORICHIMARU!!!!??? 🤣 this guy is SO RIDICULOUS!!!! made of snakes, expels snakes from his mouth LIKE A WHOLE HUUUUGE ARMYYY and THEY ALL HAVE BLADES IN THEIR MOUTHS LOL, LOOOONG neck boi, ALSO EVEN LONGER BLADE EXPELLED FROM SNAKE IN MOUTH 😂😂😂 not to mention HIMSELF CRAWLING OUT OF HIS MOUTH LOL GOODNESS!!!!!!!! anyways kabuto was just hilarious >:) he forgor that file in sai's room and then walked down LITERALLY the longest hallway ever... :) okay anyways :) i'm done now

cleanin out the askbox! some of these are actually a lil old, so sorry that i missed them they got buried under requests and such </3

GIRL HELL YEAH oh introjects approving my art is like the #1 compliment to me, very glad that its gender even if unintentional!! (also i saw u on my dash with that icon and had a !!! moment hewwo)

awwww thank you, thats rlly sweet. normally id warn against assuming randoms on the internet are good people dmgkemgk but i will absolutely take the compliment and wish u the best too my dude

THANK YOU!! no bother at all omg, ur so sweet. i should rlly do more animations that i actually spend time and effort on cause everything ive posted here was a rush job but lmAO im glad people like it

*throws a cookie into the void* thank u so much

oh yeah i draw all characters with higher up ears and glasses like that! i dont... know if itd actually work in practice? i imagine the arms being like a bendy plastic. like a silly straw or jelly material. but like. what else are they gonna do, tape them on? LMAO

THANK YOU :D im legit so excited that ppl like it cause ive been having so much fun with it lately. win/win situation we r all happy.

SSKFMK my grian is so small. i would feel bad about chibi-ifying him so much but he also calls his own skin adorable so i think i'm allowed. he's not human he's just a skrunkly little guy <3

THANK YOU honestly it seems like people dont put together me and my art sometimes? which is v funny. i am an enigma i guess.

oh dude relatable tho, there are SO many artists that i didnt follow for months even tho i saw and reblogged their art constantly bc i just forgor. heck i didnt even subscribe to any of the hermits until the moon crash lmAO. but thank you!!!! im glad you like it and hope u have a good day too :D