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celine-song · 1 year

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You said you had thoughts on how they handled wesper and honestly I would love to read them!

ok i'll try to organize my thoughts but i'll probably just end up rambling incoherently im sorry!

a lot of people have said this by now, but the soc storylines were super rushed and it really harmed the character development imo. a lot of things happened way too early to make sense or have the emotional impact they could. and a lot of the flavor that wesper has in the books is due to how long it takes them to get there, similarly to how the tension between kaz and inej is what makes them so compelling and interesting to watch.

instead we have jesper whine a little about wylan being too green, then see him blow some stuff up and be like ok nevermind you're cool now. where's the gradual build of trust where's jesper grilling and messing with wylan because he has a crush but isn't super aware of it and also they completely erased jesper's unrequited feelings for kaz which i think is boring bc in the books it's like a really tragic thing because jesper tries desperately to prove himself to kaz and he doesn't feel good enough and maybe secretly fears that he is unlovable and masks that with his bravado and him learning to be vulnerable with wylan, especially about being grisha, is SO IMPORTANT and we just didn't quite get to experience that. not to mention i think his feelings for kaz were stopping him from realizing how he feels for wylan, because he's so used to longing for something he can't have that when there's someone waiting for him, he doesn't realize it.

in the show we get a speech about jesper not really doing relationships that's supposed to sum up the character development that leads him to embrace his feelings for wylan but it just doesn't work when he says he got to know wylan and it changed everything bc DID WE SEE THEM GET TO KNOW EACH OTHER??? THIS IS EPISODE FOUR. if jesper is so afraid of intimacy why is he doing this in episode four then. what changed. wylan played the piano? come on now.

to me it just doesn't make sense with both of their personalities to jump into this so fast. jesper is afraid of intimacy, he's hiding a pretty big part of himself, he doesn't trust wylan at first, and it all stops mattering in 4 episodes. wylan is in completely new territory, he doesn't know these people, kaz is being really scary, wylan isn't brave, or doesn't think he's brave,and he is also hiding a very big part of himself, IS SO SO INSECURE, and he still manages to master the courage to kiss jesper? it's too easy. and it doesn't feel earned and they just become another tv couple to me like there's no flavor. kanej was rushed too but at least they still kept their spice skdvnsdjkvn

also it's kinda a waste of the chemistry kit and jack have like those few episodes of longing glances were so good jack was giving it his all. i wish they did more of that like the subtle "oh no i'm falling in love with this mess of a human being" on both sides is so fun to observe.

i think wesper were kinda their biggest fanservice-y point, like even in the interviews before the season dropped they leaned into it so much and they just had to show them in bed together as soon as they could and i get not knowing if season 3 is even going to happen and wanting to give the fans as much as you can but i'd still rather have more buildup and have the boys acknowledge their feelings in the season finale or something so it HITS. i hope people who haven't read the books are having fun but they don't know what they're missing sdkvjnsdjkv it could be so much better it could be fireworks and the soft oh and everything! ugh

#ask #im scared im just pointing out the differences because i really don't think being faithful to the books is everything #like it doesn't have to be a word for word adaptation (although i did cheer at 'i will have you without armour')#but i do feel like simplifying the books makes the story less interesting #i don't know if i'd still think that if i only watched the show though #also it would probably work better in an episode-a-week format

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tarobytez · 3 years

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disability in the Six Of Crows Duology; an analysis of Kaz Brekker, Wylan Van Eck, and the fandom’s treatment of them.

****Note: I originally wrote this for a tiktok series, which im still going to do, but i wanted to post here as well bc tumblr is major contributor to what im going to talk about

CW: ableism, filicide, abuse

In the Six of Crows duology, Leigh Bardugo delicately subverts and melds harmful disability tropes into her narrative, unpacking them in a way that I, as a disabled person, found immensely refreshing and…. just brilliant.

But what did you all do with that? Well, you fucked it up. Instead of critically looking at the characters, y’all just chose to be ableist.

For the next few videos paragraphs im going to unpack disability theory (largely the stuff surrounding media, for obvious reasons) and how it relates to Six Of Crows and the characterization of Kaz Brekker and Wylan Van Eck, then how, despite their brilliant writing, y’all completely overlooked the actual text and continuously revert them to ableist cariactures.

Disclaimer: 1. Shocker - i am disabled. I have also extensively researched disability theory and am very active in the disabled community. Basically, I know my shit. 2. im going to be mad in these videos this analysis. Because the way y’all have been acting has been going on for a long ass time and im fuckin sick of it. I don’t give a shit about non-disabled feelings, die mad

Firstly, I’m going to discuss Kaz, his play on the stereotypical “mean cripple” trope and how Bardugo subverts it, his cane, and disabled rage. Then, I am going to discuss Wylan, the “inspiration porn” stereotype, caregivers / parents, and the social model of disability. Finally, I will then explain the problems in the fandom from my perspective as a disabled person, largely when it comes to wylan, bc yall cant leave that boy tf alone.

Kaz Brekker

Think of a character who uses a cane (obviously not Kaz). Now, are they evil, dubiously moral, or just an asshole in general? Because nearly example I can think of is: whether it be Lots’O from Toy Story, Lucius Malfoy, or even Scrooge and Mr.Gold from Once Upon A Time all have canes (the last two even having their canes appear less and less as they become better people)

The mean/evil cripple trope is far more common than you would think. Villains with different bodies are confined to the role of “evil”. To quote TV Tropes, who I think did a brilliant job on explaining it “The first is rooted in eugenics-based ideas linking disability or other physical deformities with a "natural" predisposition towards madness, criminality, vice, etc. The Rule of Symbolism is often at work here, since a "crippled" body can be used to represent a "crippled" soul — and indeed, a disabled villain is usually put in contrast to a morally upright and physically "perfect" hero. Whether consciously on the part of the writer or not, this can reinforce cultural ideas of disability making a person inherently inferior or negative, much in the same way the Sissy Villain or Depraved Homosexual trope associate sexual and gender nonconformity with evil. ”

Our introduction to Kaz affirms this notion of him being bad or morally bankrupt, with “Kaz Brekker didn’t need a reason”, etc. This mythologized version of himself, the “bastard of the barrel” actively fed into this misconception. But, as we the audience are privy to his inner thoughts, know that he is just a teenager like every other Crow. He is complex, his disability isn’t this tragic backstory, he just fell off a roof. It’s not his main motivation, nor does he curse revenge for making him a cripple - it is just another part of who he is.

His cane (though the shows version fills me with rage but-) is an extension of Kaz - he fights with it, but it has a purpose. Another common thing in media is for canes to be simply accessories, but while Kaz’ cane is fashionable, it has purpose.

The quote “There was no part of him that was not broken, that had not healed wrong and there was no part of him that was not stronger for having been broken.” is so fucking powerful. Kaz does not want nor need a cure - its said in Crooked Kingdom that his leg could most likely be healed, but he chooses not to. Abled-bodied people tend to dismiss this thought as Kaz being stubborn but it shows a reality of acceptance of his disability that is just, so refreshing.

In chapter 22 of SOC, we see disabled rage done right - when he is called a cripple by the Fjerdan inmate, Kaz is pissed - the important detail being that he is pissed at the Fjerdan, at society for ableism, not blaming it on being disabled or wishing he could be normal. He takes action, dislocating the asshole’s shoulder and proving to him, and to a lesser extent, himself, that he is just as capable as anyone else, not in spite of, but because he is disabled. And that is the point of Kaz, harking back to the line that “there was no part of him that was not stronger for having been broken”.

I cried on numerous occasions while reading the SOC duology, but the parts I highlighted in this section especially so. I, as many other disabled people do, have had a long and tumultuous relationship with our disability/es, and for many still struggle. But Kaz Brekker gave me an empowered disabled character who accepts themselves, and that means the world to me.

Keeping that in mind, I hope you can understand why it hurts so much to disabled people when you either erase Kaz’s disability (whether through cosplay or fanfiction), or portray him as a “broken boy uwu”, especially implying that he would want a cure. That flies in the face of canon and is inherently fucking ableist. (if u think im mad wait until the next section)

Next, we have Wylan.

Oh fucking boy.

I love Wylan so fucking much, and y’all just do not seem to understand his character? Like at all? Since this is disability-centric, I’m not going to discuss how the intersection of his queerness also contributes to these issues, but trust me when I say it’s a contributing factor to what i'm going to say.

Wylan, motherfucking Van Eck. If you ableist pricks don’t take ur fucking hands off him right now im going to fight you. I see Wylan as a subversion another, and in my opinion more insidious stereotype pf disabled people - inspiration porn.

Cara Liebowitz in a 2015 article on the blog The Body Is Not An Apology explains in greater detail how inspiration porn is impactful in real life, but media is a major contributing factor to this reality. The technical definition is “the portrayal of people with disabilities as inspirational solely or in part on the basis of their disability” - but that does not cover it fully.

Inspiration porn does lasting damage on the disabled community as it implies that disability is a negative that you need to “overcome” or “triumph” instead of something one can feel proud of. It exploits disabled people for the development of non-disabled people, and in media often the white male protagonist. Framing disability as inherently negative perpetuates ideals of eugenics and cures - see Autism $peaks’ “I Am Autism” ad. Inspiration porn is also incredibly patronizing as it implies that we cannot take care of ourselves, or do things like non-disabled people do. Because i stg some of you tend to think that we just sit around all day wishing we weren’t disabled.

Another important theory ideal that is necessary when thinking about Wylan is the experience of feeling like a burden simply for needing help or accommodations. This is especially true when it comes to familial relationships, and internalized ableism.

The rhetoric that Wylan’s father drilled into his head, that he is “defective”, “a mistake”, and “needs to be corrected”, that he (Jan) was “cursed with a moron for a child” is a long held belief that disabled people hear relentlessly. And while many see Van Eck’s attempted murder of Wylan as “preposturous” and overall something that you would never think happens today - filicide (a parent murdering their child) is more common than you would like to believe. Without even mentioning the countless and often unreported deaths of disabled people due to lack of / insufficient / neglectful medical care, in a study on children who died from the result of household abuse, 40 of 42 of them (95%) were diagnosed with disabilities. Van Eck is not some caricature of ableist ideals - he is a real reflection on how many people and family members view disability.

Circling back to how Wylan unpacks the inspiration porn trope - he is 3 dimensional, he is not only used to develop the other characters, he is just *chefs kiss* Leigh, imo, put so much love and care into the creation of Wylan and his story and character growth that is representative of a larger feeling in the disabled community.

That being said, what you non-disabled motherfuckers have done to him.

The “haha Wylan can’t read” jokes aren’t and were not funny. Y’all literally boiled down everything Wylan is to him being dyslexic. And it’s like,,,, the only thing you can say about him. You ignore every other part of him other than his disability, and then mock him for it. There’s so much you can say about Wylan - simping for Jesper, being band kid and playing the fuckin flute, literally anything else. But no, you just chose to mock his disability, excellent fucking job!

Next up on “ableds stfu” - infantilization! y’all are so fucking condescending to Wylan, and treat him like a fucking toddler. And while partly it is due to his sexuality i think a larger portion is him being disabled. Its in the same vein of people who think that Wylan and Jesper are romantically one sided, and that Jesper only kind of liked Wylan, despite the canon evidence of him loving Wylan just as much. You all view him as a “smol bean”, who needs protecting, and care, when Wylan is the opposite of that. He is a fucking demolitions expert who suggested waking up sleeping men to kill them - what about that says “uwu”. You are treating Wylan as a burden to Jesper and the other Crows when he is an immensely valuable, fully autonomous disabled person - you all just view him as damaged.

And before I get a comment saying that “uhhh Wylan isn’t real why do you care” while Wylan may not be real, how you all view him and treat him has real fucking impacts and informs how you treat people like me. If someone called me an “uwu baby boy” they’d get a fist square in the fucking jaw. Fiction informs how we perceive the world and y’all are making it super fucking clear how you see disabled people.

Finally, I wanted to talk about how the social model of disability is portrayed through Wylan. For those who are unaware, the social model of disability contrasts the medical model, that views the disability itself as the problem, that needs to be cured, whereas the social model essentially boils down to creating an accommodating society, where disability acceptance and pride is the goal. And we see this with Wylan - he is able to manage his father’s estate, with Jesper’s assistance to help him read documents. And this is not out of pity or charity, but an act of love. It is not portrayed as this almighty act for Jesper to play saviour, just a given, which is incredibly important to show, especially for someone who has been abused by family for his disability like Wylan, that he is accepted.

Yet, I still see people hold up Jesper on a pedestal for “putting up with” Wylan, as if loving a disabled person deserves a fucking pat on the back. It’s genuinely exhausting trying to engage with a work I love so much with a fandom that thinks so little of me and my community. It fucking shows.

Overall, Leigh Bardugo as a disabled person wrote two incredibly meticulous and empowered disabled characters, and due to either lack of reading comprehension, ableism, or a quirky mix of both, the fandom has ignored canon and the experiences of disabled people for…. shits and giggles i guess. And yes, there are issues with the Grishaverse and disability representation - while I haven’t finished them yet so I do not have an opinion on it, people have been discussing issues in the KOS duology with ableist ideals. This mini series was no way indicative of the entire disabled experience, nor does it represent my entire view on the representation as a whole. These things need to be met critically in our community, and talked about with disabled voices at the forefront. For example, the limited perspective we get of Wylan and Kaz being both white men, does not account for a large portion of the disabled community and the intersection of multiple identities.

All-in-all, Critique media, but do not forget to also critique fandom spaces. Alternatively, just shut the fuck up :)

happy fucking disability pride month, ig

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delicrieux · 3 years

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☆ﾐ 𝚖𝚊𝚔𝚎 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚜𝚊𝚢 “𝚘𝚑”

PART 10: BIG DICK IS BACK IN TOWN

y/n is back in brooklyn for the holidays. thinking that a stream will make her feel less homesick for cali, she starts working on her famously titled hentai.free.srv. what was supposed to be a relaxing stream turns into a special delivery about two hours in.

─── corpse husband x reader ─── soc. media + written fiction! ─── word count: 2.2k ─── ❥ req: Here's one... You know those apps for delivery like Domino's or whatnot... What if reader is streaming Among Us with Corpse, and reader mentions they're hungry and Corpse offers to order them food, and readers like no no it's fine... Then there's delivery at the door (Corpse ordered beforehand)

author’s note: fucky format is also back in town baby!!! also if you find any mistakes - no u didnt <3 thank u everyone for enjoying this story sm i literally cant believe how feral yall going strawberry cow was a nuclear explosion im still recovering tbh. got an ask a while ago and decided to incorporate it into myso. happy holidays everyone! myso will continue on monday!

ultimate masterlist. ҉ myso masterlist ҉ previous. ҉ next.

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Indeed, being soft on any social media platform was the biggest disgrace and needed to be eliminated post haste. Moreover, it was a slippery slope - once you start flooding your timeline with cute imagery and heart emojis, what will stop you from posting inspirational Facebook quotes? Disgusting. If Rae were here, she would chide you (not you thinking about her as if she’s dead or something). For once in your life, you feel like you deserve it.

Alas, you hope this little chaos you’ve caused is enough to throw everyone off. The stans, especially. You know the hashtags, you’ve seen ARMY scourging for info online with the same fervor and ruthlessness 1 Direction fans hacked airport security cameras just to spy on the boys. If you had any dirty secrets online, they are out to the public now - thankfully, besides the Harry Styles stan account (with edits and all), you have nothing. Though, now that you think about it, exposed nudes would have been better than your Punk!Harry edit receiving almost a million views. God, your life’s a fucking mess.

Your fans aren’t the only ones out for info - you, too, are trying to decipher Rae’s message. Code: Barbecue Sauce. The two of you had come up with it roughly two years ago, around the same time when you promised that if you didn’t find significant others by the time you’re 40, you’ll just marry each other. It was one of the many rules found in your friendship codex. Barbecue Sauce signifies information - an exchange of information. And depending on how it ends or begins (”So I’m sitting there” alludes to Rae, “On my titties” alludes to you), secret data on that person is given away, usually free of charge.

But why? And to whom did Rae give away what? You had pestered her mercilessly and even sent some voice messages where you were crying. You were only crying because of a video of a grandpa smiling you saw on TikTok, but you are a snake, and so you put those tears to good use. If streaming doesn’t work out, you’ll just become an actress. Hollywood would love you. Your PR firm sure as fuck wouldn’t, though.

Rae was having none of it. She said you’ll figure it out eventually. Told you to channel your superior puzzle skills. You were quick to remind her that you can barely count to ten without having an aneurysm. Oddly serious, she admitted that she worries for you sometimes. Why only sometimes?! you demanded. She merely sighed. uttering under her breath something that sounded closely to “Boke.”

You leave her for barely a week and she’s already neck deep in the gay volleyball anime, hoodie and cardboard cutout and everything. Your life is falling apart.

But Brooklyn is nice. It had snowed when you stepped off of the plane. Thousands of snowflakes sprinkling into your hair, dotting your cheeks and nose. You missed this sight back in Cali. You missed your parents, too.

Home cooked meals, old sweaters, your old room and about 40GB worth of old high school pictures on your computer. You went through them all one night. Some were stomach churning, cringe inducing nightmares. You were especially fond of those. Texted some of your friends that were still in Brooklyn, met up, decided to bake. Bad idea, Rae was the resident chef back in Cali. Besides laughing till your stomach hurt, and almost burning down your kitchen, nothing all that significant happened. Somewhere down the line, at about 3 am, half-way through a cheesy rom-com you had the overwhelming urge to text Corpse.

That’s where the problems really started. God, you missed California, missed being in the same timezone with a guy you hadn’t even met yet, how embarrassing is that?! You missed skating around and taking pictures of the beach in the setting sun, sending it to him, silently wishing he was with you to admire the view.

You really want to call him. And to hang out with him. But for some reason, the thought of that springs up immediate anxiety and you shy away from asking. Him sending you cute good morning texts doesn’t help, either. Maybe it’s better he doesn’t know that you’re a blushing, stuttering mess each time you read “baby”.

Late evening. Your stream is already set up, people are slowly trickling in and you greet them with a grin and a soft “Hello! Hi hi!”. You did your best to make your room a perfectly chaotic backdrop - led lights, an embarrassing amount of anime merch and plushies. You always try to balance out your weeb side by dressing hot as fuck for your streams - today’s inspiration just so happens to be egirls. Mostly because you watched one too many egirl make-up tutorials on TikTok, and also because you’ve been listening to Corpse’s song all day.

Yeah, no, who are you kidding, you dressed up this way because you were hoping Corpse was watching your stream. You didn’t forget your cat headphones, either. You know he likes them. You want to make him suffer. Perhaps then, finally, he will ask you out, so you wouldn’t have to.

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“I feel like,” You start when you put away your phone, staring idly at the chat, “I feel like I need a new name for you guys. Calling you guys after two years of streaming is just... weird, no? I also don’t respect men so I don’t want to call you guys. Like, so many creator’s have, like, a name for their fans. Uhm, Cody Ko has the chodesters, Kurtis Conner has, uh, folks? Kurtis Town? Citizens! Markiplier has mommy issues--” You can’t help snorting, “So, I’ve been, like, thinking - I know, shocking! - so I was thinking I’m gonna name you cockroaches. Because you’re grimy little shits impossible to kill. And also then I can use the legendary Minaj meme ROACHES!”

Your stream enthusiastically echoes ROACHES, making the chat swim. Yes, if anyone would enjoy such a name, it would be your audience. You’re as equally proud as you are disturbed.

“Well, anyway.” Leaning back into your chair, you throw your arms out with a bright grin, “Big dick is back in town, baby! If you noticed the backdrops different, it’s cuz I’m in Brooklyn now. Don’t ask me when I will return to Always Sunny, I don’t plan that far ahead.”

While Minecraft boots up, you decide to answer a few questions.

r u dating sykkuno?

You want to smack your head into the keyboard, but as it is, you can’t exactly afford a new one, so you refrain, “No, Sykkuno and I are not dating, we are just good friends. Uhm, I’m not sure how much I’ll have to repeat this, but, we really aren’t, so if the roaches could chill - Oh my God, that sounds so stupid, I love it - uh, yeah, if the roaches could chill that’d be great.”

the roaches lmao sounds like we’re a sports team

“Oh shit, yeah it does, uh-- maybe I can make like, jerseys or something. That’d be cool, I think.”

how disappointed are your parents with the way your life turned out?

“My parents are actually not disappointed at all!” You say with a cute little smile, “Uhm, they’re both really proud, actually. They’re glad I found something I love doing and made a job outta it. Dad finds my Youtube videos endearing. Yes, they watch pretty much all of my videos, unless I explicitly tell them not to. And yeah, with all the fucks and thirsting for anime characters. Uhm, it was very embarrassing at first, but I mean, after a while, shame just...doesn’t exist anymore, I guess? Funny thing about my parents, actually, when they watch my videos-” You eye catches a comment, “Oh! No, they only watch my Youtube videos. They don’t know how to use Twitter, thank God. Uhm, anyway-- when they hear a name they don’t know, like, I dunno, Dabi, or something, they google--” You’re grinning by now, eyes crinkling, giggling softly, “--who that is, and buy me like, merch and stuff. It’s really cute.

can i be adopted by ur parents plz

will you and corpse ever collab?!

You were about to answer, though the man of the hour himself decides to do it for you.

Corpse_Husband: yes.

Okay, not to say your heart skipped a beat, but it totally did. With a pleased smile, you nod, like one of those bobble head toys sold at the dollar store. The motion is oddly reminiscent of Sykkuno’s own nod. Perhaps you had picked it up from him. The chat seems to notice.

pack it up, sykkuno

More questions pile about this mysterious collab you and Corpse are planning. Yeah, you’d like to hear more about it, too, since he single highhandedly decided one was happening right now. Corpse remains silent. Fine, keep your secrets.

“Okay, guys, oh, I mean, roaches, Oh my God--” You’re covering your mouth, giggling, “-calling all roaches, calling all roaches, calm down. Everyone grab a snack and a blanket I’m turning up the music volume so we can all chill. Entering chill zone. Entering chill zone. Roaches, prepare.”

we are prepared

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An hour or so passes and you grow hungry. It shows with the amount of cakes you had baked in your server. Currently, you find yourself throwing eggs at the wall of one of the renovated houses, your face scrunched in concentration and slight frustration. 24 of the 50 eggs have been wasted. “What’s a girl gotta do to get some chicks around here?” you had uttered under your breath, until, finally, a screech - the egg finally spawns a mob. Your mouth falls open, “Aww, look!” You approach it, so small, walking in zigzags beside you, “It’s a baby chicken! Die, bitch.” The baby chicken is no more as you swing your bedazzled (you have mods) diamond sword. You’re cackling by the time the dust settles.

y/n is a child murderer

“Roaches,” You address your fan-base, spurring another fit of laughter - you can’t get over the name, “I think I’m like, forgetting that eating in Minecraft won’t actually make less hungry in real life.”

take a break and go eat queen <3

“Fuck no, we starve and die like men. Now I actually really need another chicken.”

Another twenty minutes trickle by and you’re trying to lure back a panda from the jungle when there’s a knock on your bedroom’s door. Whipping your head to the side, you slide down your headphones. At the same time, your mom pokes her head through the ajar door, “MOM!” You scream, “Get OUT of my room I’m playing Minecraft!” But your yell has no actual bite to it, as you don’t manage to hide your smile. Your mom laughs, doing some sort of sign language and motioning for you to follow her with her head. That or it’s some sort of performative dance.

“I’m live right now,” You tell her, pointing at your screen. She knows this already, though, “do you want to say hi?”

The roaches spam the chat with friendly hellos. You mom, quite impatient now, waves you over.

“Sorry, roaches, mom needs something. Be back in a bit!”

Stopping the stream, you rush out of your seat and pleased she slinks into the hallway. “What’s this about?”

“Your pizza came.”

“My what now?” You echo, confused.

“Domino’s. You ordered pizza?”

“What? No? I was busy with the stream, I never--”

Thankfully, you had managed to grab your phone from your room before you exited. You almost choke on spit once you read the messages.

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You decide that it’ll be impossible to stream after experiencing what you had just experienced. You tweet out a quick apology to the roaches (God, that fucking name) and say that you had a breakdown but you’re okay. That is as a close to the truth as you managed to muster. It’s a sad sight, chewing and crying; your mom winced when she saw your state - disheveled hair and rundown eyeliner and everything. “D’aww,” She had muttered, caressing the top of your head, “don’t cry my little raccoon.”

If anyone was ever to ask you where did your chaotic nature come from, you’d answer with my mom. To make yourself feel better, you took a selfie - duck face and peace sign and the horrible 2000′s angle. Sent it to Rae.

looking hot, her message read.

thanks, was all you replied with.

You couldn’t just leave things as they were. Once you calmed down, you wanted to text Corpse, but how would you follow up the ungodly caps lock and screeching? Impossible. An idea sprung to mind, one that was brave. Taking the first step.

Instead of sending a text, you sent a voice memo.

“Thank you for the pizza, it was delicious.”

You voice still sounded a bit raspy. His reply was instant. Your heart skipped a beat. He sent a voice memo back.

“Glad you liked it, baby.”

He was going to be the death of you.

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tundrainafrica · 3 years

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some of the aot fans (probably just casual readers) don't see the parallels between EM and LH???? like the brunettes desire to live with their ackermans together in the woods? they call levihan shippers delusionals. their attacking levihans that they didn't read the manga well and we just want our ship to be canon??? WTH????

I keep wondering if it's just us, levihans, who see these parallels?

im sorry for this rant, it's just soooo frustrating. Basically the reason why i leave twt lol not yet, im still there bcoz of lh filo socmed aus

I have so many things I wanna say about chapter 138 and I am so sorry I only got to it now. I think most Levihan fans already said what I wanted to say but either way, I’ll just give some thoughts I entertained when these came out.

Coz first of all…

As a Levihan shipper, I am obviously ecstatic about this but as most people know, I come from a household where everyone is not too enthusiastic about Levihan. They are so very enthusiastic about INVALIDATING LEVIHAN in particular that my sister and my parents who don’t even watch AOT just come up to me while I’m staring at Levihan art on tumblr and go…

“What are you doing?”

“Staring at art.”

“Oh, is that the one couple you like who don’t even love each other or smthg.”

Cause apparently my sisters who watch AOT and my boyfriend have been SO vocal about invalidating Levihan that even my parents now are on ship that they aren’t even a thing and I’m just delusional but yes, since I live in a house where literally ‘shipping Levihan’ is on the same level as ‘the curtains are blue so the narrator is sad’ type of interpretation, I will start by mentioning a more pragmatic argument to this whole Levihan and Eremika parallel.

While I am one of those who can definitely see that yes those were clear parallels, there are some louder people( mostly Eruri shippers) who think that LH fandom is just grasping on straws and trying to diminish their supposedly canon ship( because EL and EM ackerbonding thing) so I was wondering what is your view on this?

So, to break down the argument...

It’s a war story blah blah blah. And besides Mikasa loved Eren from the start blah blah blah.

I think this is an argument I see a lot. Because Yams is writing a war story and I think a lot of people are suggesting that it’s a war story here is no way anyone can be canon or anyone can have romantic relationships.

AND I HATE THIS TAKE. Relationships are human nature. Yes, being arromantic exists but I don’t believe that in a fictional space, romance can ever NOT exist. Because most---or scratch that--- I believe all humans will search for companionship and I do not believe it is ever reaching to jump from whatever companionship exists between people and contemplate the potential of romance, except incest but that’s another story.

Yeah because if there’s no kiss or sex then it’s not a romance apparently.

Well guess what, we’re all reaching then, cause only Eren and Mika got the kiss. But lemme drop some social experiment I did.

I actually showed the Eremika and Levihan ‘Let’s live together scenes’ side by side to a colleague at work who doesn’t watch AOT and she told me, WITHOUT CONTEXT, that she prefers the scene between Levihan more than Eremika and the reason behind that is because there were undertones, specifically in the Korean translation’ that Hange was tired, and there’s this apparent romantic-ness to it when you dream of something when you’re tired and when you dream of a particular someone.

Because here’s the thing, when you love someone, when you decide to be in a relationship with someone, that person will be your HOME. And now that I think about it, it definitely hits for me more, because when Hange was tired, when Hange was completely exhausted and spent, she dreamt of a future with Levi.

And don’t you think that it’s more romantic that ‘despite everything, she thinks of him’ compared to ‘she constantly thinks of him?’ Because I dunno, when someone is constantly thinking of someone, there’s actually no effort really needed for the feeling to grow, but when ‘they think of someone, despite everything.’ There’s this idea that the relationship can withstand more things and that means they thought long and hard about it.

Their life is so interesting and eventful, yet at the end of the day, there exists someone who still shines brighter than life itself and that’s why ‘Despite everything, she thinks of him’ rings brighter than ‘she constantly thinks of him’ for me at least.

Probably a personal preference thing but either way… Just my take.

Western people don’t consider running away ‘romantic?’

This is something I’ve discussed with filo moots multiple times and this is something I’ve thought about reading the Japanese and English translations, reading the Filipino Soc Med AUs and having my friend read the Korean ones.

The Japanese and Koreans are quick to see the romantic undertones, a lot of my Filipino moots are quick to see those romantic undertones too. But we have the western fandom on Reddit going ‘Yo Erehisu foh evah’ and people saying ‘Levihan not canon they didn’t kiss.’

But YO both of my parents are ‘tanan’ (runaway in tagalog) babies. My mom actually ran away with a man and wasn’t allowed to talk to her dad until she graduated. My dad disobeyed his parents to marry my mom. They were setting my dad up with another woman and they were going to have a big wedding and everything but my dad was like…

NOPE Imma run away and marry this woman.

And can I just say, my parents are the MOST unromantic people but they literally disobeyed their parents, ran away together, literally risked their relationships with their parents to make it work.

And my parents are one of the few people in their family who are still in a happy relationship even after 25 years of marriage.

Okay, I admit, sometimes running away is a dumb decision and shouldn’t constantly be romanticized.

But I don’t think a lot of people understand the gravity of what ‘tanan’ entails. Legit, it was emphasized in 138 already, if Eren ran away, Paradis could have been overrun by military soon. And if Hange and Levi ran away to the woods, ‘what would there have been left for them?

And in real life, my mom literally gave up her relationship with her dad to try to make the relationship work. My dad gave up the comforts of marrying a rich woman in a lavish wedding to marry my mom.

They literally had a civil wedding, went out to eat Chinese noodles and China town as a post wedding meal and 25 years later, they have one of the strongest relationships I’ve ever seen.

AND NO ONE RUNS AWAY WITH SOMEONE FOR THE LELZ. So yes, running away with someone will always be romantic for me.

And the Ackerbond?

Something I always find myself asking. Why do people want the Ackerbond to actually be a thing? Because if the Ackerbond were real, then wouldn’t that invalidate all Eruri and Eremika even more since we know they’re just trapped in the relationship like Stockholm syndrome or something?

And besides didn’t Yams debunk that chapters ago?

Anyway, onto the next questions

hi sav! i have a question about the recent chapter. do you think the em and lh parellels were done on purpose by isayama?

And to answer this question… I am not so sure actually. I talked to a Japanese friend who grew up in the same prefecture as Yams, apparently it was her acquaintance from high school who married Yams and they were childhood sweethearts.

So maybe Yams got it from them? My memory on that convo is hazy but it’s only possible that he built Eremika from there. And Levi and Hange’s development is just incredibly different that I don’t think Yams thought that far to do it.

My theory here is that Yams is writing a war story and he only has one way he could have ever shown romance in a war story and that’s through ‘running away’ so I believe the parallels are unintentional but I genuinely believe that this was Yam’s way of showing romantic undertones.

And I personally do not think that Levi and Hange would have ever kissed in that time in their life, at least intentionally and I hoenstly commend Yams for doing such a good job with the subtlety of the romance because I’ve literally seen so many great characters in other stories completely butchered by a poorly done romantic subplot so I aint complaining about these romantic undertones.

But either way,

I hang in the Japanese fandom a lot and there have been lots of fandom discussion on Levihan becoming endgame if 132 didn’t happen. And there are actually articles on this putting Levihan as endgame along with Eremika so I’m kinda suspecting that invalidating Levihan is an anime-only fan and reddit fandom type of thing.

But anyway, thank you for reading, sorry for the long rant.

#levihan #meta

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hanmegumi · 3 years

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Oh yeah I forgot to tell you I finished shadow and bone!

Thoughts:

~ Nina joining the crows? YES PLEASE

~ Mal and Alina are off on their own again, and honestly I prefer it that way, although if they join the crows that's even better

~JESPER RECAPPING IT THEN SAYING "I MEAN MILO" JOKINGLY- Its great

~ Sucks that the darkling's still alive, was hoping he died even though I did think he'd live. He looks so creepy now, kind reminds me of Catra in season 3 of spop

~ Zoyalina hug? I want content of their friendship really bad

Overall I loved Shadow and bone and Im definitely going to read all the grishaverse books soon

FIgURED AS MUCh hONEY-

nina’s canonically always been a crow and i want to give you so many spoilers rn but i will keep them to myself- (just think abt the fact that not only nina’s on the boat 👀)

akjsakjfs mal and alina joining the crows... that’d be... interesting... but they won’t hun :c they will have so many adventures thO, S2 CONFIRMATION WhEN @netflix

JESPER LOVES MILOOOO and so do i- i love how inej is amazing and can learn tons of information effortlessly but, also inej after jesper mentioned milo for the 7th time: w h o m s t- (at least she recognizes it’s the goat at the end akjksdks)

yeah the darkling is still p much alive and he’s more powerful now akjsajdkjs- YEAh i mean i didnt remember he’d have scars??? he looks cool!!! (i mean he’s a b*tch but he’s one of the best villains i’ve ever read??)

zoYALINA FRIENDShIP?? hUN WhY ASK for a friendship when it can b smth more 😏 /hj zoyalina rights @fire-sapphics back me up here-

YESSSSSSSS READ ThE BOOKS MARS. you should start with the sab trilogy and then read soc- because the first trilogy explains a lot of things that are important later on-

#bc remember the series is a superposition of both sagas so no crows at first :c but a lot of alina and mal and zoya and gENYA AND DAVID-#we were robbed of genya and david this season :c #mars tag #mars watches sab #mars finishES SAB #i dont think you'll be reacting to s2 bc you will've already read the books :c #BUT we can react to each other on our dm's-#i did that with sums this season and it was amazing-#sab spoilers

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mel-street · 4 years

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i finished kos 2 days ok so here are moi honest opinions

spoilers after the cut. be warned :)

ZOYALI: askdjfkdsfjdsk jdsf they’re so cuteeee. i mean, i know people shipped them before, but i didn’t really care until after finishing kos and ajfkdsjfdksf i will go down with that ship, they’re adorable, and if zoyalai isn’t canon i will die

NINA

ok, don’t get me wrong i love my waffle queen, but her chapters were either really emotional (a certain *ahem* chapter had me crying and putting the book down 4 different times) or really boring. and i love nina, but i didnt particularly care about her mission and at times i really hated her chapters. (sorry nina i still love you with all my heart though)

ISAAK:

he was such a cinnamon roll :(

LEONI:

i want to hug her and be her best friend for the rest of my life. also i want to scree at her to get together with adrik ;)

ADRIK: i love my smol emo son

HANNE: ok i need to rant about her. I REALLY DIDN’T LIKE HER. literally 2 days after burrying matthais, nina sees her and then it’s like

“mathias, who’s that hehe, i only know this hot girl who i compliment every 5 minutes”

would they be really cute together in some alternate universe? yes they would

but matthias just died and my helnik heart still hasn’t healed, and i don’t believe nina’s heart has healed either so PLEASE SLOW DOWN NINA

also she’s too perfect and stereotypical. so no i don’t like hanne

NIKOLAI: i didn’t like him that much in shadow and bone, but as i was reading kos i was like “oh shit he’s hot” soooo.... new fictional boyfriend :)

ZOYA: a queen we stan.

THE PLOT: ok, the book despite being like 500 pages, felt really fast. i read it in like one day. and i didn’t have anything wrong with it except that the whole switching p.o.v thing may have worked in soc, but it didn’t in kos

OTHER RANDOM THINGS:

whenever someone mentioned kaz i felt like i was being stabbed (i miss him sm)

jesper and leoni need to meet NOW

zoyalai zoyalai zoyalai

mathias *sobs*

THE ENDING:

if you follow me you know that im in love with the darkling (stabby bad boys hehe) and i did know that he came back, but i dont’ know how to feel about it.

his body got burned up right?? is he still hot??

also i love him (not what he did) but seeing everyone want to kill him also has me mad at him (*pouts*) so idk how to feel about this. if he kills anyone i love then i’ll stop liking him (probably not though) but for now im happy he’s back

#king of scars #king of scars spoilers #zoya nazyalensky #nina zenik #nikolai lantsov #adrik #leoni #the darkling

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evieoftheisle-remade · 6 years

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what is your absolute favorite ship? how did you start shipping your favorite pairing? what’s a ship you like that most people don’t? what’s a ship you hate that most people like? what is the most underrated ship, in your opinion? what is the most overrated ship, in your opinion? what’s your favorite headcanon of your favorite pairing? favorite AU ideas for a SoC pairing? what song(s) remind you of your favorite pairing?

what is your absolute favorite ship?

SOLANGELo

how did you start shipping your favorite pairing?

I’ve loved nico since the beginning of time

*Since 2007

*(bratty 10 yo angel nico di angelo was a big role model for me)

I worship everything he does and every choice he makes, boy, perfect,

Will is perfect for him

(Will solace has been a solid Bae since 2009)

*(Healers are a weakness of mine smh dont give anyone healing powers unless u want me to love them)

Anyway him showing up in TLH alone was a fucking god damn blessing in my heart and then rick is like “oh we are not finished with him yet” and damn just

wow

(iconic)

sometimes i still cant believe it what a

literal!!!!!

what

(wow)

what’s a ship you like that most people don’t?

idc if mal/carlos counts? Im not really in any fandoms wide enough to say what “most people” ship or dont ship. i dont think mal and carlos is v popular but i would fucking die for them thnks

what’s a ship you hate that most people like?

i dont kno w !! i have some hardcore notps but but no means do i think its something “most people” ship

what is the most underrated ship, in your opinion?

Since ive got PJO on the brain imma say Percy/Grover!! They’d be really precious please

ALSo i think im just getting picky abt the word “most” lmao. bc all my answers feel like lies bc i definitely dont think its the “most” underrated lmao. they just deserve more cred

what is the most overrated ship, in your opinion?

BRUh idk!! i dont wanna be negative abt ships on my blog.

i rlly only have a problem w ships being popular if theres a bad age difference or inces/t or a power gap or something

what’s your favorite headcanon of your favorite pairing?

I REAd a headcanon somewhere once that Will always is wearing headphones/earbuds, and people always assume “eh apollo kids listening to music” but in reality hes listening to murder/horror podcasts or something?

Anyway that stemmed into me headcanoning that Will always infodumps about random old unsolved murder facts and things of that sort and Nico always listens and sometimes provides Underworld Kid Insight™ that Will goes absolutely wild for

Also nico likes to put his Cold Cold zombie fingers on Will’s neck when he isn’t expecting it and Will shRIEKS evrytime “YOU ASSHOLE!”

favorite AU ideas for a SoC pairing?

This isn’t a ship AU bc I never make SoC aus that are focused on one ship lmao but

i have a lame basic spy au where they all have code names based off constellations cuz im a ho

Kaz & Inej were Corvus & Crater (fucking duh)

Jesper and Wylan were Cygnus and Aquilla (A shitty assignment but I couldn’t think of anything better bc classic constellation matches r very limited options)

Nina and Matthias were Ara and Lupus (Which are only vaguely speculated to be related constallations but ya boi doesnt care bc the symbolic concept is gorgeous)

Kuwei was Orion but i might change it, but orion is a pretty badass spy codename and i like it for him

anyway i already hate myself for sharing this much lmao i hate sharing fic and original stuff so dont be surprised if i delete this part in like 10 minutes

and if i dont, good for me

dont ever mention this to me bc i will have a breakdown

what song(s) remind you of your favorite pairing?

OK SO FOR SOLANgelo:

Make you stay by TGATDC!

Favorite Record by FOB!

Plant life by Owl City!

Always by P!AtD

The Poison by All-American Rejects

Fight For Me from Heathers lmao

[Ship Asks!]

#asks #lightninghime

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blacknsen · 7 years

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86-100,

86.) favorite soc?• def bob he’s a great character that everyone is missing out on 87.) favorite greaser?• im gonna go w steve 88.) was the movie or the book better?• def the book! i love all the details like soda having mickey mouse, the mention of other gangs, two bit having a lil sister etc etc, it paints the perspective more and it’s fun to think about those small mentions you know? a movie cant do all that 89.) favorite scene?• when pony gets back and the whole gang is just interacting w each other at the curtis house w soda coming out of the shower and ponyb wrestling two bit, that whole part was cute, oh and also dally dying bc he did the most 90.) who would you want to date?• NONE if a man came up to me with literal grease in his hair he would be Canceled. 91.) favorite book/movie in the hinton franchise? (except for the outsiders)• that was then this is now! it had my favorite plot out of all the books, plus mark is a great character AND we get the shepards 92.) least favorite character and why?• cathy carlson is hands down The Worst character, she rolled up back into town and immediately hooked up w bryon and then tries to push his lifetime best friend, mark, away from him?? bish you just showed that’s not your place, she didnt go after her little brother when he ran away, she was a huge chunk of the reason why bryon and mark drifted apart and after doing that what does she do? breaks up with bryon ofc (i hate him too tho) and to top it off she ends up dating PONY. the guy bryon’s ex (angela) dumped him for. cathy can choke. 93.) what did the outsiders teach you?• we’re all ppl and literally everyone goes through struggles and that cannot and more importantly should not be overlooked by labels (rich, poor, black, white etc etc) 94.) are you more of a soc or a greaser?• soc, im not rich or anything but if i had to choose one or the other 95.) did you cry when you read the book? watched the movie?• nope 96.) who is the most attractive character?• terry in the movie for that was then this is now bc he was black and he rapped  97.) favorite greaser girl?• evie, but angela is real close 98.) do you prefer the shepards or the curtis’?• the shepards 99.) who is the most influential character?• already answered!  100.) who is your overall favorite character and why?•already answered!

#thanks for asking!!#meee

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arillusionist · 7 months

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shadow and bone ep5 reaction its been 3 whole days since i watched this show 🤯🤯 also i started reading the s&b book!! its pretty good but obviously like the show its v predictable and definitely not on the level of the soc books

we starting off with the crows?? im being blessed omg 🥹🥹

LMAOO JESPER AND INEJ'S FACES WHEN THEY REALIZED THEY COULDNT BRING THEIR ICONIC WEAPONS

ketterdam mention (me when im insane)

also genya and alina have chemistry I CAN SEE IT theyre actually pretty cute

help not me saying this right before genyas crush comes in 💀💀 (well hes her crush in the books idk if they changed it)

oh my god alina looks so cool using her powers 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

ok yeah he definitely is her crush also not alina just rejecting the glove like that?? damn 😭

i cant take kaz seriously he looks so. stupid

honestly i kinda forgot the crows are literally trying to capture alina help

theyre giving jesper a temporary 2 second love interest because wylan isnt here

i feel so bad for inej why are they always doubting her 💔💔

i NEED some conflict in alina's plot like girl why are you always happy!!! wheres the angst!!!! 😐

IM CRYINF THEY WHITEWASHED ALINA 💀💀💀

"new guy" STOP ACTING LIKE HES ACTUALLY PART OF THE CREW BECAUSE HES NOT

he just wants him and inej to be together

everytime alina and the darkling are in the same room i feel so. ugh like GET AWAY FROM HERRR

STOP NO DONT KISS HIM 😭😭 they better reveal him as a villain fast because i cannot handle a love triangle

jesper is way out of that stable boy's league i mean cmon but his flirting is so funny

"shes suli" TELL THEM!!!!! 🔥🔥also finally zoyas here i missed her

"is it my size?" "you have to ask" STOP THEYRE LITERALLY MARRIED 😭😭 i love their banter sm im glad its not all angst

the way inej just walked away 💀💀 girl is not in the mood to listen to his blabbering

inej is so ready to prove kaz wrong

awwhjffjkg the look on inej's face 🥹🥹 i love her sm also she should punch kaz

...how long was jesper fucking that stable boy

need this old man to shut up

ughhh here comes the classic banter between the two love interests PLEASE REVEAL THE DARKLING IS A VILLAIN ALREADY 🙏🙏

yes yes i can feel the real plot finally coming

LMAO DUMBASS HE GOT THE WRONG GIRL.

i keep forgetting how fucking smart kaz is!! of course he would know there was a double

ok yes thank god he was planning to ditch that "new guy" he was annoying i didnt want him

not the darkling ruined the crows plan so he can make out with alina 💀💀

oh my god how long is the kiss scene

ok YES this is the reveal scene i have been!! waiting!! for this!!

YESSSSS 🔥 thank god i dont have to see anymore darklina makeout scenes

ok but if baghra is the darklings mother why does he keep her around?? wouldnt he know she can go around telling people his true intentions??

or maybe he doesnt know she knows his true intentions

idk tho he seems like the kind of person who would

lets be honest kaz looks so good when hes murdering people

OH MY GOD

SHE KILLED HIM??

SHE REFUSED TO KILL BUT SHE DID IT

IN A FUCKING CHURCH TOO

SHE DID IT IN A HEARTBEAT FOR KAZ 😭😭😭😭😭

THE WAY HE LOOKS AT HER???? LIKE SHES A SAINT OH MY GODDD 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

i love them so much oh my god

"you saved my life" HHDHHFGHKGHj

ALINA JUST CLIMBED INTO THE BACK JUST LIKE THAT??? HELPPP 💀💀

soo im assuming this is where it deviates from the books!! i better have time to watch the next episode tmrw

#shadow and bone #grishaverse #sab reaction

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