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everyone talks about the mean girls become nurses meme but can i introduce to you the weird girl to nurse pipeline? the girlies who would start watching pimple popping videos and gradually turns into watching draining random parts of the body videos and eventually bunion surgeries

Got more time to sleep over the past few weeks and didn’t exhaust myself with any wayward thoughts. Saving my energy for more important battles. ☺️

I began visiting garden as part of my mental-health regimen. Reading/studying near garden, helps me deal with stress. (i didn’t have photos tho 😅)

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Started reading about Renal system. 🥲 Yaahs, it’s my least fav ‘cause it’s the most complex system for me. 🥲😂

So I started another new job, this time I hope to permanently stay here. It’s through a big hospital network, but I’m working in an outpatient setting so less stressful in regards to no life and death situations with patients anymore. The amazing thing is this place has the best benefits and the pay is almost the same as the hospital I came from. Historically, nurses work in the hospital because they pay well, so to work outpatient but still get hospital grade pay is seriously life changing for me. I make like maybe 200 dollars less now that I’m not working grueling 12 hour night shifts in the hospital. I feel very blessed. This place I work at now is super busy, I wake up at 430am every morning, and I sometimes don’t eat lunch until 230pm in the afternoon… but the thing is, I don’t have to work in a hospital. It’s crazy that we, as nurses, think it’s a luxury to just be able to afford to live without working in a hospital. It’s that fucking bad now. I feel unsafe with the working conditions there, and I’m never going back. I hope to never be a patient anytime soon.

I also just generally feel blessed because most of the patients I see now are elderly and seriously the sweetest people you will ever meet! I feel a pride in my work I haven’t felt in a long time working with this population. They are so pleasant and appreciative, and I love talking to them about their lives and learning from them. Obviously not all of them, but most of them are so kind.

Additionally, I spend most of the day injecting local anesthesia, assisting the surgeon for the procedures, and placing pressure bandages so the patients don’t bleed everywhere. I’ve become an expert on numbing people with lidocaine. I never thought I’d be this confident with needles and bandaging, but here we are.

The field of nursing is so broad, y’all. Don’t give up on the field. Get out of these hospitals until they start giving a f*ck. I’m so so tired of our healthcare system. I came into this career to make a difference, and I refuse to let these hospital managers take that joy away from me. This new job is so refreshing for my burned out nursing career.

The other day at work I had a mom call me to the room and accuse me of neglecting her child and said I hadn’t been in there for over 3 hours. I apologized of course and legitimately felt bad because even if he was my most stable patient and I was busy that didn’t mean I should neglect him. But then I started thinking about it more and I really didn’t think it had been that long. So I looked at the MAR and I’d given him Tylenol 1.5 hours ago and since I’d only been at work for four hrs and i’d been in that room at least 3 times this was the longest stretch of time I hadn’t been in there.

Even now I’m irrationally angry about it. Like how dare you make me feel guilty and neglectful about this?! I had really sick and busy patients and my job is to prioritize care and keep everyone alive not cater to your every whim and read your mind. She didn’t even have any concerns or needs that weren’t being met she just didn’t feel like I’d been in there often enough. If you have a question or a concern or need something use your call light and I will be there as fast as is reasonably possible but don’t guilt trip me for no good reason when I have a kid seizing next door

Having been closeted my entire working life I feel so shocked at the idea that people are open and honest with their coworkers about their personal lives, especially cnas/pcts/caregivers/nurses. You’re telling these people that you’re in an open relationship? You’re telling these people you’re in a relationship? The name you use at work is the SAME ONE that your friends call you? I love having job related conversations (bitching out admin for not buying enough supplies) but you could not torture insight into my actual life out of me.

Nursing be like make sure you finish every single minute detail of work and charting or the state will snipe you from a thousand yards out and make sure you take your lunch break or you'll get written up!! Also we can't afford to pay you so no overtime!! BUT make sure you ✨document everything✨ and take your lunch!! Or the state! Will KILL 🔪 YOU and yes honey of course you can handle 17 patients and an entire nurses station by yourself :) What do you MEAN you can't leave work on time????? 🤨 Didn't you hear us say no 😤overtime ??? Sign this write up

tomorrow is my last ever day as a student nurse

06.04.22 🐧

It's been ages since the last time that I visited this place. I got confused for a moment. 😆 The structures of some establishments has changed. ☺️🥴

Years ago me and my colleagues used to spend time here whenever we have spare time after shift. 💻📔📚

These past few weeks I was on a totally different mode. I lack the energy to do things that are important . I have put off some of my scheduled tasks. However, I came to realize that it's okay. 😪

It's fine not to always follow certain routine. It's necessary to breathe and to let my mind have some quiet moments once in a while. 🥺

I went back to writing down tasks again and little by little I am trying my best to have it accomplished by the end of the day. 🙏

Thank You God for making me extra happy today. Thank You for Your provision and protection. 🥺🤍

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I read about MI's complications. 💔

Random things

We had a patient come into my ED last night, who had within 24 hrs, taken radioactive iodine. She was assigned to my room. I was so afraid of that 14 year old girl and I feel SO BADLY for it.

It took so many of us scrambling to figure out how to take care of her, while also keeping ourselves safe. I still don’t even know if we protected ourselves well enough. I also realized how little we as emergency nurses know about different types of chemos, radiation, etc. When I tell you it was a hospital wide effort, I’m not even kidding. We called the on call chemo nurses, the oncology floor (biggest help), the ED pharmacist, an ED doctor, an inpatient doctor who happened to be in the ED, a different in patient doctor who walked down and heard us discussing and joined in, the trauma dept (thanks for letting me steal lead), my charge nurse, the EVS crew, the nuclear medicine dept, and I’m still probably forgetting people.

I love when a huge hospital, who is usually very divided up by departments, comes together to figure an issue out.

Today was the first day of strikes in an unprecedented action for the RCN. Making the decision to not go to work and instead stand on that picket line will have been a tough decision for everyone who did so today and will likely have to again next week or in coming days of strike action.

None of us want to leave our patients without the safe staffing they deserve, but the strain put on the NHS and the real terms pay decrease we've had over the last 10 years mean we can't recruit or train enough staff. Every day we have to face the fact we don't have enough people to allow us to give our patients what they really need from us, not to mention people are having to make a difficult decision on whether they can afford to stay in a job that doesn't allow them to afford their bills or food for their families.

NHS staff are going home in tears feeling like they failed their patients when really it's our government who have failed us all in not recognising and compensating our services for the work we do, which directly impacts on our ability to get those people we need.

Please support your NHS as we fight to give you the care you and your loved ones deserve.

a patient tried to steal my phone today 👍