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marsbotz · 4 months

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(disco elysium anon, wanted to send this separately) (and i'm sorry if this is invasive/whatever, also no pressure to respond to this at all! but if you want to talk more/ask questions then let me know however you'd like, i'm happy to send you a proper message and whatever you need)

anyway my point is: you mentioned a gender clinic referral in a tag and i'm a trans man also in the uk with a lot of experience in that area so i thought this might help in some way 👌🏼

if you've gone through the nhs, the wait times are astronomical (the shortest one is about 15 months, the longest around 62 months). the current legal limit on nhs referrals is a matter of weeks so it's literally criminal but that's another story lmao

if you go on the 'transgenderuk' subreddit there's a pinned post with current wait times and there's a wealth of information and people happy to help with anything from name changes to 3 stage surgery. also the nhs are notorious for just. not referring people to their gender clinics so if you did go through them it may make sense to give them a ring and check they did their job!

if you went through a private gender clinic and haven't heard back in months, 1000% follow up. the longest reply time i've heard is a month or two and the longest appointment wait i've seen is 7 months

lastly: there is another route. it's a lot more popular for transfems to do it, given feminising hormones are legal here but masculinising ones aren't, but transmascs (myself included) can 'diy' hormones, if hormones are the transition route you're after. even after i checked with like... tons and tons of people and different resources i was still terrified but it does work! also i get if a stranger on tumblr dot com doesn't reassure you, but i wanted to let you know about the option because it honestly saved my life and i think more transmascs need to know about this as a route especially those in this hell country lolol

for more info i would recommend the diy hrt wiki, just google that term and it should come up. i should mention though, with this though you're probably going to have to inject yourself which i know isn't for everyone (i used to need to have someone on facetime with me for like 45 minutes hyping me up lol). there is gel available on some sites but it's super expensive. also some sites will have tablets for sale but they don't work to masculinise unfortunately. OH and it's also recommended that you do blood tests semi regularly (once or twice a year) to test sex hormones and some other things like your liver, which you'll probably have to pay for yourself if you diy - in saying this though, the cost of 6 private blood tests, and 3 years worth of T and injection equipment would cost about the same as the initial appointments you need with the more reliable of the 2 private gender clinics. something something seize the means of transition

anyway. this is an absolutely insanely long message and i'm so so sorry if this is too much and too like... invasive but whats the point of having trans resources if you dont share them and whats the point of having a trans community if you dont trans commune 😎🏳️‍⚧️

WHATTTT THSI IS CRAZY THANK U. LOVE YOU. i definitelyyyyy need to look into it all more and start DOING SHITTT bc yeah this stupid fuck country SUCKKKKS. i did go thru nhs and cant afford to do private rn but ill tryyy to chase it :] THANK UUUU this is so so sweet i cld cryyyy 😭😭😭

#this si so funny bc i literally justtt rewatched that one philosophy tube vid abt the nhs the other day #BTW NON BRIT OOMFIES. rlly good vid if u wanna learn some shit abt our Awwwesomee healthcare system #edit forgot to say the video name lol. its ‘i emailed my doctor 133 times: the crisis in the british healthcare system’#i changed drs tho for uni so hopefullyyyy i can sort it out😭 the referral i mean #diy hormones seem a nice option but for me Wellll im nervous. ans forgettful. LOL and im not sure i cld do injections myself #but its a rlly interesting option #LUV U ANON. SMILESSSS #asks #SAVE

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favoriteliar · 1 year

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i think this is funny even if no one understands it

#its not even friendship ended because i still love watching ray i just need someone who streams a consistent game rn #and dags ac(nh) and minecraft vids are hitting the spot !!#star talks #tbd

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subatomicskud · 1 year

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funny just as I was writing my post about transgender healthcare I happened to stumble on this video. As a surprise to no one the NHS is a MESS

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#I love Abigails vids so much #learnt allot from her aswell as contrapoints #just a shame we live on terf island and glad shes sheding some more indepth light on the nhs with its poor trans healthcare #video #Philosophy Tube #Youtube

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stuffandwonder · 8 months

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Aww I totally wouldn't of known Rhett felt like crappie doing GME so I'm glad Link told him he did good

Lol 'I think I might have covid, let's get hammered!' yeah that probably wasn't great for it beyond initially feeling better for a few hours 😅

#not his fault if both he and jessie had tested negative tho #i work in the nhs and i will say this latest strain does seem to take a while to show up on tests tho. like you have to have had it awhile #eb catch up ramble #also cant wait to see those vids of rhett singing in the woods!#even if he kinda spoilt his solo trip by working #man is such a workaholic. gosh

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fandomhype · 3 months

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Plagiarism Somerton

I obviously didn't watch the new James Somerton apology video ON his channel because I did not want to give that man the views and you shouldn't either! It has been re-uploaded and summarised elsewhere so that he doesn't benefit if anyone wants to see it.

The original hbomberguy video was wild to me because of all the stealing, I found it highly entertaining, loved all the Memes and it honestly did my imposter syndrome wonders! but then I watched the Todd in the shadows video and it really upset me.

He didn't just steal from other LGBT creators he lied to his mostly young LGBT audiance who were looking to an elder gay for guidance and to learn about their history.

Todd's video starts with a clip of James lies being spread by another person on a podcast, there's clips of people discussing his made up gay nazi fanfic he has presented as hard facts. He actively harmed his own community for cash! There are young gay men bringing that subject up in conversation being laughed at for falling for it and that leaves a really bad taste in my mouth.

Now I'm not a part of that community but a lot of people I love are so that angered me a lot.

...and then he comes back with another apology video, conveniently within the three months he would have had to post something on his channel to retain his monetisation status weirdly?! In which he blames both a head injury and his ADHD for his theft - at no point does he address the lying in either apology video or any of the apology posts he made that I could find.

I have combined ADHD, when I was first diagnosed the NHS referred to it as ADD with Hyperactivity element but everyone seems to have gone back to calling it ADHD and that is the term used most commonly online so that is what I refer to it is as.

I am medicated but there has been a world wide shortage of my medication and I was without it for some time over winter, which was HELL! I got nothing done.

I am in no way a big creator, Youtube for me is a fun wee hobby that will hopefully grow and allow me to collaborate with other people with similar interests but ADHD is for sure a large part of my journey as a creator.

I've published like 7 videos and currently have around 10 being worked on because, you know... ADHD! *siren noises*

I know that I am forgetful sometimes, just for the record I also had several head injuries and concussions as a child because Lil undiagnosed at the time me truly had no fear of climbing or other dangerous activities so I have my script (because free talking a subject with this brain would be nearly impossible) open in one google doc and my research open in another. It's not hard.

That's the way it was at school, college and Uni too. James claims he went to Uni to do business. Every university uses anti-plagerism software for essays and has done since like the mid 2000's? so he knows not to copy pasta. He's straight up lying there.

Another thing he's lying about is his ADHD making him forget he copied things. Now if you tell me a joke that I like it'll stick in my head and I will straight up tell it as my own later, I've been called out for this many times! But entire articles? whole sections of other peoples videos? (he also flipped a fan Vid he had ripped off of another YouTube to avoid detection and tried to pass it off as his own) No that's not something you can accidentally do even with a swiss cheese brain like mine.

Weirdly all the the paragraphs James claims he accidentally copied were also edited to remove aspects of the Trans, Bi and Ace experiences that James markedly does not believe exist. Strange considering he accidentally copied them and assumed they were his own words? Imagine going back through a paragraph you think you wrote yesterday in the edit the next day and finding swarths of things you don't agree with there?!

Why am I telling you all this? Well because I wanted to put my two cents in as a creator with this condition, partly because I felt it was somewhat of an attack on us!? He's put it out there that ADHD creators are liable to steal from others and that's not ok by me. Also I just really like the sound of my own typing!

TL;DR : James Sommerton is a suck ass liar and he doesn't get to use his disability as an excuse for what he did! and...

****** ADHD DOES NOT MAKE YOU STEAL SHIT!!! ******

Also watch Todd's Vid, everyone saw the Hbomberguy one but this one goes deeper:

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#james somerton #actually adhd #james sommerton #hbomberguy

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thebiscuiteternal · 4 months

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Would NHS and MXY ever record and upload their haunted horror adventures, because imagine NMJ finding out through some platform’s trending page 💀

Good question! I think Huaisang would mostly stick to photography because that's his art, though Xuanyu might make some phone recordings, especially of anything particularly creepy-looking. I imagine the public at large would probably think the vids were just Backrooms-style well-made movies, but Mingjue and Huaisang are from old-family ghost hunters, so he'd know the real thing when someone forwarded him the links.

He also knows about the abandoned building stuff... sort of. Huaisang's probably told him about some of the assorted places that he's been called to in order to remove critters. Whether or not he knows about the hobby aspect, I'm not sure yet. Either way, how much he'd chew out Huaisang mostly depends on how much danger was recorded.

#lol this is turning out to be a fun au #mdzs #nie huaisang #mo xuanyu #nie mingjue #if this gets enough posts i'll give it a tag #oldest view mdzs au

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wangxianficfinder · 2 years

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Fic Finder

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1. Hello, I was hoping that you lovely people can help me find an ao3 fic that I’ve been searching for. WWX is brought back the same way as canon but it wasn’t MXY who summoned him but an original character. WWX ends up in Cloud Recesses because he interacts with LXC AND LWJ a lot in the story. The twist is that the person who brought WWX back hated him so much that he wanted WWX to suffer really badly. WWX figures it out/knows. It does end up with a happy ending. Thank you!~

Hello, beautiful people. Im the anon who submitted #1 from the latest fic finder post. Unfortunately the fic I’m looking for is not Beauty and the Boot. The original character who summoned WWX was male and hated the Yiling Patriarch. The fic had a lot of angst as well if that helps🥲

NOT FOUND! ❤️Beauty and the Boot by PTchan (T, 44k, wangxian, summoned by f!oc, Canon Divergence, Romantic Comedy, Genderbending, Denial, Fem!WWX, WangXian kids, Crack-ish, WIP)

FOUND! A Storm of Laughter in the Stillness of the Jingshi by OnlyMeAndMyBones (T, 73k, WangXian, Angst with a Happy Ending, Hurt/Comfort, Injury, Recovery, Pain, Mental Illness, Depression, PTSD, Rehabilitation, slow burn but significantly less so than canon, miscommunication is still a thing tho, Empathy, Guilt, Forgiveness, it's not THAT dark actually)

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2. Hey. I've been looking for a fic that I read I while ago for so long. WWX accidentally sets off a talisman and gets deaged.? I remember that he is stuck in that form for a while and takes zidian from JC. Later when he finds out about LWJs scars on his back he threatens the lan elders with it and says something like this isn't even hia weapon and imagine if he dad one of his own.. thanks bye

FOUND? Silver & Gold by beeswaxing (E, 162k, wangxian, Mojo’s post)

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3. Hi! I'm trying to find a wangxian fanfic I read long ago. It's where LWJ is engaged to JYL and WWX is engaged to JZX. I remember a specific part where JZX got jealous when he saw WWX and LWJ hanging out a lot and told WWX that he is his and not LWJs. WWX took offense to this and punched JZX telling him he cant control him. Endgame is ofc wangxian but yeah. I cant find it 😭 @journalsofagoddess

FOUND? Neatly Arranged by thunderwear (T, 45k, WangXian, Arranged Marriage, Angst with a Happy Ending, lwj’s mother is here but only briefly, RIP, Shenanigans, Fix-It, of sorts, Canonical Character Death, but not all, did i forget to tag pining, because this fic is like 90 percent pining, Hurt/Comfort)

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4. Hello! Thank you for your hard work! I'm trying to find a fic there LWJ is a youtuber, and he does these 'day in the life of a college student' where he's just perfect at everything- meticulous, on top of his life and studies, and ultra competent. WWX, at the same college, then posts a response video where he shows what's it really like as a student and its just a troll/spoof of LWJ's vids where he cries like three times a day and eats junk food, etc. This goes on for months, with many videos and WWX accidentally becomes popular. Then wangxian meet and fall in love about it. NHS and JC help WWX with the vids, and i think the summary said something like 'three idiots make a youtube channel'. Anyway, hope someone can put together better search parameters than me. Thank you! @somevariationofgay

FOUND! like, comment, share & subscribe by detectorist (T, 22k, WangXian, Modern AU, College/University, YouTube, Social Media, Flirting, Humour, Banter, Getting Together, First Kiss, Texting, so much texting, Youtubers For Social Justice, The Gang Gets Political, Competitive Flirting Via The Medium Of Youtube, it's about the yearning, YouTube Rivals To Lovers)

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5. Hi! I recently found this page and it looks amazing. I’ve been looking for the AO3 au fic. The premise is that in this world, people are able to essentially enter their minds kind of like a vr situation and create worlds. This has become a very lucrative business. Wei ying entered a simulation that was MDZS and as a result he entered a 13 month coma. Everyone thought he was dead. But he retired from the business. But then the juniors call him in for “one last mission” which is basically the yi city arc. and he and lan zhan work through some unspoken tension and then they get together. @awkwardly-cry-ing-in-the-corner

FOUND! some lovely, perilous thing by varnes (E, 24k, WangXian, Inception Fusion, Criminal Associates To Lovers, Heist Case Fic)

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6. Hey, it's me again haha so I read this ff long time ago and it was soo good unfortunately i cant remember the title

So like, the cultivation world needs yiling laozu's help and they tried to summon him using mo xuanyu but they failed since yl lz appeared in his own original body and not in mxy. Anyway so history repeats itself, wwx knows everybody especially lan zhan cuz he his "friend" that time. They became curious about wwx, they found his journal and he kept talking about this certain friend eventually they found out the friend's name is lan zhan lan wangji. Time skip they found out that lwj reincarnated, he looks exactly the same as wwx's friend. Lxc said it was impossible cuz all their ancestors died because of an explosion that was caused by wwx bavk in the day.

There is this spefic scene, wwx kept blaming himself because he was the reasom why lz died, ok so lz married a woman (arranged marriage) and had child with her, wy was heartbroken and told lz that he has feelings for him, lz also has feelings for him, so when lz heard that the sects will have a siege in burial mounds he went there and protected wy then something happened and the surroundings explode.

Anyway, they have come to a conclusion that wy is an immortal, he took care of lz's child, lz reincarnated he fought really hard to keep his body and appearance the same

Thank you thank youuuuuuuu for all your hard work @hellothere9597

FOUND? Old Foreshadows by protos_metazu_ison (M, 15k, WangXian, YL WWX, BAMF WWX, War, Universe Alteration, Sunshot Campaign, Rated For Violence, Timeline What Timeline)

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7. Hi hi, I hope y'all are doing well ^^ Ive recently been thinking about a fic i read in late 2019/early 2020 and I was hoping to get some help finding it? What I remember about it is that after Mo Manor, wwx doesnt go to Dafan mountain and instead travels until he finds a village and starts working there as a farmer. wn is also there after a while and he helps wwx. lwj visits the village but doesnt recognize wwx at first. If anyone knows what fic this is id be vv grateful! @storming-raumo

FOUND? focal, filler, and line by bosbie (T, 26k, wangxian, canon divergence, flower shop au, fluff, hurt/comfort, pining, falling in love, WWX is not recognized in Dafan mountain, slice of life, WIP) wwx is not a farmer but the rest checks out

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8. Fic finder! I binged All Of The Yiling Wei Sect AUs recently and they all kind of blurred together in my brain, so I THINK all of this happens in the same fic but I could be wrong and if I am I'm so, so sorry. In the fic Wei Wuxian very briefly worked with the talisman scammer to sell actual Yiling Laozu talismans for a decent penny, then one of the Wen uncles convinced him they should set up their own stall. They made talisman paper out of the burial mounds bamboo and it was red. There was a scene when the Wen went on trial and Wen Ning was able to speak to the people in the room, proving that he's cognizant and not a mindless puppet. The Jiang ended up taking the Wei as a subordinate sect I believe? And WWX started to make friends with Jin Guangyao. @lewiscarrolatemybrain

FOUND! Grave dirt by esama (T, 92k, wangxian, canon divergence, necromancy, demonic cultivation, farming, found family, pre-slash, politics, Fix-it of sorts, yilingwei sect au)

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9. I am looking for a fic, maybe it is part of the Amnesia rec list, or if not it should be! Wwx has lost about 2 months of memory. Turns out that in that time he and LZ got engaged. He tries to work out if this is a real engagement or not. There is also a discussion conference at CR and Jiang Cheng is there. I particularly remember the scene where Wwx finds out the engagement wasn't real, goes to JC and cries about it. Then JC storms to the Jingshi to shout at LZ for making WY cry. I love that scene, but who wrote it again? Thanks for helping me out! @kesterling

FOUND! put your heart where your mouth is by protos_metazu_ison (T, 20k, wangxian, JC & WWX, post-canon, misunderstanding, memory loss, pining & insecure WWX, happy ending, twin prides of yunmeng feels, fluff & angst, protective JC)

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10. Hi, I'm looking for a fic where the sword goes through both JYL and JC at Nightless City. WWX takes them both back to Lotus Pier and essentially locks the place behind a barrier, but the sect itself doesn't really mind. I think it was one chapter in a collection but I can't be sure.

FOUND? Chapter 2 of Cosmic by apathyinreverie (T, 10k, wangxian, JC & WWX & JYL, everyone lives au, yunmeng sibling dynamics, protective yunmeng Jiang sect, romance, smitten LWJ, oblivious WWX, powerful WWX, possessive LWJ, soft WWX, streetkid WWX, time travel fix-it, modern setting)

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11. Hi! Love the work you all do. Keep the good work. So for a fic finder... I've been looking for this fic I started reading a while ago but then had to stop. I'm pretty sure I bookmarked it but alas I haven't had any luck finding it. That's why I'm putting my faith in you guys and the readers. So this is what I remember: it was a WIP, it was post canon, wangxian, JC and JL are in CR, JC want a fight, WWX said a few truth and JL goes to WWX, it is said that JYL went to the battle to die on purpose. @multitudeofmes

FOUND! What Happens When The Self-Sacrifing Idiot Snaps by WiFi_Stalker (Not rated, 1k, wangxian, post-canon, not Jiang friendly, not YZY friendly, not JC friendly, not JYL friendly, WWX snaps, WIP)

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12. I'm looking for a fic from 1-2 years ago, in English, was a WIP, where LWJ is Chief Cultivator and WWX is wandering on his own. WWX meets a nobleman who invites WWX to stay with him and encourages him to use his cultivation, to the benefit of the common people. The fic was from LWJ's perspective (I think?) and mostly took place in letters exchanged, with some exposition before or after a letter. Wangxian implied, not confirmed; fic author debating confirmation. Does the fic still exist? @acasualgeek

FOUND? To Start A Bridge From A Single Log by ChilianXianzi (T, 4k, wangxian, WWX & OMC, post-canon, chief cultivator LWJ, inventor WWX, politics, epistolary, pining, jealous LWJ, sugar baby WWX, WIP)

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13. Hi! I need help finding this fic. It's a special agent (James bond style) Lan Wangji and Q Wei Wuxian. I tried looking everywhere and with every tag I could think of on AO3 but I could only find the one where Wei Wuxian is a 007. I remember it starts out with Lan Wangji in the car watching a house or something and then Wei Wuxian talks to him over an ear com. He had to take MianMian's place as she was busy/ on pregnancy leave? I can't remember. Also, Wei Wuxian gets shocked when he realizes Lan Wangji always brings back his kit in perfect condition. Thank you!!

FOUND? 💖 some life yet unspent by Fahye (E, 28k, wangxian, spies & secret agents au)

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14. Is the one fic, where Wei Wuxian and Lan Wangji dual cultivate a Yin core in Wei Wuxian still up on AO3? Wei Wuxian, before he knows he’s going to dual cultivate with Lan Wangji, has nightmares that he’s going to have to dial cultivate with Wen Qing. Lan Wangji has to rail him five times in a night.

FOUND! i had to abandon myself (you took all of me) by justdoityoufucker (E, 27k, WIP, WangXian, Canon Divergence, Burial Mounds Settlement Days, Novel Characterizations, Philosophy, Illnesses, Chronic Pain, Cultivation Sect Politics, Dual Cultivation, LWJ fucks a core into WWX, On Hiatus) might be this? Unfortunately it's on hiatus right now :[

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15. Hello! I don’t know if this fic is still up. I couldn’t find it so… I can remember some details of this fic, but it’s basically a shameless Lan Wangji time-travel fanfic where he changes the whole story by saving Wei Wuxian from the beginning in Cloud Recesses. I forgot the name… I remember that part of the summary was the line; “If you give me a kiss, I’ll let you go.” Or something like that…

FOUND! could be the deleted "OOC!" by A_flower_in_the_snow. It was reuploaded on Wattpad

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16. i read a fic a while ago where WWX survived the seige but lost most of his memory and ended up finding a shrine and moving in there. He stayed there with a-yuan for years taking care of the shrine. Eventually LWJ found him. thats really all i remember but if you could help me find it that would be amazing!! thank you!!! :)

FOUND? #16 was This House is Loved by Ribena but has been deleted

SIMILAR! And They Have Escaped The Weight of Darkness by cosmicmilktea (T, 10k, WangXian, Canon Divergence, Amnesia, Memory Loss, Grief/Mourning, Implied/Referenced Sexual Assault, Screw the Cultivation world tbh, The Lan precepts deserves better, Angst and Hurt/Comfort, Falling In Love, domestic life, Social justice boyfriends wangxian, Happy Ending) is a deleted fic, however this fic is similar to it (no ayuan tho)

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17. Hi first of all thank you for your womderful work i always find good fics to read because of this blog next please help me find this fic ive been serching all over. This fic is a role reversal instead of wwx its lwj who died. I remember that he died before the 33rd whip and a lan member got guilty and brought him back. His ribbon was also missing in the beginning of the story. wwx is a sec leader now yiling wei sect at wei sizhui brought lwj to get help because lwj is looking for something and he hides is face. Thank you for the help and good job @ladyxyraine

FOUND? Restart from the End by EmBlu (IcyDeath) (G, 71k, wangxian, resurrection, canon divergence, temporary major character death (LWJ), JYL & JZX & NMJ live, yilingwei sect au, sect leader WWX, angst, hurt/comfort, angry WWX, grief, slow burn, wei sizhui, WIP)

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18. i'm sure i'll find it before this is answered, but just in case, i remembered a line from a fic but i don't remember what it's called. it's something like "wwx imagined sizhui's face on a series of progressively younger children. this is what he may have looked like at 13; at 9; at 6. this is how your child grew without you." thank you!!!!! @kisskissgotohell

FOUND! your name, safe in their mouth by astrolesbian (G, 10k, LSZ & WWX & LWJ, WangXian, Father-Son Relationship, Injury, Hurt/Comfort, Post-Canon, More aligned with CQL than novel canon, Miscommunication, Eventual Positive Communication, Trying to be a family, how to tell your dad you want him to be your dad in 6 easy steps!)

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19. Hello! Thank you so much to all of the mods for what you do! I’m hoping to find this post-canon mpreg fic that I read from a while back. WWX didn’t immediately tell LWJ about the pregnancy out of fear that it won’t push through or something. Some people were alive (like Wen Qing who secretly did WWX’s checkup and told him about the pregnancy) but not JYL. WWX also stopped drinking wine and started eating healthier to ensure the baby’s growth? Which kinda made LWJ suspicious? There was also a part where WWX visited JC in Lotus Pier, and JC was able to guess at WWX’s pregnancy and they had a really nice conversation and reconciliation. I’m sorry if some of these details might have been from other mpreg fics that I unknowingly confused with the one I’m looking for, but I hope the others are accurate enough to help! Thank you so much again! Y’all are a blessing!

FOUND? Unexpected Lullaby by SilverStark (T, 30k, WangXian, JC & WWX, Minor Original Character(s), Unplanned Pregnancy, Post-Canon, Mpreg, Non-ABO, Fluff, Established Relationship, Reconciliation, Family, Dual Cultivation Baby)

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20. I'm looking for a fanfic that the modern Wei Wuxian ends up traveling to the past because of a book he found. I also remember that it turns out that all the characters that are dead come back to life

FOUND? Could be the deleted series by yareyarejojosan. Someone uploaded the author's works to Google Drive

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#wangxian #mdzs #wangxian fic finder #wangxian fic search #the untamed #wangxianficfinder #long post

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toadcircus · 2 years

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i havnt cried in so long like probably 6 months if not more but watching philosophytubes new vid on the state of the NHS and transitioning in britain and oh my god !!! when you just feel something with your entire being

#little bony horribles #its a shitshow in this country absolute shitshow #trans healthcare is horrendous

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lindsaywesker · 1 year

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Good morning! I hope you slept well and feel rested? Currently sitting at my desk, in my study, attired only in my blue towelling robe, enjoying my first cuppa of the day. Happy Hump Day!

Apologies that I was unable to do a live version of Too Much Information Tuesday. I have to be out the door early on a Tuesday morning; class starts at 9.30. The new term was a bit of a shock to my system, not helped by more rain and some more of that wicked wind whistling around my trouser legs! Thankfully, I had two classes full of high-quality students. This is the test, isn’t it? Survive this weather and spring is your reward. Leave home in the dark, come home in the dark. Depressing! Thank goodness I have a great weekend ahead of me; alongside my brothers Shaquille Darren, Joe Cox and Patrick Steele, I am playing music at a private, birthday party on Saturday. Yes, the birthday girl does have friends in high places!

Sadly, 2023 has begun as 2022 ended: the winter of discontent continues. Health secretary Steve Barclay didn’t want to talk about pay rises but said that doctors and nurses should “increase their productivity”. No one wants to negotiate with the RMT. Probably because they know Mick Lynch is smarter than them! Fishy Ballsack wants to outlaw strikes. Camilla The Home-Wrecker is trying to destroy another family; consorting with misogynists such as Clarkson and Morgan. Shops, restaurants and bars are going out of business, house prices are coming down. Ooh, I wonder why? Highest taxation for 70 years, national debt over £2 trillion, public services in ruin, 22,000 NHS beds & 140 A&E Hospitals axed, infrastructure crumbling, poverty skyrocketing. How depressed does the UK need to become? At what point will someone realise that consumer confidence is in the toilet? At what point will somebody realise that The Specials wrote a song about this 40 years ago? Many parts of the UK are like a ghost town.

During Tr*mp’s presidency, at all the celebratory rallies, he wheeled out these two vociferous black women called Diamond & Silk. Probably to try and convince black people that he wasn’t racist? (Really, Donny??) These two would stand on stage and all of Donny’s followers would cringe, because they hate black people as much as Donny. They spent a huge amount of time telling everyone that C*vid-19 was a “hoax” and preaching a strong, anti-v*x message. Anyway, Diamond (Lynette Hardaway) passed away yesterday. Cause of death: C*vid-19.

Covering for my brother Craig Williams today on Mi-Afternoons. As ever, The Request Hour is between 2.00-3.00. What do you want to hear? Get your requests in NOW, so I can make sure I bring them to the studio.

Have a wonderful and well-endowed Wednesday. I love you all. Yes, a crazy, bald man loves and cares about you.

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Over on mastodon, someone I follow started a thing where for each day in December you post a rec for something. I decided to join in! And now that it's the end of December, I'm crossposting all my recs here in one big long list. It's all mxtx fic, mostly mdzs and svsss but a bit of tgcf, and of a wide variety of tones and ships. I hope you find something in here to enjoy!

for #DecRecs I'm going to be going through my bookmarks from when I first started reading fic for mxtx fandoms, and rec a fic for each month I've been in the fandom(s)! We'll start day 1 with the first untamed fic I ever read: "and they were roommates..." by harriet_vane. It's a modern au, rule 63 femslash wangxian. Super charming and delightful, and it was a great way to get me introduced to the characters without having to know a lot of context! https://archiveofourown.org/works/21400138

for day 2 of #decrecs is "to the act of making noise", by words-writ-in-starlight - an untamed fic from Lan Sizhui's pov, about family and grief and his relationship with the song Inquiry. It's incredible and made me feel many feels! https://archiveofourown.org/works/22944457

for #DecRecs day 3, a fic I first read in Apr 2020, still very early into my forays into untamed fandom! "the soft animal" by cafecliche is an exploration of wwx's relationship with mxy's body post-canon, figuring out how to make a home in it, and I was fascinated! I love how this canon allows for different kinds of explorations of embodiment, and I love how steadily lwj supports wwx throughout this fic too. https://archiveofourown.org/works/23640610

ooh already time for #DecRecs day 4! Moving to a fic I read in Sept 2020, "Call and Response" by x_los is from lxc's pov about his relationship with his parents and his brother, and his parents' relationship with each other, and how lxc sees those reflected in both himself and lwj. It starts with lcx & lwj's efforts as children to learn the truth of their mother's imprisonment and it continues all the way to the end of canon, and it's excruciatingly good the whole way https://archiveofourown.org/works/25216897

let's be emotionally devastated some more with today's #DecRecs day 5! "the final cut" by wildehack is nie huaisaing/mo xuanyu!!!! I love how it portrays the complicated mix of emotions and motivations that nhs and mxy have, and the way everything leads inexorably to this horrible and perfect end. I was riveted throughout. https://archiveofourown.org/works/25494802

ok for #DecRecs day 6 let's move on from devastating to FUN AND INTERESTING with a modern-au-with-cultivation for the untamed! I love the premise of the au of "I feel like I win when I lose" by so_shhy, which turns cultivation into a sports drama - but cultivation can still be real, and dangerous, and not just a game! I adore it when people turn modern au's into a chance for having fun with worldbuilding. And then of course wangxian prove love is real ahhhhhhhh. https://archiveofourown.org/works/27197516

#DecRecs day 7, where we get to the point where I was reading enough untamed fic to go to a rec for each month of my fandom history, for the rest of my recs! "best friends forever" by varnes is a super adorable next-gen fic about jin ling and lan jingyi getting engaged for political reasons. I love EVERY ONE of the juniors in every possible permutation, and this whole fic just embodies the feeling of grinning delightedly from every pore. https://archiveofourown.org/works/27779227

#DecRecs day 8! "Gathered Herbs & Sweet Grasses" by hansbekhart is about Lan Sizhui and his experience of being parented by Lan Wangji, and does an incredible job of evoking a tone and mood, and the quiet delicate complexities of emotions. Masterfully done, and many feelings! https://archiveofourown.org/works/22687075

ok for this day of #DecRecs I'm reccing a vid instead of a fic, but I needed to! because this vid!!! "a love that won't sit still" by Ari is about lwj's experience of his love for wwx, to the song Stray Italian Greyhound, and it's suuuuuuuuuuch a good use of the song, like, I love how the vidder manages to include the layers and pain and complexities that come with loving wwx, even while it is ultimately a good thing. https://archiveofourown.org/works/22973692

For #DecRecs day 10, a modern au about wangxian as larpers! "Mud and Canvas" by StormsBreadth. I loved how much this fic is a love-letter to larping, how clearly the author knows and understands the hobby intimately and shares that with the reader, and I also loved seeing how things were translated from canon in terms of what was IC and what was OC for the folks in this story/in their larp. A totally delightful read. https://archiveofourown.org/works/29645175

At this point in my #DecRecs series, where I'm going through my history in the mxtx fandom, we reach April 2021, when I finally discovered the joys of svsss! So today I'm reccing "SV Wishes" by Feynite, the fic that started it all for me - an epic length au where the novel that Shen Yuan transmigrates into is a gay harem drama. It's so much fun! It's so long! I've read it multiple times! https://archiveofourown.org/series/1285562

#DecRecs day 12. Just one month later, May 2021, I read my first tgcf fic. It took me a while to get into tgcf, but I was possessed by beefleaf since this moment regardless! I just reread "like a siren that can't swim anymore" by LuckyDiceKirby, now with canon knowledge, and I am dying, I am murdered, I love it so much. 5 times they almost kiss and 1 time they do! The author calls it the opposite of angst with a happy ending, and like, yeah. The beefleaf experience!! https://archiveofourown.org/works/25453030

For #DecRecs day 13, only a little late, here's "Advanced Self-Saving" by kitschlet! An svsss bingqiu fic, where where sqq dies and goes back to the modern world, and lbh gets there to join him the long way. I am endlessly delighted by sqq's ability to not recognize his own feelings, and it is perfectly done in this fic! Also I love every single detail in the author's notes at the end omg. https://archiveofourown.org/works/31790119

And for #DecRecs day 14, let's return to the untamed for more about Nie Huaisang having emotionally complicated relationships with men whose lives he ruthlessly alters, because I will read about EVERY possibility here! Today's is "跟天书一样 / Gēn Tiānshū Yíyàng / Like Heavenly Script" by monsteraa and it's gen (with a frisson of sexual tension, for flavour) in which Lan Xichen and Nie Huaisang talk post-canon about their unresolved issues with each other. Delicious! https://archiveofourown.org/works/25364701

It's #DecRecs day 15, and I have a svsss fic to recommend, this one moshang! It's "Save Point" by Neery. I love amnesia fic and this one is such fun: a post-canon, happily married sqh loses his transmigration memories and is stuck trying to interpret what's going on when the tour guide to his new life is man-of-few-words mbj. It's an absolutely delightful read, and you can see how hard mbj is trying, even as sqh assumes the worst possible interpretation of everything! https://archiveofourown.org/works/33495178

#DecRecs day 16! Today' s "Why Paradise Defer" by violettressed, an untamed fic from Lan Sizhui's perspective about wangxian, with wwx travelling in the summers and returning to Gusu in the winters - then one winter, wwx isn't back when expected. A lovely look at a mature, well-negotiated relationship, and also at Sizhui and the other juniors and their relationship with each other and the adults in their lives. It's soooooo good, many feelings! https://archiveofourown.org/works/25518661

For #DecRecs day 17, a svsss fic that's difficult to describe! It's a post-canon fic about cumplane being basically soulmates, even as moshang and bingqiu are each very happy together. It's kind of... weirdly wistful and lovely, and both sad and happy at the same time, and also a comedy? It's basically magic. "Invisible Strings" by tyleet! there's a sequel too, also extremely worth reading! https://archiveofourown.org/works/34402579

#DecRecs day 18! "the heart's reasons seen clearly" by Lirazel is a gorgeous look at a Jiang Yanli/Wen Qing au where Jiang Yanli goes with her brothers to Nightless City and ends up a patient of Wen Qing. It's about chronic pain, about hard choices, about being an eldest sibling, and about what it means to be a good person. I definitely got teary-eyed at the end! https://archiveofourown.org/works/30986741

#DecRecs day 19! "the act of just being here" by Euphorion is an svsss bingqiu fic where sqq is forced into the realization that the plot is over and he lives in a normal world with real actualized people around him, including both himself and binghe. and then has to handle this idea through the means of sexy roleplay because he can't actually admit to himself that he can be a person with wants and desires and for that to be okay; it's both very funny and very tender! https://archiveofourown.org/works/36003646

#DecRecs day 20, and tiiiiiime for another fic about nhs having complicated relationships with men whose life he irreparably alters! "I am not there; I do not sleep" by lianhua_lianzi is about wwx and nhs going to mxy's hometown for the Ghost Festival to mourn him, and end up talking to each other about mxy, and about choices made. It feels very true and appropriately complicatedly painful for all involved! https://archiveofourown.org/works/36590410

#DecRecs day 21! "friends from the same hometown" is a fic by kitschlet wherein the svsss version of Ning Yingying gets caught in a wifeplot with Luo Binghe and they have to be Honest about their feelings for each other! Which means talking about the complexities that have hindered their being able to be friends after lbh's return from the abyss. I loooooove fic that takes friendship seriously as an important relationship and this one does it so well! https://archiveofourown.org/works/35689654

#DecRecs day 22! "Say So" by FeelsForBreakfast is a wangxian fic where wwx gets hit by a curse where he has to have sex or die! A good classic trope. But I love the, like, pacing of the emotions reveals between them over the course of the fic? they love and trust and understand each other so WELL ahhhhhh! https://archiveofourown.org/works/32433184

#DecRecs day 23! Today let us ponder the joys of four iterations on the theme of moshang. "a case study of four great beauties" by 1littlerabbit1 is really four fics in one, but they read together beautifully, and the reading of it is just suffused with a feeling of earnest happiness and it's so lovely!! https://archiveofourown.org/works/38024938

#DecRecs day 24! and ooh it is rarepare time today! "it may be that it doesn't matter" by tyleet is a wonderful post-canon Jiang Cheng/Wen Ning fic, and I love how it portrays the complex emotional history between these two, colouring their interactions! https://archiveofourown.org/works/28496277

#DecRecs day 25! Aw yisss it is time to rec the wangxian fic where lqr is cursed to be mind-bonded to wwx, hearing his thoughts and feeling his sensations! I love getting outside pov's on characters I like, and it's so fun how this is from lqr's pov AND wwx's pov at the same time, because lqr is experiencing wwx's life! (the fic is not just fun though, it's also feelings!) https://archiveofourown.org/works/39277557

#DecRecs day 26! "blue night" by fruitys is a modern au wangxian fic, and the author says in one of the fic tags that "the Softness is the plot actually" and like YEAH actually! Which is REAL COOL how that's done, and honestly I don't know how else to describe it? it's so GOOD. It creates a mood and a tone so WELL. and the softness IS the plot! https://archiveofourown.org/works/31476176

oops I missed yesterday! Here's #DecRecs for day 27: Cumplane Forums AU, by euphorion in collaboration with a bunch of other people. It was originally written on twitter as I understand it, a grand "let's have fun together" experience of a bunch of twitter friends, and it blossomed into a full and proper story which was eventually put on AO3. It's a #cumplane no-transmigration au where they meet on a roleplaying forum and literally everything about it is a delight! https://archiveofourown.org/works/36296563

and now TODAY'S #DecRecs, Day 28! "Taking Responsibility" by Violent_entertainment is a completely delightful #svsss fic starring Liu Qingge/Shang Qinghua. I adore their dynamic in this! https://archiveofourown.org/works/37841869

#DecRecs day 29! Yes more #svsss! This time it's Yue Qingyuan/Original Shen Qingqiu. I love these two and how much of a disaster they are. In "these shadows keep on changing" by WhenasInSilks, they prove that true romance is haunting each other for eternity! Love this for them. https://archiveofourown.org/works/42610716

#DecRecs day 30! In "Tucked inside the heart of every nice girl" by phnelt, it's time for some modern au Jiang Yanli/Jin Zixuan in which they are t4t! I love seeing the complexities of jyl's relationship with gender here, and I am always here for trans girl jzx. https://archiveofourown.org/works/39102777

And for my last #DecRecs, day 31, it's "Infinite First Dates" by pallas_rose! An svsss bingqiu fic where during the 5 years of sqq being dead, lbh is able to access a dream-world bubble where sqq is trapped (as his sy self), and every time lbh accesses it, sqq's memories are reset. I love seeing their interactions in this, how fully both of them are their insufferable (complimentary) selves, and everything about the fic is delightful. And then the ending is SO funny! https://archiveofourown.org/works/43736436

#tgcf #mdzs #the untamed #svsss #fic recs

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What do you think of the new op? have you played him yet?

No, I haven't. To be totally honest, I haven't played Siege since the Rengoku event (well, I lie, I did try the new MUTE Protocol and got upset about how it was now another generic shooty arcade mode instead of the event I remembered and enjoyed ;-;). So whenever I go back to playing, idk if I’ll unlock him. From the teasers and youtube vids I’ve seen, his play style doesn’t really call to me that much 🤷

The reasons I haven't played Siege in such a long time is mainly Extraction. That game is much more enjoyable to me, since PvE coop games (with a true solo option, we love to see it!!) are more my speed. Even if I wanted to play Siege, I don't currently have anyone to play with and I refuse to put myself through the torture that is solo queueing. I’d be more willing to do that if the battlepass interested me (aka, cosmetics for my fave ops instead of a NH season), but alas that's not the case.

Although, if Doktor's Curse returns for Halloween (and they don't change it completely like they did with MUTE Protocol ¬¬) I will be playing that one for sure, it's my favorite event!

#rainbow six siege #r6s #rainbow 6 siege #anonymous

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self-loving-vampire · 2 years

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Vent anon here! Thank you, and you may publish this ask if you want, I don't mind

Birth giver accused me of having 'emotional clinging disorder' or whatever bc I told her that the fact I'm like 90% sure I don't feel guilt and that the only things I feel are GOOD, BAD and FEAR after starting the argument bc her [50-60~ yr old] friends were """literally shaking""" after I walked away from them at a party. The same woman who doesn't understand why I don't eat anything she makes anymore after seeing her lack of concern at leaving food on the literal floor and the fact there's dried food on anything she washes like all she did was make the damned dish look at a bottle of dish soap and she leaves moldy limes in the bathroom and watches those fake medicine vids on YouTube and said that onions can absorb viruses from the air despite WORKING FOR THE NHS

Not to mention how she forces me to be religious, and once fucking interrogated me for having a blue ribbon bc """it's a boys colour""" and she's stolen my money on my and my siblings' birthdays before, and takes my shit and waits months before giving it back and once she promised to take me to a councillor like I had asked and she took me to some back alley religious place where some guy spat water on me for 30 mins and never goes shopping and gets mad when I don't share my cooking with her and uses all my stuff and shouts and hits me so now I have a fear of asking for help from anyone. Plus how she's always made fun of my fears despite the fact I can't control them, nevers answers a single fucking question I ask her and goes through my letters and I'm tired. I'm so tired, she acts like this and wonders why her children ditch her at their first chance.

Thanks for listening to my ranting, I wish you a good day and I will return to my eternal emotion of Tired + either being Bored or Entertained

It can be really shocking when people who are supposed to know certain extremely basic things as part of their job or alleged education seem to believe complete nonsense some quack sold them on instead.

I hope you can ditch her as well soon. None of this is okay and she seems to entirely lack self-awareness about her "parenting". This really does seem like the kind of person who ends up bitterly posting on estranged parent forums.

The good news is that I can say from experience that your life becomes better instantly once you cut contact with people like this and then continues improving as time passes and you slowly fix whatever damage they may have inflicted to your brain. Having supportive friends who accept you helps a lot.

#long post

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I posted 3,111 times in 2022

20 posts created (1%)

3,091 posts reblogged (99%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@inappropriatewenning

@azcrowleyfell

@murderbirds

@softest-punk

@green-violin-bow

I tagged 2,735 of my posts in 2022

Only 12% of my posts had no tags

#the untamed - 1,109 posts

#gotham - 330 posts

#wangxian - 315 posts

#good omens - 270 posts

#nygmobblepot - 240 posts

#hee! - 203 posts

#ineffable husbands - 202 posts

#goncharov - 188 posts

#unreality - 174 posts

#the sandman - 157 posts

Longest Tag: 138 characters

#i tend to file off a lot of the pettiness or keep it as a little internal sharpness towards friends but not something he would ever act on

My Top Posts in 2022:

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: 陈情令 | The Untamed (TV) Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Lán Zhàn | Lán Wàngjī/Wèi Yīng | Wèi Wúxiàn Characters: Wèi Yīng | Wèi Wúxiàn, Lán Zhàn | Lán Wàngjī, Jiāng Chéng | Jiāng Wǎnyín, Niè Huáisāng Additional Tags: WangXian, Fandomtrees Mulitfandom Gifting Fest, Alternate Universe - Modern Setting, Alternate Universe - No Powers, Alternate Universe - After College/University, college pining, LWJ would wear the hell out of a corporate black suit, wwx is great with kids Summary:

Wei Ying doesn't look away until Jiang Cheng groans beside him, "Don't start this again."

"Don't start what again? I'm not starting anything. I'm not doing anything. I'm just standing right here, keeping my loser brother company," Wei Ying says, grinning widely. Somehow, Lan Zhan looks even better than Wei Ying remembers.

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Vid rec - runs in the family (the Untamed)

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I just came across this on YouTube and wow does rhis vid pack a punch. So much family trauma and love, and all twisted together. The editing is fantastic but it takes a few watches to realise how well those shots go with the lyrics.

I love the Lan brothers and their desperate devotion (to anyone who'll have me... fill me up), and the match of Zidian to "we're wonderful folks" for the Jiangs. I love the running section, JGY running for office, and LWJ running for a cause, NHS running from responsibility, and JC running into debt with his new golden core. Its great editing but it takes a few watches to appreciate it.

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The Untamed || Build a B*tch || Jin Guangyao

I came across this vid on YouTube and it’s delightful. I will always love vids that show JGY at his sweetest and most vicious.

15 notes - Posted January 11, 2022

All this Goncharov renaissance on Tumblr has me nostalgic enough to watch Reservoir Dogs. Harvey Keitel might be missing the Russian accent and the eyepatch, but Mr White has always reminded me of Andrey. An Andrey who made it out of Naples with Goncharov, who got out of Italy with hope instead of heartbreak. An older Andrey who's mellowed with time, who's relaxed his guard without constantly juggling his loyalty to Goncharov with his assigned job.

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My #1 post of 2022

You know, Tumblr reactions made episode 6 sound pretty gay, and I disregarded that as background noise because I never got that vibe from Hob in the comics. Then I watched episode 6.

Wow. I was so wrong.

Dream smiled! That felt like watching the gayest romance ever.

For a series with actual queer rep, that episode was gayer than everything else so far.

34 notes - Posted August 9, 2022

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