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If I Should Stay
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Eddie frowns. “Do you know why you were brought back?”
Steve shrugs. “Kinda. I know we knew what we were doing, when we were, but best I can figure, coming back in time messed with our memories and made them really hazy for a bit. It’s clearing up now, and I’m remembering more. Basically El found a way to send us back to make this all right from the beginning.”
Eddie nods, then seemingly changes the subject. “So Robin said you know? About her?”
Steve’s brows furrow in thought, then smooth out. “Oh! Yeah. She did.”
Eddie nods. “She knows, but… do you?”
“About?”
Eddie fidgets. “Me.”
Steve takes a second. “I didn’t know for sure, but I had an idea.”
Eddie nods. “So, you and I weren’t ever… we…”
“No,” Steve murmurs, then shrugs. “Maybe, if we had more time. And I know this probably sounds really weird to you, considering we officially met, like, two days ago, but…” Steve shrugs. “I can… I can lay off. If you want. If it makes you uncomfortable.”
“Honestly? I don’t think I’m going to process any of this until tomorrow at the earliest.”
Steve chuckles. “Fair enough. Just… let me know, yeah?”
Eddie nods, and with that they fall silent for a little while longer.
Eddie’s the one to break the silence. “The tape you gave me. Have you listened to it?”
Steve smiles. “Once or twice. I didn’t get to hear you play, but Dustin told me it was the most metal concert ever.”
Eddie chuckles. “Are you hoping for a do-over this time? Hoping to hear me play?”
“And if I was?”
Eddie sobers. “Then I guess I’ll just have to play it for you.”
Steve smiles. “I’d like that.”
They fall silent for a little bit longer until Steve sighs. “I feel like I owe you an apology. You didn’t ask for any of this. For my feelings or to be dragged into this or-”
“Hey,” Eddie says, stopping him in his tracks with a soft hand to his arm. “I asked a question. I wanted honesty, and I got it. Admittedly I got a little more than that, what with fuckin’ Mordor,” he gestures around, and Steve chuckles. “But you gave me honesty. That’s it. You didn’t push me to accept it or reciprocate anything. You didn’t even push me for a reaction. Did your answer surprise me?” He chuckles, shakes his head. “Man, I’m not convinced I’m not still dreaming. Maybe I fuckin’ drove the van into a pole on the way to school and now this is a very weird coma-dream and I’m in the hospital. I don’t fuckin’ know, man.”
Steve frowns. “Do people in comas dream?”
“I- what?” Eddie asks, then considers the question. “I- I don’t know. They do, right? They’re just asleep, I thought?”
“Well, yeah, but it’s not like you dream every night, right? Maybe comas are always on those nights. Or days. Or whatever.”
Eddie blinks at him, then slowly smiles. “Anyone ever tell you you’re weird as shit, man?”
Steve laughs. “Only all the time.”
His smile falls as he looks out at the landscape. “We should keep moving. We’ve been out in the open for a while.”
Eddie hums. “How far did the squirts say?”
Steve sighs. “They didn’t, just said to keep going this way until El tells us to turn.”
Suddenly, a shadow flits over his face. He freezes and looks up, then curses quietly and grabs for Eddie’s arm, stilling him.
“What the fuck is that?” Eddie hisses.
“Demobat.”
“Shit.” Eddie takes a shaky breath. “If i shoot it, will the gun scare off the others or bring them to investigate?”
Steve sets his jaw, mouth a thin line. “Only one way to find out.”
Eddie cocks the gun. “Shoot and run like hell?”
Steve nods, and Eddie smiles grimly before lining up the sights, taking a deep breath, and pulling the trigger.
The gun fires.
The bat falls to the ground.
Steve and Eddie run.
Eddie almost falls once, trying to run and carry the gun, and Steve grabs his hand, pulling him along, forgetting their hands are joined until the walkie crackles to life again and Mike’s voice comes through. “Turn left,” he says, and Eddie’s brow furrows.
“We’re getting farther from the lake.”
Steve relays the information, and they pause, catching their breath while they wait for a reply. “El says he’s not near the lake.”
Steve and Eddie look at each other, then shrug. “Alright,” Steve says. “How long?”
“She says you’ll know,” comes the cryptic answer.
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Reunion
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A/N: UPLOADING IT AGAIN BC I FORGOT TO TAG IT SORRY
Soo it’s been what, one year, since I last posted a fic here? I’m kind of rusty ngl but nevertheless, it felt comforting to write something like this :) As usual, critiques and comments are welcome
Word count: 1.7 K+
Warnings: none
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You walked into the apartment and set the two groceries-filled shopping bags onto the laminated floor. You kicked off your shoes and carried the bags into the open kitchen, placing them on the counter. With boredom, you took out every single item and placed them in their designated spaces. With the same growing boredom, you made your way back into the living room and threw yourself on the navy-blue sofa with your head sinking in one of the biggest pillows.
You pick up your phone and look at the screen – specifically, at the lockscreen wallpaper, which was a photo of you and Jake. Josh had taken that photo on one of the getaways you made together. Jake had on a beige shirt with his top four buttons undone – in other words, only with his lower two buttons done – and his favorite black hat. He was standing up tall, a wide smile on his face, and you were leaning against him, with your head placed on his right shoulder. You smiled and unlocked your phone, then opened the messages app and texted Jake.
I miss you :( Why does tour have to last this long?
Underneath the blue message bubble appeared the notification that the message had been read, then three typing dots appeared on Jake’s end.
I miss you too, honey. I can’t wait to get home and see you.
You begin to type.
Can we facetime later?
The answer came shortly.
Sorry, but tonight we have a gig. Tomorrow, too… We’re having practice now. Josh has again too much energy and needs to drain it a little bit before going onstage. Got to go now :( Love you
You typed back a formal luck-wishing message and threw the phone on the coffee table in front of the sofa. You were bored out of your mind and in the mood to do nothing whatsoever. Jake had been gone for almost three months now. You understood that it was his job and those were the terms and conditions you agreed to when you started dating him, but you didn’t figure at the time that separation would feel like that. It was safe to say that from time to time you missed him so much it hurt you.
You curled into a fetal position and turned on the TV. Flicking through the channels, you stopped at MTV. Highway Tune just began to play. Your heart grew at the sight of the boys and especially at the sight of Jake. You were so proud of them for getting that far and the mere thought that there actually is a far longer way for them to go made your heart beat in exhilaration. As the last notes of the song echoed through the room, you closed your eyes, pleased that you had seen the band on TV again.
You woke up from the “nap” way too late – it was 1 AM when you opened your eyes – so you moved from the living room to the bedroom. You didn’t bother changing your clothes and you just got underneath the blankets covering the double bed. Before falling asleep again, you looked over at the empty space next to you and you caressed the sheets, wishing that Jake would be there.
The new morning brought along a new day, but unfortunately, the base routine was the same: breakfast, staying in bed for way longer than you should’ve, going outside for some more groceries, flipping through magazines, watching TV, texting – or at least trying to text – Jake. The difference was that today, you called in sick for work and decided to do something fun.
After calling multiple of your friends, asking if they were free to go shopping with you, you finally let yourself defeated and decided you’d visit some shops on your own.
While you were at the bookshop – the one you frequently visited with Jake – you found a puzzle which, put together, should create a 3D globe with multiple images from the Renaissance era. You figured that Jake would find that puzzle at least as intriguing as you did. I could start putting together a welcome-home gift for Jake, you grinned as the thought crossed your mind. You picked the puzzle box off the shelf and walked around the bookshop with it. You stopped in front of the vinyl-filled boxes and you began browsing through them. Jake had a ridiculously large vinyl collection, but you listened to it together so many times that you almost knew every record by heart.
After way too much time spent pondering which records to get, you finally settled for The Doors’ Morrison Hotel and T-Rex’s Electric Warrior. On your way to the register, you stopped by the wine-for-special-occasions section and picked up a bottle.
With your heart filled with excitement, you came back home and called out. “Jake, I’m –,” but you stopped as you remembered that he wasn’t actually home. You slowly let the paper bag containing the puzzle, the wine bottle and the two records on the ground as you locked the door. Before unpacking, you checked your phone. No notifications from Jake. You felt your heart lightly twitch. You couldn’t blame Jake: he was just busy and most likely tired.
You took out the new acquisitions and arranged them on the low coffee table and smiled at the thought of Jake coming in through the front door.
You were tired, so you quickly did your night routine and you got into bed. Once you were in bed though, you couldn’t fall asleep. You just kept tossing back and forth, unable to find a comfortable position. Unannouncedly and unexpectedly, tears welled up in your eyes as you laid there, alone, facing the empty space to your left. You didn’t fight the tears back; you were alone in the darkness, there was no one who could see you. You just missed Jake so much. You missed the smell of his cologne imprinted even in his pajamas. You missed his laughter that managed to make you laugh all the time and you missed those moments when you’d both begin to laugh hysterically and you’d laugh at Jake’s laugh and he’d laugh at yours, and you both laughed so much that you forgot what started it in the first place. You missed his random moments of dancing around the house and you missed his complaints mostly aimed at Josh. As the memories reeled in the back of your mind, your sobs got more frequent. Thinking of it, three months didn’t sound like such a long time, but in reality, time is tricky. Three months can easily feel like three hours and just as easy can feel like three years. For you, it felt like three decades. You mindlessly grabbed Jake’s pillow and hugged it tightly to your chest, wishing it would be Jake instead of just a pillow.
As a new day dawned, you shuffled in your sleep and hugged the pillow again. You didn’t want to wake up just yet.
“Wakey, wakey,” a voice said from somewhere behind you, almost through a dream.
“Five more minutes,” you groaned, unwilling to open your eyes. You paused then and held your breath.
“You’re gonna be late for work,” the voice spoke again and a warm finger traced your side.
You jumped almost instantly. “Jake!” you shouted and collapsed over him, your arms circling his shoulders. You buried your face in the crook of his neck and inhaled deeply – that faint smell of freshly squeezed lemons, mint and cigarettes. His arms circled your waist and you both fell onto the bed. “God, I missed you so much,” you whisper.
“I missed you too… I am so happy to be back home,” he said and hugged you tighter.
Time stood still for you. You were in your happy place and nothing could get you away from there. You pulled away and looked at Jake. You ran your index fingers on both sides of his face and then cupped his face in your hands. Jake didn’t break eye contact with you not even for a second. He softly leaned into your right hand and with his right hand, he took your free one and brought it up to his lips, leaving a kiss on it. “Come here,” he whispered and smiled at you, as his hand made its way up to your cheek, slowly guiding you in towards his lips. You closed your eyes and slightly tilted your head to the side, anticipation growing in your stomach. His lips on yours felt so soft, so satin-like and sweet. You couldn’t get enough of this feeling. As an instinctive gesture, you brought your hand up to Jake’s face and let your fingers roam over his soft skin until they mindlessly tangled into his hair. Jake chuckled in-between needier and needier kisses, “More to come later.” He softly pulled away and rested his forehead against yours. “Next time, you’ll quit your job and come with me on tour.”
“Definitely,” you giggle, already picturing it in your mind. City after city, state after state – and you’d be there to see it all. “Jakey,” you say and pout a little.
“Yes, I will cuddle with you,” he nodded his head before you even got the occasion to ask the question. You break out in laughter and fall into the bed which, now that Jake was home, was even more comfortable.
You snaked your arms around Jake’s torso and pulled yourself closer to him. Jake pulled the blanket over the two of you in one swift move and wrapped his arms around your shoulders. “I’m never letting you go,” you whisper and cuddle closer to his chest.
“Please never do,” he answered and placed a soft kiss on your forehead. “I love you.”
“I love you, too.”
“Did one of the boys tell you by any chance that we’re coming back early?”
“No, why?”
“Oh, that’s good. I wanted it to be a surprise,” he spoke lowly. “I saw you had some wine in the kitchen.”
You giggled. “It’s for us, for when you would come home.”
“I am home now,” Jake raised an eyebrow.
“I’m calling in sick again,” you announced and Jake’s laugh echoed through the room.
“That’s my girl.”
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A Gift From Me To You - Chapter 3
Chapter Summary: Patton reminisces, reflects, and helps Virgil work some things out.
Warnings: A continuation of Virgil’s panic attack from the last chapter and some negative thinking. (If there’s anything else let me know!)
A/N: I think I’m pretty happy with this chapter overall! Ngl, a tiny bit worried about keeping up the schedule of posting every two weeks considering that I only have one more chapter pre-written so far--I'm working on chapter 5 atm--but hopefully I'll manage to get some stuff done in the next couple weeks now that I'm a lil less busy.
But anyway, I hope y’all like it!!!
AO3 Link // Link to Chapter One! // And Two!
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Patton’s first class had gone by like a breeze. Truthfully, he felt like he was walking on air. He knows he told Roman that nothing had changed, but really, it was hard not to be a little bit excited when you find out the boy you love is as perfect for you as you’d always thought.
Of course, his excitement also came with a few points of sadness as well.
When you don’t have a soulmark, society doesn’t see any of your relationships as more important than any other. Everything had equal potential. A friend had the potential to become your best friend or a partner. A partner had the potential to become someone you hated or someone you’d spend the rest of your life with. It was a grab bag; nothing was guaranteed.
When you had a soulmate, that person was always going to be the most important person to you in society’s eyes. It didn’t matter if you had a partner you loved with all your heart, your soulmate was more important than them. It didn’t matter if you had someone else you wanted to ask to be your boyfriend too, your soulmate was more important than them. Your soulmate was always going to be more important than them.
Patton hated that line of thinking.
There wasn’t some weird cap on the amount of love you can give out to people—if Patton’s parents had taught him one thing, it was that. Patton was perfectly capable of loving someone else just as much as he loved Ro, and as a matter of fact, he did. He was just afraid he’d missed his window.
Logan had weird beliefs about soulmates. Despite Patton’s insistence that they’re just another form of relationship, no different than a regular friendship or boyfriend—except maybe a bit closer—Logan refused to agree. He remained adamant that soulmates were somehow more special and resulted in an infinitely closer bond that none of the three of them could ever understand.
It bothered Patton because he always looked so bitter as he said it. Logan wasn’t a romantic, in fact, he’d expressly stated on more than one occasion that he was glad he didn’t have a soulmate. It was something him and Roman had argued about several times before, slightly more angrily than their regular arguments since it seemed to be a sore spot for both of them.
Patton wished he knew why soulmarks upset Logan so much, but he refused to talk about it. Every time Patton asked Logan just mumbled something about abandonment or hypocrites, before changing the subject.
Logan would definitely see his and Roman’s relationship as more “special” or “important” than either of their relationships with him and this worried Patton a lot. Barring any other feelings Patton may have for Logan, he didn’t want to lose their friendship because Logan thought Patton cared about him less than he cared about Ro, or something equally as silly.
He’d managed to convince Roman to hold off saying anything to Logan until they were both there, but they knew they had to talk to him about it today, or else Logan may find out through someone other than them. They didn’t want to risk him feeling like they didn’t trust him or something.
A lot of their evening had been spent discussing what was going to happen with Logan now that they had soulmarks, actually. Because this was more than just Patton being worried about slipping away from his best friend, Patton was also worried about losing his chance to ask Logan on a date so soon after him and Roman had finally worked it out.
The day he had confessed to Roman that he had a crush on Logan had not been a good day.
Patton had come to realise his feelings for Logan at some point almost 6 months ago. It wasn’t like Logan did one thing and suddenly Patton had felt completely differently towards him than he had before, it was more subtle than that. Patton had noticed one day just how his feelings had changed from that platonic appreciation he had felt when he met Logan to something more complex.
And it had been exciting! Patton liked developing new feelings for people! It just filled his heart with wonderful new possibilities. And sure, there was a chance things wouldn’t work out, but there always was, and he was willing to risk it anyway.
The two of them had gone back to Roman’s house after school that day. Logan didn’t join them as he had a test to study for and Patton had thought it was the perfect time to tell Roman about his feelings. Communication was the secret to a healthy relationship after all; it wouldn’t do to keep something this important from his boyfriend.
Patton sometimes forgot that not everybody saw the world as he did. So when hurt had flashed across Roman’s face as quick and bright as a shooting star, Patton had realised he’d messed up.
Roman had turned away almost instantly, though not before Patton had seen tears welling up in his eyes.
“Oh, shoot, Ro,” he’d whispered, “No. Hey, hey, hey, come here.”
Roman had walked over to the window, away from Patton, wrapping his arms around himself. He’d been shaking slightly and Patton had longed to hold him until he was okay again.
“Logan’s great,” Roman’s voice had broken, though Patton had known he was trying not to show it, “I’m sure you two will be very happy together.”
With a barely audible sigh, Patton had moved to stand behind Roman, leaving some distance between them.
“Roman Prince, you turn around and look at me right now,” Patton had said, as sternly as he could muster. Which hadn’t been very stern, considering he’d been watching Roman’s heart break right in front of him and it was all his fault. He should have been more careful.
Roman had turned around, his eyes falling on a spot over Patton’s shoulder, and Patton’s gaze had followed the tear tracks leading down Roman’s face. All he’d wanted to do was wipe them away and wrap his arms around him, but he knew he couldn’t. Not yet.
“Roman.”
Patton’s voice had been soft and kind and infused with all the love Patton had for him. It’d caused Roman to flick his eyes to land on Patton’s face and in return, Patton had given a soft smile.
“I love you,” Patton had put as much conviction into the words as was possible, urging Roman to believe him, “I love you so, so much.”
Roman’s eyes had become watery again, and he’d sniffed slightly as Patton had put his hands on Roman’s waist, drawing him in closer.
“I have an infinite amount of love,” Patton had said, “You know that about me.”
Roman had laughed a little as he nodded. Patton loved Roman’s laugh. It was anywhere from big and boisterous to soft and shy, and every time he heard it it made him want to cover Roman’s face in kisses. But this laugh was tired and self-deprecating and Patton couldn’t stand for that.
“I love animals; I love cookies; I love my parents,” Patton had continued, “I love sunsets and I love hugs. I love onesies and blankets and helping people in need.”
He’d looked Roman directly in the eye.
“I love you. And I love Logan.”
Patton had paused for a second, thinking his next words through. Their breathing had been soft and quiet, barely taking up an inch of space in the bedroom.
“I don’t love you any less because I also love cookies. It’s not like, onesies get 15% of my love and animals get 23% and I have to ration it all out. You all get 100% of my love. You, Roman, get 100% of my love.”
A tear had rolled down Roman’s cheek and Patton had moved his hand from Roman’s waist to wipe it away. As Patton’s thumb had slid across his skin another tear had mirrored the action on Roman’s other cheek, so Patton had reached up to cradle Roman’s face in his hands.
Roman’s eyes had been closed. Tears had clung to his eyelashes and his face was covered in a light blush. He’d looked so fragile and beautiful that Patton couldn’t have done anything but slowly bring their lips together.
The kiss hadn’t been heated, but it had been warm. Roman had poured every insecurity he had into it and Patton had felt his chest expand as he’d responded with love. The kiss had been soft and slow, like a lazy Sunday morning waking up next to your partner, the sun shining in through the open curtains, knowing you’re safe and you are loved. Patton knew he was safe and loved, and he’d needed Roman to know he was too.
As they’d broken away, Patton had leaned his forehead against Roman’s. Roman’s hands had migrated to rest on Patton’s hips, so Patton had linked his hands together behind Roman’s neck, gazing into his boyfriend’s eyes.
“My love for Logan does not diminish my love for you, my dear,” Patton had finished, “I love you with all my heart and I always will.”
Patton was pushed from his reminiscing by a text from his aforementioned boyfriend.
👑 My Prince 👑: cute boy just ran me down in the hallway. seemed upset. can you go check on him? i gotta get to class.
Patton smiled. Roman seemed to act like he didn’t care about other people’s feelings sometimes, but that wasn’t true at all. Half of the people Patton comforted he only knew were upset because Roman pointed them out to him.
Roman knew Patton loved helping people and Roman liked to claim he wasn’t any good at comfort, though Patton knew that wasn’t true either. Really, he thinks the incident with Logan spooked him. Roman was always excellent at cheering Patton up when he was upset, just another way they worked so well together.
He had a free period now, which Roman knew, so he typed out his reply.
Patton-Pending: Sure!! Where were you?? <3
Barely a second went by before Patton got another text; Roman always was a scarily fast typer.
👑 My Prince 👑: main corridor of the west building, near the english classrooms. he was headed towards the bathrooms i think xx
Patton-Pending: On it!!! Xxx
Thankfully in Patton’s nostalgic haze, he’d wandered somewhat in the direction of the right building, so it only took him a couple minutes to arrive at the bathrooms Roman had indicated.
As he pushed open the door, Patton could hear heavy breaths echo around the room, interspersed with the occasional quietly muttered swear word. Patton wanted to chastise the boy for his language, but he also knew that now really wasn’t the time.
“Hey, kiddo, you alright in there?” Patton asked as he slid down the wall to sit outside the boy’s bathroom stall.
It was a mostly rhetorical question since Patton knew he clearly wasn’t alright, but his answer, or lack thereof, could give Patton some insight into his state of mind.
There was a slight hitch in the breathing, but no audible reply from the other side of the door, so Patton tried again.
“Kiddo, I’m gonna need you to breathe with me, okay? Do you think you can do that for me?” he paused for one moment, but after receiving no reply, continued, “Knock once for yes, twice for no.”
There was an agonising moment where he didn’t think he was going to get an answer from the boy at all before Patton heard one quiet knock on the bathroom floor. He breathed out a sigh of relief. Although there were things he could still do to help the boy calm down, it was much easier with some degree of cooperation.
“Alright, you’re doing so well already, okay? I just need you to breathe with me, in for four, hold for seven and out for eight and I’m gonna count out loud, okay?”
There was one more soft knock before Patton began to count, listening carefully to the boy’s breathing to check whether he was able to follow along. There were a few failed attempts, the boy’s breathing unsteady and panicked, but after several minutes, he seemed to have calmed down quite considerably. Patton relaxed just a little bit more.
There was a short moment of silence before the boy spoke up, “Thank you.”
Patton smiled. The boy’s voice was sort of croaky, but Patton was glad that he felt confident enough to talk to him. Patton may even be able to get him to discuss what it was that made him so upset in the first place, as long as he makes it clear that he’s willing to listen.
“No problem, kiddo! That’s what I’m here for!” Patton responded, “My name’s Patton, what about you?”
There was a quiet, semi-humourous chuckle from the other boy.
“You can call me Anxiety.”
Patton hummed slightly. If Anxiety wanted to go by a fake name, Patton wasn’t going to call him out on it. There are tons of reasons why he might not want Patton to know who he is, including feeling embarrassed about having a panic attack in the bathroom.
“Okay, Anxiety,” Patton said, “You think you feel up to talking about what made you so upset?”
There was a long enough pause that Patton felt for sure he was going to refuse to talk, but just as Patton was going to let him know that there’s no pressure to agree, Anxiety said, “I found my soulmate today.”
Patton gasped. “That’s amazing! I’m so happy for y-”
“No.”
Anxiety’s voice was harsh and pained. Patton immediately snapped his mouth shut. He should have been more careful. It was clear that this had upset Anxiety, so he shouldn’t have acted so excited about something that was obviously not a positive experience for him. Before he could apologise though, Anxiety pushed on.
“He… He already has a boyfriend. And they’re good together. Better than we could ever be, I’m sure. He’s- God, Patton, he’s too good for me. I know that soulmarks are designed by the universe, or whatever, but they must have made a mistake. I’m not good enough for him.”
Patton let Anxiety’s words wash over him as he tried to come up with some advice. He thought it was best to deal with this issue bit by bit, rather than addressing it all at once and overwhelming him.
“Now, kiddo, if you keep talking bad about yourself, I’m gonna have to physically fight you!”
There was another chuckle from Anxiety, though this one slightly more upbeat.
“Gonna have to get to me first, Pat.”
A few knocks sounded against the locked door of the bathroom stall, making Patton grin. If Anxiety was feeling good enough to joke around, then Patton was doing an okay job.
“Raincheck on the fighting then, kiddo,” he hummed, moving on to the next topic of discussion, “You know not all soulmates are romantic, right? Just because he has a boyfriend doesn’t mean you can’t be in his life.”
There was a sigh from Anxiety.
“I’ve had a crush on him for years, way before I knew we were soulmates. I don’t think I can do just friends,” his voice sounded muffled, like he was talking with his head in his hands.
Patton considered this for a second.
“Well, then what about polyamory?”
Patton was gearing up to give an explanation of polyamory and how it differed from cheating, all the usual stuff, but Anxiety beat him to it.
“I mean… I guess… but I don’t know. I still don’t understand why they’d want me. They’re better off without me.”
Patton frowned.
“Kiddo…”
“No, it’s true, Patton,” a sob broke free of Anxiety’s throat and Patton winced slightly.
He leaned over towards the door, wishing he was able to physically comfort Anxiety. The other boy may not necessarily want that, but Patton definitely wished the option was there.
“Just take a deep breath, love, everything is going to be fine,” he cooed, voice as soothing as he felt he could make it.
A laugh from the other side of the door, this one cracked and so sure of its lack of self-worth. It was hollow and messy and tired, filled with so much emotion and so much sadness but at the same time none at all. Patton tried to piece it together, attempting to get a handle on what he could say to make this okay, but it was almost overwhelming to think about.
“Is it, though? Is it going to be fine? I love him! But I can’t do this to him. He deserves better.”
Anxiety’s voice echoed around the bathroom, filling Patton’s ears with disjointed syllables, and he opened up his mouth to speak before he could even register what had been said.
“Well, don’t you think it’s up to him to make that choice?”
There was silence.
Patton wasn’t exactly sure where the advice came from, but it felt like the right path to go down. Before Anxiety could likely even open his mouth again, he pressed on.
“Shouldn’t you let him decide whether he wants to be with you or not? Is it really fair to deprive him of his soulmate just because you think he deserves some arbitrarily-decided ‘better’ person, who he may not even find? They may like you, but you haven’t even given them a chance. Other people always see things in us we don’t see in ourselves.”
Patton thought of Roman. Of how he always felt like he was everybody’s last choice, a consolation prize while you waited for the one you truly wanted. It didn’t matter how popular he got—those people didn’t matter—but the people he truly cared about, those are the ones he always felt will leave him when they get a better offer. A better offer that Patton knew in his heart didn’t exist. He wasn’t leaving Roman, not for anything; he was going to stick by his side until he realised that he was loved. All of him was loved.
Patton thought of Logan. Of how confident he was in his intelligence and how insecure he was in his emotions, never letting his real feelings shine through for fear of… what? Being shunned? Breaking down? Patton didn’t know, but he wanted to be there when it happened. He wanted to catch every falling piece of his broken best friend and help him understand that this is what he was made out of—stardust and light, not cogs and wires. He wanted to show him that it’s okay to be loved and to love in return.
Patton thought of himself. How he was never doing as much as he could be doing, and how he was always hurting the people he loved by being reckless. He thought of his family, how they were the best at everything they did, and all Patton was good for was making other people cry. He couldn’t help all the people he needed to help, it was all too much for one person to handle.
But when Patton felt hopeless, Roman was there. When Patton felt stupid, Logan was there. When Patton felt unloved and unwanted there were a dozen hands lifting him up showing him how wrong he was.
He wanted Anxiety to feel that too.
“Your self-worth issues are clouding your judgement,” Patton whispered, “We’re all human, Anxiety, we all have our issues. Nobody’s as perfect and wonderful as you think they are from a distance.”
There was a shaky inhale from the other side of the door.
“Yo-”
Anxiety’s sentence was interrupted by the sound of the bell. Patton heard him curse under his breath, he imagined due to having missed almost all of the period sitting in the bathrooms. Patton was about to ask Anxiety to continue when he heard the sound of shoes squeaking against the floor outside and the door to the bathroom flew open.
“I thought you were gonna call me, V-!”
The figure in the doorway stopped short, the bag they had in their hand swinging back-and-forth due to their abrupt stop; their other hand held a reusable Starbucks coffee cup, which now had spilt slightly from the top of the lid and onto their skin. Patton gave them a small smile and they returned with a nod, their previously shocked expression having melted into something more confident.
Dropping both the bag on their back and the bag in their hand at the door, they strode up to stand in front of Patton.
“I think I can take over from here, gurl,” they said, offering him their hand to get up.
Patton gratefully accepted before turning to face the bathroom stall once more.
“Anxiety,” Patton began, “‘There are millions of possibilities for the future, but it's up to you to choose which becomes reality. Please understand. You choose your own future,’ but you don’t have the right to choose other’s futures for them.”
Remy whistled. “Woah, deep.”
“It’s a Steven Universe quote,” Patton laughed, “Good luck, Anxiety; I have full faith in you.”
And with that, he walked out of the bathroom to find Roman and Logan for break.
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Chapter 4
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ONE (1) YEAR OF SOFTHAOS
fellas, as of today – jan 14th 2019 – softhaos has turned one year old!! honestly, i never expected to last this long?? over the past year, i’ve gone through many ups and downs, made close mutuals, received so much emotional support from all kinds of people on this site and overall, i’m so thankful that i pulled my shit together and joined the community on tumblr!
i still remember clearly when i first started out with this blog and posted the neighbor aus and got SO much support for it?? like?? i never thought it’d come this far where i could touch readers’ hearts with my word vomits?? that’s just insane. and even if you don’t read my works yet still follow me: wow, i’m so grateful that you managed to cope with my bullshit – be it from my undying hatred towards pcy and kmg, me abusing the uwuwuwu or my personal thoughts.
in other words, this is my message directed to everyone: thank you for keeping up with my bullshit uwu
now on to the part where i thank specific people for making my existence on this site more bearable,, i’ve left a message for everyone i tagged (i would’ve tagged literally everyone but i’m a stressed student i am so sorry if i forgot you kjldl and i would feel bad if i didn’t leave a note to everyone i tagged) and the list is in alphabetical order! @ anons i also left notes from you at the very bottom.
@baekberrie 💌 even though we just talked once literally two days ago thanks to my clumsy ass sending you an accidental ask, i’m so glad i actually did. pola (okay i got this from your about page im sorry kljsdl) you’re an amazing, kind and talented soul with whom i could’ve talked hours about soft bbh if it weren’t for my tiredness. i’ve only read your junmyeon oneshot so far but trust me, i’ll get to that cuddling fic with baek real soon once i’ve got more time uwu you’re honestly a talented writer and i hope we get to talk more in the future!
@baekbuns 💌 i’ve known you for how many days already you anon thot and i really can’t believe that i was vv intimidated by you at first (not gonna lie, you still scream bde but that’s another story-) hope, despite you trying to steal pretty much everyone from anyone, it’s still very fun to fight talk with you and you’re also an excellent writer uwuwuwu i am still very attacked by the thought of bartender yixing one day I WILL SUE YOU ALONG WITH PCY
@baekwell--tart 💌 bella!!!! ngl i’m still very pissed at myself for not realizing you from your old url but i’m glad i found you again!! (did i find you again? idk anymore i suffer from short term memory but i hope i got my point across sdjlkj) you’re such a warmhearted person and i’m really grateful that i got to know you. however, you’re also a funny person and that also shows in your writing - istg one day i will probably have “perpetual boredom” tattooed on my forehead don’t ask why that description of sehun will NEVER fail to make me chuckle!! you deserve all the love and happiness in the world and so much more uwu
@boosoonhao 💌 i know i keep repeating myself when it comes to you aj, but i really have no idea what else to say. i wrote it in the letter, i expressed myself way too often in the tags whenever i reblog your works, yet here i am doing it again (and maybe even more exaggerated than usual, we’ll see): aj, you are one of the most talented writers i’ve ever known and one of the greatest blessings in the community. there, i said it and i mean it! you are one of the very few i know that doesn’t shy away from fantasy-ish aus and executes them brilliantly. the way you have with your words is just fascinating and i find myself sometimes jotting down what you wrote for future references? but writing skills aside, you are a beautiful and kind person and up to this day the key chain you sent me is still intact. aj, thank you for blessing me, blessing everyone with your talent and general existence.
@byuncaa 💌 bianca you smol soft bean you have my heart right there and though we don’t know each other for so long, i hope we get to talk more in the future uwu you’re such a cute soul gaaah it really makes me wanna send you all the soft memes i possibly own anywaY i hope you just stay as bubbly and bright and adorable as you are uwu
@cafechenle 💌 hani, kaito kid, i don’t know whether you’re still alive on tumblr or not but idc i’m still writing this to you anyway. you’re one of the first people i’ve met on this site and gOD i remember it as clear as day where i was so close to blocking you within the first few minutes of knowing you. yes, i’m talking about the entire mansae chan era discourse. anyway, we don’t talk as much but i hope you’re doing fine my wee lil silver boys supremacist!!
@changbeanbag 💌 landon, we literally just met yesterday but as you can see, i don’t care and i’m writing you a wee lil note anyway. you, my dude, radiate uwu energy and ngl i may have squealed when i saw your tags in the ask i sent you teehee - i hope we get to talk more in the future (that is, if school hasn’t killed me until then-)
@changbiinn 💌 kirra, you beautiful, blue haired visual goddess who has everyone else (including jisung yES I WENT THAT FAR) looking like a mere smurf and found dead in a ditch! i didn’t think i’d get an instant dm from that one inkigayo shitpost but you went ahead and proved me wrong sjljlks timezones fuck me up all the time but nonetheless i hope we get to interact a lil more and gET ENOUGH SLEEP OR ELSE
@cheolsjigyu 💌 MISS VAN NO I DID NOT FORGET YOU HEAR ME OUT. first of all, how could i forget you when you provided me all the great twt aus and the wild chats we had back in?? sometime early last year i guess. it’s been a very long time since we talked and i’m sorry i couldn’t reach out to you any time sooner due to school and the usual stuff (also, uh, i’m not the biggest friend of tumblr dms and barely check any messages there so there’s that too) believe it or not i still wheeze whenever i think of your fic swing baby because goddamnit that jyp song was one repeat for a good week. anyway, i hope you’ve been doing well and are not at the brink of near death like me uwu
@cherryxiu 💌 gran, frank, satan incarnate, whatever else i call you. you may fuck me up with the pcy i’ve never asked for but i hope you know you have a soft spot in my heart (i’ll never say that out loud again tho so see it as a one of a time thing). you’re my fav minseok stan and while i wouldn't necessarily jump off a cliff for you, i’d jump with you uwu anyway, aggressively refrain from sending me more pcy content i’m just trying to live an easy life here. but knowing you, you’ll definitely pretend as if that last part was never written so why do i even bother-
@chillihansol 💌 hanni my child!!! i hope you’re doing fine, aren’t as stressed anymore and have received the love you deserve and more!!! i still remember when i was highkey intimidated by you so i went on anon but then somehow you were startled by my lil threat and then i became your mom anon? funny that has changed over the time skldj hanni, i don’t regret ever going on anon for you and you’re an amazingly talented writer. i already said it once but i’ll say it again: guns n roses was the first svt fic i read on tumblr and just thank you for creating that piece uwu
@choco-seventeen 💌 miss choco, i almost tumbled down the nonexistent stairs in my apartment when i saw you ??? sliding into my dms ??? and then reading my word vomits ??? and then you followed me ??? and everything that followed after ??? i don’t know what in the world i did to have you notice me and up to today it remains a mystery to me ngl. we love a talented, kindhearted, fantastic, stunning, visual writing queen who is ofc the right person to love thanks to the avatar discourse she started!!! choco, keep on enlightening everyone’s life with your mere existence, the tags you put in your reblogs that make me smile and of course, wonderful stories <33
@custardheart 💌 taylor, i don’t think we have ever talked (unless you approached me on anon maybe then maybe yes??) but i just wanted to thank you for blessing my notifications. you’ve been supporting me / on my notifs for quite a long time - may i say you’re like one of the first followers i had when i first started out? THAT’S how long you’ve been here already and i can’t thank you enough <333 (please don’t ask me why i know that but goddamn every time i see that jeonghan profile picture i already know it’s you djklj)
@dinoshaur 💌 sha! lee! i know we barely talk to each other but i just wanted to use this opportunity to thank you for making some of my days with your astounding fics!! one of my favorite works from you will always be “flower crown prince” because you have NO idea how much i struggle with finding seungkwan fics dkkjljlk i’m sorry i didn’t submit anything for the lfw challenge i really tried to make it but you know, life problems happened whoops. i wish you all the happiness and inspiration and love from chan himself you gifted angel uwu
@forevershua 💌 dear fossil mother ryan, i can’t believe i internally pronounced your name wrongly for pretty much half a year knowing you. please forgive me. okay, but all seriousness aside, you’re one of the closest people from this site!! i really love you so so much though i can’t guarantee that i love you as much as you love jeonghan more than shua; i still shed tears whenever i pull out your two postcards - especially the minghao one; i think i suffered from mild heart palpitations when i got it in the mail (and still do). i hope we get to meet this year and possibly clown rat together and just stay the somewhat sane person left in the gc <33 p.s HOW DO YOU FUNCTION WITHOUT A FRIDGE I STILL CANT BELIEVE THAT
@gamerwoo 💌 rocket, you’re always active when it’s the ungodly hour where i live and it has happened more often that i stay awake because of you. not only do i have loads of stuff i can queue from you (teehee) you recently started posting stories again and the ones you hammered out lately just??? do things to me??? for real though do you have sadistic tendencies or somethin because you posted TWO (2) nsfw stories that I indulged at 2 AM IN THE MORNING. aside from that minghao and junmyeon stuff, uuuh, i finally got around to finish your ghoul au which i completely adore!! i’m looking forward to your upcoming works uwu and hope you get all the positivity and good vibes only uwu (p.s i have to confess: my dumb ass seriously thought the “woo” in your url referred to jungwoo and for some good weeks i thought you ult jungwoo rIP ME)
@hearttoshu 💌 jess, i don’t know what in the world i did to have you notice me because i’m gonna be honest here, i was scared of you skaljdlkjslkj please i don’t even know why, you seemed very intimidating but i was proven wrong in an instant!! you are one super soft bean with hq gifs and a love for jun and shua that reaches up to infinity and beyond!! your tags always get the best out of me and i’m really grateful for having you in my life uwuwuwuwu
@jejublr 💌 ew rat, you’re finally adulting. jokes aside, you were the first victim to fall under my disastrous typo errors and may i say that i’m just simply ICONIC for forever slapping that legendary nickname on you uwu nat who?? we only know RAT. you’re the one person i can always run to when more serious issues are bugging me since i guess you can relate the most to my personal dilemmas and i just wanted to thank you for being there for me <33 that, and for keeping gran somewhat at bay. i hope we get to meet up this summer where i’ll feed you with lots of chocolate while teasing ryan about her biasing jeonghan LMAO and just like most people from the gc, you’re one of the first close mutuals i’ve made. in a way, you could say you’ve been with me here since day 1 (almost) xx
@jin-hua 💌 mayo / mango / mayo that tastes like mangoes / idk i bet i have misspelled your names approximately 993828 times in 937987 different variations but guess what? i still love u to death uwu i love me a fitness queen, a visual goddess not even god himself could ever and i’m so so glad that you exist in my life <333 i know i promised you a crackhead message but when i think about it there’s not really a lot to say that’s out of place when it comes to you?? you’re an angel uwuwu the light of my life frank could NEVER
@justsomekpopstuff 💌 jj it is i, your #1 supporter!! since you’re also part of the nug club gc from the beginning on, you have an extra special place in my heart <3 jj, i love how supportive you are and i don’t think you realize that i cherish you to the moon and back and that times 903809. i love how you get so fired up about your hockey team and like to gush and suffer from the wrath of Joshua hong and i hope you’ll stay eternally happy uwu that, and dRINK LESS COFFEE ISTG
@lxveille 💌 veille we’ve never interacted a lot but i just wanted to let you know that i admire you a LOT. i haven’t got around to read more of your works lately, but i do have a favorite fic that i still clearly remember. okay, that’s a lie, i have several that left a strong memory. but let’s say, if i had to reduce it to one fic, it’d be the 100wtsily dystopian au with jihoon and 66 & 70! you’re one of the very few writers who hit the dystopian genre spot on and you truly are an inspiration. seriously, thank you a lot veile xx
@middle-of-a-wonshua-sandwich 💌 LOOK, i didn’t even know you changed blogs or something and i’m so eternally sorry that it took me ages to figure that out! (RIP me) you’re one of the first followers i had if i recall correctly (i’m pretty positive of that) and i just wanted to thank you for sticking with me so long uwuwuuwwu i wish you all the happiness bb <3
@multi-yeol 💌 haaaa we’ve only known each other since a day or something but i’m really glad we did!!!! honestly, that Loona song sorter is harder than any of the german exams i had and though we don’t know each other for so long, i hope we’ll talk more in the future bub!!!
@oatmealupdates 💌 lynna, you too are one of the first followers on my blog i’m wheEZING you’ve been here for so long sdlkjlkj thank you for your support and your comments under the fics always make my day i swear!! i’ve also noticed that you haven’t been that active as you used to be (maybe it’s just me idk sometimes my dash is kinda wacky) but all in all i hope you’re doing good!! if you ever need to talk to someone, you can always hmu <33
@queerjunhui 💌 vane, ngl, you really scared me at first. i was really intimidated by your for reasons i can’t even explain and i always thought you were out of my league sdkljlk i think we started talking since the cyzj thing and you’re one of the funniest and nicest people i’ve met so far on tumblr, seriously! your content - be it from your shitposts to mindless thoughts like the entire indirects to j*** * yES I STILL RECALL THEM - you always manage to make my day brighter whenever i see you on my dash. i wish you all the happiness and hope you’re doing good uwu
@seungcheolsbodyharness 💌 katey, sis i still think about that criminal seokmin and the entire au we made up - from FBI agent cheol to incompetent intern vernon and all that jazz. besides the fact that your url is a pure 10/10 as well as your other URLs, you’re such a nice person and i really enjoy your presence - be it in the form of reblogs of any kind of thing to the comments you occasionally leave and don’t get me started on the aSKS; katey, i’m so glad to have met you on this site!!! uwu
@softwonwoo 💌 jian darling!! honestly, i have no idea how you even know of my existence. just like pretty much everyone else i’ve tagged here you kinda had that intimidating aura?? but then the more i talked to you somehow, the more i was proven wrong and you’re such a sweet pea i can’t- also, i’m glad that i found someone who can agree with me when it comes to chungha dsakjlskj pls stay healthy, stay happy jian!!
@swyllh 💌 sara, i don’t think we have ever had a proper conversation, but i just wanted to give you my appreciation. you are one of the most underrated writers within the community yet you always give your best when it comes to your writing and honestly, i really admire you. i haven’t found the time to read your interactive fic yet (i keep pushing that back i am so sorry but i’ll get to that one day) and one of the fics that i absolutely adore is that one end of the world fic with chan, as well as the vernon collab with sha!! i really hope you’ll get the recognition and love you deserve you gifted writer !!
@tonicandjins 💌 faye my snowflake, i haven’t seen you around lately but if you read this, i hope everything’s alright from your side! i’m quite sure i’ve already mentioned this to you but i’ll say it again. i will NEVER shut up about one and two small petals and will NEVER recover from it. another banger is that wonwoo fic with the printer- ugh, you’re such a talented, beautiful person and i truly wish you all the best. remember, don’t stress yourself and relax once in a while uwu
@yeolsmiling 💌 angie hi!! i legit only sent you one (1) ask so i really don’t have much to say so far unless i wanna repeat myself lMAO one day, i aspire to purely emit soft energy for yeol but i doubt that day will ever come. i hope we get to talk more in the future you soft bear <33
honeybunch anon 💌 honeybunch, i hope you’re doing well! i still remember that i called you that when you slipped into my asks and gushed about that one mingyu fic up to this day i’m still flattered and eternally grateful that you’re still here uwu thank you for your support and making my day <33
fromis anon 💌 idk if you’ll ever read this but i miss you uwu i hope you’re doing fine and just a quick update from my side: i still haven’t found a bias yet uGH
sugarpie / tulip anon 💌 you seem like such a cool person i’m really glad you stopped by in my inbox thank you for hitting me up uwu since i have no clue who you are and since i’m a dumbass, i’m can only rely on you messaging me jslkdj
none of the letters are proofread i am so sorry
#i stayed away up until now to make this post#bc i know im gonna fall asleep straight after school oops#if u excuse me i'm going to bed now lkdslk#dara being dumb and dense#in other words: dara is currently mush with zero (0) brain cells and energy#it's 3 am and i gotta wake up in 3 hours pls#i have for sure forgotten someone ugh kms#softhaos antics
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Headcanon request: from friends to lovers. Thank you 😊
Here goes! Very late! As per usual! But they’re longer HCs this time!
BTS HCs: Friends to Lovers
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RM
It takes forever for either of you to realise it.
He’s that guy best friend who always makes you laugh
always there to pick up the pieces
but it takes a lifetime to realise it all
to realise that actually, you can’t live without him
but first, as friends, he:
helps you on your quest for a true love
even though he low key knows that it could be him all along
but he’ll wait
takes you on mates dates at least fortnightly
friend’s discounts at the shop he works at
and he doesn’t do that for anyone else
but he doesn’t realise fully either
not yet
he becomes more and more generous to you
and he still doesn’t really think twice about it
and whilst you’re grateful for the things your friend does for you
nor do you think twice about it
until one day
you’re about to meet up at the park
you know, normal sunny Saturday afternoon
and on your journey there, you just stop
right in the middle of the street
“I can’t wait to meet Namjoon today…”
“Like, I REALLY can’t wait…”
“My God, could I be…”
and you get there and he’s laid out this picnic
which ordinarily wouldn’t be unusual
but then you see these rose petals
and champagne
it’s dead cheesy
but it’s like he’s so in tune with you
you just run up to him sat on the blanket waiting
“Oh my goodness, Namjoon!”
and something overcomes you
you give him an appreciative kiss
“What’s happening right now?” you ask, parting from the kiss
which he has most definitely returned
“This…”
*he pops open the champagne*
“…is what’s happening”
and there’s not formal asking out
or even any official labels to start with
you just spend the rest of that day together
“We should so something like this again sometime”
“Like… a date?”
“Maybe” he grins.
You don’t do anniversaries or milestones in the future
because no one payed attention to the time or the date
it didn’t matter
that doesn’t matter
What matters is that the two of you found happiness
unexpectedly
congrats guys
everyone was secretly rooting for you all along
so many new gifs for me to use! it’s like my favourite way of rounding of a post ngl. wheeeeeeeeee
Jin
It was love at first sight… but then it wasn’t… but then it was again, huh.
you meet Jin and are entranced by him
but you have no chance, you figure
after on his first day of work at your place
you’re showing him the ropes
“yeah so here’s where the…”
*crash! bang! wallop!*
next thing you know
you’re on the ground
“Yep I’m a dork.”
“I’m a klutz.”
“This girl right here? No chance”
That’s all what you’re telling yourself, that is
so then you avoid him
and he clocks on to that
“oh that’s a shame”
“she seemed really nice”
and this goes on for a bit
but then you eventually get comfortable around him
and suddenly out of nowhere
he asks you on a date
and you say yes of course
but you’re certain it’s a dare from the co-workers
for whatever reason
so when Jin asks if you’d like to do it again
you humm with uncertainty
“Wow, you really don’t like me, do you?”
“What, no?”
“Why are you so indifferent around me? Something I did? Said?”
“It’s not that.. it’s… this is a dare, isn’t it?”
“Huh?”
“The guys at work. They put you up to this didn’t they?”
“Are you for real?”
“Are you?”
“Yes! Y/n, I like you!”
“How do I know this isn’t part of the act?”
and he’s so fucken bold
he pulls you in by the waist
and plants a big one on you
right on the lips
he’s so dreamy
you have to go back in for another
this is great
really great
you go back to his
and it’s innocent, you know
you’re kissing on the couch
all night
into daylight
just kissing and talking
“Okay, maybe I believe you now”
Jin is the bias wrecker once again guys. Confession made.
Suga
It’s one of the hardest experiences he’s ever had to live… but it’s worth it.
Yoongi is the most quietest person around girls
especially if he likes you
but you were never told this
you meet a friend of his
and she one day introduces you
cool, cool, ‘hello’
that’s your side of it anyway
“Very pretty. and charming”
his side ^
but doesn’t speak up
for years
he just so happens to be fortunate enough
that you and this mutual friend get closer
and that a group of friends forms from that
he treasures those meet ups you all have
he loves the way you laugh
the light in your eyes when you tell a story
your dress sense
your tastes in music
your everything
Music. That’s it.
so one day he muster the courage
to engage with you in a more in depth conversation
“What’s new with you, Yoongs?”
nice, a nickname
he blushes
“Not much really… apart from this maybe”
and he passes you a headphone
and the music that’s playing is cool
“I just got into them, think they’re my newest obsession…”
“This is cool stuff man”
okay
‘man’ is a little heartbreaking but
she likes it
she might even think I’m cool
and you do
and you two start to bond over music more and more
“Aw Yoongs, check this out! It’s like what you showed me last week!”
“Nice! You know if you like this stuff then I can recommend more…”
“Really?”
“Yeah, I can send you some links, or…”
or…..? YOONGS?
“…or you could come to mine sometime and go through my CD collection”
and even he’s shocked at this bold request
but you say yes immediately
so what was he going to worry about anyway?
so yeah, his place
music music music
he is so cool
the stuff he owns
the stuff he likes
it’s almost like
he’s you as a guy
and it’s almost like
you’ve connected on a completely different level
then you find yourself thinking about him a lot
A L O T
you want to text him every day
you want to bump into him wherever you go
or invite him out just because
right, this has to stop
you have to know
“Yoongi?”
“Yeah?”
“What would you say if…”
“If…?”
“It’s silly, nah”
“Oh”
“Well… do you think we’ve been hanging out too much lately”
“Not at all”
“No, I mean like TOO much… too much for people who are ‘just friends’?”
literally though
you’ve spent every day of this past fortnight in each other’s company now
“Maybe, but… well, how do you feel about that y/n?”
“I… I’ve enjoyed it” you smile
“Me too” he grins.
and it’s a big grin
it makes you warm
make you want to…
“Stop me if I’m reading this wrong”
you go for it
you kiss him
and he’s kissing you back
hurray!
finally!
“Oh my god guys, FINALLY!”
your friends chorus in one go
Yes, finally.
J-Hope
He was a skater boy, she said… ‘YES!’
lol sue me kill me idc
your mates like the park
his mates like the park
it’s really the only place in your area
to go to every weekend
you mingle a little gradually
you guess they’re cool
it’s nice to be welcomed up there
“you girls like skating?”
“suppose we can try”
some of you pick it up like that
some of you don’t
you choose which one you are
and you all grow up together essentially
you all get older then
less people are coming out so often
you and Hoseok find it’s just the two of you
this happens occasionally
neither of you think anything of it
but you have a laugh
you have fun
practically best friends
without saying that you’re best friends
you grow up some more
and the park at weekends is no longer a thing
you get jobs
you get further education
etc
you think to yourself, in your 20s
“you know what I haven’t done in a while?”
and just like that, you grab your board
or not if you’re the type who didn’t pick it up
maybe you have a bike instead idk
so you go back there for the nostalgia you guess
and it’s eerie
because you hear your name
and the voice is familiar
you must be going nuts
but then you source the location of the sound
you completely forgot his house backs onto this place
“Y/n!!!”
at the top of his voice until you notice
you wave
aw isn’t that lovely
you make your way home
“Woah! Wtf?”
Hoseok’s just stopped you in your tracks on the main street
and you just catch up
and it somehow leads to meeting for coffee the next week
you guess it’s harder to keep friends at this age already
so why not
one coffee date
turns into 5
into 18
into 578659
you get it
something is happening here
you… think?
then you get this invite
he asks you to be his plus 1 at a wedding
this… isn’t just what mates do, right?
or is it?
best not over think it
just make yourself look presentable
well at least look nice
or really nice
like really good
…you make yourself look like the bomb
let’s see if he pays attention now
“Woah”
he’s stunned
but so are you
THE SUIT
he had the same idea you bet
he offers you his arm to link onto
you get drunk at the wedding
naturally
and you just talk about the idea
what if you’d have got together as teens?
it’s so random
but then he tells you
any guy would be lucky to have you
it’s cliche af
but
but
*you’re just staring into thin air now*
“Y/n-would-you-like-to-go-on-a-date-with-me?” he blurts out
it’s real nervous and fast
but kinda cute
and you butt in just as fast
“YES!”
do either of your remember in the morning?
damn right, you do?
“So what now?”
“You looked so fine in that dress y/n… you really captured me. Let’s do it.”
and it’s onwards and upwards from there.
Jimin
“I secretly love my best friend and I get jealous when she’s with someone else”
you’re the duo that people begin to get convinced would never get together
like not even a hook up
people used to tease like
“why don’t you just fuck already?”
or
“you know who would be good for you?”
but they stopped
they saw how much it annoyed the two of you
and actually
maybe they should grow up
and realize
friendships of opposite genders do happen
so you get on with the whole best friends thing
and this is normal to you
well it’s not unusual, having said that
maybe I should say, it’s not unbearable for you
Jimin, on the other hand
he fucking adores you
he might even say he loves you
if he could admit it
he can’t even tell himself that though
not yet
he secretly can’t stand it when
you go on dates
you tell him all about it
you ask him what dress to wear to go out in
that stuff
so you know they say
“a drunk mind speaks a sober mind”?
he’s on a lads night out
and they’re talking about you
how cool you are
how pretty you are
how fit you are
and that last one gets to him
he pins a close friend of his up to the wall
“dude wtf”
wtf indeed Jimin
“oh shit, I love her”
“gaaaay!” his mates holler
“shut up! I have to go do something”
so he calls you
“can I come over”
“uh, sure?” a confused tired y/n answers
he gets to yours and you see why the weird time of night
“have you been drinking?”
“I was, but… I feel very much sober now”
“Everything okay Jimin?
“I… I… I just pinned Tae up against the wall”
“Why?”
“He said something about you”
“Tae said something about me? I hope nothing bad…”
“No y/n, nothing like that, oddly enough.. he said…
… he complimented you and it just…
… y/n I can’t pretend anymore…
… I am a jealous person when it comes to you.”
“You’re… jealous? Of what?”
“People who get to be close to you”
“But we’re close, Chim”
he can’t stop talking thought
“… people who get to take you out -
- people who get to hold you close -
- people who…”
“Jimin, what are you trying to say?”
“If you never wanna talk again, I’ll understand”
“Jimin, what is it?”
“Can I ask a question?”
that’ll be easier for him, you see
“Would you kiss me… ever?”
“I’ve… never really thought about it…”
“Would you try?”
it’s a bit desperate ^
but he’s asked it now
you have to think about it though
you really never thought about it
“I need some time”
“I’m sorry”
“Don’t apologise Chim… take me out.”
“Huh?”
“Take me out. This time next week.”
so you can think about it
and you do
and it’s still pretty uncertain for the first few days
until you can’t stop thinking about it
what that kiss would have been like
you have nothing to lose, surely?
and then a week has passed
you get to kiss him
Wow
“I think we could do this more often” you smile
V
You fall in love with a kitty and he falls in love with you
your friendship derives fro a mutual love of something
CATS
well actually, it’s all animals
but you decided your home needed a cat
and he works at the adoption charity
“I’m quite fond of this one” he smiles
he’s just picked up the one you pointed out
usually the adoption procedure is short and sweet
pick a cat, take them home
but Taehyung lets you stroke the cat
for hours
as the two of you are lost in conversation
you don’t even stop to wonder if he’s slacking off the job
this is too nice
“You know, I wouldn’t say no to letting you visit him every now and then” you offer, blushing of course
he’s so cute…
the kitty isn’t bad either
shoot me again i know
“Really?”
“Yeah”
phone numbers exchanged
nerves hit you as you expect his first visit
are you letting in a secret madman?
who knows?
you find out he is mad
but not in a psychologically deranged way
he’s nuts
he’s funny
he’s caring
he’s… a good friend now
but it doesn’t end there
he’s charming
he’s thoughtful
he’s… amazing
and time to feel pathetic every time he visits the kitty
like a middle aged woman watching a fit young builder work on her house
but it stops feeling like that when
you notice he glances at you
he sometimes just watches you talk
he’s interested
whether that’s an interest in what you’re saying
or and interest in you
or both, you can’t figure
then one day he suddenly makes this confession
kind of
“you know we’re taught not to get attached to the little fellows we take in…”
“and yet here you are…”
“yeah…”
he looks awkwardly at the floor
“Tae?”
“What?”
“Were you… going to say something else?”
“No! – uh, maybe…”
you wait for him to spit it out
“I did get attached to [name of pet] but… I might have played on that…”
“Play on it how?”
you’re not sure if you should worry
“It’s just when I saw you come in for the first time and you look so cute and kind and…. ah I’m making a right balls up of this…”
“and what, Taehyung?”
“I just wanted to get to know you better!”
“Why?”
“I literally just listed some of the reasons why!”
silence
“but… nevermind that… can we still be friends?”
this is insane
why would he think you’d want to be his friend
after this
absolutely insane
to think
that you could continue being
just friends only
“So… you liked me back?”
“Oh my god how long have we trailed this out unnecessarily?”
“oops” you confidently smirk
oh and you’re face to face with him now
and then
the kiss
awwh
but what’s that smell??
“I still need to get [pet’s name] toilet trained!”
all’s well that ends well
Jungkook
From lovers to friends to lovers again… pfft, teens
high school sweethearts
everyone thinks you’ll be together forever
but then it ends in like your last school year
over numerous misunderstandings
you know how it can be
the amount of jealous people
who then make rumours
which can feel very believable
anyhow
it’s a few years until you even meet or talk again
of course in your youth, weekends are for partying
and you make friends from friends
and more friends from those friends
and then different people mingle
and a friend of a friend of a friend become besties somehow
all that jazz
so your group and his group somehow collab
it’s weird at first
but you’re young adult
you can be civil, right?
you might think I’m about to say ‘wrong’
but I’m not
because y/n and Jungkook were always ahead of the maturity game anyways
and now you’re in a more sensible environment
which sounds weird as you’re in a club full of horny strangers
but there’s a more positive type of people
because no one involves themselves with the negative people from school anymore
so you can talk properly
and you look back with nostalgia
and you evaluate with more open and educated minds
you catch up
and with each drink comes more honesty
yes, you actually get drunk together
that is a possible thing
no one takes advantage though
you agree to meet up to go clubbing more often
and you bond once again over your love for fun
and since it doesn’t happen that often
it’s more fortnightly than every possible day
you can always find something to talk about
because there’s always something to catch up on
but then one night you’re broke
you just don’t admit it to anyone
surely it can still be fun with friends alone, right?
it is still fun
but
isn’t this whole seeing your ex thing a bit weird?
the conversations on this night are less natural
he doesn’t spot it
and you all depart without fuss
you think about it the next morning again
is this weird?
can this friendship thing really work out?
and you decide
no, it can’t
because you still fucking love every little thing he does don’t you?
and he’s matured extremely well
he is like DAMN
but you try to numb it out
accepting that round 2 could never happen
he invites you out
“just us and a few friends” he says
but there’s no friends there
they all bailed
not a trick, just real coincedence
and yeah, you talk some more
and more
and more
and more
until it hurts
you’re tearing up
he’s tearing up
you’ve missed each other so much
you passionately kiss
still low key crying
full of emotion
wishing neither of you had ever let some petty high school kids affect your lives in this way
it’s kind of almost tragic
but you’re here now
you’ve missed his kisses
he’s missed your touch
but neither of you miss those fucking shit staring kids
the rumours ruined you back then
but they only made you stronger now
you and Jungkook
back together
forever?
A lot of that was probably lame but I hope at least one person can enjoy this [not including myself hahahah]
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60 truths tag
Thank you for tagging me @kookmejeon !!
1. Nickname(s): Don’t have any :/
2. Bias: wHaT iS a BiAs ???
3. Blood type: i have no clue
4. Relationship status: single but not emotionally stable to mingle
5. Birthday: 26th of January
6. Zodiac sign: Aquarius
7. Pronouns: They/them, but i’m not too fussed, it doesn’t offend me because i’m not too sure about myself at the moment so she/her is fine :)
8. Hair length: V short, a lot of it’s shaved
9. Height: 5′2 and ¾ | 159 cmish, im not sure exactly
10. A crush: I have so many, i have real life crushes, tumblr crushes, celebrity crushes ect. the whole shebang
11. What do you like about yourself: My music taste
12. Right or left handed: Right
13. List of three favourite colours: Black, Sea green and gold
14. Right now eating: Subway cookies, god damn i’m living
15. Right now drinking: Peach water
16. I’m about to: Rewatch Yuri!! on ice bc I’m gay trash
17. Listening to: My Chemical Romance, throwin’ back to the good ol’ emo days
18. Kids: hell no
19. Get married: Idk maybe
20. Recent phone call: My dad
21. Have you ever dated someone twice: Nope
22. Been cheated on: Not that i’m aware of lmao
23. Kissed someone and regretted it: I don’t particularly like the people that I’ve kissed before but I don’t regret it
24. Lost someone special: Yes, but I try not to dwell on it
25. Been depressed: Yes
26. Been drunk and thrown up: No, i only drink at like new year and it’s still not enough to get drunk
27. Had glasses or contacts: When i was like 7
28. Had sex on a first date: No
29. Broken someone’s heart: I hope not
30. Turned someone down: Yes, he was a creepy fucker you can’t blame me lmao
31. Cried when someone died: Yes (applies to both fictional and real life)
32. Fallen for a friend: Current crush ngl
33. In the last year have you made a new friend: I have, i’ve made some really good friends on here recently and i love them all :)
34. Fallen out of love: Gradually yes
35. Laughed until you cry: Literally yesterday
36. Met someone who changed you: I think everyone i’ve met has changed me, whether giving me a new opinion or perspective on something or on myself
37. Found out who your true friends were: I think so, i have a pretty solid group of friends
38. Found out someone was talking about you: like everyday, everyone hates me, it’s hysterical
39. Lips or eyes: Both wtf, but eyes can be super captivating so idk
40. Hugs or kisses: HUGS ARE AMAZING FTW
41. Shorter or taller: If its if i prefer people being taller than me then yes but it doesn’t bother me too much
42. Romantic or spontaneous: Both i guess, it really depends
43. Sensitive or loud: Depends on the sitch
44. Hookup or relationship: Relationship pls
45. First best friend: She’s moving away in the summer and i’m crying, we’ve only been friends for about a year or so but she’s definitely my best friend
46. Surgery: i had one when i was little to get a hell of a lot of teeth out but that’s it
47. Sports I joined: I used to do a lot but my anxiety stops me from doing team sports/ going to the gym or just being around people in general lmao
48. Do you believe in yourself: It depends on the situation, if i’m confident in my abilities then hell yeah, but if not then probably no
49. Miracles: I was going to quote Hot Chocolate but yeah i believe in them I guess
50. Love at first sight: Personalities matter yo
51. Heaven: idk whats that
52. Do you have any pets: One pupper called Razzie, she’s such a bean
53. Do you want to change your name: Yes and no, I love it because my parents picked it for me but 1) no one can ever pronounce it correctly 2) I hate it and 3) I am having an identity crisis, i have no idea what i want
54. What did you do for your last birthday: Went to Glasgow and just fucked around with my friends, had pizza and a sleepover and it was great
55. What time did you wake up today: 6:20 lmao
56. What were you doing last night at midnight: having an existential crisis
57. Something you can’t wait for: My @ask-kimdaily art to arrive and the preorders for her zine lmao also new Paramore and All Time Low albums
58. Last time you saw your mom: Like two minutes ago
59. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: My crippling anxiety, I wish I had the motivation to help myself but it’s so difficult, I know i have the power to change but
60. What’s getting on your nerves: My lack of motivation and my school work, like who the fuck thought it was a good idea to have exams like who is she
I hope ya’ll learnt a thing or two about me lmao, and enjoyed the shit show
I’d like to tag these lovely people, I’d really like to get to know you all better! @exosmutxoxo @ask-kimdaily @minjinbiased @ahgaseposts @idolized-scenarios @b00bitch @bands–and–fandoms @tae-namjoon @kooks-gf and anyone else who wants to do this, tag me if you do! :) edit: if you've already done this I'm sorry, I meant to post it yesterday but I forgot to, I'm so sorry
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