Six Sentence Sunday/Spicy Sunday

Thank you @confused-bi-queer and @youarenevertooold for the tags!

I have continued AGRESSIVELY WRITING Your Fragile Bones Are Mine and just finished the second chapter. LOL WOW where was this vigor two months ago. So I'm just gonna post that, once my betas have a crack at it.

I told Dre "it'll be 4k words per chapter maximum" and guess who is a big fat liar? Me. It's me.

Have one excerpt from the present, and one from the past.

“Just stop, Simon. We don’t have to do this, act like this is more—more than what it is. Just because you feel some sense of duty or guilt. Just—I don’t want it.” I’m still holding his face. Too tight, so tight it’s pulling his features a little wide, my thumbs to his temples. His flat grey eyes are boring into mine. “My ‘duty’ is to fight the Humdrum. My ‘duty’ is to the World of Mages. This? Us? It’s not that. This is fucking … the opposite of that.” He’s searching my face, like he’s looking for the lie.

And another! (under the cut for mild spice)

“I wanted to try something,” he says in a low whisper against my lips, the same time he teases his fingers under my waistband.  Oh. That. That’s new. “H-here?” My voice wavers. “I didn’t want to wait.” One of his hands slides over my trousers, cupping me between my legs. I’m already half-hard for him, twitching toward him. His middle finger draws up, and then, slowly, back down. I whimper. “I didn’t want to lose my nerve.” Crowley, has Simon Snow been thinking about touching me like this during lessons? No wonder his grades are horrifying.

No pressure tags and helloooos!

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Six Sentence Sunday/Creative Proof of Life

Thanks for the tags, @alexalexinii, @shrekgogurt, and @that-disabled-princess!

This WIP post is basically a proof of life statement. I can't believe it's been over a month since I posted Chapter 1 of the Haunting of Simon Snow. I'm so overdue for chapter 2, BUT... instead I finished writing the rough draft. I've been attempting to outline, because when I rough a draft, I really rough it up. Ahem.

So I have been working on it, even if there is zero evidence on AO3 as of yet.

How about some sentences? I haven't sliced up chapters yet, so not sure if this is from chapter two or three, but here's a snippet of Simon on the phone with Penny expressing some smooshy sentiments:

I curl up on the couch a bit more, maneuvering myself so my wings aren’t crushed. “I went flying last night,” I confess then, in quiet tones. Like someone might hear me. “You— Oh, but… You can’t! What if someone sees you?” I can actually hear her biting her lip. She wants to spell my problems away, and she can’t. “But I can,” I say, smiling a bit more. “There’s no one around for acres. No one will even willingly drive here on account of the house being haunted. It’s empty. And I’m flying at night.” I say flying in the present tense and realize I fully intend to fly again tonight.

Penny huffs. Her specialty. “I don’t like it.” “I do,” I say easily, warming up to explaining, hoping she’ll understand. “It’s so freeing, Pen. Like the weight of the world can’t hold me down, anymore. I feel… It’s like… It’s like I’m closer to the stars. Like I’m close to stirring up the milky way.” I let out a sigh, my eyes closing as I drop my head back, indulging in that recent memory. “I don’t hate it as much, when I’m up there. You know?” There’s a few seconds of silence, and I open my eyes again. “Pen?” “Hate what?” she asks quietly.

(just in case you were worried I wouldn't be including angst...)

Bit more info on my progress (maybe some whinging) and tags and hellos below the cut!

Fun facts about my ineffecient writing process:

I spent more than one or two hours clearing asterisks from my rough draft this morning. (Because discord has trained me to do *this* when I write instead of this.) Because I'm trying to listen to my draft via screen readers, but it keeps sounding like "asterisk-impossible-star-fuck me" (that's my favorite one honestly, it's supposed to read "Impossible. Fuck me.") which is really annoying (more often than amusing). ANYWAY… what this has revealed to me is that I use "Fuck" a lot, as well as "So good." Ahem. Take from that what you will.

BTW, I'm sure there's an easier way to do that than manually. Please don't tell me for at least a few days, or I might lose it. I am but a mortal being, with a tattered heart and patience worn thin. (Or something.)

OKAY. It's been awhile since I did one of these posts. Time really flies. Gonna give this list my best shot, but as always, open to any who want to participate! (Also adding some new names in for the new year so this is sort of my "Gee I hope this is cool with you" super long tag list. If you'd rather not be tagged, just drop me a missive to that effect!)

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Lastly, quick note/question. Tumblr seems to be remiss in informing me when I've been tagged in other posts. Is this a common issue?

Writeblr re-intro!

I'm just gonna make these periodically so that new people joining the community might see it.

Hi, I'm Lee Brontide (any pronouns but "it"). I'm queer, middle aged, midwestern (in the US), and have a variety of disabilities. I'm also a therapist, but I'm pretty specific in how I allow that to show up in online spaces. (please don't ask for therapy in my DMs).

I have a once a month newsletter called Shed Letters.

I'm on tumblr to dink around, meet other writers, find readers, share my animation attempts, and show off my cats.

I read pretty much anything scifi or fantasy, but am especially interested in finding more scifi writeblrs. Especially YA scifi writers. There must be others, right?

My work is about

queerness

trauma

medical trauma especially

disability

interpersonal dynamics

systems/power

disaster teens trying really hard

And taking genre conventions far too seriously

I've got one book out now called Secondhand Origin Stories, which is character-driven, low-neon, near-future cyberpunk scifi with a superhero twist. My WIP, Names in Their Blood, is in edits now and will be going to beta reading soon!

Which means I'm also going to get to work on the as yet untitled novella that goes between book 1 and book 2 in the series soon. It's from the point of view of an AI building management/security system/medical information database, who decides that they want a more portable body so they can follow their family on the next family trip, and explores the process of choosing a new physical form.

I am ask and tag game friendly, and for now at least, my DMs are open! But I work on a major delay because life.

I'm looking for writeblrs who write any or all of:

queer stuff

character driven scifi

psychological exploration

found family

messy family

YA or NA

Things that remind me of: DS9, tlt, murderbot, Leverage, The Disasters, or AtLA

Let me know if that's you!

Introduction

I moved blogs from @trans-boytoy after getting flagged. I'm writing a whole new intro since many things have changed.

🔞First of all, MINORS DNI, THIS IS AN NSFW BLOG🔞

🖤Basic info about me🖤

• 19 yo

• ftm trans boy, he/him/his

• sub & bottom (switch in very rare cases)

• single and not looking for long distance relationship

• 5'2/157cm

• lives in eastern Europe and might not always have patience for yo western asses

• bisexual, aro-spec, poly/ambiamorous

• first year science major at uni

• highly introverted, autistic, and disabled (scoliosis, chronic fatigue)

🖤Kinks and stuff🖤

• submission

• collar, cuffs, restraint

• free use

• size difference

• cnc

• bondage

• choking

• impact play, bruising

• exhibitionism, voyeurism

• knifeplay, blood

• monsterfucking

• many more but currently these are the most relevant

🚫DNI🚫

• MINORS

• bigots of any kind (racism, ableism, etc)

• misgendering/detrans kink. if you interact I'm gonna report and kinkshame you

• supporters of JKR

• supporters of Israel (yes, no joke there. Israel is the reason why I have dead people all over my social medias rn so you should fuck off)

• people who are gonna misgender me or associate me with femininity in any way. instant block.

• pedos and zoophiles

🖤About the blog and how can you interact if you're not on the DNI list🖤

• this is largely a mlmasc/mlnb focused blog but all genders and sexualities are welcome as long as you respect my identity and current preferences. tho sapphic people and straight people won't really find anything interesting here.

• you might find occasional rants on here. my mental health is not the best rn, I cannot promise to be trigger free in that matter but will try to tag my rants correctly

• you can always send asks, nsfw ones too, but please be respectful!

• you can reblog original posts if the reblog button is enabled (it probably won't be with photos)

• me answering dms is not guaranteed but you can try if you want. especially if you have a specific topic to talk about. (mutuals I talk to on my previous blog are an exception ofc)

• I am NOT up for sexchat by default. if you want to get off quickly with a stranger I'm NOT your person. however, with people I'm familiar with it's not out of the question but please don't demand it of me.

I think this is it for now, thanks for reading! :)

okay, i may or may not commit to a Real Reboot (i made the blog but it's not flowing). but here is what i am definitely committing to:

i am no longer going to remove laura from twin peaks (canon, not necessarily town). i WILL write something up that will make this less potentially daunting to newcomers.

i am only going to focus on a few verses. other than the specific 'laura survives her injuries and goes on to Live A Life' timeline --- which is still our main priority --- they will all be canon-centric.

unless i am writing her as carrie page (which i enjoy greatly btw), she will probably still be a teenager. not definitely --- there are some storylines with other canons i still Want Here, and they may or may not end up being easier for the rest of you, too --- but i am wary of straying too far from The Narrative and my actual intentions with this blog. my main priority has always been, like, making laura Accessible To Everybody, but it just doesn't... work. like that.

relatedly, yeah, i am never gonna tag anything less liberally! and i hope that this is a safe space! but it might not be. and that's... okay, really, i think? finally? by which i mean, please take care of yourself. i don't mind if you're my best friend in the world and you don't want to follow this blog, or any blog. it will not hurt my feelings. it will not make you any less welcome anywhere else. you do not need to explain. i am extremely aware that my singles tend to be abject nightmares and i don't want to, like, spread them. that is not the goal.

laura is going to get a new cat.

i'm not going to say 'no shipping' but i am going to say it's probably only going to happen in texas unless you're writing one of those canons. because, frankly, she is kind of set. if her little fan club is there (grudging members or not) you can't compete with them. she loves her people so incredibly bad. and that is so important to understanding her

i am banging on the table asking moderately politely for asl threads. bonus points if i can pick the verse, but they are more than acceptable in any.

she's disabled. she has some ugly scars that she won't bother trying to hide. she's angry about these things and also about many other things. this has always been the case, but i have not been true enough to either of us, and i've kind of let it go unnoticed. i am sick of me god bless

assuming she is in twin peaks and not married --- which is not really a future plan for anything central here --- she will live with her mother in that godforsaken house. but they have the good halloween candy, if you're brave enough to go up there

long life update - TWs in tags

It feels like it's been ages. I'm so exhausted and in a lot of physical pain. Going on two months of it being the worst it's been right after a couple of months of the best it's been. Chronic pain + grief + trying to get help from doctors who should have their licenses revoked + dealing with a shit relationship with my mom + a good, decades-long friendship ending + the ongoing disability process with the SSA + LAW FIRMS.

I'm so fucking tired. I don't remember if I updated that the appeals council decided not to review my case because the 'judge followed the law' except that he didn't. So, as it turns out, my original attorney (and he did not tell me this) before he left, wrote that if they denied me, it should go to federal district court.

I'm now working with a NY law firm to take my case to federal court because my current law firm believes it has merit, and I guess they do, too. That's how fucked the decision was, and I'm glad my initial reaction of bewilderment and anger was spot on lol

The good news is, it should only take another year! ._.

My neurologist is the worst doctor I have ever come across and I'm quite literally stuck with him with nowhere else to go. I wish him upon no one. I'm so tired of calling the SSA, getting documents to them, signing things for law firms, contacting law firms, getting no responses, and contacting them all over and over again. I am in incredible physical pain, like this actively makes my neuro stuff worse. Everything makes it worse. I have autonomic testing in a few days, and idk if I'll get through it b/c I have to stop the meds that keep me out of the ER two days prior, and it scares me.

My relationship with my mom is fractured and I don't feel like family therapy is actually helping. I had to end a friendship with someone I love and care very much about but who was growing too comfortable mistreating me and I was giving them too many passes 😞 I've known them for the better part of two decades.

It's been over seven months since my cat Isis died. I don't know how. It feels like she was here just yesterday. Yet, all the nights I've sat and talked to her and wept are all too real. I miss her more than I can say. She was my soul cat. I keep thinking about tomorrow and how she'd be so nosy getting into EVERYthing when gifts are opened at Christmas. Having to stop her, move her, laugh because she was just so n o s y and it was hilarious. And she's not gonna be here for that ever again.

I'm having a really fucking hard time tonight. It's just hitting me how god-awful this year has been and how I have a bad week to look forward to before even getting to the new year lmao I have to stop taking so many of my medications 48hrs before 1.5-2hrs of testing to see if we can find out Yet Another Thing Wrong With Me but knowing my luck it'll be 'no findings' and the mystery of why my core body temp plummets to 93.9 in the blink of an eye won't be solved until I have suffered juuuuust enough.

It never ends. Never. I want to give up. I'm so tired of doing this. I don't want to anymore. It never. fucking. ends.

I absolutely cannot say it's all been bad, though. I've met incredible, warm, welcoming, giving, kind people this year. Y'all have helped me more than you know and I'm so so so lucky to be able to call you my friends. This year has sucked for so many of us, but I want to say I'm proud of you, and I love you all very much.

My fic is gonna be printed in a hardcover zine early next year. I participated in a Big Bang for the first time and that'll also go out early next year. I'm hosting a tiny event in my tiny fandom server that I'm super excited about. I have a raffle prize to write (bagginshield !!!! SO EXCITED to revisit the og otp) and a Valentine's gift to write for another fandom.

I posted 401,000 words this year and wrote many more unfinished wips, plus a long one (90k) that I am very invested in finishing.

I painted and drew so much this year. I improved a lot, too! I got a couple of portraits printed from inprnt to see how they looked, and it was MY art, and they were GORGEOUS. I thought I would hate seeing my art professionally printed, but no! I almost cried. They looked so lovely.

My cat Lilly had health issues almost immediately following Isis's passing, but she is doing so well right now. She's blossomed into another cat, and while she's not my constant companion, she is with me so much more than she used to be. When she walks onto my desk I am to stop everything and hold her like baby in my arms until she decides that's enough (or I really need to move) lmaaao she's such a goober. My heart cat. <3

I'm not doing well right now--my MH is bad. Especially tonight. But it felt good to write the good things.

I'm sorry for my lack of replies and kinda disappearing. I'm running on fumes. I hope next year will bring physical relief so emotional relief can happen.

For those of you facing difficulties of any kind, I am holding your hand in spirit.

Would you be willing to share any tropes or pet peeves you have with the fandoms intepretation of HOH! Steve? No pressure at all but I know it’s gaining popularity and that fandoms historically have a shit record with disability and you’ve spoken about your frustrations with that tag. Also thank you for sharing the link to the movie!! I’ve been wanting to watch more historical films especially ones that push back against assumptions of what the past was capable of!

omg YES thank you for asking!!! so to preface for anybody who doesn't know: i myself am hard of hearing and i used to post about steve being hard of hearing sometimes prior to s4, but i haven't posted about it much since it became a Thing in the fandom because i don't trust other people on my posts lmao.

so honestly this is gonna be less about specific tropes and more of a broad ideological discussion bc i don't usually read the hoh steve fics i scroll past and i don't want to act like i Know exactly what all of them are like based off just the few i have read. however, i Have seen the tags and summaries and read the first few paragraphs of a lot of them, and i feel like that's enough for me to have like. an opinion. so ANYWAY.

my first issue is just that pretty much everyone i've seen writing hoh steve is hearing themselves. there's nothing inherently wrong with that, but the thing is that hoh steve is like. entirely a creation of fandom, yknow? there's not rly anything in canon that indicates steve has poor hearing--honestly, if anything, he seems to have rather keen ears (picking up on the background music in the russian code in s3, being the first one to hear dustin in the upside down in s4). you can certainly reverse-engineer it and argue that poor school performance can be an indicator of poor hearing, that his head injuries could potentially cause hearing loss, but neither of those are things where hearing loss naturally comes to mind without somebody looking for it, so this begs the question of why. what exactly is motivating these hearing people to write this character as hoh?

i've noticed some things that tend to go along with hoh steve. one is steddie, which is kind of a given in the st fandom at this point, but it's the things that go along with that which concern me. the "babygirl steve" thing where steve is woobified and feminized to the point of being nigh-unrecognizable seems quite common among these fics. steve often has other medical problems as well--he needs glasses, he gets migraines, he has memory loss, he's depressed, he's got chronic pain, etc, etc, and my disability is just another thing on a laundry list of issues that is seemingly employed for the sole purpose of making steve sad and hurt and pitiable so that (usually) eddie can come along and save him/baby him. i'm not gonna act like i've never tossed some shit at steve to make him suffer in a fic, but it's always for like. a Reason. and that reason has never once been just so i could ship him with somebody and make them into his savior.

i think a lot of people writing hoh steve just don't necessarily have great intentions with it, yknow? they see it as a way for steve to suffer nobly in silence and be self-sacrificial, or they think it's cute to make steve deaf since eddie plays loud music (???).

there are a lot of things i love about being hard of hearing. i love that i get to have a unique appreciation of sound that not everybody has. i love that i can take out my hearing aids when the world is too much. i love that i still discover new sounds at the age of twenty-two. did you guys know that dishwashers make noise? i didn't until today! my house was quiet and i kept hearing something strange until i tracked it down and realized! i love that i have a sense of wonder about every noise i hear! and while i don't begrudge anybody their enjoyment of hoh steve content, i have yet to see any that comes remotely close to capturing these feelings, so it's just not for me.

also this is a silly pet peeve but why is it that in these fics steve almost always learns asl and like rarely has hearing aids? like sorry but unless he's completely deaf that's out of character. steve harrington is not learning a whole new language unless he absolutely has to and has literally no other options. they had hearing aids in the eighties. c'mon people.

anyway. sorry that was so long lmao and thank you for asking!! also thank you for actually reading and caring about my within our gates post!! i highly recommend looking up some 1920s music to listen along with the film, though you can honestly listen to whatever you want--at the time, films didn't typically have dedicated scores, and individual theaters would provide their own musical accompaniment however they saw fit. oftentimes this meant a live musician would play piano during the film, and improvise to suit the mood/plot! happy viewing 💕

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About me:

Remi ┇ 20 ┇ ace, bi, aro-spec, enby ┇ they/them ┇ Jewish ✡️ and proud

This is my personal blog. It doesn't have a theme, I use it to post my random thoughts and reblog some fanart. Sometimes I make image ids.

Would really appreciate if you introduced yourself when following me!

I also have a shared sideblog with my twin (@justasunflowerseed) that's ROTTMNT themed, with some other tmnt related posts.

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Made the navigation system mostly for myself to find posts I made/reblogged more easily.

more about me under the cut :)

Like I mentioned, I have a twin. We're identical twins. Their blog is: @justasunflowerseed

I love coffee. Mostly black coffee. Coffee >>>>>

Vegetarian

I like cursing, I'll admit. I use curse words quite often. If I reblogged your post with a curse word and it bothers you feel free to lmk and I'll edit it out.

I have undiagnosed ADHD and looking to get it diagnosed. gonna be real awkward if I don't actually have it lmao

I'm half Yemeni half Ashkenazi :)

I'm not really a religious person but I'm getting into Jewish customs and traditions more, like keeping kosher and celebrating holidays properly :)

Obsessed with animation!! love love love the medium 99% of the fandoms I ever entered were animation based

Top 3 favorite animation movies: Big Hero 6, The Emperor's New Groove, Howl's Moving Castle

This blog is a safe space for Queers, neurodivergent people and disabled people of any kind, Jews, people of all racial, ethnic and religious background, etc.

Instead of questions from the list, I want to ask you: from the AUs/LU fics/FSA fics you've written, who are your favorite characters you've written in those fics? And feel free to explain why if you'd like to do so, I am very curious and love your writing ^u^

If we're going with specific versions of the characters, I think these are some of my favorites:

• Wild in incandescently happy: I don't write Wild a lot, but I love how he's intelligent in this one, in addition to his gremlin tendencies.

• Hyrule in Loftwings Stand for Freedom: this is a heavier story, one that I haven't written more of yet didn't expand upon, but, well. I slipped in a lot of my personal philosophy about happiness and anger, in that it's a choice.

"Maybe some people who participate in the whole thing don't deserve forgiveness, but I'm happier when I forgive. I won't forget, and I want justice to take care of them, but I won't let them take up all my emotional energy by always being angry." ... "Why choose anger over happiness?"

• Wind in Marvelous Misadventures: he's optimistic, nosy, and way too observant for his own good.

• Wind in 1931 (the vampire AU): there's just something about a stupid immortal 14-year-old who can be really dang scary when he wants to be :)

• Red, Vio, Green, and Blue in Stern destiny has seal'd my doom (another vampire AU): they used to be monster-hunting knights, with all the skills that implied, until they became vampires. They moved to an abandoned castle and started bringing order to a town, all while struggling with morality questions and foreign predator instincts. It's just so yummy. (anonymity on AO3 wrote a related work about Red that I really really love. It's called Stay your hand, love, and it's a bit heavy so watch tags :)

• FS Zelda in 'tis unusual care (sequel to above): you can tell she cares so much in this one. I tend to write her as a rather feisty individual, but she understands the world around her deeply and backs up her words with actions.

• Shadow in Consciousness (in the BotW AU): he's a creation of the Yiga/Vaati in this one, so he's new to... well, personhood. He's figuring it out, and he's already a dramatic little rebel.

• Blue in Through the Wires: this is a dumb lil sci-fi AU. I don't think I write from Blue's perspective a lot, and this version of him is extra-protective and determined.

• Four in what is a stump supposed to do?: my blog title isn't Blatant Four Swords Favoritism for nothing, but Four is a fascinating character beyond being the Four Swords Link. This fic makes him a Minish by birth, which I really need to do something else with, because it's great.

• Four in Shatterproof (disability AU): he has paraparesis, which isn't what I have, but my experiences with mobility etc were closest to what Four experiences, out of all the disability AU. I often find myself going to this version of him when I'm having Feelings.

Ummm I'll stop there, I could probably keep going. I mean, I write about characters I love in situations that speak to me (we're gonna exclude most of the whump memes for now XD) so I could probably name every single instance of every single character and tell you why I love them.

hey hey, do you mind sharing your akiyama headcanons? just saw ur tags talking abt how theyre dark and im very interested!!!! your fem ryuaki fuels me in ways i cannot describe and i havent even played dead souls FHKGJG and your tanimuras have my whole entire heart!!!

Oh wow first of all THANK YOU for the ask!! It's been only couple days since I've discovered I've had them disabled all this time so I'm very happy I noticed it before you found my blog (,:

I've already complained a bit on twt that when I've started to write down ryuaki headcanons, it prompted me to make a 35+ pages google doc with meta on both of them 😅 It pushed me to write more fun drafts tho, so all is well, but it won't fit in this post for sure ahbfght

But ofc, I will share a little about Shun specifically. (TW for implied SA)

Akiyama... I have complicated feelings about him, because on the one hand, he got betrayed by his closest people, lost all the standing in society and lived as a homeless person for a long time, and that's a big trauma to have. But on the other... He's got back up by a miracle, and now he's trying to recreate the miracle for others. He assumes the role of a judge for other people while himself being too young, too flawed, having black and white morals.

(In Y4 I downright despised Akiyama when he refused a loan to an abused woman on the basis that she didn't want to apply for sex work, but in the same substory gave some cringefail guy 4 chances to complete the test just because it was amusing.)

But I've just completed Y5, and it gave me lots of food for thought.

First of all, from what I see, Shun here was written (rewritten?) as a more sympathetic character. For example, now when it's implied that he's gonna make some woman "use her body" for the loan, it means he's sending her to work on the construction site. Well, alright. I'll take the bad taste joke over previous cases.

There's also an important quest when Akiyama meets his former boss, who not only initially fired him on false accusations, which started his downfall, but also married his ex-fiancée. And Akiyama finally admits that at first, he wanted to use his position as a loan shark to be selfish and to get revenge, but got disgusted with himself after seeing some humanity and principles in the former boss.

So, here finally comes self-awareness about his actions. Interesting tidbit.

Another big part of the character building we see now: when he is alone in Osaka, without Hana around, he's a complete mess. His new office is dirty, he barely eats some instant ramen and clearly just uses the place to escape Tokyo and the responsibilities he created himself. If in Y4 we saw him within his element, managing Elise and doing loan business (with a messy table because he's just soooo quirky and lazyyy \s), then in Y5 we get to see a bit of what's inside his head. And it's not pretty.

He's clearly distancing himself - from Hana and his new yakuza friends, because they have their own lives to care about. (Tanimura too mayhaps, but this is a separate friendship that I also like to talk about a lot)

Aaand he escapes to his ugly nook to have his ugly depressive thoughts. Can't let them witness it, can he? They'd lose all the respect for him.

At the same time, he throws himself into helping Haruka with passion, because that's the thing he actually cares about, for the first time in a couple years. (He also provides her with some much-needed parenting about the importance of being selfish, because, being raised by Kiryu, she's entirely too self-sacrificing.)

And suddenly - he's lively and energetic again, he's bouncing off other characters, he risks his life for what he deems right, he's helpful, organizing, charming. He's everywhere.

(But he's also afraid to acknowledge that he's got too close to people again. So he's ready to literally die for them and Haruka's dream, but avoids calling them friends, settling for "acquaintances")

Not much needed to imagine that, after everything settles down, he falls apart again. Because in his head he's never really needed or too important for the people around. They carry on with their life and plans. Such as Eri, Arai, Yasuko. Even Hana got fed up and left at some point, and has been keeping him at an arm's length since. (Good for her, that was unhealthy)

He's not only not that interesting, his trauma is "ugly" (by his self-admission). It's not heroic and it's very mundane. There's no clear villains to blame, like with Majima's torture in Y0.

It's just - waking up is hard. Akiyama can't see the point in much of what he's doing anymore. Money is just paper for him now, they might have bought him the freedom of choice, but somehow it didn't help. Even with all the financial help to struggling people he can't buy healing for himself. Most alive he felt actually was when he lost the money briefly in Y4 - it made him work to get them back again.

Now it gets a bit tricky, hence the TW.

I think that a lot of things about him actually make sense, if while living on the streets, he had it bad enough to the point of selling himself for food. Like, I don't want to make it into torture porn or downplay the traumatic experience of homelessness overall, but something for sure ruined him and his self-perception. That's why he's bouncing between playing a self-righteous entity and hating himself.

Aside from his crippling depression from all this being shunned deep inside and not addressed, there's the attitude about sex work I've mentioned he has in Y4. He is distancing himself from the situation yet again. A little bit of a trick to calm his mind: "If I treat it like every other job, it won't feel as dehumanizing applied to myself". And also: "Well, I was not above doing that! I was not too proud to do it! Why should anyone else be?"

Now, of course he doesn't want to subject his former boss (and, by extension, Eri) to the same hardships. Even though he is, actually, a bit of a cruel person.

So here's Akiyama in Y4-5. Not super pretty and kind of greasy, but nevertheless charming, gallant and crazy smart. Fighting and dancing and singing and networking equally well. VERY annoying, because he considers himself an expert in all things he read about even once (I also hc him eidetic memory, which makes it worse). And with every year getting more secluded and miserable.

That being said, fem ryuaki has slightly different tone even in all-fem AU because of gender expectations. Akiyama's upbringing for example.

I hc his parents seeing him as this very "proper" son, encouraging his risk-taking neurodivergent activity ONLY when it helped to build onto that image. They happily bragged about their son - with prestigious business degree, good banking job and pretty fiancée. But ofc, when it's all came crashing down, they didn't want to hear about him anymore. Nowadays they acknowledge his existance with some disdain, because they care about reputation more then about him or his wealth. And he has some "disgusting jobs, no respectable friends and no wife".

(It's all kinda complicated from both sides, mb I'll get deeper into it in fanfic that I'm writing)

(And forgive me for saying this, but fem Akiyama is more interesting for me to write in this narrative, because she needed to balance fitting "proper little quiet Japanese woman" with her loud banking career, and while she was always openly feminine, she was never proper or quiet "enough". And now she's "not enough" among actual living legends.)

Well, that's all I have to say for now!

I'm always open for further questions and discussions 😊

Ask Me Anything: WIP Ask Game

Edit: I was tagged by @junebugclaremontdiaz and didn’t see the tag until after I posted. Thanks for the tag!!🥰

I am taking an open tag from @anincompletelist and @nocoastposts I am currently procrastinating working on said wips so naturally I'm going to do this instead of actually writing them lol.

For the purposes of this game, I'll be a little more organized than I actually am and separate things into three categories:

-Active WIPs: Stories that I am either in the process of posting or that I have worked on within the last week.

-Drabbles: Anything that I've written at least a couple paragraphs of, but haven't worked on for at least a week. Some are from the Brownstone Servers weekly drabble prompts that I started expanding on, others are just random ideas that I actually wrote down.

-Ideas: These are the ones that are still floating around in my head that do not exist anywhere outside of my brain, or that I've only written a couple sentences of.

(The first two are the only one with definite titles, so for the rest of them I will be using 'Friends' episode titles or whatever nickname I've been calling it.)

The Next Step Is All You Can Take: Set immediately after the Lake House, but before Alex storms Kensington. Henry sees on the news that Alex has been injured in an attack, and immediately hops a plane to the US, where he discovers that Alex has been blinded. This fic is in progress and has 7 chapters posted so far.

Never Grow Up: A 3+1 fic that follows Alex and Henry as they discover that their daughter will be born with spina bifida and shows snapshots of their life from Daisy's birth to her dads dropping her off at college. This is a one shot, and technically it's already complete, but I fell in love with Daisy and I want to write more about FirstPrince girl dads because why not. I'm open to suggestions for this one.

The One Where Henry's Metaphor Is Not A Metaphor: What if Henry's story about 'the prince with his heart on the outside' was a bit more literal than it is in canon.

The One Where They're Both Disabled: I blame that 100 word drabble I did where I wrote Henry with a spinal cord injury and his wheelchair frame is painted to look like the 'Lover' album, somehow that turned into this. But yeah, it's exactly what it says on the tin. This will either be my magnum opus or I will crash and burn like Icarus. Only time will tell.

The Grey's Anatomy AU: Just so you know, I am playing fast and loose with both timelines in a massive way with this one. Basically it starts season 1 episode 1 and Alex and Henry are starting as interns with MAGIC. Henry is still a prince, and Alex is still the first son, but their lives took very different paths (obviously).

Tortall/RWRB Crossover: A crossover between RWRB and Tamora Pierce's 'Tortall' universe with a primary focus on 'The Protector of The Small' quartet. This might be one of the more chaotic ideas I've ever had, but if I ever manage to write it, this will be the first time I've written something in the fandom my username is inspired by.

What Happens After Hanahaki?: I'm just gonna give a quote for this one because it's one of my favorite bits that I've written in a while.

"When he’d arrived at the hospital, he had been desperate, praying that he wouldn’t be too late. The clock was ticking and as soon as he had taken Henry’s hand and showered his unconscious face with kisses, one by one his vital signs started to return to a normal range, and a scan later confirmed what they already knew; the flowers growing in Henry’s lungs were gone. He was going to live, crisis abated and true love won out in end, but then the second nightmare began."

The One Where Henry Is Deaf: This started a 100 word drabble for the Brownstone Server's weekly prompt 'Enamored'. Basically Henry is Deaf, and when Alex saw his picture in J14 and read the interview about him and was smitten immediately, so naturally, he learned BSL for totally unrelated reasons of course. (canon doesn't mention an interview, but there's an interview because I said so)

The One Where Alex Has Epilepsy: Henry taking care of Alex when he has a seizure. That's it, that's the fic.

The One Where Alex And Henry Decide To Terrorize A Poor Unsuspecting Professor At NYU: I cannot for the life of me remember where this idea came from, but what if Henry got his Masters at the same time Alex is in law school and they decided to take a random class together. Chaos ensues.

The One Where Henry Realizes He's Left Handed: This is another one I have no idea where it came from, but the idea is that royals would totally do that thing where they train someone to be right handed like they used to do back in the day. So what if they did it to Henry and he didn't realize it until he was an adult?

Polseres Vermelles AU: This is the newest entry on the list, as in, I literally started thinking about it today. If you don't already know, Polseres Vermelles is a show about six teenagers who are all in the hospital for various reasons that become friends, if you did already know, please message me because we are now best friends.

There's more, but this post is too long already, but please ask me anything about whichever one you want to know more about. I'm willing to share snippets or just answer questions about any of them!

Consider this an open tag for anyone who wants to participate because I am the 'you have to invite me in like a fae creature' brand of autistic and the idea of actually tagging a specific person in something like this stresses me out.

New Year New Writeblr Intro!

I'm just gonna make these periodically so that new people joining the community might see it.

Hi, I'm Lee Brontide (any pronouns). I'm queer, middle aged, midwestern (in the US), and have a variety of disabilities. I'm also a therapist, but I'm pretty specific in how I allow that to show up in online spaces. (please don't ask for therapy in my DMs).

I have a once a month newsletter called Shed Letters where I talk about writing, history, psychology, queer stuff, and the absolutely wild shit I come across in researching my books. You can brows the newsletters with brief synopses here.

I'm on tumblr to dink around, nerd out, meet other writers, find readers, and show off my cats; Scribble, Tamino and Jasper

And my attempts at animating a "trailer" for my already released novel Secondhand Origin Stories, which is character-driven, low-neon, near-future cyberpunk scifi with a superhero twist.

The second book in that series is my current primary WIP, Names in Their Blood, which is in post-beta edits now!

I also have a novella from that same series called Dolls Eye View in the works, which will be bonus content for newsletter readers, and a mecha body horror book tentatively called Carapace and Chrysalis that's very early in the process that I'm working on with my wife.

I read pretty much anything scifi or fantasy, but am especially interested in finding more scifi writeblrs. Especially YA scifi writers. There must be others, right?

Generally my work is about

queerness

trauma

medical trauma especially

disability

interpersonal dynamics

systems/power

disaster teens trying really hard

And taking genre conventions way too seriously

I'm interesting in finding other peeps writing those things, and/or:

character driven scifi

psychological exploration

found family

messy family

YA or NA

Things that remind me of: DS9, tlt, murderbot, Leverage, The Disasters, or AtLA

I am ask and tag game friendly, and for now at least, my DMs are open! But I am very slow because of parenting/health/trying to actually spend time writing.

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wear a mask! check out this post for resources on masking and COVID safety:

(back to my second acct @butchcockiness2 )

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we are still in a pandemic. y'all better be masking in public. i'm disabled we don't support anti maskers here

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MINORS/AGELESS BLOGS (at least put your decade! 18+ is not an age!), cis men, transandr-phobia truthers, transmeds, "trans m4n l3sbian" supporters or if you're weird to lesbians who assert their lack of attraction to men & consider it an important part of our sexuality, ableists, pr0sh*p

h*rry p*tter fans, anti-BLM, antisemites, islamophobes, blogs full of stolen porn, weight loss or self harm blogs, aphobes, biphobes, panphobes

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tagging system explained under the cut, plus boundaries if you want to message me (READ BEFORE MESSAGING), to summarize and for asks as well don't send me a sexual opener or start talking about very intense topics early upon talking. new followers send me your favorite fruit emoji if you've read this and my dni on an ask, i won't publish it. i'm always happy to hear you enjoy my writing, but i'm not comfortable w my first interaction with you being sexual!

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general stuff you'll find on this blog:

• butch/femme dynamics

• some butch4butch stuff (newly :3)

• breeding (no pregnancy beyond the "getting pregnant" part)

• soft dom/sub dynamics

• consensual, previously negotiated somnophilia (will tag)

• consensual, previously negotiated free use (will tag)

• sub top/dom bottom dynamics (especially fem/ femme sub top and a butch dom)

• terato (especially werewolves)/fantasy stuff (like portals)

• you WILL find t4t butch4transfem content here, including either party topping/bottoming, usually w the butch being dominant, and both pre/non and post transfem bottom surgery content!

• i will rb posts about transmisogyny, racism, lesbophobia, ableism, and other issues

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i am very happily monogamous with my wonderful femme, and they of course know about and support this account. we have slightly more relaxed boundaries than many monogamous couples, and i might engage in some horny interaction in notes/asks/dms, but i'm not looking for a sexual or romantic relationship, and this is not going to change. don't message me if you can't respect this boundary. don't dm me with a sexual opener, but mutuals who want to make friends are welcome, and if we vibe well i might be interested in some sexual interaction via dm (but don't just message me with that intent please).

i won't engage with you sexually if you're younger than 20/21 or much older than 30, or if you aren't either polyam/ethically nonmonogamous or already very comfortable and secure with being sexual with someone who you are not going to have a serious relationship with. i don't want either of our feelings to get hurt and i don't want to feel pressured to give more than i'm comfortable with. in general, be aware i am disabled and have fatigue that is often severe and i will often not be able to reply right away or keep up steady chats.

also, don't message me asking for advice on heavy topics or venting heavily unless we're friends/close mutuals (and even then, ask first), especially if we've never talked before. remember that i'm a stranger online and i don't know anything about you, nor do you know me personally. i'm on here to have a good time and be horny, i'm not your boyfriend or your therapist. send me your favorite bird emoji if you message me if you have read this. content creators (including sex workers! y'all are so weird to them too) are not your emotional support providers and we deserve to have our boundaries respected.

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Hello!! How are you? I’m a writer and I’d like to incorporate someone with vitiligo into my story, however, I don't know much, which is kind of a problem seeing as I want to be sensitive to the community. Would you be so kind as to tell me some things you do/don't want to see in characters that have vitiligo? Thank you so much!

Hi! Im good thanks for asking, hope you're also doing well!

That's a wonderful question! Before I start I'm just gonna say these are my views on the subject so if anyone else with vitiligo wants to chime in please do so! I'm probably gonna miss a few things!

Let's start with the donts first, and I very much appreciate the fact that you also asked for dos!

I think one of the more a major issues I see around vitiligo have to do with the way in which it's designed. I've made a few posts about it in the past with more details, I think theyre tagged under "character design( tips)". So doing things like making repeated shape patterns like hearts or animal prints or like skulls or whatever is Not Great. This includes making humanized versions of animals. Like recently for the new Puss in Boots movie a lot of people were drawing Kitty Softpaws as a human with vitiligo, and that just...does not feel great lmao. I am aware that things like that don't come from malice but it feels like being compared to an animal in a way.

Another issue I've seen is when it comes to how the character developed vitiligo it happened due to some curse or magic or (demonic) possession something along those lines. This is also a very bad idea, seeing as it's basically demonizing the condition.

Vitiligo is also complicated when it comes to its genetic. There are working theories/plausible explanations for how it occurs but there are a lot of varying factors. However, it is NOT passed down genetically (to an extent) so having a child does NOT mean that you're character's child will also have the condition. It is also not something you get get at birth/in the womb.

Don't change the coloration of it! Vitiligo is DEFINED as a lack of pigmentation, not a change in it, so you can't have characters walking around with pink and patches. You could make an argument with yellow if its for legos I guess but unless you're drawing every white person lego as that neon yellow I'd avoid it still.

Don't only give it your characters of color!! Especially if you only have a few! I feel like this is something I see frequently unfortunately, but having a character with vitiligo or albinism or pibaldism or whatever doesnt make a character less or more of one race or another. I saw a post where someone said it's "curing POC" so....yeah big yikes. I know because it's not as visible on white people some people dont think they can have it, and it doesnt get used frequently in examples which doesnt really help so yeah.

Also try not to make them a villian especially if theyre the only character with vitiligo

As for the Dos:

I'd love to see a character embrace this aspect of themselves. I know a lot of people and for a very long time myself include feel a sense of shame about it. It took me years to get to a point where I feel comfortable let alone happy about having it.

I'd love to see another character comment on it with a compliment, and have the majority of other characters reacting positively and/or neutrally towards its.

However this is technically a disability and there are people out there that do make fun of people for having it so maybe lightly touching on that would also be a good idea. if you don't feel comfortable out-right writing a scene like that, mentioning things in passing like "oh yeah I got bullied for it when I was younger" or "I actually used to cover it up with clothes and makeup" are good ideas.

Having your character also be aware of things like the time and UV index and whether or not they have sunscreen on is also important. Vitiligo is essentially the lack of melanin, which means that there's no real natural defense against sun exposure at play so being sensitive/aware of these things is a good idea especially if they're fairly new to the condition.

Maybe there's another character that also has vitiligo present in at least some aspect. Whether its just some person that your character looks up to and doesn't know personally, but knowing that they have it makes them feel better about themselves. For me this was Michael Jackson!

This is technically kind of a dont but vitiligo spots are very different depending on the variation that a person has! Spots seem to have a relatively slow progression and, as I mentioned, depending on variation, might not progress at all past certain areas. So if the character has a more progressing variation like Universal or Segmental maybe another character can note that a patch or few have gotten larger since they've last saw them especially if its been awhile and not like last moth.

That's all I can really think of as of now, but I'll reblog this if I think of anything else to add!

Please read this before following!!

Helloo~

♡ Astrid / Envy ♡ Autistic ♡ Non - Binary ♡ Asexual ♡ Self-shipper ♡ Fictionkin ♡ They/She ♡

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I'm Astrid but feel free to call me Asena or Envy.

I'm Autistic and Bipolar so I struggle a lot with understanding other people's emotions, my mood swings can also be rather extreme at times. I do not understand jokes and sarcasm unless I know you so using tone indicators would help a lot.

I mostly make OC x Canon or Envy content using various 3D softwares like Source Filmmaker, Blender, MMD and VRM Posing!

I sometimes upload VRChat stuff as well.

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If it’s not obvious already, I’m a self-shipper. I only have one f/o which is my Envy from Fullmetal Alchemist, despite them being evil and all that, they have been a huge support for me through some really tough times. I’m also a fiction kin, where I also kin Envy. We share a very similar mindset and we’re both outcasts of our Family. (kinda referring to 03 Envy here) and we're both extremely jealous over other people. I tend to 'switch' into Envy at times, sometimes I'm aware but sometimes I have no idea. I have not yet been diagnosed with any form of a split personality disorder, but I'm working on getting a new therapist so we'll see. There is a possibility that I have a mild form of it but I'm not gonna make any claims until I have an actual answer.

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I will probably mostly upload content featuring Envy or from my ship Astrid x Envy. If you don’t like self-shippers then please just block me.

If you are also an Envy self-shipper then I kindly ask you to not interact with me, I’m sure you and Envy are absolutely adorable together, I’m just uncomfy with other Envy self-shippers. I already know I’m gonna get a lot of hate for that, but I mean no harm nor do I intend to be rude. I get easily jealous, it’s been a life-long problem so I doubt it’s gonna change anytime soon but I try not let it get the better of me. 

I self-ship to cope, I only have one f/o and they mean so much to me, my feelings and the connection I feel are very much real even tho it’s a fictional relationship. I believe it's a soulbond, that seems to make the most sense.

I have a few other kins which includes, Stiles Stilinski from Teen Wolf, Emma Swan from Once Upon a Time, Dean Winchester from Supernatural and a couple of others.

I’m Asexual and Demi Romantic, I will most likely block NSFW and Fetish accounts as I really do not like that stuff! It just makes me way to uncomfortable..

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♡ Some things about me ♡

╰┈➤ I'm a selective mute, I do not talk much nor do I write much, I grew up pretty much alone so I never spoke much to anyone.

╰┈➤ Due to trauma from family and ex lovers, I get triggered and scared really easy. I do not feel comfortable going into details, I know i've spoken about it before but I don't remember how much I actually said. Because of Autism and trauma my mental age is different from my physical age.

╰┈➤ I'm not the type of person that trusts other easily, too many took advantage of that in the past.

╰┈➤ I may have "furry" like characters but I left the fandom quite a while back. No hate towards them, just got a bit uncomfy from some situations.

I have more info on my carrd: https://asenainfo2023.carrd.co

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I do not know how active I’ll on here. I may just re-blog a lot of self-ship or Envy content. I’m honestly scared of being active on here.

Messages/Asks are disabled for my own safety!.

Art tags:

#asenarieka - All art

#envyxastrid - Selfship tag

#astridxenvy - 2nd selfship tag-

#astrid's rambles - My rambles and other weird stuff

#astridxenvy cai - Character ai stuffz

#envy my beloved - Envy tag

Maybe RWDE gets its reputation because so much of it is deeply toxic and bigoted, and blatantly so to people who don't obsessively hate the show.

First of all, come off of anonymous, coward. If you're gonna say something with your whole chest, at least have the guts to have your icon say it to Max Goof's face. XD

Second of all, once again, the call is coming from inside the house. Here's a link to a post with a lot of screenshots of tweets and youtube vids and fucking trash from the corporation you're spending your time defending and specifically Miles fucking Luna. Condemn that on your own blog, show me a link, and then come back. Also condemn the fact that Kerry Shawcross literally said that they used Ironwood's new black prosthetic to symbolize his loss of humanity. Also, show me where you've criticized things like people saying Ironwood should lose his prosthetics so he'll be 'helpless' as comeuppance for his mistakes. Show me where you've called out people hypersexualizing the women in RW/BY in their fanarts, because that ran rampant in y'alls tags for awhile. Show me where you've called out the person who said my sister was being 'ableist against herself' for having seen some of her own Autistic traits reflected in Penny, who told her that Penny obviously hadn't been enough of a person to actually have character traits, so my Autistic sister was being ableist to suggest they shared similarities. Show me where you've called out the people who misuse and vilify terms like 'narcissist' and 'psycho' and use them to just mean 'bad person' when that's literally ableist. Show me where you've called out the person who made a post saying that the RW/BY fandom was no longer accepting criticism and then when people (including my younger sister) said that was dumb, they called everyone cunts. Fucking say something about all that, because from where I've standing, all you care about is what you think you can use in order to excuse the fact that you're attacking people on the internet for daring to say something bad about the content you like that you were too sensitive to see. If you actually did care about these issues, you'd be calling out the bad in the content of RW/BY, calling out the blatantly horrible actions of the company or some of the writers, and also calling out the horrible behavior of the fandom. And you'd be doing that openly on your own blog. You heard I was sent death and rape threats and the only thing you have to say about that was 'well maybe people don't like RW/DE for a reason.' Ummmmm??? You think you have a moral highground??? XD

ALSO: Bring receipts, friend. Tell me how I'm being bigoted instead of just throwing that around with no backing. Was it when I said that the two white writers Miles and Kerry shouldn't have made an allegory for real life racism that centered around taking down the bad freedom fighters who are selfishly using the cause for terrorism instead of, you know, fighting the system that oppresses the Faunus? Was it when I said that Whitey McWhiteWhite Schnee should've at the least apologized for her anti-Faunus bigotry and that it wasn't cute to say 'Blake is discriminated against by people treating her like an animal' and then having the writers do things like having a friend/future love interest lead her around with a laser pointer and never addressing that as bad? Was it when I said that writing badge carrying law enforcement officers and glorifying them as paragons of virtue and then doing things like making the fact that the Ace Ops answer to authority rather than just themselves part of why they're bad but Team RWBY isn't? Was it when I said that there should have been queer rep in the main cast by now and that it's annoying as a queer woman to be continually told to 'just wait' despite the lack of censor and the fact that the writers have been promising main character rep since like volume two? Was it when I said that MKEK needed to do better with their disabled representation than several villains, two side characters who wound up getting benched with every main character forgetting their existence and Yang having had such a small amount of screen time in volume four only to be written by the entirely able-bodied writers to say that her prosthetic was just extra? Was it when I said that it was sus as hell that the first black woman in a position of power was killed within five minutes of screen time? Was it when I said that a group of majority male writers specifically purposefully writing a story where a young girl was written to go through tons of shit like getting her bodily autonomy ripped away from her and then having her body forcibly removed/changed her without consent (consent under threat of death isn't consent,) only to beg a man to kill her as her supposed only choice she'd ever made despite having clearly made choices before then was a pretty fucking big red flag? Literally, tell me how you think I'm bigoted, and if it's something like 'you're obsessed with Ironwood' (I'm not, he's not even a blorbo,) or "You hate that girls are allowed to be powerful" (untrue, as I actively want the girl characters to be more powerful,) or that I'd be happy if the men were in charge (again untrue, as I actively complain about Jaune and Oscar and even Ironwood getting so much screen time) then just save it.

Also, last point I'm gonna make, but if you really think I'm obsessed with this show, you've got a big storm coming. I've been thinking more about Jack and Davey from the Broadway Musical version of Newsies than I've been thinking about RW/BY. I've been thinking more about the DCOM Descendants Universe more than I've been thinking about RW/BY. You literally get such a tiny snippet of my life, and then think somehow that it's... All I think about. And it's just more proof of how actually disconnected from reality you are.

Get some guts, my dear pal. Get some guts, go touch grass, get well soon, hope you stop simping for Miles 'She's only sixteen' Luna enough to actually realize your show is deeply problematic.