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gale-force-storm · 1 month

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I'm really just Feeling Things tonight about the conversation with Gale after Elminster's visit and like. Gale is So Insistent that if Mystra says he needs to blow himself up, then it must be the best option. The only option. And of course he is! Because what's the alternative? If there's another way, any other way, that means either

1. Mystra doesn't care enough to consider whether there might be another option. Gale blowing himself up is the easiest solution, so that's what she goes with. Or, even worse,

2. She does know there's other options, but tells him to sacrifice himself anyways, because it gets rid of two of her problems at once.

Gale doesn't just assume she's right because she's a goddess. He goes along with it because of what it implies about him, and her, and how she sees him if there is another way. He has to believe that this is the only option. Because the alternative? That he's disposable at best and actively unwanted at worst? That's just too much to bear.

#bg3 #gale dekarios #gale of waterdeep #meta #i'm sure this is nothing that hasn't been said before but like. goddamn i've just been thinking about it and it hurts my soul #and tbh i feel like the fact that everyone else in camp is like 'that's a stupid idea we're not doing that' really drives the point home #even elminster has that line about how 'even the waves of fate can break upon the shores of will'#which is as close as you can reasonably expect him to get to outright agreeing that yeah this is shit and you should look for other options #but at that point gale is the one person who can't imagine that there's another way. can't stomach the thought #because it would mean some things he's really not ready to face yet #i'm like. banging my head against a wall the writing is So Good and it makes me So Sad

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elialys · 3 months

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"I'm fascinated with people's comments about Helen, too. Everyone talks about, 'Oh, she's dramatic, she's a mess, she's this,' and I'm like, 'Naaah'. There's a little bit more going on, but it's the 80s, so no one's gonna talk about that either. No one's gonna help, no one's gonna protect, no one's gonna save." Anna Torv [x]

THE NEWSREADER | 1.02 "Once in a Lifetime"

#Anna Torv #Helen Norville #The Newsreader #anxiety #anxiety disorder #actually convinced she's got borderline personality disorder tbh #i have been obsessed with helen & her anxiety in this episode from the moment i first watched it #so you get a giant ass gifset from me aren't you lucky #as someone who deals with anxiety this is just captivating #i feel seen but also it hurts my soul #anna is just????#incredible #do i need to mention this looks much better on desktop than mobile again?#1.02 Once in a Lifetime #gifs*#mine

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mishapen-dear · 5 months

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something about qbad mentioning how much horror he put red team thru every time purgatory gets brought up... something about how proud dapper was of him.

like this is just my late-night read but- it feels like guilt qbad is trying to twist into pride. he keeps needling away at it. “i killed them all, over and over and over again.” “they were hunted by a monster.”

it’s like- reassurance. like a nail he’s trying o beat into his head. he’s had SO much trouble with legitimately hurting his friends, despite making that vow all the way back when the eggs first went missing, despite all the tree talk and the promises to save the kids no matter what. He never faltered with elq, and that protected them. He keeps faltering now. Sometimes he doesnt remember the code, or cucurucho, or skeppy. But that doesnt matter, right? Because he’ll protect the eggs. He’ll be the monster. he is the monster. he can and he will protect them even as his seams start ripping and he keeps breaking further and further apart. even at his worst, he’ll do whatever he needs to protect the eggs.

he’ll be the monster. wont he?

#qsmp #he loves his friends and he wants to hurt them #he loves his friends and he doesnt want to hurt them #qsmp badboyhalo #ita like. He was torturing himself with the soul vultures because he kidnapped ron and threw down some scary magma mobs #and then forever changwd rhe whole fuckin narrative with that appreciation room and bad remembered the joy of community #and then cellbit. Where bad was like ‘i see him destroying himself to get the eggs back and i know where that road goes’#’his loved ones dont want that to happen to him. i dont want that to happen to him’#and then purgatory gave him the first actal legitimate lead for finding their kids and he just had to get worse #and so he fucking swandived into self destructive violence (and the cc was purposefully playing qbad more recklessly violent)#(bbgirl couldve been lured into a trap so so easily)#ive lost my point somewhere now im just rotating qbbh in my brain and all the parallels #ah yes. But now theyre out of purgatory. And he refuses to regret what he did because he *had* to do what he could to save dapper #and the other eggs #because he has a huge complex about being the ‘only one who can protect the eggs’ because of a thousand little cuts and his mental health #issues. Like he’s Wrong bur its such a fascinating little direction for his character. Yes king burn thyself on the pure of protection #and then burn in a nuclear blast too because your self sufficiency left you to care for your egg alone #you can take care of the eggs. you can hurt your friends. look at how much you hurt your friends #look st the monster you are . your teeth are sharp and your claws are large #never mind that time you sent tina into a panic attack because you tried to recreate safety #never mind that your friends and family are worried about you #you are falling apart. but so many monsters survive the killing blow

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meziniart · 1 year

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Maybe one day you'll understand why Everything you touch surely dies

#that one scene tm because it did hurt me more than i was expecting #i did this to distract myself so i didnt care to look at how the scene actually went #i just felt it in my soul #sorry???#trigun #vash the stampede #trigun fanart #fanart #art #artists on tumblr

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reireichu · 12 days

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“your king demands an answer”

yeah well your kid demands proper healthcare and rehabilitation and parenting and your wife needs therapy, but i guess we can just ignore that too along with the fucking eyeball rolling around in a tray

#house of the dragon #the amazing parenting skills of viserys targaryen #he legit said LOOK AT ME and Aemond be there like bro I fucking cant #aemond targaryen #alicent hightower #alicents shitty marriage forever hurts my soul #the way her voice cracks and breaks #has she ever asked anything of her husband her king #what has she asked of him #there’s no decency to beg for bc she is his wife #there is no love to ask for bc she is his second wife #she has never asked him for anything #and when she does he just goes meh

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todayisafridaynight · 6 months

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i cant capture it in a single picture but the pain and agony i felt watching this shit in front of my very eyes. this was evil <- needs every frame of it in a museum

#gaiden spoilers #snap chats #LIKE STOOOOOPPPPPPPPPPPPPP #LET DAIGO SEE HIS DAD YOU ASSHOLES #HIS DOWNCAST LOOK :(((((((((( WAAAAAAHHHH ill forever cry about this grown ass man leave me alone #i just want him to have a hug.......... give my middle aged child a hug idcidc #PLEASE THE WAY DAIGO WAS TRYING TO APPROACH HIM STOPPPPPPP I ALMOST WANNA CRY this game was so evil #it was so delightfully evil and im gonna think about it until january 26th #i was kicking my feet in anguish shit hurted #the one saving grace of this torture to my soul was seeing daigo do his lil hand clap after they left the building.... that was cute...#bro was basking in the sunlight like a lizard... i love him so much and no one even knows how much i love him....#i loved seeing daigo seem so casual for once...... i love him so so much please let him smile more god thank you...#i have to squeeze my daigo i said i was playing minecraft I Lied the mental illness is taking hold of me once more #anyway gonna go look at arakawa. from this same segment HIS FACE AT TENDO PLEASE IT MADE ME GIGGLE MORE THAN IT SHOUDLVE #he didnt even kill you yet son why are you so pressed. ily.#ok bye

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looselipssinkships-x · 4 months

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one thing that is always just, so peculiar to me, is the difference between how the media handled patrick's weight loss

i wasn't online back in 2011 so i don't really know how fans collectively responded, but it seems like the majority of fans have since looked at losing that much weight so fast and, to put it lightly, "implied/referenced eating disorder" feels like it's entered unofficial fall out boy lore

but the media. the media praised him,asked questions about how. the media wanted to talk about the weight loss more than the music.

#god the media is full of vultures #maybe it's just the subsequent years that we've all looked back and went hm buddy that is not a strong sign of mental health #or maybe it's that most of us are varying degrees of mentally ill #maybe we just know more now #or maybe fans said the same thing then #i don't know #but thinking about it all always makes my heart hurt a bit #but of course how much is just projecting #classic fall out boy don't talk about it #although that seems to have changed since but from what i understand they used to just sweep a lot under the rug #i have thoughts™#tw ed #tw disordered eating #fall out boy #fob #patrick stump #soul punk #hiatus

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perenlop · 2 months

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my hope for the pokemon presents that i know will not happen is gates to infinity remake ok bye

#listen i knowwwwwwww explorers is more popular and its got more fans and itd sell well and itd be good to see it in the spotlight #i agree with all that it makes sense. but i cant help but view it as a bowsers inside story remake scenario #where its just like. kinda pointless bc the original is functionally fine #meanwhile my soul hurts when i think about how gti was kinda screwed over by its development and time #it came out during that time all 3ds games felt really janky to play so it feels awkward #and like. just compare the environments in gti compared to psmd #psmd doessss have more diverse environments to be fair but environments that should feel more grand just feel off in gti #like glacier palace doesnt look AWFUL but it hurts to see it compared to the animated version from the commercials #and like. imagine the glow up if it got the dx treatment. if the environments were all fixed and the job system was updated #and we got a larger starter pool and maybe even a postgame. ik they didnt add much to pmd dx #but that game had a fairly beefy postgame and all that while gti has.... pretty much nothing besides dlc #anyways it wont happen bc gti is the most hated pmd game by a fairly wide margin and itd piss ppl off and itd probably get a bullshit $60 #price tag #but like. i want it. i want it ok. i want to see them fix gti and bring out its full potential. i love its story sm #ik theres the demake but theyre also changing the pokemon choices there (which ik they cant help. repository doesnt have timburr and gurdur #but still) so i kinda wanna wait to see when thats done or its got all the assets

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theambivalentagender · 11 months

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Finally did this thing too.

When I started the comic I actually went to a lot of effort to keep Shane as on model/game accurate as possible. But clearly there has been some drift, and I'm actually ok with that, since it shows I'm getting more confident in my own art skills and style.

#valley echoes asides #sdv #stardew #stardew valley #character fanart #shane sdv #Honestly I just can't not draw my characters with slightly floofy hair no matter what #also also drawing Shane's canon hoodie hurt my soul #I know I'm still not great at drawing hoodies but I'm pretty sure they don't look like THAT #I mean it works for pixel art of course but outside of that...#also looking at this again I think I tend to draw him with the assumption he's going to be looking at least slightly up #I tend to skip some of the details on his shirt and tears to his hoodie because that's just how comics be I guess #I mean early on I had to put some sort of reminder on myself to remember to draw his stubble before uploading

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chamomile-g-tea · 2 years

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👉👈 them,,,idiots 👉👈

minors dni!

#nsfw?#drags myself out of the void to draw tiny man being freaky deaky #slinks back into the void #ily them sm ur honor #he’s a cliche mf #idk idk smth abt these respectful lovey idiots #doing size. stuff that i always was exposed to in a super dehumanizing light #healing #he’s so dumb he wants to be scared but the fact that she literally would never hurt him makes him all 🙈💕💖💞💖#i want to write more of them idk i have Thoughts i just lov them #the only of my ocs that have any soul these days #chamomile doodles #cgtocs button #should i put a crush tw???#she just tap him gentle #and look hot doing i #safe silly lil guy

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background-noise-headache · 1 year

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Thinking about a Twilight AU where Bella's reasons for wanting to become a vampire have very little to do with romantic love for Edward and everything to do with finding the family she's always wanted. Renee made Bella parent her, so Bella didn't get much of a childhood. And Charlie's great but it's just them. The Cullens imitate the cheesy family sit-com that Bella's probably idealized her whole childhood. So she wants to be with them forever and ever.

#twilight #bella swan #twilight saga #for someone who insisted the cullens were the perfect family SM really did not deliver on the found family vibes #but is was her romance vampire!gerard way/oc self-insert #this is brought to you by this tiktok I saw theorizing that Bella and Jasper were meant to be fated #they used book canon details but they also looked at the themes of the story and the character arcs #would have loved if Edward learned that his mind reading wasn't exactly a window into the soul and he had to actually-#-spend time with and listen to people to really know them #maybe he'd realize Rosalie isn't shallow she's just hurting and doesn't feel safe with someone reading her thoughts at all times #tiktok also said Edward and Alice also made a better couple from a thematic perspective #their powers allow them to have silent conversations and challenge them to creatively surprise the other #and if SM can make a big deal about how Edward not being able to read her mind is part of what draws him to her to justify the romance #I can be like hey what about the way these characters and their gifts work?#these notes are brought to you by an all-nighter spent reading Jasper/Bella fanfic for the first time and-#three hours of sleep and ADHD turning my lit major brain into a ping-pong ball thinking about literary theme alternatives that fit better

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hoperays-song · 1 year

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#sing #sing 2 #sing marcus #sing johnny #sing big daddy #they have my whole heart and soul #just look at them #johnny hugs his dad like he is the best person in the whole world #marcus just hugs his son so gently like he's scared of hurting him and wants to protect him #I love these two so much #the fact that it is canon that marcus constantly gives his son hugs is just so sweet

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detonatethegemapples · 2 years

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Crowned and Knighted // EX

Finally some art for @tiny-stack-of-knights's and I's AU!! I've been wanting to do art for it for so long now, I doodled this and decided to finish it.. I'm happy with it ◕_◕