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CHAPTER 4 MEETING THE PARENTS I liked him so much at this point I thought it would be a great idea for him to meet my parents. I was so nervous and scared so many thoughts were going through my head what if my parents didn't like him or thought he was not good enough. But I knew he was worthy because he actually cared. Like they day of his birthday day before mine my ex-best friend frustrated me so bad at lunch that I was crying during my third block which was yearbook and they all where giving me a birthday celebration it was so sad My teacher. Mrs.Sam calmed me down but I still went to his third block got him out of class just so he could hold me. I was so use to him making me feel better he was they only person I wanted to talk to. It was more than just her pissing me off school was stressing me out and I was stressing out about him meeting my parents.    The thing that made this even more, nerve racking about him meeting my parents is he wanted to get high at this football game before he came so he would be relaxed. I begged him not too because my mom is like a bloodhound when it comes to smells that would have gone so bad. Anyways he was coming to my kick back I invited a few of my friends and it was chilled however he was the last one to show up my party was from 5pm-11pm and he showed up 10:15 but he was the only one that bought me a gift and I loved it. he got me a dark purple mac lipstick Cyber my dad hated that color on me but I loved it because he took the time to pick it out for me at the mac counter. He also got me my favorite candy milky ways and a chipotle gift card I was so happy. But the night went ok I got dared to kiss him and it was a cute little peck and he actually liked it. however there was a lot of things that went wrong that night my so called best friend told me she would get me a hello kitty birthday cake for my birthday for free because her sister does bomb cakes then she goes and charges me 35.00 and that was supposed to be a gift to me that cake was so nasty and everyone talked about her and her stank attitude when she left. She tried to call me out along with mary when joe got there because it seemed like I was flirting with my guy best friend Jon but i wasn't that's just how me and Jon are we have known each other for years and we love each other he's a true friend no matter who I date or talk they will know he’s going be in my life so just understand I don't have feelings for him like that he's like family. anyways that after everyone left my parents told me how much they liked joe and I explained everything he bought me then my dad hit me with the really like this boy don't you all I could do is blush and go to my room and post it all over snap chat on top of the beautiful picture we took together. then I called him cried to him and then we talked he understood and I started to fall for him more at this point he's everything I could ask for. CHAPTER 5 FIRST TIME I SAW HIS TRUE COLORS My friends thought it was time for him to ask me out. I wasn't too sure about it because I know he wasn't really looking for a real relationship for his senior year and he had never really had a real relationship before all of this was so new and different to him so I had to show him a lot. A when we first starting talking he told me about once he graduated went to the military and moved to New York (queens) he wanted to become a man hoe and just experience the world. Every time he would talk about moving up there I would get chills because I know it wouldn't work for him and he is way too nice for a New York City. But I brought it up one night on face time to him to see how he really felt about me and if I have influenced him not to be a man hoe. He shut me down and the idea completely so I went I few days without talking to him. But see this is my thing you have to like going out and actually talking to females to be a man hoe, not unless you plan to do online dating and that's just dangerous in its self. but anyways I go on my friend jasmine snap chat and see her sitting on his lap at some kick back which made me very upset I was ready to go get my friend Jessica's car and run them both over. You're supposed to be my friend why are you sitting on my boo's pretty much my boyfriend's lap. The other day there was a lap sitting indecent in the yearbook room after school. So I'll explain that situation its kinda funny. So I and she were play fighting about something the night before and she was talking about getting payback at me. So that's when I and joe were in the yearbook room and I was standing in front of him and he was poking my butt yes poking with one finger like I was a toy or something. So he got a little excited you know down there. Then jasmine Jessica and Kayla busted up in the room and jewel jumped in his lap like yeah payback then when she actually felt it her face was priceless she was so uncomfortable after that and never liked talking about it to this day. she didn't have a boyfriend at the time they were all getting a what we call lit before one of the football games at the kick back. Most seniors go get lit before games at North point it's like slight tradition. She didn't know I was mad at him but he knew and didn't say anything she posted it as a joke but it made me so angry I could have killed them both. So I didn't talk to him until thanksgiving day then he was giving me the cold shoulder like I did something wrong so we got on FaceTime he thought I was made because he wouldn't officially make me his girlfriend so I had to call him out and told him I was mad because for one you knew jewel was my friend and two that I was already irritated with you three you go ahead and let her sit on your damn lap!!! Then let her posted it on snap chat knowing I was going fucking see it, yeah you really busted have been on something. or it must just spell stupid on my forehead.So, of course, he hit me with the I'm so sorry I didn't know it was that I won't do anything like that again. I actually like you. so, of course, I forgave him and we made up and everything was going well would have to say. It was coming up on the Christmas break and my mom wanted to have a Christmas party but she really wanted him to come because she knew how much I liked him and I really wanted him to get comfortable with my family because I wanted him to be in my life for a while. Anyways my mom moved the party up because I knew he had to leave for Florida the 19 and that's when she first wanted to have the party. But she moved it to the 12 and that was a lot on me and her because that was my last day of driving school had to run home and help her cook and all that then he comes back and says he is leaving the 10th. so I'm hurt and mad because he knew I was making all of these changes and he waits to the last minute to tell me and I had to rush to give him his Christmas gift. For Christmas, I had got him two polo's more graphic socks and some sour patch kids and I wrote another nice meaning full note. So he told me when he got back he was going to give me his gift and all that. But leading up to Christmas I was doing a cute or somewhat sexy picture each day until Christmas he loved me but the whole time he was gone he could never find the time to face time me so I missed him so much couldn't spend any of the holidays with him. But I kinda understood because his family means a lot to him I didn't have that same feeling about my family so it was a little hard for me to understand but anyways everything was going well he was on his way back from his grandparents house to his cousin house to bring in the new year because he was having a party. almost every year before that he would always go to church this year he wanted to be different so he went the party.

CHAPTER 6 ALL THINGS MUST FALL APART So New years day I send him this beautiful message about how much I like him and how I'll always have his back never leave his side and how I miss him and can't wait to see him and talk to him and make him my first kiss of 2016 and my last. Like it was super cute and nice. Of course, I went to church and stayed holy. Except when I left there I went to my best friend her mom wasn't home so we was too lit but all of these happy new year messages were rolling in from all these people I really didn't care about and not one text yet from my world “joe” so The next morning I wake up and go to this brunch with the best friend still no text from nit even a thank you. So then I feel in my stomach he did something is wrong and I was scared because I knew he did something stupid. So I go home and take a nap because I had a pretty bad headache and I was stressing so I needed a nap and took some medication. so i wake up like 7:00pm and read this horrible message from him stating “So my old friend with benefits from the summer that I was telling you about came to the party and she told me she wasn't in love with after all she was just saying it because she thought that's how I felt so I have known her longer than you and she wrote me this long message and I fell so bad so I'm going go back to her I'm sorry please don't just shut down on me and say K please tell me how you feel.” So as soon as I start reading this message I burst into tears and cry my eyes out like I knew it was coming I could feel it in my stomach I had never cried so hard over a guy before in my life. My usual attitude was ok bye you wasn't special on to the next but I had actually got caught upper once in my lie I was stuck. So I text him back Saying “ wow I must be the stupidest girl in the whole world I really thought you were different you made me feel beautiful on my darkest days and now you're causing one of my darkest days what kind of shit is that. How are you going to just announce to me you going back to this chick she doesn't own you. So what you known her longer i make you happy she is literally lying just to get you back how am i supposed to feel you literally just gave up on me for nothing all I have been to you is loyal because literally I could have gone out with this guy from my church named DeMarco and he really liked me and had just got back from basic training at the time and really wanted to go out and do something and I turned him down because I know you would have been upset. I had told him the story of DeMarco before hand and how we talked for a while then he laid a move on me right before he left and I really fell for him but I gave up on him because he was gone and Joe was there and you are blowing it for what some hoe that doesn't even really wanna be intimate with you, she just likes claiming you. Not saying that I was definitely going to be just saying knowing that she really wasn't should have been enough. how was i supposed to feel about you doing i was supposed to just be oh cool like what no you know how much I like you this is hurting me so much right now I can't even think straight.” so it was hours before he responded and I had to sent several more messages by then. So he calls me on FaceTime and I'm still crying. so I'm sitting in the dark in my room he is in his closet folding clothes and looks somewhat upset almost as if he was crying too. so he starts trying to explain so I guess I would understand then we began to talk and he realizes he is way more attracted to me and he has made a mistake and he needs to tell her he can't do it so he promises me he's going to fix this and everything was going be ok and stuff so I believed him because I loved him and trusted him biggest mistake of my life.