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valleyfae · 2 years

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his balls so big i wan them all over my face 😞

I’m feeling horrible about my writing and about everything, but I love you, so here’s something just for you 🙂

18+ only MDNI - smut, rough explicit sexual content

Not proofread but I don’t really want anyone to see this because I hate it but the mistakes are probably horrid

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Tenderly caressing your cheek, he lets out a frustrated grunt, shifting his posture and leaning back into the pleasure. His belt securely buckled around your neck, the depletion of oxygen reminding you of the rule you broke while Nick was finishing up the job his accomplice failed, secondary to the agonizing burn radiating off your ass and the top of your trembling thighs.

Crystal blue eyes transparent with dominating authority, he grasps the delicate glass beside him, quickly downing the last of the smoky liquor. He slams the empty glass back down, shattering the tense silence, triggering you to flinch.

Torturously slow, Nick unbuttons and unzips his dress pants, sliding them down his muscular thighs.

"Don’t think your punishment is even close to done," he spits. Slowly pumping himself with one hand, Nick tightens his grip on the sturdy leather belt firmly wrapped around his other hand. "Purposefully breaking the rules," he swipes the pad of his thumb across the head of his cock, hissing through gritted teeth. "Dripping wet from being hit, obedient virgin has turned into a bratty pain slut."

Abruptly dropping the belt, Nick gently paints your bottom lip with his precum that covers his tip. Furrowing your brows, you mumble, "s-sorry sir," the vibrations of your pleas transferring to Nick's tip. "Can’t— can’t control it."

Clutching your chin between his fingers, he yanks your head up. "You really can’t help yourself, can you?" Nick huffs, "obsessed with my cock, pathetic fucking whore." Silently waiting for a response with a condescending scowl, Nick accumulates a pool of saliva in his mouth.

Raising his eyebrows, he leisurely leans forward, aggressively dispersing spit onto your face. Before your brain has time to react, he slaps your cheek, flesh instantly stinging. "Huh?" Forcing your jaw open, he spits a second time. "Tell me how obsessed you are with my dick, always sucking my balls like a greedy whore. Tell me."

Bottom lip quivering, you shakily swallow. The taste of whiskey lingers as Nick’s saliva glides down your throat.

The shameful throbbing between your legs grows, pushing a moan to slip past your lips, "s-so obsessed with your cock, sir. Would do anything for you to use m-my throat. Just a greedy whore for your cock," you whimper.

He smirks, growing harder as he watches your humiliation fade into pure desperation.

Following two slaps to the side of your face, Nick shoves himself past your lips. Halfway down on his shaft, the head of his cock prods down your throat. Your eyes swell with salty tears as he smacks the crown of your head with his enormous palm.

The sounds of your gags mix with Nick's breathy groans. The pounding in your head blurs seconds into minutes, and the back of your throat is filled with drool and aching red.

You can’t hold yourself back; with every thrust, Nick's heavy balls skim your chin before they slap back down against his skin. Detaching your hands from your thighs, you fold your fingers, clutching the velvety armchair. "Fuckin’ slut—" Nick grunts, his voice almost an angry growl. "Pathetic little girl’s gone dumb for my cock."

Jerked backward, you instinctively gasp for air, saliva running down your chin. You watch the mixture of your tears and spit bubbles flow from Nick’s base to his balls.

Heart beating at an alarmingly high rate as you try and mutter a response, "please—" you choke out, rubbing your thighs together. The level of your arousal is almost painful; you rock your hips back and forth, holding back your tears.

"Use your words. Tell me how much of a disgusting whore you are for my cum."

His murmurs are deep as he watches you squirm, knelt below him. Shifting closer to him, you wantonly mumble, "just— just a disgusting whore for your cum, sir."

Nick flashes you a condescending look, raising his eyebrows, indicating for you to continue. Leisurely guiding your parted lips to his balls, you immediately nuzzle your nose against his base, forcing your mouth into an aching stretch.

Frustrated with yourself and your level of lust, salty tears roll down your cheeks. You feel helpless, coughing and spitting up more spit. As much as your state fuels your impatience, it feeds into Nick’s patronizing pleasure is flues him further.

You resort to feverishly bobbing past the tip of his cock before he pushes your head down. Nick spits cruel degradation, his balls drawing up as you cup them with your palms.

Nick’s quick, harsh movements come to a halt. "Shit—" he huffs, holding you in place as he reaches his high.

His breath heavy, thick ropes of his cum gathering in the back of your throat. Head thrown back, Nick clenches his jaw, pausing and selfishly allowing himself to bask in indulgence as you gag, tears silently running down your face.

"Swallow"

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I think I won’t be active for a little then come back with the next part of guys my age because I’m 😂😐

#i just started talking an couldnt stop ignore m #————————————#jus wanna sit on dada’s lap an cry :(#needa get it out :(#hurts :(#im habing hard time and need :(#he jus so safe an comforting :(#n i wanna go home #but don know where home is #but ii feel like i never had one #moved so many times an always feel bad #and i love livg with my best friend but sometimes need to b completely by mself #sound so dumb righht now #don even know what to say :/#also my aunt just got diagnosed with cancer lmaoooi #and my mom cant go see her because she live in ukraine lmaooooo #and i cant go visit my mom again for a month so shes alone with my cat lmaoooooo #feeling amazing #*insert that one dad selfie of dad being dad*#all that than the smut tags 🥳🥳🥳#fran’s dialogues #nick fowler #nick fowler x reader #nick fowler smut #sebastian stan fanfiction #sebastian stan smut #sebastian stan x reader

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needylittlegirl · 1 month

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theres a 99% chance we’re gonna move so i have to start packing little things now cause it makes the transition easier but i hate it i dont want to

#i know i sound like am immature little kid just pouting and stomping my foot #but i’ve had to move every two years since i was like 14 for so many different reasons #each place ive moved to just got increasingly worse so i think i have the right to pout like a 14 yr old girl #but its just dumb #if i start taking stuff down now itll make it easier to leave cause it wont feel like my space by then #its what ive always done #if i pack weeks ahead of time it just feels like im leaving a hotel or something #but right nows the hard part #im not even over my childhood home/s #i cant talk about those without crying and its been 20 years #i’d just like to stay in one place for awhile #we wont be going far cause me and my sister both have jobs right here but #its still different #im tired of seeing my stuff in boxes im tired of not feeling safe in my own space #it all just makes me so unstable cause i cant plant my roots anywhere #idk maybe its stupid #if everything goes according to plan #we’ll probably be moving a little after memorial day #and all i want to do is lock my door and refuse to let anyone do anything #im still just that little girl that was leaving her childhood bedroom and moving hours away #tbd #i didnt even get to skate today cause its raining #whatever im gonna get in bed and watch movies til i can go to sleep #if ive been bad at responding to msgs or not posting as much . this is why 👍#any sort of change like this makes me isolate myself like crazyy

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soldier-poet-king · 7 months

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I literally just do not understand how full grown ass adults go thru life like this. 0 self reflection. 0 concern about the impact of their behaviours on others. Continuing said behaviours even when they're pointed out as hurtful. Like????

#the duality of fran #idk its like the every few months i realize i sort of forgive my parents #bc things could be much worse #and they didnt MEAN to be hurtful. theyre just immature and selfish #they're not deliberately being like that #like their behaviour comes from a place of hurt and insecurity #and Yet its been pointed out SOOOO many times how bad it has affected me #and theyre always so guilt trippy woe is me when it's brought up #and maybe theyre trying. but honestly folks???? I DONT SEE ANY PROGRESS #like I cant cut them off i need somewhere to live + need somewhere to fall back on #once i move out. in case yknow. financial disaster (sh we are not thinking about my fears of financial instability that they left me with)#but like. ffs. ffs yall. I AM SO ANGRY #AND HURT #and im tired of being angry and hurt about stuff that isnt ever going to CHANGE #its a wound you know is there but it vant ever heal it just. prods and prods and prods #like the tldr of u can have a severely traumatizing shitty upbringing without ur parents being actually abusive #and it just adds this extra layer of guilt and complicated feelings on top of it all #like #please. just get a fuckin divorce. oh my god. also maybe dont have four kids while barely above the poverty line.#and then harp on your kids for every single perceived flaw or financial burden they incur. just. yknow. a thought

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clingylilhoneybee · 5 months

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I feel like the hardest part about long distance that nobody seems to talk about is just how much of your life it has to consume and change to work out

#and that’s not inherently bad #but I think it’s weird that it’s not really spoken about #in the spaces about long distance #but it fundamentally changes the way you view so many parts of your life #/everything/ ends up existing through the frame of your relationship and overcoming the obstacles with it #like pto isn’t just the time to relax at home or take a vacation to wherever #it’s primarily time to use to see your partner #and money saved up #isn’t just to cushion your savings #it’s also a plane ticket #and especially for international ones #you are always having to be thinking ahead to the future #wanna move to them?#gotta be starting that process at least a year and a half before you expect it to happen #want to just go and see them?#not really realistic for at least a month from when you decide you want that to happen #and to combine that when you’re struggling to tread water in the right now?#there’s no words for how overwhelming that is #even with the love of your life #but yeah I feel like ldr’s are so much more than just ‘normal relationship with struggles of being far away from each other’#I mean I guess that still technically applies #but you know what I mean #ignore me I just don’t have anywhere to express the thoughts in my head about this

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majoringinsarcasm · 5 months

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People hating on a literal child because she doesn’t physically look like a character in a book who we only ever saw in concept art and fanart vs me who was kinda sad when I realized book Percy wasn’t black because the description of a young boy living in New York who’s close with his single mother parent who is constantly seen as stupid troublemaker by both peers and teachers and his moms awful boyfriend and who’s only friend is the only other Outcast (non white) classmate who’s only ally is the literature teacher who then he finds also has doubts about him felt very if not fully black then at least mixed coded.

But then I moved on and enjoyed the story for what it gave me, can some of these people say the same 🤔

#I have not yet watched the show I’ll probably wait for more episodes bc I canceled D+ like two months ago #but idk many of yall are not 12 anymore and saying Leah won’t do a good job or it won’t be as good #we only saw any of these characters in our minds eye #or concept art #im not saying you can’t be disappointed when things aren’t 100% a match bc you want to see a good adaptation of the Book #and I need to do a reread but I would think Annabeth’s whole other shit aka running away cross country at 7 always being nosy and wanting #a quest being ready for battle but learning to have fun too #is more integral to her character ESPECIALLY IN MARK OF ATHENA #the blond hair in the books is a trait from Athena so it’s not a unique hurdle other girls in the cabin wouldn’t also face #it mattered bc she was a main character #But taking the core struggle of not being taken seriously works pretty damn well for any girl but especially black girls AT ALL TIMES #and not to be funny but saying the other characters are already diverse feels like a side step #like look Hazel in her eyes and say not being taken seriously BECAUSE of your HAIR COLOR is on the same level #as not being taken seriously because you’re a black girl #and if this breaches containment #yes the show would have been fine even if a picture perfect accurate cast had been hired #but if we want to move past people being cast bc of how they look vs how they act #you can’t hold the gospel of a book series against literal children who are probably having the time of their life #or would be if grown ass adults were attacking them bc SOMEONE ELSE HITED THEM #if the show is bad it’s not bc Annabeth is black or Percy is blonde #hell in good omens both leads are older in the book they’re described as looking 25 and 30 #can you imagine good omens as it is now with book accurate casting bc I can’t

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johndonneswife · 2 months

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someone really should be talking about how difficult it is to plan a wedding - a gay wedding - when both of your families fucking suck

#who is talking about this!!!! let me know #idk i have 0 expectations for my family but they still somehow always manage to let me down which #i was anticipating #and i didn’t think i would care because i have never cared before #but liiiiiike.#i wasn’t expecting to feel sad rofl but my family is so fucking flaky. again i KNOW THIS i know i cannot rely on any of them #it’s annoying when i have given them a year and a half to make plans and i have had so many people tell me they would be there #just to back out or ghost or come up with some excuse #like do you know how expensive weddings are 😭 JUST fucking be honest with me and rsvp no #anyway i was very intentional with the few family members i did invite #and specifically invited people i have a rapport with / had a good (ish lol) relationship with growing up #people i have bent over backwards trying to please!!! and dropping everything to help them out #and they can’t even be bothered to communicate with me lol it’s fine. like. i do feel like it’s internalized homophobia at this point #or maybe they have hated me this entire time which is totally plausible #but they KNOW how much ayesha means to me and knows that no one from her family is coming to our wedding #at the end of the day it’s going to be like. 5 people from my family 1 from ayesha’s (her brother) and like 30-40 friends #which i am so grateful for obviously #i sound like such a brat but it’s also like - watching your family continuously choose drugs/alcohol over showing up for you - lol #AGAIN i’m used to this and expected as much but i’m still feeling bad #just rsvp so i can move on with my life please. stop telling me you’re trying to make it work when we both know you aren’t #i have so much more to say but i’m going to sound crazy even though i knooooow it is homophobia like i Know it #i think there are certain people i will finally go no contact with for good after this #which is a freeing thought but i only invited v few family members to begin with. there’s abt to be no one left lmao #probably for the best #ugh whatever #again i can’t help but feel a certain way when they have done more/traveled further for relatives they hardly know #meanwhile i was forced to spend so much of my life living for these people and for them alone #AAAAAAAA i just want to scream #text

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toastsnaffler · 16 days

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I will say while I've loved most of elden ring I'm really glad I'm down to just 2 more main boss fights (malenia + maliketh) before I start the endgame boss fights... whew 😮‍💨

#really gorgeous world but frankly its unnecessarily long. theyre gonna kill me for saying that but its true..#some areas/bosses just become overly repetitive when the game is THAT massive like its unavoidable #they tried rly hard to distinguish every area + honestly its a great effort but it couldve been half the size and just as good #like i just did the elphael ulcerative tree spirit bc i wanted to finish millicents questline. and come on man we didnt need another one #the design is sick + loooove the animation. but its a bad fight not bc of the difficulty but bc its janky as hell #lock on doesnt work properly bc of its size and the way it moves. u cant see shit on ur screen fighting them melee its just hack n slash #and theyre always in the most dogshit arenas possible for them like spaces w no maneuverability. its just not fuuuun #especially after youve fought 5 or 6 already earlier on in the game..#and its cool to have variations like the scarlet rot ones but we already HAD one of those just before lake of rot!! the gimmicks worn off #i did everything except maliketh in farum azula today as well and again. it didnt need to be that long. killing beastmen gets boring #after like the first 20 combat is just mashing buttons.. even the platforming is getting dull bc ive done 120 hours of it now #and theres only so many combinations of ladders and hallways and so on that u can possibly cram in here..#i say all this with fondness like i truly do love it. but it couldve been a lot tighter! regardless ill still 100% complete it #and i get most ppl dont try to get every single armament and talisman etc so they probably dont waste time FULLY exploring like i am #ahhh. anyway ill probably do malenia and maliketh tmr bc im right outside both of their arenas. and then call it quits this weekend #ill get my first ending next weekend probably... and hopefully by june ill have 100% and then i can play something else 😭#ik the dlc comes out in june but ill probably take a month or two break before i get to that #it doesnt even neeeed a dlc.......its excessive as it is just make a new game by this point ahhhhh #anyway its like 1am i need to SLEEP. i said i would go out to watch for northern lights but its overcast and im tired and my roommate #didnt wanna come with.. so i was gonna go to bed early instead but i guess that didnt happen lol #gonna feel like shit tomorrow bc i have to be up early to take my meds and she'll wake me up anyway.. but cross that bridge #typing is getting difficult bc im so sleepy okay goodnight everyone #.diaries

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domesticmail · 1 month

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#will be breaking up with my boyfriend soon because this situation is straight-up untenable #and then i guess i'll be moving!#i feel so weird and unhappy but ultimately i think i'll be happier alone #working on myself alone #working on my life alone #because he is just. not conducive to any of it #he rightfully pointed out that i have flaws i need to fix but he also #goes on screaming tirades and ignores me for days #so i feel like ultimately i am justified in leaving.#i know i have issues and i need to work on them and I AM!#if that isn't enough for him that's okay #but it's not okay to oscillate between screaming at me and giving me the silent treatment #i mean my god.#this is not a relationship.#this is me letting myself get berated #and then disrespected #and tbf i've allowed this behavior for two years so he is not entirely to blame #i have had many chances to leave and i've always discarded them because i thought we could work it out #but yeah i've reached the point where i don't think it's work-out-able #i mean he straight up told me our relationship is not important to him and that i'm not important to him #i don't understand how that could possibly be a GOOD thing in a relationship #and i'm honestly a little saddened that i let myself think that was okay for so long #i may have flaws but i'm not abusive or manipulative. i'm just lazy #but i take care of my responsibilities too.#so ultimately i'm just not okay #i'm not okay with any of this and i'm finally okay saying that #it doesn't make him or i bad people #it means we're not compatible and probably haven't been for a long time #i am unhappy here #he is unhappy here

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stereax · 2 months

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woohoo spiraling out of control right now (what else is new really I've been fucked up and spiraling for weeks now) and trying to figure out reasons not to delete my tumblr and discord and myself along the way

but you know. talking about myself on my blog automatically means I'm attention seeking and fishing for pity right? should just shut up and stick to the news eh, it's all I'm good for :D

anyway if you need me I'll be in the corner reliving the past, coming to terms with reality, and trying to convince myself I'm not the problem despite every indication to the contrary ✌︎︎

#sterechats :)#09:58 pm - this is a bad idea but scheduling it anyway #what's the worst that can happen really? everyone leaves again? nobody talks to me again?#probably gonna delete this in the morning so. meh. not like it matters not like I matter :D #10:29 pm - wow it feels like my head is on fire #like my brain is actually burning and I can't do a damn thing about it #I should be happy right now! the devils are winning! my favorite guys are scoring!#but no! I'm barely keeping it together around my family and praying I don't wake up tomorrow <3 #11:00 pm - I need to get out of here #I need to get out of here out of here out of here I can't stay here any more this is killing me #everyone hates me and I need to chew my arms open maybe then everything will make sense #why am I even writing these tags what does it matter #I was so much more in control of myself when I was sh-ing #maybe I should get back to that maybe it'll help I don't know anymore #I just want my friends back but they hate me hahahaha #11:24 pm - wonder how many people are gonna block me after this one #how many people will finally be fed up and leave for good #everyone leaves and I should be used to this by now #here's a truck stop instead of saint peter's (yeah yeah yeah yeah)#11:41 pm - it's friday afternoon/there goes antigone to be buried alive #in the next world I want to be something useful/like a staple gun/or in love #I would fall off a cliff for you/a thousand times and call it a good day #maybe I'm just incapable of being human! maybe that's it!#maybe I'm not even human at all... but something worse instead...#1:22 am - moving the posting of this back from 3 to 6 am #not that that matters and not that I matter but I don't think I'll sleep #and I don't want this to post when I'm awake #I know I'm just going to get unfollowed and blocked and left behind as always #because happiness and good things and friendships just aren't things I get to have really #I just wish people would stop lying and telling me they're different and they'll stay when they're not different and won't stay

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cloudshapedpatch · 1 year

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i really want to tell my best friend i’m in love with her but she’s very vocal about how frustrated it makes her when all her friends inevitably confess their love for her

#like i get it im aware that a girl can’t have guy friends without at least half of em catching feelings ive BEEN THERE #and she’s so magnetic #literally everywhere she goes she’s got people crushing on her #we have worked many jobs together and at least half the staff wants her #and her boyfriends a bum!!!!#she should dump him and be with me instead!!!#but she also hates long distance and im moving across the state in like two weeks #and i know most of her frustrations are directed towards men and im not a man i want to have a nice nblw/wlw relationship with her #but it can’t be fun for her to always wonder if she’s bound to never have platonic friendships #and if she feels like she can’t preserve our friendship if she rejects me she’s probably gonna drop me #she’ll do it nicely but she will #i love that about her she always stands her ground but i just wish i wasn’t so worried #i want to tell her so bad. i need her to know.#i hate being scared that i’m gonna ruin our friendship cause i do this all the time #but how can i not love her????#im going crazy #cori rambles #lovely mumblings

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zmeydeva-arch · 1 year

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people say misogyny has improved in the rpc and at large i would say sure but my god... the way some of y’all talk about your “best boy’s” canon female love interests just oozes hatred. you don’t keep that energy when the tables are turned and your male fave is actually the one acting up in the relationship. i think it’s totally fine to dislike a canon ship and choose to disregard it in your portrayal because you don’t think it serves the way you want to write your muse. although, when that choice is based on the fact that you are painting a woman as “abusive” when she maybe is, at best, a little mean to the man in question you gotta step back and think about why you are interpreting her that way. also funny that two men can banter and you think that is cute and flirty but god forbid a woman get a bit quippy, now she is a villain!

#surprisingly i am NOT talking about zoya today or this fandom in general but the community at large #i write so many ... 'perceived difficult' woman #or even feminine presenting individuals #so many times i have been iced out or made to feel bad about the women i choose to portray because they aren't soft enough or kind enough #read: she probably told your blorbo off once #we have villain discourse every other month but i think in that conversation you have to acknowledge the gender discrepancies #you quite literally let men get away with murder and if a woman so much as looks at yours mans wrong you are ready to crucify her #i am literally a queer person and mlm ships will always be important but the way y'all will throw women under the bus to see ur bb boys kiss #it's gross!#did it ever cross your mind that you don't have to vilify women in order to ship men together you can just do the latter and move on?#𝖎𝖎. *ੈ ˖ ° ⥽ carlisle cullen? no carly rae cullen ⥼ ⅋. ooc #sorry for the rant i just saw some VERY VERY cold takes and now i am heated

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taylorftparamore · 7 days

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like out of taylor's love life, i only really objected to like. exactly two guys she dated (i think we know which two lmao) the rest i literally think of in the abstract of "i'm glad he makes her happy and he seems nice, i guess!" which is honestly the highest praise anyone's boyfriend could get from me

#i even hold this opinion on my coworker's boyfriend like. idk he seems nice! glad she's happy with him!#tho i will say every friend's boyfriend that has gotten a stronger feeling a milquetoast ''he seems nice'' is always bad #like. the ONLY time i have ever secretly hated a friend's boyfriend? it always turns out he is utterly rancid #like if joe alwyn's worst crime was that he was boring & didn't want to commit well. many such cases #not the worst thing a guy can do #and it's clear she's moved on and perhaps found someone who DOES want to give her a future and thank GOD it wasn't fuckin matty healy #and an EXTRA thank god it wasn't calvin harris holy shit i hated his ass so bad #calvin harris i will never forgive you for making this fandom uninhabitable in 2015

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insignificantfailure · 5 months

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Can I please just stop inconveniencing everyone?