#mostly because idk it's all very boring :| they focus a lot on how the groups work and it's like. Yeah I know lol
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You said that you're used to fellow RAMCOA survivors specifying what they survived because it's not all the same. If it's not impolite, I was curious why you don't specify?
Yes a lot of especially older survivors will specify what they survived because "RAMCOA" is a relatively recent term. Before that it was RAT (ritual abuse & torture), before that just RA, and before that everybody who would fit under RAMCOA got lumped as SRA (most psychology books from that era will outright say the groups are not necessarily the "S" part). The survivors who have since adjusted to the term RAMCOA will still often specify because it is still a pretty vague category.
I don't usually say because I don't really feel the need to signal to other survivors. This blog largely functions as a disability journal rather than an attempt to connect with any survivor community. It's also just not something I focus on a lot...I try not to fixate on trauma or trauma memories. It doesn't bother me much to talk about it but I just have bigger issues you know?
Anyway: 3rd gen cult survivor and sex trafficking survivor, and if it suits you I have some military stuff thrown in for good measure. The cult I survived is a fairly well known/documented one with a body count. The trafficking was international, international trafficking is somewhat common where I'm from. The military stuff is also pretty standard faire for the area...I honestly don't personally count it but I've been told I should and that it was serious.
TBMC was part of it so I also survived torture, since that's how TBMC works. I have enough NDEs that I like to joke that death hates me because he never answers the door when I visit.
#I don't generally dive into...whatever you would call the slice of academia that deals with cults#mostly because idk it's all very boring :| they focus a lot on how the groups work and it's like. Yeah I know lol#they all act really horrified too but about really mundane stuff#I read more about the actual abuses than the study of how the groups work themselves if that makes sense#.log#the military stuff is mostly like watching people get shot and stepping over dead bodies to go to kindergarten#which if you think about it is not THAT bad compared to even other stuff I survived much less people with real military issues#and is also something a lot of people my age and older from there experienced#uhmmm#death .#just in case#ramcoa
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Separatist Swaps: Home Cook Youtubers
This week’s theme from @radblrthemeweeks is Separatist Swaps (suggesting equivalent female artists/musicians/creators/etc to support as well as or instead of men)
I’ll admit I don’t read or watch TV much, but I do watch a lot of YouTube. I added some of my favorite channels to this post in the past (X). This will be an expanded list in no particular order.
Initially, I wanted to compare each channel to a similar male-led one, but I opted to just summarize what I think is unique about each one.
Food and Cooking
Note: I prefer vegan/plant based cooking, so I’ll specify which of these channels are exclusively vegan.
Cheap Lazy Vegan (V) Rose makes a lot of Korean food, but the ingredients are pretty easy to find at a regular grocery store. Many of her videos feature high protein, nutritious meals that can be ready in 20 minutes or less. I’ve also found her recipes to be shockingly simple without getting boring.
Rainbow Plant Life (V) Nisha is one of my favorite youtubers. Her recipes are a bit more involved that Rose’s, but I’ve made several of them myself so they’re still approachable for a home cook. Her recipes are primarily American or Indian inspired with advice for meal prep and saving time.
Pick Up Limes (V) Sadia is a nutritionist, so her recipes tend to be wholesome and nutritious. However, she still has a lot of recipes for comfort food and desserts. I don’t make her recipes as often, but her videos are enjoyable.
Sierra Ann I like her easy “recipes” (more like meal ideas), but she sometimes posts about fashion as well. Her content is more akin to a vlog than concrete recipes or cooking tips, so I find myself watching her YT shorts more than her longform content.
Lisa Nguyen I’ve only ever seen her YT shorts so idk if she makes longer videos or not. She does instant ramen challenges where she tries different brands or ramen hacks.
Morgan Drinks Coffee Morgan releases a mix of recipes and other content like appliance and coffee reviews. She has a lot of advice for people just getting into coffee or those who want some fresh ideas.
Inga Lam When I made the other post she was still working for Buzzfeed, but she recently decided to focus on her own channel. I’m not sure what she has planned but she’s very creative and ambitious.
How to Cook That Ann Reardon mostly makes baking videos, but I prefer her debunking videos. She seems to have shifted more toward debunking dangerous videos in general, not just food related videos.
June Xie from Delish June makes long videos creating a week’s worth of meals, often on a budget. My main complaint about her content is that some of the food she makes is either not for everybody or uses ingredients that aren’t readily accessible, like produce from specialty shops. However, that also means her recipes tend to be unique and interesting. Her boyfriend also comes off as kinda rude, but he’s only there when they’re tasting the food.
Beryl Shereshewsky People from around the world submit ways they eat a particular food, like instant ramen or onions, and Beryl makes and reviews them. These videos are helpful when I feel stuck in a routine and want to see ingredients from a different perspective.
Alix Traeger Alix used to work for Tasty, but now she makes content on her own channel with her girlfriend Zoya. Zoya is Persian, so it’s been fun watching Alix try to master Persian dishes.
Here are some others I saw in my Watch Later list that I don’t watch often or haven’t seen yet.
Mina Rome (Cooking)
Doobydobap (Cooking)
Flo Lum (Cooking)
Sarah’s Vegan Kitchen (Cooking)
Sweet Simple Vegan (Cooking)
Julia Pacheco (Cooking)
Feelgoodfoodie (Cooking)
Anne of all trades (DIY)
The busy brown angel (Gardening)
Gardening and Homesteading
Girl in the Woods I just found her channel last week, but it was too interesting to leave out. Usually I don’t like homesteading YouTubers because they focus on the aesthetics, but I’ve actually learned a lot about off-grid living just from watching a few of her videos.
HannahLeeDuggan She bought a property with a run-down cabin a few years back. Before that, she was living in a van and selling handmade clothes online. I can’t say I’ve learned much about van life or homesteading from her videos, but I haven’t given her a fair chance yet. Last I checked, she was planning on documenting the process of fixing up and weather-proofing her cabin.
Learn Something
Answers in Progress This channel is run by three people, two of which are women. They answer random questions with a surprising amount of research and interviews with professionals.
The Take The Take claims to be “ the leading female-led entertainment analysis channel on TV, Movies & Pop-Culture”
Cheyenne Lin Cheyenne focuses on feminist analysis and film analysis through a feminist lens.
Jessica Chou She isn’t active anymore but she has some basic videos on car maintenance.
Micarah Tewers Micarah sews a combination of beautiful and insane clothes. I’ve never tried to recreate any of her patterns but she’s so entertaining to watch. She made fake eyelashes out of her dog’s hair and that’s not even the craziest thing she’s done on her channel.
Since this is intended to be a discussion, I’m also including a list of channels I’d like to find that are usually male dominated.
Game News and Lore I like watching lore videos for games like the Fallout series, RDR2, and TES. So far, the only female gamers I’ve seen on YT are overly sexualized and don’t make the content I’m looking for.
Food Science There are a few channels that break down food science like Adam Ragusea and Kenji Lopez-Alt. The closest female equivalent is How to Cook That, but it’s not quite what I’m looking for and she primarily posts baking videos.
I’ve been watching a lot of Ethan Chlebowski’s videos lately because he makes meal formulas and focuses on high protein meals. If anyone knows who I’m talking about, I’d love to see female-run channels that make similar content.
Gardening and Homesteading I want channels that actually teach me something new and don’t focus on pseudoscience or religion.
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came to the horrifying realization earlier this week whilst replaying hollow knight that it is unfortunately a 9/10 and not a 10/10
i was trying to see at which point in the game you get enough Charms to make fun builds because i had one specific one in mind that i remember i loved using in the postgame boss gauntlets - Flukenest. Bc Flukenest is such a cool charm in concept and execution!!! It takes one of your kind-of-basic spells and completely changes it, from a straightforward projectile into a full on Shotgun - and with Defenders Crest it becomes like a DPS-filled poison cloud!
and then as i was playing and thinking of flukenest. and getting a bunch of other charms but never getting It (because to get it you need to get sooo much other stuff on top). and i realized a lot of the charms are just kind of boring? longer range. longer-er range. get more soul. have spells do more damage. have the dash work better. move faster (why isnt this on by default). focus-recover faster. like it was all mostly a bunch of very slight enhancements - i wish there was more stuff in the game that let you wholly change/customize your playstyle!!
and like you can def do combinations that let you do things more Efficiently like having a big ol nail or a fast swiping nail or very soul efficient or very anti-Focusing a la Lifeblood masks but like. i wish more stuff actually toyed around with how the spells and such worked. i want a desolate dive that you can CHARGE UP or an abyss shriek that summons minions for every hit it lands. idk.
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Also btw, there *are* different levels of fandom. You can just... watch a thing for fun with your brain mostly turned off and just absorb the plot as it happens without thinking. You can focus on only one plot and then be bored when your favorite character leaves the screen. You can just coast through a story and pick up only what the creators obviously wanted you to pick up and nothing else. You can notice the foreshadowing. You can notice the musical themes. You can notice the faces the background characters are making. You can overanalyze every second of the show and make predictions.
And none of those paths make anyone a bad fan? Or a bad consumer of stories? Because we pay attention to the stories that matter to us in ways that excite us?
I find that as a creator, I'm just thrilled when one person gets it. I create things assuming that most people won't pick up the very specific thing I put down. And that's not because I created it badly, but because people are so subjective. We all interact with stories with our own perspectives and talents and experiences. It's a good thing, that I might draw a sunrise and give it to someone who thinks it's a sunset, but it's still beautiful.
And quite frankly, I'm always so intrigued by the ideas people take away from my work that I never even thought of. The ideas that make so much sense, I really could have created it exactly for that reason, but I didn't. Someone took my work and gave it new meaning and then told me what that meaning was and it made me love my creation even more.
And I think we underestimate how often that happens with professional storytellers too. Alex Hirsch, who created Gravity Falls, often would read fan theories of his own story, that he himself admitted made a lot of sense even though he didn't think of it.
Idk, I just think everyone needs to calm down sometimes about What The Creator Intended or What This Scene Actually Means or What This Character Is Supposed To Teach Us. The intention is not the beginning or the end of all the beautiful things that can come from an art, stop limiting it by being so certain you're the only one who can be right. And don't be quick to blame someone else for not seeing what you saw.
#byler#stranger things#because fandom is supposed to be fun and I want to tell you guys about the sunsets I see when you guys think its a sunrise#but its become a hivemind and that dorsnt exactly mean everyones on the same page#it means people who have other awesome ideas arent saying anything#thoughtsfromthequeen
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oof guys some days I feel very competent at my job and some days I feel a little in over my head. today it’s definitely the latter… I think it was just a lot of being in meetings with high-ranking admins who have been here for 10+ years and thus have LOTS of knowledge of context & lots of strong opinions about these big institution-wide issues. I don’t think I ever embarrass myself in these types of meetings (mostly because I try not to talk too much and instead focus on asking questions… maybe that’s embarrassing in its own way but feels better than accidentally saying something stupid/ignorant). but they always make me feel very conscious of how new I am both to the institution and to this type of role!! however I am trying to remind myself that these people didn’t start out knowing everything about our university system or about how to think at this level… they have accumulated that understanding over many years of being involved in lots of different initiatives at different levels. I can learn these skills and the fact that I don’t have them quite yet doesn’t mean I’m ill-suited to the job or doomed to be less effective than my longer-tenured coworkers. but it does means I need to do some thinking about what those skills are and how to build them over time.
(also a lot of these meetings were about using data to inform institutional recommendations and I feel VERY insecure about my ability to draw conclusions from quantitative data. I don’t have the training and I’m not totally sure how to get it at this stage. then I start getting in my own head about being stupid with numbers, which makes it harder to see the ways that I could still contribute usefully to these discussions even if I can’t be much help with number-crunching. I could also think about how to develop these skills but honestly I just find it all SO BORING it’s hard to motivate myself to even want to pay attention. not something you are really allowed to feel at this level though!!)
I think the other problem is that I’m feeling a little bit checked out because of the pregnancy. it’s partly just that I feel pretty tired and physically worn out all the time… so it’s often easier to focus on the concrete small tasks on my plate than to do the big picture conceptual thinking I was doing at the start of this position. it’s also partly that I’m three months away from being out for six months, which makes me feel less motivated to tackle big stuff… it’s easier to wrap up loose ends than to launch new projects that will have to be put on the shelf for a long time. and then idk I feel like I’m allocating a huge chunk of my intellectual and emotional resources to preparing for parenthood, I guess? like the background hum in my brain these days is all about trying to get ready for this huge self-shattering life transition. not that you can ever be ready but I feel like so much of my energy is focused on my personal life right now when in the past it’s been much more skewed towards work. that seems normal under the circumstances! but it’s hard to figure out how to rebalance, or if I even need to rebalance at this point. like is it ok to be consumed by impending parenthood and to not feel quite as invested in or interested in my career for a stretch?? is that ok or do I need to work more actively to correct it?
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Hi Pia,
Behind-the-scenes-fic-ask, number 21 and falling falling stars please ❤️
21. What is something you didn't expect people to notice or gravitate towards in this fic?
Ooooo, okay, actually quite a few things!
So the biggest one is that I just never expected to have Dr Gary be anything more than an extremely minor character that Efnisien mostly reflected on. I never planned to write whole sessions, and the first one was only a section of a chapter rather than a whole chapter, because I thought readers would hate it.
I actually really hate reading a lot of fictional therapy sessions, especially when that's not the focus of the fic. Most fictional therapy sessions read like 'therapist is narrating pop psychology and telling this character everything they want to hear and they're subbing in for a kind parental figure' at best.
There are exceptions to that, but for the most part, I find that boring - it feels like a kind of writing that is not quite lazy, but a bit 'there are other more interesting ways to share this.' Therapists don't feel like real people in those circumstances, with their own motives, thoughts, intentions and drives. They feel like an extended part of the character's brain, or they feel like an empty function.
But Dr Gary was like, was a hit. I was getting a lot of asks about him, a lot of interest about him in the comments, and in the first few chapters, me and my beta actually kind of shipped him and Efnisien together before he met Arden (that's how we ended up with Underline the Black lol).
So yeah, that's the biggest one!!! And that one is a pretty big one. :D
Otherwise, I was also surprised by (but maybe shouldn't have been) how many Kadek/Efnisien shippers there are and Kadek/Efnisien/Arden shippers. I was like...hmm...how can I put this - Kadek has darker brown skin, and in those cases some readers don't really go for that chemistry. He's also 20~ years older than Efnisien, though he doesn't act like it, lol. Like, I personally shipped them even though I wasn't going to write them into the main story, but I was very reserved/aware that people might not want that. Especially with how confrontational and sometimes even mean Kadek can be.
Honestly that was like, probably the nicest surprise. It wasn't that I expected people to be awful, often I try and go in with fairly open expectations, it was more like I was prepared for people to not feel/see what I was feeling/seeing about a character. And I was okay with that, because he's a side character. But we got way, way more scenes with Kadek because of how people responded to him.
This story really couldn't have been what it became without the readers! The best part about not planning a story is I can follow the kind of momentum of readers. I don't believe in caving to fanservicey stuff, but I do believe in 'oh you're open to this? I can give you more of this!' or 'oh you like him!!! Yay!! I do too! Let's experiment with a whole therapy session chapter and see how y'all feel about it.'
:D That's my favourite part of writing, honestly. I actually kind of feel bad for the people who don't read fics as they go like this, and just read it all when it's completed at the end. Because they miss this kind of alive creation of this ongoing story, and they miss being a part of it. And obviously they also miss the agony of waiting for chapters, but as someone who reads WIPs myself, idk there's something very cool about seeing something come to life - especially like, if say early on you are like 'I love this character so much' and then a bunch of other people say it, and then the author is like 'well this character can make the story stronger so good news everyone, I'm putting him in more because you all love him so much.'
That's... like... *chef's kiss*
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From this meme!
#asks and answers#memey goodness#falling falling stars#dr gary konowalous#kadek setiawan#initially kadek was quite a lazy character for me in that#he was very loosely based on a good friend of mine#and then it was like oh let's...#let's really do this#efnisien would never have gotten that piano as a gift from kadek#if it wasn't for y'all and i appreciate that
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idk if i'm poking a hornet's nest, if i am, feel free to ignore this ask. i just wanted to know: what are your thoughts on jjk? i'm genuinely really interested because i've started reading it and i'm really enjoying it so far. and i love how it's inspired so much fanwork and analysis, but also, a bit of criticism. idk ... what's your response to it? sorry for sending such a vague ask!
Oh don't worry at all, if there is one thing I can be counted on is to share my opinion on p much anything I can have an opinion on, loudly and in length.
So here are few things to consider before giving my opinions any weight
I don't read shonen because I think it will be good hjbhbh this sounds mean but like, as frustrating as it is, shonen not being As Good As I Would Like It To Be, is kind of the point. I almost NEVER write fanfics about manga i really truly love. If i asked my followers now I don't know if they would be able to name my fav manga n anime. I read shonen to have something to write about, to have something to fill out and develop.
Shonen focuses a lot on fights. I don't care about fights. My primary interests when I'm reading are A. Characters B. World building. Shonen has these but they are never the focus, the focus is setting up a cool way to have a cool fight, whatever that means in the world of the particular story. This of course doesn't apply to every shonen manga, don't come for me, but it applies to a lot of the popular ones and it applies to JJK
All that to say: I'm not the target audience and I know it, if you are looking for an opinion of someone who really really really likes shonen manga and is into the major aspects of it that's not me and I won't give you any useful insight on that.
Onwards with my thoughts:
JJK is really really fun at the beginning! If you just started reading it you are in for a fun time for a good bit. The characters are interesting and show a lot of promise, the central themes are cool, the designs are badass and it has one of the better adult supporting cast which I, as an adult who can no longer really identify with teen protags, really appreciate. It has amazing villains, some of the better treated women in shonen (tho keep in mind that is a very low bar) and enough emotional content to keep you digging for more. It had me teared up at least once! It's world is very interesting and the psychology and the make up of it are just MADE for someone like me who specializes in studying pain and grief and death to splash around in.
It's just that after a bit...it stumbles. I think it's p much unanimously agreed at this point that the shibuya arc was the high note after which the manga very very slowly started getting dull. The nature of where it was headed meant that a lot of new characters had to be introduced only to be immediately discarded. It was a death game where it didn't really feel like the main characters were in danger which, after Shibuya which had a high death toll on known and bellowed characters, just had me kind of disinterested. Death game with no stakes is BAD. It's hard to explain all the ways i just kind of stopped caring. Combination of the inflation of the cast with characters I didn't care about while leaving the old ones by the wayside. Feeling like the most interesting of new characters got sidelined (suspiciously mostly women...remember what i said about the low bar), while the boring ones stuck around. It started feeling rare that the manga hits an emotional point (it did happen, it was this era of the manga in which it almost brought me to tears) but even the hits would get undermined with something later that made them stumble and fall flat. A lot of promising, cool things, conversations, backstory details, interactions that were expected and predicted from the first half just kind of fizzled out, didn't happen, or were done so quickly and offhandedly that it got me saying 'is that really how he's gonna do this'. It was just a pile of small disappointments that grew and grew until I found myself not as excited for the new update like i once was, till i found myself completely forgetting to check if the new chapter was there or not.
All in all, I would place JJK very close to BNHA in terms of my feelings for it: Very promising but can't live up to its own ideas. Or to be fair, can't live up to my ideas. Every time I check in Gege seems to be having a blast and in the end that's what's most important. I'm just someone writing in the blanks he left behind according to my own interests lol.
#anon#answered#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#jjk critical#very lightly lol im not invested enough anymore to be brutal about it#anyway feel free to ask me anything any time i love talking
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Dead silence AU
Chapter 1
The beginning...
What the fuck am I doing you ask? Well got bored of he whole only writing EndKing!Steve AU thing so...to make my mind 10× more busy and filled with more bulshit, I wanted to start a new au, this is sort of similar to a zombie apocalypse but more sculk :) and yes my Oc aka Chain is also going to be taking part in this au
Also any character or any of your oc's canbe part of this au if you want, but if you do want your oc's to be part of this crossover au thing just ask me (:
Again this story contains 18+ gore, Angst (some of these things), and fluff (mostly because I'm sick and tired of just doing soo many angst stuff but gore will be almost in every chapter)
Again...this story has boy x boy and girl x girl! So if your not up to these standards, please ignore this story and head on with what your doing.
There's going to be fucking coordinates and other shit here so...good luck trying to figure that out
There's going to be lots of cursing in this book so again I'll be censoring it
《!Viewer Description is advised!》
So! Let's get right into this shall we?
Chain pov:
The world has changed, from the biome to the mobs, it all changed...this isn't the world I used to know...now...it's filled with death and lifeless corpses. The end has come to claim us...no...THEY had come...to claim US. Now it's here...these guys aren't just dumb shit, the infection learns it grows and evolves, it has our name...and it wants to add us back to the collective, I've survived more than I could have possibly imagined....but now that I've given you the run down, let's get down to business.
Chris worked in the facility where the other survivors stayed, good thing that the whole thing was sculk proof, or else we would have ended up more food for the upcoming hoard...Steve was there too, leading the defense group to cover up more of the surrounding land around the base, while me I was sent in a mission to look for a cure, as days went on but this day? This day was unlike any other.
My mission was over. I've finally found a cure to heal this lifeless land. It was too simple! And what I mean by simple is that I had to fight tirelessly day and night to fought off the hoard of sculk in my path just to get to a chest with a single purifier, it better than nothing I guess...I was inside a broken down facility, sort of similar to the base where the other survivors were staying in, I searched within cabinet after cabinet, shelf after shelf untill finding the ingredients on how to create the cure, it required very expensive materials found from underneath, but I can manage...wish someone, was here with me...it's really boring...really hope that the others are ok atleast...
《Back at base where the other survivors had stayed》
Chris pov:
It's been months since Chain hasn't come back...hope he's got the ingredients for the cure...and sure hope he's ok...
I was waiting impatiently for Chain to come to base having successfully retrieving the cure...I heard the door slide open, it was Steve. He was wearing a white t-shirt (it was Chris t-shirt btw soo..it's bigger than Steve :P)
Chris: is that my shirt?
Steve: idk...maybe?
Chris:...
I raised an eyebrow on him- (BOMBASTIC SIDE EYE XDDD)
Steve: ok- chill out big guy, it's your shirt now calm down jezz
He giggled as I stared on how big the shirt it was on him
Steve: what are you looking at Chris?
He asked as I turned my gaze away from him as my face was tainted red, I turned back my focus on what I was mainly doing, before he slowly started to walk closer to me (YES THERE OFFICIALLY A COUPLE IN THIS AU AND SO ARE THE REST, FUCK ME UP IF YOU DARE)
Steve: what'cha doing?
Chris: JEZZ- Dude! Dont- scare me like that for God's sake
Steve: scared of what? Of me? Gezz Chris I thought we were cool!~ (it's not what you think it is you fucks)
He says dramatically
Chris: alright alright, calm down drama queen, we're not in a movie right now
Steve: really Chris? Drama queen?
Chris: what? What else am I going to call you? Tiny boy~
Steve: Alright- that's it-
Before I could say a word I was immediately tackled down by Steve. What! Is it because I called him Tiny Boy?! Oh come on!
He tackled me down to the tiles of the floor. He is strong, sure, considering he's always outside fighting back the sculk, but I was indeed stronger than him that's for sure(and indeed taller so :P)
Steve: Hah! Whose the tiny boy no-
Before he could finish his sentence I floped both of us over. Now I was on top and he was at the floor
Chris: your were saying?
I say as his face started to turn red
Steve:Chris- God- danm it!
I giggled at his reaction, then helped him stand up
Steve: so...any thing from Chain so far?...
Chris: not yet...really worried about him...it's been months since he hasn't given any signs
Steve: Alright...I'll be in Austins room if you need anything
He says as he left the room.
I waited impatiently(again) on the table fidgeting the pen on my hand, until I got a radio call from a random person from another facility...
Unknown person 1: Hello? Does his work? H-hello?
Chris: yes hello? Who is this?
Unknown person 1: oh! It works- hold on- is this the safety facility that we were informed about?
Chris: oh! Yes, yes this is the safety facility, please tell us your location, so we can get you out of there immediately
Unknown person 2: should we really trust those guys?
Unknown person 1: it's the only option we have for safety...
Unknown person 1: were at (censored) across the river
Chris:...I believe it would be a struggle to get you...and your location is pretty far from ours, considering that there's no rivers near this facility. But don't worry! We'll try send a rescue team right away
(I'm so shit at these things God fu_ing danm it)
Narrator pov:
Chris sent the rescue team to go search for the other survivors that called. But unfortunately all of the rescue team was killed by an entire hoard at the side of the river, it was close to Chains direction, hearing the beggings and painful screams of the rescue team, he wasn't going to take any risks from here. He backed off and ran to the opposite direction getting farther and farther from the safety facility, not knowing that he was far from base the sun began to set. He had to find a safe spot somewhere for the night, but luckily there was one close by. Another facility(danm there's a lot of these things holy sh-t) i snuck inside to see if anyone was there, when...
Crash!
End of chapter 1....
Next
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New au just dropped, and now I got more gore and fluff stories to write with! :D
The EndKing!Steve AU is still in a wip but please don't worry I not going to stop writing it or anything, as what I said to myself...'I started this story...And I'll finish it'
Also word count? 1295 :3
#my shit#my brain go brrrrrrrrr#checkpoint:stm#Sculk Apocalypse! AU#steve the adventurer#steve checkpoint#chris checkpoint#Chris#my oc#my au#Holy shit new au just dropped
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If im honest really (as a fan of enstars since EN first release and have caught up with a few JP events except for like the super recent ones), I found most of the event stories and main story stuff uninteresting or just overall a headache to go through. Most of the time (through both official and fan translated) they would get me shaking my head asking "what the heck is going on??",or the story drags around that it feels both frustrating and just too boring for my brain to be able focus even, and just as I thought its gotta get better they will usually have some lame conclusion monologue going on that either my monkey brain is unintellectual to understand what's going or maybe its the writers are like that idk Im happy to see the pretty cgs though.
I would very much rather have someone summarize the stories to me even if it sacrifice for inaccuracies and biases. Ok here's an example, Antique Legends? The only thing I remember from the story is the fun interactions within Hokuto and his dad, which may be due to my bias with Hokuto but really that was the only truly entertaining part to me.
Speaking of characters I really don't care about character depth at all all I wanna see is them being cute in those little idol stories cause idol stories (yes I mean those short stories that are mostly like one - two chapter long) and scout stories are really what I look forward to the most personally cause they aren't over the top complicated or draggy like event stories and main stories, its not to say they are boring no in fact they are way more entertaining cause they make things that may seem so simple and mundane to something fun and also I love seeing them in wacky events too.
Also yes I did mention being a HokutoP though I would say I'm more of an overall drama clubP with other characters I like such as Aira and Naruchan (love calling her that personally) (and also I love every character in their many uniqueness and to be fair its just the bias demons that posses me). Now what do these guys have to do with this post? well to bring point that I know absolutely nothing about their 'complex sides' other than that they are sweet angels to me and I love seeing them in cute and funny situations, and guess what I still appreciate seeing them and hell I own a Wataru nui (planning to get a hokke one too soon) because even though yaydadad the whole war thing and his 'masks' I personally find him super fun even if I'm aware that he may just be putting on an act (plus I also have a mini white party dress for him that I make him wear whenever I went to anything fancy like my when I went to see my cousin perform on a orchestra concert).
To bring my final point I personally think that enstars best strength or interest for me is the idol / scout stories because even with their cookie cutter like surface layer personalities they manage to even be more memorable and overall fun to read. Oh and stories aside I adore most of the cards although they get bland sometimes and most of the songs are pretty good in my opinion love trickster songs muah. Anyhow thats just how I feel like enjoying the game and to be fair I prefer to enjoy it alone rather than to have a mutual around cause ye I'm that those type people who enjoy being alone and find a lot of people to be a waste of a space personally, well I have a lot in my mind currently as per usual but they most aren't enstars related so for now imma really stop myself here right now though I may come back here for more confessions idk depends on me I guess (I will also be surprised if you read through this entire thing and if you do thank you and may God bless you my good friend).
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Hii i just came across your blog and would love to know your opinion, okay so I know a good amount about the harry potter world but have never been interested in shifting there until lately i have been intrigued in shifting to the marauders era something abiut it seems like home idk, maybe the way people describe the marauders or that its set in the 70s. But i know it comes with a lot of responsibility so would you recommend me to shift there with the little information i have on them? and what would be something you recommend me scripting.
Also if I were to shift there in 2nd year would i know how to use a wand and all the knowledge from the prior years.?? Im just so scared that once im there i wouldn't be able to use my wand properly 😭
Heyy!
You don’t have to get a lot of information to shift to a specific place, unless it’s a dangerous reality so at that point you have to know where you’re going, but in this case I’d tell you to not overthink it and just shift. But for example if you don’t plan on scripting the war /voldemort out then I suggest to script some safety details.
For the script part, I admit that I scripted mostly useless things that I like, but more generally I also scripted that the houses are immune to be heavily stereotyped because for example I am a slytherin and I don’t want to be considered as selfish and evil lol, or maybe ravenclaws as boring and bookworms, and so on. I also scripted that I get good grades on all exams without trying because trust me the classes are very difficult (i had some problems with potions mostly), especially if you can’t focus or take notes. If you plan on playing quidditch script that you can’t fall or be hit anywhere on the body/not get hurt, it’s a very aggressive sport. Also, idk if it’s the same for others who shift there too, but most people at Hogwarts are lowkey snob and think high of themselves and are competitive, so if you find it annoying script them to be more friendly and chill. Then I scripted that Hogwarts’ rules are not so strict, I recommend this especially if you’re gonna be part of the marauders so jokes and fun and mischief won’t get you into serious trouble. I scripted Voldemort out but that’s up to you. Finally, I scripted that wizards are known to muggles so we don’t have to be careful, they just are way rare so people judge them a lot, in my case some people feared us and some people idolised us, and some just thought we are kind of the antichrist lmao.
For the other question, don’t worry - you will remember everything! It’s not difficult at all once you’re there because you always existed in that reality so you’re used to that wand and all the other things. Some people find it hard to adjust and need more time, other people know instantly how to do stuff, it depends on the person but really don’t overthink this.
Remember that shifting is something that is supposed to be fun, so just go and do it instead of worrying so much. Good luck <33
#shifting realities#reality shifting#desired reality#shifting#shifting to harry potter#marauders#shifting to marauders era#shifting to hogwarts
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Hi hello do you have more thoughts on Kinnporsche world tour that you would like to share?
Personally, I'm really glad that as cringy as their dancing and songs can be, I'm really really glad that they're taking an effort. Idk how other SE asian dramas do publicity tours but for me this is really unexpected. I've mostly only heard of meet and greet, q&a, signings etc. The whole ass performances, musicals, singing and dancing is just... Is this the norm? Idk I'm blown away regardless.
Please let us hear what you think of the tour??
Thoughts
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I do not know if this is the norm. 🤷🏿♀️
I love everything I have seen in the tag and on tiktok. Truth be told, I might not be able to sit through 4 hours of the show, in one stretch. So, getting it in bits and pieces has been a treat.
I do not care that it's cringy. I like it. It's gay chaos and I like that they keep going from horny to unhappy. It's a toss up of what I'll see each time I see a new post.
I like that the tour, and the show, has carried these 16 men along like they're the avengers. It would have been so easy to focus on the main six and let the rest fall behind. But they've been consistent about this. Is this normal in bl promos? Someone please help. Do other bls include friends of the main characters? Or characters who had very little screentime?
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Fears
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1. We might get bored if we see the same show in every arena. (However, the fact that D1 and D2 were slightly different gives hope that we might see variations)
2. They will be sensored in a lot of places. Think about it. People go to theater to watch men and women kiss on stage, in romance plays and such. But one kiss from kinnporsche and people were up in arms to the point that they had to sensor it the next day. And this was in a Thai arena. Imagine what it would be like in other countries. We got unhinged fuckdom in Thailand, which means that other conservative places will have more set of rules and things to ban from happening in their arena
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1. If we're not getting a second season, I'd like to see more scenes that weren't included on the show. For example that TimeTayTem scene. It was very, very welcome. If they switch up the main couples scenes every time, I would be glad. Like, we've seen the kp pier kiss, twice and the vp breakdown and the kc breakup. If they decided to use other scenes from each couple, in other arenas, it would keep things fresh. But ALSO give us a chance to see scenes that weren't in the show
2. I hope they're making money. Because this endeavor is taking these men off the market. I imagine that, right now, they're all hot cake. This would have been the perfect time for most of their careers to take off. But that won't happen because they're engaged in a post-series world tour. I hope the money is worth it.
3. I hope they're all good. I hope their pillows are cold and their beds are fluffed. I hope they sleep well, rest and exercise. I hope they're all getting railed as regularly as they want. I hope that none of them have family members that are ashamed to see them do this on the world wide interwebs. I hope they're having as much fun as they look like. I hope that they have a safe journey around the world and end up back at home, in one piece.
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#kinnporsche#vegaspete#kimchay#timetaytem#mileapo#biblebuild#jeffbarcode#jjus#kinnporsche world tour
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this is like a super specific question but are there any dynamics that you don’t usually read/write fic for but like only if they’re written in a super specific way? like for example i could like stoncy but i don’t seek out fic for them because nobody ever resolves the s2 drama in a way that feels satisfying to me (or fair to everyone). i know you mostly focus on platonic/just like general character analysis type stuff so this applies to that as well, i was just wondering if there was anything you haven’t read/written but want to explore sometime in the future
oooo fun question and i am pretty picky about what i read so there’s probably a Lot if i compiled a list over time but for right now off the top of my head i’d say….i think the concept of nancy and robin becoming friends gradually over time and working out their differences could be really interesting if done in a very specific way. i don’t really buy nancy and robin as insta-besties (and i know the show like. attempted to give them conflict at first. but it was such a weak attempt i don’t count it) but i don’t think they’d outright hate each other either. there’s like a fine line i think they’d walk for awhile where they kinda start off on the wrong foot and maybe have not the best impressions of each other until slowly through like the forced proximity of being on the same monster hunting team they start to work through their shit. and i kinda feel the same about steve and jonathan even though my past fics don’t really reflect how i feel about them now LMAO but i also think they’d need a long gradual coming together to be friends just because of all the weird history between them, and like you said it isn’t often resolved.
ALSO! i think it would be cool to have eddie interact with will, but i think it’s kinda…..boring (sorry 😭) to have eddie just instantly take will under his wing and have him become like the practical co-president of hellfire and be a nurturing older brother figure etc etc. to me that just doesn’t reflect their personalities! eddie isn’t a natural big brother figure, even with dustin! he’s not like warm and nurturing!! he’s bossy and intimidating!!! and will “is that why you don’t have any friends?” byers might not be so readily down with eddie’s whole aesthetic yknow he has his own style and his own preferences and idk i feel like just because they’re both gay everyone is like oh so they’ll automatically be best friends and eddie will want to mentor him :) which….to me…….simplifies their feelings and identities way too much. like this automatic assigning of will to eddie as His Mentee is so random to me. idk that was a tangent sorry and to be clear i’m not like hating on anyone who likes/writes those stories, i just think it would be interesting to see a different take on it where they retain some of the distinct differences they have!
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It’s so hard for me to explain what makes Ethan in pokemashe interesting to me because the way he operates requires him to appear sort of boring at first glance. Like a lot of him is just reacting to the world. It requires him to be the normal guy in a sea of abnormality. He’s almost operated as a vessel for other characters to tell their story through.
Despite Ethan being the protagonist he’s not the main focus. Instead the journey being focused on the strange people Ethan meets along the way and how he interacts with them.
He isn’t very remarkable, doesn’t really have a backstory, the world is working against him but not in a tragic way and instead is mostly just slapstick, and is the tsukkomi to everyone’s boke. But he also cares a lot, lacks self preservation instincts, down to earth, and weirdly wise for his age. His habit of getting involved accidentally, before further involving himself on purpose when all signs say not to, is part of his character.
Like he’s not supposed to be a self insert and completely flat but he’s not meant to be the most complex character by a long shot. What’s supposed to make him compelling is how he interacts and involves himself with the rest of the cast.
Does that make sense. Idk if this should be changed or if people thinks this doesn’t work but like. The way he sounds in my head. Does.
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How do you find motivation to write? (love your work by the way!)
ALSKDJF thank you!!!!
My motivation to write is honestly so hard to explain…. It’s a really weird tightrope between my overactive daydreaming and my ADHD 🥹
The real trouble I have is keeping my momentum going and not running out of steam the second my ADHD latches on to something else, or I hit a small bump in the road. As a general tule, a lot of the time when I write it’s because I need an outlet for the scenes that are just playing in my head constantly, distracting me. I talk a lot, and I like to infodump in my everyday life, too, and it comes through in my writing sometimes.
Because of this need to infodump the scenes in my head, combined with my own fear that I’ll lose the plot due to my ADHD, I’m a big user of what’s called the “vomit draft,” where you basically steamroll through writing the first draft of something without care for perfect grammar, typos, spelling mistakes or wording things perfectly. This helps me feel secure in the fact that if I go fast enough, I won’t face this issue with my attention and focus.
Now, the term “vomit draft” is typically used to describe drafting an ENTIRE story before doing the editing. And I have done that before, but it didn’t really work as well for me as the version I’m doing now. A lot of times for me, trying to vomit draft a WHOLE piece first just resulted in me either running out of steam, or beginning to feel like the editing was a big, scary, insurmountable task (ask me about my Bungo Stray Dogs Heathers AU fic that never got finished). I‘ve found that turning the process of editing into a big, scary project of it’s own is the quickest thing to demotivate me, and it becomes a massive roadblock.
So recently, I’ve kind of adjusted my “vomit draft” style so that I’m instead taking each chapter as it’s own smaller unit, and vomit drafting them each individually. To help myself do this with “Ashes” in particular, I’ve got a notebook literally FULL of notes so I can keep track of all the small, throw-away details I’ve written. Mostly cause I’m very scared of contradicting myself in this one. Keeping a notebook like this isn’t a regular thing for me. My mentality behind this style of vomit drafting is like… if I can vomit draft this chapter quick enough, I can move on to the next exciting thing I want to infodump. Which is exciting to me! And it has the added bonus that it allows me the freedom to upload the chapters as soon as they’re done, and get enjoyment out of the work, due to my need for validation. Every chapter becomes a goal post for myself, that way!
And that’s what REALLY keeps my motivation going, so I don’t hit a roadblock on the story. By the time I post a chapter, I’m already excited because I know I’m about to steamroll through the next one cause I’m just so excited to dump that out, too! And I’m subsequently getting the validation from hitting my last goalpost and feeling like I’ve accomplished something at the same time.
Is my method for everyone?? HECK NO. Is this me given you full proof advice?? Also no. What works for me is not gonna work for everyone else. But this is the method that’s worked best for me in the past: in every instance of a story I’ve actually finished writing, I was using this chapter-by-chapter vomit drafting method. And typically those stories didn’t even need a notebook full of notes!
(Seriously, the notebook is just an “Ashes” thing, and I cannot overstate how I’ve never before kept a detailed notebook like this before. Don’t feel like you have to that lmao! But if you want to hear more about it, let me know and I can get into it. Idk if that would be boring to hear about or not 😅)
TL;DR I race against time with my ADHD and create small goalposts for myself via a chapter-by-chapter vomit drafting method. This allows me to satisfy my need to infodump the scenes while also making sure I refuel my motivation by allowing myself to feel validated and accomplished via smaller goalposts 🥰
#oh i also have a spotify playlist#like a dedicated one#I might post it when the fic is finished#toh ashes au
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My thoughts on Jean are more sympathetic, I think, mostly because even though she is a tired trope of 'overworked soldier woman' (like a lot of Genshin's other female cast) I feel like she did it first and she did it best. Which is not me trying to persuade anyone else into liking her! I just think that Keqing, Ganyu, Kokomi, Ayaka are all basically the same trope, except Jean gets true introspection on her role (the Dandelion Knight vs Lionfang Knight thing, which made me appreciate the role Jean plays as Acting Grandmaster a lot more).
Unfortunately, it does seem that Genshin has a better track record in making interesting male characters than female. Even speaking as someone who enjoyed going on (what were essentially) dates with Ei and Ayaka, the dilution of Ei's negative attributes to make her more palatable really frustrated me. Most of the female characters are just chipper, good people, with the exceptions frequently lacking in story content (Rosaria and Sara don't have hangouts, Shenhe doesn't have a story quest).
Even the ones that do get decently featured (for example Beidou and Yae), I find that I'm not personally that interested in them? Idk, I just find Yae very creepy in all her voicelines about the Inazuma peeps, and felt that Beidou's backstory was very poorly implemented into her hangout event, even though I enjoyed her personality whenever she showed up as not the focus.
I'm hopeful that the next time we see the likes of Shenhe, my personal favourite character, she won't fall into the boring trap after such a great first (and only 😓) appearance.
See, I definitely understand how Jean can look sympathetic, and she's by no means the worst character in the game. I do think Keqing is much worst character-wise. (As that whole last event was "Oh don't overwork yourself, Keqing" But stolen fireworks were defiantly something she needed to handle, and it really felt like we were babying her)
Ganyu I think is a little more sympathtic as she struggles with not belonging. I can relate a lot.
Kokomi has a similar issue to Jean in that people are expecting too much of her. But Kokomi does take time for herself. And Know when to pull back and recharge herself. And I've been called a Kokomi Kinnie. And ya, our autism is a little on the similar side for my comfort. Lmao
Ayaka I'm not gonna try and make a point for because she like Jean I find it very boring but unlike Jean, I can use her relationship with Ayato to build my own version and not give a single shit about canon.
Ei had the worst sort of redemption arch in the history of mankind. And I am still upset that she really just kind of got to be a selfish pos and get away with it.
Yae I can't stand it at all. She makes me feel very, very gross. She and Ei being the focus of Inazuma, are partly why the story suffered so much.
I personally like Beidou a lot but haven't played her hang out, so I'll check that out before I say anything.
Now Shenhe. I love Shenhe a lot, and while I don't think they carried out here idea very well, they did give her an interesting concept. And As I put her with my favorites in my Bully the Fatui Brigade. And I spent money to get her and her weapon ahahahh. I can say I like her a lot.
#general genshin thoughts#just a little ramble#A lot of my care of a character has a variety of factors#but it could be ultimately boiled down to#if i can related and build on them
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(i have read the faqs don’t worry!! )
why is it that you don’t like the dirty laundry fanfic? is it just not your type of ff or?
gonna copy and paste my answers from some older posts bc i mostly still agree with what i said then!
from one post i made before:
the whole fanfic was written by a white person, so their intense focus on portraying lance’s family as homophobic is….kind of racist? like just because it’s something that actually happens doesn’t mean white people get a pass to write an entire story centering around it, a story that is honestly just angst porn wrt lance’s family. like. it’s one thing for a hispanic person to write a story like this, but quite another for a white person who has not experienced it to do so, because they’re kind of just working off of stereotypes. i dont think the person who wrote it is racist at ALL but i do think that what they chose to write and how they chose to write it kind of exemplifies the racist dynamic of america & how many white liberals view hispanic people as hopelessly conservative wrt things like homosexuality. it’s really not their place to comment on it. there are also hispanic people who agree that it is racist, so it’s not like im going against the grain here.
and from another, earlier post:
i read this like….back in 2017 when it was still semi-new (and was there to see it replaced with the bee movie script after it got so much flack, and then when it was deleted altogether) and i have to say…as literally the FIRST klance fanfic i read (i always sort by hits/kudos) it was such a BAD INTRO TO THE KLANCE DYNAMIC!! like! god ok i don’t remember it being written that horribly but the plot points were just WHACK like. kenzie mentioned yesterday the like car fight thing?!?! what the hell was that??? and lance’s family being homophobic?? lance not rly accepting keith’s “love letter” (writing the words “keith’s love letter” was painful bc keith would never DO THAT) but then trying to make up for it by like…serenading him in a mcdonalds or smth?! idk if im remembering right and tbh the most i remember from the fic was like, the roadtrip and even THAT i don’t remember a lot bc it was kind of boring and bad characterization but tbh it was just so overhyped. ppl were like “wow this is the klance fanfic this is what the fandom is founded upon” and i just don’t see it and even back then i don’t think i saw it, though i acted like i did bc i was 17 and just wanted to fit in. again it was also one of my first experiences with klance so i didnt rly have a strong frame of reference yet but man….idkidk i dont think it deserved the intense hate it got but the vaguely racist(?) (stereotypical might be a better word? racist seems a bit intense but i cant think of another word rn) undertones of how lance’s hispanic family was portrayed definitely rubs me the wrong way thinking back on it now and i just dont think the author was equipped to handle such widespread popularity given that.
i think i was actually too easy on it with this answer ^ from 2020 lmao.
it just plays into soooo many racist stereotypes about hispanic families/people and about the "drama" of gay male relationships (they get out of the car just to physically fight each other at one point like i mentioned up there) and if that wasn't enough to convince people it's just not a good fanfiction, the characterization of both keith and lance is very Off imo again as i outlined above. overall just a product of early klance fandom that is best left in the dark shadows of history, only to be resurrected as a demonstration of what you probably should not do when youre writing a mlm relationship between poc
#thanks for reading my faq gkfdshgdsfk#maybe i should include smth abt dirty laundry there ....#also thank you for the kind tone of this ask!#op💢
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