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bobataeminsuga · 3 years

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everyone's talking about music in your asks so i wanna know what your music hcs are for the genshin boys 👉👈

anon im so sorry for taking so long to reply but i really thought about it... and this is the first time ive ever made like a list of hcs so bear with me

i didnt know whether you meant hcs for the type of music they listened to or like them as musicians so i kinda did both

Genshin boy’s music headcannons under the cut!!

characters: kaeya, diluc, venti, albedo, bennett, razor, xingqiu, chongyun, zhongli, childe, xiao, scaramouche, aether, dainsleif

kaeya:

I get big sweater weather by the neighbourhood vibes from him

bi icon i guess

He loves the neighbourhood

Daddy issues by the neighbourhood yessir

He can play the guitar. his voice is okay, he’s not bad, he can sing and its really nice but its not the prettiest out of all the genshin boys

he loves serenading people and it just works bro, he knows exactly how to make people fall for him

diluc:

a lot of ppl say he would listen to like emo music or something but he listens to classical music

i mean he's a nobleman after all

he grew up learning the piano so he fell in love with classical music at a young age

unlike kaeya, he doesnt serenade people, instead you can find him playing piano at midnight, very captivating (i think i said this in a previous post lol)

hates it when kaeya gets control over the music

definitely the "pop music is so annoying and meaningless" bitch

venti:

nicki Minaj

I dont know why but nicki Minaj

Maybe doja cat too ngl

tbh venti just loves every genre of music

but he really loves everything the nameless bard has ever sung to him - whether it was an original song or not

Learnt every instrument just so he could play the nameless bard’s music wherever he went - venti loves him and his music very much

albedo:

Something magical

ghibli soundtracks maybe?

he likes merry-go-round from howls moving castle that's for sure

maybe chill vibey music

Luke chiang, maybe?

I wouldn’t be surprised if he could play the piano too but violin me thinks… or maybe viola just to prove how much better he is at music theory oooh so fancy he can read alto clef even though violas suck

Only sings lullabies to klee, doesnt sing otherwise, but he has a very calming and pretty singing voice, everyone wishes he sang more (khoi dao singing :,) )

bennett:

number one victory royale- no jk he doesn't listen to that shit unironically

bennett likes Wilbur Soot

really likes your new boyfriend

but other than that he really likes music with deep lyrics, he likes meaningful things

he also really likes singing, he's not that great at it but he loves it and he wants to get better at it

would probably be a band kid, probably plays the trumpet or something

razor:

razor doesn't really understand music

he doesn't have a favourite genre or artist or song

but he really likes bennett's singing

even if bennett thinks he's bad, razor likes listening to him sing, he thinks bennett is the best singer in all of teyvet

he doesn't know this wilbur soot guy, he thinks those are bennett’s songs and that bennett wrote im in love with an egirl about fischl and doesn’t know how to feel about that

Razor cant play any instruments but if he did maybe drums??? Hm…

xingqiu:

everyone thinks he likes classical music - which he does, its just not his favourite

he listens to cavetown me thinks

like i think he listens to cavetown if you get what im saying

Sings lemon boy to chongyun even if he isnt a good singer

He plays the flute, not the best, he’s still learning

his older brother plays the violin and they often argue about which is the better/worse instrument

chongyun:

rnb? I get an rnb vibe from him

maybe krnb? like junny and crush

Chongyun is very swaggy imo so i feel like he’d like swaggy chill music therefore krnb

Not the biggest fan of cavetown but if xingqiu is listening to this is home then chongyun knows he has to be there to comfort him and sits through the song anyways

Chongyun doesnt play any instruments, he sings all the time without realizing it though

he has a very nice voice and xingqiu always tells him this but he doesnt believe this (kinsens singing voice ;-;)

zhongli:

yet another classical music enjoyer

doesnt really mind other genres but he doesnt really like rap

also really likes old rock

journey, the Beatles, queen, he loves it all

but his favourite song is the song guizhong sings to the glaze lilies, nothing can replace that

Cant sing for shit, which is why he cant pick glaze lilies himself

Cant play any instruments either, playing music was always guizhong’s thing, not really his so he never bothered learning

childe:

pop music, whatever’s on the radio im sorry white boy

but also… hayloft? I feel like he would listen to hayloft but the question is would he listen to hayloft?

Surprisingly listens to rich brian bc he heard scaramouche listening once and loved it

Can sing, like he gets the notes right and stuff, nobody wants to hear it though (im so sorry griffin burns)

But sometimes he sings lullabies to tonia, anton, and teucer and :,)

Knows a little bit of piano - he had to teach tonia a bit back home bc they couldnt afford a piano teacher for her until he became a harbinger

xiao:

my chemical romance- nah I'm just joking he likes calming music, mcr and music like that would actually get on his nerves

he likes whatever venti plays

which makes him another big fan of the nameless bard - he doesnt know the songs aren’t venti’s though

JOJI

I think he likes joji, slow dancing in the dark and like you do are his favourites

Agoraphobic by corpse husband

Wishes he knew more about music but whenever venti offers to teach him he gets all “an adeptus doesn’t need to know such things”

He only sings to venti and the traveler whenever he thinks they’re asleep or sings them to sleep but he has sUCH A NICE VOICE (orz kinsen) - traveler and venti team up to get him to sing more

scaramouche:

CHOKE ME LIKE YOU HATE ME BUT YOU LOVE ME

Corpse husband.

literally just loud music with heavy bass I can see scaramouche listening to that

blasts that shit at the zapolyarny palace so that everyone knows he's there

signora hates it - childe, not so much but finds it a bit annoying sometimes

This man cant sing, he refuses to and he refuses to play an instrument

NO WAIT HE LIKES TAKAYAN

Cheating is a crime by takayan is his anthem

aether:

He likes whatever reminds him most of home, whatever makes him nostalgic

butterfly by bts

Youth by troye sivan

how to save a life by the fray

Mr loverman by ricky montgomery?

yeah sad music, he doesn't know where his sister is, he wants to go home, of course he'd be sad

Aether likes troye sivan, he gives me that vibe

Ukulele boy aether :o

He used to play the ukulele and sing with lumine (luyin kana’s voice :”) )

abyss prince aether tho hmmm… might be a different story, i feel like he wouldnt be a ukulele boy but he would still listen to sad music me thinks

dainsleif:

He doesn’t listen to music

Knows about music, but doesn’t listen to it

They say long ago he used to sing a lot, rumour has it he was one of the best singers in Khaenri'ah, he doesnt sing anymore

Hears aether singing and gets sad about lumine (or vice versa)

#genshin #genshin impact #genshin headcannons #kaeya #diluc #albedo #venti #childe #zhongli #aether #dainsleif #xiao #scaramouche #chongyun #xingqiu #razor #bennett

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ghostsdontcry · 3 years

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About me + my blog

I don’t know how to start this things so hi, welcome to my blog!

I’m Sofía (she/her), I’m 22 and I’m from Argentina. I’m a Taurus, in case anyone cares. I speak Spanish and English. I’m studying graphic design (but I’m not sure what i want to do with my life, lol). I do art, not as often as I’d like to though. I used to write, I’m trying to get back into that. I write in Spanish only, I feel like in English I’m a different person than in my mother tongue, so I don’t know if I’ll be posting that stuff here. (Igual tengo mutuals que hablan en español, hola gente). I like cute stuff in general but also horror/dark stuff, and when these two things are combined, beautiful.

Some content warnings about the blog:

I try to keep this +13, but I don’t promise some stuff here won’t be +18 (never porn or way too graphic stuff, but maybe some mature humor).

I post about my mental heatlh sometimes, mostly about my panick attacks and that stuff.

I try to reblog donation posts and one day one note posts.

I use trigger warning hashtags, so let me know if there’s anything that makes you uncomfortable so I tag it correctly. Please be patient with me, I might miss a post once in a while but I’m trying my best.

Here’s a link masterlist for stuff

And here’s a list of my interests. I may reblog stuff related to this, but I mostly reblog things that I find funny, interesting or _aesthetic_.

Before I start talking about the things I like, I’m not a dedicated fan to any of these. I like these things but I don’t know every bit of information, every song, every fact and I’m not an active fan, maybe some fanart from time to time or buying official stuff to support them, but that’s it. I obsess over things for a week, then forget about them and if they resurface then I like it.

Bands/Artists i like: MCR, BMTH, The 1975, TØP, Billie Eilish, Ed Sheeran, Saint Motel, The Neighbourhood, Billie Eilish, Olivia Rodriguez, MARINA, Glass Animals, Wallows, Caravan Palace, WOS, Dillom, Gauchito Club, Buenos Vampiros, Coldplay, The Smashing Pumpkins, Foster The People, Gorillaz, The Strokes, Arctic Monkeys, Luis Miguel (ironically and unironically, bc señor), Mother Mother, Nicki Nicole, María Becerra, Lali and Miranda.

Games I’m into: Stardew Valley, Cult of The Lamb, Legend of Zelda: Tears of The Kingdom, The Sims (1, 2, 3 and 4), Night in the Woods, Monster Prom (and Camp), Ooblets, DDLC, Minecraft, Pastel Girl, Animal Crossing, Hades, Pokemon (I played Fire Red, Emerald -though i couldn’t finish it- and Pokemon Go) and Mario Kart (tho i feel it’s a bit obvious to clarify).

Shows I’m still into:

Animation: ATLA, VLD, The Owl House, Kipo and the Age of Wonderbeasts, Hilda, Star vs The Forces of Evil, Tuca and Bertie, Over The Garden Walls, Summer Camp Island*, Close Enough, Final Space, The Amazing World of Gumball*, Midnight Gospel, Gravity Falls, Regular Show*, Total Drama*, Love, Death and Robots and Adventure Time*

Live-Action: The Umbrella Academy, The Good Place*, That 70s Show (I have a lot to say about it tho), Never Have I Ever, Freaks and Geeks, Derry Girls, Community, Ghost Files, Supernatural (I watched it up to the 9th season I think and actually liked up to de 5th) and The Haunting of Hill House/Bly Manor

Anime I’m still into: Japan Sinks 2020, Romantic Killer, Fullmetal Alchemist Brotherhood, Magi, Noragami, Horimiya, Toradora, The Promised Neverland, Parasyte, Devilman Crybaby, Violet Evergarden, Aggretsuko*, Free*, Ouran High School Host Club and One Punch Man.

Favorite movies: The Darjeeling Limited, Spirited Away, Midsommar, Heathers. Other movies that I really like but aren’t my faves: Isle of Dogs, Paranorman, Loving Vincent, Ponyo, Road to El Dorado and Atlantis: The Lost Empire. I also love films that feel _odd_ like mother!, Vivarium, I’m Thinking of Ending Things. I have a letterboxd account, the link is in the link masterlist.

Books I’ve read that I feel that they’re still relevant on who I am: The Hunger Games, Maze Runner (the trilogy only), Cien años de soledad, El amor en los tiempos del cólera, Alice's Adventures in Wonderland, Julio Cortázar’s short stories, Perks of being a Wallflower, Vampire Chronicles (Anne Rice)*, Fight Club, Cadaver Exquisito, Miles de Ojos.

Manga I’ve read that I feel that they’re still relevant on who I am (or that I just really liked): Orange (Takano Ichigo), Ao No Flag, Akatsuki No Yona*, Beastars*, Blue Exorcist**, Ao Haru Ride, Tonari No Kaibutsu-Kun, 7Seeds*, Tokyo Ghoul*, Koe no Katachi, Kimi ni Todoke, Nijiiro Days.

Comics/Graphic Novels: Scott Pilgrim vs. the World, Seconds

Aanyway, if we share interests (or not), my asks and messages are always open if you feel like talking! (Specially about movies or manga, I love debating about them)

* The ones that have this means that I’m not up to date with these things

** In the case of Blue Exorcist, I’m reading it exclusively from the physical volumes in Spanish, so I’ll always be a bit behind, at least until the series finishes.

#about me #long post #i'll keep this updated #or at least i'll try

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robinrunsfiction · 4 years

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The Lonely Road

Pairing: Gerard Way x Female Reader

Rating: Teen (for online harassment)

Requested By: None

Word Count: 2,400

Author’s Note: Inspired by the song Outnumbered by Dermot Kennedy, so feel free to give it a listen as you read. Originally this was gonna be a Valentine’s story, but now Valentine’s is over, and so I just took out the brief mentions of it. Also it’s a Gerard story so of course it’s longer than intended so taking parts out probably is for the better 😅 Shout out to my number one @mariawritesfanfic for helping me wrap this story up

You scrolled through your twitter feed, as hours on the tour bus left you with few other options to pass the time. Your new album had just come out and you wanted to see how people were reacting to it.

OMG @(YFN)(YLN)’s album is awesome! Everyone check it out now!

The only reason she’s famous is bc of @gerardway

The album is ok if you consider she fucked her way into stardom

I stg if mcr ever breaks up it’s gonna be (YN)'s fault

(YN) should just break up with gee so he can be with frank liek everyone knows he wants to be

You felt sick to your stomach as you read through the messages. Sure there were tweets from fans saying how much they enjoyed the album, and they love Gerard and you together, but those weren’t the ones that stuck out in your mind. It was the negative messages that caught your attention and soured your mood.

As if he was reading your thoughts, a text from Gerard appeared on your screen. “Hey sugar, congrats on the album. It’s amazing and so are you xoxo love you”

You could feel the tears welling up in your eyes at the love and kindness of his message. “Thanks love," you replied before tossing your phone aside. You pulled shut the curtain on your bunk and let the tears fall silently.

You had met Gerard at an award show. You had always been a fan of his and My Chem, but you were beyond nervous to say anything to him when you saw him across the room. When he approached you and said he actually had been listening to your music and was a fan, you thought you might transcend onto another plane of existence right then and there. You found him to be surprisingly easy to talk to and exchanged phone numbers so you could hang out sometime.

Hanging out sometime turned into hanging out often. Then one night under the stars in his backyard, your casual hanging out turned into sharing your thoughts, hopes, and fears you'd never voiced to anyone. The next day you were worried you'd never see or hear from him again, having revealed too much of your emotional baggage too soon, but that afternoon he called and asked you out on a real date. The date was perfect for two people like you and Gerard, complete with a tender, careful kiss that took your breath away. In an instant, you were falling hard.

After that it really became you and Gerard. When all of your friends found out, they were so happy for both of you, as they could see how happy you made each other. Then one day the rest of the world figured it out as well. Gerard had come to one of your recording sessions and had snapped a picture of you laughing in the recording booth and posted it online with the caption "the most beautiful person making the most beautiful sounds ❤" The fans put it together and a barrage of messages flooded your social media feed. Some people thought it was cute, many were awful, but you let it all roll off your back as you were too in love to care what anyone thought.

Months passed, and now that album was out. You had hoped Gerard would be able to join you on the road, but My Chem was in the studio themselves so he wasn't able to be there. You understood, but being away from him for the first time, while dealing with the stress of releasing an album, your first tour, and his angry fans, it was almost getting to be too much.

You had finally fallen asleep only to be awakened what felt like moments later by your manager Christine's voice.

"Rise and shine rock star, time to charm the lovely people of," she paused and you could hear her flipping through papers, "Fort Wayne, Indiana."

You sighed. You had wanted this for so long, it had been your dream for years. But now you were questioning everything.

"We're joined in studio by (YFN) (YLN), her new album just came out last week and we are loving it here on 106.7 FM," the overly cheerful radio host announced. “You have a lot of fans here in Madison!”

"Thank you," you replied with a tired smile. You hoped your lack of energy wasn't evident by your voice.

"Tell us, how much of an influence was your boyfriend? And for anyone who hasn't heard, (YN) is dating that oh so sexy MCR frontman, Gerard Way."

You had gotten this question at almost every interview, as if you were incapable of creating your own music. "He was there for some of the recording sessions, but a lot of the album was written before we met, so not a huge influence musically."

"What's it like to date someone so famous?"

"I mean, it's not like a topic of conversation for us," you replied sharply. You glanced up and saw the look Christine was giving you. "I mean, we talk about music and our projects and give each other feedback, but that's pretty much it. We're pretty normal weirdos."

After the interview was over and you played a few songs live, and then reboarded the bus.

"What the fuck was that?" Christine asked as the bus rolled down the road.

"What the fuck is with these interviews? It's never about me and my music. It's about Gee or the people on the internet and all the bullshit! That's not why I'm out here! I want to talk about my songs!"

Christine nodded. "Ok, I'm sorry girl. You're right. I'll make sure the next one we keep it focused on the music. We can't have you blowing up on another host."

"I didn't blow up! I snapped at worst," you retorted, rolling your eyes.

"Either way, we're on our way to Iowa now."

"Can't wait," you muttered and crawled into your bunk.

The dark cloud that had settled over you was not going away or getting better. While Christine was doing a better job of reminding the interviewers beforehand to lay off the relationship questions, they still came up, sometimes after the actual interview was over, sometimes they just disregarded your wishes all together to get juicy gossip. You did your best not to appear annoyed, but the longer you were away from Gerard, the harder it got.

She's an ugly, untalented leech! She doesn't love gee or else she would have put a song about him on the album!

He doesnt seem happy like he used to before her

The album jsut sucks. I mean i didnt listen to it, i just assume it does

She should just die

You couldn't take it any longer. The constant, incessant stream of hate coming at you was too much. You dialed Gerard and went into the back of the bus, shutting the door behind you.

"Hey (YN), how is everything goin?"

"I can't do it anymore Gee," you said, trying to keep your voice steady

"Do what?" He asked, immediately concerned.

"Tour, be a musician, be someone in the public eye, I can't take it!" You sobbed, unable to control your emotions any longer. "I feel like I have no privacy anymore! Everything I do is wrong, everything I don't do is wrong! I just wanna give up! I don't wanna do this anymore!"

"Hey, hey, sugar, it's ok. Did someone say something to you today?"

"It's been every fucking day," you cried. "I wanna come home, I don't wanna do this anymore. I don't want anyone to know who I am anymore."

"Take a deep breath," Gerard said, trying to keep you calm. "Where are you?"

"On the bus."

"Where are you going, or where were you?"

"I don't even know anymore. All I see is fucking corn everywhere."

"Ok, umm, where is Christine?"

"In her bunk," you sniffled.

"Can I talk to her?"

You got up and made your way to the bunks and knocked on the frame surrounding Christine's.

"Yea?" She asked, opening the curtain. "Woah, girl, what's wrong?"

"Gee wants to talk to you," you said holding out your phone.

"Hello? What's going on?" Christine asked Gerard. She listened and nodded and mm hmm'ed along. "She seemed stressed, but not that bad," she said as she watched you sink wearily to the floor, pulling your knees to your chest. "No, I hadn’t heard that… Yea, we're setting out from Omaha now, on our way to Denver," she paused. "Ok... Yea... Sounds good. Yea, we'll get our girl through this."

You looked up at her from your spot on the floor and she smiled down sympathetically and handed the phone back to you.

"Gee?" You said softly, the anger and fear and frustration having quieted.

"Hey sugar, we've got a plan for you, you're gonna be ok. But where are you hearing from the people that are criticizing you?"

"Twitter," you mumbled and you heard Christine mutter "I knew it."

"Delete it, you don't need that in your life. You're too talented and beautiful and wonderful to let anyone make you feel anything less," he said gently. "I love you, (YN) ."

"Love you too," you replied, a smile finally cracking through.

"Get some rest, we'll talk soon."

You had immediately crawled into your bunk and fallen into a deep sleep. The weight of your thoughts no longer weighing you down now that you had shared them with Gerard. When you finally woke up, you were rolling into Denver. You made your way to the front of the bus to find Christine on her phone.

"What's on the schedule today?" You yawned.

"Nothing."

"What?"

"You need a day off. We've been pushing you way too hard, and I just wish I would have realized it sooner. So we moved your interview to tomorrow afternoon and we're staying here overnight."

"Really?" You asked, stunned.

"Yep, we're going to the hotel right now."

It was incredibly refreshing to be in a hotel with a real bed and shower, and everyone was actually thankful for your meltdown that got them this break.

You took an extra long, hot shower to allow your muscles to relax, and then crawled into bed to call Gerard and give him an update. As his phone rang you heard a knock on your door. Keeping your ear to your phone in case he picked up you answered the door.

"Gerard!" You squealed as you launched yourself at him and he wrapped you in his arms.

"I missed you so much (YN)," he murmured against your neck. "I couldn't stand to hear the pain in your voice and not be there to make it better.”

"But you hate flying! And your studio time!" You exclaimed as you pulled him into your room and he dropped his bag on the floor.

“We were spinning our wheels and needed a break from recording,” he smiled reassuringly before he leaned in and kissed you with all the longing that had built up over the weeks apart. You ran your hands through his black hair and felt the tears slip down your cheeks. “And I’d fly to the moon if it meant I could spend a minute with you. I just wish I could have been here for you from the beginning, I wish I realized that you were struggling.”

“I didn’t want you to worry about me. I thought I could handle it, but everything kept chipping away at me until I broke down completely.”

“I wanna worry about you, (YN). You’re my girl and I love you, and I wanna be there for you no matter what,” he said softly, wiping away the tears on your cheeks.

“Thank you,” you replied. “It’s just hard when it’s coming at you from every direction.”

“I know,” he said, pulling you back to him in a tight hug. “But for today it’s just you and me. No one else matters.”

You smiled up at him before pulling him into another sweet kiss.

The next morning you woke up with Gerard’s arms wrapped around you, holding you close. It almost felt too good to be true. As he slowly started to wake up, he gave you his lopsided smile and you couldn’t help but grin in return.

“I needed this so much,” you said as you buried your face against his neck.

“I did too,” he said squeezing you tight, his voice still raspy with sleep.

“Thank you for being here. I love you so much.”

“I love you too,” he said leaning down to give you a quick kiss. “Wait, I didn’t give you your presents yet.”

“What presents?” You asked sitting up, as he reached over the side of the bed to grab his bag. "I don’t have anything for you!"

"It's nothing, just a couple things I made for you," he said pulling out a large flat envelope and handing it to you.

You carefully pulled out the drawing that was inside. "Oh it's beautiful!”

"It's us the night we watched the stars and talked for hours. That was the night I realized I was falling in love with you. I was so scared you wouldn't even like me like that," he laughed softly.

"It's perfect," you replied. "What's this? ‘Gee+(YN)=gross, a big sappy love mix’" you laughed at scribbled handwriting on the cover of the cd case. Around the words was a big heart and lots of little hearts.

"It’s a mix of songs that remind me of you, and me and you, but Frank decorated the cover. He doesn't really think we're gross, he's just-"

"Frank," you laugh.

"Exactly," Gerard replied. "I was just hoping this would help you get through the last days of your tour."

"It will," you smiled and threw your arms around him. “I think just having you here for a day was enough to get me through. And I know now that I shouldn’t just bottle up what I’m feeling.”

Gerard nodded. “We’re a team, you and me. Let me help you when you’re down and keep you safe from all the bastards and shit talkers.”

“Sounds like a plan,” you smiled as you leaned in and kissed him. “But only if you promise to let me help you do the same.”

“I promise.”

#gerard way x reader #gerard way fan fic #gerard way fan fiction #gerard way imagine #my chemical romance fan fic #my chemical romance fan fiction #tw: online harassment #tw: bullying

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greengay · 4 years

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Thank you for being one of the only blogs to talk about rpf 🧡 I like it a lot, but I feel like it’s become taboo to mention it? I don’t post about it because I’m worried people will think I’m weird

LOL JUST DOIN’ MY PART....

TBH!!! sooooo many people feel like you do LOL like, a lot of people enjoy it and know it’s harmless and SO MANY PEOPLE follow my nsfw gd blog (sorry for not answering the asks yet......executive dysfunction....)

1) i don’t care about followers or whatever, i am just here to scream into the void and if people tune in, cool

2) YA it’s become taboo moreso recently because I think fan culture has gotten.....younger? because of people being able to access the internet easier? like back in the day, you used to have to either have a computer or log onto the family computer IF you were allowed, so fandoms skewed older? like at least 15+....now 9 years old all have iphones and can access fan communities etc. which is....terrifying tbh.

BUT! with that, i think especially with l*rry and r*den and ph*n (disregarding if the relationships were real or not) younger people don’t understand boundaries as well and can’t really comprehend the fact that the people they’re reading fic about AREN’T the same people that they’re tweeting/commenting on ig posts of.......i mean they are, but i think it’s pretty much understood that in fic.....none of these things have actually happened. it’s just taking a daydream about a hot celeb and writing it out, or it’s using gerard way’s face + likeness + personality traits gleaned from on stage/interviews and creating a character based on that.

3) ALSO. celebs/musicians/etc. have gotten 1000x more accessible? AGAIN, with ryden.....back in the day it would stay on livejournal or tumblr and ryan and brendon (i know he’s cancelled or w/e but i think ryden is the best example) wouldn’t be exposed to it unless they actively sought it out (except for the crazy fans that would wait for them in airports LOL but that was v few and far between). but then. instagram and twitter became WAY more popular and suddenly fans could access the love of their life any time they wanted!!!! and why not use that access to confirm/get more “lore” about their favorite ship? /s which kinda related to point #2 bc it was mostly young people doing this.

now if you see frank iero MENTION gerard way the twitter replies will be FILLED with “frerard” 😬 and 1) if you do believe they had something (i believe they DID....not currently tho) it obviously wasn’t public, so why not respect their privacy lol. not to mention that it’s in the PAST and we don’t know if it was a painful split (frank was HEARTBROKEN after mcr broke up and would shit talk gerard in interviews lol so) its best to assume it was and NOT bring it up to hurt him more and 2) it affects their real life relationship at this point!

there’s a difference between knowing something is out there and being tagged in it/having it shoved in your face. for the most part, bands have never cared abt ships and actually would tease them a little cos they knew it would “sell” the band better and excite fans and show that they aren’t like......abt to go into a gay panic bc someone thought they were fucking their friend.

THIS IS ANOTHER ESSAY/RANT ENTIRELY, but i think band rpf is a safe and healthy way to explore sexuality + emotions if you are too scared/traumatized/whatever to go out and try everything you ever imagined. especially if you are afab and you want to have sex with men. it’s scary out there!

like. real men might be assholes and take advantage of me and could hurt me. but projecting onto billie and mike is completely safe, especially because i’m so far removed from it. there’s also like....this is fake deep, but whatever....the aspect of exploring Queerness in a safe way? like in fics that aren’t just smut. LIKE 12-17 year old me reading NOTHING but m/m fic with some f/f thrown in there and still thinking i was straight LOL. and it just being....completely normalized for me until i was comfortable enough to admit that i was bisexual to myself? IDK IF Y’ALL KNOW THE COMPARTMENTILIZATION PEOPLE THAT GROW UP IN VAGUELY CONSERVATIVE AREAS WITH NO REPRESENTATION GO THROUGH. i would LITERALLY stare at my friends (who were girls) lips and think about kissing them and just be like....HM! THAT WAS WEIRD! LET’S NEVER ADDRESS THAT INTERNALLY.

you can argue that there’s an aspect of fetishization, but i think the concept of celebrity & stan culture is fetishization in and of itself. like.

Fetishization refers to a process of imbuing an object or idea with power. A fetish object is often associated with sexual gratification, desire, and worship. Fetishization marks a cultural, psychological, and social technique of fetishizing things by making them appear larger than life, animate, or sexually desirable (→ Sexualization in the Media). It is argued that this process has profoundly influenced contemporary consumer culture (Fernbach 2002; Jhally 1987; Schroeder 2002). (x)

like if you even vaguely idolize a celeb/put a celeb on a pedestal or reblog a text post about them........that’s fetishization, babey! you don’t ACTUALLY know them!!!! they’re just.....some guy! billie joe is just.....some guy who’s really good at writing songs. he’s actually kinda ugly but we all find him attractive and go 😍 over his traditionally unattractive features cos he is talented and famous. if he was some dude at your gas station you would NOT be posting abt him on instagram.

but because i love and respect him i think he is beautiful 💖 and the only reason i can “love” someone i don’t know is celeb worship culture.

and the people who compare girls liking m/m fic to LESBIAN PORN. LOL. i think that’s so deeply insidious that, again, it’s another post. ACTUALLY i think i’ve already posted abt it waaaaay back.

omg i’m sorry this turned out so long...

#ray answers asks #adhd brain + avoiding finishing cleaning my room #cleaning is SO SO SO hard for me #so here we are #long post /

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wheelsupin-five-inactive · 4 years

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All. Do all questions end of year. Love you! 💞

I will end you where you stand (love you too)

First things first, did you have a good year?Overall yeah I think I did!

How old did you turn this year?18 (ew)

Do you feel your age?Absolutely not!

Did your appearance change in anyway?I guess i pass more now?? and now I’ve left school my aesthetic™ is currently under construction so it might change a bit over the next couple months??

Post your favourite selfie.Rude? bold of you to assume I have a good selfie?

If you travelled, where did you go?I went to Whangarei which was fun! and Wellington! Both places are very nice!

Which fashion trends did you love?I pay approximately 0 attention to to fashion trends and all that,, but that being said I’m a fan of high waited pants if that still counts

Which fashion trends did you hate?None really? I don’t care what other ppl wear?

What was your favourite article of clothing this year? Post a pic if possible?My blue hoodie thats a little too big bc it’s very comfy and warm

What song sums up this year for you?Uhhhhh bold of you assume I can make decisions

What album came out and has been on heavy rotation since then?Came out this year? I don’t think I have one,, but ‘I brought you my bullets, you brought me your love’ and ‘The black parade’ have been listen too a lot

What was your favorite movie of the year?Spiderman: Into the Spiderverse!! I know this came out last year but i saw it early January so it still counts

Did an actor/actress catch your attention for the first time this year?David Tennant,,

Favorite new TV show?They’re not reallly new BUT Doctor Who and AOS

Which new ship/fandom has taken over a lot of your time, attention, and tears?Doctor who ://

What food did you try for the first time?I don’t think I did this year?

Did you make any big permanent changes this year?I enrolled at tech and got/am getting a student loan ://

What was one nice thing you did for someone else?I helped one of my friends w her work a lot

What was one nice thing you did for yourself?Working hard on recovery! (also brought a Ten pop-vinyl and i adore them)

Did you develop a new obsession?Doctor who (theres a pattern forming here,,)

Did you vote?I wasn’t old enough too but idk if we voted on anything anyways??

Did you move?Nope!

Did you get a job?Nope,, that’s for next year,,

Did you get a pet?No :( I wish

Do you regret not doing anything?I mean probably,, but off the top of my head, no?

Do you regret doing something?Did you mean: everything

Have you done anything that scared you?Yeah I went up north for a course thing and had to stay there for like two nights (not a fan!) but it was good fun so it was okay :)

Did anyone/thing make you so mad it stayed with you for days?STUDYLINK but also I’m literally always mad so,,

Did you lose anyone close to you?No :)

Did you fall in love?Don’t think so?

Did you fall out of love?Nope

Did you start a new relationship?Only friendships :)

Did you go through a break up?No :)

Did you have to cut ties to someone?Yeah! super happy I never have to look at them again

Who was important to you this year but wasn’t important last year?@squeeerling

Who wasn’t as important to you this year as they were last year?Someone who I used to be friends with lol

If you could have a do over on one thing you did, would you take it?Yeah,, but idk what I’d do again,,

What was the best moment of the year for you?First thing that came to mind was my sister telling me we got MCR tickets

What was the worst?The days leading up to the chem exam?

Did anything happen that you were sure would change you as a person but it really didn’t?I don’t think so?

Did anything happen to you that you were sure wouldn’t change you as a person but it did?Uhhh not really?

What are you most proud of accomplishing?Getting Level 3 but also some of my art :)

What have you learned about yourself this year that you didn’t know in the years prior?I’m capable of great change :)

Did your opinion of anyone change for the better?I mean? my new friends?

Did your opinion of anyone change for worse?Haha yeah that person I cut ties w

If you make resolutions, did you complete them this year?Uhhh kind of?

If you make resolutions, what will your resolutions be for the coming year?To learn a language, to always work of improving myself, and to be kinder to myself and others

If you could go on an adventure during the remaining days of the year, where would you go and what would you do? Who would you go this?idk,, tbh I’m going up to my nanas w my sister (and mum) and although it’s not an adventure, I’m excited to go

What do you wish for others for the coming year?Happiness, motivation, and success

What do you wish for yourself?Much the same + positive change :)

#thanks :)#long post//#ask #alex

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keepthefrank · 7 years

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under the cut is me talking about my fucking feelings and also frank/gerard so yeah if you’re not into that u don’t have to read? but i’m feelin real shitty so

basically i’m finally reading Unholyverse bc i was inspired by nick c0ntriti0n (no hard feelings i’m really loving it it’s just making me have emotions) and then i’ll probably read Anatomy of A Fall bc I never have and I know it’s also kind of a highly-regarded fic with the MCR kiddos and hey i’m already in hell with my self loathing and loneliness so i might as fucking well right

but yeah idk how it happened but today i was just googling matt cortez and then i was looking at pictures of mcr and everyone on the projekt rev tour and reading some stuff Bob had posted about feeling suicidal (i know he’s scum but i really liked him before i found out how racist nd shitty he is but i still have that kind of connection to him idk) and somehow i ended up on a video of The Iconic Kiss between Frank and Gerard and f uck

i remember when i first started listening to mcr and i just wanted to learn everything i could about the band and i hated myself so much and i was so miserable but those hours i spent watching interviews with them and fan videos meant everything to me. and no, i’m not gonna be over here screaming about Frerard being ‘real’ but watching them together lead to me questioning my own sexuality and i don’t know i just felt to alive and comforted watching g and frank interact because their friendship was so golden??? like holy shit? and yeah i think they were more intimate than they would talk about and yeah i know they love their wives so much (and i do too) but i miss all that ‘frerard’ shit because to me it was an expression of that love and comfort they felt with each other and that’s everything i’ve wanted for so long. like i recently lost my best fucking friend of nearly 10 years and i’d like to think she was the gerard to my frank or vice versa it doesn’t matter but now im completely alone and i miss her so fucking much and i look back at frank and gerard and i wonder if they feel this emptiness too, this loss of the love and comfort of closeness and trust and

this is a big fucking mess but honestly i just wanna talk about how much the frank/gerard relationship has meant to me and i’m really emo also because the tickets to see frank in my area start at $50 to be ON THE LAWN OUTSIDE THE VENUE and i can’t afford that without my parents and i can’t ask them for something like that when i’m too depressed to get out of fucking bed most days and so i can’t even imagine the next time i’ll be close to frank iero and i’m so afraid i’ll never meet my hero and i’ll never get to express to him how he saved my life bc i’m cliche and a piece of shit nd i’m just lonely and sad lmao

thanks for reading sorry im a sad shack yall all mean the world to me and if u hate frerard come yell at me for it i probably deserve it lmao

#like if u read please #long post #mcr #frank/gerard #my boys #frerard #unholyverse #negative #blondie babbles

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