do you guys ever think about streamer!sakusa because i do

cw: swearing

sakusasbigtits👑👑: wait wtf are they in the room ??? hinatashoyolover: ASHDSFKAJSDFHG ellawantsaran👑: PARTNER REVEAL violetvolley2012: mOVE YOUR FUCKNIG WEBCAM oikawamilkbox7: SHWO PARTNER SHOW FPARTNER miya_osamu: what the fuck is going on

"what the hell is a miya doing in my chat? i could've sworn you guys just finished a charity stream," he dodges, leaning back in his chair as chaotic messages urging him to show his partner flew by. "look, i don't know what you guys are talking about. there's no one in the room but me." cross-legged on his bed and wearing his jersey, you stifle a laugh into your fist just out of sight. his eyes flicker over to you for a moment and soften before he goes back to manipulating his chat.

miyarearrangemyinsides👑: YOU FUCKING LIAR sakusasbigtits👑👑: WHY ARE YOU GASLIGHTING US

"i'm serious." more messages of indignancy light up his screen. "i don't think you guys even know what gaslighting means." a smirk spreads across his face as chat explodes, taking the bait and continuing to argue with their favorite man through a screen. "thank you kuroobella7 for the five gifted-"

stop being a big baby and show us your partner, deadpans the automatic voice reading out his donations. you can't help it, that time, and the laugh that slips out is definitely picked up by kiyoomi's mic.

sakusasbigtits👑👑: WHO WAS THAT oikawamilkbox7: WE HEARD THAT OMI tinygianttwo: hi sakusa!!

"hey, shoyo. welcome back to the hellhole that is my chat," he says, continuing to ignore the outrage rising in his stream. "hop in vc one, i'm gonna see if bokuto wants to play phasmophobia." your attention returns to your laptop and you continue with typing out the rest of your assignment.

you vaguely register kiyoomi saying something about grabbing another drink, forcing an ad onscreen before creeping over to you. his hands rest on the edge of the bed as he leans forward, pressing his lips softly to yours and smiling against your mouth. "i love you a lot."

"i love you more. when are you gonna stop convincing chat that i don't exist?"

"when they earn it," he answers simply, kissing the corner of your mouth and the tip of your nose. if lovesickness were a disease, he wouldn't mind being ill. "which i think will take a very long time."

"you are not making my stream debut a sub-goal," you chuckle, tilting your neck up to kiss the moles above his eyebrow. "i will not let you."

"how else are they gonna earn it?"

"i am not letting you monetize showing my face on your stream, omi," you reiterate with a delirious smile. he continues to push, nudging his nose against yours like a needy cat.

"you're cute when in my jersey. what if i end stream right now and just lay here with you?"

"okay, lover boy," you say, gently pushing his face away. "go back to--huh?" both of your attentions shoot to your phone, where the beaming face of bokuto's contact photo illuminated your screen. you swipe down on the sudden influx of notifications and feel your heart stop.

Less Tolerable Miya👎🏐: CHECK CHAT HAHAHA THERES NO FUCKIGN WAY Better Miya🍙🏐: oi check your volume stupid Bokuhoe Kotaro🦉✨🏐: BABE YOUR BOYFRIEND ISNT MTUED Less Tolerable Miya👎🏐: wait is my name in your phone still less tolerable miya Sunshine Shoyo🧡☀️🏐: SAKUSA'S STREAM SOUND IS ON

"oh...shit," he mutters, pressing one more kiss to your forehead before running to his computer and throwing his headphones on, face bright pink and tripping over his words. his chat is a wildfire, persistent and absolutely uncontrollable. at some point, kiyoomi just gives up and leans back in his chair, looking for you to help.

you raise your eyebrows in question.

he tilts his head to beckon you over.

you appear in the frame of his webcam, wearing his jersey. kiyoomi looks at you like you are the only thing that matters in his entire world.

"alright fuckers, you happy now that you've seen 'em? good, because if we reach subgoal, i'm gonna make them play fnaf with me."

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GIV ME SCOTT X MALE READER HCS NOW OR I WILL CRY!!?!!?

ᴼᴹᴳ ᴹᵞ ᴮᴬᴮᵞ ˢᶜᴼᵀᵀ

ᵈᵃᵗⁱⁿᵍ ʰᵉᵃᵈᶜᵃⁿᵒⁿˢ || ʳᵉᵠᵘᵉˢᵗˢ ᵒᵖᵉⁿ

-> i know for a fucking FACT that Scott is surpsied

-> Hes never thought about having a boyfriend or having a crush on a fellow male

-> He was rasied to like girls and all that shizam

-> So hes kinda freaking out and being an internal homophobe :(

-> Hes telling himself that hes broken or that hes got something wrong with him cause he likes a male

-> hes baby ok

-> but once he comes to terms with it he feels so fuckign flustered

-> hes lbushing around you and stuttering slightly

-> hes trying to act all cool but hes failing miserable

-> its so obivous that hes cruching

-> withing a week of him crushing on you hes askign you out

-> he cant stand the fact that his brain his making him think that someone else is going to get you first

-> hes got nightmares abiout it

-> he tried so so so hard to make it rose petals and candles romantic

-> it fails

-> BIG time

-> the flower petals were set a flame by the candles and the candles were almost out by the time he got you out to the spot he was asking you out

-> the poor boy was so embarrassed and heart broken when he saw it

-> please for the love of all that is unholy

-> reassure him its ok and that you still love him despite this confession being ruined

-> hes crying tears of joy as you tell him your love for him

-> hes sobbing intoy our chest and holding you clsoe

-> although that night hes up terrified about what his paresnt specfically his dad, woudl say baout his relationship

-> hes panicking ten fold that morning while running on adrenaline and paranoia

-> once you were able to calm him down hes falling asleep on your lap

-> he gives two shits about what anyone says cause goddammit is he tired as hell

-> hes snuggling into your hsoudler and having the sqeetest dreams you culd thing of

-> its so cute

-> hes got a little drool too cause come on

-> its scott

-> hes clingign to you like a koala

-> his arms wrapped around you rightly while his legs twisted around your waist, no sign of letting go any time soon

-> do you know how much he loves nose kisses?

-> he loves them

-> he loves givving them

-> he loves reciving them

-> the way his face scrunches up makes him feel all embarrased

-> and the way he can feel your brethe on his face as you pull away

-> your eyes locked with his as you kiss his nose

-> omg hes blsuhig brigth red

-> and when he blushed his freckles show even more

-> on the inside hes fucking begging you to connect his freckles like in some cheesy romance book or show

-> he loves all that cheesy shit

-> its his jam

-> he loves when you trave shapes on his shoudlers, back, and neck as well

-> hes got freckles almost everywhere on his body

-> specifically his back, sholders, neck, and face (as stated before)

-> hes just

-> hes falling in love even more and it makes him feel all fuzzy and warm and his knees are weak

-> kiss him on his neck, middle of his shoulder blades or throat

-> hes falling to his knees and trying not to turn into a puddle right then and there

-> theyre his soft spots

-> the most sensitive pieces of skin he has

-> run your hands through his hair

-> whisper sweet nothings to him as you tow cuddles

-> hes melting then and there in your arms and never waking up again

-> he wants those kind of moments to lst foreer

-> hes an affectionate starved boy who needs to be held

-> by the man he loves <3

-> if you want more you can ask for specific headcanons if you want :3

This is so mean(I’m sorry Abby) but imagine basketball!Abby doing some corny ass shit for chubby!reader’s attention like “babe this one’s for you(insert an unironic lip bite)” and the she fucking misses the hoop

this made me Cackle oh my god. ok this is what I mean when I say that u are no longer allowed to be in practice any sooner that 5 min before it's over. bc abby does goofy shit like this. it's so cute but unfortunately she does have to actually practice soooo.

just like, imagine, u show up to her practice in the early days of ur relationship and ur outfit is extra cute. a flouncy but tight lil baby blue dress n one of abby's big zip up hoodies, n she's Obsessed with how cute u look. u walk in and her eyes are immediately on u, narrowly missing getting hit by a ball she was supposed to catch. she runs over to u like "hi baby :]" all smiley n cute, giving u a big big hug, while her coach is like Anderson. Please. so she plops a kissy on ur forehead before letting u sit on the bleachers.

Nora passes her the ball and abby seizes the opportunity to be cheesy. so she whistles n calls ur name, winking at u before being like "This one's for you, pretty girl", acting all cocky n not looking at the hoop. she's sooo confident, thinking she's gonna get it, but she misses terribly n almost gets her coach and the entire team is cackling. n u can feel the heat clawing up ur neck, both in second hand embarrassment and how fuckign cute she is it's stupid. her coach is like. Anderson. and abby is like yup, yes ma'am, won't happen again. this is 100% the incident that leads to the 5min rule for u being at practice. she's such a fucking dork I love her

also! general question for any of my black readers/readers with darker skin! I try to avoid describing a physical blush but I still feel like the feeling of blushing is still relevant, and I usually describe that as heat crawling up ur neck. is that cool with y'all? bc like im brown but u can still see me blush, but I know that isn't the case with everyone. if I ever use 'flush' it's gonna be in the context of like a flush of heat that the reader would be feeling and not what can be Seen.

for otp asks: byler 2, 3, 8, 12, 13 👉🏻👈🏻

hello anon!!!

2 - who giggles uncontrollably while the other picks them up?

100% will byers r u Kidding me. mike is canonically the Will Byers Protector™ and i think he would constantly be picking him up and swinging him around and will sometimes pretends to be annoyed by it but he always gives in and ends up giggling into mikes neck like an idiot

3 - who compliments the other in front of everyone?

ooh ok so i hc byler as a very (badly) flirty couple but in v different ways if that makes sense? i think they would both do this, but mike would do it jokingly to try to fluster will (it doesn't work) and will would look him dead in the eye and say something twice as sappy with a completely straight face and mike would fuckign melt

8 - in a coffee shop au, who'd be the worker and who would be the customer?

i love this one either way tbh!! mike is the obvious cringefail loser incompetent barista but they r cringe4cringe and will is equally capable of behaving like an absolute lunatic where a pretty customer is involved (see: thea wiseatom's you are sick (and you're married))

12 - when did they first fall in love with each other?

mmm ok there are lots and lots of different ways to interpret this and i don't particularly have an exact moment for when they actively fell in love w each other (i think it was too gradual and natural to have a specific starting point) but i would say will was the first to figure it out, probably prior to s1, while mike figured it out at the end of s3.

(i will add tho,, i do think there's smth to be said for the concept that mike actually knew his feelings for will when he was younger and made an active choice to ignore them and/or genuinely thought he liked el and convinced himself the will thing was a fluke. not usually the interpretation i go with for fics etc but maybe worth exploring??)

13 - who likes to give the other hugs from behind, followed by a kiss?

this is another either/or type of situation, but i do think once will knows he's Allowed he'd be the clingiest bf ever and do things like this all the time. However in re my previous statement abt mike being the Will Byers Protector™ i think mike would also need to constantly be hugging/clinging to will in some way bc That's His Job!! (it's maybe for his own reassurance too but. no one else needs to know that >:-()

NEW ST LIVE BLOGGING bc i lost my old thread lmao S1 06-08 (but not really i need to rewatch the end again)

Episode 6

OKAY im starting like halfway through ep 6 again

the AUTISM in the first 30 seconds of this episode starting up again lmao EL calling him a mouth breather because its the first insult she fucking hears??? Yea YEAH

GOD JOYCE IN A TURTLE NECK <- my mom (hold oni have to jump back up here because I completetly skipped the part about Jane and her mom and the connection to El and i feel like its a little too on the nose that thats who El is given how much ive seen and read about the fuckery and connections in this show so im waiting on that - unless it is just... that. AKJHD)

I LOVE DUSTIN SO MUCH WHY DO I NEVER HEAR ANYTHING ABOUT HIM LIKE WHAT THE FUCK

hes SO smart holy shit i mean they all are but his interpersonal skills are so JUST YEAH CALL THEM OUT CALL THEM OUT also his quiet "ok" when he pushes that theyre all his best friends UGH

is this the scene is this the i think im about to watch the thing i just OH MAN HE JUST CLOCKED HIM WHO STRADDLES A MAN LIKE THAT WHEN YORUE FIGHTING HELLO

damn

anyway sorry Johnathan and Nancy Platonic Soulmates Best Friends Forever im making them bracelets !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

oh man i was gonna mention the van that Lucas saw but i forgot also GOD DUSTIN IS THE ONLY ONE WITH FUCKIGN SENSE I LOVE HIM SO MUCH boys boys boys boys boys

I FORGOT HE PISSED HIS FUCKING PANTS LMAO

JUST PISS YOUR PANTS???? oh he okay yeah i though the was actually asking him to just piss his fucking pants

DUSTIN JUST SACRIFICING HIMSELF WHY DO I NOT HEAR MORE ABOUT HIM ACTUALLY

SO what would happen if Mike had like died what would happen if those kids had caused his death like wouold they have just ran and left Dustin or pushed him off or what like AKJSHDSKAJHD

IM SORRY THE SONG WHEN EL SHOWS UP IS SO FUCKING FUNNY

El exxperiencing PTSD so vividly breaks my fucking heart like girlie i understand i understan di do i reall really do god im so sorry BABY GIRL ITS OKAY AOOIASUDSKAH SHE OPENED THE GATE DAMN gonna like swaddle her or something god

im sorry the squad of white vans going to kidnap children is a little too on the fucking nose for me

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Episode 7

real talk could El not just explode them what if El just exploded them i mean obviously theres OTHER consequences like... killing people BUt i mean.

SHE IDNT EXPLODE THE VAN BUT I MEAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THAT GUY IS PROBABLY DEAD SO !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Pausing to say something actually: How child abuse is depicted so far in the show is very scary to me in how real it feels. To be a kid in those situations, to not understand the power you weild because an adult as manipulated you into believing that you're helpless? That the only person you can rely on is them, even as they're actively harming you? Brenner being aware of the harm that El can cause him but believing so strongly in the hold he has on her and therefore he is above consequence, above harm? fucking yucky The scene of him giving her the potted flower made my stomach sink. Felt a little too close to home I know that themes of abuse are really prevelant in this show and Its really interesting to see how it affects people different but especially El, someone who'se pretty fucking clearly autistic and shows a lot of the same symptoms that i did post abuse? I thought i had more to say on it and maybei will as time goes on i just!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ough okay moving on --

LUCAS!!!!!!!!! APOLOGIZING and El saying she sorry too and ALL OF THEM APOLOGIZING YEAH THIS IS BOYS BEING BOYS BABEY THIS IS!!!! BOYS! BEING! BOYS!!!!!!!

WHITE WOMAN JUMPSCARE AGAIN

i cant wait to get to the part where i understand who you (POINTS AT EM) believe she is and fully feel whatever i should feel about her and what shes done or about to do or going to do in multiple timelines or what have YOU

Mikes dad makes me want to ram my head into a wall

and BRENNER is just fucking STABS HIM STABS HIM STABS HIM

Joyce is just :3c she just!! she <3

she can.... make you fly....... and...... piss yourself

the two super powers

OUHAKJSDH i forgot they think Johnathan killed Will jesus christ i hate these two so much and OUGAKSDH GOD THANK YOU FOR AKHSDAKJH FINALLY!! THANK U IK STEVE SHAPES UP AND CHANGES HIS SHIT AND GROWS THANK GOD BUT JESUS ITS ABOUT TIME HOLY FUCK

SPIT IN HIS EYES SPIT IN HIS EYES !!!! WISH U HAD GOD NOT THEIR DND SHIT HELLOW???

the Byers,,,,,,,,,, seemed so distant before like they didnt know each other or cared but god theyre so close theyre so so close and i feel that i get that

MIKES DAD AGAIN I WANT TO HES SO FUCKING STUPID if i were locked in a room with him id put on cocomelon

HOPPER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <3

THE BOYS ARE ALL SO SMART I LOVE THEM OS MUCH

El is just trying so fucking hard god the liek desperation and fear or failure and guilt that she just keeps carrying itS JUST!!!!

MR CLARKS LIL DATE NIGHT!!!!!!!!!!! do you ever use your teacher's autism against him and force him to info dump in the same of science.

watching them setting up the pool and knowing they probably just told them to figure it out while they filmed it <3 ALSO MIKE REALIZING HIS SISTER IS ACTUALLY COOL idk need more siblings being siblings

JOYCE IS MY MOM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

someone giving El the option to say no? to back out? to FEEL SAFE??? im going to lose my mind im gonan scREAM and cry and throw up!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i am BANGING MY FISTS On the TABLE

genuinely WAHT did barb do to deserve this WHAT DID SHE DO SHE WAS SUCH A GOOD FRIEND OH MY GOD

joyce joyc ejoCYCE JOYCE JOYCE fuck all yall shes my favorite character im in love with her

Do episodes that end in the upside down also not end with music @ em i cant remember this happening before bc i didnt write it down <3

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Episode 8

LAST EPISIDE OF THE SEASON i went to get popcorn for this to pay full attention or as much as i could im goingin an dout of dissociating so bare with me i feel like im gonna have to rewatch the entire first season again bc i missed a lot but we'll get there in due time anyway onward and upward boys

OHH THE FIRST SCENE I SAW A PARALLEL TO EPISODE ONE!!! WITH JOYCE ON THE PHONE AND NOW YELLING AT BRENNER

god i love WHEN PEOPLE STAND UP TO BRENNER AND DONT BELIEVEHIS BULLSHIT

Hopper <333333

Johnathan and Nancy are my favorite best friends theyre jUST like GUNG FUCKING HO i love it

IM OAIUSDKAJHD NANCY AND HOPPER GOING FUCKING IN WHAT DO YOU MEAN ITS NOT GONNA HAPPEN yall keep underesitimating these people because you got your fancy suits and you think ou have control of the situation and then you get your ass handed to you SO IM waiting for his ass to be handed to him

do NOTTTTT DO NOT DO THIS TO ME WITH HOPPER DONT THROW ME INTO A FUCKING FLASH BACK!!!!!!! NOT LIKE THIS NOT HERE GONNA BITE

if i have to watch people cut their palms to get blood one more time im gonna STOP STOP IT STOP IT STOP oh my GOD LIKE... BAK O FYOU HAND? YOUR ARM? GIRL.

STEEVEEEEEEEEE are the lights gonna start blinking girl please pleas eplease srteve please can he help kill please bro Im HIS big brown eyes hello hwa the fuck

SO Tumblr deleted... everything after this and im kinda upset man i got like 20 minutes left in the episode not even and it just wiped out 90% of me going balls to the fuck wall about El exploding people's brains and how much i love Joyce Byers and how they gotta stopputting me through so much emotional turmoil when it comes to Hopper and his flash backs

I think im gonna rewatch the last episode to give a better genuine reaction bc i kinda spaced out at the end and dont super know whats going on now askdhj

Probably the less pressing of the two brainworms but the most concerning from an outside view probably. This is kinda two sub things actually. Uhh. Self harm chat below the cut. Sorry.

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So like. As y'all may know, I . Cut . Well, not really anymore. It's been like a few weeks. But I've got a few (a lot) scars. I personally don't really care. Like, oh no there's some lines on my thighs noooo :/

My issue is... The opposite. While it's weirdly comforting seeing others with scars (even if it's a horny post, I'll stop being horny and. Just wanna give op a hug) I. Have noticed the stupidest thing. Whenever I see... Deeper cuts? I feel like shit. Like I'm somehow a faker. There were times when I was cutting where I seriously started doing it more just because I thought I wasn't doing enough to. Deserve... To self harm? It's like how I can't take punching or biting my tongue or scratching my neck seriously either, like. Those don't count c'mon. Except. Much worse.

I dunno. It's just something that worries me when I rember it. Thought I'd get it out

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I. I feel so bad for this one dude I. Okay so, I had a class last year right? It was like a weight lifting class. We'd just go to the weights room and fuck around. But it was mostly the super athletic sporty type. Except for like. Me and one freshman. I mean there was one other dude but he was in football or something so he's basically sporty. Anyways me and this guy would chit chat. He's cool as hell . I think the poor bastard looked up to me, like "woaaah the smart upperclassman" when really I was a fuckin mess. I wouldn't call him a friend since we didn't talk outside of that class. But. Whatever. I think he looked up to me. Ig I was kinda like "hey. Dumbass nerds can make it too lol". I remember him talking about how he liked to play Minecraft & thought it wasn't cool and I was like "dude. I know this dude doing internships with NASA and studying architecture and stuff. Guess what his favorite game is? Minecraft lol" (shoutout dako) like. "Hey lil dude you can make it and keep doing what you enjoy". Anyways... One day we're sitting on the bench y'know. Waiting for class to start... And. Some of my cuts show. I. Like he asks if I'm alright, and I laugh it off and cover my legs you know. But. Looking back on it... That's so fucked. Like, imagine you have a role model. Who's managing themselves and not getting involved in bullshit and smart and funny and. One day you get a peak into the fact that they're a complete fuckign mess. I. I dunno I. Feel bad. Also last night remembering that genuine "are you okay?" Had me fucked up. I. There's not really a point to this just. On my head. In my mind

Anyways that's the self harm part of tonight's rants done. I'm alright tonight to my knowledge, so. Don't worry about me !!!

LIKELY INCOHERENT RAMBLINGS ON FICTIONAL GODS IVE CREATED. its a bit much.

[all this has been copy + pasted from discord with some minor revisions]

dude actually. the gods have a natural passive cloaking spell-ish thing on them at all times that blocks most humans from consciously registering them. but anyway this effect doesn't work on animals. where im going with this is that crows are totally aware of real gods

i havent really been updating this server on the design changes to some of the gods. if i can remember em all.....

chaos is now represtented by incomprehensible shambling arms that move in a mesmerizingly smooth manner, but any individual arm/hand appears to move jagged and jittery. its face is one of those creepy white painted smiley theatre masks, and its "neck" is just arms holding the mask

war used to be an armored thing, then i wanted it to be a humanoid robot that looks like a tank. then i decided that war god should actually be a skinny fucker that wears the robot like armor. then i decided no actually these ideas should kiss and be yuri and actually war god is now a big robot tank armor thing that's been worn so long that the being inside has been fused with the mechanical bits. veins and tendons creep along its insides. between the mechanical armor plating, you can see muscle. it bleeds

god of life is void black wearing a white suit, which is like the opposite of death with his white bone and void black clothes. anyway, life never wears a tie, and her blazer is never buttoned up to show she's less tied down by all the red tape of order's institution. oh and also her shirt is fun colorful

[old sketches of life. i forgot to draw her clothes right. i always forget this.]

anyway erm. life and death have rings of the other one's sigils :3

not married

idk its complicated

i think what i may go with is that life thinks theyre already in a relationship but death thinks that he just has this huge unreciprocated crush on her. this too is yuri

have i mentioned that god of fear is a doggy now. black doggy. one of them sleek fighter jet lookin ones. and his face is all scarred and shit. these scars make him look more intimidating but they're just.... scars. signs of abuse and pain. because god of fear is also god of misery and all that stuff [note: nobody actually knows that he's also misery. they're too scared of him (he has this natural aura that makes him fuckign terrifying) to talk with him. hence the crippling isolation and consequential misery]

[note for my tumblr girlies. trying to imvent a god of the sky and stars is kinda fucking hard when you are at all aware of what astronomy is. like. wow. that sure is A LOT OF PLANETS for a single god to have domain over. hrm. maybe i need to rethink this.]

[i rethought it. i have decided that sky and star god only controls how stars are perceived from earth. and also astrology or whatever. yaaayyy ^_^]

[another note about god of war. me making the body fused with the armor conveniently allows me to make a suit of armor that can't actually fit a humanoid thing. i can just say that the humanoid thing is curled up in a ball or whatever. yaaaayyyy :D]

[another note about god of fear. i looked up the dog. its called a doberman]

oh look my mental illness making a concept out of everything….anyways it’s your first Super Bowl in your new house so you decide to host and maybe it’s the year your fav team (aka my fav team Pats) are playing the packers so it’s definitely going to be a divided house…and you’re both in your respective jersey he’s in his packers you’re in your patriots jersey and you know the whole night is just going to be banter with him😭 when you’re done setting up all the food for company you go to give him a kiss before everyone arrives and he’s like “Nope absolutely not you’re not kissing me wearing that” and before you can get angry the doorbell rings and he gives you a little smack on the ass😭 when the games getting heated and his team scores he’d do everything to rub it in your face vice versa, but despite the friendly competition he’s still bringing you over your favorite drink during a commercial and he’s still helping you out in the kitchen when you’re preparing another snack for the guests😔when it’s just you two in the kitchen he’d come up behind you and kiss your cheek and say “love you”😔 you’d say “Thought you weren’t kissing him in this jersey?” And he’d say “since I’m winning I’ll make an exception” and you just smack his chest and get back out to your friends😔 his team would end up winning and later that night after everyone leaves you stick around to clean up while he goes to shower. When you get upstairs you’d notice his Jersey on the chair so you decide what a perfect time to tease since he was a little asshole all night…you take off your clothes and put on nothing but his jersey and wait on the bed for him. When he comes out in just a towel he’s practically drooling because the material stops right below your ass and also seeing you in it would just make him so hard😣😣😣 he’d say “what’s all this” barely getting the words out and you’d say “Just wanted to help you celebrate tonight…” while walking over to him, kissing up his neck and taking off the towel and dropping to your knees😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫

WHAT THE ABSOLUTE FUUUUUCIKKCJNVBHFJCNHBFNJFHJNJ IM GOING TO LOSE MY GOD DAMN FUCKIGN MIND ARE YOU KIDDING MEENFBHHJNHBFHJNFHUJI IM SOOOKFJNHJIEO IM SPEECHLESDKFNHUEJIKJDNJKMJNK

thoughts on laurance? like the aphmau laurance? 90% sure he transed my gender when i was 8

he makes me wanna jump into quicksand he fucks me up so bad.im oing to alk about mcd laurance purely bc it makes me More insane but . ONE im SOOOO pissed they made his fuckign hair short in rebirth that was my personal 911. Im gonna light a bomb

anyways he.Makes me so fucking insane imagine that you base your identity on perception,and then the ability to be perceived the way you want to be gets RIPPED away and you are no longer in control of who you are viewed. You are forcibly connected to the earth and can feel old gods rumbling and you cant flash a casanova smile and wave anything else off because they saw you with void wounds over your arms and chest and neck and face and legs peppered like kisses and they saw you lose your best friend and they saw you die and they saw you stumble around town and you cant hide anymore because everyones fucking seen you and your innards.

Sorry im insane

It's become a common occurrence for Enzo to just walk into Aaron's office whenever he wants. Usually, he just wants to ask a question or he needs an outlet but today's reason is a little different.

Enzo walks into the younger man's office quietly, a cut on his neck and a few bruises and scratches elsewhere — he'd gone out and things had gone sideways, he could've come back worse.

Making his way over to Aaron's desk with a sort of hazy look in his eyes, he stops when he's close enough to whisper to him.

"Fuck me..." The man whines quietly in Aaron's ear, desperate as ever.

@paperbackpieces-makemewhole

Aaron actually has work to do, something he's not completely sure Enzo is actually aware of. He knows it seems like he spends all of his time fuckign around, torturing people and corralling his brother, but he does, in fact, work.

When Enzo walks in, he disrupts his boss' concentration, and he loses where he'd been on the report in front of him. Gritting his teeth so he doesn't kill anyone, Aaron glares up and is about to be a real bitch about everything, but stops himself once he actually looks at his subordinate.

That doesn't look too bad.

In fact, it looks really fucking delicious.

Ace is clearly not the only one with strange preferences.

Aaron is expecting his employee to be pissed, to throw him over the desk and fuck the daylights out of him. But no. Enzo wants to be fucked instead. The younger man blinks, processing, before he's getting up and grabbing Enzo by the chin.

"Never seen you this desperate," he murmurs, swiping his thumb over a bleeding cut near Enzo's mouth, and bringing it to his own lips to taste.

Fuck.

A shiver runs down his spine and he feels his cock harden at the mere hint of blood. "Alright," Aaron breathes, looking Enzo over with nothing but lust in his eyes. "Yeah, alright."

This is not what they're used to. This is different. Enzo is acting weird. By all means, Aaron should be pissed someone had touched what's his, but he's too focused on how fucking horny the sight of a beat up Enzo gets him.

Shuffling them around, he almost forces Enzo to sit on his desk, just so he can kiss him. It's not out of love or affection, far from that. There's blood on Enzo's lips, and Aaron wants it. Badly. Parting for air and licking his lips like he's dying of hunger, he pushes the other man back until he's resting fully on his desk.

A position they've been in very often, although always reversed.

Grinning darkly, Aaron squeezes Enzo's cock through his jeans and chuckles at the strangled moan that it gets him. "You asked for it, you're going to get it." Leaning over, he lets the man feel exactly how hard all of this has gotten him.

"You're all mine now."

I have a question. From what I read, Pellinore killed Lot when the latter rebelled against Arthur, and this caused the blood feud between their families. I don't understand why Lot's children want to avenge Lot when he was trying to kill Arthur, to whom they served as knights. They basically want to kill Arthur's ally for defending him. Could you explain why?

This is an interesting question! I'm going to look at both versions of this incident, in the vulgate and in le morte.

Okay, the morte has the least detail; it's depiction of the whole thing is as follows:

"Pellinore, the which was a good man of prowess, and he smote a mighty stroke at King Lot as he fought with all his enemies, and he failed of his stroke, and smote the horse's neck, that he fell to the ground with King Lot. And therewith anon Pellinore smote him a great stroke through the helm and head unto the brows. And then all the host of Orkney fled for the death of King Lot, and there were slain many mothers' sons. But King Pellinore bare the wite of the death of King Lot, wherefore Sir Gawaine revenged the death of his father the tenth year after he was made knight, and slew King Pellinore with his own hands."

We also have Gawain himself, later, say to his brothers "this Sir Lamorak will never love us, because we slew his father, King Pellinore, for we deemed that he slew our father, King of Orkney."

So, based only on this, one could argue that it was dishonourable for Pellinore to kill Lot this way, since he was trapped under his horse and unable to defend himself. This is reading between the lines, though.

Looking at the vulgate, we see the incident in more detail:

AT THIS JUNCTURE I REALIZED THAT THE VULGATE IS NO LONGER ON INTERNET ARCHIVE. FUCKIGN DESPAAIR AND GNASHING OF TEETH

okay i KNOW i scanned the merlin and posted it here but tumblr keeps telling me i didnt and wont show me the post. i have such a strong memory of this but i cant find it in google drive either someone fucking help. like literally i know its here. well post over for now as i cant access my physical copy ahhh. sorry anon :((

ITS LEO hiii sage. using anon bc i dont want my main to be on here u know how it is. sleepover saturday real..... can i make u pick an aoi twin. also grabby hands thoughts on my special guys... mao ibaba tori ... ALSO whos your most brainrotting oc . u can answer all or none of these go wild

yes yes i getcha leo... i acfually have a couple friends named leo so i was like. Which one for a good second... anyway

ohh an aoi twin.... if i had to pick one my favorite is hinata :) it's the older sibling guilt lol... not that i dislike yuta. yuta is also my little guy. but there's something so..... grabby hands about hinata's. i wouldn't say asshole-ry but the way he's so adamant that he knows yuta that he refuses to acknowledge any change in yuta... echoes a lot of problems i have. im excited to see when he realizes that 'protecting' yuta has only been hurting her in the long run... ultimately damaging their relationship. etc. i love guys who are lost in the past

admittedly i don't know much about either ibara or tori... i never watched/read kiseki series lol. i know a speed run of ibara but i wouldn't say i uh. Know her. if you get what i mean... i think she's silly though. definitely a guy i'd pick up by the scruff of the neck if i ever dig in. tori was also a character i wasn't particularly interested in so i never dug in... i remember during my twitter days thinking her fans were annoying. which to be fair i was right but that was less because of tori himself and more Twitter.

mao however? my silly guy. im a big mixed jp/south asian mao enjoyer. which relates not at all to his character but i just can't see him as pale. i see his canon art and go Whete is his pigment. i love his character... his self sacrificing nature. also he's a fuckin LOSER. he's a younger brother 2 me. he is so special. the meow meow est. funny to me that he's the 'normal' guy of trickstar yet also the most popular... i don't talk about him a lot but he's very special to me. one of the first guys i latched onto... i think i cried over him more than once. his cringe tboy gnc swag seduced me

ok on the oc note. this one took me a while bc all my oc art is old LOL but my most specialest little meow meow is maisie

this is recent ^ ANYWAY i made her in freshman year chem so she’s been here for a few years… she’s a vampire lol. and a very transparent self insert LMAO she has a girlfriend luna :] (pictured above). i have an entire story for them lol but i need to sit and write it some time… basically maisie is a sad little bitch who lives alone in the woods and despite the happy demeanour she has Guilt surrounding the fact she’s feeding off her friends (human. who also have designs and are important 2 plot but i can’t be assed to remember their names). until she wanders across a lost wolf and is like ohhh. friend ? and it turns out it’s a werewolf lol. and it’s luna. and luna has amnesia or smthn idfk but what’s important is that they’re in lesbians andn it’s about fuckign. allowing yourself to be close 2 ppl again. i have other ocs lol (honeydew is a slime girl and she has a wife named valkyrie. valkyrie has touch sensitivities and thus they can never hold hands….. and they’re going 2 be short comics :] they’re just silly. no deep plot there. i have june who’s important in luna + maisie universe and she has a design i enjoy drawing. and there’s bea who’s a cow girl. not like a lasso and rides horses. like she has hooves) but maisie is my most beloved little fella who i project every problem onto

health rant bc now i’m feeling extra icky

my everything hurts so so much it’s bette than it was yesterday but fuck it’s still so bad i can barely raise my arms over my head bc my shoulders hurt so bad and aren’t moving right i got up to see my mom bc she was yelling at me to come see her and my back neck wrists and hips all popped and cracked and i also lost my vision when i stood up too my chest pains haven’t been too bad and neither my disney i mean it’s the normal but the pain in my joints are just not good and i’ve been meant to clean and shower and i’ve barely been able to get out of bed i’ve had like 2 liters of water and have had two meals but doing each of those things drained me so much im really really trying to not let this shit get to me but god it’s so fuckign hard i was told that if i gave all of my new meds and supplements a week i’d feel so much better and it hasn’t helped at all if anything i feel worse they’ve helped me sleep better but even then when i wake up i still feel exhausted and the pain hasn’t stopped it hasn’t gotten better nothings happened my mom told me to wait a week and it would get better my dad and my doctor told me that too and at this point im losing hope that things will get better that i’ll ever start to feel better this is exhausting i hear ppl joke about being disabled and i hear ppl say they wish they could have the things disabled ppl do but this is exhausting mentally and physically physical therapy??? yeah i got six fucking visits and then my insurance stopped covering it bc “i didn’t need it” and how much is it three hundred fucking dollars a visit i was supposed to go two days a week until i was more stable i can’t get a can i csnt get crutches my parents think im being dramatic i can’t miss school snymore and all i want to do now is fucking cry that’s all i do at this point it always makes the pain worse but what am i meant to do im practically a fucking kid who has debilitating pain and it’s so normal his parents don’t even care i missed all of ostara which is a holiday i celebrate a full fucking week and i didn’t get to celebrate at all im so fucking tired of this never ending loop of pain and i try not to talk about it i do bc no one needs to hear it but fuck every fucking second of my life for the past three years has been in pain my first day of school this year was spent trying not to cry bc i forgot to wear my knee braces and had to limp my way around school im overall just fucking done i’ve relapsed i’ve cried i’ve wanted to attempt again over this fucking shit bc nothings helping tylenol and ibuprofen barley even fucking work anymore like what the hell i fucking hate this and i wish i would just fucking stop but it won’t bc most likely this will be my life until i’m dead and haha it’s so fucking funny not being able to hang out with your friends anymore it’s so fucking funny barley being able to reply to texts i’m a fucking kid i don’t fucking need this i’m failing almost everything rn trying to manage my home life my pain and school and it’s obviously not working out fuck if that stupid fucking attempt would have worked i wouldn’t have to be here going through this fucking pain this wouldn’t be my fucking life i hate seeing all of my friends hang out with ppl do things that make them happy i hate seeing my friends able to bind their chest everyday or most days and ik that’s selfish but fuck i lost most of my life to this shit i lost almost everything i was passionate about to this hospitals and doctors are nothing new to me but seeing no one have answers or giving me false answers takes a toll on you after a while

anyway sorry if you read this i’m just feeling icky my pain won’t go down and it’s not a fun time

I absolutely do not have it in me to write right now, but please take these Cherlowe headcanons as controversy is my middle name. - 🕊

So much body worship. If permitted, Marlowe will trail over every ounce of skin, not letting any part go without a kiss or praise

tacking onto above, Marlowe feels as if he has a thing for her breasts. Not a kink most likely, but just cannot be intimate without making sure they’re pleased. The milkman people wish was their father (joking).

Marlowe has a collar. And a tail plug. Definitely has some sort of fetish for being outright submissive or having something symbolic of something submissive to Cherrie.

He’s great with his hands. Will plop Cherrie onto his lap, and go to town teasing her nipples and stimulating its clit. Sex may occur, but more focused on her pleasure.

Marlowe is absolutely covered neck to thighs with hickeys and bites. He teases Cherrie about being so cheeky with it but he honestly adores it. She’s claimed him in so many ways, proving that it chose him. Almost orgasmic when he thinks about it. Not really but it does get him hard.

In turn he doesn’t mark much, only if Cherrie pushes him, and even then it’s just her thighs, or on its chest, a side happenstance from pleasuring his beloved.

Definitely has fucked in someone else’s room before.

All for now but I may have some later. Enjoy.

all canon except partially for the breasts. hes absolutely fuckign obsessed with her thighs. he is certainly a tittysucker tho/silly

I'm a touch starved gay

Hello! It is I!! A nickname, huh? How about.. 🐉? Or if that’s taken 🀄️ :D

And now for another request.

Louis is shy. We all know this. So how about we torture the poor boy a little with embarrassment and jack him off in a place you could get caught super easily. Perhaps at his desk surrounded by his piles and piles of books or maybe in the hot spring. Where ever your lovely mind decides to put them~

YESSSS THATS PERFECT 🐉 ANON!!! god u think MY mind is lovely?? jacking louis off in a hot spring while the others are there is such a fuckign S tier idea i’m absolutely losing it

also sorry it took me 10 years 😳 love u….

louis gets his dick squeezed in the hot springs and EVERYONE IS THERE (18+ NSFW);

he should’ve known that you were intending to tease him when you sat so close to him in the hot spring.

he stupidly figured he was safe because everyone else was in the spring— yakumo, mia, io, davis, rin, coco, even jack and eva were there. how could you want to do.. that kind of stuff when there were so many other people there?!

the spring was mostly quiet. occasionally a conversation would stir, but it’d quickly die down again and be replaced with a sweet, comforting solitude.

you and Louis sat off to the side, his head rested on your shoulder and your head rested on his, fingers interlocked beneath the water’s surface. it’s peaceful.

but your monkey brain is always running a mile a minute, especially with Louis so close to you. he’s so pretty you always want to touch him.

you unlock your fingers from his and trace them over his flaccid cock. the towel that was wrapped around his hips has been pushed to the side.

Louis’ eyes widen in surprise and he jerks upright. “What—what are you doing?” he asks you.

you shrug one shoulder and smirk. “Don’t react so much. You want everyone to know how hard you’re getting?”

he bites his tongue and looks away. he’s already at half-mast, damn his hormones! and damn you for teasing him so much.

his face burns bright red and you use your free hand to guide him to you. you tuck his head into your shoulder and he gratefully hides himself in the crook of your neck.

“You’re so cruel…” he whispers, pleasure tingeing his words. “The others are going to find out for sure.”

“We’re on the other side of the spring, don’t worry so much my sweet boy,” you coo in his ear. he wraps his arms around your waist and whimpers quietly.

he’s fully erect in your hand now, and you tighten your grip on his cock. he tenses against you as a moan slips out, too quiet for anyone else to hear.

“Does it feel good when I treat you like this, pet? Do you like it when I touch you here?” you ask him, your voice barely above a murmur.

he sighs against your skin and squeezes you tighter. “Y-yes… I like it, Mistress…”

“Dirty little slut,” you chuckle, and he winces. “You were against this just a minute ago, now you’re saying you like it?”

his hips twitch up into your hand. he doesn’t know why (and to be honest neither do you) he gets so turned on when you degrade him. it gives him a rush he’d never really felt before, and the meaner you are the hotter he gets.

“Oi, you two alright over there?” comes the voice of Yakumo. Louis subtly turns his head to see that everyone is looking at you, and his stomach drops.

you’re unfazed. “Yeah, he’s just got a headache that’s all. We’ll probably get out soon so he can get some rest,” you reply easily. beneath the water you’re stroking his engorged cock with more fervour, prodding at the slit in the head with your thumb.

Louis has to keep his eyes closed to stop anyone from seeing them rolling back. his whole body feels impossibly hot, and the urge to cry out is a strong one — but he manages to keep it in.

the others seemed content with that answer and you see them lose interest. “Sounds like a good idea,” Rin says with a nod. “Louis has been working hard these past few days, he needs a good night’s rest.”

you smirk as he squirms against you, his lips parting to release a whine that never comes. “That he does.”

“Please…” he begs, his voice a quivering mess. “I-I’m gonna cum soon… so—”

you hum in his ear. you continue to jerk his cute dick as you gather his towel with your other hand. it’s an awkward position, you feel much like an inconvenient tangle of limbs, but Louis’ mind is too overwhelmed to care.

you bundle the towel just above his tip as he bucks shamelessly into your hand. “Mmh, it’s coming out— I’m cumming, I’m c—”

his white hot seed spills out of him, and you manage to catch most of it in the towel. he tenses hard against you, biting down almost painfully on your shoulder to muffle his cries, and slowly the tension fades.

he pulls away from you and wipes the beads of water from his face. he’s still hopelessly blushing, and you’re struck dumb from how cute he is.

“Are you feeling better, Louis?” you ask innocently. “We should get you into bed. You’ve had a long night.”

he simply nods, eyes downturned, and answers. “Yes. You’re right. Thank you, [Name].”

you bid everyone goodnight then lead him out of the springs and back to his room, where Louis is in equal parts horrified and delighted to learn that his night has just begun.