is it my fault that i see love in everything?!?!?!?!?!?

i'm sorry but this lyric from taylor swift is so,,,, it resonates with me so much,,,,

Everyone is getting laid ffs

The whiplash of having a severe nose blood as soon as I woke up, getting my period and then seeing my taxes came in is making it hard not to cry at work

being scared of hypothetical trans people who are Forcing the poor non-transitioning trans people into taking hrt is a bit stupid, no?

here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud!!

✷(print shop)✷

Self Portrait '23 10" x 8" Gouache

A loose still life of my packer and my man juice 🤠 The colors in the actual painting are way too vibrant for my camera to interpret correctly and despite painstakingly adjusting the colors in ps, every digital screen I've viewed the images on look significantly different so 😂hopefully it looks okay on everyone else's end. (This and CBT were both made for an art show about penises in case anyone is sensing a theme lol.)

my heart is NOT coping with the following:

miles choosing one of the earliest solo songs he co-wrote with alex as his slow song to play in dublin

said song already having a special place as the record ender to his first album

said song also involving the lyrics “if you just get it together and read my mind” and “i have learned to wait and you have learned that you can make me”

miles posting black and white videos of him playing it with so much nostalgia and emotion i literally started welling up on the train

"beards were like axhounds. Boys dreamed of the day they'd get one, never realizing how annoying they could be."

pretty sure this was unintentional, but this paired with how important names are

"it was as if their names were the last things they owned, and they wouldn't be given up cheaply. Though they seemed surprised, perhaps even encouraged, that someone cared to ask. He clutched to these names, repeating each one in his head, holding them like gemstones. The names mattered."

make for a very gender affirming chapter imo 🏳️‍⚧️❤️

can an iud reactivate periods....

I like your beard beginnings!

thanks, i'm not even on T yet (i haven’t heard from trans clinic since february. great system), i've just had a beard naturally for years :') it's gotten more pronounced recently though!

Me welcoming back my downward spiral and letting it know how much I can't wait to self isolate with it because there's no point in resisting it'll happen whether I accept it or not

:-P

i fucking hate biomedicalizing anything about being trans because as much as i love understanding the world through a biological science perspective, the last thing that anyone needs is for there to be this quantifiable measurement on 'transness' out there for transphobes to get a hold of but at the same time. sometimes i look at myself- at how fucking sick i got when i was on estrogen and all the physical health problems i had before i went on testosterone and how they all seemed to have magically dissapeared as soon as i got on t- and i can't help but wonder if there's some genuine physical disconnect going on there. like i was physically wired to have a specifically masculine hormone balance and not having it once i hit puberty is why i was so physically fucked up even before i realized i was trans

idk, physiology is a complex mess of things and sex is a multi-tiered system affecting all parts of the body and multiple organ systems so its likely different for everyone bc of that (not even getting into social dynamics) but. the fact that i havent felt crushing fatigue and muscle weakness and unexplained bouts of nausea/gi issues and random bouts of muscle aching or sudden weight gain despite varying my diet and havent had the irregular debilitatingly painful periods or periods that literally never stopped once they started ever since i went on t is something that i cant help but think about

the way she immediately noticed something was off. i'm so in love with this girl

I am so HUNGRY.