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Heartbreaking gut wrenching ruin your life König headcanons:
Despite his good homelife, he was severely bullied in school and never told his mother
His dad was in the military and died when he was a kid, his mom had to work a lot to provide for him
Their relationship is kinda strained, not because of any disagreements, but because they never spent a lot of time together
His mother worked constantly to provide for him and König appreciated that, so he tried to never bother her with anything unnecessary
She would spend her nights off going to bars for fun and would bring König along. He was always uncomfortable but understood that his mom needed this break. He would ask for the keys and head home.
She would return hours later blind drunk and pass out. He would care for her and didn’t resent for this, though he felt like he should.
He saw his bullying as unnecessary so he didn’t tell her and she felt immense guilt when she found out
They love each other a lot and the times that they were together, they got along and had fun together
His bullies and him are the same age and so they stayed together through the years
They beat him up a lot and his injuries through the years total was 1 broken leg, sprained wrist, 7 broken fingers, 3 broken arms, 2 sprained ankles, lost one tooth, 1 broken nose, and 4 concussions
Spread out over 10 ish years
They’d also mess with his head. For the first few years, the bullies would send in the ‘new guys’ to befriend him then humiliate him
A girl asked to a fair once and when they met there, she dumped food on him and laughed in his face.
It happened twice before he never tried to make anymore friends. Though he always wanted one
Some new kids would try to befriend him but he couldn’t tell if they were genuine or messing with him so he told them to stay away.
They taught him that violence was the only way to communicate and be listened to, giving him the appearance of a quick temper and mean disposition
Once a teen, his gym coach took him to an illegal fighting club and he began to participate. He was very good and learned to fight there.
The coach would praise him when he won and gave him a small cut.
Even better is that the school (that was closed when König was 20) was a very BAD school.
Like, the teachers were abusive and the principal didn’t care. They were really strict and mean, hitting kids when they made even a slight mistake.
When he lost, the coach would burn him with cigarettes.
He eventually quit so he could leave for the military.
He began to think that if he had to repeat himself more than once, no one really cared about him and he had to make them listen
In reality, he would be willing to repeat something as many times as needed and is very patient, gentle, and forgiving
He was the kind of person he needed growing up
He craved emotional connections and friendships, willing to do anything (even if he knows he doesn’t want to) to stay friends
He wanted to be understood and treated like a person, like he is something precious and worth anything
If he sees someone going through tough times and in need of support or comfort, he will comfort them very well
Whether he talks, hugs, or brings them their favorite treat, or alerts a close friend knowing they would hate having a stranger help them
The kindness was never returned because if König showed that side of himself to anyone, he would punish himself for being weak after
He was like this for his entire time before the military, and the beginning of his career. These habits and kindness were dropped after about six months.
He would spend time in the schools music room with a piano and play. He ended up becoming pretty good and always wanted someone to play for,
but the only time he tried to, the next day, the piano strings were broken and the keys smashed
He stopped playing after that.
He doesn’t care if someone else seems weak or breaks down, but he can’t let himself
Because of his abuse, he has self-harmed and made one attempt on his life
He ended up running to his mother’s work and they cried together in the back alley behind the restaurant she worked at. Him on his knees leaning all the way down to have his head in her stomach and arms around her waist as she stays seated with her back straight
He apologizes for attempting, for lying about the bullying, for not telling her, for not being able to stand up for himself, for crying, for interrupting her work when rent is coming up, for bothering her, for being a failure, bad sons, and existing.
She was let off early and they got ice cream together
He still hates himself for worrying her, but ultimately doesn’t regret going to the restaurant that day.
He was always alone with his thoughts and they never improved after his attempt, not for a long time
König did get his revenge.
At the end of the year, last week of classes after his exams and he had basically graduated. He went after his bullies.
It was after school, he had had enough and grabbed a chair, metal and plastic.
He beat them all with it and they ended up in the hospital. He wasn’t biased either, leader or lackey, they all got beat the same.
The only reason that he got off was because his mother provided hospital records/bills.
He left as soon as he could and only told his mother since he had no other family.
He has told no one in KorTac about his past at all but made some concerning comments.
He was asked if he was bullied once, he said ‘no, it was abuse’ and left it at that.
Whenever he is nervous or scared or doesn’t know how to react emotionally, he will laugh uncontrollably
(I do this too. Saw a friend in elementary school break her arm and run to her dad crying. I had no idea what happened or what to do and started laughing. I apologized obvi and she understood but it wasn’t my finest moment.)
This got him into serious trouble. A lot
He also has a habit of biting his nails, lips, twiddling his fingers behind his back, and pinching himself when nervous.
When he joined the military he was wanted to be a sniper and failed. They wanted a battering ram and they used him so he’s really scarred and then the sniper hood was adopted.
He felt like he never had friends until KorTac. His job was to destroy whatever they wanted and he did it.
Desperate for validation and approval, he would do whatever anyone wanted in a professional sense and never asked questions or talked back
He became well loved by the people above him because of this.
It was a very dehumanizing experience for him since none of the higher ups cared about him and told him as much many times. Though, they did adore him for what he could do for them.
They also taught him not to express emotion except when he was on a mission, though it was more indirectly. They would praise his skills more when he reacted less so violence became he outlet, just like his childhood violence became his language
He crashes hard after, dissociating and his anxiety increases astronomically. Logically he knows this shouldn’t happen but he continues the cycle.
He can’t talk, hardly moves until they arrive back, and closes his eyes so people are less concerned about him not blinking, he trembles a little, and (when on solo missions) tears up.
The other operators at first try to talk to him after to check in but he never responds or looks at them. Just keeps his eyes closed or stares at the floor.
Normally he fidgets, rubbing/moving his hands, bouncing a leg in excitement on the way, but during the crash he goes totally still and quiet.
he did get along quite well with his old squad, but he wasn’t close with them at all. None of them were close, but they were friendly enough
On a mission, his team was sent to infiltrate a compound and none except him made it out. He was covered in blood and the enemies inside were mangled, some beheaded since König didn’t control his strength.
He gained the nickname ‘Bloody King’ after this. His missions became longer and more taxing, in response he became more violent. Always coming back bloody and glaring.
As a child, the horrible temper he developed because of how he was treated would get worse somehow and would frequently beat up people who go after him or talk back at all.
This extreme violence and anger to everything stayed for a long period and he hates himself even more
He became meaner in the field, taunting/laughing his enemies, less patient, and taking a bit too much pride in his handiwork. He was never disrespectful or disobedient, even if the higher ups where the ones he desperately wanted to be angry at
Though, these habits and mannerisms can be seen off the field often too.
He was described as psychotic, sadistic, sociopathic, and demonic. He can become incredibly heartless and cruel in the field. It hasn’t become a problem for his teammates really. But if they are the same or lower rank, just listen and don’t question him, he will make you miserable.
His sadistic/mean streak can show up off the field. If he sees someone hurt themselves on base he will think it’s hilarious, even if the person is severely injured and needs immediate medical attention.
Sometimes he hurts other for fun or to prove a point. He doesn’t control his strength either, he doesn’t care.
Despite this, he is incredibly logical and smart. It may seem like he has no plan, but he does and it ends with him winning. Few times it hasn’t, he can cope/adjust very well
He has the brains to match the muscle and, despite how it seems, he is a pretty good manipulator and is very knowledgeable about
The validation they gave him seemed to great of a thing to lose, even if all he got was ‘good work’
That was usually all he got, never anything more
He was often incredibly stressed out and paranoid because of the meds for his social anxiety and depression. So he hardly slept for a long time
He would go days without sleeep, hallucinating when off the field. It made his everyday life even more difficult especially since the hallucinations were of his old school bullies, so he would take out his fear on others.
Many attempts were made to get different meds or dosages but they required approval from the head of the unit, who would not give his permission since he hated König
It was a known problem so when speaking to König, people had to touch him to let him know they were real but he hated touch so most would quickly poke his hand or arm to catch his attention.
Otherwise he would ignore you, pretending he isn’t hallucinating.
The unit commander was incredibly violent, feeding König’s temper. If someone made a mistake, the commander punished someone else horribly.
König snapped once and murdered him in the field but no one else was there so he was considered KIA.
By the time he joins KorTac, he is cold, sadistic, unfeeling, and cruel. He has little care for others besides their affect on him and on the mission.
He dislikes everyone and has quite the temper on him, that he doesn’t show at first.
He is smart and can be a formidable threat when he feels like causing trouble. He has no issues with hurting others for any reason and will do so without question or complaint.
He has chosen to accept that this is his life and makes no effort to change since he believes nothing can change.
#headcanons#könig#cod#konig#kortac#konig mw2#angst#könig headcanons#it doesn’t get better for him#maybe in a different post
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so, voice of the hunted...
do you see him as prey who's instincts is to run and hide? who's always on the alert, always ready to sprint, even in moments of rest? who could fight but knows his strength lies in flight?
or do you see him a predator? one that is skittish and small? one who knows his strength is wit and not might? one that could still be easy prey for a larger predator?
maybe you don't see him as either?
i have my own view/thoughts about this, but i'm curious what others think, so please go ahead and add your own in the tags or replies
#slay the princess#voice of the hunted#he's obviously instinct#but does he lean towards prey?#or predator?#was gonna add a third option to the poll but decided against it#just go with your gut on this#or just add your reasoning on why he's neither in a reply#i wont add my own#maybe in a different post
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I hate running I hate running I hate running I hate
#there is something I would say but it may be triggering for some#maybe in a different post#yeah sure in a different post
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It's still surprising to see people say that when they see the upcoming strike post I made that this is the first time they're hearing about it, especially because I've seen several posts now talking about the same strike.
That being said: regardless of what kind of blog you are, please spread the news about the genocide, the strikes, boycotts, etc.
Even if you are a small blog, spreading word allows for more people to know what's going on and also do their part in protests and strikes, and maybe even the right people will be able to do more than what you're able to do.
And reminder: there is an upcoming strike on February 18th-25th. Prepare accordingly, protest, boycott, call your reps, and spread the word so more people are aware.
#ceasefire now#free palestine#palestine#it still stuns me because i can count maybe 3 different posts myself included that has all the information about the strikes#and just this morning someone rb mine saying this is the first time theyre hearing of it#do you see why its important to keep talking?#i'm not going to apologize for suddenly posting this midway through clearing my likes. it's important#free gaza#gaza#congo#free congo
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the thing is there's like, a point of oversaturation for everything, and it's why so many things get dropped after a few minutes. and we act like millennials or gen z kids "have short attention spans" but... that's not quite it. it's more like - we did like it. you just ruined it.
capitalism sees product A having moderate success, and then everything has to come out with their "own version" of product A (which is often exactly the same). and they dump extreme amounts of money and environmental waste into each horrible simulacrum they trot out each season.
now it's not just tiktokkers making videos; it's that instagram and even fucking tumblr both think you want live feeds and video-first programming. and it helps them, because videos are easier to sneak native ads into. the books coming out all have to have 78 buzzwords in them for SEO, or otherwise they don't get published. they are making a live-action remake of moana. i haven't googled it, but there's probably another marvel or starwars something coming out, no matter when you're reading this post.
and we are like "hi, this clone of project A completely misses the point of the original. it is soulless and colorless and miserable." and the company nods and says "yes totally. here is a different clone, but special." and we look at clone 2 and we say "nope, this one is still flat and bad, y'all" and they're like "no, totally, we hear you," and then they make another clone but this time it's, like, a joyless prequel. and by the time they've successfully rolled out "clone 89", the market is incredibly oversaturated, and the consumer is blamed because the company isn't turning a profit.
and like - take even something digital like the tumblr "live streaming" function i just mentioned. that has to take up server space and some amount of carbon footprint; just so this brokenass blue hellsite can roll out a feature that literally none of its userbase actually wants. the thing that's the kicker here: even something that doesn't have a physical production plant still impacts the environment.
and it all just feels like it's rolling out of control because like, you watch companies pour hundreds of thousands of dollars into a remake of a remake of something nobody wants anymore and you're like, not able to afford eggs anymore. and you tell the company that really what you want is a good story about survival and they say "okay so you mean a YA white protagonist has some kind of 'spicy' love triangle" and you're like - hey man i think you're misunderstanding the point of storytelling but they've already printed 76 versions of "city of blood and magic" and "queen of diamond rule" and spent literally millions of dollars on the movie "Candy Crush Killer: Coming to Eat You".
it's like being stuck in a room with a clown that keeps telling the same joke over and over but it's worse every time. and that would be fine but he keeps fucking charging you 6.99. and you keep being like "no, i know it made me laugh the first time, but that's because it was different and new" and the clown is just aggressively sitting there saying "well! plenty of people like my jokes! the reason you're bored of this is because maybe there's something wrong with you!"
#this was much longer i had to cut it down for legibility#but i do want to say i am aware this post doesnt touch on human rights violations as a result of fast fashion#that is because it deserves its own post with a completely different tone#i am an environmental educator#so that's what i know the most about. it wouldn't be appropriate of me to mention off-hand the real and legitimate suffering#that people are going through#without doing my research and providing real ways to help#this is a vent post about a thing i'm watching happen; not a call to action. it would be INCREDIBLY demeaning#to all those affected by the fast fashion industry to pretend that a post like this could speak to their suffering#unfortunately one of the horrible things about latestage capitalism as an activist is that SO many things are linked to this#and i WANT to talk about all of them but it would be a book in its own right. in fact there ARE books about each level of this#and i encourage you to seek them out and read them!!! i am not an expert on that i am just a person on tumblr doing my favorite activity#(complaining)#and it's like - this is the individual versus the industry problem again right because im blaming myself#for being an expert on environmental disaster (which is fucking important) but not knowing EVERYTHING about fast fashion#i'm blaming myself for not covering the many layers of this incredibly complicated problem im pointing out#rather than being like. yeah so actually the fault here lies with the billion dollar industries actually.#my failure to be able to condense an incredibly immense problem that is BOOK-LENGTH into a single text post that i post for free#is not in ANY fucking way the same amount of harm as. you know. the ACTUAL COMPANIES doing this ACTUAL THING for ACTUAL MONEY.#anyway im gonna go donate money while i'm thinking about it. maybe you can too. we can both just agree - well i fuckin tried didn't i#which is more than their CEOs can say
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Answers to "it hurts"
I know (apologetically)
I know (condescendingly)
It's supposed to
Good
I'm sorry
It'll be over soon
Stop whining
And it'll get worse if you don't *insert threat*
Well it wouldn't have to if you didn't *insert mistake*
You're supposed to say 'thank you'
I love hearing you say that
This is nothing, I'll show you actual pain
Get used to it
You'll get used to it
Stop lying
At least you still feel it
Shut up
Why don't you beg me to stop, then?
Can't be that bad if you're still talking
I don't care
Did I ask?
It's the only way you'll learn
You can take it
Answers to "please stop"
#whump#whump dialogue prompt#whump dialogue#whump prompt#whumblr#I've had this in my drafts half done for 3 weeks but after finishing 3 prompts for whumpmas and not getting the instant gratification of#posting#i needed to throw something out there today so i would maybe get a bit of serotonin from posting#additions always welcome#also yes theres a dif between get used to it and you'll get used to it#and yes im defening me in front of myself cause every time i read it i think i accidentally have the same thing twice#but like#it's different#right?
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#when we thought the atla MIGHT be ok after opla but it turns out opla is just an exception#HS9D8FUIPJLK#annie rambles#opla#one piece#avatar the last airbender#ive heard mixed reviews about the atla live action but the consensus feels like the writers werent in tune with the source enough#where opla it really feels like the writers understand op at its core so thus were able to transform it#but maybe thats just me#80U9DSFPOJKL#i have so many thoughts on how much i liked opla i should make a separate post but like. for one not disrespecting source by#saying that the new take is ''more for adults" or whatever / all that nonsense#and again just respecting source material feels like a major difference here
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Made a whole ass piece of Astarion + my tav but I didn't like how the whole thing turned out 🫠 so I'm cropping and sharing the only part of it I'm happy with
#the lines on this man. they're scratching my brain just the right way#bg3#astarion#astarion ancunin#baldur's gate 3#sleepyscribble#oc.nawen#nawen didn't turn out the way I wanted her to tho 😭 tragedy of the century#but I'm tired of struggling w this I'm letting it rest#maybe I'll revisit the idea later w a different pose/composition#the idea was to have the two in some really lavish silky robes and jewelry living their best lives post game. bc they deserve it <3
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Sock eye salmon
𓆝 𓆟 𓆞 𓆝 𓆟
#happy easter#sockeye salmon#yes those are two different fish drawings and not just changed backgrounds#fishblr#save me sockeye salmon save me#I LOVE FISH#FISH FISH#I love drawing fish I do not know why#but by god it compels me#2024 art#artists on tumblr#art#finished piece#illustration#my art#digital art#the fishes look like gummies and I love them dearly#I want to draw more but I fear they will all look like eachother#but who cares as long as I love doing it#maybe I’ll play around with lighting (lying)#I will draw them all the exact same#the fish from the text post
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(volume warning)
this was surprisingly fun to make so i'll probably do another
#especially now this one is slightly outdated in terms of my personal style lmao#but its fun!!#i have a list of more vines to do!!#will probably go about making it in a different way tho!!!#gotta fuck around with brush settings and stuff#i fucked up a couple times w this one and its Evident once you Notice#but i learned a few things. i am... Improving. very slowly.#i think the thumbnails had more Personality to them. theyre funnier lmao#maybe one day ill even do animatics bc hoo Boy do i have ideas for those#but in order to do that i'll actually have to learn backgrounds and environments#welcome home#welcome home puppet show#also im posting this early bc im a coward <3
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I came up with Floyd's (other) ex band mates and then I went a little insane about them. . . Anyway they're all alternative trolls who adopted him into their group. They play nu metal at underground gigs but mostly they just go to raves and get stoned out of their gourds.
original photos under the cut
I googled "90s rave photos" and had such a hard time choosing which to draw. i might make more of them in the future...
#exhibit A of why floyd also deserves branch's resentment#my guy was living his best worst life#trolls#dreamworks trolls#trolls 3#trolls band together#trolls floyd#ex bandmates#trolls oc#alternative troll#les#hed#liv#riff#those are their names#if they get some love i will introduce them more properly in a different post#they all live in a van together and travel around. similar to JD's rv but smaller and i imagine it's bug inspired#maybe i should draw it#my art#I am so proud of these fr. some actually feel like old photos#some of these are supposed to be years apart#floyd is definitely the oldest in the second to last one. i imagine he's in his 20s in that one#and he's only around 14/15 in the last one#...yes they are all a terrible influence on him#90s rave#old photos#90s photos
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so when are we going to acknowledge anakin's line of "is that what this is about" is actually regarding ahsoka's fears of becoming like her master (vader) & her fears of failing others as she felt (he failed her, she failed him, it was never the same) instead of him pretending all the things he committed never happened. they did happen & he knows they did. can we also acknowledge that he said "one is never too old to learn, snips" perhaps in reference to what he learned from his own son, the one and only luke skywalker, who proved that love can persevere over darkness, ("you're better than that because i'm better than that") and that heartbreak does not equate giving up when others can still live on, and that star wars is sometimes about hope & lineages and knowing you can be better than those who came before if you choose to be.
#ahsoka spoilers#ahsoka#anakin skywalker#ahsoka tano#just some thoughts since i'm seeing some posts that i think are interesting but maybe i just interpreted it differently?#when i say 'we' pls know i mean me
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I wonder if humans and demons in Obey Me! might have different taste receptors and experience taste slightly differently. Not for all things, but for really random stuff, like how some people irl enjoy cilantro and others think it tastes like soap.
Lucifer trying to pridefully power through the dinner MC made for him and failing because he's already gone through five drinks trying to mask its taste, and MC is getting suspicious.
"What is this incredibly sour vegetable? I've never tasted anything so... acrid."
"You mean the sweet potato? Are you saying this sweet potato is what's making your lips pucker?"
"There's absolutely nothing sweet about this potato."
#I think it'd be really sad if things they enjoyed in the celestial realm tasted different once they became demons#WOAH yall are fast! I went to proofread this and maybe change “sharp” to something else (acrid?) but y'all already reblogged it. thank you!#I should sit on my posts and think about them before slamming the post button jgsdjkhg very glad to see it's enjoyed though - many thanks!#its been 4 hours since posting#im gonna do it im gonna change sharp to acrid. please enjoy two versions of this post existing#obey me#obey me!#obey me headcanon#obey me scenarios#obey me ideas#omswd#obey me lucifer#obey me shall we date#om lucifer#obey me hcs#obey me hc
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Spring hunt.
#artfromthefrogs#he has been posted.#esen sun symbolism odyssey#esen-temur#esen temur#she who became the sun#he who drowned the world#the radiant emperor#tre#swbts#hwdtw#art#this is not very symbolism. it ended up too realistic for that.#anyway im thinking to do a different sun symbolism piece that accompanies the ouyang bloody moon i did a while ago#oooo maybe with a baoxiang solar eclipse..... ideas ideas ideas however tragically i have 82459205 obligations first#anyway enjoy Him! i worked very hard on him! the things i do for 20 notes....
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feast (ID in alt)
#vashwood#vash the stampede#nicholas d wolfwood#trigun#trigun maximum#tw blood#im posting this so late because october escaped me Suddenly.. hello....#i wanted to make it a photoset with this other vampire vw wip but i don't think i'm finishing it any time soon and the mood of it is#completely different anyway. also i don't think i ever shared anything about my vampire au on here !!! it's all old art by now so im shy lo#but maybe i'll do a photodump of it. long story short vash is a vampire since birth and ww is a human vampire hunter that turns during thei#travels together due to EoM experiments + getting vash to drink from him at some point.#humans turn once they get bitten but bc ww has been experimented on#& got bitten by a bunch of human turned vampires thruout his hunts he thought it wouldn't be a problem for vash to drink from him but alas.#theyre both ok though theyre traveling together definitely not hating themselves for what theyve become and feeling guilty for what theyve#done to each other. theyre completely normal about it. the biting part is really appealing to me in vampire aus so i draw it a lot but#in reality vash only drank from ww once and ww mightve done it twice under the realization he might actually die otherwise#since he wont drink from humans after being turned.... he's combatting the 5 stages of grief at all times#if this is all nonsense im sorry DMGKSDF I'M NOT good at explaining and this au came from nowhere in the depths of my mind its a mess#ruporas art
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have you put the pieces together yet, detective
#goro akechi#akechi goro#persona 5#persona 5 royal#p5 akechi#p5 spoilers#persona 5 fanart#jesst some art#i may have worked on this for... just under two weeks? i had like. so many fckgin thoughts i might make a process/concept breakdown post#it's honestly just for my own peace (haha piece) of mind because i overthought about. SosoooOoOo many motifs and symbols and i just wanna#idk PUT EM ALL somewhere........ maybe it'll become its own jessay of mine. god. who can say.#also DUDE tumblr rly does crunch up quality wow ouch#unironically a core thematic inspiration for this piece is a quote from the folding ideas' video 'the nostalgia critic and the wall'#'it doesn't all make sense or resolve or coalesce because we don't all make sense'#'everyone is the illusion of order constructed brick by brick out of chaos'#i've watched that video essay through at least. a dozen times at this point. everything about it. yeah. it's good.#this piece initially went many different directions and i have realized ah yes to fully explore just THESE themes that i'm interested in as#they relate to goro akechi i will need to draw. at least two more pieces. sdlfhsdlkfjsd
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