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happy friday imaginary constructs and also we did it exclamation point
i dreamt i found myself, without choice or warning, the guardian of an orphan named grace. when i looked at my hands, contemplating how best to respond, i saw that my palms held a flock of tiny, perfectly formed birds, each one the size of a housefly
#manifestations of my familiar#rivers#reversed#boba#hot coffee#tides#the maid in the meadow#sentience#the demon lover#the stouthearted woman#the tall and quiet woman#sleeping titans#lulled into wakefulness#battered wooden desks#lost words#end of messages
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on the subject of the new magnus protocol. RRRRARAAAHAJKAKKSUWJLWOOWHEVDNKDPFOEUEGHWPEPRIJEBWVKWLSLIDHENWLSKHEHEKWWOUEHEBDKDLEIEHWBIWOEJDBDBEKEKOELRURYEPPWKFBVEJWLPAPWIUEBRHRKLDLSPWKJENRIELLEJRBRKJWKWKWLLSOIEBRVJELSPODUEHGEJSOALWOWOUEVDCODLEPPWOWUSGUEKEBHFOOFEYWHWOCJURPEPWLDJGEJEKEAJHAJDKOEWIHWGSIEOEOUEGEVDNCKLEOQOIEIRHRHEKODKSBWJWOOPOOPOYGEHKWKSJSHHWNKWLSLJEEBRKLELPWPWHEVDBKEEIEGNSOENEHELEPRLRHHENEKEPEJRGE
#THE SCREAM I SCRUMPT#WHEN I TELL YOU I LOST MY MIND#I WAS SAYING ALL DAY OOOOOH FAMILIAR VOICE MANIFESTING GERRY KEAY#I DIDNT THINK IT WOULD ACTUALLY HAPPEN OH MY FUCKING GOD#AND GEORGIE AND FUCKING GERTRUDE ROBINSON???????????#OH MY ABSOLUTE GOD#LITERALLY UNTIL LIKE TWO MINUTES AGO I WAS PACING ROUND MG KITCHEN FUCKING SCREAMING#tmagp#the magnus protocol#tmagp spoilers#the magnus protocol spoilers#tma#the magnus archives#magpod#gerry keay#gerard keay#gertrude robinson#georgie barker#ik i already tagged this but HUGE MASSIVE SPOILERS
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I wish in general discussion of ADHD that executive dysfunction wasn't used to just mean difficulty with task switching and task initiation.
Like, there's so much more that is a part of executive functioning! Executive functioning includes impulse control, emotional regulation, working memory, attention, awareness of time, goal formation, planning, and that's not even all of it. It's a broad catogory of cognitive processes, not just a single symptom.
ADHD symptoms do mostly fall under executive dysfunction because ADHD is an executive functioning disorder.
In general terms, it's not wrong to include difficulties in task switching and initiation in executive dysfunction! They are certainly a part of that! But oversimplifying executive dysfunction to only be task switching and initiation difficulties isn't accurate and gives an inaccurate picture of ADHD as a whole (or at least, from what I've seen, it impacts the discussion surrounding ADHD negatively).
It might just be me. idk. But discussing precise problems while calling them by a blanket term can make it hard to identify what exactly the block is. For example, if I'm having trouble getting started on a task and I just say "oh I'm struggling with executive dysfunction right now" that doesn't tell me anything about what's wrong. But if I say "I'm struggling with task initiation; I keep meaning to do it but don't know where to start" then I can think through the steps to start. Or if it's motivation, "I'm struggling with motivation" means I can think of how to overcome that. "This is overwhelming" means I can plan. "I don't want to stop what I'm doing/this is a task switching problem" means I can decide if I need to finish the task at hand or trick my brain into swapping.
(This is a separate problem but then you also have people saying execytive dysfunction is laziness or results in laziness when they are meaning that difficulty with task initiation. Even if it was true that difficulty with task initiation was laziness (it's not), saying that executive dysfunction = laziness is so incorrect. That would mean poor short term memory = laziness. That would mean hyperactivity = laziness. That would mean emotional dysregulation = laziness. And none of these are even CLOSE to true. That's another issue though.)
#executive function#executive dysfunction#actually adhd#adhd#just thinking#Also I know executive dysfunction happens outside of ADHD#I just have adhd so it's where I'm most familiar with the manifestations of executive dysfunction#also task initiation is by far the least troublesome exec dysfunction problem I have#my memory *sucks*#that was the main reason I even sought testing#because I can't remember things#and it's has such a major negative impact on my life
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who even are these guys
#edward nashton#jonathan crane#fanart#ink drawing#dano riddler#bruce wayne#the joker#scriddlebatjokes#on twt im king of that tag and i expect to be king of it here as well#au enseñanza media#thats the au tag if i make more stuff for it in the future#if i think about it too much i sort of cant believe how much i removed this from the source haha#just the joker is a mix up of like all movie jokers bc the one from 2022 is just a cameo so theres not much to grab onto#i had the flu again last week so i turned to the familiar for comfort and it manifested in giving these guys a uniform and a situationship#who knows i might show you whatever weird things i wrote on my notes app while awake at night because my sinuses were all clogged up#anyways im feeling better now#have a nice rest of your day<3
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galaxy-brained mlc take of the day: mlc is wuxia, yes and maybeee not exactly? it very much is a wuxia aesthetically, but it's actually - conceptually - xianxia story in the core. (this is different from suggesting that it is a xianxia show.) however xianxia can (or should) be considered a subgenre of wuxia, not its own separate distinct genre despite the idea of 仙 xian being fundamentally at odds with the idea of 侠 xia, because they both stem from the same belief. (as seen in mlc, it works with the conventions of traditional wuxia aka li xiangyi the sigu sect leader, to get to the real bits of xianxia concept aka li lianhua's story.) so, mlc is wuxia through and through, inside out. send tweet 🫡👍
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ok wait I can explain
so, this must be premised on the understanding that any discussion of "仙 xian/deities" in this context is only as its abstract idea of living a life distanced, detached from worldly, human woes instead of the possibility of immortality existing in mlcverse. (if you think about the deities in xianxia stories being basically human beings who have cultivated themselves into immortality.)
this is the explanation of xianxia as a wuxia subgenre (古仙武侠) in the baidu article of wuxia genre:
武侠中的侠，是脱胎于墨家“以天下为己任”的使命感；而仙侠的侠，通常是传达着“能力越大，责任也就越大”的朴素精神。侠乃入世，仙为出世，道教阴阳的无情大道（无情指寻求自我的不断体悟，以达精神的成仙，非没有感情之意）与武侠江湖的有情众生，即是矛盾也是循环，象征着太极之道，这也就是为何古仙武侠也属于正统仙侠流派的原因。
rough tl:
the xia of wuxia is born from the mohist ideal of bearing a sense of responsibility for the world
while the xia in xianxia focuses on the idea of "with great power comes great responsibility"
the idea of 侠 xia is secular. the idea of 仙 xian is beyond the secular - it is to pursue a life of suppressing/taming your own emotions (it does not mean to be completely removed of the ability to feel. it's a pursuit of self-realisation that makes one attain the status of a "deity" spiritually.) 仙 xian is then inherently at odds with wuxia jianghu's deep empathy and connection with the secular world, but it's also connected back to it. this is why 古仙武侠 is considered to be a part of the wuxia genre.
the relationship between xian and xia is conflicting because the former is all about distancing yourself from worldly issues while the latter necessitates an active effort to do something about them.
but it also means that both wuxia and xianxia acknowledge this weight of human emotions and connection to the world. it's just their respective responses and the outcomes they want that they differ in. what is the ideal person? wuxia says it's to be someone who can propagate and execute the ideal of doing something about this weight of your connection to the world, while xianxia says it's to learn to be at peace with that connection, and it's ok to not do anything about it actually - which might even be harder than trying to do something. (and focusing on your own cultivation can be a good thing for the world, in fact.)
with this, I hope it sounds less absurd that I'm connecting mlc's story to the concept of xianxia. lxy's life was a traditional wuxia archetype. (I've already harped on enough about how he fits into the quintessential mohist model of a xia leader.) what happens after, aka his journey as li lianhua, is the real story of mlc. it's a breakdown of that quintessential wuxia hero. it is a story in which the main conflict faced by the protagonist is to struggle with all the worldly woes including his own past and the cases' victims, in defense of the serenity he has found in the past 9 years. it is a natural battle to fight for someone such as llh because as long as you're still human, you will face the implications of human connections and the innate feeling of compassion and urge to do something about it (part of this, I guess, manifests physically in bicha breaking him down and the resistance to cure).
and relating that to an excerpt from an article discussing xianxia in relation to wuxia:
武侠剧的精神内核也是仙侠剧的精神内核，而“仙”实际上是实现新形式的“侠”的手段，由此扩展了“侠”的深度和其实施的时空范围。武侠之中的侠义精神，可以强调其自在，更强调其是自为的，前者是需要逐渐成长和觉醒的。然而对于高于人的仙而言，作为上位者的“侠”之精神，则应该是内在自觉且自为的。
rough tl:
the spirit of wuxia dramas should also be the spirit of xianxia dramas. xian should in fact be another way to bring out and explore the idea of xia.
the spirit of xia in wuxia can be an emphasis on the spirit of freedom, and even more so, the idea of agency and autonomy. the former is gained through growth and awareness. but for xian aka people who occupy a realm above the people on the ground, the xia spirit they embody should manifest in their inner awakening and agency.
it goes without saying that nobody is a deity in this show, and never will be. only in ep 40.5 it came so close to possessing that otherworldly, surreal edge, but that's all to it. deities do not exist in the mlcverse.
but but. it's interesting to point out in the ep 3 flashback when lxy walked through town in the aftermath of the sigu sect vs jym battle, commoners were heard describing it as 神仙打架 百姓遭殃 when immortals fight, commoners suffer. of course they didn't mean it literally but figuratively, that those people of wulin jianghu are high above, detached from the people on the ground. which is. contradictory to the idea of 侠 xia to begin with. so... it could even be interpreted that li lianhua living the spiritually "immortal" life embodied the xia spirit even more deeply than he did as li xiangyi the sigu sect leader, the "immortal" in the eyes of the commoners. actual immortals do not have any real attachment to the people, but a cultivated "immortal" does and is destined to feel and learn to deal with it over and over like llh did. it all comes back in a circle indeed.
#莲花楼#mysterious lotus casebook#lhl#lhlmeta#my posts#dear diary it's (only) day 45 since completion and the symptoms are getting worse#i can imagine at this moment someone putting a hand to my forehead and ask me if i'm ok#not sure if this conversation about wuxia/xianxia genres is welcomed at all but ANYWAY. i just have a lot of feelings about cn stories#i'm discussing the genres in what i think are its barest forms rather than referencing to the ways they've manifested in popular fiction#esp since i'm not as familiar with many of the classic works on a personal level#AND there are so many other elements in play in these genres!!#personally not a fan of that definition of xianxia being 'stories about mythological figures like deities monsters demons etc'#just having deities monsters etc does NOT make it xianxia. that's just 玄幻/神话 fantasy/mythology(!!!)#an interesting distinction i learnt is that mythologies like 后羿射日 and 沉香救母 could be considered as proto-xianxia#simply based on the idea of xianxia being about deities + a sense of heroism#but they would still very much be classified as mythologies instead of xianxia. there's just a lot of overlaps i guess?#went down this rabbit hole a little and just word vomitting as I go. i may not be 100% right or accurate in my interpretations so.
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i just think they’re neat :>
ford and miss tira are from manifesting familiarity, a lovely webcomic created by @sillyandquiteawkward! if you like reading stories about magic and unique, endearing characters, please consider checking it out! i’ve always really loved their strong sense for character design and have been really enjoying it so far :3
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#my art#manifesting familiarity#fanart#gonna be honest i was really enamoured with the idea of ford having ebi fry earrings#dunno if it’s canon tho#the other two are bread slices and egg in a frypan but idk if they translate well#if you’re reading this GO READ THE COMIC!!#putting all the cast in a snow globe n shaking them#really hope I did ford and tira justice orz
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LOOKIT THIS ABSOLUTELY BEAUTIFUL COLLAB ART WE DIDDDDDD!!!!! 😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍
sketch by me
lines by @oxygenisachoice
colour by @sharpenpalarie
#sobbing pissing crying#they treated my boy with such respect and care#look at himbbbbb hes SO done with the necromantic spirit being cut down rn#biggest tired energy#the skulls are his familiars he can call on to manifest themselves and help him out#the skull lighthouse is an ancient artifact all Keepers take with them on every job#its a huge wellspring of power they can utilise when dealing with pesky spirits that are Distrupting Things#the eyebeams can freeze spirits and hold them in place til he can Dispatch them#i have SO MUCH LORE you dont understand#oc#art collab#digital art#art
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im going to cry this is actually healing me
#dan and phil#dan and phil games#okay like#this is EXACTLY how the old videos were?? like humorwise???#but it's 2023 and cringe culture is dead and they're gay and happy and making jokes about it AND THE FUCKING ANNOUNCEMENT MOOSE. THE FUCKIN#THE FUCKING MOOSE WHISTLE#like sometimes when media i like is revived im low-key unhappy with it because it doesn't tickle my brain the same way but#they did it so so rigt and im not sure how but this is the most i've laughed in i don't know how long#thank you guys!!#im silently wheezing through my tears im going to go on a dan and phil games binge now :thumbs:#starting with the fnaf ones of course trying to manifest a spooky week#i really needed familiarity rn!! and unproblematic media and just good lighthearted fun i am absolutely reverting and i will be so fucking#unsufferable if you do not want to see that block the tag!!#im genuinely serious was not doing great today this video made me so so happy#okay yeah actually leaving to binge now will return maybe later to rant in tags#cue rambles
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[ID: Two pages from Trigun. In the first, Rem cries as she passionately exclaims to Vash, "Don't throw it all away! Don't let it go! Don't say you'd rather die!" Young Vash seems shocked as she exclaims that she wants to see the world together, because it's made up of more than worthless people. Rem's face is scrunched up and flushed, tears beading at her eyes as she cries.
In the second, Marlin fondly tells Vash that Meryl and Milly worry when he leaves them and that he needs to learn to let people help him out, because they want to do so. Vash seems surprised, then begins to cry. He looks similar to Rem, with flushed cheeks and tears at the corners of his eyes, as he cries, "... Don't... Just... Don't tell me something like that now!" End ID]
Like mother, like son.... [starts bawling so hard I choke to death]
[ID: Another flashback page with Rem and Vash. Vash smiles with contentment and says, "But... if you hadn't stopped me then... I never would have know that when you cry, Rem... you look like you're laughing." Rem is still teary, but she smiles happily. End ID]
Bonus :')
#trigun spoilers#trimax spoilers#i was looking at a post with this marlon+vash dialogue and then i was like. wait. that face looks familiar#and LO AND BEHOLD#i am so unwell about rem and vash SO sick in the head about them#i love you rem. genuinely an incredible character and person and you were dead before the story started#speaking of. i was saying this to percy (ty percy for listening to me :) )#but i think that the marlon bit showcases rem's ideals manifesting in the series#if you can't love the world people in it will love you and if you can't love yourself people will love you still#love keeps you alive and love keeps you alive and love keeps you alive#god. anyway#hope it's cool i used indents for the ids! i don't usually use it on my own posts but it felt more readable for this one#trigun#my posts#kay talks#described#described by me#i don't think this'll maintag so that'll be the extent of my organizational tags lmao#also hi i edited the marlon panels myself (vash's reactions are actually on a separate page) i'm pretty proud of it :)#rem saverem#vash saverem
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Less than two hours until impact, how we feeling?
#flight rising#me personally im feeling hungry. i need to go get lunch sometime. manifest some tortellini#kata's chatter#doing fairgrounds and familiars while i still can bc once the news drops i will 100% be losing my mind too bad to focus#also i wanna hang out in the imminent mass hatches
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Thinking abt. TK knowing the hospital drill, showing up with a change of clothes for the person in hospital and decent take-out so nobody's eating hospital food. He knows where all the best hospital vending machines are, too. and the best bathrooms
#aster talks#huuummmss thinking abt the way familiarity with hospitals manifests#i am v familiar with both of the local public hospitals and quite familiar with the private one my boss operates in#tk also knows that the currency of a hospital is cheese and crackers or other snacks. and the names of half the icu and er nurses#half at LEAST#kdjdhajhdhja knows them professionally as well as 'what happened this time'ily
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@snakeshand said : ` ‘ please don’t be afraid of me . ’ for satou? ´
classic tumblr | x
-- “ ... should I be? “ She’s a little confused by the others statement. What exactly was she supposed to be afraid of? Not that she’d feel afraid anyways - there was little that genuinely unnerved her, and she doubted he fit that criteria.
She seriously doubted it.
#I'm answering asks like a cool dude now.#ic. i manifest my enemies; will i manifest an early grave?#satou. violence is familiar & the touch of their fingers bitter and sweet.#hope this works!! it's short but I haven't written her in forever .#ask. please text me later the instructions to forget you.#snakeshand
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I know people hate SMT Nocturne's approach to characters but I love this shit, they feel like puddles that drag you down into an ideological sea once you start thinking on what they represent and the context of the situations the game put them in or what they say/how they act pre and during Vortex World, and their isolation from the player makes them doomed from getting any help being faced with their ugly inner selves until it's too late
#you don't NEED hyperfocused character driven narrative to have a good story you only ever need good execution#and i think there's enough subtle story telling here paired with good execution- kinda like Siren ps2#the point of that game's characters was never to have rich personal drama getting to know everything abt everyone#the point was the power of coincidences and coalescence of human will and working together even unintentionally to survive#Nocturne is similar in the approach it takes and it isn't done badly but it is a matter of preference#they're both games about surviving in worlds that are already dead before you can lift a finger & all everyone has is through as well#the isolation and sense of being strangers even with people you should know is very effective actually bc you're seeing everyone raw#you're seeing the essential ideas in their heart by stripping away a sense of familiarity among characters#what's the rule of writing where characters are by function just another manifestation of pushing themes & storytelling devices not people#all a character driven story is rly doing is trying very hard selling the illusion that a character is a person first rather than a device#whereas stories that don't do that are more obvious about characters really being thematic devices- Nocturne is doing this#& character driven stories are selling you the illusion in hopes its your gateway to getting the themes if you think of them as people#at least good character driven stories anyway- it's about baiting the audience into thinking deeper but doesn't always work well too tbf#i feel this whole discussion on character involvement is rly asking how much does it take for you to feel someone matters & that will vary#how much involvement do you have to feel from a story from a person in order to START thinking deeper on them let alone like or act/help#for me all i needed to see was Chiaki jress to know this is my favorite character and lo and behold i was right fjhdbdfndj
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love is real 💕
#myevilposts#i could fly i could fly this whole time#like everybody else. it's true. it's all all all TRUE!#i've been drowning but now i'm learning how to swim. i've been drowning but i'm learning how to breathe under water.#i love how it feels so different every time but it's still all the same. it's exciting familiarity.#i'm different.... my body can't regulate its hormones. my heart can't regulate its blood flow.#something about being held in vein. you know me.#i will not let it tint my world. rose colored glasses be damned/blessed. i'm talking about limelight.#spray paint away the green until there's nothing left but tags upon tags upon tags. 50 dollars worth even. to have is close to having....#isn't it messed up how i'm just dying to be him? or be with him. you know me.#it's nuts being dragged both opposite ways by the hair or lack thereof. what a novel idea. my initial would still be E.#sometimes (and i think it's normal but not right) i want to wrap it all up around my fingers and TUG as hard as i can until#it all comes out. drag her around until i physically can't anymore. i want to draw her. i want to draw her blood.#but i needn't worry about those things. money is green too.#and in this case so is hope.#when i say i'm gonna touch the sky. when i say i'm gonna be a star.#i mean the second one to the left. never never and all.#i wrote a little number about that and i think i might call it 'one' which is! on record! and on record! what i so crave.#i will know synchronicity! i will know intimately. everything will MANifest but not like that.#not what you're thinking. you know me.#lookin after no. 1 and all. lol. kind of ironic but it's whatevs.#he looks just like me.
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If anyone is worried about not being able to manifest with anxiety/ocd: I manifested more money and weed within a week with subs + robotic affirming. It being the holiday season wouldn’t have made a difference since the ppl I got them from wouldn’t have done so for me because one is stingy and the other is only an acquaintance/coworker
#loassumption#manifestation#anyways since I usually approach stuff like this with skepticism#I’ll take the ways my manifestations came to me as a sign that this stuff is real#learning manifestation techniques is so tricky when you’re a logical thinker#because I don’t rly like believing in things that I can’t explain#manifestation wouldn’t have ever made sense to me if I weren’t already familiar with quantum jumping#and I would have completely written off shifting if I weren’t already familiar with astral projection#and multiverse theory#letting go of materialism is an ongoing uphill battle lol#hmm realizing that since I don’t like believing in things I can’t explain…#this makes me realize I only ever believed in Christianity because I was forced to accept it as the only existing worldview#and that I would inevitably suffer eternal damnation#along with my life being gradually ruined by God because He’d be upset at me questioning anything#meanwhile my recent spiritual beliefs are my own choice after so much time discovering myself#I still love Jesus tho idc idc he’s cool#shout-out to that artist who draws Jesus#bleats#I didn’t even know Jesus had siblings???
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Some beautiful moments from my dnd session last night. Illustrated by my friend whose also in the campaign
#featuring#Malthen Imlad the Teifling Wizard#the Orphan the Changling warlock#and Tamora the cat#dnd#I’m malthen#the artist is the orphan#we were trying to identify who the ship belonged to#it was elves#my character’s mother is an elf#but we both failed#there was also a moment where we were sitting on the beach while everyone else was useful on the boat#aganazzar’s scorcher + manifest mind + cat whose not a familiar = fire breathing cat#cuz my dm is cool#to be clear#my manifest mind being Tamora riding a book was his idea
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