lucy, you're coming back to us too, right? to me?

realizing now that the ratgrinders probably DIDN'T kill lucy frostblade at all. likely, they were all killed by the same entity (jace or some other proxy of the rage goddess) at the same time and lucy was just the only one with the integrity to stay dead, instead of becoming a puppet. that's why ruben was so sad when he said she "stuck to her guns." because he wishes he had been able to be that brave instead of living with a constant anger inside him that overshadows every other part of his life! their grief is, on some level, probably genuine

but now they've passed the moral event horizon and killed buddy almost as a sort of "initiation" ritual. a messed-up version of hazing. "you can't be one of us until you die and come back wrong too"

the choice

i have an assignment due in about 15 hours - its supposed to be 1,500 words but i have over 3,000 words just in my note outline, and i have to whittle that shit down in half a day. but yknow what i did for the last 2 hours? lucy/kipperlily sleepover art

💥 kofi link in bio if you’re feeling generous 💥

i read @brennan-lee-mother 's post and well... yikes

is this the adventure you were looking for

man if i were kipperlilly i would hate kristen. kristen switches her god like twice a year and has died and come back multiple times and is as devoted to her friends as they are to her, and kipperlilly’s best friend in the whole world chose her god over coming back and being with kipperlilly

Kipperlily’s best friend was Lucy Frostblade and she feels betrayed that Lucy chose her god over coming back to life, coming back to Kipperlily.

Lucy abandoned her, and Kristen Applebees keeps coming back from the dead to live on with her party. She won’t leave them.

Kipperlily wants Kristen dead, maybe then the Bad Kids would understand what it is to feel alone.

so like…this is 100% why ivy had That Reaction to fig disguised as lucy, right? it wasn’t that she saw through the disguise, she just saw her once dead friend now revived (like the rest of the party had already been) and thought lucy finally chose ankarna (chose them)

Do you think Kipperlilly felt betrayed when Lucy didn't get up?

Lucy Fostblade keeps being more and more doomed by the narrative as we go on.

She went to the mountains of chaos with her friend where all of them were introduced to this rage god where they went with a teacher they trusted. She was probably told this was Ruvina's sibling. Someone who probably made her adopt the domain of sorrow along with winter experiencing her siblings loss more deeply.

She decided to help. Handed in papers with a name she could not yet read in hopes of sharing some of the burden of this sorrow with a god she truly cared about. But the only way to come back as a believer of the rage god was to die.

Only in death did she realise that this is not the sibling her god loved. This is not the sibling she wanted to bring back. This is not the sibling who will bring her solace. So she denied revival. She accepted death because she knew that to not will mean more pain to Ruvina. She decided to stay in purgatory, not reuniting with her or coming back, until a girl in a tie-dye shirt allowing them a place with Cassandra. That too with a power of a god she loved and was struggling as well.

And yet. She has to watch as her friends fight and fight and fight getting angrier by the second to revive a tainted version of dawn that she died to keep in bay.

She's so tragic my heart aches

you’re 15 and you’re so, so angry at the world and your friends (…?) are moving on from you and so you kill your friend, the only real one, the only person who understands you, because she’s on your side so she’ll come back, right? of course she will.

except she doesn’t. she sticks to her guns - she always has. you don’t know why this would be different.

you loved her. you thought she loved you, too.

feeling insane about kipperlily copperkettle and lucy frostblade. brennan what do you MEAN she was kipperlily's best friend. what do you mean she was "the only one who 'got it'". what do you mean she was the only one on kipperlily's side about keeping the high five heroes as the party name. brennan when i catch you brennan.

Trigger Warning for Suicidal Ideation

People keep talking about how Kipperlilly is probably mad at Lucy for not coming back. How Lucy chose to be dead rather than to be alive and with her best friend. But I wonder if Kipperlilly is mad at herself. Mad for picking the cowardly way out. For clinging to some awful, rage-filled semblance of living rather than “sticking to her guns” and dying in peace. Is she mad that she chose to live rather than stay dead with her best friend?

Maybe the rage deal in the last episode wasn’t JUST “You live but have extreme amounts of rage.” What if they were offered their wildest dreams and the rage was a clause in like microfont bc to them the gifts of achieving their goals and living seems like a great deal especially for children. The rage pushes them to achieve a goal, the rat grinders are KIDS they arnt gonna have crazy outrageous dreams and ambition at 17 years old, I knew nothing when I was that age.

You have a crush on a girl for a couple years and want to catch her attention? Bam. Get more confidence, become buff, get noticed first the first time ever. Oisin was completely unrecognizable before but now after all this?

You hate another rogue so much you want to be better than him? Bam! Kipperlily finds the rogue teacher first AND signs up for the election assuming riz would be the one to do it bc why would Kristen Applebees want to be president? Which could be an event bigger fuel to KLCK’s fire.

You want to be a famous musician and you’re jealous of a bard in school who never goes to class but has what you don’t? Bam! Ruben copies her look and produce music when she’s on hiatus as well as getting signed by her label

Mary Anne’s is small and girly she was probably bullied and wanted to make it stop, so shes now indifferent, and strong enough to stand up for herself, she sees Gorgug on the first day of school get decked in the face jsut to grow into this strong guy and sees him as inspiration

Lucy was content with life, she loved her friends, loved her god and knew the rage wasn’t what she wanted to have to live with. The resurrection is supposed to help them feel fulfilled but she’d just be more unsatisfied with life if she took the offer. Lucy was happy with what she had, and had no further aspirations, she loved her god and 'stuck to her guns'

Buddy dawn a follower of helio, watches the chosen one of his church abandon everything, he’s sad and confused as to why she did what she did. He dies and is offered the chance to become the chosen one for an unnamed god, he’s scared, helio is missing, and if Kristin took an offer from a new god and was okay why wouldn’t he be?

The rat grinders were scared kids who needed a miracle, and one was offered CHILDREN WILL SCREAM FOR HELP UNTIL THEY ARE ARE OFFERED SANCTION, IT DOESN’T MATTER WHO THE SAVIOR IS

Okay but what if this is a cosmic Monkey’s Paw situation Kipperlilly is fucking MISERABLE right now. Like, she was a shithead teen that was jealous of Riz for having a dead dad and a ‘tragic backstory’ because it ‘made him a better adventurer and was an unfair advantage’, and then on her first real mission her entire party got killed and coerced into serving an evil rage god, except for her very best friend who stayed dead. And she HATES IT. It’s like one of those old fairytales where a kid doesn’t do their chores and talked back to their parents, so their parents abandon them and the child gets eaten by a demon and somehow that’s ‘justice’, so you better behave kid! I mean, Ankarna IS a corrupted goddess of justice. It just seems funny to me that she’s LIVING her tragic backstory RIGHT NOW after complaining to Jawbone for two years about not having one. And the worst part is, from a CERTAIN PERSPECTIVE, she was a little bit right. Kipperlilly DID only start doing actual adventuring and rouge shit after she was forced to by an evil god who killed her and is currently holding her friend hostage. Like, it didn’t have to be that way. She could have done that stuff at any time. But her current ‘tragic situation’ is what’s currently FORCING her to get off her ass and adventure. Just the most fucked up, disproportional, unfair approximation of cosmic ‘justice’ imaginable.

Anyway this is a theory??? I guess. Just a direction I hope the story goes in/acknowledges. Because it would be funny