#lucky number 7 how abt that...
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SEMBREAK 🫶🏼 gna be productive hehe
#🌙.rambles#random thought first but i love how 14 is basically apollo n i's lucky number ><#with ff14 n. when we were 14 y/o. & then 14 x 2 is 28. we were born on the 28th. 14 / 2 is 7. we were born sometime 7 in the morning#& 7 is the perfect number. you see. apollo when you're w me life is perfect 🥺#oh my god thinking abt it n i'm really grateful to have a twin. it means so much to be so be so comfortable n at peace with another#nyways i'm gna try to do what i can#i still feel v lost and confused. as usual honestly. as is my wont#but i love my curiosity. the way i question things. my desire to learn of everything#there's sm i have to do n i have regrets but#now i think. for this. it's still not too late to do what i can#there's always more to learn. n i'll do my best as to not make the same mistake as before#oh dear i keep on switching from different contexts but that makes it more interesting w the confusion here tho ig c:#it's not like. when i turn a year older. things r gna automatically change#but the idea of that milestone of that new number scared me rn i think. but it's not like. no. i can hold unto my youth#w/o any impending tasks to do rn w school placing a burden on me. i think i can actually rest now#not entirely from my mind but. without that pressure i'll definitely manage better n be more lenient n patient w my time#3 more days though ofc i'm anxious ;w;;#but i'll try to do what i can. even if it's not enough for me. even if that hurts. even if i'm not enough#maybe. maybe for someone else out there i am already worthy of. being proud of? maybe i have genuinely helped. even a bit#if i can be like that to others. if i can see others that way. then surely somewhere out there i too am the recipient of#similar love and care i give to others. right? even if i can only know for certainty within my own self. that's proof enough that it's real#n as long as it's real. living. then there'll always be hope.#not sure who'll read this but. a reminder to any other lonely soul out there#that said i'm gna try to yeah this break i wna fix my tumblr n a lot of stuff. sob goals i've had for so long#but that's alright. we have all the time in the world. no one but my own self is rushing me. i owe myself more patience#so i'll continue to try my best to just do what i can and be satisfied with that. i'm sorry if it's not enough.#but i'll try to not dwell on my regrets. i owe myself better than that. for all i've been through. you too.#& if i could just give back even a portion of all the kindness i've ever been given. i don't think i deserve it from you all but thank you#thank you nonetheless and. perhaps that would be enough comfort for me in this lonely world. a moment of respite from the pain.#& that could be enough. to hold unto what's important to me. to remember all that. ILL DO MY BEST
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One by One 6/7 (final chapter part a)
PRELUDE
You were snooping around Loki's stuff to find his chest full of sex toys. He was not very pleased about it and has decided to punish you by using all his toys on you, one by one...
based on this imagine |
previous main masterlist
Warnings: use of "pet" names, BDSM, dom Loki, sub reader, female reader
MINORS DNI
NO PROOF READING
You were waiting. And all you did was to wait for Loki, but Saturday did not come, and neither did you..(XD). Loki was pulled into a mission, and it just kept getting extended week after week. You worked for Tony and occasionally for SHIELD, you hated Hydra, but this time the hate was personal.
Those damned creatures kept Loki away from you, kept you from his glorious dick, how dare they!
Private Number : Prepare yourself, I won’t be stopping this time, little pet. -L
You knew exactly who this was, your heart started beating fast receiving his text like this, was the wait over? Although you decided to tease him a little bit.
You : who dis?Private Number : You are asking for trouble y/n, you know perfectly well “who dis” is.You : idk, it’s been so long, i might have forgotten
Private Number : I see, perhaps my little dove needs a thorough reminding.
Him addressing you as “his” little dove made your heart soar. You have been working with him for so long, but didn’t realize that he even saw you as a friend let alone “his”. This was a conversation for future you. Much much later in the future, after you get a ride on his glorious, beautiful cock, mmm, definitely after that.
Your thighs rubbed against each other, you would definitely not mind Loki “reminding” you. Though you didn’t know how much of anything you would retain once he started to fuck you.
You : When will u be back??Loki : Eager are we?
You imagined he must be chuckling lightly at your desperation.
Loki : Soon enough dove. And until then, you will save your sweet nectar for me and only me. Not even your own fingers should have a taste of what is mine!
Oh god, you were already desperate for him, using your own fingers to mimic his, trusting you silicon friend more often than not, and he wanted you to wait?
You : 😭😭Loki : Are you that happy?You : Wats there to be happy abt? U r being unfair.
You waited for him to say something but figured he was busy or maybe he didn’t deem this important enough to discuss. His word was final, he was letting you torture yourself, make you wait.
You receive occasional texts from him, which did not help at all.
Loki : I am having the finest chocolate and I still want you on my tongue.Loki : Darling, do you know the traffic light system?You : ???Loki : Hmm, I suggest you look into it...
??? Seriously, what was this man thinking? You were now concerned for your safety. But the idea of Loki going feral on you turned you on more than it scared you. An inner voice told you that you should probably seek help, but, when have you listened to it when it concerned Loki?
After a week or so, you fell into a routine with him, texting him whenever you got some time. On days when he didn’t text you, you worried. And then patiently waited, hoping he was well. But it was impossible for you to wait, you almost went against his words to relieve yourself, but stopped at the very end.
Then one day you were not so lucky, and very very very desperate. Your will power broke, and you had one of the best orgasms in a while, almost as good as the ones Loki gave you. The waiting does add to the intensity.
But now you are scared. You knew you cannot lie to Loki, he is the god of lies, but you didn’t want to confess to him either. You were already in this arrangement because you were going through his stuff behind his back, and now you broke his rule.
As a few days passed the guilt ate you from the inside, so you confessed to him over text. His reply was worse than anything you could have expected. It was an “OK.”, that too with a full stop! You were expecting him to reprimand you, but this meant only one thing, that he will take care of this matter when he arrives.
Loki : My place, right now.
This is the text you had been waiting for! Fcking finally. Finally some fucking! The last two weeks took a toll on you, not only did you abide by Loki’s rule and were super frustrated, you were also anxious about how Loki would punish you, for breaking his rule.
You were prepared for this evening for a very long time, you even bought a new pair of dark green lingerie for him.
As you walked towards his door, it hit you. The delicious smell, coming from his place, filled the whole corridor. Did he get you food? Before you even knocked the door, he opened it (damn his god powered hearing).
You immediately went in for a hug. “I missed you! You took too long for this!”. His hands wrapped around you, pulling you into him, then you felt him breathing you in. “And we both know that you lack any patience…” he whispered into your hair, which made you stiffen immediately, prompting a chuckle out of him.
(To be continued)
Thankyou for reading my work. And, well.. just thankyou.
TAGLIST: @lokixryss@alyeskathewave@ladymischief11@tukes@yelkmelk@crimson25
#loki#loki imagine#loki marvel#marvel mcu#mcu loki#loki smut#loki x you#dom!loki smut#loki x reader#lee!reader
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-> OC TAG GAME
tagged by the incredible and talented @carlosoliveiraa to fill this out; tysm! loved reading abt your girlies ♡
forgive any duplicate tags, but here's some no pressure tags: @vendettavalor (free meme for the rp blog babey!), @captastra , @alexxmason , @kourumi , @ollierachnid , @perpetuagf , and anybody else who wants to fill it out! tried to remember as many folk as i could-
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name: otsune tomo (westernized: tomo otsune)
nickname: the lone wanderer, that kid from vault 101, kid
gender: agender nonbinary
star sign: i could only go to 2035 with the site i use, so i just used that as their birth year. but theoretically, they'd be a cancer sun, scorpio moon, and virgo rising.
personality type: enfp (the campaigner). very friendly, energetic, creative and innovative. an absolute nerd (taking after their dad; but with their mother's gentle heart)
height: 5’2
orientation: pansexual
nationality/ethnicity: japanese-american. james (father) is japanese-american as well, and catherine (mother) was japanese.
favorite fruit: pears
favorite season: late summer/early autumn. not too hot, not too cold.
favorite scent: snow and pine. when they first experienced winter outside of the vault, they found it very... interesting. it wasn't really matching what the books in the vault had said, but it was still interesting to see how the coldness of the air changed the smell of the landscape. but when they went through the operation anchorage simulation? felt and smelt a true, proper winter? it was their favorite thing they'd experienced (even if muddled by the everything else).
coffee, tea, or hot chocolate: they really enjoyed tea, though it's hard to come across in tact leaves (or even steepable bags) in the wasteland. harder yet to come across purified water, at least until after project purity is up. still, they miss the variable drink supply of the vault
average hours of sleep: somewhere between 4 and 7, though it depends really on what's going on. fresh out of the vault, they barely slept due to the stress of not knowing what was going on. even when simms gave them the key to the house in megaton, they were just. too stressed. the best sleep they had was honestly the two weeks they were out after project purity came online and knocked them out skdjdkdk.
dogs or cats: dogs. they haven't had the chance to meet a cat 😭 but even if they did, i imagine they'd be a dog person solely bc of dogmeat.
dream trip: i would say space but... they did that. and it was hell (shoutout mothership zeta; forever one of my top dlcs ever). they'd probably just like to go anywhere! there's a big world out there that they've been so sheltered from, and everything they've seen so far has been so fascinating.
number of blankets: in the vault, it was two. outside of the vault, it was one if they were lucky.
random fact: tomo has a ballpoint stick-and-poke tattoo that reads XXI : VI, the roman numerals for revelations 21:6. it's on their collarbone, above their heart, as a little homage to their mother.
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ok ranking hands geo edition. it was hard bc they all have extremely pretty hands so im struggling more than expected
#7 despite everything, 6/10: yunjin
she is EXTREMELY graceful with her hands and has so much control but alas there's nothing more. the hands are pretty. but they deserve decoration. however considering her design im inclined to think there's nothing for good reasons so she still gets a good score
#6 entirely bc im not really into armors, 6.5/10: noelle
it also looks like a skeleton so i have mixed feelings abt it. she protects her hands tho and i respect that
#5 kinda boring but the archon blackout arms carried, 7/10: zhongli
i wonder how his hands feel if they're actually like his archon design. like touching rocks? what abt when he uses geo. does the glow feel different. idk
#4 not his best feature but still cute, 7/10: gorou
technically he gets the same score as zhongli but he wins bc of his little rawr at the end of his NA animations. i love it. i love him
#3 one and oni but still number three with an 8/10: itto
i love his hands dont get me wrong. the nail polish, the big ass.. bracelet? ion know. it looks good and suits him. i also like to think that his hands are big enough to circle my thigh effortlessly but that's another discussion
#2 my favorite prince, 9/10: albedo
he could get a 10. he would get a 10 if i were to listen to my simp ass. but this time the two-toned gloves bother me slightly. they should be dark blue. however he's an artist and i wish he'd hold me like he holds this little twig. i can't be a little twig but i make a good little twink (helpme)
#1 and a win for the lesbians, 10/10: ningguang('s skin)
her og design also wins tbh bc i love the claws. anyway this hand is magnificent. it's graceful, it's pretty, it's delicate yet she just has to snap her fingers and you get hit with a rock. beidou is a lucky woman. i love women
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more isohel lore bc ummm why not (spoilers under the cut)
reader starts working on the courtyard, building it from east to west. she starts talking to joshua on the east end, the pond eridenus is located in the middle and it's where a big chunk of the main events happen, and when they finally meet again it's on the west end ... so idk if this makes sense but it's almost as if the story is progressing like the sun—from east to west!
i don't think this was too hard to catch bc it was mentioned when reader and he talked abt the poem, but joshua giving the reader the hyacinths was him asking for forgiveness and reader taking the hyacinths and giving one to him was not only her way of accepting his apology but also her way of asking for her own forgiveness for leaving him before she even did it bc i think she knew she was going to end up doing it
room 77 is kind of like reader's home in the castle ... people in that room are among the few to treat her normally. like despite mr. park's snappiness, he doesn't treat her differently or worse than the others bc that's just how he is ... anyways the point is room 77 is a great place for her and i chose the number 77 bc in ancient greece the lucky number was 7 and the room was like her place of luck and peace
the dream reader had abt joshua with wings was less of her seeing him as an angel and more of seeing him as icarus. reader mentioned how she thought the story of icarus and phaethon were similar, and she hinted at seeing joshua in the same light as phaethon and that's where i got the idea of having her have a dream about him as icarus, except she doesn't rly understand what the dream means which is why i'm not sure if it's easy to pick up on
story begins in the early summer time bc that's when the hyacynthia festival is supposed to take place
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day in the life:
monday !!
at home; right now i’m just waiting on my mom to be done getting ready. my outfit is really cute today !! i have a pink shirt, navy skirt, white socks, and doc martins. my mom bought me a fidget ring yesterday and it honestly has helped a lot since then. i have costume design, acting 1, algebra, and voice & movement today. honestly my only class that will probably be an issue is voice and movement cause i’m wearing a skirt… i’m sure it’ll be okay. maybe i should bring pants lol. i also got a new phone case !! it’s so cute i love it, it has a shark on it !! something abt me is i love sharks with my entire heart. they are my favorite animal ever ever ever !! i’m gonna try to get a marine biology internship/college credit this summer. although i do want to be an actress my “fall back” is marine biology. i’ve always been interested in it and it’s always been my second choice right next to acting. my school opens at 7:20 am and classes start at 8:25 and i still haven’t left my house lol. it’s 7:55. but i’m also usually always almost late but i never am because i never he caught by the teachers on tardy patrol. lucky me !! i’ve been listening to katrina stuart non stop recently, her music rlly making me feel some type of way.
in the car; finally driving to school !! i just put on lipgloss which is hello kitty, so cute. found out my first rehearsal for districts is tmr during lunch & learn.. problem is is that i have to make up a science quiz. i’m going to try and do both. okay update: turns out i cannot do both because science isn’t open tuesday for lunch & learn. that’s kinda stupid tbh. but yk teachers gotta eat too ig. so i get to go to rehearsal !! last year i didn’t even have a chance at districts because i was new so i’m very happy it’s student directed for hs, and one my my friends is directing. i can admit, he can be a little mean so i’m a little scared to get yelled at if he gets pissed or smth but i think it will be okay.
costume design; now i’m in tech “costume design”. freshmen have to take this class but it’s rlly fun. and my man is in it. i’ve alr seen him looking at me once so yay. 2 of my bsfs are in this class too and we’re making little animal stuffed animals. nothing else is rlly happening but i’ll update if something interesting happens !!
lunch & learn; LOL i was doing things ALLLL of acting 1 so i couldn’t write, sry abt that. but now i’m helping my friend lexi with her districts number. she’s doing a group MT number to “what i was born to do” from bring it on the musical. it’s so good, everyone is so talented !! lexi is such a good singer, can u believe she isn’t in MT?? she’s in PT with me, i think that’s crazy. she deserves MT !! last year i gave the guy i liked a cookie everyday so i’m gonna try and do that again today, hopefully it doesn’t come off weird..
going home; i did not fill in anything for my last period but it was okayish. i did give him the cookie and he said “ur so sweet.” so that’s nice. but now i’m starting to think he’s not interested in me or smth like that.. or he thinks i’m annoying. i’m probably overreacting but he said “it’s fine” instead of “it’s okay”. it felt passive aggressive. but also that’s just how he talks irl so i have no clue. i’m probably overreacting tbh.
that was my school day !! i’ll post some more later 🤍🤍
#girlblogger#michael cera#pink#lana del rey#ryan gosling#tumblr 2013#lizzy grant#coquette#day in the life#crush
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140 questions😋
Pick a question and I'll answer🤗
Then I'll pick and you'll answer
#till we're tired#😋
1.scars?
2.crush?
3.fears?
4.someone you would die for?
5. someone you hate?
6.someone you can tell anything to?
7. have you ever smoked?
8. have you ever drunk alcohol?
9. have you ever done 'bad' drugs?
10. last time you cried?
11.bestfriends?
12.favourite colour?
13. lucky number?
14. birthday?
15. bi/straight/gay?
16. eye colour?
17. hair colour?
18. best body part?
19. obsession?
20. if you had 3 wishes, what would they be?
21. male or female?
22. kiss or hug?
23. nicknames people call you?
24. favourite song?
25. favourite thing?
26. worst thing that ever happened too you?
27. best thing that ever happened too you?
28. something you would change about yourself?
29. full name?
30. worst mistake?
31. something your proud of?
32. your dream?
33. watch the movie or read the book?
34. ever tried to kill yourself?
35. favourite TV show?
36. ever self harmed?
37. ever caught a virus, disease or sickness?
38. special talents?
39. do you ever wish you could start over?
40. ever been abused?
41. abused anyone?
42. ever had a near death experience?
43. someone you can't tell anything too?
44. Virgin?
45. Any tattoos?
46. Are u single or taken?
47. someone who knows all your secrets?
48. someone who's secrets you know?
49.single or taken?
50.middle name?
51.last kiss?
52girl bestfriend?
53boy bestfriend?
54favourite song?
55 ever cheated on ur bae /boo b4
56 u wish to fuck me someday?
57 first kiss?
58 play any sports?
59 one secret?
60 who do you hate?
61 longest relationship?
62 who do you like?
63 what do you like in a boy?
64 what do you like in a girl ?
65 what's favourite number/colour?
66 what area do you live?
67 age?
68 Hobbies?
69 one thing you can't live without?
70 ever had sex?
71 Are you naughty?
72 Ever exchanged nudes?
73 Favorite body part of your opposite gender?
74 ever maked out?
75 Wanna explore me?
76 Wanna kiss me?
77 Wanna date me?.
78 your bra size
79 do u wear bra
80 can u let me touch u
81 hug me
82 favorite sex position
83 have a guy have kissed u
84 hav some1 evr seen ur boobs or dick
85 favorite cloth
86 ever feel like hvn sex
87 will u like to sex me
88 best hubby
89 can u let me suck u
90 favorite annual
91 What do you wish to do now if I were there?
92 What are u wearing now?
93. What's ur plan for the day?
94. When last did you play naughty with a guy in real life and flirt?
95 What do u think of when u masturbate OR touche urself sexually?
96 Show me outline of ur boobs/dick thru ur cloth
97 What do u like doing during romance?
98 Dine annal before?
99 see us together in nearest future or whiling away time?
100 When last did you have sex
101 what do you love the most on ur body
102 Glad we are friends or feel like punching mt face most times?
103 What you enjoy most during sex
104 How many are you in your family?
105 What comes to ur mind when you think of me or hear my name mentioned?
106 What's the colour of ur pantie and bra Now, and what type are u wearing?
107 Do you believe in God?
108 Like ur natch shaven or hairy?
109 How u like your man/woman to dress
110 What you like and love most abt me?
111 Would you go to swimming with me?
112 Your worst regret about me?
113 Your most erotic and naughty thoughts about us, in the past or now.
114 Would you love a massage by my own hands?
115 Can you suck me?
116 What's your biggest fear about me?
117 Who do you love most in your life?
118 Will you like to be mine if given the opportunity?
119 What's your best meal?
120 What would you do if we are cuddled at night and I am getting aroused, and rain is falling?
121 Do you love me?
121 what your best fruit?
122 Any great plan for the future?
123 Your best ally in decision taking
124 Your first kiss, where and with whom?
125 What am I to you?
126 Who am I to you?
127 What type of movie do u like watching?
128 Who made you smile most today?
129 What lead to your break up in your last relationship, and do you have any person in mind under consideration?
130 When last did you pray?
131. Who is your worst enemy in life?
132 What do you hate most about me?
133. Who am I to you?
134. What's the colour of ur pantie/boxershorts now?
135. Can you kiss me if I were with u alone now?
136 . What's ur plan in life?
137. Can you marry me if I am ready now?
138. When last did u speak with your mother or father?
139. Do u have a serious relationship or lover?
140. Do you love me? 🤗😘😍💯
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IM GONNA KILL I ORDERED THEM WRONG KEYHOLE JULES IS SUPPOSED TO COME BEFORE BLUE STAR JULES but im too lazy to fix it so. Take that
but i doodled all tha julian designs i could remember throughout my lobcoro playthru including the scuffed ass Wellcheers ego gift julian
Love this guy he had no idea he was abt to become my fav. Fun fact he was the 7th employee ever made in my game and i really love that bc 7 is a lucky number and hes a lucky guy. Eva was the 2nd employee :-) Buggy may have been the first? IDK
Anyways heres da separate ones under a cut i guess
Fun fact when drawing the key hole one a cockroach climbed onto my couch and i lost my shit so everything from then on was made by a broken man which is my excuse for the gif being out of order
Beard julian is fresh after he got revived so his crown of thorns got blasted into oblivion and he picked uo wellcheers and void dream. He couldve been cute he just needed to learn how to trim his goddamn face. Bluestar jules is still goofy and fun but just faced with even more horrors than before god bless
The loop labels mean nothing, he’s been thru countless ones, but I labeled my separate playthroughs as different loops for whatever
#Wtf. how did i not notice. I stared at it for so long to double check. Eats my shoe#Anyways#My 3 am hijinks. Maybe i should make art when i am more rested#Sorry for so much lobcorp doodles btw i love them sooo much#ocs#julian#I lied im not sorry
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i was tagged by @dreamingautomata :D
nicknames: lumi, angel
sign: cancer :[
song stuck in my head: gibson girl by ethel cain
height: 5′3
followers: 87 but a lot of them are mutuals old blogs that they moved from
amount of sleep: like 6 or 7 depending on how much my cat decides to terrorize me in the early hours
lucky number: 4 but i want it to be 6
dream job: character designer but also writer but also librarian
wearing: matching white pjs with blue flower pattern :arm flexing:
movies / books that summarize me: last night in soho, through the looking glass (THE BOOK !!!)
favorite instrument: violin bcuz i play it but i looooove the cello and the bassoon
favorite song: so many but rn it’s sane by haley heynderickx
aesthetic: im like if wednesday addams loved the color pink but was still a loser
favorite author: dostoevsky (IM SORRY :sob:)
favorite animal noise: cat.....and also whale song
random: it is so irritating that everyone thinks plague is a horsemen of the apocalypse IT IS NOT !!!!! the horsemen are conquest, war, famine, and death. plague is a tool that death uses and i am tired of conquest erasure !!!!!!!!
if u want to do this u can just say i tagged u bcuz i get shy abt tagging ppl
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tag games where we share random miscellaneous details abt ourselves have a place near & dear 2 my heart <3
tagged by @turtle183 (hiii)
Nickname: lono (pronounced low-no), but only to close friends & family. it's like an intimate warm prod to my heart whenever i hear it! someone i grew up closely with couldn't say my name when she was young :')
Sign: aries i guess? i'm a cuspie so diff websites or books will tell me diff things. i felt like i was lied to when i read something other than pisces when i was like 16. costar says i'm aries sun, aries moon, pisces rising. idk what any of that means and i dont intend to learn.
Height: 5'8"
Last thing I googled: best facial sunscreen for oily skin (and lemme tell u....i haven't found one yet ://)
Number of followers: i appreciate the secrecy tumblr gives us for this & i'm gonna keep it that way ! not a lot though for how long i've been on here tbh. someone comes, someone goes :)
Lucky number: 7 but not because it's a stereotypical lucky number, it was just the number i knew the most multiplication timetables for when i was little (up to 7x9. it wasn't impressive.)
Favorite color: it used to be yellow...it might still be yellow. who knows
Dream job: ew sorry
Movies/books that summarize me: uuuuhhhh fuckin uhh....the princess bride. the little white horse by suzanne something that my mom's old teaching assistant got me for my birthday when i was really little. ladybird? idk this is hard and i dont know how to distill myself
Favorite song: i hope you know that this is literally impossible to choose but let's say clay pigeons by blaze foley
Favorite instrument: cello, but viola has a soft spot since it's the only thing i've actually truly known how to play
Aesthetic: can i mix them? you have to mix them. something something cottagecore queer punk farmgirl
Favorite author: barbara kingsolver
Favorite animal noise: tie between horse nickers and the mmrp? cats do when u pet them while they're sleeping
Random: oh god oh fuck this feels like a space for a fun fact. monkeys make me uncomfortable and something's wrong with my left pinky finger but idk what. i made a quiche last week that wasn't very good and i think it's still in the fridge. i'm trying out a new glycolic acid serum. i wish i was as brave as my mom is when it comes to picking up bugs. ooh i get to see her next week :)
i'm tagging @fucking-pimberly-i-guess @knivescha0 @gentlelibrarian @bootygametoostrong @dread-nautilus @theroyaltenenblarghs @callmepippin (why do i feel so anxious anytime i tag people oh god) no pressure but i'd also like to see y'alls answers 👁👄👁
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* jennie kim, 22, she/her | oh, them? that’s veronica park. they’ve lived in carina bay for, like, their whole life. last time i spoke to them they were a dog walker and hairdresser and if i remember correctly, they’re an aquarius. seeing them around always makes me think of stickers on a suitcase, midnight on the interstate, and the ritualistic removal of the glitter and glitz of a long night out: a transformation back to self.
A HISTORY
veronica grew up middle class as they come. her parents went all in on the american dream: the house in the suburbs, the nuclear family, the dog and the picket fence. she was born their first child, and grew up in the orion avenue area with her little brother just behind her. there were no great tragedies in her childhood. they were happy and they got by, and that’s something she’ll always remember.
veronica strives in the spotlight. she’s always loved getting a little extra attention. she took up cheer in middle school and used it to her advantage: she wasn’t cruel, but she certainly soaked up being able to create a cool girl persona for herself. her parents were glad she had the extracurricular, and she reveled in becoming one of the faces most well known of her class.
high school comes around and it’s more of the big same. she continues to be generally well liked and popular. for three years, she frequents party scenes, tries to get to as many people as she cans, but all the while, she never really stopped to make like. meaningful lasting connections. like she’s the kinda girl to say she loves you the night you meet her but then you don’t hear from her for weeks. she was kind of that person that everyone knew and was pretty much cool with but asides from a few exceptions didn’t have many real friends just casual pals and people she could party with.
her senior year, someone wrote on the third stall in the one nice girl’s bathroom at school that she was a superficial bitch. no one paid as much mind to it as she did. because in all reality, it was right. she cared about the wrong things for the wrong reasons. she drove around for a couple hours listening to kelly clarkson and really trying to figure her ish out and ultimately decided to try to be more real with people. she wanted things to be honest and she wanted the people that liked her to like her for who she was not just because she was cool to hang out with sometimes.
a side effect of making her circle small was that she really got clingy to people who were nice to her plain and simple. enter theodore. they met a while after that, but while she was still kinda trying to find herself beyond trying to be the most likable person in a room. he took to the amount of her real self she showed, and he made her feel special. it was fun and fast and just special to be with him. but it got super serious super fast once she found out she was pregnant.
pregnancy tw when she found out she was pregnant, she prepared to take it in stride. with theodore, she really felt like maybe she could pull all of this off, and be the kind of person who roots themselves in family, because it’s how she got by as a kid. she knew that an unplanned pregnancy as young as they were wasn’t really the most statistically sound foundation for her family and the rest of her life to be built on, but she figured it was worth a shot. she started to pursue a more serious relationship with theodore and finished up obtaining her cosmetology license and really tricked herself into feeling like she had this on lock.
things were okay for a while. and then they weren’t. she wanted to be around for theo and with penelope but she still felt Wrong. she was doing something for the wrong reasons again, sticking around because it was the thing to do and not because she was ready to devote herself to raising this child for literally the rest of her life.
the night she left, she wrote theo a letter explaining why she had to go. she really still had no idea who she was or what she wanted and it wasn’t fair to him to be saddled to someone who couldn’t even tell you who she was. she left an envelope of recent commissions, and a promise that she’d continue to chip in financially while she was gone, but she needed a minute to collect herself.
a minute turned to almost two years living with her aunt in atlanta. it hurt her to know she was missing out on benchmarks in penelope’s life, but overall, she knew this was her own choice and doing. she kept her promise, sending not just her part of the rent but little trinkets to her daughter from time to time. she never expected real correspondence from theodore, so she’s not sure whatever happened with that, but it was her vain attempt at making it a little easier to sleep at night.
after some soul searching, she’s finally back in carina and a lot more Authentic than ever before. she feels ready to attend to the fires she left simmering and ready to own up to things she would have hid before. she’s really trying bottom line here
THE LEGEND
don’t call her ronni. unless u are one of her roller derby buddies from atlanta who knew her as Raw-Me Ronni it’s illegal :/ veronica or v and other various pet names are just fine though
make no mistake high school v never took being miss Thing to a mean place. she was never cruel, but there was always something just,,, kinda spacey about her, because she was nice enough and fun to have at a party but she really is the chameleon type of person to adjust 2 whatever her surroundings were. she’s a little fake in that sense and there are times people have been able to scope cracks in her facade to see that she’s more shallow than she lets on
she’s weirdly zen now like she worked out her stuff and she’s come back a lot less high strung than before catch her doing yoga on the beach in the early mornings with the oldsters
pansexual princess
her relationship w her parents isn’t as phenomenal as it once was just bc. she showed her whole ass with the skipping town shit but she is still fairly close w her brother
she can find herself slipping back into old habits and kinda just agreeing to things for the sake of being agreeable and likable or acting out because of the attention it brings so look out
week days she pretty diligently devotes herself to keeping up work and meeting w theodore and penelope but the weekends unless she has explicit plans that require her 2 keep it Professional and good influence-y she’s probably throwing down some..... old habits die hard
ill write up some wc after i shower :P
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hello! ive been a really big fan of your work for a little over a year now and seeing you pursue art is very inspiring! if you don’t mind sharing, i would love to know how you were able to push yourself into freelancing?
well, first off, to be absolutely transparent: a huge, huge part of it was that i was able to crash with my family for 7-8 months when i was first getting off the ground, so i had a safety net as i figured things out. i'm not trying to say it's impossible without that but it would be really irresponsible for me to answer this like "i worked really hard and did my best :)" and not mention that in the beginning i was able to start off with that kind of security.
if i hadn't been able to do that i still would have been pushing to be able to go fulltime on my own, but it probably would have taken a lot longer -- not just bc of the technical limitations of how quickly i'd be able to save up money but also bc of (reasonable, justifiable) fear. it's significantly more difficult to try stuff out if you have "if this doesn't work, i'm not gonna be able to pay rent this month" hanging over your head. so i would say a huge part of my advice on this is even if u don't have the opportunity to lean on a support system as u figure things out, make sure you're secure in SOME way before trying to start, bc it's not healthy or viable to fling yourself into it with "either this takes off or i'm FUCKED" as the framework. even now, family support is part of it, bc i'm married and my wife's work is steady -- if i have a rough month or something comes up and i don't hit the numbers i wanted to we're still okay. i'm very lucky that i have that cushion and i appreciate when other creatives are candid about how unsteady this work can be so i wanna offer that kind of frankness as well.
i started my patreon way before i was actually thinking of going fulltime independent, when i still had a (low paying, but stable) day job, and initially i just thought of it as like, "it would be nice if this could bring in a little extra to make things less stressful." i wasn't at all expecting the response i got when i first opened my patreon and that was what kind of rekindled my interest and made me think, like, "hey, maybe this CAN be a job, maybe people WILL actually care abt the stuff i'm passionate about." i am also not bringing this up to try to say it's impossible if u don't have a successful patreon! my point is that u can ease into it as a side thing first and that can give u some footing and confidence, and "security" can just mean that not all your eggs are in one basket.
and in line with that, a big reason i was able to push and start seeing hope and possibility in making a living with my own work was bc i started committing myself to producing only what i was excited about and what i cared about. that sounds corny but i really really mean it. when i used to be preoccupied with what would Get Engagement or Be Popular it just straight up didn't work. when i said "fuck it, i'm just going to draw vampires and catboys all day because it's fun," suddenly people started paying attention, in a real and lasting and supportive way, bc ppl respond to honesty and joy. i think it's rly important to make a name for urself doing What You Actually Care About, bc then u cultivate an audience who Actually Cares About What You Actually Care About. as an example, i do care abt my mental health work (otherwise i wouldn't do it), but it's not what i want to be KNOWN for as an artist and it's not what i choose to center in my patreon etc. any time one of my mental health comics goes viral i get a huge burst of followers, then a lot of them slowly trickle off as they realize i'm not just Relatable Depression Guy. but the ppl who follow me for vampires and catboys stay and stay and stay. i get commissioned by people who want me to draw vampires and catboys and shitty sexy villains. my repeat clients are the ones who love the way i draw ocs. the vast majority of my longterm patrons are the ones who are invested in my original work. if u chase stuff u don't actually care abt for shortterm returns, i think ur potential clients will also be shortterm -- and that's not meant to be a dig at ppl who move on if an artist stops doing what they're interested in, bc that's natural, but i mean u won't be able to sustain work that u don't care about and so naturally whatever following and clientbase u've built on a foundation u don't care about can't be sustained either. don't assume u can force yourself to do art u aren't excited abt the same way u can w other jobs -- i could force myself out of bed and into the store even if i felt like shit when i worked grocery and make my way through the shift like a zombie, but somehow it’s not the same for art, even though it’s my favorite thing to do in the world.
so, tldr: i was able to ease my way into it slowly and safely (and ppl should do that however they can, at whatever pace is realistic, bc u cannot make art if ur fucking starving); i tried it out a bit at a time while i still had steady employment to gain confidence and figure out what worked; and i focused on only putting out what i feel excited about doing, to make sure that what i build my living on is sustainable and fun for me, and to make sure the people who support me care abt the same kind of art that i do. i think this, along with working really hard on building and maintaining a healthy relationship w art and the concept of "productivity" (something that is really, really difficult and that i still work on every day) have been the most important foundational things for me.
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im delaying anemo bc it's gonna tear me apart fr so. electro
#10 regrettably they are extremely forgettable, 2/10: yae
i hope she makes up for it in skills bc on god these are bland as hell. once again, do better. extra point for being a lesbian (#ally)
#9 it pains me but i have to stay true to myself, 3/10: razor
these gloves are ugly. he's forgiven because god knows for how long he's been wearing them but they're ugly. the color sucks and the thumb is too light. he gets an extra point for the goofy yawn tho. and a kiss on the nose bc he's still my son(in law)
#8 i don't have much to say, 4.5/10: keqing
this made me realize she has a very pretty design tho. i like the colors, it's kinda minimalistic but the gradient makes it cool. good job
#7 i don't remember how her og outfit looks like, 5/10: fischl
i like the rings. it's not much but i like the rings
#6 afraid to rank her there bc of her obsession with the number 5, sorry queen, 5.5/10: sara
girl just can't win. i kinda like it but it looks clunky. i couldn't hold it comfortably yk, and that's what im looking for here. it suits her tho, untouchable deity. good job still
#5 favorite alcoholic, 6/10: beidou
also kinda clunky but less, and the design makes up for it. when she cracks her knuckles im torn between moaning and cringing at the noise. don't crack your knuckles in front of me
#4 couldn't keep her massive titty out of frame, 6.5/10: lisa
it's simple but it works. she's really elegant with her fingers too, so extra point. love her, can't wait to see and get her skin
#3 of course she made it to the top 3 she's that bitch, 8/10: kuki
her hands aren't the best feature of her design but still worthy of an 8. two-toned gloves, not all of her fingers are covered AND nail polish? gave me everything i wanted here. only issue is how small her hands are. i like long hands sorry
#2 the archon herself, godly hands indeed, 9/10: ei/raiden shogun
ik it's the puppet but she has the exact same model so whatever. love the little glove and how gentle she is with the bird. this is also making me realize that the reason we don't have a bird idle with wanderer is either bc yae's kitsune ate it or bc yae and ei forgot abt it. so she gets an angsty point and im gonna go cry
#1 to no one's surprise again, he slayed 10/10: cyno
look at these. the claws. ngh. forget abt his feet LOOK AT HIS HANDS. id happily let him cut me open with these. i don't even know what to say that wouldn't be viciously horny. tighnari is a lucky man
speaking of tighnari since we don't have many dendro characters rn im not ranking them but he'd be #1 no matter who comes after solely bc of the little beans on the inside of his gloves. no one tops that. im literally obsessed with it
#im getting too into it on my own but yk what im free#genshin impact#cyno#raiden ei#kuki shinobu#lisa#beidou#fischl#yae#sara#keqing#razor
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Ik how late this game is lmao😭😭
Tagged by ; @binniebutter
Tagging : idk idk hwi have u done this i sknskdbdn @h6ngs @lunarxsun @fleurated @chenlay-zhong whoever whoever im late ik idk sksbsjdbn
1~name and nicknames
!my name is Kyaede (Pronounciation : Kay-eh-day) Online is Kya (kai-a) which I prefer
2~pronouns
!she/her
3~star sign
!idk idk???
4~height
!4'11 I don't do cm °^°´
5~time
!3:16 (GMT-7)
6~birthday
!4/11/dm me ig I'm not open abt that :\ I for some reason am not comfy??
7~nationality
!American
8~favorite band(s)
Enha, Nct, Tbz, Svt, Atz, Trsr, Cravity
9~favorite solo artists
!IU, Chungha, Doja Cat, Ariana Grande
10~song stuck in your head
!paparazzi - Lady Gaga , One Last Time - Ariana Grande , Flame/My Turn/Veni Vidi Vici - Cravity , Going Crazy/JikJin/My Treasure/MMM - Treasure
11~last movie you watched
!idk Saw? Frozen? One of the two
12~last show you binged
!idk Squid Game
13~when you created your blog
Nov ? 2021
14~last thing you googled
!"carrd login" wknssjbd
15~other blogs
!@yucxhanssun (moodboards but they are often on my insta lmao @harut6_ )
16~why you chose your url
!because sunoo is bby🥺
17~how many people you are following
!98
18~how many people are following you
!40 and for what
19~average hours of sleep
!depends
20~lucky number
!7, 17, 82
21~instruments you play
!None
22~what you are currently wearing
!green baby yoda hooding, black pants, one white and orange sock, one blue and white sock, spongebob shirt under my hoodie lol
23~dream job
!artist I love painting
24~dream trip
None as of now?
25~favorite food
!pizzaaaa
26~favorite song
!check my pinned post it's a bit too much lol
27~three fictional universes you'd like to live in
!none lmao
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lurker here - you can call me noire.
i can't tell you how badly i would love to properly come out of the woodwork, but i guess i'm scared. not many people close to me are very supportive of my "weirder" interests,, had a former friend straight up call g/t "gross" when i first brought it up,, so for now i'll be on the sidelines :')
mostly though, i want to say thank you. your work is a bright place in my life.
heya noire!
you are so so valid, and im really sorry your former friend was like that, and i can confidently say that there are people out there who will accept you and your interests
i am. very lucky that most of the people i have told abt g/t and my weirder interests have been chill about them (they are... few in number. and i have had my fair share of people who DIDNT understand)
but even now, i still get really uneasy about sharing stuff with people outside of g/t circles, which is something im trying my best to work through. ive spent 7 years trying to hide this (and i probably will continue to do so to an extent) but im glad to be here and interacting with people.
take your time, and if/when you are comfortable to come out of the woodwork, people will be waiting with open arms. even if i fade away from making stuff or move on by the time you come out, there will be others who will welcome you just as warmly.
and. thank YOU. that means a lot to me- g/t has been a big comfort to me over the years im really glad i can provide that for you 💛
#goosegoes#noire tag#fun fact. i never intended to make a g/t blog???#i just. really wanted to make fanart for cory#and then she tagged my main and i went AAAAH NO. nononONO THIS IS VERY MUCH A SECRET AND PEOPLE I KNOW FOLLOW MY MAIN NO#ehfjfbfnsbfndjfn so i made a sideblog and went. well since im here already...#so. sometimes doing things out of fear can take you places you dont expect <3#i hope to see you again sometime but no pressure at all 💛 again. as a former lurker i fully understand what its like.#whether you choose to stop lurking or not i support u wholeheartedly#AH MY TAGS GOT LONG AS WELL OOPS#edit: ALSO. the people that follow my main also know about this blog now and im happy i get to share it w them <3
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ty @raininyourblackeyes for tagging me!
nickname: i guess cheryl is my nickname? more like an internet name tho. my actual name is too short to have a nickname
zodiac: aries!! the best mf sun sign
height: like 163cm?? around that range
hogwarts house: i don't fuck with harry potter anymore god bless
last thing i googled: ..... i googled charles leclerc
followers: just the person reading this and my thirty burner accounts <3
song stuck in my head: ive been rewatching the ladies sp from pyeongchang and ive been OBSESSED with kaetlyn osmonds sp for the last two days so i have sous le ciel de paris/milord stuck in my head. i don't even like that type of music??? at least that's what i thought???
how much i sleep: usually around 7 hours!! yesterday I stayed up late till 5am so i slept for a good 12 ish hours instead of studying
lucky number: 23! my birthdate
dream job: maybe a mechanic or an astronaut or a crazy chemist or something
wearing: loose pants and a t shirt bc i haven't gone out at all today (math exam in two days 😔)
favorite song: mr brightside and somebody told me by the killers, little dark age by mgmt
favorite instrument: i don't really have one? I used to do violin when i was like 12 but I never practiced so i was never good at it. i was an idiot (still am!)
aesthetic: i don't think i have one?
favorite author: i don't have one author whose books I read religiously but my fave book of ALL time is howls moving castle by diana wynne jones. ive read it like 8 times in the span of a year? i LOVE it. better than the movie tho i would NEVER say anything bad abt a studio ghibli film
favorite animal noise: cats purring!! cats mowing!! cats!!
something random: i was born just five months before the summer olympics happened in my country!
not sure if the people im gonna tag have done this/plan to do it but! @beautifulstorms @sashatrusova @isuanti @itstessafuckingvirtue @sashkin @sapphicgirlboss @sailor-lunala
#its so fun reading ppl posts on these lol#anyway thank you tumblr user raininyourblackeyes (sorry i dont think i know ur name) for letting me talk abt myself#i appreciate it very much ❤💓❤#tag games
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