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my roman empire is knowing somewhere out there is a unaired lucaya kiss during the campfire scene and we were robbed from it :'-)))

writing meme

tagged by @msmargaretmurry - thanks!!

Rules: Go to your published works on AO3 and list the first fic you ever published there, the last fic you published, any fic that you wrote for a fandom/ship only once, your favorite fic you wrote in the fandom/ship that has the most works, the fic you wish more people read, the fic you agonized over the most, the fic that sprang fully formed from your mind without any effort, and a work you are proud of—for whatever reason.

First Fic: I'm Here - a 300 word ficlet about a rarepair that @blyedeeks and I came up with. I just ran with posting it and have been on ao3 ever since.

Last fic: currently posting a fic in probably favorite series that i've ever written - Breaks in Morning Light - which is fic five in my Matthew/Leon bdsm verse. It deals with chronic illness, communication and the hard work of a relationship. I really wanted to look at the way a relationship functions when absence is demanded and how those spaces remain empty or get filled. It's one of the longest fics I've written and I'm deeply proud of it.

Fic where I wrote for the fandom once: Let the Walls Break Down - a Girl Meets World Lucaya soulmate future fic. I love the concept of soulmarks that I created here and for a fic I often forget I wrote, it has a ton of reads

Favorite fic I wrote in the fandom that has the most works: Love in a Warzone which is my world war ii Stydia fic. It was the first big bang I ever participated in and I still think fondly about the experience and all the friends I made. Also love that I predicated Scott and Malia being a thing and got to put my history degree to good use.

Fic I wish more people read: The Devils Dance Outside My Doorstep aka my girl Jack Hughes fic. I love her here, her friendships and her relationship with Nico and Taylor. It's deeply personal to me as well and I wish it got more reads. Totally get why it doesn't but wish it did.

Fic I agonized over: anything in Scrawling It Forever but I remember agonizing over each word in chapter 2/3 of All This And Heaven Too. It was writing those chapters that I realized just how much of myself I was putting into the story and just how deep it was going to get.

Fic that sprang fully formed: Soaking in Promises But You Set It Alight aka my TK/NolPat demigod au that literally would not leave me alone during quarantine because I reread the entire PJO series. I wrote this in a fog but it has some of the funniest lines I've ever written

Work I'm proud of: In Tongues and Quiet Sighs - this fic was one that I wrote while I was dealing with the twin wrecking balls of long covid and burnout and as I got better, so did Leon. The character work that I did in this fic is something I'm very very proud of

I tag: @kindclaws @marauders-groupie @teex @hourcat (if you've already done it, feel free to ignore)

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tagged by @mickeysjones :)))) thanks for tagging me <3

3 ships: oh boy just three??? i have so many???? (like please ask me about all my ships i have THOUGHTS) i could make them all pokémon because pokémon is my heart and soul (pun intended) but i will try my damnedest not to 

- pallet/nameless/originalshipping (only because im going to internally count them all as being variations as the same one so im counting it for one okay??) also adding contestshipping bc i loved ash with may first (and maybe i’m just biased to being in love with gary/blue since i was little)

- robrae and bbterra from the teen titans cartoon like from 2003 (im cheating slightly) but also dickbabs in general overall 

- lucaya. it’s 2023 and i will never not feel ROBBED. the whole reason i got into using tumblr seriously way back when was bc of sabrina as maya and lucaya so they have to be on here, it wouldn’t be right without them 

Last song: monster by skillet because 2000′s rock will forever have my heart (but i am literally about to play the new linkin park song fighting myself so there’s a bogo answer for ya)

Last movie: i think if memory serves (and sometimes it dont) it was the man from toronto which was honestly a lot more fun than i anticipated! i dont watch movies as much as i’d like anymore because i dont feel as committed to them when im watching them on streaming v. in a theater. i think the last irl theater movie i saw was black panther: wakanda forever which i loved!

Currently reading: quite literally just finished beartown by fredrik backman which i fell in love with and read in like two/three days!!! i wanna get the other two books in the series but i think im going to read the immortals of tehran next

Currently watching: lotta things in rotation: ted lasso, dawson’s creek, next in fashion, and american dragon jake long. those are my main four that are in rotation until i finish the season/series (as applicable) 

Currently consuming: ferrero rocher :))))

Currently craving: a piece of barbari (persian bread) 

Nine tags: oh boy imma tag some pals from the side blogs bc i dont have nine mutuals i interact with on main for sure lol but no pressure to do this at all :) also open to whomever wants to 

@slickmascara @flippinfins @seancamerons @xoxo1601 @kljmiy @caw4brandon @le-pokerus @arieldoll @wishcloak

inspired by @imtalkin​ but here’s my sabrina story!!!! took a long time bc there’s a lot of history and i remember it all in great detail so this was written in hella chunks bc a girl gets tired 😗 also adding the cut just so y’all are prepared for the amount of stuff that’s under it lol

so i started watching gmw way back when it first aired and first off just felt so seen by maya’s character and then learned that she was played by the incomparable sabrina carpenter right around the time CBAGFT came out and i just LOVED the song right off the bat esp. because i was really into a guy i did sports with and it was kinda my hype song to get me to ask him out (nothing came of it tragically). with the pilot and following the show so intently as well as loving her music from the get go, i just knew i had to follow everything she did. so i kept watching gmw, started my main blog for the purpose of posting about it (it’s still all there at the start of my archive since i was a diehard lucaya shipper and am still not over it) and patiently waited for her debut album after playing the CBAGFT ep to death (and silver nights, her best christmas song). 

so we keep watching gmw and she releases eyes wide open and i was sad ONLY bc she wasnt touring near me and i really wanted to see her live! but i of course loved the album front to back. the chokehold the lyric “everybody loves to tell me i was born an old soul” had on me was INSANE. also top three from the album bc i feel like it: your love’s like, seamless, and probably ewo (although i would def put some of the ep songs up there in the top 3 but since we had them before the album i only wanna rank the new album songs)

some time passes and she announces on purpose which will always have such a special place in my heart and always be one of my favorite songs of hers forever bc the day after it was released is when i had the epiphany i was in love with my best friend after spending the night with him and that was the song i played the next morning as i was packing my bags to go home and i realized “oh shit i’ve been in love with him for years”  🥴

finally, she releases EVOLution which also is a special album to me bc that was the first tour i finally got to see her on and meet her! i remember buying m&g tickets in my health class and she was actually coming to my city (never happens) so i was ECSTATIC!!! i will never forget that day of the concert, i was wearing the smoke and fire limited capsule merch she did to raise money for the red cross and a pair of booties i had bought that she had worn that one of those like “fashion of sabrina carpenter” blogs posted back in the day. also that tour was so well set up like the line to get to the meet and greet had a stop at the merch table so we could buy our merch on the way which is so smart and im mad no one’s ever done that since (at least to tours i’ve been to w/ m&g). she was such an angel to meet, i was so stupid and the first thing i said when they opened the curtains to the little photo op was “oh my god you’re you!” and she was so nice about me being awkward and she was like “im me!” i told her how i was such a fan and loved her music and loved gmw and she was so nice and thankful and we took our professional photo and a selfie on my phone and i will never forget how she is the only celeb i’ve met who made sure to ask my name bc i always forget to mention it and she would not let me leave until i told her my name, which she said was a “beautiful name” 🥰🥰🥰 and then i went up to the french fry party upstairs w/ the q&a portion. i think i was like one of the only ppl who asked a genuine question whereas everyone else asked her to record a vid saying hi to their friends. i had asked what her favorite song to write on the album was and she said feels like loneliness “becaue it happened like lightning*snapped her fingers*” and explained the writing process (i still have the vid of her answering my quesiton) 🥰 it was the first concert i ever got to be in the front row, and it was AMAZING like the chair dance??? iconic. the neon signature sign???? iconic. that’s when i knew i chose the right person to stan. 

fast forward a while and im still listening as strong as ever, almost love drops, she announces singular, PARIS DROPS and i remember my jaw was on the FLOOR when that came out (im a paris girlie more than a sue me girl like i remember her tweeting something like she’s played both songs and finds certain types of ppl liked paris and other types liked sue me does anyone remember this???). i remember putting my earbuds in and strutting around throughout my day feeling like such a baddie. the most devastating part of this era was that she did not come to my state to tour, and the next closest location i couldnt make it to so i didnt get to see her which was so sad especially bc maggie lindemann was opening for her and i also love her too :( but singular act 1 was and is phenomenal and i adore it so much. not to mention act 2 dropping, i was so glad we actually got exhale instead of it getting the alone together treatment 👀 👀 but im still so sad i didnt get to see any of those songs live. but i am thrilled i’ll get to hear honeymoon fades this month (god i remember the way we acted when she released that song and was dating gr*ffin 🥴 what a doozy that was)

i really dont like talking about the DL drama at all bc it was SO unfair to sabrina and josh and i dont like the way any of it went down and the lack of accountability. all im gonna say is i’ve been a diehard fan of sabrina since day one, and it broke my heart that she went through that at all and nothing could make me turn on blondie. it’s still kinda weird that i have friends that act like it’s a sin when i bring up that im a sabrina stan like bffr y’all are weird for asking me if she’s really my fave... skin was so good tho i loved that song 

anyhow, so onto the eics era!!!! my hot take is that i love skinny dipping (the song lmao), but i feel like fast times would have been a stronger choice for lead single 👀 🤷🏽‍♀️ 👀 (like literally just swap the order, release skinny dipping as the second single w/ the video) i played the SHIT out of fast times like she was right especially after learning how short life is after covid especially, these really are fast times and fast nights. also vicious??? INCREDIBLE i was screaming that shit daily until the album came out. and the ALBUM!!!! i was on vacation in california when it dropped so i think im always gonna associate it with staying up late to listen to it while looking out at the city lights from the suburbs. and i ADORED it. how many things had me crying bc call back to the on purpose story from earlier! by listening to it in california which is where we were last togtheter, not only did how many things remind me of him, but being in the same place again??? ouch my heart 🥴 this makes me want to do a ranking bc i love all her songs and eics is skipless perfection but safe to say the album has been on repeat ever since. sadly, she didnt come to my state AGAIN for the first leg of the eics tour, but she is for this leg so i’ll be seeing her this month for the first time since 2016 and i could not be more excited !!!!!!!!!!

ALSO since i dont ever get to tell this story i was one of the winners of the signed sweet tooth perfume sweepstakes which was fucking insane???? one of the best moments ive had being a fan of hers bc that was insane and it smells so fucking good???? the email saying i had won went to my junk folder so im so glad i actually checked it when i did or i would have been DEVASTATED 

also the deluxe???? opposite and things i wish you said BROKE ME IN HALF and ofc lonesome and feather are also incredible!!!! she doesnt miss ever!!!!

i feel like most of this is just reactions to her albums and my evolution tour story but it really is just that i’ve been a fan since day one and have not wavered in that, and will always be here for miss carpenter  ♥️♥️♥️

sorry that was a lot but it’s been a lot of years i’ve been a fan lol

back in the day, you were more a lucaya or a riarkle I'm curious now xD I was riarkle but now I see many things of Riley that facepalm emoji I guess she was her best with him I also find it funny how in the beginning rina was very lucaya for me but now I see it more as a riarkle the type of person you will count on forever but at the same time they have the extra spice that is that can't really be JUST friends so yeah in conclusion I'm curious and rina is perfect

Anon, I love this question! Thank you! It’s really giving me some nostalgia 🥲 I was absolutely a lucaya first and foremost. What can I say, I’m a such for the tough girl/soft boy trope. However, I definitely enjoyed riarkle too. I remember Riley getting on my nerves sometimes too, but a lot of that was because of her character regression (such as when she was with Lucas). Something I really appreciate about these shows I follow so closely, is that they are written with complexity and depth compared to a lot of other shows. Everything from the staging, the dialogue, the scene structure… it’s all very intentional. I think this is why you might be seeing parallels to rina and lucaya/riarkle.

My favorite ships have been the ones that we can observe closely and see the characters individual arcs reflects in the romantic arc of their partner as well. The ones where they literally need the other person to become a better version of themselves. And typically you can see them from a mile away. They’re the will they/won’t they, slow burns of the shows. You can just tell how much love and care are put into telling their stories and making them whole and complete. I’m not surprised my timeline went Lucaya->Muffy->Rina. They really pay off in their full circle moments. :)

I was a bit worried that you were going to find my fanfic with that search through my blog LOL 😆 but Lucaya forever!

fanfic you say???????? 👀

ships i will ship forever

 bellarke

saya x marcus (sorry maria)

lucaya

clace (i will not be sorry)

dramionie (never read harry potter)

alice and penny (its a crackship actually)

Corrupt Love by wavyworld will forever be iconic and I’d give anything to reread it again! #lucaya #girlmeetsworld #gmw #wattpad #lucasfriar #mayahart #corruptlove

You know I don’t really see how Rucas fans can say that Lucas never liked Maya, that he only liked Maya because she turned into Riley, blah blah blah🙄.

In season 1, Girl Meets First Date, Lucas and Farkle are talking and Lucas mentions going out with Maya… Honestly, if he wasn’t interested in her any way whatsoever, why would he even bring up dating her? Why bring Maya up as an option at all, if he’s only interested in dating Riley?

They’re also making a point of showing us who he is referring to by having Lucas call Maya, “other one”…

Then right after insinuating about dating Maya:

and that right there is the real “long game” people!

We would never make it. i was sure. Life had told me many times alredy we were not going to choose each other. No matter how close it seemed, we would not do it.

I will always say that Lucaya is real, I love this couple, even though we saw little of them. Although I also enjoy the rucas.

Maya: Hey

Lucas: Hi. What you need?

Maya: what? Can’t I just come say “hi” to you?

Lucas: sure you can. But we both know we are way pass that. So, which one is it? History, english or math?

Maya: how do you know is not chemestry or science?

Lucas: because I’m not Farkle.

Maya: fine. Is math.

Lucas: I can help you after football practice.

Maya: actually, I was kinda...

Lucas: you are talking about yesterday’s assingment, aren’t you.

Maya: I love how you are smarter than you look.

Lucas: I don’t have that much time right now Maya. Math starts in 15 min.

Maya: Oh please, that’s like more than enough. Just let me see your answer sheet.

Lucas: Fine, but that’s not-

Maya: oh, come on... is not like I’m gonna copy the whole thing, I already got half of it. See?

Lucas: how come you already have half?

Maya: I’m not dumb Lucas. This one is from Farkle, these two from zay and this from Riley. And I even did this one myself.

Lucas: why didn’t you do all of them?

Maya: Why waste my time?

Lucas: is a learning process.

Maya: yeah, you need to learn better uses for your time. Done... here’s your worksheet. By the way, you number 5 is wrong.

Lucas: how did you- never mind

No Matter Where You Go (Or Who You May Become)

She edges towards his bedroom door, half a dozen aimless conversation starters already bouncing around in her head when she hears him on the phone, more animated than he’d been all week.

“—huge, Zay, but everyone seems like they know where they’re headed and how to get there. I took the subway to school this morning, and I met this girl—”

Madison Friar loves her son more than anything else in the world, but he really can be quite dense, actually.

Or;

Five times Lucas' mom doesn't understand why her son isn't dating Maya, and one time she's hopeful that he's going to start.

read the rest on ao3 here!!

hii look at farkle recognizing the chemistry. ;))))))

And Now A Moment Of Silence For The Ships We Lost Because The Networks Execs/Showruners Suck

I’m sure there’s more I’m forgetting because if I didn’t I would literally just stay like this

Happy Valentine’s Day Everyone!