I assume it’s bc of the tv show but I’ve seen a couple posts randomly dunking on the last of us but for such dumb reasons. “I want to play lighthearted silly games instead of grimdark ones” “I want to play games that are more inextricable from the video game medium, games that are less cinematic” the good news is that those games exist! the last of us is in fact only two games out of the countless video games out there, so I would recommend not playing them if you don’t want to

Okay, like, Matt’s been in AH videos BEFORE he was even hired. Wasn’t the first Minecraft we saw him in Griffball? And everyone in AH immediately liked him bc he smacked Gavin? Like, we as a community knew axialmatt, and were excited when the guys played one of his maps! And then he and Jeremy (AH fan artist AND fan fiction extraordinaire) get hired to do their DREAM job! And I hate to say a good chunk of the community took a LONG time to warm up to them (especially Matt, but Ray leaving soon after they were hired I think really threw a wrench in things too), but eventually they got comfortable and clicked into their places in AH, and it was like they were there the whole time!

And especially recently, Matt specifically has been KILLING it! He’s so creative, and funny, and his humor is sarcastic and dry, but he’s GENUINELY so kind, you can just tell. Like, this sucks, everyone’s pissed, WB are burning their company to the ground and idk if RT has any way of getting out of there, but they really need to, bc this is only the beginning.

Challenge Accepted and the Randomizers are, imo, the best content in AH right now. I even watched the Raft series, even though I have no interest in that game, bc Matt kept me there! Shark mage was the best! I love the rest of the cast, I really do, but at this point in AH’s life, Matt and Michael are def my fav members. It just sucks, I’m taking it better than when Ray left (I was a damn mess through that;;), but maybe that’s bc he’s still PT? We’ll see how long that lasts, I’ve really been enjoying seeing him in Chilled’s Among Us lobbys, and if he had more time to devote to streaming, he’ll prob hang out with that crowd more, which would be awesome tbh.

Does anyone know if he has a YT VOD channel? I have a thing, I don’t know why, but I don’t like watching livestreams. They make me anxious for whatever reason;; So VODs are a lifesaver for me, so please let me know if you know! 🧡

And yeah, that’s my jumbled thoughts on the matter. WB is ruining RTAH, and it sucks to see, and I really, really, really hope they SOMEHOW get out of that company. Easier said than done, I know, but it just sucks to have had to see all of the obvious change they’ve had to go through since they were put under them, and are still going through. AH cast and content used to be so colorful and bright and happy, but as much as I enjoy how they’ve matured, and still have fun together, the contrast from the past, more care-free AH is drastic. The past however many years, it’s just noticeable how dark their spaces have been, like, it’s kind of dreary looking at them compared to, let’s say, their tiny OG office. Like, that room was always so full of life! And their past few spaces have just been… sad looking.. and also, they’re not quiet about scheduling. Matt and Michael talked about how Sarah had been breathing down their necks for like, half the Wind Waker randomizers bc they were taking too long, and every time they brought it up it bummed because out, bc I HATE they’re being rushed to make content! Idk who thought a Zelda randomizer was going to be less than like, 8 episodes anyway! But that just suggests to me they’re not enjoying playing the game as much as they could be, bc they’re being bitched at about it behind the scenes. Plus other random, too-businesslike things I smell just bc I’m an employee of a big business, and like, I can TELL they don’t have as much freedom as they should have, and it sucks.

like, I really don’t like getting into the “AH was better when it was just the OG cast 😤”, because those people annoy me (I don’t know why they just don’t stop watching if they just complain every video how they hate current AH? But that’s a can of worms I don’t want to open), BUT I do hate what big business has been doing to them, I hope Matt settles into the path that is right for him, the AH members someday gain their freedom back, and WB burns in hell. It’s 3:30am, I got a bit off track with this post, goodnight.

Edit:

After seeing more information come out, Big Yikes, looks like RT has been shitty even before WB sunk their claws in. I know back in 2013 they would make shitty, offensive jokes and call people babies for being upset when they were called out on them, but as I said before, one of the biggest things I’m thankful for is the vast majority of them [AH] have matured, and realized slurs aren’t funny. The community still, for the most part, gets on my nerves for MANY reasons, but I never get too into any kind of community anyway (so I can actually enjoy the media I’m consuming). All that being said, this looks like the beginning of a real big garbage fire, and I just hope all the good RT/AH people find their way to a happier life, and all the shitty assholes get what’s coming to them.

you are right, "woke" has truly lost all meaning as a term... one of my new favorite games has a very basic and positive message to it but because the localization inserted some nonsense about a nonbinary character it got labeled as "woke SJW trash" even tho the rest of the script is pretty accurate to the original Japanese

I also saw comments about how just including a gay relationship in this game is "agenda-pushing" like I really don't get that tbqh. it just reminded me of people complaining that the new Zelda game is "woke" because it has a few characters who aren't lily white and Zelda has short hair lmao

LMAO Dying at the "woke" Zelda bc some characters are Black. Isn't that a fantasy game? like, with magic, talking trees, trolls and shit but Black people existing is a reach?? (they did the same for Lord of the Rings TV show)

I think the reluctance of these folks to see non White people in fantasy content is bc White people want to gatekeep fantasy as a 'White only' genre. Which is funny because White people have no problem reappropriating foreign genre for their own gain 🙃

Funny how these woke hunter always forget those Hollywood movies adaptation of foreign stories where the studio ALWAYS need to shove a WHITE hero for some reason or purposely use a story where a White character can outshine others?

Remember the samurai movie with Tom Cruise? 7 years in Tibet? Also Mulan love interest was supposed to be a White man initially, but people complained and it's been scrubbed off. There are whole think piece exposing how the Whites LOVE inserting themselves into POC stories to elevate themselves as heroes. Even woke storyline don't go that far with their non White characters ; they are always confined as side kick and minimum screetime (is it true that all the dark skin characters of the house of dragon ended up dying after the first season?? lmaoooo)

And I always said that the issue wasn't non White people being shoved in "White people story" because when Black Panther happened their were still mad and were seething about that movie catering to Blacks (but don't you dare saying movies featuring mostly White people are catering to White, it will make you an awful wokester lmao). Whites will always feel entitled for other races to relate to their stories, but never the other way around. There's a post floating around cathblr with Catholics raving about Arabs discovering the Lord of The Ring and enjoying it a lot. And I couldn't help but think: would those catholics turn the favor and rave about an Arab movie with islamist undertones...? 🙃 lmao.... Those people are soooooo transparent 💀

Everything is woke if you try hard enough, anyway. Scrotes are seething because they consider some video game female characters are purposely made ugly (like Aloy from Horizon Dawn. A scrote was coping bc the mocap actress was much more beautiful and he couldn't wrap his hand as of why they would change her face to make her look more 'rough' ...when he's just too stupid to grasp that this choice is actually pretty coherent with the storyline since homegirl is nomad WARRIOR.).

I also remember when they made a revamp of Mortal Kombat chara design and changed characters body proportion to become more realistic, scrotes got mad lmao It's hilarious how they think they're really doing something 'counter-culture' but they only show how porn fried they are. There's no way to think this

...is better than that

Btw, all those ANTI praising Japan for being anti woke are up to a very hard wake up call. Many japanese celebrities are vocal LGBT+ supporters, a significant amount of online stars are gay/queer (Ryuchell, Peey, Kemio...). Even recently a member of AAA (a famous pop band) came out as gay 😬 there's a huuuuge push for LGBT visibility into the Japan entertainment right now, so it's obvious they have no idea of what they're talking about... The other day on Twitter I've seen a post summing up why Western conservartard scrotes love Japan

This post was in a thread about nuclear bomb and American burgers saying it was oKay tO kIlLs thOusaNd of CivIlIanS bEcAuse jApan wEre tHe bAd GuYs 🤡

The USA humiliated Japan in the non threatening " tech/anime obsessed pacifists". Unlike other countries that still have a minimum of pride and honour, Japan doesn't remind the USA how bad they are and the unchecked harm they done to them. They are also completely economically submitted to the USA (there are still American base out there.....). So the USA give them a cookie and constantly elevate them as the perfect non White country 🙃

exploring an abandoned building w/ bffs!en-

warnings: horror? maybe one bad word but other than that none.

a/n: hopefully i’m posting this after i’ve already made a masterlist 🤔 thanks for the likes on my first post btw!! <3

heeseung

i rmbr during i-land when everyone was scared of that “ghost” + heesseung was super relaxed but since debut he seems to have softened up so i think he wouldn’t mind showing his fear around you guys!!

so.. his heart would be pounding before u even get to the building

and it’s not like it’s a scary place either it’s just old and run down .. like a rlly empty old mall

HOWEVER! being the eldest he can not show his fear!! right?

wrong.

that boy will literally stay sandwiched between you and niki because

“you’re both really young and still have a lot of fight left in you” ??? Ok Heeseung.

for some time he actually eases up and enjoys going to different areas w the guys

and that’s when you and niki go “missing”

in reality you guys just snuck off to the old food court to come up with a way to scare the living crap out of hee

you two definitely were not trying to see if the frosty machine still worked 😇

details abt scaring hee will be under niki!

jay

you know what

i really don’t think jay would be that scared

scratches head

you know that little smug grin he always has on his face ?

yeah he’d have it the whole time bc hes the “least scared” out of everyone there

jay is actually in need of a hand hold, a back rub, literally ANYTHING

he just can’t show his weakness in front of you guys

sunghoon would be sneaky bc he can sense jay’s bluff and come up behind the poor boy

jay would flinch so hard he pulls a muscle LMAOO

and all of you were actually watching bc

there’s no way jay was pretending to keep his cool the wholee time right

yeah looks like you’re wrong again. 0 for 2

jake

holding your hand the entire time he has ZERO shame

he’s only glued to you bc sunghoon got tired of him

jake just woukd not let go no matter the circumstances

it was almost as if his senses became advanced when he was scared..?

like his eyesight would pick up on the tiniest piece of lent and he would flip

ALSO HIS HEARING ?

this boy could hear the rain coming in an hour before the weather channel 😑

overall he’s terrified and he won’t deny it at all he doesn’t care

if you complain he’ll say it’s your fault for inviting him in the first place (which is true)

sunghoon

oky i know everyone says this but he’s cool as a cucumber

UNLESS!! he hears something or “sees something staring at him in the corner”

we all saw him playing the vr horror game during i-land okay we know he’s a chicken

but if he gets scared he’ll freak out then act like it never happened HELP

he will literally scream and flail like a little baby then deadpan and say “why’d we stop? let’s keep going”

EVERYONE CAUGHT HIM IN 4K

but you guys know it will hurt his pride if you tease him so you let him be aww besties 🥺❤️

sunoo

why would you suggest something like this

it’s not like he was freaking out he was just confused as to why you would propose an idea like this in the first place

he said he wasn’t gonna do it 😭

sunoo is like.. “do i look like i want to throw my mental stability out the window?? i’m not going y/n.”

but you begged and begged and he agreed to RIDE THERE

he was staying in the car though

he actually lasted a while just sitting in the car until it started getting dark and he realized that he couldn’t drive

so he texted you guys to let you know that he was coming in

the whole time he was trying to find you guys he was humming to himself bc it would “make the ghosts too happy to be mean” ...

jungwon

had no reaction when you were letting everyone know about your idea

he was just like “okay, let’s do it”

nice enthusiasm jungwon 😒

i think he would have the best time honestly

and not bc of the exploring

he just enjoyed seeing everyone older than him freak out about literally nothing

and you better believe this boy has his phone out recording the WHOLEEE thing

on the way home he puts all the vids and pics together in a small comp w bg music so he can show you guys when you get to the dorm

it was very funny btw

ni-ki

oh boy

you two had the best time

also not bc of the exploring part

you guys had actually been coming up with a way to scare heeseung for a while now

bc he woke you guys up after you two had pulled an all-nighter

so yes this was actually niki’s idea

but he made YOU tell the guys bc no one would agree if niki had asked

poor kid 🙏

THE PLAN: scope out a bathroom -> you feel sick so you need to find a toilet -> heeseung goes w you bc hes the oldest -> niki is secretly following behind u guys -> you trick heeseung into checking a stall -> niki sneaks into the stall furthest from hee -> you slowly creep out of the bathroom and slam the door shut -> niki scares hee while he’s in there (keep in mind it’s pitch black in there once the door is shut)

and well the rest is history 😇

it was very successful btw heeseung couldn’t sleep alone for a whole week

Once, Upon Time Rewatch Thoughts

Also currently making two other posts that came from this rewatch which I decided to put separately bc they kinda go on a bit but anyways, this is a bit shorter (I think) than the previous two but still a mess:

I love hearing what the Doctor was thinking during the end of the previous ep. Very cool

I like the dark coat a lot more actually seeing it in the ep. But I don’t think it’s the fashion statement others seem to think of it as lmao

Dan and Diane are so cute and I really hope they get a happy ending at the end of all this 

Saw someone complain about Diane asking Dan why he isn’t married, I guess as if it was Chibnall making some kind of statement and pushing the idea that people need to get married at some point and I’m like.. What are you talking about?? That was very clearly a conversation between two people who fancy each other and the way she asked that wasn’t accusatory, it was flirty. 

Jodie Whittaker in a police uniform is something that can be so personal

Also lmao at her banging on about satsumas. I wonder if Chibnall was like ‘Yeah, Jodie, just ramble on about whatever you like’

The way the point where the Doctor managed to get through to Yaz was when the woman the Doctor was replacing was leaning over to wipe food off Yaz’s face

‘Don’t mind me, I’m trying not to be distracting.’ is so fuckin funny

Kills me that Ruth was disgusted at the idea of looking like 13 in Fugitive of the Judoon and she felt the exact same in this episode

The way ‘Yaz’ says ‘We’re your team.’ Was that just Mandip saying it weird or was it supposed to be the accent of the person she’s representing coming through?

I have many thoughts about Ruth!Doctor showing up again because I’ve seen people say it’s rude/disrespectful/in poor taste/whatever for her to essentially just be used as a way to aid Thirteen on whatever journey she is going on but I’m kinda like.. Well, yeah, isn’t that obviously the point though? Like, it makes sense that every time Ruth shows up, Thirteen is going through something arc related, at least right now. Because we’re right in the thick of figuring things out. I get people wanting Jo Martin to be able to play a bigger part in the show. I want that too. But it’s just...not about her. It’s Thirteen’s era. Thirteen is going on this ‘finding out her past’ journey. Chibnall could have introduced us to another completely new incarnation of the Doctor in this episode instead of giving us Ruth back and that would have been fine too. Because it doesn’t really matter which version of the Doctor our Doctor sees in that mirror, just that it isn’t the face they’re expecting.

That guy in black showing up and then disappearing yet again! I think in my rewatch post about the first episode I said he was the one character I didn’t really give a fuck about but now I am well and truly giving fucks. I wanna know what’s up with him.

During my rewatch I didn’t have as much of a problem with the focus on Bel but I’m still not completely sold on her. Like, she’s a nice character and I do like her and Vinder but I’m not really in it for them, I’m in it for the Doctor and her companions, so anything that doesn’t focus on them I can get kinda meh about. Although I assume they’re going to have some kind of importance of the next 3 episodes otherwise what was the point in it all.

The Grand Serpent gives me 10/10 bad vibes

That nimble fingers line and then the Doctor appearing is really a thing that happens huh

The way she says, ‘Yeah, well, I’ve got a bit more practice,’ is kinda rude?? Idk. Just her vibe being amazing yet again.

There must be a reason why Yaz was put in the future, Dan was put in the present and Vinder and the Doctor were put in the past

The Weeping Angel appearing in the game is actually scary

Yaz asking what an angel is is so annoying to me because of the comic set in Series 11/12 where she meets them. Like, I get that the TV show is the canon but idk, I feel like comics are really not that obscure and it’s surely not hard for writers to do a five minute search (or get someone to do it for them) when they decide to bring an alien into an episode to see if the characters have met them before in another media. And I actually think it would have made it more interesting if Yaz did recognize the Angel. All it would have taken was a little comment from one of them that establishes that Yaz has dealt with them before. And then if you wanna go off and read that story then you can, but if not, it literally doesn’t effect the episode. I wonder how much more this is gonna annoy me in the next episode where the Angels are the main focus. Not that it’s annoying me a ton now, I just think it’s kinda a shame because that comic is one of the good ones and it’s been retconned when it really didn’t need to be

Jo Martin was clearly on a questionable green screen but the flickering between Ruth and Thirteen is so good. 

Old Swarm is really gross. 

I also wonder if ‘old’ means old as in previous or old as in aged. This might be dumb but I was thinking about what if Swarm didn’t regenerate he just made himself younger? Which I guess is regenerating. But not to a new face, just de-aging his current face. I feel like that’s defo not the case because they have different actors which I assume is supposed to purposely make us think of it as a regeneration like the Doctor’s. But just the difference between Swarm and Old Swarm is very weird and doesn’t scream your average regeneration to me.

I hope we actually get more info on who/what Swam and Azure are and they don’t just stay mysterious because that would be annoying.

The way Thirteen and Ruth handle themselves so differently is great. Thirteen looks Feral, like she’s enjoying what they’re doing but Ruth looks pretty calm, like she’s just doing what needs to be done. 

Bel is cool but there’s no way she’d kill all those cybermen lmao

So basically Vinder outed the Serpent guy as an asshole and then got sent to a new post in the middle of space as an almost punishment for tryna take down that guy, Sucks bro

The Doctor’s desperation at wanting to stay for a while to find more and then her desperation at wanting to get back in is great. I just love actually seeing the Doctor emote and be sad and upset instead of trying to keep it all locked down.

The Flux being caused on purpose doesn’t shock me too much but I wasn’t expecting the Doctor to be the reason for it. That’s defo interesting.

And I wonder who tf that old woman is. I think her being Tecteun would make sense. Because the way she spoke to the Doctor was kinda motherly but like, Bad motherly. Like she’s talking down to her kid. Idk. 

The way Yaz handles the Doctor when she gets out of that place is so good. I don’t even know how to explain why I love it. Just, I feel like Yaz really sees, maybe for the first time, that the Doctor is struggling. I think very possible that Yaz has known for a while that the Doctor is struggling but this is the first time that the Doctor hasn’t completely hidden away the pain and desperation she’s been feeling.

The way Swarm points and says, ‘Dan Lewis’, is so funny

DO AS YOU’RE TOLD! Dan’s instant reaction to not give a fuck about what the Doctor is warning him about his great. Felt like a reminder that they actually don’t know each other, despite how much they’ve been through over the last couple of days.

Vinder knowing what a TARDIS is. I feel like that’s only shocking because we’re used to humans seeing the TARDIS and being like uh wtf is that. But we know Vinder is some other species so it makes sense that he’d maybe know what a TARDIS is I think

Interesting that when Vinder asks Yaz if he can fly the TARDIS or whatever, Yaz doesn’t say anything about how the TARDIS isn’t actually hers, she just goes along with it. Like she is so comfortable there that she has no problem kinda taking ownership of the TARDIS. I’m sure that’s gonna end well.

‘Does everything have to be a discussion.’ The Doctor really went straight back to hiding as if she didn’t just have a full on break down in front of everyone. I feel like it’s too late for that now. Yaz has seen how the Doctor is feeling under her ‘I’m fine’ mask. She can’t just go back to pretending everything is fine and expect Yaz to just go along with it. I really am just waiting for them to either have some kind of screaming match or cry in each other’s arms.

I just wanna know how long Bel has been pregnant for???

‘I wonder if he looks different.’ I kinda feel like this isn’t going to be a big deal? Like sometimes when you don’t see someone for a long time they just... look different. I don’t think she’s talking about something as wild as regeneration. But who knows, maybe she is.

I wonder what Vinder’s home planet is called. 

I think the only part of this episode that I didn’t particularly care for was Bel’s moments and some of Vinder’s moments. Otherwise, I loved a lot of the shit in this episode. And I definitely liked it more after rewatching.

I think my problem with this series as a whole is that while I like all the reccuring side characters, I would always rather be seeing the Doctor, Yaz or Dan. For me, the focus of Doctor Who, and what I care about, is the Doctor and the companions, which I think is why a serialized season is just not for me when it comes to DW, even if I am loving this series so far. If this was any other show I wouldn’t even be thinking about how many different side stories were being told but in a show like this where I’m so used to having a couple of main characters and then characters that come and go every week I’m just like ugh, take me back to the Doctor.

That’s almost been a thing with all of Chibnall’s era for me tbh. In Series 11 and 12 he tried to get you invested in the side characters of each episode by spending a lot of time on them, almost as if it’s going to be a serial and not just a one off episode where we never see these people again, which leads to the Doctor and companions getting less screen time, in favour of characters that at the end of the day don’t really matter.

And that’s an even bigger problem when there’s three companions that all need airtime. Thankfully, I still love the fam a lot and do feel like we know them well, it just kinda annoys me and makes me feel like we missed out on having more moments with them. There is surely a way to get the set up out the way quicker. Well, there defo is a way because Moffat and RTD did it just fine.

Because this series is serialized I’m not annoyed that we have recurring characters, because you need that for a story like this, but it just isn’t the way I like DW to be so I am begging RTD goes back to the monster of the week format.

Hey, I'm doing good too. Just normal amounts of stressful stuff right now. Just moved to a country I've never been to before but can't complain, things are not as hard as the last time I did this so. Thanks for asking! Yeah, I saw you posting about some pretty scary health issues before, I'm glad you came out of that alive and hope you're healthier now!

The nerve some people have! Haha I know I would be pissed if people were questioning my intelligence like that especially after a couple of drinks in haha. Though I do like taunting people when I play group games, I'll be like "don't need to try that hard guys, you're gonna lose anyway" just to mess with them or just call people sore losers if they accuse me of cheating haha (they're probably right on the accusations tho). People get real mad sometimes it's kinda funny. 😂

Omg literally laughed out loud reading this! Hahaha, how did you manage to fall over a road sign then end up in a ditch? lol omg hope you didn't get hurt too bad 😂 I was trying to downplay my drunken escapades but since you shared yours I should tell you my worst one:

I was at this summer street party at night and got drunk on something made out of tropical herbs and cachaça (which is about 48% alcohol), drank 3 and a half bottles of that like it was apple juice, made friends with a bunch of strangers in a bathroom queue (who tried to talk to me weeks later but I had no idea who they were), had to be held by my best friend while I peed (mostly missing the toilet), fell in the middle of the street and scraped my knee, threatened this boy who was helping me walk and told him not to try anything funny or I would beat him up, then dragged my friends to the beach and left them shortly after to go make out with my ex, came back with lipstick all over my mouth and chin and when my friends asked what I was doing I said I was just talking to my ex and they were like NO YOU WERE NOT, hahaha then I kissed all my girl friends on a dare and we danced under the full moon, then I told my best friend I had to puke so she took me to the ocean but I changed my mind and happened to step on a dead turtle on the way back and started crying bc of it, but last month my best friend told me it was a rock I had stepped on (I believed it was a dead turtle for 7 years!). Had the worst hangover of my life the next day. ✌️✨

Ah I'm happy you liked it! I've never listened to Six musical before but it sounds fun! I can see why you like it haha made me want to dance around my apartment 💃. And hey if liking musicals is your thing then it's great, I'm sure Hozier will understand if he's not your top artist of the year. 😋 Here's my "damie" Pinterest board if you or anyone else wants to check it out, totally recommend making one if you're a visual person like me!

https://pin.it/UcHVlkq

Oh I could talk about Dani and Jamie forever I think. I love the beast in the jungle speech too and it's so painful to watch, VP delivered that beautifully, but I have to admit I'm always a crying mess from episode 1 when older Jamie starts reciting that song about being sad while waiting for her lover to return, this show is fucking cruel I hate it and love it at the same time hahaha. Omg your mom 😂 but I mean it's truly an honor to be compared to someone like Dani, no? She's really great even if she needs a little help haha (don't we all).

Aaah you're amazing! Thank you so much, I'll read this pirate AU soon!

I used to draw a lot, really loved doing it when I was a kid as I said before, and all throughout adulthood too but I haven't done that in almost a year now bc I've got a bit of a case of burnout I guess, it just takes a lot of effort to do it when it shouldn't be like that at all. I used to do fanart too, for other fandoms. Even made one for Dani x Jamie but ended up not liking how it turned out haha. I've got a lot of respect for writers and fanfic writers also! Yall can make words make sense in really interesting and beautiful ways, build worlds so enthralling I can see them vividly in my head. Writing is such an incredibly fascinating skill to have! And I guess the most important thing is that we enjoy doing these things right? Even if we think we're not particularly good at it.

Anyway, have a lovely weekend! 👋✨

Good I'm glad you're doing great but sorry you're dealing with stressful stuff!! Hope living in a new country goes well for you I'm so jealous that you've lived in different countries I'd love to live somewhere else even if just for s few years!! Awwh thank you so much I definitely came out of it alive and am feeling so much better now thank you I mean I do some pretty ditzy things so when people say it to me it's pretty deserved sometimes, I'm secretly smart and people just don't expect it so I never mind too much haha I might have to start saying the things that you do and just taunting them over it I mean, I usually do win even when they make me answer different questions so I will definitely have to start saying things like that to them Haha I love that you're just like "yeah they're probably right in their accusations" I agree seeing how mad some people get over games and stuff is funny (it's me I'm people I hate loosing games depending on what it is and I am very competitive) So it was very dark and all we had for light was my roommates flashlight on her phone but while we were walking home a friend of ours that lived else where kept texting her to make sure we were still safe (my phone as dead at this point) so while she was texting him her flashlight was facing down and someone had moved this road sign to the footpath and it was on that sits on the floor so while I couldn't see it I walked into it and fell over it but while I feel I grabbed hold of it and flipped with it and fell in a ditch with it on top of me... I was fine and was just laid laughing while my friend looked down at me and in the most northern accent ever just said "get up you dickhead." and helped me off of the floor and then asked if I was okay... and I was so it was all good!! Haha 😂 I love this drunken story that sounds like one hell of a night and is a roller coaster from start to finish!! I'm sorry you thought you had stood on a dead turtle for 7 years though, someone really should've told you that it was just a rock!! But that sounds like my kind of night!! I love nights like that... stories that will last a life time... the only down side is the hangover... luckily I have only ever had one hang over in my life and it wasn't the morning after the road sign fiasco... I felt surprisingly good the morning after that haha 😂 It's such a good musical it's about Henry VIII wives and I just love everything to do with his wives and that musical is so much fun and actually gives a little insight to the lives the six Tudor queens had away from Henry and with him because at school we're mainly just taught about him which sucks!! I loved the Hozier song and am definitely gonna have to listen to more of his stuff!! I love musicals so much I mainly listen to musical soundtracks at the minute- usually, Legally Blonde and Six on repeat haha 😂 Ooo thank you I will definitely check out this Pinterest board thanks for sending it to me!! I could talk about them forever too... since watching Bly Manor my niece has been asking me so many questions about it and I am more than happy to talk to her about it haha!! The beast in the jungle speech just breaks my heart every time I relate to it so much and VP just delivers it so beautifully!! Oh yeah now I know at the beginning that it's older Jamie I am just a wreck the whole show is just so beautiful and heart breaking at the same time I LOVE IT!! Even though it makes me sob- I keep putting myself through it!! I mean, yeah I was happy that she said it Dani is great but it was the way she said it... my mum can be something else sometimes... she said she thought Dani was like me the first time she does the accent when she says "I've fallen quite in love with London" because I just randomly do accents a lot too but it was the way she was like "She needs help... but I like her she reminds me of you" I was just like... "Should I go get help?" I still don't know the answer to my question about if I need help or not but I mean I probably do need it You're welcome I really hope you like it!! It's a

great fic I love it!! Yeah I get that if stuff starts taking too much effort and burns you out you're not gonna wanna keep doing it so it's understandable that you stopped!! I think fan art is great and I really would love to be able to do it myself but I just don't have the skill it takes!! Awwh it's a shame you didn't like the Dani x Jamie one you did I would've loved to have seen it!! Honestly there are so many talented writers out there and when I read their fics I am just in awe of the worlds they have built and the stories they have created we are so blessed in this fandom to have so many amazing writers and so many amazing fics out there Oh yeah definitely its important to enjoy what you do!! I know I love writing and love writing fics for Dani and Jamie so I think I'll be doing it for a while even if I'm not great at it haha Awwh thank you very much I hope you have a great weekend too!! ☺️

Life is a Series of Choices- Chapter One

PLEASE READ: Hey guys! I just wanna write a quick little disclaimer before you guys read this. You may have seen me mention an exciting project on this blog before, and here it is. Disclaimer: THIS CHAPTER IS NOT MY ORIGINAL WORK. A few weeks ago the lovely user @s-m-22 submitted this to me. They gave me their idea for the plot, and what they had written so far, with the intention of me editing what they’d completed and finishing the story. This first chapter is an edited version of what they submitted to me, so I will restate that I am not trying to claim this as my own. The next few chapters, however, will be my own writing. I really love the plot they gave me and am thrilled to have the opportunity to bring it to life! I hope you all enjoy this, and stay tuned for more to come! 

Word Count: 1,602

Warnings: none that I can think of, please comment if you find anything

Monday started for Melissa like every other day did. She got ready for work, put on her favourite scrubs, some light makeup, and packed her lunch. However, today wouldn’t be a normal day at work. She worked at the Children’s Medical Centre in Dallas; she loved her job, despite the crazy hours and unpredictable nature. Dallas was a far cry from her home in rural Ontario, and took plenty of time to get used to. Between the sweltering heat, the accents, and the sheer size of the city, it was a lot to take in, but she’d grown to love it.That day, some players from the Dallas Stars were coming to the hospital to spend time with some of the patients and their families. It had been all anybody could talk about for the past few weeks, so the halls were bound to be buzzing with excitement. Her best friend Skylar has nearly fainted when she heard the announcement, and went as far as to trade shifts to make sure she’d be working that day. She grew up surrounded by hockey, having multiple friends who played hockey their whole lives. Skylar, like the rest of Dallas, was madly in love with Tyler Seguin. Melissa on the other hand had no particular favourites, but enjoyed watching Benn, Bishop, and Radulov, among others.        

Melissa drove to work, and as she entered the lobby she immediately noticed all of the Dallas Stars signs, along with the victory green and silver balloons scattered around. She made it to floor 3C and made her way over to the nursing station where the rest  of her coworkers were awaiting shift report. Skylar sat next to her, practically bouncing out of her chair with excitement.

“Ok guys,” said her supervisor, interrupting the chatter amongst everyone. “As you all know today is the day the Stars will be visiting. They will be arriving in about two hours so please make sure that after you take care of your patients you help finish setting up the playroom and any other tasks that need to be done. There will be an abundance of media around today, so please ensure that you present yourselves and the hospital in a professional manner. I don’t anticipate this being a problem, but better safe than sorry. If the players need anything please make sure you help them if you’re able to. Alright, I think that’s all, have a good shift everyone!” She stayed behind as everyone else dispersed to tend to patients. Melissa and Skylar walked off towards the playroom, as they wouldn’t be caring for patients until the night shift.

“Oh, I’ll make sure I help Tyler alright. I’ll help him out of his clothes,” whispered Skylar, eliciting an eye roll from Melissa. That didn’t deserve a proper response.

“Remember you have to be professional Skylar. No sneaking off to supply closets, even if it is with Tyler Seguin,” offered Melissa after a moment, a smirk on her face.

“I’ll be the epitome of professionalism, until I get him in my bed. Or I’m in his, makes no difference to me.” Melissa busied herself with helping wherever she was needed, not realizing the players had arrived until she heard a noise behind her, turned, and was suddenly face to face with Jamie Benn himself.

“Uh, hi. Sorry if I scared you. I’m Jamie,” he said as he extended a large hand towards Melissa.

“Hi Jamie, I’m Melissa. Is there anything I can help you with?” she asked as she took his hand and shook it firmly.

“Oh, right! I was just looking for an extra chair.”

“Of course, here you go,” she said as she handed him one of the spare folding chairs lying around.

“Thank you so much. I should, uh, get back to the team. It was nice to meet you Melissa,” said Jamie.

“Yeah, same to you,” said Melissa with a soft wave, and she watched Jamie wander off to locate the rest of the team with a small smile on her lips.

The day flew by as the players spent time with patients and their families in the playroom, and visited the rooms of those who were too sick to be around the other kids. Both the players and staff had a great time, playing games in the playroom, taking photos of the kids with the players (Skylar definitely ended up with at least one selfie with Tyler by the time all was said and done). Melissa had noticed Jamie glancing her way a few times, but was too busy to dwell on it. When their visit was coming to a close, Melissa was at the nursing station discussing something with one of her colleagues, when she saw Jamie walk by. He paused when he saw her and waved. She told her coworker she’d be right back, and walked to the desk to see what he needed.

“Uh, I was actually wondering if you’d be interested in getting coffee with me sometime,” he asked, hand placed sheepishly on the back of his neck. Melissa blushed and agreed, scribbling her phone number down on a post it note before handing it to Jamie with a smile.

“Bye Jamie, I hope you enjoyed your visit.” “I did, but this just made it even better,” he said with a small smile as Tyler rounded the corner, complaining about how he was taking too long. When he noticed the two of you were talking he gave you a small smile, before explaining that they had to leave, before dragging Jamie off. Melissa turned around and rolled her eyes upon seeing the looks she was  getting from the other nurses around her, a small smirk on her face. The rest of her shift Melissa felt like she was floating, Jamie Benn of all people wanted to hang out with her. Skylar nearly screeched when she told her, before realizing it would likely be an opportunity for her to get close to Tyler. She was obsessed, but who isn’t obsessed with Tyler Seguin?

Melissa got home from her shift at about 11 PM, and was greeted by a message from Jamie

J: Hey, it’s Jamie. Hope it’s not too late to message you. Just wanted to see if you were free for coffee tomorrow?

J: I just want to make sure I’m not giving you the wrong impression here, because as much as I would love if this was going to be a date I just got out of a serious relationship and I don’t want to rush into anything. If that’s not what you want I won’t be offended, I promise.

M: Hi Jamie! Don’t worry about the time, I just got off work. I totally get where you’re coming from and I’m more than happy to be just friends if that’s what you want. I can do coffee tomorrow, but not until after my shift if that’s okay.

J: That’s fine, can you do 7 PM? We could meet at the little café a few blocks from the hospital M: Sounds good, see you then! :)

J: See you :)

Melissa went to bed with a smile on her face, feeling both excited and nervous. 6:00 the following evening Melissa was home from the hospital, getting ready. She’d showered, and decided on a simple outfit. Leggings, a grey tank top, cardigan, and ankle boots. Cute yet casual- after all, Jamie did just want to be friends. She arrived at the coffee shop a few minutes before 7:00, and sure enough Jamie was already inside. He was wearing a dark V neck tee that fit him snugly, and showed off his tattooed arms. His dark hair was slicked back and his long legs were folded under the table in dark shorts. He looked a little nervous, but once he noticed Melissa he gave her a large, bright smile and lifted his hand to wave gently. Melissa waved back and approached the table. Jamie stood to hug her, and Melissa finally realized how, well, big Jamie was. His body seemed to swallow her 5’6” frame, but she wasn’t complaining. He pulled away before pulling Melissa’s chair out for her.

“What do you want?” asked Jamie, gesturing to the menu hanging above the till.

“Oh I’ll go order in a few minutes, thank you though” replied Melissa, feeling guilty about letting Jamie pay.

“Nah, my treat,” he said with a small smile.

“Well if you insist, a medium iced vanilla latte please.” Jamie wandered off and returned a few minutes later with coffees in hand. The two of them sat and talked for what felt like minutes but was probably hours. Melissa uncovered the funny, chatty side of Jamie, the one he didn’t share with the media often. They bonded over both growing up in Canada, trading childhood stories of Melissa’s life in Ontario and Jamie’s in BC. They talked about friends, family, work, and interest. Before they knew it they were the last ones in the café, and it was beginning to close.

“Do you want a ride home?” offered Jamie, but Melissa shook her head, saying she’d parked a few blocks away. Jamie insisted that he walk her to her car, so the two of them wandered through the streets of Dallas, air still warm at 10 PM. They eventually made it to Meissa’s car and said goodbye with one last hug. Jamie turned to leave and Melissa watched him go, feeling guilt begin to bubble slowly in her stomach when she started to wish it had been a kiss goodbye rather than a hug.

Dream from: May 19, 2018

Very brief there is soo sooo much more to say about all this than what im about to say of course. here goes. it’s already fading as i begin.

some idek weird schoolworld idk! a scrapbook with colorful photos of the old school but it was like washington showing the old cafeteria (not real life) and food court and bathroom hand washing stations idk. mrs cowing was there idk she was like mom or idek we were like related like family? too vague but she was showing me (not really reality me t all or even a  physical being) pictures of her kids and in one i said ill try to find jackie (her daughter) and quickly pointed to a girl who looked like jackie and she said close but it was the girl to the left of her with a really orange tan.. eeetcccc.. so much holy craaappp so so much i cant even!!! nights and days of stuff.... some weird thing where i was trying to rescue animals through a cat door type thing i left open like a group of baby pandas wandered in then i opened another door in this tunnel thing leading up a staircase with this big room secret upsaairs thing where they lived until idk ?? we put the back in their natural enviromnent bc they were being poached or somethign what?? next door afar the whole time was mrs cowing in this weird train type really narrow trailer house wtff. it wasnt a neighborhood or anything kinda in the middle of nowhere field world wtf! there wre lambs, etc idk. and somewhere in the mix was karen alternate reality version she was like really naughty like promiscuous always with boys idk she was like sanding v oice messages to them like “come on bad boy” someting about bl****** it was weird idk what else happened with that. something with a bed then it cut away to a new segment of the dream... jumping around. i was trying to sneak on mrs cowing’s train for this one photo in her refrigerator? what? idek what it was  some old photo like from the 90s maybe of something or someone? idk!!! then there was this whole thing with me and nori and like a field trip or something in this old school place or train or plane kinda with bunkbeds and idek!! it was in the middle of nowhere what.  so i wanted a top bunk but this jellyfish thing wtf took my spot and nori was also on a top bunk and i was like thats so unfair i never get a top bunkbed and that jellyfish doesn’t even need a top bunk, it doesn’t even have a mind! so we moved the jellyfish and it was like 3 dead washed up jellyfish on the floor wtf…. next scene a school burning down on fire someone said “areas 1,2,3,7,8, are destroyed” or something like that. a whole thing involving that occurred…. like a pretty long / huge part of the dream but i forgot. more more omgg damnig!! i feel like I’m forgetting a huge huge segment… oh yeah the thing with the secret doors… well idont even but somehow it was then later like the incredibles family but mrs cowings family but also a made up family and they had to hide their kids which was kind of pilar,= & teagan, but NOT. they had to hide them in the upstairs dome hidden world i mentioned before with the pandas. for years. but they didn’t age. this part of the dream was huge i can’t even describe holy shyot!!  so so much. aunt becky was there like a maid for us and other people idk! taking care and stuff and the kids or whatever they were were being really loud like laughing and playing crazily one day or early on and a neighbor guy bc it was somewhat like an apartment got concerned and ventured up the stairs secret and i told aunt becky quickly and she had protocol like she’d pretend it was like a castle (that makes sense. totally.) but i left and later i came back and the guy was actually there bc he and becky had talked over a dating app and was there to meet . so then they were in love lmao…. so much more holy crap!!! dad was there something in this place with a huge circus ring thing idek like a competition like some game show with random people from the audience getting picked but it was insaaanee and our aunt stacy (but her name was willy or wilbur in the story) kept getting picked and winning so much money. later cut to a scene of her house alternate reality x 10000 with  weird rooms, puzzles, a garage thing where mom said she got rid of most o her bikes she used to have like 100 but then it was reduced to a toy box full wtf. i picked up my old light blue bike from 2012 ew and tried to ride it (irl we only have 4 bikes and i need a bike to go riding with the family) but when i tried to brake the handle break was broken so i couldn’t use that bike. mom said some bikes don’t have that? wtf. anyway so so much more i cannot even holy crapp!!!!!! so overwhelming. i missed a crapton but onto the “next” segment. some family reunion thing in this specific backyard wilderness forest woods setting that mustve been in an oooold dream or somehow fabricated based on fragments of childhood memories. like a family get together with lawn chairs, campfire, etc. logs lying around. while this was happening in my brain in the dream i was like so overcome bc i remembered this place from childhood. now that I’m awake i know i made that up. this wasn’t in rea life but it sure as heck felt like it!! so here we go. it was current day but it was weird everything felt like 2006-2009 idk! mason was younger, so were pilar and teagan. i took pilar’s pink ds because i had no cameraa w/ me and desperately wanted to photograph what i was seeing! but it took forever to take pictures it was so frustrating. like it kept lagging and stalling so it hooklike 30 seconds to take one picture & wanted to hurry because i felt like a time bomb was ticking and it all would vanish soon…. so we ventured along. i took pics of the pile of logs which was exactly how i “remembered it” from my real memories, the layout of the family sitting around in groups, the fields, the trees leading to the woods nearby.. when i was it. this specific stream arrangement to a secret secured place with a tree with a split kinda knot in it opened up like a pocket… we went closer , it was scary bc i didn’t want to drop the ds in the stream…. and i looked inside the wide knot of the tree and saw old messages, blue egg shells, white rocks. that we (my sisters, me and our cousins) left there last time we had gone there. i was so overcome with emotions like it was amazing like a lost part of my past (but this did not happen irl although it sure damn felt like it did!) the white rocks had our initials carved on it.  “T.H. 2010” was the main one i kept seeing. and there were crumpled up pieces of paper with messages that were kinda washed away (the inked/penciled words) . there was this asian type girl with us too but idk who she was. but she discovered more stuff but i was like slow down  i need to get pictures of this stuff first and preserve it!!!!! it was crazy i thought it was going to slip away  before my eyes and disappear, i was kinda panicking. she had found more secret stuff we left behind. teagan found a littlest pet shop benny thing with some initials written on its foot in the tree. the girl found a magazine of our dad posting in the front cover for some local gymnastics halloween party thing idk. then we went inside this secret passage near the secluded area (but we never ended up going in there. it was like a little mini pond that the stream led to , dark in the shade of trees with weeping willows and stuff— like the surskit area in poke park wii idk) — and it was kinda scary in the secret hole idk not really but it was  an old 2000s box t.v. playing dad’s tapes of gymnastics stuff and then stuffed with straw scarecrow type things sitting around it like a halloween props. they were in the pose of the picture on the cover, one of the dummies was supposed to resemble dad. there was a pumpkin on top of the tv. then it jumped around a bit idk  and my camera/ds died i guess. so i rwanted to run back home . to get a real camera. mason and pilar came with me and we had to run dow a super steep hill like the one in town by hermann… mason had his bike, i was running so fast my feet couldn’t stop and i reach out my right hand and grabbed a pole and swung around it as mason massed under my arm, ducking. it was funny, perfect timing. then this whole segment of the dream pretty much abruptly ended. and now we’re at the last segment. i pretty much forgot it at this point. something really weird and not as memorable so I’m not really complaining. but it is annoying to forget. some weird prank type thing where this girl and this weird guy who was serving food hit it off and got married instantly. it was weird idk it was supposed to be like a funny prank thing but too vague to remember now. ufgh.it was weird idk what else happened with that. something with a bed then it cut away to a new segment of the dream... jumping around.

^^^ This.