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futuristictheoristcowboy · 11 months

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I don't know why but I'm always so anxious to sit next to someone, especially kids

#im only 15 but i feel like like one of those millenials that diss 13 year olds over eminem #like wtf am i supposed to do though #am i supposed to be a role model #like hi there fella #or like am i supposed to just remain extremely still and try to become part of the surroundings #i try to do that but i just look really weird because i forget to to breathe sometimes so its just my stupid ass gulping air #like i feel like im supposed to do something #like there's a way i should act #strangers were really nice to me as a kid which made me feel brighter #but then i became too trusting and it really was a miracle i never got snatched to be honest #bruh im still trusting like y would u hurt me its not that deep im just out here living tbh and i just dont feel like assuming bad thigns #like i dont expect you to be a fiend lmao #i keep my circle joyous and whimsy so i dont consider being double crossed

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lesbiansanemi · 2 months

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I am so fucking sick of living with my roommate and his fuck ass boyfriend. Also watching my roommate burn every single one of his (already rather minimal, I might add) bridges for this guy is also kind of painful but also his relationship with me is one of said bridges so I'm almost past the point of even feeling bad for him lmao

#i have had to piss for probably the better part of an hour now #because they decided to take a shower together and have been in there for well OVER an hour now #and this is a nightly occurence atp sometimes MULTIPLE times a day #we have one bathroom.... can yall not be considerate enough to not be in there for up to TWO HOURS AT A TIME???#also it's such a waste of fucking water....#idk we've hit a point where i literally hear the bf doing anything and i get pissed off #but also tell me why i'm sitting in my room (which shares a wall with the bathroom) and i can hear this man hacking and spitting shit up #and this is also something that happens multiple times a day #like.... dude.... why are you spitting up toothpaste so fucking loudly oh my fucking god #but yeah no i'm like my roommate's only friend atp and he's about to not have me lmao like we're about to reach #'i'm cutting you off when i move out' levels of me being pissed off with this whole situation type shit #and apparently the bf convinced him to come out to his family which his mom was chill which is good #his dad's side of the family though....? not great. and my roommate KNEW that would be the case cuz we'd talked about it before #also love that my roommate has constantly talked about moving out of the city we live in because he hates and also there's no good career #opportunities for him here (which is true)#and now. MAGICALLY. he's like 'idk i think it'd be best for me to stay here'#like oh my GOD???? are you hearing yourself???? are you fucking stupid???? you fucking hate it here???#but sure throw your life away and ruin all your meaningful relationships for a guy you met six months ago jfc #and the thing is i *know* my roommate we've been close CLOSE friends for nearly a decade now #i know he is not like this.... like yeah he's being insane by allowing this but also i know these aren't the kinds of decisions he would ma #and also i know he wouldn't treat me like this all on his own #it's the deranged fucking control freak of a guy he decided to date and my roommate has too many of his own issues to put his foot down #about certain things and tell the guy no so he's just allowing him to completely take over his life #and fuck everything up until the bf is the only thing he has left once it's all said and done #and yeah. it's painful to watch. but also wtf am i supposed to do because obviously my opinion is not respected nor wanted regarding this #that has been made PAINFULLY clear #ugh this is so fucking horrendous #what is it with ppl who start to date someone and then go clinically fucking insane and destroy their lives all for this one person #who. realistically. they barely know in comparison to all the other ppl in their life #like explain it to me jfc

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reptileenthusiastt · 9 months

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I genuinely don't think I will be able to mentally and physically handle when Murder Drones ends

There is not a single show, movie, book, game, etc, that I have loved more than Murder Drones

Who knew that a silly little show about robots killing each other would bring me so much joy

#seriously though like wtf am i supposed to do when this show is over #im probably just gonna die #Murder Drones

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awek-s · 1 month

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literally got to a point where i begged my mom to help me get a job where she works and she is flat out refusing to help me despite knowing im losing sleep and struggling because of how much stress im under mentally and financially like i literally don’t know what more i can do

#everything I’ve applied for I’m getting ignored for not even a stupid courtesy rejection #I can’t get out of this stupid situation and the one person who can help me just won’t ? there’s many departments at her work she just #refuses to put in a word for me anywhere. loads of others do it for their kids #and I wouldn’t have asked if I had another option but she just doesn’t want to even though there’s no viable reason ?#wtf am I supposed to do like I have nobody in my corner #mrow.org

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bsaka7 · 2 years

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a hand my trusty friend | seb/lewis | 3.1k

He pulls out the letter. It’s just cardstock in swooping cursive, a photo of Seb’s family and some cartoon fireworks on the front. “Are you coming?” Seb asks, immediately.

#its been a while since i've written proper sewis!! though this barely counts LOL #set at NYE for no reason except that i thought of it #enjoy i suppose #also like wtf am i gonna do with the rest of my day

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ronanlynchbf · 1 year

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diversity loss! those ppl correctly gendering u assumed you're straight..

#well 'correctly gendering' they genuinely just saw me as Some Guy i think so automatically referred to me as he #anyway there are a group of usually four to five ppl at the train station nearest to me who stop u and talk to you about sj stuff and/or as #you to donate. so stuff like immigrant rights lgbtq+ rights the environment et cetera & they were eyeing me when i was approaching (to #potentially be stopped & talked to etc. i get stopped like. 80% of the time around there) but then turned back towards each other and said #something along the lines of 'oh this is so scary this is so hard he's so scary' and then didn't stop me to talk and literally as i walked #away (i was JUST past them some ppl rlly do not wait for someone to be out of earsight to tall abt them) one of them said 'his face looked #good (as in approachable & a potential Person To Converse With) but the rest of him....straight man. look at that blouse.'#the previous sentence loosely quoted but it was smth like that...........WTF DO U MEAN STRAIGHT MAN??? TAKE THAT BACK PLEASE I BEG 😭🙏#<<<<<< also they meant cis straight man specifically i'm pretty sure...which is the absolute worst part of that whole assumption.#ALSO what's wrong with my blouse.........#thanks 4 the gender euphoria though. much obliged 👍#double also i don't think i'm using this meme setup thingie in the way it is supposed to be used but it makes sense either way. to me.#TRIPLE ALSO we're just assuming that if someone is a straight man they immediately don't gaf about social justice stuff?? okay.....#i mean i get it but also big generalization. but also i get it. but also big generalization. anyway. in other news i found out my grandma #used to write my grandpa actual poems. like ACTUAL actual poems of the professional sort that she made up and wrote down herself to give #to him <3333 #& more news though this one is not very surprising and in fact very predictable I AM SO SLEEPY TIRED. ZONK TOWN I'M COMING DON'T U WORRY❗❗#just need to read the newspaper (the mutuals' posts of 2day) and then i am going to bed IMMEDIATELY u best believe.

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noxtivagus · 1 year

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i shld sleep oh my god

#🌙.rambles #i am somehow not rlly sleepy despite barely having sleep but my head does ache slightly. but just a few more stuff left in this week n #i'll properly rest for a bit ! bcs next week even though we're gna have a break ofc there's like.. prom n then that vacation right after T_#gna be fun but i'm. definitely gna be rlly tired. n.. nah i need to stop overthinking abt sm stuff #just. anxious that i might end up being too shy. usually in social events like that i realize i #end up pushing myself a bit too much n then it ends w me just putting on a strong facade #i'm worried too i think bcs two of my friends haven't.. reconciled yet? so. yeah it is possible i may have to deal w some stuff during prom #fuck. i'm just. worried abt a lot of things in general. but i'm mostly overthinking it. everything.#sigh in general i'm being too harsh on myself again. wtf maybe it's the sleep-deprivation or smth bcs ik i'll manage it all #i believe in myself n know i'm capable but. it's just.. overwhelming rn i think. n it. hurts bcs it's like before in a way..? n like my wol #i wonder. what we'd all do if we were hypothetically given the chance to be able to do whatever we wanted in a day n have whatever we want #without changing the reality we have now or yeah no consequences at all. just a lil day in an alternate world we could control #if you were to choose for yourself n only for yourself what would you do?#sob ig i relate w rinoa too bcs of that strong facade part. i wrote that for my wol too #but like even w all that in the end uh. every time i read these sort of stuff it comforts me deep down #bcs i remember back then when i rlly just had my family #that.. loneliness. i write abt it a lot huh. not that i'm exactly seeking for something. maybe before bcs i didn't talk w my friends anymor #but now i suppose it's just something painfully constant. but not really too #i can't.. put it into words rn n i'm low on sleep. but i rmb just daydreaming to myself back then of my wol's development though #from heavensward.. sorta hiding herself n having to be strong for others. though she so desperately just wants to let her guard down #n be free yk. a break from all her responsibilities n rest.. she's young after all. but while i do relate with that it's still #yk particularly w the context of my wol being yeah the warrior of light in ffxiv. but. i rmb writing of how then that was being strong for #her. n.. yeah she was healing from stuff then. that's hw. but in stormblood ooh i wrote here that she put her emotions to the side #bottled them. became more serious n i tied that w being a samurai main back in stb w duty stuff help this connects well but it's funny #hesitant in heavensward to trying to do things more on her own in stormblood to.. accepting it all in shadowbringers #shy/quiet was more in hw while being serious/calm was in stb. raghhh i rmb my notes well in 2021 but i'm so afraid to look at like #the stuff i wrote last year 💀 but. oh my this is embarrassing but i do like how i even just dump my thoughts. it's bittersweetly beautiful #maybe i'm trying to accept everything at once or yk putting too much pressure on myself to improve holistically.#like.. i want to write before i grow older than my fav charas yk? n then just think of lots of stuff too n.#be productive. study. n idk just more more more in general but i could be less harsh on myself. yeah

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captaincanonly · 2 years

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some new ocs they are all in tha same universe and I will be making more >:)

but i love them sm rn….

#canon’s art #canon’s rambles #oc art #canon’s ocs #they don’t have names yet so if anyone wants to 👀 yknow. Help out. that would be funny goofy??#basically tiny little shitster is a thief/vandal #lord knows what its deal is LOL #i haven’t rlly thought far into backstories so for now it has no explanation to why they do what it does #but the basic gist is they’re good at stealing #what it isn’t good at though #is planning #their impulse drives them and that is all it ever thinks to follow #tall man crossdressing extraordinaire is an investigator man who has to deal with a bank theft #plot happens whatever idrk and he’s faced with little gremlin child #so then he’s like wtf it’s a kid ? what am i supposed to do about this #he learns that it isn’t the most devious tool in the shed and is like also how did you plan to escape from this tall ass rooftop? did you #not think about that or?? were you just gonna wing it #so IMMEDIATELY they are both filled with annoyance #he ends up forgetting that this was a case he was meant to work on #so he lets them go out of pity and the fact that he just wants to rest after a long day #that marks the start of their wacky relationship #it’s just odd parental + child hijinks neither of them expect their relationship to turn that way but it does #they help eachother on things such as it needing help with planning a scheme #and mister man needing help in regards to cases #usually ones involving having to be undercover #hence his secret not so secret love for fashion and dressing up #okay okay #the news guy is this really sweet dude #him and his two assistants (I haven’t designed them yet) make up basicslly the whole of his news channel #gonna add more tags in another add on post!

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the-breloominati · 2 years

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ignore the messy braeburn on the left I he’s my warm-up i guess. lol

anyway look at my boy!!!!!! the he!!!!!! committer of grand theft gender!!

#oh hey look it my art tag #trying to make him look like a lung here……. so he can fit in better in ak….. I guess……#his name is siaku but I feel like that’s kinda cringe am I being cringe is this cringe #like I just made it up but it’s literally been the name of the character for basically forever and idk if I want to change it lol #anyway he’s been throug so much design-wise!!! i never talk about it lol #iirc he started out as like a dog or a fox-lookin thing? and then he was a horse for the looooongest time #like he was supposed to be my ponysona and he’s only fully a dragon now cause I was fuckin around doodling one time #also he’s only a guy now cause I was drawing him like that once and it stuck?? i guess???#and I always draw him kinda the same but he’s supposed to be a shapeshifter >.>#and part of it’s cause I’m pretty much complete ass at writing characters I think but he’s partly his own guy and partly my fursona #like in a self-insert kinda way. it…. it’s complicated idk #I’ve only made a character ref for him like one I think back in the ponysona days…. so I need to do that at some point!!#cause currently he lives pretty much exclusively in my brain cause I never draw him that much!!!#(partly because I don’t draw as much anymore though ehehe (._. ‘)#another thing is that fullbodies are fucking hard!! as you see him here he has hands not paws or handpaws!!#and I can’t fucking draw hands without putting in fairly significant mental effort!!!#not to mention his fucking feet and toes!! he’s got digitigrade fluffy dragons legs!! idk wtf I’m doing!!!!!#and the big thing is that it’s hard to practice cause i *feel* like what I draw should be good (or in-line with some of my other stuff)#and it’s kinda disheartening when it’s not?? like I *know* i don’t usually draw hands or toes so I shouldn’t be expecting it to be perfect #but the pressure is still there mentally!!!#I’ll get past it eventually though I hope lol #if not I’ll get to practicing hands anyway!! i hope!!

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ocean-pie · 3 months

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I know I have said many times that I am life's piñata, but that was NOT an open door for... THIS

Ya saquenme de aquí porfa

#mom your problems are not my fault #could the universe stop giving her reasons to think so???#like wtf am i supposed to do #school's a shit also #not really a big problem though #i just like being a lil dramatic Bitch

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hannahchronism · 6 months

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my mom sat across from me earlier today and was like "ten years :/" and i was like. I Know (<- been Aware of this in a physical way since like june). and in retrospect probably i could have (should have?) said something that extended comfort or something but like

i am also doing this for the first time at the same time i don't know what she wants from me. it fucking sucks and i've hated it the whole time, that's all i got.

#she doesn't like it when i go “yeah this fucking sucks” though she likes. for there to be things to do about stuff #and she also always says. i'm not empathetic. even when i ?? like. try to be so i #really genuinely do not know what she wants or what to do like #ten years! it bites!! i'm sorry but also wtf am i supposed to do about it you know?????????

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drowninginthoughts27 · 6 months

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Not to vent but I think my biggest fear is failure but I’m also like so set up for it. Self sabotage is all I know.