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cherrysnax · 24 days
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havin the weirdest crisis of my life
#this is like. did related so im gonna sound completely uh#what’s the word. odd and shit for a sec okay? okay#so I’ve been here. hi im cheri silver yknow me for about 20 years total but jay used to front for years when we were in middle school#im not the. original host I guess but I’ve been around since#we were in the early single digits and never left#so im the host right? I existed to go thru the Trauma#but. it’s been my life for so long. my parents don’t know Her#they’ve only known me#but like. we’re finally starting to let go of that trauma#errr not let go but make peace with it. and we’ve been holding onto it for so long. I’ve been holding on to it for so long#but.. who am I without it? like yes that’s my trauma but also. is my purpose over?? is that why we haven’t been able to draw?#I’ve been the host for 20 years this is my life#my friends my gf my life my hobbies it’s mine not anyone else’s#I let others take the wheel when I can’t (or they forcibly do it for me) and jays been gone for like 3 years he only came back because I’ve#been being traumatized everyday recently. but like. will I have to go too??#reintergration is not really our goal. never has been but like#if we do. will I be here or will She come back? we’ve had false alarms before but it’s mostly been decided that it’s my front my life#maybe im just triggered all the time and that’s why I feel extra out of it#less myself#New Traumas are happening to us everyday#but yeah. I dont talk abt this aspect of my life much but it’s so scary to think about#I’ll talk to Chevy when they get off of work tomorrow abt it if it’s still like. freaking me out#I am me. we are a bunch of niggas but I am me.#did niggas when the identity disorder makes them dissociate smh#😫
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musubiki · 2 months
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how was playing hsr? was there anything that you liked in the game and the story?
ITS BEEN AMAZING AS EXPECTED!!!!!!!!! i actually havent played genshin in a while since starting it, i have no motivation to do the filler event while a perfectly good star rail is sitting there waiting to be played :')
but for mechanics, i love they have auto battle so you dont have to nessecarily sit there and invest in every little battle you gotta do....and i love that the resin (resin??) system is a lot more forgiving with a higher cap, lower cost, and allow for overflow...thats nice...i also love that the mc and starter units are very useful. im so emotionally attatched to the star rail crew so im glad they never have to leave my team !!!!
storywise im LOVING IT SO FAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i started playing it at the beginning of spring break 2 weeks ago and im almost all caught up!!! i went through belabog and penacony and now im just doing those leftover intermission main quests which im only now realizing i shouldve done before going to penacony LMAO
and of course.....danmarch....im so soft for them......and also i love sampo i cant wait to see what they do with him
#besides the star rail crew and sampo im not too attatched to anyone else#im very much a (what would happen in canon) type of player so the only units i REALLY want are himeko welt and imbibitor lunae#(and sampo)#everyone else i can go without#so this game is probably gonna be a lot better for my wallet#overall it just like it better than genshin minus the open world part#i like the story and characters...i like that you can play as bad guys while theyre still bad guys???? like blade and kafka???#cuz in genshin you always gotta redeem them somehow first before theyre playable#not here hueheuhe#also i love that they actually kill off playable characters#(spoilers from here on out)#i know were supposed to be all sad for fireflys death but honestly.......i didnt care about her too much LMAO#i was actually a little annoyed for the secret base part because her base was SO FUCKING DEEP IN ENEMY TERRITORY#i was like (damn bitch how far away is this shit??!)#that by the time we got to the emotional part i was just mad#i never liked characters where the game tries to like....force you to care about them#and its implied you have some super close relationship ESPECIALLY when you havent known them long#now if march died that would be a whole different story#but firefly??? i mean rip but i didnt really know her#im loving the penacony quest so far though#any setting where its like a place of mind tricks and gambling and spending money and sin is always so scary to me#especially the dream within a dream within a dream shit#the mind fuck aspect is always a good plot that i enjoy#i also love that theyre not afraid to upgrade units#like we have dan heng and the dragon dan heng#so characters arnt stagnent forever#everyday i hope we one day get to see a 5-star secret power march#cuz that girl has some shit going on i swear#i just did her luofu memory quest#and those fuckers in the garden of recollection............
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bangcakes · 4 months
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#uh.... LOL so yada yada yada u know what im gonna talk about JDJDJD GOD HELP ME#i just realized........... that u know. usually on the 15th (bc timezones) im like super hype bc sjs birthday#but LMAO........ i so happen to be seeing.... my .... crusheroo on that day so Zjxjdjkdkdkd HOW LIFE CHANGES WOW#i didnt realize til i saw a bday (old) set of sj n i was like WAIT FUCK DID I MISS HIS BDAY. ONLY TO REALIZE. IT WAS THE SAME DAY....#hhhh but god. ya i did it. i survived a whole month without seeing him. but like bc we message or whatever occasionally (and my#frequent daydreaming lets be real) it didnt feel that long !!! wow !! proud !!@#like realistically i knew i could do it bc i went like. 4 months without seeing him JDJJDJDJDJD#god imagine. i spent the whole summer trying to get over him. only to see him 1 time n have everything come back#but WORSE. BC. RECIPROCATION?????????#god lmao. feel like im never gonna be over this. feel like i could even be married to him everyday n id be like WOW HOW DID THIS HAPPEN????#shits so weird idk. idk. im just NDJJDJDJDJD HOW DO WE GET TO THE NEXT STEP#BUT AT THE SAME TIME. I SHOULD GET TO KNOW HIM BETTER. GOD ITS SO DJFJFKKFKDKDKDKKD#like this is what its like to really like someone huh. all those other crushes i had were like.... a 0 in comparison#like wtf is this. when everyone else had crushes and liked ppl is This what they meant. jfc#idk if i could go thru this again JDJDJJDJDJD. hope hes it. ya#id promise to save everyone n never talk about this again but we both know thats not gonna happen ANDNDNDNDND#personal
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scarletwitch1918 · 11 months
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Today was the second birthday this year of a friend that I thought I was really close with that i didn’t get invited to
#birthday#fake friends#friend group#I’ve literally counseled this girl through half her shit this year and then she doesn’t even invite me to her birthday that she invited#people she barely talks to too and then after that she turns around and hangs out with my fucking brother of all people#I can’t wait for a new school next year so I can finally get away from the people who stopped appreciating me a long time ago#I know it sounds kinda selfish but I truly have not done anything (in the last 4 years) to ever hurt or fully disregard them and I really#don’t know what happened#one week we were waking to and from school together everyday and now I feel like I’ve been rejected from our walking group and I’m literally#uncomfortable walking with them in the mornings because they just fully ignore me the entire time#this isn’t even about just the one friend anymore#this is also happening with someone else who was supposed to be my best friend and now she barely talks to me anymore#and like I can accept that we’re not bffs anymore cause it happened a year or two ago so I’ve moved passed it#but she just pretends I don’t exist anymore#we have like three classes together and on snap she got an send it that’s said like tag your fav people on each class#and when I tell you i was in the room with her when she posted I and she didn’t even mention me#istfg#im gonna stop now because this is getting extremely ranty but I can’t really talk to anyone about this irl so this is just my vent space now
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pebblezone · 1 year
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succumbing to the illness. becoming a hater. anyway look at this building they’re fucking destroying
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#talkingcore#they’ve been hosing her down everyday but it’s so windy she just blows onto people. not ideal#she used to be the rec building but she felt like tunnels she was stuffy and evil and the weights were separated in a mean way#not a fan but she’s dead now!!!!!!#every day can be destroy. build. destroy when you’re living the dream life#thinking about how like December 2021 I was doing my first run through of the bb discography and making my ratings#(had a lovely grid and rating system) but one of my biggest flaws was how low I rated love you#yeah the vocals are kinda trash but that’s what happens when you go from singing to critical acclaim to doing coke daily there are effects#like sure Mona is obnoxiously repetitive but dammit it’s a Little fun. we can ignore what the actual meaning of I wanna pick you up is#ignoring the actual meaning it’s a really nice and sweet song. once agai. 1970s Brian should not have been allowed to touch a pen#anyway this is a roundabout way of saying I caved in and put Johnny Carson on the 2023 playlist and I think it’s yelling in a not good way#I’d share it but I got Apple Music and I kinda like not doxxing myself 💔 sorry lads#maybe one day I’ll be ready to doxx myself#that way my employer can see all my really great takes and creations!!!#Twas sounding like i had been able to achieve the sweet sweet affects of t this morning but now I am Less ill and sound more normal#sad but good I kinda need to sound normal as long as I have to speak in class#yknow what’s a good album? make it big by wham that shit is sooooo good#you CAN have my credit card baby 🥰🦅🦅🦅🫡🦅🦅🦅
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imnotfinebutimfine · 7 months
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It's so exhausting being a person who loves people in a world where people keep senselessly hurting each other
I'm not going to stop loving people and I'm not going to lose my optimism, but god some people make it so hard
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coldbycrossfade · 1 year
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ngl, copia/papa IV era ghost fans are kinda spoiled and annoying lmao
"ububu what are we gonna do when he's gone 🥺😭" IDK COPE LIKE THE REST OF US WHO LIKED THE OTHER PAPAS AND HAD THEM FOR A WAY SHORTER TIME OR WE MISSED THEIR TENURE ENTIRELY
i have 0 sympathy i don't care, you knew what you were getting into the moment you learned they get replaced, and your sweet booboo blorbo copia is not the special boy that gets to Stay Forever
tears in the rain babey !!
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sanstropfremir · 2 years
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Hi! As a fellow Humanities Person (sociologist) I've been really enjoying your critical (in an academic sense!) analysis of kpop & the Korean entertainment industry! I'm curious- how do you think social media has impacted kpop? I remember you said in an answer to a previous ask that aespa's choreo seems to have been created with TikTok in mind. And I feel like social media has made it even more difficult for idols to have a private life- like NCT is posting like behind the scenes videos OF behind the scenes videos and I can't help but to think that it seems like there's hardly a moment in their lives where they're NOT being filmed.
thank you! i'm not an authority by any measure but it is fun to speculate/extrapolate and talk about these things with people!
hmm. actually i don't think social media has made it that much more difficult for idols to have a private life, at least in the way that i think you're talking about. yes absolutely it has made idols need to be more careful, bc everyone has a phone now, but for things like behind the scenes content, that's just still just work. they would have been there even if there was no cameras, because things like recording or dance rehearsals or other content filmings are all work hours, not their private life. they know full well that their job is to be a public figure, so when they show up to do work, no matter what it is or if it's being filmed, that's work. has social media made it so that they have to do more things that they didn't have to before? yes absolutely, but i don't think it's that big of an issue for a lot of them. most idols really do care about the communication they have with their fans and showing them more the parts of the process is something that is actually interesting (in my opinion at least), much more so than just getting selfies. i think accounts like the shinee managers (shinee_atoz) are a great way to give a bit more personal context to the official content that comes out (which is what key said abt it when he pitched it) and it doesn't infringe on idols' (or the managers!!) private lives at all.
in terms of aespa's choreo being made for tiktok, that's just going back to the old methods from first and second gen to get a song to go viral because of the point choreo/dance moves. and it did work, next level was probably the most recognizable choreo last year (other than rollin, which was actually old school viral). in fact the whole doing choreo challenges on tiktok is just an evolution of the whole reason point choreo exists in the first place.
#there's a lot of ways social media has changed kpop. probably too many to list#but biggest are probably in marketing accessibility and fan communities#tbh social media has made it difficult for EVERYONE to have private lives. not just idols#like its definitely made people in the periphery of idols have more of a struggle bc fans will stalk their social medias#maybe a better line of inquiry is about how social media has made it so that there are much less clear consent boundaries#on when and where you can be filmed. but my point still stands in this case bc they're likely given warning#/already know when there's going to be bts filming happening#there's still so much that we dont see of idols' lives. like the stuff we do see is the stuff they choose to show us#this is a pretty broad question because it's so integrated into normal everyday life that when you try to dig into it in one aspect#like in kpop. you have to then interrogate how it affects EVERYTHING#kpop questions#text#answers#fundamentally it does come down to that everyone is just expected to show more. not idols i mean literally everybody#like my mom berated me on the phone last week for not posting on instagram saying 'people want to know youre alive'#no they dont mom. i dont need to post on instagram i'm perfectly fine not having ppl know what im doing#and thats not even getting into all the fucked up shit around tiktok & filming ppl in public. i dont even wanna touch that w a ten ft pole#yea. very entangled topic
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strwbrymlkshake · 2 years
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im the sleepiest guy in the world rn gn yangang I will talk to you tomorrow <3
#mine#i rarely ever do nightly or morningly posts bc i feel like theyre redundant for me but this is an excuse to talk in tags lol#WELL um i have a lot to do tomorrow and thats gonna be annoying bc as you can see it is the time it is rn.#ive been up doing my thing. feeling a lil funky and invested in my superiority complex yet again#would u guys still like me if i devoted time everyday to scaring people i hate :( well you guys probably just like to watch me be insane so#i totally wanna post all the gory details about my evil excursions but im so paranoid. hot boy shit#well the most i can say is ive been getting a kick out of horrendous deeds lately. which is weird bc mentally ive been BETTER#like im morally responsible and everything but i still harass people i despise for personsl fulfillment. whats up with that.#i never forget what they did to me ^_^ and the good part is im playing nice with them so they think its over. and im not a suspect#but theres just such a surplus of people who want to harass them that im ruled out entirely its so fucking funny#also thank you people who want them dead too and sometimes harass them instead of me i love uu<3 my besties fr#🪳#i commit truly horrible acts to satiate the bottomless pit inside of me <3 but only to people who deserve it#im coherent im not doing this out of raw emotion. im devoted to it. im determined to step on her and watch her die#to any frightened readers .#im normal about like everyone else i promise its just a handful of people i would slaughter on sight#well anyways i think my malice is satisfied for tonight gn<3<3<3#also im dreaming of the day where i find a nice malicious husbsnd and we can terrorize people together. romance at its finest#i take pride in the fact i actually do the shit everyone thinks of doing. i want to know what would happen. like a scientist#im craving this awesome breakfast place by my house anon im taking u there sometime to treat you. wait this isnt the ask post. hell
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righteousdelusions · 2 months
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you're going to listen to me... or else!!!
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cryptidapprentice · 5 months
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maaaannnnn
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halfricanloveyou · 7 months
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ok so i watched the new superman show. thought it was just okay romance wise, nothing very exceptional. the animation was weak in a few areas, i think they should have just gone all out and animated it like an anime, like in the myx episode. loved that battle sequence too!! the rest of the animations with the fight scenes were kind of clunky imo.
character wise i think they’re all pretty predictable and fall into the same boring stereotypes. tenacious and ambitious/spunky ‘tomboy,’ goofy comedic relief third wheel black friend, OP main character who’s main trait is being both responsible for all conflict and saving people from said conflict…yeah. it’s literally danny phantom but instead of being ‘sassy’ clark kent just has anxiety.
HOWEVER…taking into account the episode with the loving and kind gay gorilla and his robot-body-but-human-brain-scientist-husband, clark kent being quite possibly the most peggable fictional character to exist, casually depicting lesbian moms, and most importantly being very obviously and overtly anti US government means i objectively have to give it a 10/10 and say it’s the best tv show i’ve ever seen in my life.
also…it’s definitely a kids show (like probably ages 10+) and i can only assume it’s on adult swim because the people at cartoon network are fucking cowards. let cool stuff back on prime time air and stop shoving it all to after hours!!! sometimes midnight is too damn late!
#srsly as a kid i would have LOVED this show so much#but staying up late on saturday night when church starts in the morning???#my mom wouldn’t have let me#what happened to airing the preteen/teen shows after 7:30-8pm??#we don’t all have a DVR to record shit#moment of silence for my sheltered lil homies who like any form of action show at all#censorship is annoying. why is CN following disney SNP rules???#it’s BULLSHIT#shout out to my homies that don’t care about whatever dumb bullshit studios think kids like and just wanna watch cool sword fights#or laser guns or ninjas or superheros or interesting plots that go beyond stand alone episodes#or realistic conflict that isn’t solved with ‘just be nice and do the right thing all the time and then life will be perfect’#kids who like cartoons and fantasy and superpowers and magic#kids who like cool stuff more than funny stuff or stuff about everyday life or stuff that’s for their appropriate age group#the whole appeal of cartoons for kids like me who daydreamed a lot was that i could use them as an escape#i could daydream about myself in those situations and imagine i was in a world where things were different and a weirdo like me would fit in#i couldn’t do that with average disney channel shows or kids shows aimed at 6 year olds#as a preteen/teen i wanted to do anything and everything to not have to think about how hard things were#sorry i’m rambling i’m in one of my hyperfixation spirals again where i enter into obsessive and cyclical thought processes and get excited#and soapbox-y again…i have too many opinions and i get to excited to share them here#cause i’m not able to verbalize them or express them all completely while explaining them in real life#it’s the ADHD. i spent too much time online again and wasted my whole day without realizing it until it’s too late again#went right through lunch and breakfast too. i have got to stop doing this so much.#nobody even cares what i think i should spend my time doing something i enjoy#rather than spending it typing up pointless paragraphs that are as random and sporadic and hard to follow as my thought process#sorry ya’ll. i will be back again tomorrow to do it again 💕💕
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kimmkitsuragi · 8 months
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not to be like waah waaaah im so upset about my life while i have a nice and good life in general compared to so many people here but. i still feel like the art piece "here's the life i've always longed for". i keep thinking about my father almost crying talking to me on the phone at the election night. he kept saying he doesnt want me to feel like this country's fate is my only choice, and my life will not be ruined by these terrible people. but it feels like that sometimes. a lot of times actually. and i mean im trying to do things to change it really. but also im not trying hard enough. i get mad at myself for that. then i am mad that i live in a reality where i have to try so fucking just to have a chance of living in a decent reality. and what if i cant do it... i have to try harder i really have to apply myself i dont want to be a disappointment and a regret for my future self. i hope she is in a safe and beautiful place, not here. anywhere but here. please.
#yeah i cried while typing this keep scrolling#the thing is sometimes i think im just exaggerating everything in my head like. what's the worst that can happen right#but the truth is#I'm really really scared for this country's future. i dont know how bad it can be but it is already not good and still going worse#so. i dont think we are reaching when we panic about our future everyday#I know this is because I'm likely severely mentally ill but i cant live with this some days#the normal thing is obviously just. continuing to live#but the fact is that all this shit we've been going thru in the last year (before too. but especially 2023)#have pushed me to the point i was having panic attacks everyday lmao so like. yeah i guess it is fair that i want to gtfo of here#so compared to how ive been im really better#but still i dont apply myself the way i should. and it feels so bad because so many ppl worse off than me are pushing for their survival#everyday while im like waaaah wah i cant focus oh how will i get out of this country oh poor me wah :( lmao#girllll just work on it just do the things u must do. okay this whole post got way out of focus im just#writing my messed up steam of consciousness at this point idk#but. i cant help but say it's hard it's so hard to live everyday for me it's so hard to breathe sometimes#and i know that's a *me* problem. if i was not like this i could do so much#I should be doing so much#to get the life i want for myself. but it's so hard. i hope i wont die unhappy and full of regret#neg#🗒#okay i dont even remember what i wrote here exactly but it's probably the saddest post I've done in a long time#dont know if anyone actually reads it it's so embarrassing when i think abt it 👍 i dont even know where this came from#it's not even a Bad day
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immamapletreekid · 10 months
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the episode how long is forever from teen titans has forever altered my brain chemistry
#my GO D#im long overdue for finishing this show#its so good i can see myself going back to do annual rewayches already...#speaking of annual rewatches. need to rewatch the sandman soon bc i saw the news for s2 filming i an goijg crazy#god i miss last summer..good times w umbrella academy and the sandman#i swear the list of shows i need to waych keeps growijg bigger..and i iust keep going back and rewatchjng old sjows#bc i like knowing what happens next and i dont know jow to like something normally#it will take over my thoughts for a few montjs every year without fail its just a cycle my brain cycles through#favourtie things theres a wjole schedule#already finisjed tje annual nrt rewatch thats always due in the summer time its been 6 years GOD#been feeling the urge to rewatch arcane again too uuuhhg#and ive been wanting to rewatch some video game playthroughs again...only got partway through little nigjtmares#and also wanna rewatch hilda and we bare bears and amphibia and HHHHHH THERES SO MCUH#AND I STILL WANNA KEEP WATCHUJG MUSHISHI AND MOOMIN#but gotta finish teen titans first BUT IM ALSO GOIJG THROUGH SPIDERVERSE OBSESSIOK#everyday i want to do so many things i have so much excitement and passion built uo inside me#shit i also jeed to watch the new trigun anime bc i watched the original lasy summer and was obsessed#AAAAAAAAAAAAA SO MUCH STUGF#I STILL NEED TO FINISJ MY CRIMSON FLOWER ROUTE IN FE3H SO I CAN START AZURE MOON#rambling about stuff#lol its 1am i need to wake up early to cstch a bus tomorrow#i do need to occasionally just ramble into the void like tjis otherwise i have too many thoughts and voices and i physically cannot do anyth#ing else otherwise which isnt very practical
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thiamfresh · 1 year
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Paying all the rent, bills and food. Buying wveryrhing dog related including his 400 castration in 2 weeks. All the costs for new floors and furniture and electricals for my brother moving in(who will not be paying rent because like my mother he's not working at the moment) Being kicked out of my own bedroom so my brother can move in. Over a thousand pound at the dentist in the last month and my mums still hounding me for 200 more rent despite? Me covering?? The costs of?? Everything??
Yeah sure. This is totally fu king fair. I'll just?? Go rob a fucking bank or sell a ducking kidney I guess??
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abby420 · 1 year
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there is something so painful about someone being mean to you when you have been nothing but kind and genuine and good to them
#im not saying im perfect and no one can be mean to me#thats not true people can be mean if im in the wrong lol#but im specifically referring to some shit that happened at work the other day#basically this one shift lead ive been scheduled with a lot has been kinda shitty lately and just being passive aggressive and angry towards#everyone and ive tried to excuse it bc theres been a shift in higher management thats kinda been stressing everyone out#but hes starting to be really....shitty to me#but then towards the end of the shift i asked a simple HELPFUL question of just hey do we need to bring anything else over? cause we go#back and forth between two buildings so i was like hey do we have everything we need#and remember hes the team lead its his job to know these things ?#and he just did not respond so i was like no? okay and then he started going offabout how i should just know things and shouldn't have to#ask questions etc#and that just pushed me off the edge#bc its like i dont ask stupid questions#i just ask questions to be proactive and make sure im doing what we need to do and that theres nothing im missing#and ive only been there like 5 months so im not like that experienced yet#but it was so frustrating bc like i DO work hard and i do try my best at this job#i show up 5-10 minutes early everyday#im never late i never call out and i work hard i do what im told to do#and i do it all with a positive attitude! like not to brag about myself but i do genuinely think of myself as a good person#like im kind im supportive i have#a positive attitude and dont engage in drama or talk bad about people#so the fact hes treating me so shitty because i ask too many questions (i think ?) is frustrating#because thats just me as a person#i ask questions about what we are doing and what i need to do and what needs to be done and sometimes i need specific instructions#thats just how i work thats me#hes being mean to me bc im being ME#and thats what hurts i think#idk#the fact that im also trying and im getting treated like shit also hurts#i even stayed an hour late that day....and he still yelled at me for asking questions
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