#lenore YOUR FUCKING BRAIN
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𝐆𝐡𝐨𝐬𝐭𝐬 𝐢𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐬𝐤𝐲
Paring: Aegon II Targaryen x Targaryen OC
Warnings: None
Chapter: 1.01
“Rhaenyra!” You continue to rapidly bang your fist against the door leading into your elder sister's bedroom. "Rhaenyra, open this door right now!”
You hated her.
“You’re a fucking coward to hide from me!” You didn’t care that your language was unfit for a young lady, a princess; Rhaenyra had cut you deeply, and you wanted to make sure she knew it. “Unlock this door at once!”
You hated her.
“I would have never done this to you,” you sob. “I loved you, Rhaenyra, my big sister. We’re supposed to look out for each other, not... I would never do this. Not to you, never.”
You only stop banging on the door when your fist is pulled back by Ser Criston. “You need to stop before you hurt yourself, princess.”
You knew he was right, but it didn’t stop the anger that was radiating through you. Not only has Rhaenyra humiliated you by sleeping with your husband, she has also given birth to his sons. Three of them. Something you were never even given the chance to do. Your brain comes to a heartbreaking realization, one that makes you want to scream as soon as you think about it. Rhaenyra doesn’t care about you and never did. You feel your knees start to weaken, and your stomach drops. The knight whispers, “I know you’re hurting, princess, but they aren’t worthy of your tears.”
You take a deep breath and wipe your fallen tears away, knowing that he was right. “Thank you, Ser Criston.”
“The queen heard about what happened and would like for you to join her in her quarters. She wishes to offer you her comfort.”
You blink away the tears, your vision becoming more clear, and when it does, you see your husband standing down at the opposite end of the hallway. No doubt he was coming to see her. He was staring at you, looking worried. You feel your heart harden, not wanting to give him or her the satisfaction of seeing you hurt. You push back the sob, desperately wanting to escape your throat. “Ser Criston, do you mind escorting me to the queen's chambers?”
“Of course, princess.”
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“How could she betray me in such a way?”
Alicent wraps her around your shoulder; she seems genuinely concerned about you. You had managed to maintain a smidgen of your dignity by holding your head high as you walked through the castle, ignoring all the side-eye glances and whispers going on around you. One of Alicent’s ladies-in-waiting brings in a tray of tea that’s supposed to help calm nerves.
“Prin-”
“Ivory,” you correct with a weak smile.
Lord Strong nods, “Ivory, I am ashamed to admit that rumors of my brother's betrayal had reached me long ago, but I assumed there was no truth to it. It wasn’t until I learned about the incident in the training yard this morning that I came to realize it was true.”
You had spent the last year defending Rhaenyra and Harwin, insisting that Jacaerys and Lucerys weren’t fathered by your husband before you were married. Because of your age, you had yet to lay with Harwin, and you thought if he was going to stray, it would be in the streets of silk, not with your own flesh and blood.
“She swore to me in our mothers names that they were Ser Lenors true-born sons. How could I have been so foolish?”
“You aren’t foolish, my sweet.” Alicent picks up a cup of tea and hands it to you, giving you a sympathetic look as she notices your hands trembling. “You have been deceived, and I can only imagine what Viserys will have to say when he finds out.”
You shake your head. It was widely known that Rhaenyra was your father's favorite, and learning what she was really like could be the thing that breaks him. “My love for my father is the only thing keeping me quiet. He is sick; finding out the truth about what Rhaenyra has done might be the thing that kills him, and we do not want him to suffer. If I’m being honest, I don’t know what to do.”
“I find that praying helps me find clarity and reassurance. I pray to the mother nightly; you can join me if you wish.”
“Perhaps I should pray to the warrior as well as the mother.” You chuckle lightly. “I could really use the gods' strength and courage."
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After visiting the sept the night previously, the queen had arranged for you to stay in a separate bedchamber for the night since your quarter was beside Rhaenyra’s.
In the morning, Ser Criston escorted you back to your quarters; with him by your side, nobody dared approach you. The knight made pleasant small talk and even managed to make you laugh. When you reach your quarters, you thank him before walking into your bedchamber. You sit down at your vanity and begin to unbraid your hair, only stopping when you hear the door opening.
“Flora?” You call out, hoping to see your lady in waiting, who has become a close friend over the years. “Flora, is that you?”
When you turn around, you’re stunned to see Rhaenyra and Harwin. At first, you were afraid that the sight of them would upset you, but now, as you sit in front of them, all you feel is anger.
You say nothing; you turn your back on them and shift your attention to taking the remainder of your braids out. You push down the lump forming in your throat when Rhaenyra kneels down beside you with tears in her eyes. You pretend she isn’t even there and get up to go pick a dress to wear once you are bathed.
“Ivory! Ivory, please,” Rhaenyra begs. “It happened before you were betrothed! I never wanted you to find out like this. Sister, please! Just let me explain!”
You had fully intended to continue giving her the cold shoulder, but hearing the word sister caused you to snap. You can’t believe she had the nerve to call you that. You spin around fast, and your expression pulls into one of anger and hurt as you snap, “Don’t call me that again.”
Rhaenyra steps back as if you’d struck her.
Harwin says, “I am sincerely sorry for betraying your trust.”
You scoff, annoyed that he seems upset when it’s you that should be hurt by his dishonorable actions. “Until such a time that I am of age to perform my duty as princess and your wife, I don’t think we need to speak again.”
“Ivory…”
“You may leave, Ser Harwin.”
When the knight leaves, you turn to face your sister, whose eyes were bloodshot from crying, which angers you further. “Since the day Jace was born, I have loved him; the same is true of Luke. You’ve watched me play with them and sing to them. I’ve basically grown up with them, and not once did you ever think to tell me they were fathered by Harwin.”
“I tried to spare you the pain of knowing the truth.”
You can’t help the laugh that slips past your lips. “You must really hate me.”
She squeezes her eyes shut as more tears roll down her cheeks. “I love you.”
“No, you don’t. I’ve always looked up to you; I wanted to be just like you. My perfect big sister.” You shake your head, backing away from her slightly when she reaches for you. “Do not touch me.”
"When my father told me about his plans for you and Harwin to wed, I tried to stop the betrothal; I really did.”
“I believe you,” you say, wiping away more fallen tears. You hardly knew Harwin; he would occasionally accompany you on walks around the garden, and nothing more than a kiss on the back of the hand was shared between you, but he was still your husband. “Both Jacaerys and Lucerys were born before the betrothal; I would have easily looked past that and done everything I could to help protect them. But Joffrey, he’s only a few days old. Even after I married Harwin, you continued to have an affair with him.”
You see guilt pass over her features before she drops her gaze to the floor and says, “I’m sorry.”
“I still love my nephews; that will never change, but I can’t be around them right now. Not after knowing what I know, it will just be a constant reminder."
“Of my betrayal.” Rhaenyra takes a deep breath; red patches have appeared across her neck and chest. “I hope one day you can forgive me.”
When Rhaenyra leaves the room, you throw yourself onto your bed, pull your pillow to your face, and sob into it. This was too much pressure for a girl of one and five to bear.
When someone knocks at your door, you groan a little, assuming Harwin or Rhaenyra had come back. “Go away,” you mumble into your pillow. You lift your head to tell them to go away, but change your mind when you see who it is “Aegon, what are you doing here?”
He avoids looking you in the eye and shrugs. “My mother said you were upset.”
“So you came to check on me?”
You weren’t much older than Aegon; before you had even celebrated your first name day, your father had remarried, and Queen Alicent was pregnant. You were surprised to see Aegon, considering he didn’t spend much time with any of your siblings.
He rolls his eyes and says, “No.”
“Oh, then what are you doing here?”
“Wanted to know if you’d like to go dragon riding together.”
You smile and say, “Sure, that sounds like fun.”
Aegon on Sunfyre and you on Ghost were exactly what you needed to take your mind off everything else that was going on.
#house of the dragon#aegon ii targaryen x female reader#aegon ii targaryen#aegon ii targaryen x you#aegon ii targaryen fanfiction#Aegon II Targaryen/you#house of the dragon fanfiction#house of the dragon fanfic#aegon targaryen fanfic#aegon targaryen x you#aegon ii fic#ghosts in the sky#aegon ii targaryen x oc#Aegon II Targaryen/oc#Aegon II Targaryen x fem oc#aegon ii x oc#aegon targaryen x oc#Aegon Targaryen x fem oc
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Majo your love for both nevermore and Castle swimmer is SO FUNNY bc it's literally every yaoi vs yuri stereotype where the boys are 💫 talking about their feelings 💫 and 💞 being emotionally vulnerable 💞 and 🥺 healing from their traumas 🥺 and the girls are trying to fuck nasty while covered in blood as someone screams into the distance
GEGEUEJENDVWKWBSVKENEBDLEHDBSK
YEAH.
YEAH.
Castle Swimmer and Nevermore somehow both scratch such different itches for me yet simultaneously hit that perfect sweet spot that makes my mind go completely feral.
When it comes to the main couples, you really hit the nail on the head on their vibes and how they’ve dug themselves so deeply in my brain. Although there is clear conflict set up for Kappa and Siren that they will have to work through together in the rest of season three, these two are running CIRCLES, fucking marathons, around White Raven in terms of communication and stability. Meanwhile White Raven are in the middle of their messy, messy divorce, with Lenore having her joker moment during the public break up of their secret relationship while Annabel has a panic attack, all because Annabel didn’t seem to consider Lenore’s reaction if she found out Annabel trapped one her of closest companions behind a wall and left him to die. The two couples have such different vibes and yet both of them share that overwhelming devotion, wanting to do anything to keep the other safe. That despite everything the universe keeps throwing at them that stands in their way, they will keep on fighting for each other because they gave each other a new drive in life that they lost/didn’t have before. It’s all so *chief’s kiss*
Well…that and one humorous detail that I’ve suddenly realised while thinking/writing about this. While both Kappiren and White Raven are both equally smitten with their respective partners, their reactions to each other’s affection clearly differentiate.
Siren and Lenore, while they have their moments, are more easily flustered when it comes to respective partners. Kappa saying or doing the right things will get immediately get Siren completely red in the face and a utter mess, and Lenore is not better as soon as Annabel starts with her flirtations. The two of them are also very gentlemanly/princely in their affections for their partners, with the main example that comes to my mind being hand kisses.
Kappa and Annabel on the other hand…lord are they down bad and they are not shy about showing it. When it comes to Siren, Kappa is downright shameless with his flirting and will take any opportunity to see Siren blush. Two days into knowing him, Kappa told Siren that he thinks his teeth are sexy. He openly admits to Siren when he offers to give Kappa his bag back that, and I quote ‘I like that my stuff is strapped around your hot body’ without batting an eye, while Siren has a mini heart attack in the background. He knows exactly what he does to Siren and loves every minute of it. Then there’s Annabel, who despite coming up with the plan to pretend being rivals to divide the school, is FULLY ON blushing and basically moaning in PUBLIC when Lenore pins her against the walls, too focused on how hot she thinks her wife is getting properly into the role as enemies that she doesn’t that Lenore is genuinely fucking furious with her and is about to pull out the divorce papers and a gun. She saw Lenore in her ‘Leo Vandernacht’ fit and it immediately altered her brain chemistry. The girl will allow her hands to wander when she is alone with Lenore and she enjoys every second of it
#look at these fuckers running around my head rent free#not like I’m going to stop them#but still#castle swimmer#nevermore webtoon#white raven#lennabel#kappiren#kappa x siren#siren x kappa#lenore x annabel lee#annabel lee x lenore#asks
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the part that gets me about durgetash is the came back wrong/lost lenore combo
like. the dark urge and gortash, whether you see it as platonic or romantic, were undeniably important to each other (see prayer for forgiveness and scrapbook of letters). gortash doesn't care if you say your urges and connection to bhaal are gone. he still offers you a place beside him, as equals.
and then there's all the implications! you, the literal embodiment of murder, the vessel of bhaal, the bloody knife that he created to end all living things, wrote a whole ass prayer apologizing for not killing this one guy. saying sorry father i promise i'll kill him someday. but he's useful now. please don't be mad at me :(
the dark urge didn't want to kill gortash. that's what the prayer for forgiveness is about! that's why the dark urge is begging to be forgiven. because, for this one man, durge stayed their hand. if i recall correctly, there's a line from gortash about you always having control over your urges? which we know isn't really true. maybe it was true before the dark urge got their brain scrambled? or maybe the dark urge just never let gortash see how bad it was.
orin will call you a liar if you say you'd kill the one you love most if you had to. maybe because she knows you couldn't do it before?
and gortash, the chosen of bane, is supposed to rule over and subjugate everything. he doesn't have equals. but he saw one in the dark urge.
which brings me to the part that makes me so crazy. because you're his lost lenore! you're haunting his narrative! he thinks you're dead, and every day, he has to work with your killer. he has to see orin with your netherstone, that you and he stole from the hells together. he has to follow through on the plans you crafted together, without you. you, his closest confidant, probably the closest thing he has to a real friend, just disappeared off the face of toril. orin says she humiliated you. he has no reason to think you're still alive.
and then you crawl back to baldur's gate, an entire life forgotten, and, if you're playing resist!durge, trying to be a hero. depending on your choices, you can completely go against gortash. you can destroy everything he's created, everything he's worked for. (the iron throne, the foundry, etc.) you are not the person he once knew, you have no memory of your friendship, and you are going to kill him.
or! or! you side with him, and confront the nether brain together, and he fucking dies anyway! you can't save him. you definitely can't redeem him. the consequences of both of your actions will catch up with you eventually. and he always dies. by your own hand or by your actions.
either way, you're not the dark urge that gortash knew. you're not even an echo of your former self. you woke up on that beach a blank slate and created a new life for yourself out of nothing. (assuming you're a mostly good resist! durge) you found new people that you trust, that you care about, when before all you might've had was gortash. and how that must eat him up inside, seeing you again, seeing you surrounded by people that you care about. knowing that he's not part of your new life, and, if you fight him, never will be.
you're his lost lenore, and you came back wrong.
#durgetash#bg3#bg3 dark urge#the dark urge#durge#gortash#enver gortash#enver flymm#baldur's gate 3#i'm so sick in the head about him#sorry for the long post i'm fucking insane#gortash brain rot fr#long post
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Not spectacular photography just snaps from my couch that I was using to share with a friend, but hey, I bought Lenore accidentally! Things you should not do while a little delirious with sleep and Too Many Thoughts include shopping perhaps!
Her hair is so so soft which was kind of a mind fuck because I am used to looking at Monster High and bracing for sticky impact. The candle in her Lantern glows in the dark. She has a little strappy black dress underneath the big one.
She came with a very long stand which makes me feel like she should be able to be displayed hovering off the ground but it keeps sliding back down.
Her hands are such a soft material that it's a little difficult to get them to stay in position and hold her lantern.
Edges of the fabric are not hemmed but are completely coated in very fine black glitter design. There is a lot of fabric. The Indigo fabric that makes up her dress is pretty sheer, which will probably look cool if you put a light source behind her. I like the pattern on her sleeves and the bottom of her skirt.
I Really like her, which is why my half asleep brain bought her, and I think I will equally like touching up all her accessories so that they look like flowers and not dead Dalek guts, but she's not $75 worth of doll to me. I don't think she was to crazy tired me either, I think I just wanted to Add To Cart for feelings reasons. Absolutely happy to have her and I could afford to be surprised with an email that said 'your pre-order has shipped', but would not trust these folks to price anything reasonably and would probably not do this on purpose again. Which is not a new take by any means, but here's further confirmation if you want it.
you can tell it's mattel - you're in hell!
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nevermore brainrot
am rereading the series bc I don’t belive in sleep (and u shouldn’t either hehe) and it got my creative juices pumping
Not to say that what I have barfed up is poetry or deserves to be called as such but like, shitty fan-fueled poetry is like the essence of tumblr so really I’m just doing my duty
Okay here’s the first one:
(this was in the maze when they were ready to quit and Pluto was saying that maybe total death wouldn’t be all bad)
(Honestly wrote it like a goddamn musical but I can’t tell u how I saw this sung)
And his eyes are dark and her eyes are glass
As I speak my truth;
I'm just saying, would it be so bad--
To be dead with you?
And time has toyed with us,
The water has pulled us under
It's time to lea (I totally just gave up bc brain rot)
It can't be so bad, just another adventure to be had
Second One;
(About will, bc like yes I know he’s not a good person but like no shit bc everyone on the webtoon is gonna be nuanced, and flawed and fucked up and that why I like it damn it, also will is just pretty (like everyone else!!!) but in a plain understated unassuming pathetic way that appeals to me.)
(this poem can be like about any of the group they belong to — the snobs— but like I saw Monty and Anabelle Lee, it’s about him not having an identity or spine of his own 💓😝)
I'll be him, I'll be her
Any whim any hurt
I will take any form
If you keep me near
I have no will of my own
Traded my soul for a home
Anything to never be alone
I'll break my bones to build your throne
Without you I'm a train without tracks
A world that's cracked
Treat my morality with a levity
Write my rules around you
I'm not a good man
I'm just a mannequin
But for you id withstand
Most anything
Last one:
(obv Monty about anabelle and then about Lenore, WHO I ADORE, u can tell bc I feel like I captured his voice you know)
Oh Queenie, you're a meanie
No, you're a real bitch
You play this game and you play it well
I won’t tell, I’m not a snitch
(And bc you’ll toss my mutilated body in a ditch)
Calamity Jane
A woman insane
Arsonist who lost her temper?
A thief in the night?
A woman took flight?
I still see those glowing embers…
(The creative juice barf fest stopped there, thank the heavens, read this out loud like a goddamn musical)
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got tagged by @oceans-bluem and @celshii! 10 fandoms/10 characters/10 tags
fma (mangahood): roy mustang. yeah. the cringefail loser guy. love that weird codependent mutual satellite character death pact team rocket thing he and hawkeye have going on it's very worrying and also very sexy
orv: han suyeong. han suyeong. han suyeong. han suyeong. i can't think about her too long or i'll scream.
malevolent: arthur lester the saddest most pathetic-wet-cat guy ever. he has 5 tragic backstories i want to study him in a lab
tma: jon he makes me sad
aurora: erin ruunaser. [shakes him like a can of skittles until the dragon falls out of his brain] TELL ME YOUR LORE YOU CAGEY LITTLE NERD
star wars: ahsoka tano :) i haven't thought about her in a while but i love her. fun to draw. also the you-can't-go-back-home of it all. what do you mean she left her home and her family always intending to go back to them and then she turned around and they were gone. what do you mean. the live-action show is dead to me though hope this helps
osp: odysseus. yes i do mean specifically the osp version of him. he looks like solid snake
nevermore: lenore... she is so very gender and so very cool and i hope she enjoys her villain arc B)
doctor who: martha jones! she is cool and she deserved so much better and everyone who hates her is wrong. btw.
dracula: mina harker, THE train fiend!! the nerd ever. also the way she talks about herself in her post-oct-3 entries is so fucked up and sad
tagging @inkedmyths @fairyprince7 and anyone else who wants to do this!
#half of these are shitposts. my bad#i do love them i just can't be coherent about them#tag game#blorboposting#tbh i am more of a character dynamics enjoyer than an individual character enjoyer. i want them as one cohesive fucked up codependent unit#ginger yells
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The Fall of the House of Usher : Quotes
"- And if anyone, anyone comes after us, we will exhaust our arsenal until the threat's neutralized.
- By neutralized, do you mean sued into oblivion, taken out of the Board, out of the will, on the streets...
- Neutralized. Like dead. (Episode 1)
"- Algorithms aren't high tech. They've been around since antiquity. An algorithm is just a finite sequence of all defined instructions to solve a problem, or perform a computation." (Episode 2)
"- Nothing worth having is ever easy." (Episode 2)
"- It's better, I promise, in the moment just before than in the moment after." (Episode 2)
"- We need to talk because when people ask, there are some things you absolutely cannot say." (Episode 3)
"- That's why we've a charity wing, so you paste someone's face on it." (Camille - Episode 3)
"- We remember that he did it, so he did it." (Episode 3)
"- Because opportunity doesn't give a fuck what you're going through." (Episode 3)
"- That's why they hate us. Not because we grabbed the opportunity, but because they didn't." (Episode 3)
"- Like, I make video games, you know? (Leo)
- You don't make video games. You give money to people who make video games. No, no. An idea is nothing. An idea is fart that your brain makes. But if you patent an idea, well, then it's an asset. (Camille - Episode 3)
"- You're gonna do the smart thing and go back to your crossword puzzle or else I'll have you fired and sued." (Episode 3)
"- What's a six-letter word for "fucked"?" (Episode 3)
"- I'm gonna need you to tell me who the fuck you think you are." (Episode 3)
"- I can hear Camille's voice in my head right now. "Satin is silk for poor people, no one should wear it to a funeral, unless they died in it." Fuck's sake." (Leo - Episode 4)
"- The other go-to coping mechanism in my family. It's when you direct your more intense reactions towards something or someone that doesn't feel threatening. So you get to react and be angry, be abusive, be violent, even, but you don't risk significant consequences." (Episode 4)
"- Denial, displacement, projection." (Episode 4)
" - But see, I wanted something better. Something better for him. For all of them." (Episode 4)
"- A trait of mine that seemed to skip them somehow... sublimation. That is something that is one of the few coping mechanisms that's considered positive. Sublimation is when a person chooses to redirect strong emotions into an object or an activity that's appropriate and safe. So, instead of lashing out at your employees, you pour your energy into kickbox..." (Episode 4)
"- You drive a car like that, you make a statement. About who you are, where you're going, and how you get there." (Episode 4)
"- Now, let's get a drink, huh? It's gotta be noon somewhere." (Roderick - Episode 4)
"- Something in coke for you? You don't want the designer stuff. It's too dangerous." (Leo - Episode 4)
"- Are you mistaking me for a civilian? I'm not a fucking civilian." (Frederik - Episode 4)
"- You're not who I thought you were. Smart girls are only sex until they don't wanna fuck you, and then they're competition, and then what do you do? You take them down a peg." (Episode 5)
"- It's an opportunity. He's underestimated you. That's a gift. A failure of imagination. He sees you as formidable, he locks down, closes ranks, shuts the doors, battens the hatches. You are a face, you're not a mouthpiece, so just smile and shut the fuck up." (Episode 5)
"- Look, I'm shit at preambles. I made a life by getting to the point, so..." (Episode 5)
"- Why is this happening?
- Life is insane. It is madness. The sooner you understand that, the better off you'll be." (Episode 6)
"- Reality's not what it used to be. All that we see or seem is but a dream within a dream. For example.... As those who dream by day are cognizant of many things which escape those who dream only by night. (Roderick)
- Grandpa, are you okay? (Lenore)
- I am. I'm fine. I'm just... It's been quite a week." (Roderick - Episode 6)
"- Men have called me mad But the question is not yet settled. As to whether madness is or is not the loftiest intelligence." (Episode 6)
"- Shut your mouth, get your shit together. The fuck is wrong with you?" (Episode 6)
"- I don't know anything about anything." (Episode 6)
"- Men are as stupid as they are simple. You're better off. Oh, my God, my first husband. I thought I missed him, but that was just this temporary insanity. This burp your heart goes through. He was fun to ride. Boy. Men, when they think they're immortal, all they want to do is fuck. When they figure out they're going to die, all they want to do is fuck. (Madeline - Episode 6)
"- You don't have to be a tyrant, but if you don't want to be consistently cruel, then you have to be sufficiently brutal at least once to establish authority." (Episode 7)
"- Everything has a price. Every negotiation's a point of entry. Every deal is simply an expression of will. Mutual will." (Episode 7)
"- You're a collection of impeccable, elaborate masks in orbit of a stunted heart. And I understand. You find an adversary, you kill them. You find a hurdle, you jump it or dismantle it. You find a locked door, you pry it open." (Episode 7)
"- Don't be stupid. Can you imagine what that would look like? My own wife trying to get off my own drug. It's a PR nightmare." (Roderick - Episode 7)
"- All soaked with feelings of absolute desperation and dread." (Episode 7)
"- Basically, the closest analogy I can think of is a fish being pulled out of water, only at least the fish gets to die." (Roderick - Episode 7)
"- So, I will take there years of hell over a lifetime with you." (Juno - Episode 7)
"- He and I share that as well. We both understand that... language in its highest expression is musical. What's a poem, after all, if not a safe space for a difficult truth. So there is a limit. (Verna)
- No, it's not a limit, it's a standard." (Episode 8)
"- I don't want it, any of it, if it involves serving at some man's pleasure." (Madeline - Episode 8)
"- One of my favorite things about human beings. Starvation, poverty, disease, you could fix all that, just with money. But everyone loves something. And that love there's collateral. (Verna)
- No. I have no collateral. Collateral is leverage. And I won't be leveraged. No man or woman has leveraged me in 70 years of life. And I'm not going to cede that ground, not this close to the end." (Arthur Pym - Episode 8)
#the fall of the house of usher#the fall of the house of usher quotes#quotes#citation#house usher#roderick usher#netflix#netflix series
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It already bugs me how nfcv turned vampires into murderous elves and like, Im already very picky with how the belmont's role in Dracula's resurrection cycle is treated, so if i have to deal with a "oh the belmonts are soooo mean and prejudiced , stuck in their violence cycles with the pwoor little vampires who only want to predate humans, so unjustified :(" i am gonna explode
I'm seeing a little too many posts making fun of the Belmonts for being stupid, pathetic, or weaker than other characters such as Alucard :)
(even making fun of the Belmonts in the show is not very. not very nice? who are you mocking? a man suffering from alcoholism who lost his family at a young age because the church hated them? a woman murdered in cold blood by a monstrous vampire to protect her son? said son who watched it all when he was a child and still suffers from ptsd? an old man who also saw his wife and best friend murdered by a vampire? i'm sorry but it reminds me too much of the people who make fun of hector for being raped and enslaved - c'mon guys try to engage a little deeper with the narrative, don't get spoonfed with your brains turned off)
Yeah, the show likes the villain vampires too much, as long as they're hot or women. Dracula's treatment is a little ambiguous, as he got painted as a stupid grieving man for a whole season, but he did get his nice happy ending and people think it was deserved because "get yourself a man who loves you to the point of committing genocide for you <3". Carmilla is a #girlboss and you should stan her as such (same with Drolta but she died very soon lmao), Lenore is a sexy mommy and you should feel bad that she sunned herself in the end because boohoo why didn't she live happily with the man she raped :< Olrox is so hot when he fucks a templar man so feel bad for him when he laments that the mean Belmont lady killed the bf he turned against his will :<
And never forget about Alucard siding with the vampires because the Belmonts are "mentally ill hoarders" who keep the skulls of vampire children, which we are meant to see as actual children and not as poor human kids turned by vampires. Imagine the real Alucard, the one who went to sleep for centuries to remove Dracula's bloodline from the world, priding himself on his vampire heritage. the absolute bruh.
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can u recommend some good peterick fics (no top pete tho)
don't you worry your little head i'm a bottom pete truther o7 this is a very random selection of fics from my bookmarks so they might not be the best or most popular but i like them :3
the purgatory of my hips by auralcosm - pete gay boy moment, has a sexuality crisis -> gets patrick to fuck him yipeee!!!
Blessed Is This Union and Asymptomatic by heavenminutes - angsty and violent (read tags!!!) very much what i put pete through in my brain lol
You Got This Room For Two by TearCatcher - awkward first time figuring things out together <3
I Said I Hate You (But I'd Never Change a Thing) by SnitchesAndTalkers - angry snarky patrick who is so pissed all the time, pete is also annoying which is like, the cutest dynamic to me :]
Operation Jealousy by Lenore - house md crossover ahskgsahjagsjs idk who he is but the whole thing is silly and cute!!
I tried to speak louder, so you'd understand by schneestern - angst + hiatus you know how these go
#did this on mobile tell me if anythings messed up#i read a lot of 00s fics because i used to go through the tag chronically lol#no one tagged anything back then. literally only the ship name + the description is always so damn vague 🙄🙄🙄🙄#hey when did i become an rpf blog 🤨#I SAID CHRONICALLY i meant chronologically 😭😭😭
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Hey remember when I thought I could read all of the ao3 sterek tag lol
The show just ended, we were all excited, the tag hit 50k, I wasn’t thinking clearly. That went nowhere fast, but I did get through a couple of thousand, so here are my favorites from that time. Some links are broken, use way back machine for those.
What you will find here: angst, fluff, humor, character death, porn, non/dub-con, underage (duh), emissary!Stiles, bonding, fuck or die, h/c, pack dynamics, knotting, AUs and more!
What you won’t find here: classic a/b/o, mpreg, halecest. Got nothing against those concepts, just don’t find them to be a favorite.
Read author tags, as you would. I usually forewent full tag/warning descriptions and summary quotes in favor of a short personal opinions to save space.
entanglednow gets multiple mentions. Not sorry.
Why Won’t Somebody Think Of The Children (G)
Hypocrite by LLitchi // Stiles was the Hales' emissary and everyone loved him.
Never Been Kissed (T/teen)
Pick Ourselves Undone by elegantwings, orphan_account // technically not rated // lovely little introspective story
I just want to keep this dream in me by orphan_account // Stiles and Derek have something in common - a dead mother
Find (Me) by kototyph // forever mad Stiles/Gerard encounter has been so neglected in the show. Hurt!Stiles, what’s good.
Entrapment by Saucery // the boys get real close, bring your crowbar
Things Thicker Than Water by Cheshyr // Stiles inherited his mother’s eyes, and her smile, and her antidepressants.
Good Intentions by Helenish // Sheriff totally misunderstands things, but also doesn't
If I could be Someone (Within an Hour or a Day) by Finduilas // Stiles doesn't want to be turned into a werewolf, but he kind of wants Derek to want to.
puppets on strings by kameo_chan // a two-parter, T and E // this one hurts, kids. Brain trauma.
And Now I'm Sunk by pandacowhipster // Derek finds a new anchor
Between The Lines by witblogi // five times Derek played connect the dots and Stiles was unamused
Sometimes I Dream Of You by veritas_st // technically unrated // Stiles is right, Derek doesn't want him gone
They'll Take It All by someonelsesheart // friends, benefits and a lot of lies
Chase Away Every Monster by wangler // Gerard comes and goes, but the fun lasts
9/10ths of the Law by tsukinofaerii // one of the few demon!Stiles fics I genuinely enjoyed. A SPN crossover, no less.
Pre-Emptive Strike by Brigantine // give me emissary!Stiles or give me death
Blackbird by skoosiepants // quoth the Stiles “Nevermore.”
Like an Anchor That Drags You Down by lindenmae // “What did you do to me, Stiles?” Derek growls, and it’s so guttural even to his ears, he doesn’t recognize his own voice.
Almost There (M/R)
And Dwell Beneath My Shadow by lielabell // Lydia saves the day for insecure Derek
If You're Wondering, If I Want You To (I Want You To) by pandacowhipster // funny, fluffy, has Twilight jokes. Ladies.
Of sharing shirts by sephirothflame // they also share bodily fluids
Quit Talking (or I’m going to rip your throat out with my teeth) by Kayevelyn // # shawty what that mouth do
I Can Taste It, It's My Sweet Beginning by fio // petty Stiles is the best Stiles
And Yes, I Swallow Glass by lightning and a lightning bug (spoons) // 2x07 coda // talking about your shit is Good, as Derek finds out
you're my perfect little punching bag by lanyon // honestly, with the amount of canon head injuries, I’m surprised Stiles can still talk
Lone Wolf by Spikedluv // Derek needs help oh boy does he ever and Stiles obliges
Writ in Hecate's ink on willing skin by Lenore // Finger Painting: not just for small children
last night's dress (tiptoe out of this mess) by hito // an incredible delight of a fic with fake relationship
And I Followed You Home by entanglednow // resistance is futile
I Could Find My Way Back by entanglednow // oops, we are bonded now: the fic
Aversion Therapy by entanglednow // his shoulder may be hurt, but the dick still works
To Have Outlived the Night by stillane // hunters are assholes, water is wet
Stop Crossing Oceans by howl-to-the-wind (greenleaf) // I love a well-executed broken pack fic and, by God, did this one deliver
Integral to Survival by asocialfauxpas (fuzzytomato) // nothing brings people closer together than shared torture
Lock All The Doors Behind You by entanglednow // it’s almost like getting a pet, only the pet is a grown-ass man with claws
Red-Handed Man by proxydialogue // #where Stiles gets to be a nerdodactyl and a badass and the two are not mutually exclusive
You know how it is with spaghetti ™ (E/NC-17)
Sluice by GoddessofBirth // keepitwet.gif
rifle to the heart by sunsetpanic // AHS: Cult wishes it was this (there is also no Lena Dunham)
Holy Water Cannot Help You Now by affectingly // a missing scene/coda to 2x02. Stiles should just go to his happy place.
Want by tylerfucklin (orphan_account) // two words - angry. spanking.
He Hit Me and it Felt Like a Kiss by Loz // *Kiss With A Fist by Florence+The Machine playing in the distance*
Outer Dark: A Pornographic Fever Dream by ahab2692 // man, none of the drugs I ever did were this lit
know just where you've been by morphosyntactic // ooh, something smells good! It’s Stiles.
The Perils of Fungi by the_deep_magic // #traumatisedScott2020
Never Been by Lenore // Stiles is saved from his Virginity, and there is also a magic cave
Shake my ash to the wind by rufflefeather // just a whole lot of firsts happening
I'm Coming Over Tonight by burntotears // he can be quiet, see?
Red Velvet and Fur (A Hanky Code for Gay Werewolves) by orphan_account // I was hooting and hollering the whole way through, utter crack
I Forgot All The Rules Today by entanglednow // One of them is probably going to die before Stiles reaches eighteen anyway.
And Now For Something Completely Different by Ark // intense car sex with a touch of dubcon
Little Red Riding Hood (you sure are looking good) by aohatsu // Stiles dresses up as Little Red Riding Hood for Halloween. It's supposed to be ironic.
Hale of Heart by Nahara // one of the most interesting (conceptually) fics I’ve read in TW, Christina Perri is weeping
Camaro '68 by ZainClaw // absolutely iconique hitchhiker AU
Mercy Has a Human Heart by the_deep_magic // usually the tag ‘established relationship’ is not my favorite, but I’m glad I stayed for this
i fall, i fall, i falter by affectingly // normal relationship who? love-hate car sex
A Wild of Nothing by BewareTheIdes15 // feral!Derek is a God’s gift
How to Date Your Best Friend's Brother by veterization // All things considered, his best friend's brother is pretty cool.
Hide Of A Life War by Etharei // required fandom reading, as stated by me and supported by roughly 400,000 other people
We've Written Volumes (in Blood and Scars and Ink) by notthequiettype // As his eyes slip shut, the last thing he thinks is, "This is going to kill my dad."
Professional Misconduct by Calico, Habernero // this is some quality AU smut, y’all
Bonus! Ra-Ra-Rasputin (fics in Russian)
Плохой день, ночь ужасна (Bad day, horrible night) by мобиус // T // это мой самый любимый фик в этом фандоме на русском и легко в топ-5 в целом. Его нет смысла описывать, его надо читать. Без спойлеров.
В первый и не последний раз by fioletova // E // кноттинг в душе. Ты, да, вот ты, кому это нравится - это для тебя <3
Тот, кто меня целует by Sabira // M // АУ, где Стайлз и Айзек попадают в психушку по стечению обстоятельств. Практически на 100% состоит из диалогов, но от этого шарма не теряет.
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Ok so i started castlevania a few days ago and here are my thoughts so far:
-gruesome, more than i expected, but its fine
- gosh i love trevor
-i absolutely LOVE trevor, sypha and alucards friendship. Priceless, there's bickering but not in a childish way its nice to see it
-alucard is a bebi
-hector is super autistic coded and he a bebi too i liek him
-it was understandable from the moment carmilla came in that she'd betray Dracula and all but SHE HIT HECTOR! AND THE WAY SHE TREATS HIM? that bitch
-draculas last moments understanding he is trying to kill his son and accepting his death was touching. I think he wanted to hug alucard one last time before trevor cut off his head
-it still fucks my brain how brainwashed and stupid people can be over an ideology and belief and when you understand its an ADULT? idk it still shocks me that the church actually treated people like that. Horrible
-i know i won't get it but im still having hopes in everything i see for even a small jewish representation
-hector gonna die isn't he right?
-can't get over the fact that deaculas last name is tepes(tepesh) which sounds like tipesh in hebrew and it means stupid. Lmfao for me his name is "vlad dracula stupid"
-sypha is a super cool character, stronk magician smart woman
- kinda wanted to see more of godbrand but eh i don't feel like i missed something
-ALUCADS LIL DOLLS OF TREVOR AND SYPHA!!! HOW HE MIMICS THEM!!! absolute bebi
-plz save hector #justiceforhector (i know he helped the genocide of humanity but how can you stay mad at him huh?)
That's it for now, started S3 let's see how it gets even more fucked up
Update:
-GOSH i fucking LOVE trevor hehe
-alucard is still a bebi yes yes
- SUMI AND TAKA???? SO ??? BEAUTIFUL???? I-wow
-why everyone whispering
-have confused feelings about lenore, she is a very cool, pretty and interesting character but i feel like she'll kill my baby hector
-btw hector is a sub confirmed
-hectors nudity was NOT something i was prepared for, much less than the gore
-istg isaac and that captain were flirting at one point
-the head of the priory is so fucking creepy like yes dude we get it, we see them, put them away. Where did he get all those eyes from. And disgusting as hell.
-"what the fÜCK is a toilet paper" had me dead, my favorite line yet.
- me at the beginning of S3ep9: "wow half of the main characters fight for their lives while the other half are fucking". Me at the end of S3ep9: "oh. Oh, well nevermind. I knew it will come to this"
- i just KNEW lenore will betray hector ay ay ay. For alucard less, but not mid fucking oy vey
Update 0.2:
-im still so mad about the whole ordealwith sumi and taka
-hector?? I have so many things to say and questions to ask. You go girl, ily.
-alucard is STILL a bebi.
- can't imagine his pain by seeing how someone takes rhe soul of your parents and just tortures tgem for their own needs, thinking they are doing something good. Horrible. Poor kid
-trevor????? TREVOR ???? trevor. T R E V O R ???????? TREVOR!!!!!! U CAN'T DIE NOO I LUV U PLZ DON'T DIE
-wow lenore's ending was... Disappointing i gotta say. She just didn't wanna sit in her castle all the time so she just went to the sun to burn.
-trevor is alive!!!! YIPPI !!!
-ain't no fucking way they revived dracula and lisa omg wth
-hector is alive!!! I was wrong about him!!! Good
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Drawings from 2021 That I feel particulary proud of.
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Man, Fear and Hunger beat my ass good, I hope Termina gets finished soon.
Anyways, a silly meme I thought of while playing.
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DOOM!
I began re-reading Lenore and I got an idea of how Molly and her would get along pretty well, much to everyone’s dismay.
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I have Castlevania brain rot send help
Ho boy. I have FEELINGS.
Season 4 spoilers and (longwinded) Discourse(TM) below the cut
A happy ending? In MY Castlevanias? It’s more likely than you think. With as grimdark as the series has been I fully expected to have my heart torn out and shat on, so to get an actual satisfying happy ending was a whole lungful of fresh air. Gimme that sweet sweet rush of Everybody Lives Nobody Dies, I need that shit pumped straight into my poor serotonin-starved brain.
What a hell of a season. There was enough material there for at least two seasons (and I would have LOVED to have two seasons, but that’s just because I’m greedy and want more…) and I was skeptical that they could even try to wrap up all those threads..and then they DID IT. Hot damn.
Hot Takes:
In this house we stan Greta and will tolerate no disrespect against our sword-and-hammer wielding queen. I love her, and I love her and Alucard’s dynamic with the deliberate parallels to Dracula and Lisa. I think she’s good for him.
TREVOR AND SYPHA UGH I JUST LOVE THEM SO MUCH I’m out here crying ugly tears at how much this stinky himbo and tiny nuke love each other ;______; Battle Couple OTP.
I would watch the shit out of an entire season of everybody building the new village and Trevor and Sypha learning how to be parents and Alucard and Greta getting closer and everybody just being HAPPY. This is because I am trash, not because there would actually be any storytelling value in such a thing. Same thing with onscreen kisses between Trevor and Sypha. Is it necessary? No. Doesn’t mean I don’t want it. But hey, that’s what fandom is for, right? I’ll just be over here drawing beetus-inducing fluff and being vaguely disgusted with myself.
Papa Trevor would be so soft. I think my ovaries just exploded.
I 100% expected Trevor to die and leave Sypha grieving and pregnant with the way they teased it in the trailer and the way it would have thematically fit with the rest of the series, and I am SO GLAD he didn’t. I’m tired of sad endings. I really love that he gets to be part of this world of people who know how to build things.
“I love you.” “I know.”
That single flash of Sypha’s face as he’s fading out knowing he’s going to die and being at peace with it, augh my fucking heart. T_T
Horse is secret MVP. That horse knows things.
Isaac confirmed for a) stand user and b) monster fucker. King out here living his best life, you love to see it.
But for reals tho, Isaac’s arc was one of my favorites. Nice fakeout with the conquest line in the trailer. The philosophical discussions on the nature of humans and night creatures, the way he comes to realize that he (and Hector, and by extension his own night creatures) is/are more than a tool to be used in the hands of others, the way he reclaims his own agency and decides he’s going to live...I fucking loved it. (Also paves the way for post-series forgehusbands…)
SO FUCKING HAPPY FOR STRIGA AND MORANA. I was holding my breath expecting them to get horribly killed the entire time and then they just...weren’t. The hot vampire wives got to literally ride off into the sunset (sunrise?) together, in a way that made sense. The General and the Organizer looked at the data on the ground, discussed, and made the calculated decision to stick with what really matters to them, not just Carmilla’s ambitions. More of this, please! Would have loved to see Striga fight more than once, though. Also I would shank a man for Morana’s cape.
Respect for Carmilla for going out on her own terms, even if it did feel a little heavy-handed. The cinematography of her and Isaac’s fight sure as hell made up for it though- that was one of the prettiest fights of the series.
Reunited trio’s fight was the other prettiest fight of the series. Holy fuck, what gorgeous animation.
I actually liked that St Germain’s lady friend never spoke- it reinforced the way that he has mythologized her to the point where she’s not even a person, just an ideal. It was also exactly what he deserved that she turned her back on him in the end. She’s just not that into you, bro.
Varney is a hoot. A greasy, flea-infested slimy hoot. Nice twist, too. Death’s design is *chef kiss*
Loved the themes of moving on and rebuilding and change and how there’s a pretty clear split between the people who are able to adapt and change (and live), and those “relics of the old world” who can’t or won’t. Ratko was criminally underused in this respect. I think there just wasn’t enough time.
Quibbles:
Pacing. I know Castlevania is notorious for uneven pacing, but in this case I think this is on Netflix- they should have been given a full two seasons to wrap this up, just to give things a chance to breathe. As it was, though, I think the writers did the best possible job given the constraints they were under.
Zamfir should have lived to learn the lesson about caring for the people who are still alive, and been the one to take charge of rebuilding Targoviste for the living. Having her die was straight-up pointless in a predictable way.
Did Trevor just straight-up forget he has TWO weapons with range when fighting Ratko? You have like a 30 foot reach what are you doing bro
Lenore is Problematic, and I wish there had been more tension between her and Hector. Like, I know Stockholm Syndrome is a thing, but he’s weirdly chill with her in a way that glosses over just what she did to him. Also I would have liked to see more self-awareness of “Oh, being a pet in a cage really is shitty, no matter how nice the cage. Now I know why what I did to you was wrong” before she dips. Her ending sure was poetic, though.
Wasn’t Trevor’s left arm broken in that last fight? How the heck is he even able to use it at the end? Also damn dude it’s been two weeks you should probably at least have washed those gaping wounds by now. Do you want sepsis? Because that’s how you get sepsis.
Unpopular Opinions:
Look I love Dracula/Lisa as much as the next shipper but “Hey we’re alive again for some reason!!” was totally out of left field. It felt like something out of a fix-it fic and it was just kinda baffling and jarring. Also go see your fucking kid, jfc you two are terrible parents.
Is Lisa just...kinda fine with the fact that Dracula tried to commit genocide in her name and almost killed their son? That must have been an awkward conversation.
I’m actually cool with Alucard spilling his life story to Greta on the march. He’s starving for human interaction, who’s to say he wouldn’t just want to TALK about what he’s been through? It’s treated in a way that’s a bit flippant for my taste, but we’ve seen enough of his trauma onscreen. I want to focus on his healing.
I’m hesitant to kick this particular hornet’s nest, but I really don’t think the ot3 has to be sexual? If it is, it damn well be an ot4 polycule with Greta. I see them more as two couples that are close friends and found family. But that’s the great thing about fandom! Rock on, shippers of all flavors, there’s room enough for everybody.
In Conclusion (jesus fuck how much did I write)
Castlevania pretty
Have you seen my braincell I think I misplaced it
Moar plz
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Save You; chapter 4
➳ pairing: hector x witch|reader
➳ genre: fantasy, angst, fluff
➳ warnings: violence, swearing, smut, mentions of rape, past slavery, spoilers for seasons 1 thorough 3.
➳ word count: 2365
➳ rating: 18+
➳ summary: In which y/n and Hector continue to flee from the council of sisters, finding refuge among an unlikely acquaintance with fresh scars and a cold personality.
➳ Part two of, ’Rescue You’.
➳ a/n: an early update because i was feeling nice and have a couple pre-written and ready to go.
Chapters: 01, 02, 03, 04, 05, 06, 07, 08, 09,
Tensions
The kiss was soft and tender but once you pulled away you were quickly diving back in for more. Soon Hector was the one pulling away, carefully pushing you off of him. When you looked up at him again, his eyes strayed from your own.
Your hand soon found it's way to his cheek again as you turned his face back towards you, "What's wrong?"
"You don't want this. You don't want me. You don't- You deserve so much more than this." His eyes struggled to remain on yours, looking anywhere and everywhere else.
"Hector, I don't know what you think of yourself or why you think I deserve more than you but I love you. I don't want anyone other than you. I've told you how I feel so many times, I've told you that I love you no matter what so why- why don't you believe me?"
His widened eyes snapped back to yours, "I do. I do believe you but-"
"No buts, Hector. I love you and nothing is going to change that. You know that so what's really going on? Talk to me, please." You begged and finally, he listened.
Hector sat up and turned his back to you as he swung his legs over the side of the bed. Then, he sighed, "I'm broken. She made sure of that... and I- I don't want you to be stuck with a broken man. I don't-"
"Hector," You interrupted him and turned him back to face you before cupping his face, "I love you. Broken or not. What Lenore did to you doesn't make you any less worthy of my love."
He reached up, gently wrapping his hands around your wrists to pull them away from his face so that he could hold your hands in his own, "You don't get it y/n. It was bad before you came to Carmilla's castle but after Lenore caught you, once you were taken away from me, it got worse. Every single night she used me as she pleased. She defiled me. She did things to me... things I'll never be able to forget. You don't deserve the baggage."
"Hey, you're not baggage. You're hurt, sure, but you will never be a burden to me. So let me help. Let me help you feel something other than her. You can't say you don't want to, I know you do, but it's up to you. I won't do anything you don't want me to. You're in complete control but I want you to know that no matter what you decide, I'll still be here by your side no matter what."
Hector looked taken aback by your words but simply smiled at you as a crystal-like tear rolled down his cheek.
Instead of wiping the tear away with your thumb, you leaned in towards him and softly kissed it away.
"So?" You smiled somewhat sadly, expecting him to turn you down again but if that was his decision then you would respect it. Just being with him was enough.
"I want you more than anything. I'm just... scared. I don't want to mess this up." Hector admitted, squeezing your hands slightly.
You kissed him again, "You won't."
He stopped trying to push you away and allowed you to push him down onto the bed as you climbed onto his lap. Not once did your lips part until his back hit the mattress but even then, nothing progressed further than that right away. You wanted to know that he was sure. You didn't want to push him, you needed to know that he was okay and that he was ready.
"You okay?"
He nodded and pressed another sweet kiss to your lips, "More than okay."
Things grew more heated after that but once you began to tug at his nightgown, hoping to be rid of the fabric, he grew hesitant again.
"Hector. We don't have to-"
You were cut off with another kiss, "I want to."
He sat up as his hands found their way to yours, moving them as he removed his own nightgown leaving him fully exposed.
"You're so beautiful." You commented, running your hand over his honeyed chest.
Hector's face only flushed slightly as he attempted to hide it behind his hair, "No, I'm not."
No matter how hard you tried, no matter what you said or did, he still doubted you. No, he doubted himself. He didn't think he had the capability of being beautiful, he still saw himself as broken and nothing more. He believed that you loved him just as much as he loved you. He also believed it when you said you would stay by his side no matter what. But this, the idea that he was beautiful, that was something he couldn't believe.
You reached up and pushed his hair behind his ear, "You are. You're breathtaking. Every single inch of you is beautiful Hector."
Before he could protest again, you latched yourself onto his neck before kissing down along his jaw and back up to his mouth. During this process, you had received a few groans from Hector telling you that he was enjoying what you were doing, even if he was still worried.
His hands were unsure as they rested almost unmoving on your hips but, after a few more kisses, they began to wander. At first, they ran delicately up and down your back. Then, they quickly glided over the curve of your ass and towards your legs. Before long, as your hungry yet still tender kisses continued, his hands had slowly ventured under your own nightgown. You wanted him to keep going, to explore all of you with his gentle touches but instead, his fingertips paused once again at your hips. Although they were only softly caressing your skin, almost so soft that they were barely even there, the feeling was so heavenly.
You had expected Hector to be gentle, that was just how he was. It was cute and part of the reason why you loved him so much. He was still hesitant, cautious even. His experiences with Lenore had turned sex into something he hated, something he didn't want, but with you it was different. He wanted you. He wanted you more than anything, or anyone he had ever wanted before.
When your lips parted from his again, you reached down and began pulling your nightgown up over your head. Within a moment, you had already discarded it on the floor next to the bed, alongside Hector's.
He seemed unsure for a moment but you wanted him to know that he was in control and that he didn't have to hesitate with you. That was why you didn't do anything. You didn't kiss him again, nor did you move. All you did do was wrap your arms around his neck as you brushed another stray strand of hair behind his ear once again.
"Touch me."
Your words were so innocent, so soft, so enticing and he wanted nothing more than to do that, to touch you. But he was still scared of somehow hurting you or not giving you enough satisfaction. He was terrified that if he did this with you, that you would somehow be able to see the things he went through with Lenore reflecting in his eyes. He didn't want that, he didn't want you to see him like that. But his desire for you, his need for something more, was becoming overwhelming just as it was for you.
At first, his hands began to move up and down your sides. The trail left behind by the tips of his fingers was so light that the tingles on the surface of your skin almost tickled.
"I love you." Hector sighed, pulling your body into his so that he could rest his head in the crook of your neck.
His hands continued their gentle movements, this time travelling up and down the curves of your back. Your skin was so smooth, so soft, so fragile. He loved it, this feeling. The feeling of you.
You sat there for a moment, just embracing each other. His hands never stopped caressing your back. Your own fingers slowly ran through his hair and massaged his scalp, soothing the tension in his brain.
After a few more moments, when Hector began nipping at your shoulder with his soft lips, you brought your own up to his ear and whispered, "I love you too."
With those words, you lifted your body slightly as one hand went down to locate his hardened cock. He stiffened slightly when you touched it, sucking in a hiss as he buried his head into the crook of your neck once again.
"Can I?" Again with those gentle words, so soothing to his ears, reminding him that everything was okay, that he was here with you and not there with her.
He nodded against you and so, slowly, you sunk down. From the position you were in, he pushed in easily, his length reaching the depths inside you with no issue. You both moaned at the feeling but, once he was settled inside, once again neither of you moved.
"Are you okay? Does it hurt?" This time, he was the one asking you. He wanted you to be comfortable as much as you wanted him to be.
"No. It- it's good. You feel- so good." You reassured him, peppering a light kiss against his lips as you adjusted.
Without meaning to, you moved slightly in an attempt to get more comfortable. The movement alone had Hector involuntarily bucking his hips into you. You moaned at the feeling, not expecting such a sharp thrust so soon.
"I'm sorry."
"Don't be. It wasn't your fault, besides it felt good," you buried your head into his shoulder and mumbled, "Do it again, please."
And so, he did. His gentle thrusts were met with more grunts and groans as you also began moving your hips along with his rhythm. Soon, your lips were connected again but this time you slipped your tongue inside. Hector welcomed the action and moved his hands to your ass to help you move your hips in time with his steady pace.
He was still ever so gentle with you and, after a few more steady paces, placed his hand behind your head to switch positions so that you were lying beneath him.
You moaned again as he reached deeper within you, hands clinging to the muscles on his back.
"Fuck. There." You simpered, now tangling your fingers in his hair.
His pace was still so gentle, so calm, but it was beginning to grow sharper, harder, less patient. His lust for you was taking over and yet, he still had the thought to restrain himself.
You kissed him again, "It's okay. You can let go, you've been holding back so well."
"But-"
"Hector. I want you to. Please, go faster."
Again, your words of reassurance were all he needed to hear and so, his pace continued to grow at a steady rate. His speed picked up quickly but still carefully as he was wary about what you wanted and what exactly you were okay with. He was testing the waters, knowing first hand what it is like when someone puts their own needs over yours. He didn't want to ever do that to you which is why he was being careful. He was trying to figure out what you liked and what you didn't like so that he knew he wasn't going to do anything you weren't okay with.
"I'm close." He admitted, groaning into your ear.
You pulled him closer, "Me too."
His pace quickened again as his end drew near while your own hips continued to buck up into him. Everything felt so good. It was almost overwhelming. Not just the physical feelings but everything. Hector poured every ounce of his love into each and every touch, kiss and thrust. It was a feeling so foreign to both of you. Not the love as that was something you had both shared for quite a while now, but for the act of sex to finally be associated with nothing but feelings of love and comfort, especially for Hector, was so new. It was a feeling, both physical and emotional, that neither of you would ever tire of.
"y/n, I'm going to-"
Before he could even finish his words, Hector was pulling out and shooting his load onto your stomach. Thankfully, as his end hit him, yours was already rushing through you and, as much as you wanted nothing more than to feel him inside you until the end, you already had one child that needed looking after so neither of you were particularly ready for another. Not that you wouldn't want to have children with Hector one day. Your own children. You smiled at the thought.
Hector rolled off of you and onto his back as he caught his breath. You simply smiled wider and rolled onto your side to rest your head against his chest. You listened to his heartbeat as it began to calm down, followed by the steadying of his breathing.
"Thank you. I- I needed that more than I thought I did." He confessed before wrapping an arm around you and tenderly kissing your forehead.
"Me too. It was good for me too." You grinned, smoothing your hand over his warm chest as you closed your eyes.
You fell asleep so quickly after that. You were so exhausted from such a fulfilling night and, with Hector so softly playing with your hair, it was all too easy to drift off to sleep.
He smiled as your soft little snores made their way to his ears. He just watched you as you slept, gazing at you with such adoration as he gently traced your lips with his thumb. With one last kiss, he pulled the blankets up over you and closed his own eyes. He finally felt safe and, after such a long time, he was truly happy.
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Let’s go down the list shall we:
Katherine: gets impregnated with child out of wedlock, child torn away from her right after birth. Her entire sympathy arc is based on a child she didn’t even connect with.
Rebekah: Believes her trashy life will all be fixed with a hello kitty bandaid if she just had Kids and a Hubby, (when all she needs to do is get away from her toxic brothers and experience life on her own)
Isobel Flemming: Teen mom ™ who regrets child but loves child who wants child but doesn’t want child, who looses child because the guy is a coward, leads person who clearly wants to use/kill child to said child, then turns around and says I love child. (It’s like they couldn’t stick to a single villain arc because how could a mother possibly not care about her child when even the shitty dad does all the while having eight different dad hates child story lines sitting in the back burner.)
Valerie Tulle: gets pregnant with Stefan’s child and has child LITERALLY beaten out of her, has child PHYSICALLY beaten to death inside her, is pushed to the fucking ground and kicked in the stomach till child dies, commits suicide because of loss of child, is not even given the dignity to choose her own death, comes back as first Heretic to exist, all of this to push plot and create dRaMa b/w steroline. Yes they actually used a women who was violently beaten to near death and experienced an even more violent miscarriage at the hands of a guy who believed the child will make him late for a bone sesh, revolve around steroline and how Stefan wouldn’t love Caroline if he just had that child, THERES HALF A EPISODE JUST DEPICTING STEFAN’S MANPAIN ON LOOSING A COULD BE CHILD, when Valerie literally acts like a mechanical robot reiterating facts and her entire emotional “reaction” so to speak is her committing suicide AND NOTHING ELSE (as if they couldn’t be bothered to write female trauma) Like JFC you CANNOT TELL ME THIS IS DISGUSTING FUCKING SHIT THAT SHOULD NOT EXIST.
Jo Saltzman: Looses twin foetus children on her wedding day, is literally killed by her abusive psychotic brother on the fucking alter, to cover up Candice’s pregnancy, JESUS, HOW DID A PERSON WHO IS NOT UNHINGED IN THE BRAIN SIT DOWN AND COME UP WITH THIS, and not for one second think how fucking traumatising ALL of this is FOR NO GOOD REASON. Not even good plot, this was all for logistics they could’ve fucking covered up in a hundred other different ways.
Caroline Forbes: Do we even have to mention it? Is forced to endure pregnancy she has NO obligation to endure, is not even given a single scene to process the pregnancy and come up with a coherent response that isn’t “I will do it for you” forces herself to marry a man who is as old as her dad in human years for said children, said man turns around and tells her she is not these children’s mother to her face when she was literally FORCED into giving birth to two children that aren’t even her own. Looses all character development and becomes Mother of child ™.
Hayley Marshall: Nah bro I shouldn’t have to TELL you, but ok, gets pregnant with an abusive psychopath’s child, ykw the list is too long, y’all know the drill choked when wanting abortion, experiences atleast 7 near death experiences in the nine months she was pregnant all because Klaus wanted to play King to three streets and one marsh, and she was KWEEN of the werewolves, has the most violent birthing experience, her child revolves around Klaus’ redemption, hence her character fully revolves around said child and directly/indirectly Klaus, is turned into a fucking animal when she decided to do one damn thing for her own child, is nothing more than “Mother of Hope” throughout the show.
Freya Mikaelson: Of ALL the different things a women in literal captivity FOR HER ENTIRE LIFE can experience for backstory Trauma™ OF EVERYTHING they could choose, they yet again go for traumatic pregnancy, a self-induced miscarriage and a SUICIDE story revolving around said pregnancy, her selling point to the Mikaelsons is “I lost a child I won’t let you lose yours.” LIKE ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME? Forget misogynistic writing that’s just paper-thin-rumpled-trash-in-trash-can writing.
Esther Mikaelson: Chooses to give up her first born child for the prospect of multiple children, in Lenore’s body actually bloody tells Hayley she can have more babies if Hayley allows her to make Hayley Human, Hayley CONSIDERS THIS SERIOUSLY. Is actually shown to want to become human so she can have more babies.
Sarah Salvatore: Black woman who is KILLED by Damon to give manpain TO DAMON, like bruh wtf?? You seriously had Damon kill a pregnant black woman and give him manpain in the form of guilt to redeem him? YOU MADE A WOMAN’S MURDER ABOUT HER MURDERER’S GUILT?? JP and her team of writers cannot get more fucked up than this
Feel free to add to this, and if any fucker ever dare come to your page trying to fight that tvd/to is not MISOGYNISTIC in its ENTIRETY, you send them to this post, and this post only contains pregnancy related batshit crazy misogyny in the show, if we went through everything that is misogynistic, I’d say the transcript of the show is an entire comprehensive list of all of it. And seriously anybody who believes JP’s writing isn’t the most misogynistic sexist piece of writing that’s just a steaming hot pile of rotten shit, Well then I sincerely suggest you fuck off to some other corner of the world where TO/TVD stans can gather and lick white manpain experiencing male dick.
Sincerely someone who has watched TO/TVD top to bottom and is traumatised.
LOL yes exactly, like I don’t understand how someone could see this and say that it’s not so soaked in misogyny that nothing in the show can be separated from the violent sexism. Saying “well this character stood there in one scene and didn’t say anything sexist so you can’t call the entire thing sexist and if you do then you’re basically doing the same thing as calling all men sexist” (and like I don’t want that anon to start that argument again but LITERALLY WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT ANALOGY) is an absurd, fatuous argument.
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