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Middle sister called me to say she heard through the grapevine that I'm trans and to warn me of the horrors of testosterone. That I'll ruin my body with it and also she'll never call me by my chosen name. But she loves me! And I just had to sit there like wicked thanks this is all very contradictory but okay have a good day I guess
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in early December I twisted my ankle. It was mostly recovered but I just twisted it a teensy bit again 😩 ugh. I think it’s fine but come on.
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The hardest thing for me is wanting to be there for people, offering assistance, and they turn it down. Gotta remember that’s on them and not me. I’ve got a big heart enough to ask and offer. If they don’t want my help that says more about them than it does me…
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How is school going?
Better than I thought it might, actually.
My English professor is a very nice Trans woman who does slam poetry. She was absolutely delighted to learn I wrote fanfics and, on occasion, my own poetry.
My ASL teacher is a very sweet deaf woman, who screamed with delight and hugged me when she found out I had synesthesia. Which. Out of all the reactions I was expecting, that was not one of them.
I'm a little annoyed with my fingerspelling teacher. But that one is online, so I'm annoyed with the class in general. I'd really wanted in person. (I'll go on that tangent in a minute.) But hey, even if she dumps quite a work load on us right off the bat, at least she tries to engage a little bit.
And then there's math. I desperately wanted math in person, because I struggle with it. A lot. But instead I had to do online. So I'm annoyed at that. But THEN. It's entirely self taught??
Like. I'm essentially just given some materials and told to figure it out.
I sort through what's relevant in the chapter.
I figure out what notes to take.
I practice what I GUESS I need to practice.
I do the assignment best I can.
It's graded by the computer.
Rinse, repeat.
If I should have a question, I either figure it out myself, find something online, or send an email to my professor. Emails can take HOURS to go back and forth, if I'm stuck, what am I supposed to do for that time?
So why does the class cost $400 ish dollars? Why can't I just buy the $40 materials, WHICH I HAD TO BUY ALSO, since I'm doing all the work? Granted, my scholarships covered most of the cost, but it is the PRINCIPLE of the matter, yknow?? Ugh
AND THEN THERES THE WAY I WAS LIED TO??
I'm so bitter that I'm a hybrid student! Because I asked and asked and asked!
"Is this major available in person?"
"Yes, absolutely!"
"All the classes?"
"Mhm!"
"Will it be available at the campus 20 miles away in the next town over?"
"Yep, deaf studies is offered at all our campuses!"
"Great!"
AND THEN
"Well actually, we're slowly transitioning to having this major entirely online."
"...are you, now?"
"Yes. So some of your classes will be online."
"...how many?"
"Half of them!"
"Which ones?"
"Fingerspelling and math."
"Fingerspelling. Which is a visual learning class. And math. Which is the subject I struggle with the most. Will be online?"
"Yes."
"Ok... when are the set virtual lectures?"
"There aren't any, it's entirely independent study! You have due dates on assignments though."
"Ok... well at least it's still in the next town over, so I can drive over pretty easily if I need some help from a tutor?"
"Oh, no, sorry, deaf studies is now offered only at our main campus, in the state campus, almost 70 miles from where you live!"
"...Yall fucking liars."
So yes, I have to commute that a couple times a week for the classes I do have in person, because there was no way I was doing entirely online when I KNOW I struggle with that. And I'm pissed? But there's also no other option? Because it's the only school in my state outside of fucking VEGAS - 415 MILES AWAY, MIND YOU - that offers this major. And I can't go to like. Cali next door, even if it DID offer those closer - it doesn't, by the way, and there's none nearby, I'd have to live with a relative in Redding or something - none of my scholarships would work outside of my state.
So?? I'm so irritated?? I'm not even a week in, and college already feels like a scam?? But I still need to do college so UGH, FUCK
#hello again#another bit of rant#im in a better place this time.#no longer ACTIVELY breaking down#just irritated#disgruntled if you will
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Me: I'll write today. Especially since I finally got a fic request for the first time in my life and it's one I like and really want to write
My husband: So I'll be needing the laptop to check out insurance policies for next year and then to play games
Me: No it's fine I'll just write on my phone. Which I fucking hate doing. No big deal
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Americans not giving a shit about the wildfires burning down forests and homes in Canada until smoke starts spreading across the border. Meanwhile Indigenous communities across the country are far more likely to be impacted by the fires and I’ve seen all of one link to a charity and about nine million memes. 🙃
#yeah yeah hashtag notallamericans or whatever the fuck#I’m just irritated watching people whine or centre themselves#like sorry your clothes smell like smoke gladys but people have lost their fucking homes#and the government does fuck all for indigenous communities#so you know who’s gonna end up getting more aid#but sure brad can’t go out for his usual morning jog because of the canadians#also all these fucking news articles making ir about america as if canada has somehow done this on purpose out of spite#someone buy me a punching bag for my birthday thanks#artschoolrambles
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Ghost Kitchen (brought to you by criminal entrepreneur, Red Hood)
Danny’s got the easiest job in Gotham.
He works as a fry cook at a shoddily-run, independent burger joint. Hardly anyone comes in, despite prices being criminally low, and portions insanely large, and while the manager looks like the average tough-as-nails ex-con, he lets Danny mess around in the kitchen whenever the place is empty. (Which is often. This place has to be the city’s hidden gem or something!)
Mr. Manager’s the only one ever there with Danny, except for sometimes when his buddies come over to smoke and play cards. Danny would find it shady, except part of his job is not to ask questions. Literally, he was told during the interview.
(It was a weird interview. Why would they need to hire someone who’s been in a gunfight before? Like, he has, but Gotham’s idea of “hirable qualities” is so bizarre.)
So instead he whips up some killer burgers with the frozen ingredients, and basks in the praise as the guys tell him he shouldn’t have, he does too much for this joint, ain’t that friendly!
Now, Danny’s a chef on the newer side. As a teen he’d preferred the look of Nasty Burger over anything with Michelin stars, and he only really took up cooking after Jazz moved out for college. But just like ecto-exposure used to turn the groceries sentient, Danny’s low-level ecto signature imbues all his food with something historically haunted Gothamites just love! And Danny’s never been one to half-ass a job when it makes people happy.
With fresher produce, real meat, Danny’s sure he can take his dishes to the next level. It takes a couple months of badgering, but his manager finally agrees to contact the mysterious store owner, who keeps the place going, despite profits Danny knows have to be in the red.
Danny spends the morning prepping. He pours his heart into his food, eager to impress. The big boss will be here soon, and he wants to prove that despite the dangerous location, this place has real potential!
It isn’t until the Red Hood shows up that Danny realizes he’s been working for a money laundering scheme.
#ecto has a weird effect on them actually. a lot like how danielle drinks ecto to keep her stable#ecto has positive health benefits for gothamites! it boosts their immune system gives them a little more energy makes them less irritable#silly hc but i think its fun#also danny just. thought it was a normal ass interview. the person who hired him was heavily hinting at the criminal element of his job the#whole time. danny just kept thinking man i cant believe all interviews are like this in gotham. every one of the#m asks if im okay lying to cops. i am but its weird i never got asked this in amity#dpxdc#dcxdp#dc x dp#dp x dc#dead on main#ghost kitchen au#danny fenton#jason todd#kipwrite
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gender is a performance and i am but a reluctant backstage emo whose parents made them sign up for tech crew as an Extracurricular
#shout out to all voluntary theatre kids but i just did NOT have the stamina for afterschool activities#because of the Horrors and the Sorrows#(I assume that is what we are calling our untreated mental illnesses now)#(atm mine are under control so i call them the Irritations and the Sniffles)
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POV your partner finally believes you about those 24 voices in your head but somehow it still doesn't absolve you of responsibility, damn it
#disco doodle#it just gives Kim more specific ways to get irritated with Harry#oh well it was worth a try#This looks really wonky#I might try again with this and add more stuff#The full time job and also doing art thing just got to me and I needed to do some drawing even if it's just this#Rip me#Kim Kitsuragi#harry du bois#harrier du bois#my art
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the question came to mind of "in your ship, how might the larger/stronger party pick up or carry the smaller one?" and these were the answers i came to
#quill to paper#can't get over draco and harry being like 3 yrs deep in a relationship and still irritating the fuck out of one another#drarry#linny#romione#drarry fanart#linny fanart#romione fanart#draco malfoy#harry potter#luna lovegood#ginny weasley#ron weasley#hermione granger#also it's my belief that the weasleys are literally all hot in some way shape or form#even percys hot in like a pretentious high ranking office grunt sort of way#ginny? my god. as a dyke: professional quidditch player ginny could do unspeakable things to me#rons got the whole head auror thing going for him and also being just sorta rugged. if still pale as hell#stock photos + one pose photo used as refs#draco is screeching smth like UNHAND ME BASTARD!!!!!!!#hermione gets to be smug about her hot auror arm candy husband#also yeah i'm inflicting my music taste on harry. he gets ahold of grunge and goes completely off the handle with it#everclear beloved
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sometimes fandom seems to struggle with the concept that...people can be kind/"good people" in some situations and very very not kind/not "good people" in others.
I feel like there's this urge to either write off the positive behavior as "fake" or to find a way to ignore/explain away/write out the negative behavior. and I personally find this really really irritating in both directions, actually
#the really bitchy addition to this post i'm leaving in the tags: it kinda makes me wonder if they've ever met real people#this isn't just about villain police stuff either#but it's not not about that either#mostly it's just. characters can be more than one thing depending on the situation#just because a character kills somebody doesn't mean every time they're nice it's totally fake#and conversely: just because somebody does good things doesn't mean they can't also have taken very harmful actions#anyway. irritable early morning post i might regret later#lise's aggressively bitchy opinions about irrelevant and unimportant matters
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Eh, almost forgot ;~;; Commission for sweet @celestialrose3 ;;~;;; Thank you so much *bows*
#rottmnt#I am always very nervous when I draw commissions that are related to someone's story... how to explain it...#No matter how many times you might tell me that it's okay#I can't put it in the words because it sounds stupid and silly#but#you see#It's CAS#cass fanart tag#and it is commission#I ALWAYS FEEL NERVOUS TO POST COMMISSIONS YES I DID THEM FOR SOMEONE BUT they might be related to someone's story or comic and I sit and#think “Can I show it? Isn't it irritating? Am I even allowed to take commission related to it??” I“M SORRY I'M FIGHTING WITH THIS FEELING#ALL MY LIFE#okay no I can't explain it it's just my stupid brain that feels very nervous about such a topic and wants to hide everything related to it#You saw nothing but I just needed to put it into words to feel a little better about it#*hides*
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crazy uniform for a pilot
#pokemon#gym leader skyla#swoobat#skarmory#i just know the crotch straps are irritating#she look good tho giggle
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parallels that deal me +10 psychic damage for every second I spend pondering them
#cameron is wilson in the way that amber is house#except the former goes unmentioned a lot more#both cameron & amber had the potential to fix house & wilson respectively#but that’s the issue#no level of well-adjustedness could root out this level of codependency. this particular brand of love#house and wilson are the antithesis of one another but in the sense that they compliment each other’s pathologies like a puzzle piece#not to use another hannigram quote again but. they’re identically different.#that’s why they’re soulmates <3#house md#hilson#house/wilson#greg house#gregory house#james wilson#hatecrimes md#allison cameron#GOD just thinking about it#house became irritated with cameron’s pursuit of him#because he’s insecure and believes he’s fundamentally unlovable#and her pattern with falling for ‘charity cases’ did nothing but affirm her lack of genuine interest in him#meanwhile. when it comes to wilson#he’s actually elated to know that he’s screwed up enough to never leave him#and the same goes for wilson#when he goes mattress shopping with amber#she encourages him to choose something he likes. for himself#because she doesn’t want him to indulge her to the point of resentment#and so he gives in! because it’s the healthy thing to do!#but when it comes to house#when house tells him to choose furniture that fits wilson’s tastes#he ends up buying an organ FOR HOUSE. and the response? ‘I like what this says about you wilson.’
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Sorry y’all the entire Clever Hans wiki article should be basic required reading at this point.
The “Clever Hans” effect, also understood as animals performing tasks because their handler/owner subtly and often unknowingly cues them that they’ll get a positive response is well documented. Hell, it’s been observed in drug sniffing dogs where the dogs will give false positives based on the dog’s observance of the handler’s body language. Scientifically that’s very interesting.
Dogs using buttons are not “speaking” they are using what they know will get them a desired response. Dogs do speak, to us and each other, in their own form of communication (body language mostly). We as humans are adept at being able to learn to read this just as dogs can read OUR body language (body language we often don’t know we are communicating btw). That’s neat as heck.
#dogblr#dog buttons#it’s just straight up anthropomorphism sometimes with button folks#and irritating that they are calling them ‘experiments’ and ‘studies’#when it’s one or two people with their individual dogs#like literally just clever Hans but dogs#like even koko the gorilla falls under this contex.#why can’t we just let animals communicate naturally? the human being is more than capable of learning that
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Unless you're into clingy men, dating Gojo would be so annoying. This mf won't let you leave the room without asking where you're going. He's not gonna follow you, but don't take too long. Even if you're just using the bathroom, if he thinks you're taking too long, he's outside the door asking what you're doing.
God forbid you try to go out with friends who aren't also his friends. He'll tell you to go out, have fun, and he doesn't care. Until it's 3 hours later and you hear a very familiar voice from behind you responding to what your friend just said.
This man is never leaving you alone. You're stuck with him for life.
#i love gojo#thats my man#but i just know he would piss me off#on top of being a sagittarius#he's clingy and for someone that likes their space#he would irritate me to the core#jujutsu kaisen x reader#jujutsu kaisen imagines#jujutsu kaisen#gojo x reader#gojo satoru
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