#ive had this song on fucking loop for like 2 weeks now ??
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Full version of VBS + Hatsune Miku Alter Ego cover just dropped!
#vivid bad squad#hatsune miku#alter ego#project sekai colorful stage#project sekai#prsk#pjsekai#hatsune miku colorful stage#colorful stage#vbs#Youtube#vocaloid#the way my jaw dropped when i woke up to this#ive had this song on fucking loop for like 2 weeks now ??#and the full vers just finally dropped?????#between this and paiii sensation i am absolutely losing my mind rn aaaaaaa#vbs just never disappoints omfg... this song slapped alr but their version breathes new life into it somehow#aerin.tagspeak
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a pile of stuff ive made in famistudio (nes sound engine ) over the past couple weeks. months ? . all of them are really short so i figured itd be easier to just put em in one audio file . the actual order they are in is just kinda whatever i feel like
timestamps n more info-
0:00 beat15 (revision)- an older lil thing i made that i decided to go back and adjust some
0:30 beat36 - i mostly make short little melodies that loop and im trying to make more actual songs but i didnt feel like figuring out a transition .
1:07 beat37 forest - another attempt at a slightly more fleshed out song. wanted to try to have a sorta rpg forest theme vibe
1:43 BWOWWWW - a little attempt at sampling audio . its a bit of a hassle trying to import sounds into this program and i was just kinda happy it sounded like anything at all . sound used- that one fucking electric guitar chord that they end every episode of phineas and ferb with
2:10 convenience store - tried to make a sorta relaxed beat that could play in some sorta shop . the rythyms a bit weird but yea
2:50 dream1 - a common recurring thing in my game ideas n stuff is dreams as a mechanic/area. i wanted to do somethin that sounded kinda janky and irregular for like a dungeon sorta thing
3:19 beat34 - another thing to do with dream worlds . i was messin with some chords i had made in famistudio that i had plugged back in as samples and there was a cool effect when i messed with the sample speed and shit. tried to make the beat a bit reminiscent of a heart beat . i like how this one turned out with how it sounds awkward at first before it gets smoother ykno
but yea. i havent done like . any proper music training . and i've been trying to make stuff for a little over a year now , all with this program . its a lil restricting since its chiptune based but at this point im pretty comfortable and quick with it :)
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wooooah! full week of no school!! ive already broken down twice ✨
i sent you one of my trashy rave songs already, right? well here's another ♡! tashi mi yo ni
so very funny (to me) thing with this song is that my friend (emery) found it on spotify during quarantine, the full school year for which my entire high school spent 24/7 on 2-8 discord servers and were visibly listening to music on spotify every second of every day....so he's been looping this song for a couple days now and im like What the hell are you doing man are you okay and he goes This song is so addicting... and knowing me it probably took like a week of that to get me to actually give it a listen but.........hooooly shit he wasn't lying that song is addicting as all fuck so for the rest of the year he and i would have insanely long sessions of looping the song together and sometimes it would be funny bc i would be looping it and then check his spotify and coincidentally he was also looping it and it was a pointing spider man situation
But Anyway a huge part of the hypnotic appeal of this song to him and i personally is how it feels like the black sabbath from devilman or like cyberia from serial experiments lain- super comforting in a lose yourself way.....i loove love love this song still it will forever rock my heart
full week of no school, you say~? are you on break already? (i have two days next week and then i'm Free) but!! sending good vibes your way :)
this sounds familiar for some reason and i CANNOT place why for the life of me. it is very addictive tho. and god. that is fun. your school had a discord?????? we just had. google classroom meets. where the dark alley pope and his dark alley pole in his dark alley hole was spawned. (me and someone i don't even talk to anymore are all that remains of the dark alley squad </3) ANYWAY!
anyway it is. so fun. easy to lose yourself in. i enjoy it. OH IT REMINDS ME OF DO RE MI KATAMARI DO FROM KATAMARI FOREVER. that's what it reminds me of. which is weird since those two songs sound nothing alike. anywayanyway. good song thank u ems this will make its way into a playlist or two i think
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Okay so
1. I read today that the james bond writer did his books in 2 week stints. By trapping himself in hotel rooms where he had nothing to do. Idk if true but lets imagine it is. I guess first, wow, go off. Second, i mean i guess it makes sense in that it works.. eliminate distractions, you might get more done.
I once wrote like 170,000 in about 2 weeks, 10 hour writing sessions, Xions Theme from kingdom hearts on loop (its the only song i can reliably use to focus with), and like fuck did i forget to eat or sleep but i sure did manage to write. Caveat: i was super determined to finish the story asap, i had a self imposed motivating deadline, and i had an entire plotted outline already done so i didnt have to do any plannign work i only had to flesh out my outline summaries into actual full scenes. I could not replicate it (cause honestly it was yikes for my health probably). But i could probably do 30,000 words in 2 weeks with the same isolate and avoid distractions method (since thatd be more like 4 hour writing sessions). Still, it would require focus im not super gold at unless gold strikes and i hit a period of adhd where im managing to hyperfocus om specifically writing and utilize it fully before it runs out (hence the whole 10 hour writing sessions until i finisjed and was so burned out i didnt write again for like a year) that said...i imagine even with focus issues, if i was trapped with no internet, in a hotel room with no car, yeah Id probably manage to eventually write even if it took hours first to focus and write in small bits.
And 2! Happy news, my new writing goal to get a sustainable habit built is going good still. Today I managed abput 1000 words before midnight! And lile 3000 words just free journaling in the morning. Im really happy about the night accomplishment im particular though, because in the long term Ill be able to write more often in the evening if my day is busy. So if i can manage to do it morning (like ive been able to) OR night, hopefully a habit will be easier to stick to.
Interesting for me, is the permission I gave myself to work on ANY wip, or even just story notes, is helping to get over the perfectionism motivation hurdle I had. Before this, i was pressuring myself to like "stick to one and write Chapters and finish it." Amd thats still like the Long Term main goal. But now that the pressure is less stiffly on focus on ONE and on only Final Scenes, im able to start up writing easier. Then once i start writing, its easier to get myself to focus on more writing.
#rant#mejo writing#...........................................................................................................................................#would love any readers for giving me their impressions eventually. if anyones up for it#id love feedback on how these feel! lol#as for progress: i#got 3 stories at 1/5 done. im predicting realistically 1-2 might be half done by january#or ill get lucky and ONE WILL BE DONE and 1-2 others will be 2/5 done.
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Native of mine you’re just my kind
(A Cake one shot)
Title and lyrics from “Lonely Hearts” by 5SOS and some inspiration from Ashton’s breakdown of CALM that he did for #1yearofCALM.
Summary: Distance makes the heart grow fonder, or so they say. What they don’t tell you is that it also exhaustingly lonely.
Warnings: smut and fluff! You’ve been warned!
can also be found on ao3!
Our house on fire
We’re burning
We dance inside
You’re hurting
If you leave me in the morning
I’ll have such a
Such a lonely heart
“I’m only gone for a week to see the family, Luke. Not moving back there forever. Plus, it’s my fourth day here so there’s technically four more days until you see me again. There’s no need to bring out that pout of yours, pet.” Calum rolls his brown eyes but smiles fondly at how childish his boyfriend is being right now.
Luke pouts for a second longer at the screen, then a small grin breaks the pout.
The blond loved these facetimes they have. There were no verbal promises but they’ve been facetiming at least twice a day, sometimes more. Mostly about silly things, most calls that don’t last more than 5 minutes. But these little nuggets of seeing calum’s really are the sole thing that’s Luke got looking forward to every day since Calum’s been gone. Luke won’t admit it to himself, and he thinks that Calum has caught on but just doesn’t say anything about it, but most of the calls are from Luke, and it’s whenever he gets a spike of ice cold fear that he calls Calum. An irrational fear, he knows, that calum’s going to stay in Aus, and not come back, essentially breaking up with him.
Aside from walking Petunia around the block every morning and night, Luke hasn’t doesn’t anything else other than lying around in bed, waiting for Calum to call him.
A pretty sad sounding existence, he knows. But ever since Calum left to visit his family in Australia a few days ago, luke’s been spiraling. He had sensed the his mental fragility settling in when he said goodbye to Calum at the airport and his mood has had a downward trajectory ever since. Luke went from quarantining with Calum ever since they came back from tour, seeing Calum every day, to suddenly not seeing him. This has thrown his head into a pitiful sad loop.
“Luke, you still with me, love? I know it’s late over there in LA but you called me.” A light chuckle rang out from Luke’s phone, in his hands as he laid on his side in bed.
“I just… couldn’t sleep. Wanted to see your stupid face again.”
Luke actually hadn’t slept for more than 2-3 hours every night ever since Calum left. This morning, Luke woke up, head in a hazy state, and just sat out on their balcony, staring at absolutely nothing. Begging to feel the sun that’s shining on him, the warm hug she would have beared for him. Anything but this dark pit that regenerated out of thin air, in his chest, that seeped into his bones during the night Calum left and he hasn’t felt a thing in days.
Calum sees through Luke right away. It’s as if their souls were grown in the same origin, or something. Calum’s the only one that takes one look at luke and instantly reads him like an open book. Eager to read every word, every sentence, meticulous in not missing any clues along the way.
“Luke, you can be honest with me. This is your 5th call ever since I woke up and I’ve only been for 6 hours. I’m not saying to call me less, but today’s been a lot, huh? How have you been feeling?” calum’s concerned brown orbs search Luke’s through the screen, trying to see any minute change in the blond’s features that would give him away.
Luke closes his eyes for a moment, thinking of a suitable answer. He readjusts on the bed so he’s sitting up against the headboard. The younger lad had been so caught up in his head, wallowing in his sadness, he hadn’t really checked in with how he was feeling. Luke’s speak is thoughtful when he speaks.
“ive been feeling… lonely. Nothing new to me, nothing new to you.” A dry chuckle leaves the blond’s mouth and he see’s his boyfriend readjust in his own bed, mimicking Luke’s position. Calum’s eyes are filled with concern for the blond, a frown on his lips.
“now what have we talked about using humour to minimise how you’re feeling? Remember, for me to understand how you’re feeling, you gotta be honest with me, especially with how you feel.”
“I just hope that you’re missing me half as much as I’m missing you right now, cal.” Tears begin to form in the blond’s eyes, making his vision of Calum a misty one. But he continues on with how he truly feels. “Like, my heart hurts whenever you’re not here with me. I’ve got such a lonely heart without you here, cal.” A choked sob escapes out of the younger lad’s lips. He’s quick to wipe his tears with his hoodie sleeve before he looks like a right mess in front of his boyfriend.
“Oh, pet. Don’t cry. If anything, I do miss you, so, so, much. My chest can barely hold myself together. Every song reminds me of you and I’ve been listening to my music nonstop without you here with me. Mali keeps making fun of me cuz I’m glued to my phone, chatting with you all day long.” A wet grin appears on Luke’s lips then, reveling in the feeling of being missed. Of being thought about. Of feeling wanted.
Interest grows in Luke’s as he watches Calum innocently lick his lips. A low groan comes out of Luke’s mouth as he sinks into the bedframe, sinking deeper into his beige hoodie, his hood flipping flat on his blond locks.
“oh, I know those eyes whenever I see them. You in the mood right now, Hemmings?” Luke blushes even when he sees Calum strip out of his black calm sweatshirt through his screen, revealing a number of scattered tattoos all over his abdomen and arms. Luke drools at the thought of what comes next.
Luke begins to play with his growing bulge that’s beginning to come alive in his briefs, causing the camera to shake a bit. Calum noticed the movement and smirks.
“Are you touching yourself right now, babe? Is me being shirtless causing you to become hot and bothered, my boy?” just to seemingly directly add to Luke’s erection and to the mental wanking log he has of visuals of Calum, Calum flexes his tattooed arm for the camera, muscles seemingly bulging out of his skin.
Luke moans in luau of responding, one hand starts the task of getting his dick out of his briefs and one hand holding the phone steady. He moves his camera back a bit, revealing his angry red cock that glistens at the tip with precome. Calum’s whistles lowly at seeing his boyfriend’s big cock.
Luke overtly stares at calum’s tattooed arm. The way the 5 o’clock shadows are casted on his muscles, clinging to every curve and jutted out vein. The blond fantasizes that it’s calum’s hand that’s jerking himself off right now, arm pumping up and down, muscles working overtime to get Luke to his climax.
Luke’s eyes become hooded eyelashes fluttering as he feels the familiar warmth coil itself in his abdomen, close to release. Mouth hanging open, Calum doesn’t think Luke realizes the soft continuous “ah ah ah’s” that are leaking out of his mouth as he feels his orgasm building. Small tears escape his eyes with how good Luke feels as he imagines it’s his boyfriend’s thumb that goes over the tip of his leaking cock, sliding his precome over his slick dick. At one point during their FaceTime, Luke had stopped jerking himself off to hike up the beige hoodie that he has on, tucking it under his chin, revealing perky nipples and pale skin with luscious chest hair.
“Look how pretty my boy is, all desperate for me.” Luke preens at calum’s words, warmth growing in his cheeks and heart. “Look how beautiful you are, at worked up, just from imagining me jerking your big huge cock off. And it’s at for me, my eyes only. God damn it Hemmings, what am I gonna do with you?” Calum lips his lips in anticipation. Luke loved when Calum got possessive in their dirty talk. It made him feel wanted, lusted over, and more importantly, loved.
A low whine escapes Luke’s lips as the blond imagines face-fucking Calum. He’d take his cock so nicely into his mouth. His greedy greedy mouth. Luke imagines calum’s jaw going slack as the brunet succumbs to his own pleasure and with a dazed look in his brown orbs, the blond imagines fucking calum’s throat relentlessly as he jerks himself to climax.
With a shout of calum’s name, Luke comes all over his stomach and chest, huge spurts of white spunk paints his chest hair, mingling in the unruly curls.
Eyes glazed over with his orgasm, the blond sees his boyfriend’s mouth open in a silent scream as Calum cums too in his own pants.
After a couple minutes of silence from both ends as they came down from their orgasmic highs, Luke chuckles.
“I really needed that cal. Thanks. I’m so relaxed now…”
They stay on the line for a while longer, just smiling like goofs to each other.
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All The Qualities of a Winner (Rotox/Detoxxxy) - Dvious
a/n: i went into s5 totally expecting to love jinkx the most - and i did! but i also couldn’t help but sympathize with all of roxxxy’s insecurities and the unfortunate way they expressed themselves, and 2/3 of rolaskatox being all over each other constantly was ridiculous and adorable so i had to produce something about it…
she has all the qualities of a winner, she thinks. for example, she doesn’t want anything sentimental to come up in this competition, anything that reminds her of home.
roxxxy andrews doesn’t need a security blanket. this is a competition, after all, and while she’d expected to recognize some of her fellow competitors, she had no interest in anything that would distract her from showing her best, and showing everyone else up in the process. so it feels a little scary when the two of them so easily fall back into their old patterns, because it looks like vulnerability, like each of them have an achilles heel.
not scary enough for her to stop, though. not scary enough for her to move when they’re squeezed together on couches or at tables, and not scary enough for her to pull her hand away when detox reaches out to grab it.
the night of the very first runway, there are way too many girls for them all to sit comfortably in the lounge. roxxxy catches the scent of mugler perfume and feels the back of the couch sink down behind her, but she doesn’t turn to see who it is.
she already knows.
.
it’s not like her to doubt herself this way.
ask any of the girls back home, any of the girls she’s competed against in pageantry. roxxxy knows she’s a winner, or at least she tells herself she does, and maybe it’s the newness of everything here - but she’s never felt quite this shaken. it manifests itself in the way her lips purse distastefully whenever jinkx is contouring, the way she nervously babbles her way through confessionals with the main goal of cramming as many reads as she can into two minutes.
so when detox showers her with compliment after compliment in the lounge and roxxxy virtually melts into her chair, she tells herself it’s because she just needed some good old-fashioned praise. she craves validation, but it always seems to come with a side of genuine criticism on the runway. it’s fine, she expected it, she wants to say it’s making her better but instead it makes her vitriolic and confused.
maybe it’s good, then, that she’s been hooked up to a constant iv-drip of bitch you look fucking sickening, sickeningly gorgeous 24/7. she never feels glowing until she’s told she is.
detox tells her she is glowing unceasingly, and roxxxy repeats those words to herself the same way jinkx whispers her mantra onstage. except roxxxy says it in her head, so that she can feel like she needs it less.
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she prides herself on her independence.
this is a competition, after all. she’s not here to rely on crutches to get her to the top. in her heart of hearts, she knows that once rolaskatox gets to the top three (and they will, of course), things will change. but for now - when there’s so many of them and she can coast through - it’s easy. she’s getting more used to things, and she’s pretty sure she’s getting better by the week. alaska looks down and purses her lips whenever the judges mention cliques, but roxxxy stares straight ahead, willfully content in their little trio.
i just don’t want to lay it on so thick in front of the judges, y'know, alaska tells them in the workroom. they both agree. but it’s reflexive, detox just won, is roxxxy not supposed to congratulate her? she can see michelle’s eyes flicker over to the way they’re holding one another at the back of the stage, but so what? they’re friends congratulating one another on a job well done, on earning another week to show everyone what they can do…
they start to walk up onstage to congratulate coco for winning the lip sync, and when the two of them inevitably separate, roxxxy’s fingers hook in the mesh of the other queen’s dress. she pulls on it reflexively, and then half-shouts something brash and nonchalant, to make herself look less desperate. but her words are wasted; detox must have some kind of touch-starvation sixth sense and she loops their arms together again. and roxxxy’s smile returns easily to her face again just in time for a camera pan.
by the final three, she won’t need this, roxxxy thinks. she’ll be on her own, in the center of the stage, a crown on her head.
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as a rule, roxxxy loves crowds.
there’s really nothing like strutting your stuff in a sequinsed gown to the roar of an auditorium filled with adoring fans. or lip syncing to the perfect j.lo song with a backdrop of cheering and clapping. a silent crowd, however - staring up at her as she shuffles her notes and tries to roast the straight-faced panel - is another thing entirely. as she steps to the side she takes solace in the fact that she at least was second to go, so they really won’t remember how bad she was. hell, all the other girls had at least one or two sullen responses from the crowd. she’s good to go, probably. it’s still a disgusting feeling, having everyone look at her like that in silence and reading her own failure in their eyes.
but even if she doesn’t feel as confident as usual it’s important to project confidence, which is why she’s so nonchalant in the lounge when they talk about their childhoods. she’s not about to give a sob story to everyone; the point of her explanation is to get it over with as quickly as possible so that everyone thinks about how impressive it is that she’s gotten over it so well. roxxxy presses her fingertips into the jewels of her ring, over and over again, leaving imprints on her skin and wondering why she’s so resistant to the spotlight tonight when she’s normally out to steal it.
she is in the bottom two for the first time, against the consummate performer of the season, the pageant girl with spice. she thinks she turned it out, but she really doesn’t know because she could hardly see alyssa through the hair they were both whipping around. here she is, in front of a much smaller crowd, but this time she’s finding out how badly she failed instead of whether she’ll be first place or runner-up. her throat feels tight with shame and when rupaul asks her what’s wrong, she fumbles her way through a response twice until before she knows it she’s sobbing - which is so ridiculous to do on a runway of all places and she wants to curl up and hide and never let anyone see her ever again.
she regains her composure, kind of, because that’s what she does. she prepares herself to give a gracious smile, in preparation for when alyssa will be told to stay, but the moment never comes. she gets to stay, too, and when she bursts into tears alyssa is the first one to make it to her for a hug. she feels detox pulling her close and kissing her hair clumsily (god that lip gloss will be hard to get out) and then the wave of everyone else’s arms around them. she feels hidden. protected.
she feels enveloped in a crowd, unseen but a spectacle at the same time, safe.
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competition is where roxxxy thrives.
hell, she’s based her entire career on voluntarily competing and being judged and being the best. she thinks of it as her forte - a place where everything else falls away and, ideally, she is rewarded with recognition for all the work she’s done. it’s not a competition about being yourself, roxxxy thinks sourly when jinkx says she’s made it this far because she’s true to herself. it’s a competition about being the best. so what if jinkx is good at comedy, and acting, and singing, and being charismatic, and all of that stuff. drag is about sewing and makeup and looking untouchably fierce and having a presence. roxxxy repeats this internal monologue to herself at least ten times a day. she eats licorice strings and fumes and glares at her dress form. no matter how many times she tries to read jinkx to filth, she comes away feeling worse. it makes absolutely no sense to her.
she troubleshoots the sewing machine once every ten minutes or so for detox, and spends the entire time shooting shady comments in jinkx’s direction. the redhead won’t say anything to them anymore, painting on her contour in the mirror with a face of stony focus. roxxxy’s fingertips tingle with a combination of fear and anticipation. rolaskatox top three! she yells over her shoulder as they leave the workroom for the runway, but it sounds more like she’s trying to convince herself than celebrate.
even through the lip sync she fiddles with the licorice strings, telling herself she’ll be so happy when rupaul announces detox is staying and she can relax. in fact, by the time rupaul gives jinkx her spot in the final three, roxxxy is so shocked that even when her lips start trembling and her brow furrows she refuses to believe it. her pageant smile returns reflexively as they quickly swarm the stage for a goodbye hug before the producers corral them away; she catches the scent of mugler perfume again. she thinks it starts with an a. angel or alien or awesome or something. it’s perfect. it makes her throat feel tight and her eyes sting with unshed tears.
she watches the last swish of chiffon disappear backstage. a licorice string has fallen off her dress and lays at her feet. she is in the top three; she is a finalist; she has almost proven that she is good enough to win.
roxxxy beams at the judges. she feels a little empty, a little hollow, like a piece of her has been removed.
.
this is where she’ll show her very best.
now is the time to prove that she really does deserve to be here, that rolaskatox is as sickening apart as they were together; time to pull out her sparkliest gowns and her tightest corsets.
instead, as she reads her note from detox, something ugly and vindictive bubbles inside her. jinkx’s presence doesn’t fit here; her spot should have gone to someone else, someone more deserving and neon and angrier. everything that comes out of roxxxy’s mouth is dripping with venom, some of it even directed towards alaska. she smirks and taunts her way through the workroom on those last few days, feeling less focused than ever. she spends the majority of their final challenge trying to get herself to do not as well as she can do, but just better than everyone else. all the while she sulks in her head about how of course their final challenge is some comedy acting thing where it doesn’t matter that her contour is more snatched than jinkx’s or that the wig looks better on her than alaska. she can’t judge herself by this yardstick, not when the other two are better than her.
she thinks she brings it for the runway, at least, except when she has to give her speech. compared to jinkx it sounds far too pageanty (more polished? she hopes desperately) and compared to alaska it sounds far less funny (more professional? she thinks, grasping for something there). it sounds like herself, she thinks.
she wishes she could take it less seriously. in roxxxy’s mind, jinkx has been coasting, how can you take comedy seriously? she can’t fit the pieces together in her head to understand and she’s done trying. all she can repeat to herself over and over is that, well, she takes it seriously, drag is serious to her, she’s better, she’s good at it, she has to be.
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in the weeks following, she feels a different kind of shame.
the embarrassment of watching herself try so hard to fuck over someone else is enough to make her shy away from any type of stage for a while. but the reunion and crowning is coming up anyways, and even if roxxxy’s pretty sure she won’t be standing there basking in the glory of being a drag superstar, she still has to sit there on stage and hear the results.
and they’re what she expected; and her smile flickers to life right on cue; and it still hurts so badly, as much as if rupaul looked her in the eye and personally told her you are simply not as worthy as everyone else.
confetti rains from the ceiling. she doesn’t feel the burning resentment that she did when she’d last seen jinkx, but she doesn’t feel any better like this, either. at the afterparty she spends a lot of time taking shots with alaska, the two of them so boxed in by the crowd that they can’t move from the bar (not like either of them are complaining). when roxxxy finally extricates herself, she has no issue finding the person she wants. it’s an unusual subversion, seeing the most colorful person in the room appear in black and white.
hi honey, detox says, you look so pretty, and slips her arm around roxxxy’s waist. roxxxy is far too proud to ask for comfort. instead she says ohmymgod you look friggin’ insane, which doesn’t sound like the compliment she meant it to be, but it’s okay. her intention was there, and understood; and she is here, and understood, and roxxxy laces their hands together. they have their drinks and they look fucking great, and they’re together, and that’s really all she could have asked for.
she smells that perfume again, leans in close and lets the waves of praise encircle her, give her solace.
she is enough.
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#rpdr fanfiction#roxxxy andrews#detox icunt#detox x roxxxy#canon compliant#dvious#submission#s5#on set fic
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85 question game
rules: answer these 85 statements and tag twenty people
tagged by @dasfreefree
the last
drink: water
phone call: a work call lol
text message: (to my friendo kelsey) “aahhhh omg i totally forgot lolol ill do it tonighy”
song you listened to: Do I Wanna Know? by The Arctic Monkeys
time you cried: *katya voice* i havent felt emotion since the accident (jk it was yesterday lolol)
dated someone twice: never lolol
kissed someone and regretted it: back in junior year of high school when i had to kiss someone on stage for the musical lolol
been cheated on: never
lost someone special: i guess when my grandma died which was 3 years ago now
been depressed: right now lololol
gotten drunk and thrown up: back in junior year of college i did a performance art piece for one of my classes where i filmed myself taking a shot of vodka roughly every minute for a half hour (i ended up consuming like 19 shots)
three favourite colours
baby blue
forest green
baby pink
in the last year have you
made new friends: hhmmmm idk?? ive def met new people
fallen out of love: idt ive ever been in love so uuhh no
laughed until you cried: prob this past weekend
found out someone was talking about you: idk im always paranoid about other people talking about me tho
met someone who changed you: not really
found out who your friends are: i guess??
kissed someone on your facebook list: nope
general
how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life? basically everyone
do you have any pets? yep! a kitty
do you want to change your name? not really, i cant really picture myself with any other name tbh
what did you do for your last birthday? my friend took me out to brickwall tavern and i had a really good chicken pot pie
what time did you wake up? for work i have to get up at like 6 or 6:30 but when im not working it depends on how late i stayed up the previous night lolol
what were you doing at midnight last night? sleeping
name something you can’t wait for: to move the fuck ooouuutttt and also to have enough money to go on a trip somewhere ive been dying to travel
when was the last time you saw your mum: last night cause uuhhh i live at home still :’)
what are you listening to right now? the sound of my own typing
have you ever talked to a person named tom? yeh!! i was friends with a guy named tom in college and we had a lot of studio classes together but i havent talked to him in a while
something that is getting on your nerves: work related things
most visited website: its between tumblr youtube and facebook i kinda just check those three on an endless loop all the time
hair colour: blonde but im trying to grow the color out so my natural colors coming through (its like a light brown)
long or short hair: suuuuuuuper long i havent gotten a haircut in like a year
do you have a crush on someone? yeh sort of
what do you like about yourself? im smart and funny and actually have some common sense B) B) B)
piercings: just one on each ear
blood type: omg i used to know this and i forgot but i think im AB something
nickname: ernie B)
zodiac: capricorn
pronouns: she/her
favourite tv show(s): Rupauls Drag Race, Steven Universe, Legion, Chewing Gum, Bob’s Burgers, Louie, Black Mirror, Face Off
tattoos: none but i want one sooo baaaddd
right or left handed: left!
surgery: got my wisdom teeth removed and got a mole excised but thats it
sport: played basketball for 2 weeks in the 1st grade lololol
vacation: last time i went on a legit vacation was last year to Cape Cod with the fam
pair of trainers: sketchers B)
more general
eating: nothing right now but i just had a panera sandwich & chips & a cookie for lunch
drinking: water
i’m about to: avoid doing more work for the next like 10 minutes
waiting for: this day to be over so i can go home and sleep
want: to go to the beach again before summers over but the weathers been so crappy
get married: i honestly dont want to??? like if i settle down with someone and they wanna get married i would but if they didnt id be cool with that too
career: just trying to make money and pay my bills tbh i havent done what i actually enjoy doing (art) in months
which is better?
hugs or kisses: ive never been kissed before but i think id enjoy kisses more tbh
lips or eyes: waahhh this is a hard one!!! uuhhhh eyes
shorter or taller: taller
older or younger: older or same age
nice arms or nice stomach: both please (but nice arms is always gud)
hookup or relationship: relationship!
troublemaker or hesitant: hesitant but its my secret fantasy to be a troublemaker rebel lil shit who doesnt care about anything and like has millions of piercings and a shaved head and wears leather jackets all the time u feel me
have you ever
kissed a stranger: nope!
drank hard liquor: thats literally all i drink lolol
lose glasses/contact lenses: i lost my glasses multiple times as a child my parents were not happy with me
turned someone down: yeah a few times and i honestly regret it but im such a nervous anxiety-ridden lil shit its a vicious cycle
sex on the first date: prob not i would get nervous just kissing someone on the first date
had your heart broken: oh yeah
been arrested: nope! just pulled over a couple times
cried when someone died: yes
fallen for a friend: hehehehehehehehehehehehehe
do you believe in
yourself: recently not really but im trying
miracles: not really?? its nice to think that miracles do happen but im not spiritual/religious enough to fully believe in them
love at first sight: hell no its a lie
santa claus: i mean who else gives me sick presents certainly not my parents who eerily have the same exact handwriting as santa claus
kiss on the first date: never been kissed never kissed anyone so no
angels: idk about this one cause i like to think that somehow family members who have died are looking out for me??? but again my atheist ass finds it hard to believe
other
eye colour: green!
favourite movie: u cant ask me this do u know how many movies ive seen i cant even count all my fave movies on both my hands
idfk who else to tag cause all the people i know have already been tagged so if u see this and u follow me DO IT IF U HAVENT ALREADY DONE IT!!!!!!!
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1. You woke up naked next to the last person you texted, what would you say? good morning my dude
2. What’s going on between you and the last person you kissed? !!!!!!!! we hang out sometimes and we make each other laugh
3. If your boyfriend or girlfriend was into drugs, would you care? id care if they were into hard drugs. but idc about weed and psychedelics
4. Is your last name longer than six letters? nope it’s 5
5. Was your last kiss drunk or sober? mostly sober I think
6. Have you ever wanted to have someone but you messed it up? lmao probably
7. What does your last received text say? it was really sad and it was from my mom
8. How many times have you kissed the last person you kissed? i lost count
9. Where was your last kiss at? at tj’s house (it was with tj)
10. When is the last time you saw your sister? I don’t have a sister fuker
11. What do you drink in the morning? today i had grape juice
12. Where did you sleep last night? my living room couch bc beds are for scrubs
13. Do you think relationships are hard? no, but sometimes they can be and that’s ok
14. If you could go back and change something in the past 5 months, would you? no, it’s been a lil messy but i like what I’m doing rn and I wouldn’t be here if anything went differently
15. You’re locked in a room with the last person you kissed, any problems? absolutely not. ill be the one to lock the fukin door
16. Would you rather it be sunny or rainy? normally id say rainy but ive been feelin the sun lately
17. Do you know anyone with the same middle name as you? literally everybody has the same middle name as me
18. Are you wearing jeans,sweatpants,or pajama pants? none of the above, im wearing shorts
19. Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 years from now? idk probably
20. Does anyone like you? hell yeah im a goddamn catch
21. Have you ever kissed someone with a name that starts with an S? hmmmm I’m not sure actually but I don’t think so
22. Is the last person you kissed gay? not that I know of
23. Is there a person you CANNOT stand? there’s always someone but for the most part im pretty lax
24. Have you ever considered getting a tattoo? HELL YEAH i know what I want I just haven’t gotten it yet
25. In the past week have you cried? u know it
26. What breed was the last dog you saw? chihuahua and greyhound mix, he’s sleeping on me rn
27. Do you dry off in the shower or out of the shower? out of the shower bc im not here to play games
28. Have you ever kissed a football player? i dated a guy who use to play football,, does that count
29. Do you think you’re old? no im a lil baby
30. Do you like text messaging? yessiree
31. What type of day are you having? it’s an okay day
32. Have you ever thought about getting your nose pierced? yeet I want to get my septum pierced but I’m not sure I want to commit
33. Do you prefer warm or cold weather? warm but not hot
34. Is there a person of the opposite sex who means a lot to you? hell yeah im full of love
35. Would you prefer a relationship or a fling? I like relationships but rn I wouldn’t mind a fling
36. Are you a simple or complicated person? im pretty simple but I have a lot of feelings
37. What song are you listening to? im not listening to any music rn
38. When you say you’re sorry do you mean it? mama didn’t raise no bitch of course i mean it
39. Is there a girl that knows everything or almost everything about you? yeet her name is abby
40. What made you start liking the person you like now? we!!!!!! we send each other a lot of memes and he makes me laugh
41. When did you last receive a text message? 2:18pm today
42. What is wrong with you right now? i have a cyst
43. How well do you know the last female you texted? my mom,,, I know her pretty well
44. Does anyone disgust you? yeah
45. Would you date someone right now if they asked? i don’t know, probably not. i like the current boy im talking to and he’s the only person im interested in but i don’t think I’m ready for a relationship rn
46. Are you in a good mood right now? I guess so
47. Who was the last person you talked to in person? my little brother
48. What color shirt are you wearing? red
49. Has someone recently told you something you didn’t want to hear? of course
50. Anyone you’re giving up on? yeah his name is Stu and he doesn’t seem like a good egg
51. Do you hate the person you fell hardest for? absolutely not. he’s one of my closest friends
52. Have you ever thought about giving up on someone but couldn’t? u know it!!!!!!
53. Do you like rain? YES
54. Do you care if your boyfriend/girlfriend drinks? nope, as long as they’re safe
55. Have you ever liked somebody and never told them? lmao of course
56. Do you like to cuddle? fuck me up who DOESNT like to cuddle
57. Are you shy? ye but ive gotten a lil better about it
58. Do you get along with girls? i love girls
59. Have you dated the person you texted last? the last text I got was from my mom, but the last text I sent was to a boy so maybe????? we aren’t dating but we makeout sometimes
60. What do you carry with you at all times? my phone
61. If you were paid 1 million dollars to spend the night in a supposed haunted house, would you? hell yeah
62. Do you think you can last in a relationship for five months? i have done this more than once
63. Think back to October, were you in a relationship? yes I was
64. The person you like kisses you on the forehead, do you find this cute? YES
65. Did anything “cute” happen in the last week? um YEAH i slept at a boys house of course things got cute
66. How old are the last three people you kissed? 20, 19, and 19
67. Would you rather pay to get your nails done or do them yourself? do them myself
68. Which do you like better- Zebra print or leopard print? i have no clue,,,, leopard print reminds me of my grandma
69. Do you have any stickers on your car? i wish
70. Would you rather listen to Luke Bryan or Lil Wayne? neither??
71. Blackberry, Anroid, or iPhone? i have an iPhone
72. When’s the last time you had pizza from Pizza Hut? like a week ago
73. Do you like diet soda? im content with diet soda
74. What color are the walls in your room? blue
75. Are you 16 or older? I am 16 or older
76. Do you watch Pretty Little Liars? i watched the first few seasons
77. Do you have a job? nope not rn
78. What are your initials? TLA
79. Did you ever have braces? Ye I had them for 2 ½ years
80. Are you from the south? nope I’m a west coast baby
81. What does your last status on facebook say? i thanked everybody for birthday wishes
82. Do you still talk to the first person you ever kissed? ill talk to her from time to time but not very often
83. Are you closer to your mom or your dad? my dad
84. Have you ever done cheerleading or gymnastics? nope
85. What’s the last movie you saw in theaters? guardians of the galaxy 2 and it was very good
86. Do you smoke? not cigarettes bc they make me nauseous
87. Would you rather wear heels or flip flops? flip flops for comfort but I love me some heels
88. Is your phone touch screen? yesss
89. Do you normally wear your hair straight or curly? my hair is naturally straight but i luv it when it’s curly
90. Have you ever snuck out of your house? once or twice, but after i reached adulthood so idk if it really counts
91. Would you rather swim in a river, lake, or pool? pooooooooollllll
92. Have you ever made out in a car? who hasn’t
93. …Had sex in a car? WHO HASNT
94. Are you single or in a relationship? technically single
95. What were you doing last night at midnight? sleepin
96. When’s the last time you saw fireworks? probably New Years
97. Do you like the camera on your phone? yes! it’s pretty good
98. Have you ever had a friend with benefits? hm,,, maybe? I honestly don’t know
99. Have you ever passed out from drinking? nope I’m pretty good at pacing myself
100. Are you friends with people on facebook that you actually hate? probably lol
101. Have you ever had a pregnancy scare? yes and they are not fun
102. Name your favorite Kesha song: do people still listen to Kesha, am i out of the loop
103. Do you have any tan lines right now? I’m too pasty. i burn I don’t tan
104. Would you ever wear cowboy boots with shorts? maybe ironically
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i was not tagged by anyone but im feelin this
Rules: Copy this post into a new text post, remove my answers and put in yours, and when you are done tag up to 10 people and also tag the person who tagged you… And most importantly, have fun!
A - Age: 18
B - Biggest fear: bees
C - Current time: 9:02 PM
D - Drink you last had: woter
E - Every day starts with: me lookin at my dog on my bed while i gather the motivation to get up
F - Favourite song: i go thru these times where i listen to a song on loop for days. right now its jounetsu fanfare. last time it was uso no hibana and the time before that it was cherry*merry*cherry
G- Ghosts, are they real: @lydiogames
H - Hometown: chapel hill NC
I - In love with: fumika sagisawa
J - Jealous of: people with no monetary struggles
K - Killed someone: im a pussy
L - Last time you cried: uuuuuuuuuuuuhhhhhhhh i dont remember it might have been last week?
M - Middle name: jim🅱️o
N - Number of siblings: one brother and 2 step sisters
O - One wish: wyeah can i gget a fuckING UUUUUUUUHHHUHHHGHJHHJHJHHHH dog that does my taxes for me
P - Person you last called/texted: uh the fuckhouse friends probably if shit thru discord counts
Q - Questions you’re always asked: how do you come up with this shit? or are you okay?
R - Reasons to smile: fumika, fumika, fumika azure boundary figure, fumika bright memories figure, fumika. also dogs and jokes. but mostly fumika
S - Song last sang: i dont fuckin sing bro
T - Time you woke up: like 7 AM i think
U - Underwear colour: light blue
V - Vacation destination: 10 feet in the earth
W - Worst habit: picking my nails until it hurts lol
X - X-rays you’ve had: idk bro ive had a lot. i have had like 2 MRIs tho
Y - Your favourite food: rice
Z - Zodiac sign: aquarius\
not tagging anyone bc i only wanted to do this for myself
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