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dayurno · 3 months
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you’re not a stick in the mud dayurno….. we love you and it’s soooo important to talk about this stuff! especially lately i feel like any criticism for the author is immediately bashed because she might see it, but criticism and hate are such very different things and the racism in the series really SHOULD be addressed and talked about. clearly we all adore these books but there is a very harmful pattern that just ignoring does nothing for. anyway you don’t really have to answer this i just want you to know we love u and im glad you said something, so many of us agree with u and you are not ruining fun by talking about important things!!! pls always feel free to post vents and such on your blog lovie
thank you!!! at the start of this blog i spent a long time talking about this kind of thing and the fandom was remarkably more hostile towards characters (and fans) of color, to a point where the only people really having these discussions in any complexity were me and a few friends, and it made me miserable :)! i don’t even know if anyone has been around long enough to remember my period of inactivity that followed that but of course the reason behind it is that it just wasn’t fun anymore, which is also why i don’t talk about it as often or in length anymore. but seeing how easily any criticism has been swept under the rug, seeing how the things many of us have said years ago were immediately buried under louder voices promoting no-nuance takes on the series, it just felt very terrible. there’s not really any point to this, and i by no means plan to be the hub for these discussions when i’ve done my time already, but it’s still worth talking about. the aftg fandom really will never let you forget its majority is white americans :=)
anyway! thank you cutie for the reminder perhaps i needed it! let’s continue on our planned schedule of having fun and kiking about kevin day online and being good judys
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luck-of-the-drawings · 2 months
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"And soda; runs off into the street..." "...and soda... is totally okay!"
#jrwi fanart#jrwi show#jrwi suckening#cw blood#something something cracking open a boy w the cold ones#IF THERE ARE ANY MISTAKES I MISSED I SWWWEAR TO JEBEDIAH. IF I STARE AT THIS ANYMORE IM GONNA DIE IT NEEDS TO BE DONE#ALSO RRRAAAHAHHHGHGH CAN I JUST TAKEA SECOND TO SCREEAAMM ABT HOW MUCH I LOVE SODA AND EMIZEL.. LIKE THERYE SO CUTE....#THEY ARE HOMIES THAT KISS EACHOTHR GOODNIGHT. THEY CARE SO MUCH FOR EACHOTHER. SODA LOVES SODA AND SODA LOVES YOU#do u guys remember how willing he was to share blood w his vampire bestie. like cmon. remember when emizel memorized sodas Soda Schedule.#LIKE CMON.... they just have eachothers backs so much. ouhhh my god... ANYWAY SO THE ART HUH. I FEEL LIKE I SCRAMBLED W IT FOR A WHILE#DRAWIN IS HARD..... i think i did well in the end tho.. i like the lil heart beat effects. and i hope i made soda look Suffieciently Scared#i ALSO had fun w the teeth. i however did not have fun w the walls. if i had more drugs i mightve done every brick in more detail#but i didnt WANNA!!!! this will suffice.I HOPE IT FLOWS WELL&THAT ITS CLEAR... IVE STARED AT IT SO LONG IT IS NOW VISUAL SOUP. HELP!!!#i want my comics to have more Pauses and Space and Thought and Momence. i feel like normally they go so fast. but THIS time#i think i did good.... huuoouhhhh.... comics are HARD art is HARD but i am HARDER. or something. OH YEAH I HAVE MORE ART THINGS#soda was RLY HARD FOR ME TO DRAW FOR A MINUTE..but i like where his design is now. i wanted his hair to be curly swirly.like soda fizz#i THINK thats all my thoughts for now. if u have thoughts u should spill them in the tags i looooove reading tttaaggsss#have a goodnight i gotta go to work soon. maybe. unless the casinos power goes out AGAIN. OR SEOMTHING... UUGHHH MY SCHEDULE IS IN SHAMBLES#I THOUGHT I WAS WORKIN 3 DAYS INA ROW SO I RENTED A WHOLE DAMN HOTEL BC THE JOB PLACE IS FAR AWAY.. I HAD TO CANCEL THE WHOLE RESERVATOn#annd im MMMMAD ABOUT IT!!! like ill get over it ofc BUT IM PEEVED!!!! IM INCONVIENIENCED AND GENTLY AGGRIVATED. BUT OVERALL FINE.#hope yalls weekend goes well. sleep well. if u get the chance to.
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blaithnne · 6 months
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when the brainrot is strong n you wanna write but ur too tired to write anything coherent UGHHHHHHHHHH
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opens-up-4-nobody · 7 months
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#well. today was a nice day of not doing anything but drawing really. theres an au where i went to art school and am a happier person lol#except not really bc im sure my head would ruin that too. anyway. its a shame i have to return to the pain tomorrow. i have so much to grade#plus a paper to write plus data to work with. a protocol to figure out. and an exam to study for and a final project thatll kill me#god. i also have to get ready for lab Monday. christ. and what shall i say to my therapist Tuesday? well we could try to tackle the deep set#looming issue that prevents me from getting better in our tiny 50min session or i could be like listen. just fucking listen. let me give u#the case 4 and against me having adhd so i can stop feeling fucking nuts. just like give me feedback. ya kno?#it would b inattentive bc im not hyper unless im losing my mind and bordering on hyp0mania. but my focus is something i cant control#executive functioning has always been a problem but now im so worn down im in danger of actual consequences. and its not just things i dont#wanna do. im not just anxiously avoiding. i cant start tasks and stick with them. i flip back and forth and get nothing done. i spiral#sometimes for hours. im not doing anything fun im just not doing anything. frozen in anguish. i dont even wanna think abt how much money ive#lost by not filling out reimbursement sheets which arent hard to do. theyre easy i just never do them. why??? i dont fucking kno. but im not#forgetful. im thinking constantly abt these things. i just cant make them happen. theyre stuck buffering. i do have memory issues tho#my short term working memory is like that of a literal child. so i cant follow complex instructions. i constantly need new info. constantly#need sound. spoken words plus music at the same time. but the main reason i need an answer to this is the reading issue. which is that im#dyslexic but also my thoughts r like an interfering frequency. without realizing ill b thinking and not reading. its a problem no matter#what im reading. its severely disruptive. i will physically read out loud to try to hold my attention in place and still get distracted by#my own head. do u kno how frustrating it is to read something aloud 3 times and not know wtf u just read bc u arent thinking abt anything#interesting u would rsther b reading but u can't fucking pay attention long enough. genuinely if its not adhd and i cant get medication to#fix my focus issues i dont kno wtf im gonna do. im so bad at reading and its extremely frustrating. but is it just dyslexia? idk what i#described doesn't fucking seem normal or like a reading problem. sounds like a focus issue. so riddle me that#idk ive got adhd on both sides of my family plus my focus fluctuates with ny hormones plus homones possibly induce hyp0mania. like i mean#ive got other issues which make a diagnosis difficult to parse but like i feel like that's decent evidence for possibly adhd? my friend said#she was always worried she had a brain tumor before she was diagnosed. to me ive always felt like my brain is full of holes. im missing the#parts that would let it operate correctly. the frontal lobe is just fucked. ugh. i wonder how much accommodation i could get from the#disability office if i actually went to them. i wont bc im fucked up and i dont think they could actually do anything for me at this stage#but alas im curious. ugh. y do i do this to myself? i kno y but not enough time for that in 50min. bad attitude mostly. half my brain#just craves death. the other half is just trying to tread water but its hard with someone trying to drown u. so its all fucked#unrelated
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prommytheus · 1 year
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💞blown kiss💞
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regal-bones · 2 years
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i have so so many lovely lovely followers here - every now and then i scroll through old posts and look through tags people leave and just,,,,, you guys are so so so sweet. I'm so lucky to have such a nice little community and gosh !! I'm so excited to show you all what I've been working on!
But just :') thank u for following me. I'm sorry I've been lacking in content right now - there's so much going on in my head at the minute its hard to get art out consistently - but knowing that I get to share what I do make with u guys makes me very happy :)
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snailfen · 1 year
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also im finally taking a genuine shot at gourmand and decided to explore pipeyard since i hadn't done so yet, its cool but i Wish someone told me that it was supposed to be a one-way exit to shoreline cus i spent a Long time hunting for enough spears to build a fucking ladder up there
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ok game’s done how we all feelin
#is this spoilers.#i guess i'll do spoiler talk down here#spoilers#ishin spoilers#snap chats#i beat the game like an hour ago ive just been getting screenshots now#dont yell at me for playing on normal i always play on normal first just to get through the game#time is a valuable resource and this week i do not got it im tryna ZOOM#i put my game on the lowest settings again for the last bit cause i was paranoid and i didnt wanna do everything again#and when i say everything. dawg im not doing three mini bosses again shut up#its almost 2AM im tired and i have to deal with my mom tomorrow im tryna get this done !!!!!#but what are my closing thoughts hmmm#yeah it was fun :)#the combo system made me think of bayonetta but thats just cause i have a one track mind#it was fun being able to switch betwen the style- i found that swordmaster and wild dance were the most useful#i liked brawler too but gun just. wasnt for me#maybe its cause i never bothered crafting specific bullets but anyways#the ending of the game was so ???? like im just baffled that takechi 180'd so fast like OK.#also love how we never know what happens to katsu. honestly i thought he was supposed to get killed in this game but ???#we never see him again- not even mentioned#which is ?? since he seemed like. VAGUELY important but w/e w/e he prob tripped and died somewhere#i wish we got to see the rest of the shinsengumi boys and what they were up to now that the country's saved#but i guess this was Ryoma Sakamoto's Story so i'll manage#jesus christ my screenshots folder though. it is just pictures of mine#he's just so pretty in this game... i wish my screen recorder didnt suck i would start working on that Hijikata Scenes video already#oh well i'll figure something out#i loved the buyo minigame in this its so fun- i wish there were more songs tho#theres prob a lot of stuff i havent checked out but for the time being ima call it there with ishin#it was def worth the wait im so glad i went with the early-access option#i will now wait patiently for modders to make it so that i can play as hijikata and then i can make him do the buyo dance
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dullahandyke · 11 months
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#11 days to the leaving and only now am i drawing up what all i need to study#chronologically it makes sense to leave latin n music to the last bcos i have like a whole week after history to study for just them#and before that all of my exams are basically in the same week with allowance for the weekend#so i should focus on eng n maths particularly#n then bio and irish and history#but like. my history latin n music teachers r the only ones assigning work. for the exams i have the most time for. lol#like i can ignore the history n music teachers for the most part but like my classes w my latin teacher r one on one i CANNOT brush that of#so im here studying me fucking virgil ig instead of figuring out what im doing w the comparative#sigh. ok priorities ill make up that list of shit i gotta do for each subject#gotta suss out which movie im watching for eng and what poems n stories im studying for irish n what modules im doing for history! lol!#can u tell ive not been paying attention for like. 4 months.#remember kids: cramming is a cool and fun thing to do <- is in a pit#when the leaving cert ends i am going into my room never to be seen again for like a week.#and im getting me mam to buy me something for it. maybe a binder if i come out to her by then#oh well thats future talk. for now. figure out what to study. as ive already said twice#im playinh kh bgm to indulge in the hyperfocus while still getting study done n its kinda working#but mostly i just wanna play kh again...#i havent wrapped up the hades cup n i wanna restart com bcos i think i might know how it works better now#watched a one card deck challenge for recom and its the remake so some shits different but like. i get it now maybe#if nothing else gba com looks rlly rlly cute. the pixel art <£
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dykedragons · 2 years
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character arc of taking a month to complete 1 commission -> taking 3 days to complete 5 commissions
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wabblebees · 2 years
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#rant incoming! tldr: im just complainin' bc im a dumbass playing with the new blorbos from my head but i SHOULD be asleep. oops#had brain fog + migraine + joint pain BAD all mcfucken day#to the point where i spent the last 11 hours just laying in bed being adhd miserable bc it Hurt to be awake but the understimulation had me#fuckt UP. i couldnt sleep to escape it bc i couldnt fucken relax my FACE enough to make my head stop hurting but i felt like i was going#full yellow-wallpaper lady in my own head bc through the brain fog + the headache i couldnt focus on anything stimulating or fun enough#and now. NOW. now that its 2am and the ibuprofen is FINALLY working. i cant sleep bc i have dnd brainrot#ive got all these fun ideas that i dont wanna forget so ive been scrambling to get them all down before i can#but also i SHOULD be SLEEPING. yet every time i lay down my brain's silly little lightbulb ''bing!''s Back On and im!! hoough!!#sooo fun thinkin abt it all but also... dude. u dont have a campaign or table or a party or ANYTHING. so W H Y do u gotta do this rn#whyyyy rn. all day i wanted this or sleep and got NEITHER. but!! oh sure nOw the brain worms are active.#i have WORK in the morning little brainworms. its 2am!! where were u at 6o'clock!! we coulda done all this t h e n#But Also. i am rotating these new lil fuckers in my head at mach speeds#im so fucken psyched for smth to happen with these ideas even though ik theres like. literally no way in hell for them to go anywhere lmao.#ive never dm'ed in my gd life hgkfshfkgk idk wtf im doing here. ive played in like. 2 canpaigns total. wtf is going ON lmao#goddamn. adhd my beloathed. ah well#also just realised the phrase 'blorbos from my head' probably sounds.... very very silly lmao#im typing this out bc im hoping doing smth slightly Different will break the brain cycle enough to let me Go Tf To Bed lmao#wish me luck lmaooo#bee speaks
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the-kipsabian · 2 months
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i just bought two new bottles of hair dye help
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cuz-reasons · 2 months
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Terrible news I'm 7k words into another super self indulgent fic and I think I've barely even scratched the surface of it
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opens-up-4-nobody · 1 year
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#the thing about me is that i am unwell. i will sit here like hm im not working hard enough#im spending too much time on these manuscripts and thats selfish. and like wtf r u even saying?????#literally u r working toward public that will bring credit to ur lab wtf is wrong with u? i do the same thing when im spending 3hrs doing#algae transfers bc im like this isnt hard so im not actually being productive. fucking what the fuck????#im not allowed to enjoy things. no data entry. too fun. no codin. too fun. i must be slightly miserable to in agony at all times#why? i have no fucking idea. its entirely self imposed. ive never been pushed to work harder on things my brain just decides im not doing#enough. why???? im a neurotic little wind up doll compelled by logic that doesnt make sense#at least i canceled with that bad therapist bc idk fuck that now i gotta find someone else :-P#but im trying to be nicer anyway. trying. but i get bored and with boring comes the desire to make myself insane bc idk thsts at least#slightly interesting. there r 2 wolves inside me. one is just trying to live its life and the other is trying to smother thst 1st one lol#me: i will work all day and all night i can work on non-work work as a treat#this is why i have dreams abt ppl being devoured my polar bears in front of me and horrible natural disasters#i think theyd b nightmares if i wasnt always so calm in my dreams. i just wake up like him ive aquired disturbing images#uuuuuhhhhhhhuhuh i dont wanna work on more writing 😫 but I've gotta get this last application done#on a more positive note i now have full hearing back in my right ear lmao#unrelated
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espytalks · 5 months
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worst case scenario, i have a bunch of mediocre garlic. best case scenario, i'll never have to buy garlic again. Either way, I planted garlic today, with my brother's help, and now i feel a lot less bad.
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klonoadoortophantomile · 10 months
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lost like allllll my motivation for making art what the fuck =(
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