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Picture This: Tuvok gets asked out on a date exactly one(1) times in his academy years and it’s by a girl he hasn’t really spent too much time with interpersonally.
They work the same shifts and have one class together (I’m imagining the academy has a sort of work-study thing or an internship so you have hands-on experience by the time you graduate on to Starfleet proper) where they work side by side, mostly in silence.
And Tuvok’s surprised that she asks him out. He didn’t realize that people could see him in that way, especially non-vulcans who mostly just seem to view him as a bore or a spoilsport. Everytime they say something along those lines he feels a little proud. (He tells himself he feels nothing besides that, an appropriately dull pride). He thinks of his father and the cave.
Tuvok is also, at this point, very much crushing on some guy he sometimes works closely with because they both don’t like to talk too much. Tuvok once saw him half-reading a little book of poetry and reciting it monotonously to himself as if memorizing it. This struck him. And that frightened him to some degree, because of past experiences. (He thinks of his father and the cave and the fervid half-love before it)
[Un]fortunately this guy just got a girlfriend and Tuvok, even though he knows it was never going to work (hence his not making any sort of move but contrary to him learning makeup because this guy said once that he liked people with ‘bold looks.’) it’s still quietly devastated him. His devastation shames him and grows by the day, unattended to.
And because Tuvok is young and lonely and devastated and that guy has a girlfriend and this girl in front of him asking him out is perfectly pleasant and he’s still got a little bit of teenaged rebellion left in him - he says yes.
They arrange to meet at a cafe on the promenade or wherever and Tuvok prepares for the date extensively. He does, like, date research in order to be prepared for what happens on a date (he’s never been on one and doesn’t know what’s expected and he’s been told he’s not a good conversationalist in general, let alone by human standards).
The day of the date he’s heading there when a fellow ensign calls out to him like “Tuvok! You look fancy!” and he says yes. “Going somewhere?” Yes. “....Care to share?” -sigh- a date. “With Rhoda?” Tuvok realizes he doesn’t know the first name of the girl he’s supposed to be going on a date with - he only knows her as Teral, her last name. He says he’d rather not talk about it then leaves.
He goes to the place of their date and waits. and waits. and waits. Until eventually the woman behind the counter sympathetically says she doesn’t think anyone’s coming.
“That would seem to be the case, yes.”
“I’m sorry, hon.”
“Why?”
“I feel bad. Do you want a piece of pie?”
Tuvok leaves the cafe feeling lonelier than ever. He wonders why the ensign from before spoke to him - was there some hidden meaning to their conversation? He wishes he understood human mannerisms more so he’d know. He wishes he knew Teral’s first name. He stops himself from wishing more.
The girl doesn’t come to class the next day but he sees her as he’s heading up to his dorm. She’s sitting on the stairs with a friend and she looks stricken when she sees him. “Tuvok!” Hello. There’s a silence which Tuvok cannot decipher. He begins to move again.
The girl stops him, she says sorry about not showing up. She had something she forgot she had to do and she couldn’t contact him. Her friend is leaning on her leg and looking up at him with an expression that is again, to Tuvok, unreadable.
He tells Teral not to let it worry her and her friend sighs. “See? I told you he wouldn’t mind.” Teral shushes him but Tuvok is already walking past them. He ignores Teral’s attempts to speak further and shuts himself in his dorm.
The other bed in his room is thankfully empty. His roommate is polite enough but sometimes when Tuvok speaks he repeats whatever he said back to him, mimicking his inflection with a smile before continuing on. Tuvok doesn’t know if this is friendly or not. He tells himself he doesn’t ask about it because it doesn’t matter but he worries that’s a lie. He worries, late at night, that he actually just doesn’t want confirmation that it isn’t.
On his desk Tuvok has a barely begun letter that only contains the words ‘Earth is lonely.’ The word ‘lonely’ is made especially dark to cover up the fact that he had written ‘frightening’ earlier before remembering himself. Both are unacceptable.
He misses Vulcan. At least he understood when people disliked him. He knew what the rules were and when he broke them.
He wonders, as he pulls a thermos of replicated plomeek soup (or what passes as that here) from his bag, why he’s so incredibly disappointed. He didn’t even know her first name.
In his bag is also a small box, inside of which is a pressed flower. He ignores it. He will later place it in one of the many common rooms and it will be gone to whomever wants it.
He wants desperately to quit, to return home a failure once again. Surely it would be better than this, being an alien amongst aliens.
He quiets himself.
He sips the soup.
He pulls out a PADD and begins a letter in earnest.
Mother,
All is well…
#this is SO self indulgent but cringe is dead and this is my blog <- a calming mantra repeated through my teeth#I'm a sucker for people asking me very politely if I'd want to do things so here's the Tuvok gets stoodup monolith#ummmm its....itssomething about....listen - ensign/cadet Tuvok really gets me dude#I think about how exasperated and passionate he was in that one episode - flashback maybe?#and how that must have been building for a long time#and I was thinking about how Tuvok's reputation on Vulcan at this stage probably isn't good - Vulcans really value family names#and respectability and Tuvok being so lovesick that he gets kicked out of school and banished from his home is probably not respectable#I imagine he stayed in Starfleet for so long despite clearly being unhappy because he didn't want to be a failure again#But more concerning this ... thing. I was thinking about how strange and alien being amongst humans (aliens) would be...#like to Tuvok he's a normal guy and these weird aliens are so confusing and humans ARE confusing there's so many rules and tiny gestures#I wanted to make it unclear what any of the humans are doing really...what they're thinking and what they mean - it's a mystery#Is it meanspirited? Innocent? Is it a joke on you or are you supposed to laugh along?#Either way............everything's fine#A younger Tuvok just ignores emotions he doesn't want to deal with - by the time he gets older he doesn't do this v_v he's learned#my writing#I GUESS;;;#st voyager#Tuvok#After this experience Tuvok nods to himself and says the logical thing would be to just not go on any more dates#not because hes hurt or anything but because it's just...the logical thing to do. of course.#He'll just wait until either him or his bondmate go through pon farr v_v#meanwhile in medschool T'Pel is like: It's illogical for me to wait to have such experiences until my marriage. Come over here and kiss me.#Tuvok loves her for it and we ALL love her for it#awww....wouldn't it be cute if T'Pel took him on a date? I think it would#double date with Mark and Janeway so they don't feel as awkward...but then T&T just start wandering off on their own#Janeway: You're supposed to be here with me.#Tuvok: -at the top of a ferris wheel watching T'Pel's fascination- I will be down soon.
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#dontsay #nothing #itssomething #mondayvibes https://www.instagram.com/p/COrRBDeDupi/?igshid=mzcqupsujzhi
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Pittock Mansion, Portland, Oregon, 8/16/2020 #awesome #views #flowers #itssomething #checkingitallout #lovemytown (at Pittock Mansion) https://www.instagram.com/p/CD-ZhQkgpYl/?igshid=1atne8ml5d5e5
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These were my first attempt at making resin-wood rings back in 2017. A fairly poor attempt to make valentines day gifts for my then girlfriend (now wife) . But that started a journey to becoming a maker. #firstattempt #maker #diy #valentinesdaygift #itssomething #resinart #woodresin #rings https://www.instagram.com/p/CDIwdHYn94q/?igshid=1fuh9ixzr1q1k
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Another shitpost for you. This is honestly the best hand i have ever drawn. This took me five minutes.
#shitpost#its true tho#My phone is actually really nice#Mah bithday gift to me#from me#dumb#silly#art?? maybe#idk#Itssomething#I guess
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Think like the fish does. View from a new perspective. Or more like the fly. . . . #instahaiku #itssomething #flyfish #dronelife (at Florida, Massachusetts) https://www.instagram.com/p/CC_CJAFgvcD/?igshid=2rphnsa6cam6
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Étape finale d'Iguaçu : le barrage d'Itaipu, deuxième plus grand barrage hydroélectrique du monde. Son nom veut dire "pierre qui chante" en guarani. Il a été construit en partenariat avec le Paraguay et fournit environ 80% de l'énergie de ce dernier, contre "seulement" 18% de l'énergie brésilienne. Il faut dire que les territoires n'ont pas la même taille... Derrière le barrage, un immense lac permet de profiter d'activités aquatiques comme une balade en catamaran pour les riches et le reflet du soleil sur l'eau pour nous les pauvres. 👍 . #itssomething #barrage #water #electricity #blue #bluesky #sky #niceweather #hot #itaipu #itaipubinacional #paraguay #brasil #explorebrasil #dam #renewableenergy #energy #ilovebrasil #exchangesemester #erasmus #intercambio #travel #discover #tourism #calm #nostress #vacation #civilengineering #engineering (à Itaipu Dam)
#tourism#renewableenergy#calm#erasmus#bluesky#sky#dam#ilovebrasil#discover#paraguay#exchangesemester#vacation#water#itssomething#hot#nostress#civilengineering#travel#electricity#intercambio#blue#explorebrasil#energy#itaipu#niceweather#brasil#itaipubinacional#engineering#barrage
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Inktober Day 3: Your Zodiac Sign.
I really missed the first days of Inktober because of work (shame on me), but at least at Day 3 I doodled a short version of my Zodiac.
#inktober#art#female#girl#mermaid#water#virgo#doodle#sketch#personal#zodiac#day3#thirdday#blackandwhite#itssomething
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I lost like, a lot of weight
#getfit#fitness#Unhealthyweithtloss#Wouldnotreccomend#Happywithresultstho#happywithmylife#Healthynowtho#Itssomething#hot#gym#gymlife
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#inktober2017 Day 09: Ner Ner Ner Bertmern Kinda struggled a bit with the next part of the Alice series, so took a break and summoned the Dark Knight instead. Kinda glad I did! #itssomething #inktober #inktober2go #batman #comicbooks #dc #bust #inkstainedhands #bloodsweatandink #iamthenight #oohshiny #artistsblock #inking #insta #instaart
#comicbooks#bloodsweatandink#insta#inkstainedhands#batman#inktober2go#inktober#inktober2017#artistsblock#instaart#bust#oohshiny#iamthenight#itssomething#dc#inking
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having very disconnected and nondescript thoughts about ‘no voice to cry suffering’ vs ‘our voices will cry out again’
like, there’s something about the pale king committing the atrocities he does and stripping the void of its “voice” and then ghost acquiring the abyss shriek that speaks to me
like. when i say voice, i dont mean just verbally. the abyss shriek isnt even a shriek in that verbal sense. its more of a rumble, like the pulse of a beat in a nightclub, or the general ambient thrum of the abyss. its closer to touch and vibrations than sound
and you find the other spell upgrades from the shamans. but this one is different, at the bottom of the abyss. the shaman even talks about ghost drawing the power from somewhere the shamans never thought to look
it feels like. ghost taking upon a voice for the abyss. their suffering; the suffering of all their siblings, the void, their kin, weaponised.
i like it a lot. after everything the king did to the void, merging it with his own children until they were one with it, then discarding/abandoning them so heartlessly, sealing them away to be forgotten, turning the abyss, the void’s home into something so desolate and tragic and full of pain and suffering that you can feel it in the walls even before you reach the skulls...it feels right for ghost to be able to connect to that part of themself. that culture long long gone. it feels right that they get to fight back
‘oh you think we have no voice to cry suffering? watch this’
#hollow knight#luke rambles#the knight#itssomething i wish i touched more on in lost and found actually#that leafs jusitfiably bad experiences and associations with the abyss were tragic in their own way#since the abyss and the void is part of them so#and it wasnt always filled with the skulls of their siblings. it wasnt always so rife with death#that the absolutely disgusting actions of the king weren't just upon the vessels (though they're absolutely themain focus and should be)#but the void and the abyss itself
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Recién terminado👀👀👀 #itssomething #giornogiovanna #jojos #jojobizarreadventure #dibujo #lapizpasta (en Santiago, Chile) https://www.instagram.com/p/B0_k7FkFB0h/?igshid=j60umz8sy89s
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And the light works. #maker #diy #itssomething #resinart #woodresin #timepass #makersgonnamake #maker #neon #doityourself #imbored #resin #woodart #dryflower #resinart #resinartist #resincraft #wooden #new #interiordesign #design #commisionedart #lamp #workinprogress #woodworking #artist #woodcarving #nightlight #instagood #birthdaygift @fortunechemie (at Bangalore, India) https://www.instagram.com/p/CErstAfBWl9/?igshid=16yfxc7wsy4eb
#maker#diy#itssomething#resinart#woodresin#timepass#makersgonnamake#neon#doityourself#imbored#resin#woodart#dryflower#resinartist#resincraft#wooden#new#interiordesign#design#commisionedart#lamp#workinprogress#woodworking#artist#woodcarving#nightlight#instagood#birthdaygift
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love it when i reach the point of being tired that my nose starts running. Yes ❤
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