a little part of my sketch page :))

hope you guys are doing ok

sometimes i think abt how shocked chuuya was when dazai was like 'teehee i blew up your car' and its like ??? bro why are you surprised?? he presumably left the pm the same day your car blew up and you never connected those two things😭😭

thinking about lightnings walkman and the headphones he had before. how when he was 15 he broke them and mack did everything he could to fix them. it didnt work and mack took him to buy new ones.

lightning hating every minute of the shopping because he likes his old ones, with the stickers and the electrical tape because some of the wires are visible. he doesnt want new ones. he wants his old ones to be fixed so he can keep them.

its.. concerning to mack, to say the least — lightning is extremely attached to his old headphones and would genuinely rather die than get brand new ones. usually a teenager would jump at the chance for new technology, but lightning is set in his ways with those old ones and gets emotional at the idea of replacing them.

“its so dumb,” he says to mack, “but what if.. the old ones feel bad. or something. because i broke them and im replacing them just like that.”

mack tries to fix them multiple times, lightning goes without them for almost two months even when he Really needs to use them. after the last try to fix them — including one of the rusteze technicians in the work as well — mack sadly gives up. he manages to corral the kid into a walmart to pick new ones. at first, lightning refuses and stubbornly stands there glaring at the small display of sony headsets, he pretends he isnt teary eyed as he gives into picking out a pair, and he picks ones that are drastically different from the originals so he can hate them even more.

theyre cheap, he makes sure of it, and then for a week afterwards he refuses to even open the box. mack suggests maybe throwing out the old pair would help, but that seems to almost set him back in this grieving process. when he finally does open the box, it’s begrudgingly. he had to wear them because he was Sick and Tired of being overstimulated in public — and theyre nice. it fills him with guilt because oh. i said i would hate them. and that night he comes to the conclusion that id he glues the old ones back together he could find a way to fit them on his stuffed dinosaurs head and still have a reason to keep them (although mack would never make him throw them out)

rumour has it he still has them to this day ‼️

Randomly remembered the half-reason i call my oc-verse by the name it has while laying in bed. One-half of the reason i still knew, but I had forgotten what had truly, really cemented it jointly until now

(it was a song from my favourite band I haven't listened to in a while.)

(the song fit so well at the time, still does, that i needed to hold onto it for the main protagonists forever, by partially naming their story in reference.)

Does this explanation make any sense? Does anyone know why I'm tearing up remembering this. Aahh

1. it’s my 24th birthday today, so my goal of being published by the time i’m 25 is now a one year looming monster, but i never specified what kind of published and am currently looking in various literary magazines that are recommended for writers who have yet to be published, so i’m surprisingly confident that i can make it work? and tbh even if whatever i write isn’t officially published before my 25th birthday, if i have someone in the process of being published then i’ll be happy!! no matter what though, i’m gonna try to be proud of myself for at least giving it my best shot!!

2. i honestly love that my birthday is on the ides of march because the ides of march meme shitposting is only a thing on tumblr but it also being my birthday makes it easier to like. be excited about the ides of march outside of tumblr. like even in person i can be like “it’s my birthday! i’m an ides of march babe (:” and if someone is like oh what’s that? or if they say something along the lines of oh like julius caesar? i can be like yep!! and even if it’s a small thing outside of tumblr it brings me immense enjoyment and amusement being able to bring it up off of tumblr

3. transportation situation has been very rough since june 2023 when i totalled my car, my gap insurance are being assholes and i ended up putting my foot down on the phone with them yesterday which i’m pretty proud of because i am NOT a confrontational person (something i’ve been working on this past year, so seeing some improvement with my ability to hold my ground and not be a pushover yesterday was very cool!!) i was told i’d get a response from them by friday next week no matter what, and if i don’t then friday of next week i will continue to wreak havoc upon them. but my moms car which i’ve been using since my accident broke down yesterday, hopefully it’s fixable but my parents were saying it might be done for, so trying to think of how i’m gonna get to work next week is kind of stressing me out lmao, but for now i’m just gonna focus on enjoying my birthday the best i can because i don’t want to start off being 24 with an overwhelming anxiety for something that won’t be a potential issue until monday. plus i already messaged my boss today to let her know that i’m going to do everything i can to make it work out but just so she’s in the loop and knows of the potential of me not being able to make my morning shifts (one of my coworkers said she’s more than happy to give me a ride for our afternoon shifts which does help relieve some of the stress!) and i told her i’d let her know for sure sunday so that if necessary she can have time to figure out someone to fill in for me in the mornings!

overall: life is weird and i ended being 23 yesterday with a shitty situation but a positive outlook and i am going to enjoy my first day of being 24 no matter what because honestly i fucking earned it. happy friday everyone, i hope it’s a good day for you and me both!

appalled and disgusted to report the two (2) very manageable, very time-sensitive, very doable tasks that i've been putting off for two (2) weeks took ten (10) minutes total

losing my mind waiting for stw to show up in webtoon. i want him to pull up in this thing

i left her house and party without telling her how i feel or attempting to make a move i feel like the stupidest motherfucker alive

kny x earth to echo au. my most self indulgent piece yet

sometimes i look at things i write and i go "huh. my mental illness is showing"

WOKE UP TO THE FNAF TRAILER IM SOOOOOOOOOO FUCKING EXCITEDD RAHARHAGHRGHRHGHRGH

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GOD ok like. my brother n his fiance bought their 6 month old baby....a kitten. she posted a video on fb and the baby just grabs this tiny creature by the scruff of the neck and drags it towards her open drooling mouth.....