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insertsomthinawesome · 3 months

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I'M BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAACK!!! Okay so honestly I have been very very inconsistent over the years with just disappearing for periods of time due to various things 😂 So it probably seemed pretty normal to most people.

But it felt different on my side, so I'm excited to be back in business. I took a month long hiatus! 31 days of not drawing digital art. Its not something I talk about on here? But I've been suffering from some serious long term Art Burnout for.... a really really long time. Long enough that I should've taken a break probably years ago. It finally got so bad that I could barely draw. I was scared to do it (cause it always looked "bad" in my eyes [i'll come back to that]) and doing it was exhausting and disheartening.

I talked it over with somebody and realized that the fear and anger and frustration I felt towards my own artwork was uh. Not Normal or Healthy. And I finally committed to taking a real break for once.

I still drew a little bit by hand? Traditional art has always felt like it has lower stakes for me (i don't often share it online, and sometimes I don't even share it with friends) so I did some of that when I felt like it. But Digital art was completely off the table.

I had put such an immense pressure on myself to make my digital art perfect, to make as much of it as quickly as possible to satisfy something. It wasn't fun anymore. I'm proud of what i've made over the years! But for a long time now the stuff I've been making was made while hating every second of making it. With some rare exceptions.

I hated my art! It was a combination of Perfectionism, taking in too many external expectations, and the burnout. If you hate doing something its kinda hard to love it even when you want too lol. It wasn't "Bad" in the sense that the quality was low and it was ugly! It was "Bad" in the sense that it was unhealthy for me to keep doing it at that point in time.

I'm glad to report though, that with my hiatus officially over as of Wednesday last week: I am once again. In Love. With doing art, and being an artist :)

I put off taking a break for years cause I was scared that taking a break would mean that I would never achieve all the things I wanted to do with art. I was scared it was a stupid and lazy thing to do that would mean I'd never achieve my dreams. And Also even though I kinda hated drawing, I also loved making art. Its a weird duality that I can't even really explain??? I hated it but I also loved it. I wanted it but I also wanted to run from it. It wasn't until I was more mature and had more clarity and insight (and unfortunately also until the problems got worse) that I was finally able to let go of those fears and just do it.

And I'm really really glad I did. It was everything I needed. And I hope to strike a better balance in the future with art. Taking more breaks when I need them, or just when other things have my attention like reading or Video games (Some star rail got played during this time xD)

From the outside things probably aren't going to be that different?? At this point I don't really have any sure plans to post anything I've been drawing since my Hiatus ended. I might or I might not xD I'm still a hobbyist artist taking things at her own pace, but I hope that it shows how much happier I am :)

Whumptober 2023 is being officially put to rest by this post btw! I was in major burnout when that event started, and I'm ready to just, move on from all the past expectations I'd shoved on my shoulders. If I feel like filling any of the prompts or going back to any of the ideas I'd come up for it I will! But I'm not going to worry about doing it unless the desire sets in. Thanks to everybody who's been so kind to me throughout my time on here as an artist! Ya'lls tags and screaming and kind words, the fanfic, the asks and the responses? Its been fantastic :) You guys have made me laugh, smile, and cry tears of joy. I hope from here that things only get better and sweeter! And if I have bad days again, that's okay too.

Here's to 2024 and whatever it may bring ya'll :D 🎉🎉✨✨🧡💜

#isa screams #long post #gif #flashing #i think? Lemme know if I'm incorrect on that one alksdjfLKSJDJDSG #I don't normally talk this much so its kinda strange?#its kinda nice to be more honest about this stuff though #I'm a bit more of a private person so its hard to find the balance between wanting to discuss things openly and honestly #but with the fact that I don't owe the entire world an explanation for everything I do #its a tricky thing #but today I felt like doing this and I think that's okay #if i regret it I just won't do it again alsdjLSDJLFJSGSDG #thanks if you read this! I appreciate it!#I'm a pretty smalltime artist relatively. So sometimes it feels as though it doesn't mater what i say or express.#But hm. I doubt its really that simple or bleak #And if I don't respect myself then well. Who will right?#And I want to learn how to be happy with how little or how much I get #part of the reason I've done so poorly mentally as an artist is chasing numbers and outside praise instead of asking the harder questions #am i happy with what i do? what I make? Who I am #I'm going to probably be working on those questions and problems for the rest of my life.#But thats okay. Thats not a bad thing :)

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 6 months

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If I was in a lucid dream with a ghost, I would simply impress them with my blunt rolling skills

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #lan wangji #mdzs au #MDZS disco elysium au #This is brought to you by my Scrambled Egg brain - slowly burning up as I try to finish a long comic for this AU.#I hoped it would be done several days ago but I've changed things so many times....It is now Very Close to being done!#I probably should have just posted each page daily but at this point I'm just being stubborn. I want it complete and together.#Ruining the surprise a bit to say 'yeah its a digital art comic'#But its been tricky figuring out the style I want to use for it!#hence the swaths of MSpain(t) doodles that boil down to 'how would this look if I did X?'#I wanted to do a fully Black & White Ink style. But I scrapped it. Then I did small bits of colour. And scrapped it. Sigh.#This comic started out as just the first panel and then my brain went 'hold on. Its time to make a dumb joke'#Any disco elysium fans who finished the game probably know the scene I'm doing for the *actual* comic after seeing this <3 #Anyways I know in my heart LWJ would roll the worst blunts ever his first time. And then dedicate himself to the rolling craft-#-until he has finally mastered it. He would roll blunts so good that people would hire him and pay him a monthly salary for it.#But he declines. His master blunts are for his beloved and his beloved alone.#wwx would roll above average but after having lwj do it for him he can ever go back.

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marblerose-rue · 1 year

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the hush of rain / scourge

#my art #do not copy trace or steal #scourge #warrior cats #wc #waca #wc art #scourge wc #blood #bloodclan #THIS. WAS SO TRICKY TO DO #tried a couple of new things out/drew things ive never rlly drawn before as like a test #and its like. i started late in the night its 1 am rn and i am tired #BUT I JUST FOUND OUT i didnt have homework this weekend and i convinced myself i did so hip hip hooray me #scourge is still one of my fave characters all he did was show up kill and die. good for him #ALL IN ALL i am happy and proud of this piece ^_^#if i forget anything. please show me mercy #for i am my own worst enemy (drawing after 11 pm)#ANYWAY goodnight and goodmorning but mostly good night #actually hold that thought a little im hungry so goodnight after i figure out what i want to eat #i dont know how to draw puddles i kinda gave up its more prominent in the sketch

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assmaster-8000 · 2 months

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also i cannot fathom that i have to say this... in... a QUEER FANDOM... ABOUT A QUEER GAME.... MADE BY Q'UEER PEO OPLE.... BUT TAG THE READER APPROPRIATELY IN YOUR FICS/!! PLEASE IM FOAMING AT THE MOUTH PLEASE ITS JUST DECENCY

please! not everyone uses she/her pronouns! it's NOT THE NORM! (that in itself also leads to a whole spiel of homophobia transphobia and racism ive seen happen in other similar fandoms) WHEN YOU PUBLISH YOUR WORKS PUBLICLY FOR PUBLIC ENTERTAINMENT THE BARE MINIMUM IS APPROPRIATE TAGGING SO PEOPLE KNOW WHAT THEYRE GETTING INTO!!!! WE ARE FULL OF ALL TYPES OF QUEER PEOPLE. the dysphoria people can feel at seeing the unsolicited and incorrect reference to their anatomy or identity is real like no one should be stumbling through your fanfic like lesbian helen keller through a fish market. doesn't mean you can't write afab/femme reader i mean go right ahead dawg do what you gotta do for your enjoyment but some of us... are not... femme or female... hence we cannot share in your enjoyment due to this yknow very distinct difference in our identity and it would be NICE to have prior indication so we can scroll away and protect our peace

#touchstarved game #touchstarved #touchstarved ais #touchstarved leander #touchstarved mhin #touchstarved kuras #touchstarved vere #im begging you guys what is this wattpad???#it's. it's?? ive scrolled through the recesses of tumblr and it's so surprising how much of it i find #obviously doesn't apply to all writers and if it doesn't ggo figure #also yes i do acknowledge not all femme people use she her and not all she her users are automatically femme #and i would like to say yknow good for yourself really identity is a tricky thing but its most generalized statement #for the most common recurring factors i notice #*mostly jesus christ

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iintervallum · 10 months

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and i kiss her again

edit: the finished version is here!

#cr spoilers #wip #laudna x imogen #imodna #southern gothic #my art #critical role #i'm super behind on c3 but i still think that making this is important #spoiler culture isn't real because i'm defo going to still be hyped when i finally encounter this episode #edit: i'm interested more in the ship now that they're together since it raises some interesting possibilites #since what was holding each other back i feel in the past was this unspoken SOMETHING like imogen was not saying what she truly felt #and now that its finally brought out into the open maybe other things can be brought out too! like maybe for once they can actually disagre #or not be so attached to each other since they now know for sure that the other loves them in the way they love them #essentially the security of a defined realtionship helps them more in the long run if you get me #as much as i love undefined and messy relationships #they can be very very tricky #like qpr work so well because the parties involved define it as such #it cannot work with ambiguity #i'm still holding onto the idea of them being qpp as well as laudna being some form of aspec #though i do acknowledge that thinking your unlovable is different from the inability to feel romantic/sexual attraction #those two can still...exist together #case in point me #i thought for a long time that no one would like me and still struggle with that #but i myself in addition to that find romantic feelings comes after an emotional connection(demiromantic)#so yeah i still view laudna as someone on the aspec spectrum for that reason #but i'm open to people reasoning it as other things too!#like sure i view them as bi4bi but lesbian headcanons are valid as well #just don't be a dick about it and say that its “impossible for them to be into men or masc-presenting people”#we can just have differing opinons maybe #phew i really did a long vent in the tags so sorry about that LMAO

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cultivating-saplings · 6 months

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begging people to understand that you are living in a world that has millennia of antisemitism woven into the most fundamental fabric of its culture, and it has left its mark on how you think about jews, even if you dont think it has.

you are not immune to the effects of conspiracy theories because you've read some posts debunking them, you are not incapable of perpetuating antisemitism just because you say you want to punch nazis

when you talk about how we all need to examine how internalized prejudices change our view of the world, don't act like jews are the exception. think about why your first thought when you see something less than glowingly positive about palestine is that it must be the result of israeli state controlled propaganda. really fucking think about it. because sure, it might be, that's always a possibility, but why is that the first place your mind goes?

i hate that i have to say this because yeah, israel and its leadership as they currently exist are deeply fucked and their actions in gaza right now are despicable, fucking obviously, and when you need to be reminded about these incredibly basic concepts like the existence systemic oppression all that does is detract from what would otherwise be extremely necessary criticism

#fuck it im mad lets main tag this shit #jumblr #israel #judaism #antisemitism #ray speaks #also for the love of fuck please please please stop talking about zionism like you understand it even a little bit #i know youve read some posts and youre sure you get it but zionism as an ideology is so much more complicated than you think it is #and its ok to not understand! its complicated and tricky to work out!#but i promise that you dont need to post about it just because you think you should have an opinion #or you feel like you have to prove that you think The Correct Things about it #its ok to be quiet sometimes i prommy

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ohitslen · 2 days

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BREAKING NEWS 🎉Ch. 5 of The neighbor from 311 is up!🎉

#Yo hi its me. I forgot to post here when I updated chapter 4 ...well now there is two instead of just one! ✌(for the ones that still haven't #read chapter 4 anyways-)#updating was tricky since I've been so busy with uni and my personal life so. hobby writing was reserved for when I had free time #and only sometimes when I felt like it bc I won't torture my eyes with more screen time than the one I already have throughout the day #This was fun to write as usual :) I am excited to write the next chapter and how things will start to unfold from now on!#Oh I have also started to read dungeon meshi. I'm loving it.#the neighbor from 311 #trigun #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #vashwood #trigun stampede #wolfwood #vash #nicholas trigun #trigun fanart #reincarnation au #Trigun au #lenssi writes #lenssi draws #trigun fic #trigun fanfiction

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deaddcas · 10 months

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it's funny how quickly I went from 'I want them to kiss when they reunite' to 'I want them to hold each other and never let go'

#imodna #critical role #the girls need it #im not sure a kiss would be the right thing at the moment #its tricky

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notemaker · 4 months

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Some late night quick art studies! Im trying to learn how to balance sharp lines with rounder ones. It's fun.

#perspective is tricky #but it helps to simplify things #or maybe try to take a step away and wait a few minutes for the 3d effect to kick in #ive been listening the Wish soundtrack on constant repeat for hours now #oh shoot its five am #art studies #art study #art post #my art #artwork #figure drawing

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literalnobody · 1 year

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Tumblr insists I compress these down to ugly quality >_>

You can listen to the Prologue and Chapter One if you want to understand what to heck is going on here!

Listening time: 17 mins~

Sound effects used: [x][x][x]

#I have said this on other posts but I'm obviously not going to post the whole book in audio posts lol #these are just a lil taste of the story so you'll know if its for you when i finish and hopefully publish it #dipping your toe in to check the temperature. that sorta thing #the water dog #mine #my writing #original writing #sowwy about the audio quality i record on my phone and then it gets compressed #best listened to with headphones if you can stand my voice #and if you're enjoying the story so far i'd love to hear feedback! this is still just the first draft #Sybil is a tricky protagonist bc shes kinda boring at the start.... but she grows through the story i promise she gets interesting #in my opinion anyway #its hard to write a silent protagonist in a novel where she is not actually silent #but silent in the 'god i wish i didnt have to speak to people' way #anyway im rambling now!#thanks for listening if you do

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pushing500 · 8 months

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Oooh, a mysterious asteroid! I wonder what it could be?

It's very blue, and has eleven strange space creatures attached to it. I'm sure this will cause no problems at all.

Ah, so they're electric space eels. Neat. Next time someone can take the thrumbos when they're hunting these things.

Rogan the rottweiler did his best but unfortunately seems to have lost his left eye in the mess. I'll see about getting Fafo to make him a bionic eye because he's a very good boy, and he did his very best to protect Hazrov and Baz during their scuffle with the arcturan sky eels.

Hazrov is fine, by the way. Doctor Brennan dealt with the heart attack swiftly, and then Irwin used his 'preach health' ability just for an extra boost. Baz is also fine. He only had a scratched eye and a bruised arm and is already back to mining the sky steel.

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sonknuxadow · 6 months

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do you think we will finally get rusty rose backstory in the final set of episodes or will they just never say anything about that ever

#or an explanation for why the chaos council is the way it is. like why theres 5 eggmen in one shatterspace #IDKKK im really interested in the rusty rose thing because like nine's backstory is basically just tails but if sonic wasnt there #is it the same for rusty rose ?? like was sonic not being there part of what caused that #its kind of a tricky thing to think about because sonic and amys first meeting was sonic saving her from metal sonic and like #metal sonic wouldnt exist if sonic doesnt exist . plus iirc amy was drawn to that spot because her cards told her she would meet sonic #and like . you know. sonic doesnt exist in this timeline #but also. i cant remember if it was ever said what exactly the cards told her #like if she would meet sonic specifically or if she would just meet someone who would be important in her life #or if she was just told that she would have an important encounter in that location #if its the second or third option i think that could still happen even if sonic doesnt exist? like maybe its someone/something else

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hermitdrabbles56 · 1 year

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Stimming headcanons?

Writing this current fic just...has me in a mood because. Yes.

Also happy to hear if anyone else has stimming headcanons for the boys. Because it's wholesome.

Time: his stims have become more subtle as he's gotten older but they are still there.

Healthy stims

Vocal stims; chirps, grumbles, growls, squeaks, humming(especially the songs his knows). See like..the whole Porcupine!Time post and the fic that will follow

Knee bouncing, swaying in place a bit when he's standing or sitting on the ground.

Fiddling with his ocarina and his wedding ring

Unhealthy stims

Cuticle picking

Chewing on the inside of his cheek to the point that he has scaring there

Twilight: He only recently started suppressing his stims because of the time he spends in castle town. But at home he feels safe about it. He is a little timid about around the chain at first but he's getting better about it.

Healthy stims

Vocal stims of humming and whistling, will also howl as a human but mainly as a communication. Also canine like whines/whimpers/huffs (he does also start to pick up some of times vocal stims because seeing his mentor make them makes him feel safe)

Rubbing/nuzzle stims; rubbing his hands, his legs, his face/eyes/forehead but also rubbing against things and people (especially if specific textures as involved). Like other people's backs and shoulders when he's comforting them. But will also nuzzle and rub his head against them when he's hugging for his own comfort.

Scratching will scratch his own head just because it feels really good and when his hair is short the ruffling motion is really fun.

Flappy hands!!: this is one of the ones that comes out when hes really stressed and he tries to only do it when he's alone.

Pacing, swaying, bumping his hands together in one way or another.

Lassoing things to destress during down time.

Knuckle cracking

Asking people to hug him as tightly as they can (generally Sky, Wild or Time)

ZOOMIES will slip away from the group specifically so he can bolt around like a mad man be it human or wolf form

Get this boy some god damn fidget toys he'd be mesmerized for hours

Unhealthy stims

Scratching; sometimes it can go to far and he'll scratch himself raw even accidentally make himself bleed.

Sometimes the hand bumping turns into full force punching his palms or slapping until his hands are sore and bright red.

Head hitting sometimes will just suddenly crack his head into something when he's got bottled up stress. Or will wack himself in the head. Sometimes it's only light because the sound the action makes is distracting, but a lot of times it's when he's uh..not being nice to himself.

Biting/chewing...his hands are covered in little scars because whennhe bites he bites hard and his sharp choppers go right through the skin. And he doesn't exactly feel like he can just pull something out and start gnawing on it unless he has jerky on him or something.

ᴵ'ᵐ ⁿᵒᵗ ᵖʳᵒʲᵉᶜᵗⁱⁿᵍ ᵃᵗ ᵃˡˡ ᵗʰᵉ ᶠᵘᶜᵏ ʷᵒᵘˡᵈ ᵍⁱᵛᵉ ʸᵒᵘ ᵗʰᵃᵗ ⁱᵈᵉᵃ

Legend:

Healthy stims

Bone cracking (honestly I don't know if this is healthy or unhealthy especially with his angry skeleton but it releases the built up fl..fluid.? Gases? And usually feels a little better afterwards so fuck it. Yell at me if this is bad and I'll move it) he'll pop his knuckles, wrists, ankles, neck, back, knees anything pretty much until it stops popping. The feeling and sound bothing being soothing in some way unless his extremely sore for whatever reason. (He starts to really like when Twilight does chiropractic things on him because it feels even better while still giving the popping sound)

Puzzles! He has wood carved/hand held puzzles and things that he can easily stim with while walking that make his brain work.

Organization? (Ehh maybe this is more a satisfaction thing. But like..rapid Organization of books or cards or things like that can be nice so the thought was him going through his stuff and organizing when he's stressed)

Playing with his hat: kneading at/rubbing/twisting/fixing his hat especially when freaking out is calming.

Embroidery is one of his stimming activities because the repetitive motions focus his brain and the way Embroidery feels as he runs his fingers over it is nice

Sprinting, doesn't do itnoften but sometimes will just activate the Pegasus boots and sprint to alleviate emotions

Unhealthy stims

Will also suddenly just, clock his head into something hard enough to bruise.

Wild:

Healthy

Chewing on things especially if they're crunchy

Humming or tounge clicking especially when it's too quiet

Playing with his hair, running fingers through it, braiding it, putting it up, tugging, twisting, coiling anything

Scalp scratching (can get a little overdone if he's not careful)

Penguin arms

Swaying

Signing even if he's talking verbally to have something to do with his hands

Grass plucking

Rubbing his eyes till he sees those odd little stars

Face rubbing in general

Light finger taps on different parts of his body

Flappy hands and happy dances

Fiddling with his earrings

Climbing: just the thinking of where to put his feet and hands the feeling of the tree or rock beneath him the repetitiveness of it? (Maybe this doesn't make sense but it popped into my head)

Unhealthy

Lip chewing, picking, biting

Biting himself in general, usually hands and arms if he can't get a hold of something to chew.

Scar scratching when he's nervous especially since he doesn't have much feeling in the scars so it can get raw very easily

Clapping/bumping stims until his hands are numb or sometimes bruised depending on how he's doing it.

Head hitting

Wars:

Healthy

Pacing

Swaying in place

Fiddling with his scarf or his gloves but mostly his scarf

Light teeth clacking

Humming

Knee bouncing

Wild hand gestures when talking.

Nonsensical humming: as in not a tune or anything but just, noise especially while reading or writing or focusing on something

Unhealthy

Teeth grinding

Lip biting

Cuticle picking

Sky:

Healthy

Earing fiddling

Idly plucking at his harp or humming softly

Rubbing at and fiddling with his sail cloth. Especially just burying his face in it and rubbing (he'll do this with other very soft things too like Twilight's pelt but mostly just the sailcloth)

Scuffing his boot along the dirt.

When he's forced to stand still he's found ways to subtly tap his fingers to help relieve the ache to move.

Just running his fingers through his hair

If he has bigger earnings in hell playwith them.

He has a few of crimsons feathers that he'll sometimes just hold so he can run his fingers along them. Because petting crimson is a huge comfort stim for him. He lives the texture of feathers. So anytime he has access to birds.

Asking people to hug him as tightly as they can (generally Twilight)

His woodcarving! Sometimes he'll just sharpen twigs into shives as they walk

Unhealthy

Throwing himself off of things to feel the rush of the wind he makes sure to have his sailcloth ready and doesn't do it around people. Because usually he would just go for a fly with crimson. But he has scared the shit out of people a few times. (So no, technically he is fully informed on how to do this and is safe when doing it. But the others worry about it though sometimes Wild will join him, and teaches him how to use the paraglider)

Wind:

Healthy

I will have to find the source. But during sicktember someone wrote a homesick fic about Wind having a small bag of sand that he just, plays with and runs through his fingers and that lives in my head rent free.

Fiddles with his necklace regularly

Bouncing in place

Flappy arms

Swaying

Pacing in circles specifically circles, and if there's something too circle? Definitely.

Likes braiding wild and Hyrules hair and will ruffle and fluff his own hair wildly.

ZOOMIES often will get Twilight wrapped up in his zoomies

Vocal popping or toung clicking

Knee bounce

Knot tying: has a short length of rope and will just practice knits or twist it between his hands

Unhealthy

Picking: lets be honest he's in the throws for puberty he has pimples and weird bumps on his skin and he picks at them and pops them whenever his fingers find them

Nail biting when they get too long but he doesn't bite them too far down because they can be useful

Cuticle picking

Biting but not nearly as badly as Twi or Wild. Just..sinks his teeth into his thumb or index finger once and holds it there. It's more of disguise for just sucking on it so he won't get teased.

Hyrule:

Healthy

Swaying and rocking both sitting and standing

Penguin arms

Quiet nonsensical humming, just loud enough to feel it in his chest

Finger taps on his thighs

Taking petals from flowers that are starting to wilt so he can fiddle with the petals. Will also do this with leaves and large grasses.

LEAF CRUNCH absolutely obsessed with crunching dried leaves. And other crunchy sounds

Has a very old ragged piece of cloth that's sort of falling apart but when he's extremely stressed rubbing at and fiddling with that calms him down (it's the remnants of his old baby blanket)

Curling his hair around his fingers in a repetitive motion

Most of his stims are very quiet and subtle

Unhealthy

Hand biting when panicked so he'll stay quiet. Similar with digging his nails into his arms or biting the inside of his cheek. The release of that pain making it easier to cope either the situation around him.

Four: his stims change depending on which color is in control and they each have their own different stims when separated. Red having the most, green having the least

Healthy

Chainmail designs. Has flimsy chain mail rings ment specifically for creating little creatures or bracelets or what not because the repetitive activity is soothing. So he also loves repairing the chainmail of the group (vio, he also loves borrowing Legends puzzles)

Knee bouncing/subtle bouncing in some form when he's sitting

Hugging himself and swaying when standing

Flappy hands, bumping hands calpping and very expressive stims (red)

Unhealthy

Lashing out types of stims? Hitting head, ramming his head against something, angry biting, kicking. (Blue, it's very rare that these happen because Four is a rather composed person but sometimes you just need to fucking snap)

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cowboy-robooty · 8 months

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another day another divine vision. let me tell you about italys entitlement to love pipeline. so see italy loves to sleep around he loves da ladies da one night stands and most certainly aint about that commitment bullshit. it isnt out of malice or anything its just he cant really see the appeal hes like bruhhhh that is SO not worf it :/ blehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.... and like holy rome was when he was 7 okay that doesnt really count since when italy was 7 he also used to believe girls couldnt fart a lot of things were different at that time. but see i think italy is able to fall in love with germany despite his commitment issues because he also has a raging sense of entitlement. italy is the opposite and exactly the same as romano. romano is possessive as shit because hes the unloved brother that got nothing so when he gets something he hoards it to himself while italy is entitled as shit because hes the ultra loved by everyone child and always wins out in the end so he feels like he deserves everything at the end of the day. he isnt a bad guy but hes a bit of a spoiled brat to his core because of this since he can easily feel entitled to things after a while. and see italys love for germany hinges upon that entitlement being activated.

because germany is fully devoted to italy hes fucking obsessed with him he will and does do anything for him if italy asks him twice (sometimes thrice). germany will let italy ruin his life every single fucking day and still comes back crawling for more. hell be like italy this is the last fucking straw do NOT EVER fuck up my car again and the italy will destroy it literally the next day and germany will be mad for 30 seconds before sighing and going "well its okay. but im serious this time dont do it EVER aga-" **repeat for the next one million years**. and italy is very aware of this and honestly germanys undying loyalty and shit is why theyre able to stay together. because germany will always accept italy into his arms whenever italy comes running to him even if he also is sticking grenades into his back pockets and wiping his hands on germany's shirt while doing this he will always be like "... come here italy". and i think italy really realizes that germanys always going to take care of him wether hes on the losing side or not and even if hes with germany on the losing side everybody on the winning side likes italy already so theyre not going to really punish him fr so its overall better to lose with germany than win with everyone else since the winning side is going to make him actually do shit. Italys always with germany but if germany actually gave italy consequences depending on how severe these are he would actually leave germany rather than deal with them if he found it too much of a hassle to deal with. And this is how i believe their relationship is like for a very very very long time like for basically the entirity of the anime so far even like italy saw germany about to die and did not even grant him his last wish of smiling for him because he was like errrm! sorry dude but im looking out for me!

but i think this is able to morph into love because over time italy unconciously starts feeling entitled to germany. germany is so loyal and always there for him so hard that italy starts to feel entitled to this treatment because no matter what he does no matter how scum gong or batshit he can be germany will always see him as a perfect angel who could never have ill will (and only kills him out of incompetence) and welcomes him with open arms. italy starts to feel like germany is SUPPOSED to be with him. that it isnt right if germany isnt because italy is entitled to him already obviously and this is why italy starts developing jealousy and is like wtf germany is supposed to like ME most! Its unconcious and he doesnt really think about it too hard but his entitlement slowly grows over time and although it makes him be like GERMANY YOU CANT LIKE RUSSIA MORE THAN ME!!!! it still leaves him being selfish where he leaves germany to die by pictonians lol. the entitlement is able to morph into love though because it becomes so strong that italy one day realizes that hell feel so much intense discomfort if germany isnt by his side. he feels like germany is supposed to be with him hes supposed to like italy best and always pamper and spoil him and be obsessed only with italy and let only italy do special things nobody else can do. and it keeps growing until he realizes what he feels is love. because he realizes that there isnt anything he can think of thats worth more than his relationship with germany. he feels so entitled to germanys life that hes willing to give his own life up to keep their lives intertwined forever. hes willing to give up his freedom in exchange for germanys loyalty since now he cant see himself enjoying his life without it. its become such a common pleasure that its impossible to go on unless he has it. even if not being able to screw as he pleased will make him deeply unhappy, not having germany by his side would make him infinitely more unhappy. he might hate doing shit for people, but he would hate germany being hurt and alone 1000x more than how much he hates getting his ass up and doing him a favor. and THATS how italy realizes that he is so very totally in gays with germany chan forever since hes willing to do anything to keep him in his life and lucky for him he doesnt have to do anything except make their loyalty mutual. hashtag itager babywin!

#robooty kun #robooty bible #i dunno if i ezplained this one well #but yeah italys love is tricky tricky its a fickle and weird thing #but it definitely is true by the end of its formation #and den itari confesses to germany and they date forever and ever and get marrrieeedd!#i loveee germany having a onesided crush for freaking ever until italy realizes hes kinda about that gay shit #germanys love is a lot more simple. italy is his first friend and he likes that italy never has bad intentions towards germany (thats what #germany thinks) and italy makes him feel happy for the first time since everybody wants him to kill himself except italy and his brother #(literally canonically with the buon san valentino manga where germanys like waow... ive never been happy before because everyone hates me #but italy makes me happy because he doesnt hate me and is nice to me and likes me)#germany is kind of an idiot and luckily never realizes his idea of angel no bad intentions ever italy isnt exactly real #they just luckily click at the right time and everything works out forever and forever AMEN!

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