Am I to stand by as you fuck up? That is not love. Letting the other person live as they wish is love.

THE GREAT 3.02 Choose Your Weapon

#let her speak

Derry Girls (2018-2022) Season 2 | Episode 3

Do you ever just lay awake at night, turning over in your head the stark difference in delivery between Hewson's Van saying--steadily, unshakably--"it's just something that's happening to you...happening to us" and Cypress' Taissa saying--imploringly, whiningly--"this was not just my dream, this was our dream"?

Do you ever just turn it over and over, how often Tai tried to scare Van away, and how it only made Van set her feet more firmly? How Taissa's first love was this person who saw a problem fall into Taissa's lap, a problem that was quite literally trapped inside Taissa's body, and decided unflinchingly: No, that's an us problem now? How she refused point-blank to walk away even with blood in her mouth, how she flatly informed Tai "I'm never gonna be scared of you", and promptly turned a moment of pain into a declaration of love? And how this would etch itself into Taissa for the rest of her life? How she'd take these things that worked with Van--with the person Van was, with the bond they shared--and try so hard to run through an identical script with Simone?

Except Simone is her own person. A completely different kind of person. A person who hasn't been offered any of the context, any of the realities going on inside Taissa. So: naturally she doesn't respond the way Van did at eighteen--and will go on to do all over again in her forties. Naturally, she hears our dream as the excuse it is, not as a plea for connection. Naturally, she is scared away when Taissa pushes, and shouts, and begs. Because there isn't blood in her mouth, not yet, but there will be. And they have a son to worry about. And she isn't eighteen and a special kind of immortal, a special kind of romanticized. She's a grown woman with responsibilities, with priorities, with an understanding that you can't fix someone just because you love them. And Tai can't just perform a revival of the play she and Van had memorized twenty-five years later with a whole new performer in the works, and expect it to shake out the same.

Of course it doesn't work. But look at Taissa trying it. Look at Taissa trying to reframe her first love through a new lens. Trying to recast it. Trying to play it through again. Van taught her love was sticking out the blood, shaking off the pain, making a you problem into an us problem. Does it ever just eat at you, how tragic it is, watching Taissa try to shape her marriage around a woman who isn't even wearing a ring?

hmmmmm anxiety! not a Fan👎 going to bed

NIGHT NIGHT

timelapse for that loki piece! and some talking/sketching underneath as always

ouuugh this show made me sooo emo ooouuuugh

sketch! this idea came to me right away, no other drafts. loved the idea of loki creating yggdrasil and how he used it to make a world (worlds? timelines??) for his friends to live in... even tho mobius is too heartbroken to know what to do with it😭

and finally, color thumbnail! ngl im not too happy with this piece lol... i think the composition is pretty cool but it didn't really hit the emotions i was going for 🥹🥹 colors are also kinda wonk. maybe ill go round 2 for loki fanart... i really loved this show!

+some warm up doodles that got me in the groove for this piece

ty for the support my friends 😭😭

TEASING HER!!!

Today was exhausting BUT one of the places I delivered I got pelted with a massive flock of the biggest grasshoppers I’ve seen in the area and I saw a huge P. audax walking around and I lost all sense of self awareness for a second and immediately crouched down to look at this spider. And the homeowner came out (oh no) but she has the biggest smile on her face as she excitedly asked to know what I had found and then she spent the next ten minutes showing me around her property pointing out all the bug friends she’s been keeping track of. She initially came out because she was hoping I spotted one of the ribbon snakes on her property but the spider was also a delight to her. She found another tinier P. audax right above me also and another unidentified spiderling we tried and failed to catch. The world is good and I’m jealous of her house

today i had this Vivid memory flash through my mind of kissing my ex boyfriend (this was like 2018) and i felt so viscerally fucking revolted and I gotta say. it is truly impressive that I didn’t realise I’m a lesbian sooner than fucking half a year ago

*kermit voice* sweet mother sweet mother send your child unto me for the sins of the unbroken must be baptized in blood and fear

HULK RAGE ❗️my manager just asked me to work on my day off tomorrow because my other coworker would be alone otherwise. which. fine 😵‍💫 but the hypocrisy of having me work that shift alone half a dozen times before this with no help vs the fact that my manager is best friends with this coworker is driving me. nuts 😵‍💫❗️

i need a very small amount of groceries but nobody can give me a lift and i'm not in a fit state to leave the house, so my goddamn sincere-ass apologies to the grocery delivery guy who is bringing like five things.

man

i wanna kis (⁠´⁠ ⁠.⁠ ⁠.̫⁠ ⁠.⁠ ⁠`⁠) it's almost midnight ladies u know what that means .. (yearning hours)

Just saw the alternative open for the mirac movie

Like

It's not just me, right? Absolute clown shit

dude one thing i fucking HATE about customer service is when someone comes to you with like a Minor issue they faced with your workplace and you like say sorry and explain why that might have been and then say sorry again and the person is like "mm i dont think thats the answer im looking for here." LIKE OKAY WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU WANT ME TO DOOOOO THEN HUH?????????? IM VERY CLEARLY THE LOWEST EMPLOYEE RANK THERE IS I HAVE NO POWER TO DO ANYTHING??? if you want to speak to a manager the go fucking speak to a manager or ask me to get one for you??????? dont make it my fucking problem and act like im being unreasonable and difficult

Song of the Day: March 17

"I Like It" by Cardi B, Bad Bunny, J Balvin