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How I Know I'm Having a Bad ADHD Day:
A completely unexaggerated moment-by-moment replay of a scenario featuring my poor overworked underpaid overstimulated Brain
Me: Ooh, I'll put some music videos on while I'm having my breakfast so my brain can calibrate
Brain: Ooooh lovely!
Me: *plays Me Necesita by CNCO x PRETTYMUCH*
Brain: YEESSSS!!!! A **BOP!!!!**
[Seconds Later]
Me: Huh, that blond guy looks a little bit like Zabdiel.
Brain: A bit, maybe.
Me: Ha, that little floofy one looks like Joel!
Brain: Hey yeah that is a bit weird.
Me:
Brain: *buffering*
Me:
Brain: *buffering*
Me:
Brain: ...waitaminute....!!
Me: What??
Brain: YOU GODDAM IDIOT!!! YOU LITERALLY JUST THIS SECOND CHOSE TO WATCH CNCO!! WHO THE HELL DID YOU EXPECT?!?!?!!!???
Me: *genuinely shocked* Did I?! When?!?
Brain: *facepalming intensifies*
#spev rambles#adhd problems#adhd#it's gonna be a long day folks#i do not have the brain capacity for being a functional adult today#i do not even have the brain capacity to fake it#i cannot believe it took about a nanosecond to completely forget who i was and how i got here#all i did was make breakfast and get back into bed
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💖 Day 3.5 is now available! 💖
For the last couple of months, only Server Boosters had access to the 3.5 update... Buuuuut now it's available for everyone to play in the 14DWY Discord — and soon itch.io once I'm happy with the QA and state of the game — so please don't feel pressured to join unless you want to!!
The full devlog + even more screenshots are under the cut ^^
What's been added to the 3.5 version?
📺 Streamer Mode!
I've been told that it's difficult to stream and monetise age-restricted videos on YouTube and Twitch, so I added an option to remove the sexual content and strong language used in the demo.
Now y'all can invite Ren into your bed for cuddles without putting your streamer career on the line /silly /lh
This won't affect the 18+ rating or dark themes/elements of the game, however! Although Streamer Mode will prevent you from seeing any "gruesome" CGs in the future, most of the core elements of the game will still be tied to the choices and decisions you make. So you won't miss out on the overall experience by using streamer mode!!
⚙️ Custom Pronouns!
It only took me one entire year to get around to it, but you can finally choose your own preferred pronouns (or use a set of pronouns instead)... At the cost of being able to change them mid-game ^^;
Since the original pronoun screen wouldn't update until a new scene was displayed, I temporarily disabled the feature. But once I find a workaround, I'll bring it back!
💗 Choose how others perceive you!
You can now choose how the cast and narration perceive you! Originally, the narration was kept strictly gender-neutral (outside of pronouns and genitalia picked by the player), but this will soon change in future updates.
For more clarity: you don't get to choose the words specifically, but you can choose between masculine, feminine, and androgynous terms!
📋 Separate top and bottom genitalia!
You can now choose your tatas and pps separately! >:3
Alongside that, you can also choose your preferred body type!
I removed the "both" genitalia option because a few players still assumed it was an obscure version of "intersex". That wasn't my intention and I don't want to mislead anyone, so I took it out for now ^^;
I also didn't want to include a screenshot of the new genitalia choices in action (because it's NSFW), so y'all get the same character menu screen for the nth time instead lmao
📱 Relationship Screen Overhaul!
You can now change your own status for more immersion, and long-term Server Boosters will eventually be able to submit and use their own icon within the game as well!
Stalking finding your friends has now become easier by using "Buddy Maps"; a new app that allows you to see the location of all the cast members!
I want to offer players more incentive to check the relationship screen since they tend to miss the status updates, so hopefully this might help ;v;
It also says it "updates every few hours" so folks don't go overboard and check every 5 seconds to see where Ren is gdsghf (also keep in mind that he's a hacker lol)
🖤 Additional Scenes Update!
Day 2 received a brand new CG!!!!! Originally, I planned on only adding a few CGs sporadically throughout the game, but it didn't feel right to leave Day 2 so... empty... so I added a brand new CG to (hopefully) make things feel more balanced and natural!
If you decline Teo's offer on Day 3, Leon will now call and try to convince you to reconsider. However, players are still allowed to decline, and if they do, they'll reach a dead end.
After listening to feedback on itch, I changed some of the dialogue during Days 1-3 to make it seem more consistent! They're only small changes though, so it's honestly not worth looking for sdgjssga
🎶 Updated BGM and SFX!
I wanted to try out a different style of music to see if it fits the vibe of 14DWY more! The BGM features more acoustics to suit the "beachy" theme of Corland Bay, though I made a conscious effort to include piano elements as well to stay true to the original!!
I figured it'd be better to give players a live example before I make a poll (to see if they prefer the change or not) and publish it to Itch.
Some new SFX have also been added, though it's very minimal and honestly not that noticeable.
How to download and play the update?
(warning: clicking on the following links will open Discord!!)
To download the Day 3.5 update, simply join the 14DWY Discord server, verify your age, and visit the "14dwy-updates" channel!
Alternatively, you can also wait until the update is publicly released on Itch to play it as well!! (It normally gets released shortly after a round of QA testing/getting feedback from the server, though I may release it earlier if I feel like it hehe ^^)
Enjoy!!
#14 days with you#14dwy#💖 — 14 days with queue.#🖤 — updates.#🖤 — spoilers.#I'm not gonna say much about my current doxxing situation because I've got it under control now + it's being handled privately#Plus I don't wanna give it/the people involved any unnecessary attention. I just wanna announce the update and Get Back To It™️#(''it'' bein the grind 💪 It never stops lmao /silly)#OG followers will also know that these topics aren't the vibe I normally have on this blog (or any of my accounts); so I don't think I'll—#—make ANOTHER public post about the situation and bring more attention to it (when I just want everything to be over and put to rest ^^;)#However I also don't want people to think that I'm... ignoring?? the situation entirely (because gettin doxxed is a very endangering thing)#So I DO want to quickly acknowledge it here and say that it's all currently handled + I'm safe and okay + this won't stop me from—#—continuing to work on 14DWY (and other future projects). I also don't want to give these awful people more power and incentive to continue#—this kind of pathetic behaviour; so the less attention and encouragement being shown will ultimately be better in the long run :3#Aaaaaanways!! 😮💨#My other accounts will be restored shortly and my askbox will be opened once I feel comfortable. I'll get around to following folks—#—again in my own time; so please don't feel offended if I unfollowed you during a moment of vulnerability and anxiety!!#This is all EXTREMELY overwhelming and scary for someone with SAD/AvPD; and I /gen can't handle seeing it all over my timeline ;v;#Sorry this got ranty and personal again hjdsgjsdh T_T I said I wouldn't say much; so I'll shut up now hehe#🖤 — shut up sai.
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#kirby#daily kirby#my art#digital#hal laboratory#nintendo#so like aliexpress used to have a terrible reputation in terms of like quality and truth in advertising and such right#but like. amazon and etsy are swamped with bootleggers and dropshippers now too#so I figured like. can't be any worse right?#besides I know how to double check descriptions and measurements and examine images critically#I've shopped shady sites before like back when banggood was the only place to get those cute diy miniature kits#(now you can get them at regular craft store chains which is Wild to me)#but I have never opened aliexpress because everyone was always just like 'Never Go There'#(but then again these days folks are doing massive temu hauls left and right)#(so clearly norms have changed even if common perception of aliexpress has not)#I open it up and I immediately find the rug I spent an entire day hunting for unsuccessfully earlier in the month.#and a ton of incredible bootleg kirbs.#and a style of hair clip I've been hunting for for *years*.#soooo I spent the entire day in a pastel fugue lol#(I have not spent any money yet but I'm probably gonna)#(so like I can't confirm that you're not gonna get scammed or whatever just like. use common sense.)#(don't trust sale prices read descriptions/reviews when available and try to avoid work stolen from independent artists)#(that's usually gonna be on printed stuff like phone cases and posters)#(and tbh I have no qualms with stolen official art as long as the quality is as advertised)#(but there's a big difference between stealing from Multinational Corporation and stealing from Some Guy)#anyway done rambling now <3
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Red vs Blue is over so yes I will say goodbye, I will say goodbye to this show that has affected me possibly more than any other story ever has…
but I will not say goodbye to the reds and blues. Because they will always be a part of me, no matter what happens I can always go back to these characters that changed me. I can rewatch those 13 seasons that I love so much. I can rewatch after that and bitch and complain about them while also enjoying the parts I do like.
But more importantly there will always be more reds and blues- always more fanfics to read and create, more fanart to draw and enjoy, more headcanons to share, more people to drag into this fandom because I WILL continue to recommend and share this show with others.
So goodbye Red vs. Blue
And welcome home reds and blues… you belong to us now ya fucking cockbites
#jadey speaks#goodbye red vs blue#rvb#red vs blue#sorry folks but I’m in it for the long haul when it comes to these multi colored fuckers#even if I’m the last person in the fandom I’m still gonna love them till the day I die
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In case you didn’t know or needed to hear it, things do get better after you turn 18. Your life isn’t over even when you hit 21. 💜
This is me at vaguely around my mid-twenties. I’m trans & I’m here & while I don’t have everything figured out, I certainly have figured myself out way more than when I was younger. 💜 Yes it gets better. Yes you can grow older & be trans. There are people out there willing to love & accept you for you. There are partners, friends, family to be found. Don’t give up! 💪 Be proud, be loud, & let your rage out! Down with cis! Let’s rock this joint & keep on living!! 🖤 Things will be less noisy eventually, just please live! ⭐️
💖 You are worth it & it gets better! 💜
#I don’t know who needs to hear this today but you are loved#you are worth living#living is worth it#I’ll be damned if I’m gonna let some government goons be the cause of my undoing!#live in spite of it all#this TDOV my heart goes out to all the tired; exhausted; drained folks out there. I love you#this trans day of visibility you tip those transgender SWs that you adore#send aid to your trans siblings in need of it#give that transfem or transmasc in your life a hug if they’re okay with that#check in on your trans loved ones 💜 a little care goes a long way#trans positivity for you first because we all need it right now 💖#to all my AFAB AMAB folks & everyone else too I love you; please don’t stop living!#I’m a nonbinary agender femme & I love you all so much#tdov 2024#tdov#mine#op#enby#genderqueer#my face
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I have wanted to wear crop tops during the summer for years and years and for so many reasons never felt like I could/should but y'know? Dammit this summer I am going to enjoy the sun and wear a fuckin crop top
Every single butch out there doing the lord's work inspiring my confidence and many of them with my body shape and I can dedicate myself to strength training because it's /fun/ and I want to see what I'm capable of and I like the feeling of power and who give a shit if I am still square and broad and sasquatchy and working out literally only ever bulks me up and never slims me in the slightest
#this is not like a logical conclusion perhaps#but i have been thinking sm about bodies!!!#and how i want to like mine#and if i cant like it for the way it looks i want to like it for what it can do#and im so into butches with my body type so why cant i be into me!!! fr!!! like!!!#anyway gonna really work the upper body to offset the hips and so i can CARRY LARGE ITEMS#plus core work is already what im doing for my hip misalignment#and im okay to add weighs as long as it doesnt hurt my joint#so!!! strong girl!!! farm??? coming to you summer 2024#I LOVE THE SUN I DONT NEED TO HIDE MY BODY FROM IT#gym bros want what i have. rarely eats meat. builds muscle fairly easily#Idk man. like its not TONED muscle. but its EFFECTIVE#god i miss being strong#i am going to start tracking what i can lift#do an 8 week bodyweight to get back in general shape#and then proper lifting my beloved#the duality of fran#anyway u heard it here folks changing your everyday bra to sports and tank bras so u dont hate urself#literally mindset changing#also genuinely enjoy the stiff feeling the day after a workout. feels good. feels organic
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Wooooops I let my brain atrophy again
#I started the day without a plan and the folks have been out all day#so instead of doing anything productive/creative I just rotted#I did some stretching at least#but it really doesn't feel good atm#genuinely my muscles haven't bounced back from that weird virus I had in Feb#and I probs need to work em out a bit more to start building the strength/flexibility again but it's hard and unpleasant and i don't like it#baby steps i guess#anyway horror of horrors folks are staying out even longer#so i have to feed myself without supervision#and who knows how long I'm gonna put that off#I don't feel very hungry rn but I should orepare food before I start feeling the hunger#but if I can't feel the hunger I cba with food#fuck my stupid baka life#think today's a bit of a write off#mr. bees speaks
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Need to feel something, be back in a couple of hours.
#personal#mass effect#had m.e. om the brain for the past few days dunno why#sigh#ok long story short#my fiancé's been at his parents in another town for like a week and a half now and he kinda got stranded there for the time being#he was gonna be back today but the only bus between went kaput#he could usually get a ride from one of his brothers or his grandpa but - and this feels like the universe conspiring against us -#his brothers left on a trip to another state yesterday and his grandpa had his license revoked and doesn't wanna risk it#I'm fiiiiine I just miss him#but also not gonna butt in on his time with his folks
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Being a writer is weird.
#it's tough fighting that human visual bias on a platform like this#my queue ran out and i haven't posted any vp because i was trying to crank out that last chapter for my long fic#and like i get it maybe most people aren't interested in reading it#different strokes for different folks#but like the discrepancy between how people interact with photo vs writing posts is wildly disheartening sometimes#and i've been see-sawing back and forth all day about this#riding high and wallowing in the mud#this is literally the creative project that i've been pouring myself into for the past month and a half every spare moment i have#and i've been doing this for the past year and a half#it's weird pouring so much love into something when the vast majority of people won't even give it two seconds#i love writing but it is also a mentally exhausting craft and people don't seem to acknowledge that for some reason#it's why i try to reblog stuff from my writing mutuals when i see it because it's usually the artwork that gets the least amount of love#anyway just felt like getting that off my chest#i'm sure my fellow writers can commiserate too#i'm not mad or anything i just had thoughts and perhaps voicing them is better then stewing on them i suppose#also i feel bad for not reading more stuff from other people but i've got like zero beans to give atm#no need to worry or anything i'm still gonna keep writing and posting my shit#more vp comin in over the weekend#also god the new tumblr ui for desktop is fucking ugly absolutely atrocious#man i really don't want to have to set up shop on another social media outlet it's tiresome#i don't want to keep up i just want to blog in peace
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awww basketball again
#malkin#tanger where is your penguin hat#oh wait dallas is a few days ago this must be old#i do appreciate how even though geno wears expensive sweaters and shit#his favorite hat is still just a 50$ trucker cap from a historically high quality but relatively affordable hat shop#its just cute: rich famous hockey celebrity but still just geno#When i bought my first go*orin hat i must have gone into the shop at least twice if not three times trying to decide which one i wanted#I had just gotten my first job in LA and Old Town pas is one of those Fancy shopping districts so i felt very awkward and out of place#and jenn had to go with me to drag me into the shop i was so nervous#And she tried on a bunch of the hats with me cause shes nice like that#Anyway yeah the folks in go*orin were real nice to us which if you have ever been into botique shops in LA you will know thats unusual#Most of the time they are rude assholes especially if you dont look like you are going to spend any money#I did buy a hat it was a little directors cap like the one walt wore in the 20s before he went into his porkpie phase#I do not like porkpie hats i will never wear one of those LOL#But i was determined to have a directors cap because if i was here in LA living the dream i was gonna look the part#I was still optimistic about things back then#Weirdly enough when i got my second job a month later the hat became a thing because it turned out everyone at the studio wore hats lol#I fit right in#And then the pandemic happened and suddenly nobody was going into the office at all for a very long time :(
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the bulb in my living room blew up over the weekend but I can't find the specific replacement for it yet so now after a hectic day at work I just sit here in my dark living room accompanied by the street lamp. An incredibly calm moment. I feel recharged. All the chaos has left my brain. I can hear the clock hand ticking in the kitchen reminding me to go to bed
#but i don't want it to be tomorrow just yet#it's gonna be another crazy day bc ali is off for holiday and im getting my slots filled up to the brim bc of his absence :(#i mean good for him but gosh it's mad out here#all the partners in the practice aren't working full time so they're fine with full load when they're working#anyway. finding little things to romanticize in my life so i dont go down the slump#the cold long nights is getting to me folks ngl#chrmz.txt
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My babyyyyy…. I’m just laying here thinking about my babyyyyy 🥰❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
#I love Charlie so much like every day I just wake up and love him more and more#and even when things are hard he’s just here for me like. that hasn’t really happened before#usually if I’m with a new f/o when hard things happen I run away and go back to an old one#but I haven’t even considered that. some hard things have happened since we got together and I haven’t thought of it once#it just feels like he’s here for me. like I’m gonna get through it as long as I have him#I just… God I love Charlie so much#I really do think we were meant to be you know… ❤️#ren speaks#renlie#im gushing out here folks
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Me: I've been having a lot anxiety lately and the first medication you prescribed didn't help
Doctor: Okay, we'll stop that one and try something new.
Me: What do I do while I'm waiting for the last medication to get out of my system?
Doctor: Here's a prescription for an emergency use medication that should very likely help.
Me: Great!
Also me: [is too anxious to take the new medication]
#Med Talk#Ask to tag#Eli Speaks#it's fine im fineeee#i feel anxious now but im prob gonna wait til later to take it#cause i looked it up and a lot of folks said the med made them very tired/helped them sleep#so jic it does make me sleep wanna wait til a little later in the day to take it#hhhhh#it's fine#im gonna be trying a new long(er) term med in a couple weeks hopefully#hoping i wont need it for a long time#i just need it for long enough to fix up my life a bit#and cant really do that while ive been paralyzed by anxiety#trying to stay optimistic here
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Shout-out to the galaxy-brained Lupin III artists who draw Zenigata as a man in his 40s with a receding hairline and a hairy dad bod 10/10 THIS is the Zenigata that Lupin wants to fuck!!
Let middle-aged characters look middle-aged and sexy 2023!!!
#original#lupin iii#zooploop#zeniloop#zenigata x lupin#Do YOU wanna reach the age of 45 and realize you're only attracted to people under 30?? idk if folks realize how many of our beauty#standards are based on things associated with being under 30-something#tight skin. full thick head of hair. muscles. stamina. unblemished complexion. - these things are great but#Y'all have to know that part of the human life cycle is... losing all of that!#what are you gonna do? die about it??#or are you gonna fuck severely into the grave like me and Lupin???#(or are you uninterested in sex or sex as i describe it and also totally valid?? aroace people are valid.)#lots of people get fat as they get older and everyone will eventually become disabled if they live long enough#if these things make a person unfuckable in your eyes then where will that leave you in a few years time??#folks who draw zenigata ripped are valid but i am unironically into a soft belly#if he looks like a harried average dad with cute eyes who hasn't slept in two days well then he looks like zenigata to me!#and i specifically am looking for content of zenigata so i want it to look like him!#(tho again there isn't a canonically wrong way to draw him unless you made him like. white.)#anyway what i am saying is 'dulce et decorum est pro old men masturbatori'#(it is sweet and proper to jerk off to old men)#jack! i hear you say. that's a weird context in which to reference a poem about the horrors of world war one!#and to that i say#yeh#stupid hollywood with their stupid tiny narrow idea of what is desirable
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sky 🤔
#thinking about changing my name again#I've been going by Xy instead of xylo/xylophone with some people#and honestly idk if xylophone is right for me anymore#like#i love it#it's so fun#it's still a word I love#but idk if I like being called xylo and that's the nickname folks default to usually#cuz saying Xy is hard to understand in a sentence and saying xylophone is long and I think feels silly to some people#which is a bummer#but I feel like it's important for names to feel comfortable in day to day use#like shoes and glasses#they've gotta go with most/all of your outfits#sky is easier to understand and is like xylophone 2.0#because it's easier to understand in sentences#and is still a lil weird#sky was also gonna be my name if I was a boy#but at the same time is delightfully nonbinary#idk idk idk#maybe this is just a 3am thought tho#we'll see
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