#it’s me being apathetic
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I’m gonna be so fucking real with y’all rn.
So I’ve more or less been casually keeping up with Hazbin Hotel since the pilot days. I did some fanart at some point and did a cosplay once, but I currently do not consider myself part of the fandom (certainly not the hatedom bc y’all are kinda ridiculous). But anyway I’ve seen a lot of the criticisms for the show and have seen the episodes (I’ve also seen all the Helluva Boss episodes and this all applies to that show as well). And while I have a handful of criticisms of my own, none of them involve the amount of cursing in it???
Because like…
I do NOT understand why everyone gets so pissy about the cursing. Like maybe it’s because I’m a homestuck fan and that comic curses more than both Hazbin and Helluva probably ever will combined and I see nothing wrong with it? Like cursing isn’t the punchline like some of y’all seem to think it is. That’s just how some people talk and for the LIFE of me I do not see why people are clutching their pearls about it. Like is there some social standard about swearing that I missed? I know some people prefer to not curse and that’s fine and up to personal preference. But like… Growing up on the internet in the 2010’s alone got me so desensitized to profanity that I literally could not care less when someone drops the fuck word.
I curse like a sailor, most of my friends curse like sailors, and even my super religious mom curses like a sailor sometimes. So every time I hear someone complain about it I’m just like… okay??? Get over it??? I understand that there’s a time and a place for the use of certain kinds of language, but you’d think that an adult show targeted for adults about a place where everyone’s an asshole is an appropriate instance for swearing to be allowed.
Sorry if that comes off as harsh or insensitive for some reason. It just really baffles me and I am so genuinely confused about it all. This isn’t even an "oH tHeY’Re iN heLL" thing either. I just don’t understand and low key feel like I’m either going crazy or just really missing something here.
#hazbin hotel#helluva boss#homestuck#probably putting myself in the line of fire for this post ngl#and I don’t know how else to phrase this but like#grow up#genuinely#it’s not that deep#as for the show I think it’s okay#but my standards for media are apparently not that high#since I don’t seem to understand what all the fuss is about#and yes I know Vivziepop is controversial and I know all the problematic lore#and frankly I’ve heard worse#this isn’t me being an apologist or anything#it’s me being apathetic
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Mizu’s relationship with their gender is very very complicated and we MUST acknowledge that.
No one should have to justify why they think Mizu is one thing or the other, because Mizu’s past, their environment (how it treats women) and their negative associations with being a woman, can easily make a case for Mizu wanting to be a woman, or for Mizu preferring to be a guy. If I see ANY of you get mad at people for thinking Mizu is either a strictly a man or strictly a woman, or something out of the binary, I am going to GET you.
Any HC to do with Mizu’s gender has narrative merit and importance to Mizu’s character, and one does not make Mizu less complex than the other. One does not make less sense than the other. One does not MEAN less than the other. And even if it’s not about the narrative significance of them being trans or cis, and it’s more about how you think the character is coded, or even just their vibes, that’s fine too. A HC doesn’t need a justification.
#blue eye samurai#mizu blue eye samurai#mizus gender is an enigma and a mystery. mizu is gender apathetic. to ME. mizu couldn’t care less.#that said. trauma related to gender doesn’t automatically cause someone to be trans. likewise however trauma related to gender doesn’t mean#they’ll wanna be their birth gender once they past their trauma. as Mizu is now#we can’t be sure and that’s fine.#the trauma of being a woman can also be very very separate from Mizu wanting to be trans too btw. like there’s a thousand different ways#you can spin this and they would all be satisfying to Mizu as a character.
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me and the bad bitch i pulled by being chained up and vulnerable in the bathroom
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biscuitbites is one of two ships to actually make me feel more than “aw they’re cute :)”
they’ve been doomed from the start. from the moment they met they were damned by the very narrative that brought them together. damned by the narrative that will try to rip them apart. how two polar opposites come together and face the very horrors that have sunken their teeth into their pasts.
and it makes me feel something.
it feels like a wound, one that you think will get better but it just keeps hurting. it’s beautiful. it’s beautiful in a painful, agonizing way.
you want them to be happy.
but you don’t know if they’ll get that.
#lennyrambles#murder drones#nuzi#biscuitbites#sorry I’m at work and I saw an au that made me have a visible pained reaction#like wow you made something so beautiful that it caused me pain#anyways yeah sorry for going nuts I’ll go back to being silly#I’ll admit I’m kind of an apathetic person#the other ship was botw/totk zelink btw#ship analysis#kinda?#idk I’m gonna shut up now
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Some of you have never been the friend that No-one listens to and it shows
#hey. makes sure your friends get to finsih their thoughts#make sure theyre heard#it is so obvious when im in a group and someone wants to speak but doesnt get the chance#to see my own friends be the ones speaking over others is heartbreaking#there is a special awareness that comes with being unwanted in a group#its painful to know that if i wasnt so outspoken i too would not be heard#if i didnt look the way i did if i was a little less nice and concilient noone would want me around either#anyways#make sure noone is walking behind on the narrow sidewalk#makes sure everyone gets to express their thoughts and opinion#like idk. people see me as cool most times but thats just not the truth#how many times have i been the cool person until that coolness turns out to be something else entirely?#im not cool i am apathetic#sorry for this word vomit im feeling things rn
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Back on my BUT WHAT IF PREDATHOS IS A GOOD OR NEUTRAL ENTITY HUH????
WHAT THEN???????????
WHAT IF LUDINUS IS ONLY TRYING TO RELEASE PREDATHOS SO HE CAN USE HIS MORE ADVANCED HARNESS THAT HES HAD HUNDREDS OF YEARS TO DEVELOP TO EAT THE GOD EATER AND THEN HE’LL BE ABLE TO EAT THE GODS????????????????????????
WHAT IF THE BELL’S HELLS DISCOVER THAT PREDATHOS EATS GODS “NOT BECAUSE OF MALICE, NOT BECAUSE OF MURDEROUS INTENT, BUT BECAUSE SOME THINGS HAVE TO EAT AND SOME THINGS HAVE TO BE EATEN” (QUOTE FROM MATT MERCER IN EPISODE 71 WHEN THEY WERE IN THE SHATTERED TEETH THAT I HAVE NOT BEEN ABLE TO STOP THINKING ABOUT)??????????????????????
ALL CAMPAIGN WE’VE SEEN THE GOOD SIDE OF “BAD GUYS” LIKE WITH NANA MORRI OR THE NIGHTMARE KING OR BOR’DOR OR EVEN THE PCS THEMSELVES LIKE THEY’RE ALL TEXTBOOK VILLAIN NPCS (except orym thats my father right there)
WHAT IF THAT WAS ALL TO LEAD US TO PREDATHOS ACTUALLY BEING A FINE DUDE??????
Okay but all caps is hurting my eyes so lets discuss:
- we haven’t seen predathos and presumably they’re either asleep or in some sort of dormant state and have been since nearly the beginning of recorded history so there is no record of their form, true power, personality, etc. all we know is they (presumably, but lets be real yes they did) ate two gods
- Predathos was said to create “twisted life” but so far what we’ve seen from the life on Ruidius is just… *different* life. Red and spindly and alien, but not necessarily bad. Yes we’ve seen some reilorans siding with ludinus in the fight near the lava a few episodes back, but we also know that reliorans called by imogen have to do what she says so how do we actually know these ones were working on their own volition/weren’t misguided like bor’dor was?
- Quite a few times in this campaign we’ve been shown the theme that bad things are often not evil or malicious, (and evil things can be useful shoutout to Teven Klask). As mentioned earlier and by many people throughout this campaign: these PCs are easily the villain NPCs in any other dnd campaign
- When they went to the shattered teeth Matt said “You are uncertain who is who, but you get the sense that many innocent creatures have met their end in this land violently, not because of malice, not because of murderous intent, but because some things have to eat and some things have to be eaten.” And ever since I heard him say that I keep wondering if THAT is gonna be who predathos is! Because gods may meet their end to predathos violently, not because of malice, but because *some things have to eat and some things need to be eaten*
- And NOW with the introduction of ludi’s old harness and seeing just how powerful and dangerous it is I absolutely think that Ludinus has been working on a new one since he left molaesmyr and my *theory* is that he’s only trying to release predathos so he can suck in his power (maybe he’ll be the one controlling imogen’s powers then and YIKE) and have the ability to devour the gods/become one himself.
- Imagine how JUICY and INTERESTING it’d be if the hell’s realize that predathos is actually not a bad being, but a being who has been treated badly and then BAMB LUDINUS COMES IN WITH AN UPDATED HARNESS AND SUCKS HIS POWERS INTO HIMSELF?? HOW BATSHIT WOULD THAT BE?????? LIKE??????? COME ON
(This is all speculation I hate when I speculate on this hellsite and someone claims I’m trying to pretend I have a crystal ball that can see into the future with 100% certainty: I’m trying to have fun calm down)
#critical role#cr3#bells hells#bell’s hells#critical role meta#cr meta#predathos#back on my what if predathos is good actually bull shit#I think predathos being good or neutral or apathetic is the most interesting *for me personally*
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the post grad why did i get an art degree what am i even doing what do i want in life where am i going crisis has finally hit i want to. lie down in the dirt. or something
#WHAT AM I DOING!!!!#i get up i go to my stupid retail job i stick labels on bags they pay me fucking thirteen bucks an hour i come home i lie on the couch#too tired to draw in too much pain to go anywhere no energy to reach out to college friends to do anything fun#no idea where the even start with getting an industry job no clue what i even WANT at this point#trying to remember what i loved so much about comics i want it BACK i HATE this#WHAT IS THE POINT!!!! WHAT DO I WANT WHERE AM I GOING!!! WHAT COMES NEXT!!!!!!#there's no clear career trajectory i can't do freelance i need structure i can't work too much i need free time#my brain doesn't work every job requires me to move across the country the irs just took fucking three hundred stupid dollars from me#my friends live in different states i can't get a job without experience i can't get experience without a job#i can't work on my portfolio with no energy and no time and i dont have any money and everything is so expensive all the time#i can't get anywhere bc i dont drive and im too stressed to think about taking driving lessons again#and WHAT DO I WANT!#THE MOST INTERESTING THING I DO EVERY WEEK IS GO TO PHYSICAL THERAPY!#I AM EXCITED EVERY WEEK FOR PHYSICAL THERAPY!!!! WHY!!!!!!!!#anyway WHATEVER i need to go to bed#delete later#i got into spx. today. so. had to have a crisis about how i felt when i attended spx (energized. excited. a part of something. ambitious)#versus how i feel now (tired. unmotivated. kind of apathetic about art. disconnected)#i dont miss the stress of school but i miss being around other artists. ppl who speak your language and who want the same things you want#ppl who are excited abut art and that makes YOU excited about art. ppl who get you#i miss that i want that back#whatever. its 1am i gotta go shower i have an 8.5 hour shift tomorrow. wahoo. $13.50/hr lets go
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#.................... i've got no defence for this one#started reading the novelisation of revenge of the sith and my love for anakin has come back full force#THE original problematic fave okay#0 note post incoming but i dont care this is for me and me only#im thinking about the fact he told himself he did everything he did for the sake of love#for the sake of a world where injustice would no longer be able to run rampant under the apathetic bureaucracy of the republic#only for him to get to the end of it all and realise he'd been manipulated right from the start#and in his arrogance and blindness. he'd allowed himself to lose everything he told himself he was fighting for#but he can't admit that to himself. can't admit he'd forsaken himself in such a way#he can't go back to being anakin because that means admitting what he'd done and facing his own internal consequences#so he fully submerses himself into the identity of vader instead. allows the anger and hate to fester#star wars#anakin skywalker#darth vader#quotes#literature#web weave#hayden christensen
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I started crocheting my first blanket today and my hand hurts so unbelievably bad and I’m not even a quarter done with it 🫡🫡
#it’s about five feet across#so I’m thinking five feet down but like. MY LORD!!!!!!#it took me like four hours just to get about 8 inches done#NOT EVEN A FULL FOOT YET?????#and I tried putting my brace on but it made it hurt worse sidhdkfjf#also sorry I’ve been so disconnected on here lately#I feel like I don’t belong here anymore which is no one’s fault#but it makes me very sad bc I miss being active on here and actually enjoying everything#I just feel very apathetic which could just be my Prozac LOL#sorry I’m rambling but I will post a pic of my blanket when I finish!!#which will probably take weeks lmao#—in store chit chat! 🍫
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ive been trying to have coherent thoughts but i haven't even had a chance to process the dnpcrafts video because my brain has just been consumed by shourtney ive been giggling and kicking my feet for the past 24hrs im officially losing it
#i haven't really been a 'shipper' of anything in a long time#im a very apathetic 'anyone can be cute together' person#so shourtney has just been 'aww sweet dynamic' thats it for me#ive also only been watching smosh for like a year#but nope it is all i have been able to think about since yesterday#i just love seeing people happy!!#i don't care whos with who as long as they're being happy and adorable!!#i also haven't experienced a big fanbase freak out in a while#those are always fun#ive witnessed a few but never really participated in the chaos#im having a great time#smosh#shourtney
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#gotta be honest with you all#getting through it has been impossible lately#i’ve been getting endless anons about my gameplay portions of kmik and accusations of favoritism and bias#and i just cannot do this#i was so excited for the spa arc and its completely gone#i was not prepared to take on the guilt of the actions of little pixel people#i just… i’m already struggling through every day#can you maybe not come into my ask box and accuse me of making shit up thank you :)))#i feel so apathetic toward everything#my excitement is practically gone#i don’t even think people are enjoying it anymore its just#an utter failure of what i meant for it to be#idk i go into my drafts to post and i’m not even excited anymore i just think ‘oh fuck will this be enough to satisfy#people’s wants for information?’#and with more and more bachelor challenges being like i will not be using poses i’m like#have i made a fcking mistake lmaoooo#txt#sorry i’m not stopping kmik i just#am struggling 😌 harddd#negative //
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I just know they cannot stand each other
#pretzel talks#stressed eric#them both being on the phone wasnt intentional but . i like it keep it that way#they're both insufferably apathetic see that flaw in the other not themselves yk.. relaxed to the point of disconnect#doc doubly so bc of the anti medical sentiment and the whole. my mate's ex missus is no friend of mine (wouldn't shag me)#glowering at each other over Eric's head#sorry for stressed eric rambling in the tags (isnt)
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can you elaborate on gender with the twelfth doctor... im spinning she/her pronouns for twelve around in my head so much it gives me life. even if you dont feel like/dont have any further elaboration i want to thank you for introducing me to that concept
because she's a girl...? i don't understand the question she's just a girl
#i am being facetious; thank you very much for the kind ask!#real answer is that pronouns can be kind of an aesthetic choice#like a new outfit or haircut#and it's a choice i could see the doctor making#i think the doctor is always sort of apathetic about gender regardless of the body they're in#and will go by whatever pronouns people perceive them by because it saves time#and why waste time explaining their gender when they could be talking about the planets .#so calling themself a 'man' or a 'woman' is for the sake of not confusing their human companions who care more about that sort of thing#than they do rather than actually seeing themself that way#and i can also see them feeling a sort of joy if friends were to refer to them with pronouns that don't match their perceived gender#because it shows a deeper understanding of who they are#again i think this regardless of body; i think ten would happily respond to she/her pronouns or thirteen with he/him etc etc#but twelve sticks out to me so much a.) because she's my favorite#and b.) because i think she cares the least about what other people think of her#doctor who#delia.txt
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Draw your favorite from the musical!
I'd be lying if I said I didn't have a favorite (sort of a redraw of an older thing)
#my scribbles#natewantstobattle#fnaftm#fnaf the musical#nate schmidt#the idea of him being so apathetic about the whole ‘almost dying thing’ is very funny to me#he broke into the house of a man wanted for attempted murder there is something very wrong with him <3
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on a more srs note asagiri making fyodors pitfall not understanding emotional motivation properly is very dear to me in this era of loser men idolising being a super genius who equates optimal logic to the total disregard of emotion
like at evry point dazai one upped him its just cos he can work with people and understands emotional connection better (knowing tachihara had more loyalty to the pm than to the hunting dogs [or at least to their ideals] for example and being able to put every inch of his trust in chuuya saving his ass for the 58284892nd time while fyodor is busy assuming they have a shallow bond😭).
#LONG LIVE THE POWER OF FRIENDSHIP#and homosexuality#although not for fyolai. rip to them ig#anyway smt smt men running around pretending emotion is illogical and thus ironically making illogical arguments and fyodors mistakes all#being examples of that is just so RAAAAH#also dazai 'im so emotionless and apathetic' osamu actually being the most emotionally motivated loser and thus understanding it better#anyway idk if any of this makes sense but ive been thinking abr it for a while#how dazais only way of beating him is that he cares abt people and fyodor just doesnt#also that he can always trust his op bf to come save him while fyodors op bf is busy deciding whether or not he actually wants him dead#😭😭😭😭#putting half of my post in the tags for the 4829999294925th time dont mind me#soukoku#bsd episode 61#anyway asagiri seems v much to be a character first plot second kinda guy. and i love that sm.#like sometimes the plot is just like ??? but the CHARACTERS. the characters always make sense#i love then all dearly even when theyre unkillable cockroaches#bsd
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probably aromantic but I'm gonna get a wife either way so it doesn't really matter
#no point in labeling something that wont directly effect me#being label apathetic is awsome#lgbt#aromantic#lgbtq community#lgbtqia#lesbians#lesbian
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