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mangosmoothiepussyv3 · 2 months

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sometimes you gotta ask your bf to help shut your brain off

#personal #im so stressed LOL #in my last week of this term (at school)#and i have two tests and a paper due #but after that i get a week off until the next term starts #im nervous abt that one tho bcus im taking two classes and i dunno if thatll go well for me #im hoping it does!!

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telebeast · 1 year

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Hello, @nerdstreak! I was your secret santa this year for @portal-secret-santa!! You gave the suggestion of Wheatley giving a gift, so I thought, what’s a better gift for someone who’s never been out of the lab than a white Christmas! So, a little hijacking the air tubes system and here we are. It’s a good thing they’re all robots though, because that fake snow is old enough its likely made from asbestos. Who am I kidding, it’s definitely asbestos.

#portal secret santa #nerdstreak #wheatley #portal #portal 2 #portal turret #Sorry this is so last minute. I've had a very busy school term and I spent the week surrounding christmas at my grandmas #without my drawing tablet. so I had to wait to come home to finish it. ANYWAY #I got a little experimental here. Def inspired by the comic. Hope you enjoy it!!

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corvid-language-library · 4 months

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Just realised I can't use tomorrow to relax because I have to prepare a stupid demo for the staff meeting on Monday 🙃

#ruffled feathers #we have to come up with a game that's 'safe focused and frequent' and doesn't leave anyone waiting for a turn #the TL for my demo is an entire fucking script i kid you not #i'm like. how tf do i make a game of this #it's one thing when you just have to do on Q and one A #but i have an actual dialogue and the age range is 10-12s #so i guess the best thing to do is just some super unoriginal janken ladder game?#everyone knows it so it's not like i'm bringing anything new or interesting to the table #but i have one day off and i've had a 6-day work week at a new school with POs and i have another 6-day week coming up #and i'm still processing a complicated and painful break up with a long-term partner #i barely had time to recover from jetlag before not just launching back into work #but travelling to a new school with Ss i've never met that's so far from yamagata city i had to stay at a hotel #so fuck it. i'm gonna be boring and unoriginal #i'll talk to my boss beforehand bc he's very understanding and i hate disappointing him #just explain that it's not gonna be my best and i know it's not my best for xyz reasons but i promise i'll try harder next time #he'll probably still be disappointed but i'm sure we'll both learn to live with it #besides. no offence to this one colleague of mine but i know he'll quarter-ass some garbage last minute #so whatever happens my boss will probably be less disappointed in what i have to show than what this guy does lmao #i'm such a bitch sometimes but it's true #watch him now put in an effort and come up with something spectacular for a change

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siena-sevenwits · 11 months

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#I've spent the past week organizing in the play's wake - sorting and laundering huge numbers of costumes #some to return to those they belong to and some to come home to my costume storage room which had become chaotic over the last few #months #so a complete spring cleaning for the storage room became part of my task list too. Now the play's been over for a week #and the emails are starting to come in from admin about next year. As some of you know I did a lot of discernment this semester #about what next year should look like and I have decided a mix of continuity is best. I won't be working for my 'main' schoolboard anymore #but I will continue to teach and direct for the one program in the city (the one I did the play for) and possibly with a new home school #enrichment program that may go ahead this year if there are sufficient numbers. Otherwise I am going to spend a semester #tutoring and running workshops f I can get it off the ground. Then we'll see.#Anyway - admin wants me to get new syllabi in to them within a month's time so my thoughts are all in that direction!#I get to teach 19th/20th century Canadian history to the middle schoolers and Late Antique/Medieval Church History to the high schoolers!#Also direct another play and do a humanities course centred around an epic in the spring (the last couple of years we've done Iliad and #Odyssey - they want Aeneid this year but I am trying to talk them into another option. The Aeneid is valuable but I am not sure it's the #time or place with this group of students. The result of all this is that I am spending far too much time doing Internet research for ideas #and then taking breaks on tumblr - which isn't good for my eyes or mental health. What with the play and end of term #I fear I've been out of the reading habit. I'm still hyperfixating on the Book of Romans so there's that at least #but I lost the novel I was in the middle of and am not feeling so motivating with out books. It's a proper reading slump! I need a kickstar #of sorts. Feel free to yell at me that I should pick up a book!

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warm-tap-water · 8 months

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this summer i realised i lose my grip on my whole ass gender if someone she/hers me for too long

#ive identified as enby for just over a year now #i remember i came out to my friends at the end of year 9 #anyways last summer i guess i was still coming to terms with it so i guess i wouldnt have felt like this then #but after a whole school year of being they/themd and being called my preferred name #it so shit to have to spend 6 weeks as a she/her😭#enby #non binary #nonbinary #queer #im frothing at the mouth to go back and be a they/them again #BUT THIS IS MY LAST YEAR AT HS AND WHAT IF I CANT BE A THEY/THEM IN SIXTH FORM OR COLLEGE BC THERES NO TRUSTWORTHY PEOPLE AROUND #i guess ill just need to really gay myself out next summer #send a message

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floral-hex · 2 months

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woke up at 4am feeling the weight of my life crushing me, so I’ve been sitting out in my car for the last couple of hours because I just need. to. be. somewhere else.

#tumblr ate something like this but I think I deserve to shout uselessly into the void #shits rough dawg #I know it’s rough for everyone. I feel shitty even talking about myself. still… compelled to vent… big butts #haven’t really been on here much since it hasn’t really scratched that itch lately & just makes me feel lonelier #it’s cold #saw the Jazzercise studio open across the street. 5am for Jazzercise? wow. early.#and then everyone left an hour and a half later. lights out. everybody gone. weird schedule. I am perplexed.#went down the road and got a soda and I’ve been sitting in my driveway contemplating for the last 2.5 hours #guy at the gas station tried to talk to me but I just half assed a smile and nod and left #even though I know I’d love to just… talk to someone. I suppose it has to be ‘on my terms’ whatever those are #I miss having a therapist. or even just when my little brothers would talk to me. when anyone would. blegh #my insurance is still a mess and I’m about to run out of one of my blood pressure meds this week #maybe I’ll have a stroke. scary to think about. I think about dying a lot but that potential feels too real. just… pop! and I’m done.#I’ll try today to finally push to straighten it out but everything feels daunting #woke up with so much anxiety. about my health. my hearing. no money. my life. had to get out of the house even if it’s just right outside #hate to say it but I need(want) thc. haven’t wanted to spend money on it but I could have really used it this morning #can’t be sad if you can’t feel anything (jokingly but also not. whichever is less sad sounding)#actually treated myself to Dune 2 last week and it was so so good. wish I could go again. but it’s drugs food or movie right now. so…#I know. dumb priority but BIG SCREEN. maybe it’ll hit theaters again for the next awards season hopefully. just a real nice loud experience #anyway… I should go inside. almost 7am. need to take my brothers to school then drive my mom to her daily appointments #I’ve felt so hollow and angry and sad for so long it feels like. I feels so weak and sad and I’m tired of it. I’m so tired.#I’ve been eating about 1 meal a day and sleeping a lot. this is the worst my body has ever been. I feel like I’m just waiting to die.#is this relatable?#just have to look past it. it is nothing. this body is nothing. just enjoy your soda.#gonna look at pictures of butts now #ok gotta go I love you goodbye forever #you can ignore this #text

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kethabali · 4 months

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yall.. ive been gathering up energy since the semester ended and i finally cleaned out my fridge today.. there was over 20 dishes to wash and a 30 gallon trash bag filled completely i also broomed and mopped my room and the kitchen and wiped down the counters

#it was insane bro #i cant believe i was living like that #like wow i knew livoing alone was gonna cause some chaos but this might be the worst it ever got so far #fortunately i am moving soon #so i think that will help a lot of things #for one i think theres a dishwasher (hopefully it works)and laundry in the building #two its 20 minutes from my school #three the layout is much smaller so it will be less cleaning #the layout is also a favorite of mine from other places ive lived so i think i'll even enjoy cleaning..#bathroom is also my favorite layout so cleaning it and myself should be more approachable as well #overall if theres no hidden horrors in that place i should be much better off #also back in my favorite neighborhood so im happy about that very much #anyways i feel like ive been living in such chaos the last semester and now im resetting and its good but also im worried #bc what if it goes back to that state of chaos i just cant i hate when im in that state i cant think logically #and when i cant think money gets wasted and i feel like shit from not taking proper care #overall bad experience and i just want long term goodness and stability man #ive had enough last semester had to wake up early too much and classes were WAY TOO LONG ive learned 1.5 hr class 2x a week is better for m #actually audhd #actually adhd #actually autistic #🧃#but one step at a time right.. i can do it..#i wonder how much adhd meds would help #if only i could get DIAGNOSED somewhere grrrrrrrr #i bet they would help with the executive dysfunction #which is the main issue #and maybe i need to start paying more attention to my sensory needs so i use up spoons slower #i was doing more of that last spring and it was a good semester despite the stress from that chemistry class #this semester is all my favorite subjects and only 4 classes #earliest class is @ 11 and thats only twice a week

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hopefulqueer · 7 months

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i think people expect the "pain" part of chronic pain to be the biggest problem but for me it is the "chronic" part

i could pretty easily, if begrudgingly, tolerate and push past this pain if i knew it was temporary, if it was only for a few hours or even a few days or a week or two

but it wears you down. you know?

it's not always quite this bad, but it has been for a month with no real hope that it'll get better anytime soon. physical therapy basically gave me a shrug and a "sorry pal, wish we could do more". there's no medicine i have that helps. i can't sleep. i can't do anything but sit in my chair without making it worse. i'm reaching a breaking point.

i have to drag myself to class tomorrow.

#personal #i have to get through this last term #and for what?#every job requires physical skills i can't do without pain #nowhere will hire me anyway because i can't drive #i can't take care of myself #trying to do a load of laundry and folding it was what did me in this time #a month ago it was like 45 minutes of trying to clean my room #what is even the Point #i sent a request for another dr appt but it's not like they can do anything #if they prescribe any pain meds they'll either be ineffective or will affect my brain and make it more difficult for me to do school #i'm so tired. i have auditions in a week. i can't do any of it.

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non-un-topo · 9 months

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At the crossroads between wondering if it's worth it to basically completely rewrite all my WIPs or just take a break from writing for the rest of the summer

#i noticed every summer i get progressively worse lol #like not in terms of writing but in terms of everything else goin on in my head #i mean if anyone is craving some dark and depressing shit i've got bits and pieces here #it's like i'm writing for an audience even in my own mind. can't finish anything because it's __ __ __ etc and my niche is too niche.#did my last fic really burn me out that much?? i mean it was basically 30 thousand words and there was a LOT packed into it #maybe i should finally respond to comments and i'll feel better.#something's been going on with me for the past couple months (maybe longer) and i'm just annoyed ALL the time #feel like i want to give up everything and stop talking to everyone. ((it could be my out of whack hormones mind))#so if i haven't been as active and haven't drawn or written much that's why. i'm pulling away and curling in like an atrophied limb.#my brain is just permanently in school mode. i can feel it gearing up for the oncoming year that's going to be super intense.#like would it even matter if i post any more work before september? idk why i can never seem to chill or take a break for even a minute.#i still have drawing projects i want to finish at least! taking me literally all summer because of surprise health problems.#partner was consoling me about how i feel for writing '''weird''' stuff with almost no focus on romance #saying that SOMEbody has to write what i write so that should keep me going. i just tell myself that it could be worse -#- i could be primarily a femslash writer. they are the real heroes and they get no respect.#idk why i'm getting so angsty #i think i might be romance/sex repulsed atm. not in real life at all but in fandom. i'm bored of it. and i'm bored of conversations about i #i'm sure i'll change my mind in what two weeks or so.#maybe i'll try to write something original #i have things in my ask box i should respond to. like asks about my writing. i just haven't been feeling well #so i haven't had the right brain to respond :( but i see the asks and i'm grateful <3 #anyway peace and love

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jinkis · 10 months

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i hate everything

#about to go on a rant cause i'm ✨ stressed ✨#i'm currently at the very end of my masters degree so i can be a fully qualified secondary teacher #however due to the teacher shortage i have been allowed to start working as a full time teacher and have been doing so for the last year #i love my job i love the kids i love the staff members #what i dont love is having to finish off my masters degree when i've been working in the profession for a year #i have learnt more being in the classroom for a year than my whole 7 years at uni doing my undergrad and masters #i am TIRED of having to waste my time and come up with bullshit assessments just so i can get this stupid degree #schools are on winter holidays at the moment and i am meant to be relaxing or prepping for the term ahead #but no ... i've been stuck in my room for the past week doing uni assessments to prove that i know how to implement teaching strategies #and showcase how to write a lesson plan EVEN THOUGH NO TEACHER EVER WRITES ONE WHILE WORKING???????????#i just feel really bad for the kids cause i spend all my free time doing my uni shit or sleeping cause im so drained #i never have enough time to organise things for my lessons or come up with fun learning activities #usually i just do the bare minimum and pray for a pass #but this assessment just has a satisfactory/unsatisfactory mark so i cant just half ass this shit #also can yall believe that im only half way through this assessment??????????#i still have so much more to do ughhhh #anyway if you read all that im sorry and thank you #marie.txt

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pktearsoftazmily · 10 months

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// Covid has once again hit my family. Aah heck, and I hugged my mother yesterday too, ops...

#ooc tag #delete later #My stomach feels strange but I am fine I promise #Curse it and during the last week of school term too #Oh well it is what it is #Time to do some writing!

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disengaged · 1 year

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the sleep doctor asked about my school/work situation & followed that up with "well, maybe you're just doing too much"

??? WHAT is the alternative. starving to death ?????

#i work about 25h/week and i'm taking 4 courses this term. & Yeah no duh i wish i was doing less but that's not really an option #unless i want to move back in with my parents in which case: i would 100% rather fucking die #pegasus speaks #i was doing 5 courses last semester too like . bud this is an improvement ..#i'm done school in like 2 months luckily but if my health stays the way it is i will straight up not be able to hold down a full time #honestly confused and scared and now i have to wait 6 months for the test i need bc my province's healthcare system is a shithole

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archerons-arrow · 1 year

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Hopping on super quick to say: I see everyone’s replies and I am hoping to comment/reply to each of you today or tomorrow ❤️ I love engaging with our fandom and I’m happy we are recharged and active again.

#my last term of grad school starts tomorrow #which is why i was desperate to finish the book the first week it was out #because time is going to be limited soon #fandom fun times #let’s spiral together my friends #to be continued

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ayakinari · 2 years

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you ever just

#duck rants about something #hoooooo man. why did all my motivation and ability to create go out the window as soon as i finished that valk piece #i cant draw. i dont know what to draw i knew what i had to draw but i cant. put it on canvas #cant go in an art block now of all times theres less than one month and a half until finals and i need some sort of portfolio put together #by then and. i am Still exhausted i thought !! it was getting better but nope i am still incredibly fatigued by Everything #and to make matters worse its thursday tomorrow meaning the classes i dislike the most i just want to lie down for 10 years maybe i dont kn #maybe pursuing art as a career was a bad idea. maybe im not fit for this but im already over a year into this art school and i dont want to #waste the money my family's put into letting me go to this school #and i absolutely love it here the teachers are nice and my classmates are cool and i made friends for the first time in years #but god if i havent been in the worst headspace of my life this past year.#well this year was going a bit too well for me in terms of art i had a steady pace of imrpoving and trying out new things but now its just #i cant do anything. no matter what i doodle or sketch or just let my hand do whatever nothings coming out and it terrifies me #maybe im being dramatic! i know someone would say im being just that #god i dont want to go to class tomorrow either im not in the mood for a religious lecture but ive already skipped the past two weeks #keep it up any more than that and itll probably result in a call to my parents #my parents are probably gonna call me later tonight anyways. should get it together til then #maybe i need a nap. maybe i need to go outside and take a walk and look at a bug. maybe i just need to go out in a field and scream #auhgh but i need to draw i need to make Something i cant halfass something the way i did last semester and barely pass #and now im getting dizzy just typing this out thanks brain #ill probably delete this later i just really need to. hhghghhhgh please let me draw. please let me make something or anything at all #i dont know what id have if it isnt art.#ive always been mediocre at everything in my life the only thing giving me peace of mind is drawing #if thats all im good for then what even use am i without it #and sure! maybe im actually not that good at it! maybe my artstyle is uninspired and boring maybe im just wasting my time!!!#but i still love it immensely i love making my silly characters i love drawing out my dumb stories i love just.#making things and being okay at it. maybe. am i actually good at this probably not. maybe im also mediocre at this and just kidding myself #sorry for being emotional on a wednesday. must be the curse #anyways

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4x01 · 2 years

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girl wait

#i just realized i just had my Last Ever japanese class with our current professor and our current class wtf i love those ppl….#and it was over ZOOM bc he tested positive #and he’s leaving our school after this term #and i didn’t even realize this was the last class until he started going ‘so yeah have a great life everyone :)’ AND I WAS LIKE W.#[CHECKING THE DATE] ITS FINALS WEEK?#AND THEN ANOTHER STUDENT COMES IN WITH [in extremely sincere japanese] sensei thank you for teaching us :) AND IWAS LIKE WAIT!!!!! skLOW DOW #N #WHAT THE FUCK……………..#literally just sitting here frozen #all of it over in one zoom meeting. bro?

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sar3nka · 1 year

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Something I really hated was that an airplane flew by to the city airport, it was a bit loud, and because of that noise I had shitty rock music in my ears for good 3 minutes

#i get a lot of sound hallucinations tbh. last time i heard some song in spanish. it was a bit like macarena in terms of sound #but anyway im shaking currently i sure hope this doesnt last until tomorrow #bc id be scared to fall asleep like this #i will be fine however. i dont understand why i feel so shitty #literally not a full dose... pls. i took more b4 at school and did very well. now? i feel like a dead victorian child on a sidewalk #its probably caused by me losing weight super fast #I mean nearly a week of starving would make anyone weak af #i should have considered that 💀 since to measure a safe dose you usually use your weight #but then. bestie weights like 45 kgs at most and downs two doses with ease. for me that'd be lethal even though I'm heavier...#im just writing whatever here its my little diary :)

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