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falseficus · 8 months
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I read a physical copy of monstrous regiment soon after listening to the audiobook, and I noticed two tiny discrepancies between the two editions that make an absolute world of difference. when I found out that these discrepancies existed (you’ll find reddit posts backing me up about them), I felt cheated that my first experience of the book had portrayed a less cohesive arc than pratchett intended
if you’re looking to buy or read monstrous regiment, I strongly recommend the doubleday 2003 version or the corgi 2004 version, which iirc contain the original text. The harper collins publications and audiobook both contain these changes, which imo are confusing and severely undercut the themes the book is trying to get across. if anyone knows the status of other editions of the book pls feel free to add on
obviously the audiobooks and ebooks are more accessible than physical books to some people, so if you read one of those just know that the original text is different in some key ways. I still recommend you read the book because it’s crazy good :)
the changes I noticed, beneath the cut to avoid some serious spoilers:
firstly, the last line of Jackrum’s last scene. in the Doubleday version, this line reads:
“Jackrum had turned her chair to the fire, and had settled back. Around him, the kitchen worked.”
in the harpercollins version, the line reads:
“Jackrum had turned her chair the the fire, and had settled back. Around her, the kitchen worked.”
this pronoun change is actually has huge implications. in the scene in question, jackrum, a transgender man, reveals that he joined the army in disguise. he is referred to as “she” throughout his background reveal. however, he then considers where his future will take him, and in the final line of the scene his pronoun reverts back to “he.” jackrum’s pronoun goes from he->she->he, encapsulating the gendery arc of the scene. however, in the altered he->she->she version of the scene, half of that circle is erased. the neat tie-up of jackrum’s journey is left confusingly unresolved, and the importance of his gender to the book’s overarching themes goes underemphasized
the second change I noticed is how maladict appears in the book’s ending:
in the Doubleday version, maladict appears “in full uniform.”
in the harpercollins version, maladict appears “in full female uniform.”
maladict is the last soldier to reveal [their] true gender, keeping up a masc/ambiguous presentation far after all the rest of the squad has come forward as women. “in full uniform” maintains this ambiguity, allowing the reader to decide for themself whether maladict comes forward and presents as fully female or continues to dress masculinely despite the fact that circumstances no longer require it (in fact I believe that the latter is more likely, as maladict says “thought I’d try again,” which could mean dressing in male uniform again). “in full female uniform” removes that ambiguity, and brings maladict’s arc to a somewhat unsatisfying conclusion. it eliminates the possibility of maladict as transgender or gender-non-conforming, and I’m left wondering, “if maladict presents as female so readily, why make such a fuss of it before now?”
both changes undermine the book’s message by eliminating its space for non-cisnormative identity… which is kinda crucial to the whole idea. im honestly really disappointed that these changes were made in any version of the book, because whoever made them clearly didn’t get the point
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hwangism143 · 20 days
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𓆩♡𓆪 how skz would propose to you. 𓆩♡𓆪
BANG CHAN
he would invite you over (or sneak, i should say) to the studio for a date cuz you both do this all the time
sometimes, he plays you snippets of songs he's working on, other times, you're just talking the night away while getting some work done
anyways, today he's playing you one of his songs
you're just completely immersed in the music and when it ends the lingering feeling of wanting more is left behind
how could it not? the song was about spending an eternity with you
you're about to turn around and profess your love for chan for the millionth time when you see him
he's on one knee and lets out a choked, "i meant everything in that song. i didn't know what love was before i met you, but you have shown me love and so much more. marry me?"
ofc you say yes (i mean, i would) and just end up falling asleep on his couch
LEE MINHO
you guys go to your favorite cat cafe, and bring the kids (cats?) along with you too
suddenly, soonie comes along with a note stuck to her back - "will you be our parent? i mean, for real?"
you look at minho who's playing with the cats on the other side of the room, confused, but he doesn't see you
(actually, he's blushing like crazy and is too scared to make eye contact lmao)
that is until you walk over to him and give him a nudge
he's beaming at you (this boy istg) and gets down on one knee
"we can't let our kids be a part of a dysfunctional family. they another parent, and they love having you around. actually, no, they love you. and they wanna grow old with you. so. will you, uhm, marry me? their father?"
(pls im giggling at this myself)
SEO CHANGBIN
you guys are out on a date at a fancy restaurant and changbin's acting extra giggly
now mind you, this is seo changbin. extra giggly is far more than what you would imagine
you're finally done eating and slump against your chair when the server brings another plate of food
you look at changbin with a "bro. i'm full." but the bro in question is just looking at you.
you look down at the tray placed in front of you.
"will you marry me?" it says with a ring in the middle?
"be my permanent gym partner?" asks changbin hopefully
and you say yes (bcuz who in their right mind wouldn't ???)
HWANG HYUNJIN
we all know how extra this man is, so when he insists that you two go to the bookshop where you first met, you don't protest
you're scanning the bookshelf, reminiscing about how you both bonded over monet and jane austen at this very shop
then you here a little gasp in front of you
naturally, your first instinct is to turn around and check on hyunjin
and he is down on one knee, a sobbing mess (but still cute, y'know)
"you have, and always will be my muse," he says, "so will you make me the happiest man alive and do me the honor of being your husband?"
he slides the ring onto your finger and pulls you into a hug and you're both crying and laughing and
(i'm sorry this is so cute, goodbye)
HAN JISUNG
you had made up your mind - is jisung wasn't going to propose to you, you would propose to him
(get it, queen or king or gender non-identifying reader!)
and so you're on your rooftop building when he goes "i need to tell you something" and funnily enough, so do you
(i wonder what that's about... hehehe)
after a series of 'you first', 'no you'. jisung admits defeat and slides you over the ring box
wordlessly, you slide over your box
the two of you just start laughing because, idiots in love
and then you squish jisung and start peppering him with kisses
LEE FELIX
it's a beach date!
absolutely perfect, all complete with bokkie's brownies
but felix is acting kinda nervous.
(and by nervous i mean his face is beet red and he's stuttering like crazy)
(what can you say, my boy is in love)
you're eating the last brownie when he says "close you eyes"
you do and you hear some shuffling.
you open your eyes to a sniffling felix propped up on one knee. "can I be your personal brownie chef for the rest of forever?"
who can say no to an offer like that?
KIM SEUNGMIN
you both were coming home from one of your numerous dates
it was the perfect night to be walking outside, but seungmin seemed really shifty
he was NOT enjoying himself
"are you cheating on me?" you ask jokingly
"far from it actually," he retorts, suddenly letting go of your hand.
you turn to find him in the middle of the street with a ring in his hand
"marry me. will you? please? i've had this ring with me for months and i didn't know when to propose but now i know, well like i always knew-"
you promptly shut him up with a kiss and a breathless yes
YANG JEONGIN
nothing was going according to plan for innie. you spent too much time picking an ice cream flavor and he knew that he was spending too much time at this clothing store
but they just got a new collection
and so he waits until you both are done so that he can take you to that really drmamtic fountain in front of the mall and propose to you
but watching you pick out your clothes, he realizes he wants to do this for the rest of forever
so this man promptly plops down on one knee in the middle of a department store and screams, "WILL YOU MARRY ME AND BE MY SHOPPING BUDDY FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE? WE CAN BE EACH OTHERS PROBLEMS"
you just look at him confused holding up a t-shirt, "UH OKAY I'LL MARRY YOU AND WE CAN BE EACH OTHERS PROBLEMS"
you both are so loud that you nearly get kicked
(later he makes you buy him ice cream because he's a baby who's done a good job and deserves a reward)
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thatdeadaquarius · 9 months
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That language SAGAU but the Reader can only communicate writing on paper.
Either the Reader is mute and they (characters) don't know/understand sign language or they somehow lost their voices on their transmigration to Teyvat and can only write now. But the characters are left trying to decipher what the Reader wrote.
Examples:
Kaeya: "I may say, that was very unexpected your grace. One such as yourself should be more aware of who you are."
Reader: "wat, y u sayin dat?"
×
Gorou: "Oh, your grace! Careful now. I am most certain that you stepped on something unsightly right now. Let me clean your feet, your grace."
Reader: "r u srs rn? Fml"
Ooooo, this is nice, this is niiccceeee /ref
this would be the energy⬇️
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Man I love this show, I gotta finish it (it’s Komi Can’t Communicate for those who want to see it) where she basically is too shy/introverted to speak (non-verbal neurospicy it seems like to me actually lol) and really wants to make friends and do normal things despite not speaking, her main way of communicating is writing (and her first guy friend who can just read her facial/body language really well lmao)!!
Sun: Gender Neutral Reader (they/them)
Planet: Headcanons-ish?
Stars: dashes/mention of most characters
Comets & Meteors: Content Warnings: Reader/”you” are mute/lost their voice, & Trigger Warnings: None Known.
This kinda falls into that post I made abt texting lingo, abt us being nigh incomprehensible when using texting lang. (its basically a code lol)
but i think it’s always neat to see nonverbal rep so here we are (also i think imma go ahead and say it is both selectively mute but also enforced by video game laws!)
u know a good explanation would be for this is actually abt how we technically are only allowed to freely communicate when we’re in chats,
so I could see that still being the only way we can commnicate in Teyvat (look am i little excited abt taking “video game world” a little too literally in every genshin AU ever- maybe.)
tbh i could see so many allogenes having to either learn to make room for you in convos and u also having to get wayyy more expressive in body language/facial expressions
tbh i think itd be pretty easy to get ur meaning, like in a battle or smth fast-paced where u couldnt write, like how Tinker Bell can?
if u dont know what i mean just search “tinkerbell scenes peter pan” on youtube and u can see ppl just having a full conversation with no words with her, which i think would deffo happen with ppl like Kaeya, Lisa, Lumine, Venti, Heizou, Ayato, Yae Miko, Thoma, Beidou and Itto surprisingly i could see it (ppl in the distance just think theyre all talking to themselves sometimes when ur not as visible hehe)
OMG they get u nice gifts for writing all the time, like the newest compact pens from Fontaine, the finest small, medium, and large notebooks from Inazuma,
like a little compact pocketbook so u can easily fit it in pockets!
u know Im absolutely sure you could literally start the texting appreviation trend in Tevyat like this-
like just so it’s easier to communicate with you, a lot of people are willing to adapt/take on abbreviations like “ttyl, gtg, wth, lol, lmao” even stuff like “etc”
lol u start a whole trend in the writing letters business, hehe silly medieval Teyvat is silly and medieval
yknow I think the quieter vision users would definitely find you to be peaceful to be around and easy to understand just with writing (also deffo most likely to adore the soft moments together of just ur pen scribbling and the sounds of nature or a cafe or something around them),
tbh i also think these ppl would be motivated to talk to you alone, or get you away to just talk the two of you for all the reasons above, like Xiao, Aether, Kazuha, Ayaka, Chongyun, Zhongli, Diluc, Sayu, Ei, Sucrose, Eula, Ganyu, Ningguang, Tighnari, Alhaitham omg he might literally be able to take his headphones off around u bc youd be in such quiet spaces all the time, and bc u dont talk he doesn’t have to worry abt u getting loud either lmao
…and then ofc, there’s the bitches that try and guess what ur writing ahead of timeeee 😭
bein all like, “Uh… you.. would like.. to go to… a restaurant… to get some- OH OH I got this one this time! Some pita pockets! …Oh. A drink. Right. Sorry, again.”
definitely Itto, Cyno, Heizou, Xingqiu, Fischl, Amber, Collei, Dehya, Wanderer, Childe, Venti, Keqing (she just used to being fast ok), Kaveh lmao
I hope my reply was a little fun!! THANK U FOR SENDING THIS I LOVE THIS SM!! Man it’s so hard to make you feel my appreciation for this idea thru the damn screen
like how do i send a virtual hug
ANYWAY, if you or anybody else had an idea for celebrating 1000 followers lmk bc i am STRUGGLING with this same issue for that,
like how to make u guys feel my love 😩 ❤️‍🔥
Safe travels ignihideous,
💀♒
♡the beloveds♡
@karmawonderss / @0rah-s / @randomnatics / @glxssynarvi / @nexylaza / @genshin-impacts-me / @wholesomey-artist / @thedevioussmirk / @the-dumber-scaramouche / @chocogi
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perotovar · 5 months
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into the beat of the night (ch 3) "self control"
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pairing: frankie morales/enby!oc!river price (they/them) rating: 18+ (minors dni) chapter warnings: fingering, one (1) handjob, discussions of sexuality/gender (in an... interesting way), goth stereotypes abound, swearing, more cute shit word count: 3k dividers by @saradika beta: @scenaaario (ily adrienne ♥)
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series summary: frankie thought he had himself figured out by now. he liked both men and women, had dated both in the past. but when someone that challenges what he thinks that means comes into his life, in an unlikely place, he truly learns who he is, and more importantly, who he loves.
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“What’s their name again?”
“River. I already told you, Benjamin,” Frankie chuckled, taking a drink from his beer.
“Right, sorry. I’ve just never met a non… what was it again?”
Frankie, Benny, Will, and Santiago were at their usual bar that night. It was in a different part of town than The Night Owl, with a completely different vibe, but it was cozy. The four of them had become regulars and knew the staff by name.
“Non-binary person,” Will said, shoving Benny on the shoulder. “Are you listening at all?”
Benny shot his brother a look and stuck his tongue out, because apparently Benny was still five. “Of course I’m listening! Non-bi-nar-y,” he sounded it out, tapping his finger on the table with each syllable. “What does, uh… What does that like, mean, Fish?”
Frankie furrowed his brows and took another drink. “I haven’t actually asked yet. All they told me is that they’re like… both, and neither, at the same time.” He hummed thoughtfully. “I was a little distracted after that and didn’t get to ask.”
Santiago grinned, slapping Frankie on the shoulder. “Good for you, Fish.”
Frankie rolled his eyes, but smiled, thinking about the kiss he shared with River the other night. They kept texting, and he’d even asked River out on a real date, which brought the guys to the bar. It had been a year or so since his last date and he needed advice on where to take someone like River. He wasn’t as familiar with the goth subculture and thought maybe his brothers would have experience. At the very least Ben, who’d been with a few different kinds of people.
“I did look it up that night after I got home, but I’m still a little confused,” Frankie shrugged.
“Just ask them, man,” Will offered. “They seemed cool with your first question.”
Frankie nodded, a look of determination crossing his features. “You’re right. It couldn’t hurt, right?”
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Frankie was sweating. Marisol was with her mom this week, so he hadn’t had to worry about having that conversation yet. He was planning on telling River about her tonight. He checked his hair in the mirror again before he left, deciding to go without his hat tonight, but worried all his nerves would deflate the work he put into it. He sighed as he messed around with the unruly curls again. This is why he stuck to hats. Frankie’s phone vibrated on the bathroom counter, startling him.
ok im ready, eddie 😉
River still thought it was hilarious that Frankie had worn an Iron Maiden t-shirt to a goth club, claiming that it fit his “old man aesthetic”, whatever that meant. This led to River referring to Frankie as “Eddie”, after the band’s skeleton mascot.
Yeah yeah i’m coming
Frankie saw the typing dots appear and disappear a couple times before disappearing completely. He sighed to himself and checked his hair one last time before leaving his apartment. 
When he got to the neighborhood of the address River had given him, he checked his phone again, making sure he was in the right place. He slowly crept up the hill towards the last line of apartments and immediately his heart started pounding. Frankie really liked River. He didn’t want to fuck this up, and hoped him being a dad wouldn’t ruin that. Or his big dumb mouth.
River was standing at the bottom of the staircase of the apartment complex and waved, a huge grin on their face. Frankie stopped the truck and leaned over to open the passenger side door for them to climb inside. The scent of bergamot, clove, and sandalwood filled his nostrils again as the truck door shut. Frankie calmed down, and smiled, leaning over to give River a kiss on the cheek. “You look amazing,” he breathed, taking in River’s outfit; they had a collarless shirt buttoned up all the way, tucked into plaid pants, and nice dress shoes. All black, of course. They wore no lipstick today, their makeup was simple, and their hair was perfectly straight. It looked like they’d freshly shaved the right side of their head as well. River’s look was so new for Frankie, he couldn’t help being captivated by them every time he saw them.
“Thank you,” River smiled, heart skipping a beat. “Where are we off to?” They rested their ring-clad hand over Frankie’s larger one in between the two of them on the seat. “When you said it was a surprise, I admit I got a little nervous.”
Frankie placed his hand on the back of the truck seat and looked behind them as he backed up to leave the apartment complex. River’s eyes were glued to Frankie’s neck and subtly licked their lips at the sight of the thick muscles and veins. Their eyes moved up to Frankie’s side profile and they swooned.
“How come? Don’t trust me?” Frankie smirked, making eye contact before his eyes moved to the road, and started heading toward their destination.
River shrugged, even though they knew he couldn’t see them. “Maybe. Maybe not,” they smirked. The red light of the clock on the console caught River’s eye; 7:30pm. 
“Well, that’s a shame. I had a nice dinner planned and everything,” Frankie showed them an exaggerated pout, a twinkle in his eye.
“Oh, well, in that case.”
The restaurant Frankie picked might’ve been a little more… casual, then he remembered. The last time he was here was with Jackson. He shook off the memory. He was here with River now. The place was actually more like a diner, with vintage photos of women in pinup-style outfits and poses.
Frankie reached for River’s hand and laced their fingers together as he found them a table, letting River sit first.
“Such a gentleman,” River teased, squeezing his hand before getting comfy in the booth.
“I try,” Frankie smiled bashfully as he joined them on the opposite side. The light shining down onto the table lit River beautifully. He noticed that River’s button-up was actually a dark green, with subtle velvet roses all over.
They ordered their food and made easy conversation. River talked about their job as an architect. They were working on designing a building that was be built in the next couple of years in the city. Frankie found it fascinating but couldn’t focus on the words, too distracted by their calming voice and watching their mannerisms. River talked with their hands a lot whenever they got excited about something, and Frankie thought it was adorable.
“Sorry, I know I’m rambling now,” River shook their head, cutting themself off. Frankie frowned,mouth full of french fries.
“Please, continue, I don’t mind listening.”
So River did. They talked about anything and everything. Frankie interjected here and there, but was more than content to listen to River talk. When there was a lull in the conversation, Frankie’s palms started to get sweaty. Their plates were empty now, but River still had half of their milkshake left.
It was now or never. Frankie took a deep breath.
“So… I’ve been meaning to tell you something,” he started. River raised an eyebrow and rested their chin on the palm of their hand, listening. Frankie cleared his throat before continuing. “Um, so I know this is a dealbreaker for some people, so I won’t be offended if you want to stop things after tonight. B-But I would like to stay friends if that’s the case.” He rubbed his sweaty hands on his thighs. “I’ve got a daughter.”
River was quiet for a second before a small smile appeared on their face. “I’m actually not surprised. How old is she?”
“You’re not?”
“Of course not. You’re an incredibly handsome man of a certain age–”
“Hey.”
“And any woman would be stupid not to make an honest man outta you,” River winked.
Frankie blinked a couple times before chuckling softly. River continued to surprise him. “Well, her mother isn’t in the picture, at least not with me. Marisol, my daughter, sees her half the time, and stays with me the other half of the time,” he explained, crossing his arms comfortably over the table. “Oh, and she’s four.”
“Aww, can I see a picture of her?”
Frankie’s heart fluttered as pulled his phone out, opening the album of photos devoted just to his little girl. He slid his phone over to River and they started scrolling through the photos with a smile on their face.
“She’s adorable, Frankie,” River hummed, returning his phone back to him. “I can tell you think the world of her. I won’t lie, I’m not really… uh, a kid kind of person. I always just planned on being the cool cousin and not a parent,” they muttered, resting their chin on their palm again.
Frankie nodded in understanding. “I totally get that. I just figured it wouldn’t be fair to you, or to Marisol, to keep her a secret, y’know?”
“Absolutely, and I appreciate you telling me,” River nodded back. “But I like you. A lot. And I’m willing to give this a shot with you. So I don’t think Marisol is a dealbreaker.”
Frankie’s heart soared at River’s words. “I really like you, too,” he grinned like an idiot, cheeks warm. “C’mon, we still have another part to this date.” He stood up and held his hand out for River to take.
After paying, the two found themselves back in Frankie’s truck heading down the highway. It was starting to get darker and the roads were clearing. They pulled up to a drive-in, but there weren’t any other cars.
“What is this, Grease?” River teased. “A diner and then a drive-in movie?”
Frankie snorted and reached out his window to pay for their tickets before finding somewhere to park. “I happen to like drive-in movies and diners, thank you very much.”
“That’s because you’re old–”
“I’m only a few years older than you,” Frankie deadpanned.
“Details.”
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About a third of the way into the original Halloween, Frankie put his arm around River’s shoulders and pulled them close. River happily cuddled into Frankie’s side, loving the warmth and softness they found there.
Halfway through, River’s eyes started wandering elsewhere. They looked down at the crotch of Frankie’s jeans, and wondered what lay beyond the tight denim. They looked up at Frankie’s face and kissed the little patch in his beard that refused to grow hair. Frankie looked down at them, deep brown eyes looking over River’s features. He went from their dark-rimmed eyes, to their collarbone, and back to their plush lips, his heart pounding. He didn’t need any further convincing and started kissing River deeply, holding the side of their face.
River hummed into Frankie’s mouth and slowly crawled into Frankie’s lap. They grinned as Frankie huffed a breath against their lips, holding River’s hips in his large hands. River kissed the corner of Frankie’s mouth before moving down to the side of his neck and sucked a mark where his neck met his shoulder. Frankie shuddered, moving a hand down and squeezing River’s ass. They lifted their head and looked at the far-away expression on his face.
“Are you one of those guys that doesn’t like to fool around on the first date?”
Frankie blinked up at River, thinking about it. “I mean, no, but–” “Good,” River growled, latching back onto Frankie’s neck and sucking hard.
Frankie moaned openly at that, but pulled them away. “Wait,” he breathed. River tilted their head to the side and didn’t say anything, letting Frankie continue. “Um, I had another question.”
“Okay.”
“Well, uh. I don’t mean to kill the mood, because God, I really wanna get back to that, b-but I was curious,” Frankie swallowed, not making eye contact again. “I looked up what non-binary was after you told me and I was a little confused, and basically I just– Um, I wanna know like, how… this would… work,” he trailed off, gesturing between the two of them and at the bulge in his jeans.
“You’re asking what I have so you know how to proceed.” It was a statement, not a question, said softly in understanding. River played with the curls at the back of Frankie’s neck.
Frankie nodded. “If that’s an invasive question, I’m really sorry, and–”
“Shh,” River chuckled, pecking Frankie on the cheek. “It’s okay, I promise. I’m not offended. You’re actually being really sweet about all of this. I know this is new for you.”
Frankie smiled shyly and shrugged, but let them continue.
“I was raised as a girl. ‘Assigned female at birth’, is typically what we call it,” River looked down, playing with the collar of Frankie’s shirt. “You were assigned male at birth. The doctors looked at your parts and decided that’s what you were, and you never felt like it was incorrect, right?”
Frankie nodded, listening carefully.
“Right. Well, it felt wrong to me. I didn’t really know what the feeling was growing up. It’s actually kind of a recent development for me.”
Frankie chewed on his bottom lip, one question still buzzing around his head. “How do you… How did you know? And did you… have any… surgeries? To um–” he didn’t know how to word any of this.
River laughed softly. “Yeah, I had top surgery. I no longer have breasts, as I’m sure you’ve noticed. Everything below the belt is still intact,” they grinned, moving their crotch closer to Frankie’s. “The complicated answer, especially for someone so new to this, is that gender is a societal thing. How you’re perceived, presented to the world is just through the eyes of society. How you see yourself is what actually matters, though. And when all that societal bullshit doesn’t affect your life, the roles you’re ‘supposed’ to play don’t matter anymore.”
“I’m River. River is me. I don’t care how people see me. I did all of this,” they gestured to their body. “For me. Not for anyone else. Because if I didn’t, I would be unhappy. And my own mental health and happiness matters more than some so-called church-going do-gooder’s opinion.”
Frankie looked at River in awe. Their confidence and respect for themself was one of the most attractive things he’d ever seen. “You’re amazing,” Frankie breathed, surging forward to kiss them deeply. He gripped River’s ass again and pulled them closer, grinding his hardening cock against them.
River moaned softly, grinding back, and tangling their fingers into his hair. Suddenly, Frankie pulled back, catching his breath.
“Wait, does that, like…” He thought for a second. “While I was doing my research, I came across a couple other terms I didn’t know.”
River chuckled and kissed down Frankie’s neck softly. “Go on.”
Frankie’s breath hitched, speaking shakily. “Um, I’ve always considered myself b-bisexual– oh– a-and if non-binary people are technically a th-third gender, then does that change?”
“No,” River hummed, licking underneath Frankie’s ear, before taking the lobe into their mouth and nibbling.
“It doesn’t?”
River shook their head. “Bisexual is more like an umbrella term. People interpret it differently,” they reached a hand down between them, trailing their fingers to Frankie’s belt buckle and undoing it. “For example, you’ve always assumed it just meant you were attracted to men and women, right?”
Frankie moaned softly as the pressure was relieved from his hard cock, and nodded.
“Exactly. Another way you could see it is you being attracted to people that are like you,” they gripped Frankie’s cock tightly, making him gasp sharply. “And people who aren’t.” They grabbed his hand and placed it onto their crotch, grinding against him.
He was so hard he was throbbing, and so turned on his head spun. He started undoing River’s dress pants and slipped his hand down to their panties, finding their pussy impossibly warm and wet. 
“Fuck,” Frankie groaned, rubbing at their clit through the fabric of their underwear. River moaned sweetly and bit their bottom lip, moving Frankie’s boxer briefs out of the way so they could grip around his cock.
“You’re so hard,” River grinned, rubbing their thumb over the tip. They started stroking him slowly, watching as the head of Frankie’s cock appeared and disappeared underneath the foreskin. 
Frankie was breathing heavily, resting his head on the back of his seat and looking at River through his lashes. He moved the tips of his fingers in small circles for a few moments before he moved his fingers beneath their underwear and touched bare skin. River gasped at the contact and nodded, giving him permission.  Frankie slowly sunk his middle finger inside them and started pumping in and out. His thumb rubbed in time against their clit. River started moaning louder, throwing their head back to expose their throat to him.
Frankie saw an opening and latched his mouth onto their neck, marking them in return as his free hand held the back of River’s head. “You’re so fucking sexy,” he groaned, biting at River’s skin.
River shuddered at the praise, rocking their hips against Frankie’s hand. “‘M close,” they whined, panting down at him. They started to lose their rhythm on Frankie’s cock and squeezed him tightly in their fist. Frankie nodded in understanding and started moving his fingers faster, adding a second one as the slick sounds coming from between River’s legs filled the truck. 
“C’mon, baby. You gonna come for me?” he breathed against their neck, leaving soft kisses against their skin. The contrast between what his mouth and what his hand were doing was overwhelming and River wouldn’t change it for the world. 
River nodded, their brows moving downward in pleasure before stilling above him as they came. Their hips rocked back and forth over Frankie’s hand as they came down, moaning and biting their lip. 
The sight of River coming was enough for Frankie and his cock twitched hard as he erupted all over River’s hand. He grunted and hid his face in their neck as his balls emptied messily. He whined softly, twitching in the aftershocks. 
River giggled quietly and held him close after licking their hand clean. “Gonna have to blow you next time,” they hummed thoughtfully.
Frankie groaned as his oversensitive cock twitched between them. “Don’t say shit like that while I’m still vulnerable, you menace.”
River bit his cheek, then kissed it softly. “You love it.”
He did. He really did.
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a/n: please enjoy this meme that inspired the scene above
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fizzy-tizzy · 24 days
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Headcanons for all the survivors gender/sexuality
Wilson- Just Kinda decided he was gonna be a boy when he was like 8 and his dad was so desperate for an heir that didn’t want him dead to rights he just kinda let it happen. would fuck anyone but at the same time is not interested at all
Willow- Butch-ish but more in a tomboy kinda way. genuinely likes wearing skirts and more feminine clothing but doesn’t really think she deserves to? if that makes sense? (She doesn’t really feel like a genuine legit girl) hardcore lesbian.
Wolfgang- Very traditionally masculine but in the “My job is to protect and take care of everyone” and not the “im a man so I can do whatever I want” type way. Gay but could totally be in a lavender relationship/marriage and have no problems w/ it
WX-78- Born a cis female, figured out early on that wasn’t right but couldn’t change it until they were an adult. Transed their gender but then figured out being a male wasn’t right either. eventually found someone who felt similarly and abandoned their flesh for the machine. solidly aroace. they’re triple a (agender, asexual, aromantic) just like batteries
Wickerbottom- cis female and “traditionally” feminine, has never felt the need to explore or question it. Used to be married to a man who was secretly gay and looking for someone similarly emotionally unavailable. He has since passed but left wicker a small fortune so. alls well that ends well ig
Wes- kind of a stereotypical femme twink. The kinda gay whos loud and proud and will hit you with a brick if you have a problem with that. feels obligated to help the others try and figure themselves out- esp the ones who are more in denial abt it
Maxwell- I think the idea that max is trans and Jack is cis and they turned out looking the exact same is hilarious. Technically the only ppl who knows he’s trans are jack and charlie- their parents just think he’s a masculine woman and everyone else knows him as a man. Bi and so so weak for bears and gently bossy women.
Wendy- Non-binary but still in the process of realizing it. Does not give a single shit abt romance but would totally be qpp with Webber once they know what that means.
Woodie- Probably Not Cis but has too much religious trauma to even dare questioning himself. He’s like JUST accepted the fact that he’s gay (still thinks hes going straight to hell but we’re working on that) so ynknow baby steps. baby steps. Deffo has a shit ton of body dysphoria due to the wereforms tho
Webber- Since spiders work a lil different in the constant (probably more like bees) there are like three genders Webber could potentially see themselves as. Drone, warrior, and queen. During his childhood he thinks of himself mostly as a drone but as he gets older and his sway over the spiders increases they’ll shift into seeing themselves as more of a queen. But other that he’s pretty much whatever non-spider gender is most convenient. Definitely bi.
Wigfrid- her gender is… strange. What she outwardly presents is her character’s way of presenting herself so ig I see her as kinda fluid? Idk valiant-valkyrie if ur reading this you can probably do a better job of explaining it. you are the defacto wigfrid authority. Definitely lesbian but once again will do whatever the role requires
Winona- Solidly butch lesbian. Definitely a caretaker and a protector but in the butch kinda way and not the femme kinda way. if that makes sense.
Wurt- Butch but hasn’t really realized it yet. does not think human genders apply to her bcs she’s a merm and will 100% be king when she grows up. baby lesbiab. her and wilba’s eventual union shall bring peace to the pig/merm kingdoms once and for all
Wortox- human genders do not apply to him. They are whatever is most convenient at the time. Fluid like loki and bugs bunny.
Walter- if xenogenders existed back then he would totally be like pupgender/buggender. Non-binary but has no problem being called a boy/man. Would be fine with any prns but people have only ever used he/him for him. Probably going to be a monsterf*cker when he grows up.
Wormwood- He is plant. Plants have sexes but no genders and wormwood is intersex anyway but they kinda just chose the first option presented to him once he found the others. Loves all but has absolutely no interest or idea about non-plant reproductive activities.
Walani- Yknow that “as a girl who’s a gross dude men who are fancy ladies are my best friends”? Yeah that’s her and Warly. she’s the emotional support golden retriever to warly’s high-strung cheetah. Lesbian but like. endearingly loser lesbian who’s only ever smooth when she’s not trying to be.
Warly- as mentioned before he is very much a guy who is a fancy lady. Would probably do drag if he had the chance and would 100% be the baddest bitch who makes all the men question their sexuality. Gay and european.
Wanda- doesn’t have time for all that gender questioning bullshit she just wants to kiss women.
Wheeler- Solid futch, leans more feminine or masculine depending on the situation. Woman-leaning bisexual, has probably fucked someone wife and inadvertently caused a divorce.
Woodlegs- pretty solidly cis male but 100% an embarrassing old gay grandpa. Doesn’t know much abt the terminology but is incredibly supportive and was definitely a homewrecker back in the day. Probably got out of at least one arrest by seducing the naval officer meant to bring him in
Wilba- high femme and definitely a baby lesbian. I do really like the idea of her being trans just because why not so why not. She and wurt are fat femme x fat butch once they grow up
Wagstaff- born as a girl but realized he hated it and made attempts to transition early on. Eventually ran away to America to fully transition. Non-binary too but hasn’t realized it yet and just thinks that everyone feels weird when someone calls them mr or sir. men-liker and old man yaoi certified
Wilbur- yes I’m doing the monkey. Gender is a strange concept to him, so he just kinda calls himself male bcs apparently he is? He doesn’t really understand it but it seems to be pretty important in human society so he’ll do it if it means he gets respected as an actual person and not just some sideshow.
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c0la-queen · 2 months
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Hi um..can i please request some matt from eddsworld x reader whenever you feel like it
Im just heavily love that silly man and i rarely see matt x reader anywhere and it makes me sorta upsetti spaghetti lol-
You dont have to do this you can delete this if you want ^^' i just thought i could at least ask this for like. Idk a early birthday present thingy for myself
Better Than Cake | Matt x Reader
I am absolutely ECSTATIC to write this for you, love! Consider it MY early birthday present to you! I definitely agree that Matt is under represented in the Eddsworld x Reader realm, so please don't hesitate to request him from me anytime that you'd like! I don't bite, promise! I'm a little inexperienced with writing gender neutral readers, but I've read plenty, so hopefully I can do justice in this one! Enjoy, and Happy Birthday, Anon!
Warnings: Matt is a bimbo, love him to death, he is THE girl's girl (and also non-binary's girl ofc <3) this is just pure fluff, angst if you squint, body dysphoria if you squint, but its a very short moment and the drabble is overall happy and sweet
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"Matt, what is all this about?"
You bit your tongue gently, trying to swallow back the giddy giggles as you looked over your bed. Sitting on the mattress were three boxes wrapped in Matt's favorite lavender wrapping paper. One was thin but long, one was average sized, and the third was smaller.
Matt leaned against the door frame of your room, trying his best - and failing - to hide the excited grin on his face.
"What does it look like, lovie?"
You turned and pouted at Matt. By now, you were well accustomed to his habit of gift-giving. That didn't stop you from feeling a tad guilty about it every time. And this just felt excessive.
"Matt, really, you didn't have to get me anything at all, let alone three things-"
He snorted, rolling his eyes playfully.
"Nonsense. Of course I'm going to get you birthday presents. Besides, those are only part of your presents."
You felt your face burn.
"What? What do you mean? There's more?"
Matt let himself laugh now, standing up straight.
"You'll see. Now I'll leave you to open them. Let me know if you have any trouble getting those on."
He was out of the room before you could question him, shutting the door behind him. You blinked in the silence of your room. 'Have trouble getting those on'? What could he possibly mean by that?
Your eyes drifted back to the boxes on your bed.
No…
He didn't…
…did he?
Trembling slightly from anticipation, you slowly opened the first box, the long one. Inside, amongst the gift tissue, was a silky fabric of your favorite color. Internally, a part of you grimaced. You didn't mean to be ungrateful, really. You loved Matt to death. But… part of you couldn't help but be disappointed that he had gotten you another dress. Still, you'd wear it to make him happy.
You paused when you lifted up the fabric out of the box. It wasn't a dress. It was… pants. Dress pants. Really nice dress pants. Huh?
You looked in the box again. There was more. You took it all out, and your breath caught in your throat. The dress pants came with a matching sweater vest and crème colored button down shirt. There was a lump in your chest that you fought to keep down.
There were still two more boxes, anyway. You couldn't imagine what else Matt could have gotten you.
Next, you opened the average sized box. A bottle of cologne. The glass was round, and you could see a purple tint in the glass. When you tested it out, you were met with a citrus-y scent. You couldn't stop the soft laugh that left you. It was the same cologne that Matt used. You had mentioned to him several times before that you loved how he smelled. He remembered.
The last box, the little one, completely took your breath away. Inside was a gold chain with a little round gold pendant engraved with an image of iris flowers, as well as a pair of matching gold earrings, the dangling chains ended with small purple butterflies.
It was all… beautiful. Your chest ached as you realized just how happy you were.
Part of you was tempted to run out the door, hunt down Matt, and kiss him until he couldn't breathe. But then his words echoed in your head. He wanted you to try the outfit on. And, well, you couldn't refuse, could you?
You must have been staring at yourself in the mirror for about 10 minutes, taking in how you looked in the outfit. Emotions sat heavy in your lungs, and you felt tears brimming in your eyes. For the first time in a long time, you felt… like yourself. You looked at your reflection and it was you. Really you.
A knock on your door broke you out of your trance.
"You alright in there, lovie? If you're having any trouble getting it on, I can-"
You didn't let Matt finish the thought.
You threw open the door, throwing your arms around his torso tightly. Matt gave a little 'oof' in surprise, but quickly wrapped his arms around you tightly.
"I'm guessing you like it, then?"
Matt must not have expected you to be crying, because when you pulled away and he saw your misty eyes, a panicked expression crossed his face. You gave him a bright, reassuring smile.
"I love it. All of it. So much. Thank you."
Content that your tears were of happiness, Matt's eyes swept down your body, inspecting the outfit he had gifted you. When his eyes met yours again, you saw nothing but pure affection in those baby blues. You fidgeted under that look, shyly looking down at the shoes that you had paired with the outfit.
Matt's finger hooked gently under your chin, tilting your head up until you were once again looking into his eyes. He smiled so sweetly.
"You look positively radiant, lovie."
You couldn't stop the giggle from escaping you now. Your entire body buzzed from how giddy you felt. Matt, still smiling, tapped your nose lightly.
"Are you ready to go?"
Go?
You focused more closely on Matt now. He was wearing black dress pants and a lilac button down shirt. You felt your eye twitch when you noticed that the top two buttons were undone, revealing a peek of the pale, freckled skin underneath. He was also holding a bouquet of blue-purple iris flowers.
Matt snickered at your confused look.
"I'm taking you out on a birthday dinner."
That explained the outfit, and his. But…
"What's with the iris flowers?"
Not only had he gotten you a bouquet of them, but the necklace he gifted you was also engraved with them.
"Iris flowers are a symbol of admiration. ..among other things, all good!! Sure, there are other flowers with romantic meanings, but I thought it would be cute to grab these, since they're purple, and purple is like… my thing…"
His confidence faltered slightly as he rambled, seemingly unsure. You waved your hands in the air between you.
"They're perfect, Matt. I think they're wonderful."
His chest puffed out in pride as you took the bouquet from them. He followed you down to the kitchen, waiting patiently as you somehow found a vase to put the flowers in. Minorly, you wondered if the vase was from Edd's ex girlfriend that you had heard about.
"What the hell are you two all dressed up for?"
Tom leaned against the kitchen doorway. He was poorly hiding a pack of cigarettes behind his back.
"We're going out tonight. Tell Edd that we'll be back after dinner. Also, don't let him catch you with those. You know how pissed he'll be."
Tom huffed at Matt's words, but didn't dispute it.
"I'll let him know where you are."
He glanced at you.
"You look great in that. Have fun, mate."
A warm feeling spread in your chest at the compliment.
Matt turned to you and extended an arm with a grin.
With a grin of your own, you took his arm.
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The restaurant that Matt had brought you to was nicer than you had expected. It wasn't anything that you could see celebrities or the upper class citizens dining at, but it was definitely very formal. You were given a table at the window, with a lovely view of the city skyline, watching the setting sun as you ate. Matt insisted on ordering a bottle of champagne, not listening to any of your half-hearted protests. It was sweet and bubbly, and every sip made your body feel warm. Matt made sure you didn't drink too much, though.
You were so busy enjoying the last bit of your food, looking out at the moon, to notice what Matt was doing. When he gave a quiet, displeased hum, you looked back over at him.
"What's wrong?"
Matt was focused on the little dessert menu that had been left on the table. His eyebrows were furrowed slightly.
"Of all the fancy sweets they've got, there's not a single cake option."
For possibly the hundredth time that night, you laughed softly. Your hand found his across the table, hands intertwining gently. He looked back up at you, love dancing in his eyes.
"That's alright, pretty boy. Tonight has been more than lovely enough to make up for that. You've made this the most perfect birthday I've ever had."
Matt set aside the dessert menu, taking your hand in both of his. He brought it up and pressed his lips to your knuckles in a tender kiss.
"Just you wait, lovie. I plan to make every birthday better than the last. Nothing but the best for my significant other."
If it was possible, you felt yourself falling even deeper in love with him.
"Let's go home, Matt."
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leemillion · 8 months
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CALLING ALL PRESTON GOODPLAY LOVERS (aka me)
IM MAKING A PLAYLIST
FOR THE ONE AN ONLY 😌
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AND I NEED SONGS THAT REMIND YOU OF HIM. WHETHER THAT BE DIFFERENT STAGES OF HIS LIFE (canon or headcanon) OR YKNOW JUST WHATEVER GIVES YOU THE ✨VIBES✨
I’D LOVE SOME OUTSIDE OPINIONS ON THIS
HERE’S THE SONGS I ALREADY HAVE IN ORDER:
Introduction to the Snow - Miracle Musical (gives me the ✨vibes✨)
Look Who’s Inside Again - Bo Burnham (Think it would describe his childhood. At least a part of it)
Am I Supposed To Apologize? - Maria Mena (It’s %90 percent here because of a few short lyrics that would imply him discovering his love of theater. The other %10 is because I have a headcanon he’s a child of divorce parents.)
My Play - AJR (C’mon man it seems pretty self explanatory if you’ve listened to it. Plus it adds onto the divorced parents theory)
The Main Character - Will Wood (It’s literally him. C’mon man. The vibes. Also you cannot tell me he wouldn’t be a huge Will Wood fan.)
Hard to Be the Bard - Something Rotten! (He’s a writer✨ An artist✨ It can’t possibly be easy 😔)
Soldier, Poet, King - The Oh Hellos (Now this one is more the Performance Trio as a whole but still. Preston is the poet, obviously 😌 while Nerris is the soldier and Harrison is the ruler.)
I/Me/Myself - Will Wood (Because he's just so ✨gender✨ Plus if you headcanon him as gender-fluid it makes this even better.)
Oh No! - Marina & The Diamonds (A desire to succeed. To make it big in this world. He knows what he wants and he won’t stop at nothing to get it. He definitely has a fear of failure. And who’s to say he doesn’t feel like he’s the worst? He already acts like he’s the best. Who’s to say that’s not a cover up?)
Everybody Loves Me - OneRepublic (Consider this the beginning of Preston Goodplay’s Good Play. He finally has a performance piece that people seem to like. He’s finally getting the love and attention he so deserves 😌 But at what cost?)
Non-Stop - Hamilton (Turns out his new performance is the only thing people seem to want. So why not just keep writing up new ideas for it? Sure he’ll eventually run out. But right now’s not eventually! He’ll just have to keep coming up with new ideas for it! Thing is it’s getting a lot more stressful than he intended.)
Left Brain, Right Brain - Bo Burnham (Oh Y’know just that one scene where he’s arguing with his own fucking reflection. Unsure whether he should sell out and give the people what they want, or follow what he wants with the risk that no one would like it.)
Show & Tell - Melanie Martínez (Ok this is getting ridiculous. They’ve started showing up to his practices and commenting on HIS writing process. It’s overwhelming. But what can he do about it? They’re his target audience. Well his only audience but still-)
Everyone is Dumb - Mazie x Everybody Likes You - Lemon Demon (Seems self explanatory. Everyone actually pays attention to him now. They’re excited for his performances. Everyone likes him. But they’re also stupid. It’s a stupidly simple performance that’s virtually the same every time. Yet they never get tired of it. Yes they like him, but is it worth it if this is the reason they like him.)
Shine A Light (Reprise) - Heathers (Oh y’know just the silly little nightmare he has :,D And then the hallucinations of his own reflection laughing at him. Plus him pulling out that prop knife uh- was he just being dramatic or??? Like he did have a bit of a psychotic break, man’s was hallucinating. How do we know he didn’t think the knife was real? Like was he actually trying to- y’know? Seriously is he ok-??)
Are You Satisfied - Marina & The Diamonds (He talks to David for a bit. And something’s called to question. Is he satisfied with this? He’s worried about his future yes, but then again what’s the point of making art if he doesn’t actually like it himself. It’s pointless. And he realizes no one else should get a say in what he wants to create. It’s his problem. No one else’s.)
Drama Club - Melanie Martinez (Honestly just doesn’t give a shit about anyone’s opinions anymore and that’s kind of a good thing. Even if they hate it. “Any reaction, positive or negative, is still a reaction :D” As tomatoes are pelted towards him. Honestly a healthier mentality than he had before. And I think that’s the end of the Preston Goodplay’s Good Play section of the playlist!)
Recess - Melanie Martinez (I’m here for Preston’s grandmother raising him and teaching him everything she knows 🗣️🗣️🗣️ Stg every lyric fucking fits. Also I think this could apply to his new mentality of “Fuck you it’s my art not yours I do what I want.” A nice little summary to the fiasco that is Preston Goodplay’s Good play.)
Mirror Man - Jack Stauber’s Opal (Mostly just gives me Preston vibes. His desire to become famous and what not.)
Art Is Dead - Bo Burnham (Vibesss man. “I am an artist, please god forgive me. I am an artist, please don't revere me. I am an artist, please don't respect me I am an artist, you're free to correct me. A self-centered artist. Self-obsessed artist. I am an artist. I am an artist. But I'm just a kid. I'm just a kid. I'm just a kid, kid. And maybe I'II grow out of it”)
Finale (Can’t Wait To See What You Do Next) - AJR (Honestly just thought it’d be cool to have the last song in the playlist be called Finale 💀 But I think it’s a nice little summary of his character. A final bow if you will 😌)
Anyways that’s about it. If anyone else has suggestions or input on the songs already here feel free to! Hell if you happen to disagree with anything feel free to. I love discussions about things I like :D Also feel free to suggest songs that you think I should add 😌 Gonna go pass out now baiiii
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tickledbreathless · 7 months
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Hailing from the east coast, ladies gentlemen and nonbinary folks, here comes an introduction post!
What’s my name? I’m gonna go by Ame (pronounced “Am”). Sound good? I think so too. 😊
Age and Gender? Currently 23 and a guyy so hit me with those he/him pronouns!
This ain’t my first go around here. However, I’d like to start fresh. If I reconnect with old friends, then they can know who I am/was. No tea to be spilt on my past here, pinky swear. ✨ It’s just that a lot of people have left since I myself left, so it feels too complicated to pick up from there when most people wouldn’t remember me anyway. More so aiming to casually exist.
What can I say other than I’m a nerd. I like nerdy stuff (ahem… minecraft, mario, pokemon, mha, marvel, more), so I might go unskippable cutscene on you if you talk to me abt the right thing 😭
Tickling. Yep, I like it. You can call me a switch as one might do!
It’s a kink blog. Sure, I’ll post/reblog about forms of tickling that can considered sfw, nsfw, or possibly outside of the realm of a kinky context, BUT this is still a kink blog.
NSFW will be tagged.
What kind of tickling? Whatever tickles my own fancy, I suppose. Teasy posts, tickling gifs, drawings. Probably some non-tickling stuff as well if I’m just feeling silly 🤭
18+ so minors and ageless bios DO NOT INTERACT !!!! Have your age in your bio. If you aren’t of age or don’t have your age in your bio and you interact with me, I’ll just block you immediately, so get it right the first time even if you’re of age.
Asks are allowed and encouraged! Keep is respectful and uncreepy or I’ll put rocks into your cereal.
Sending Teases/Tickle Talk? In DMs, i prefer to get to know people before tickle talk becomes involved. However, teases sent in asks are alright, but I reserve the right to not respond to them. Gotta catch me in the right mood I suppose. <3
I do enjoy DMs as well! As long we respect each other’s boundaries, we’re good to go, but also don’t immediately start off about tickling, man… but if we get along good and have gotten to know each other, tickle talk, teases, and rp are fine by me ✨
Other kinks? W-well… yes… Gentle femdom, post orgasm, cnc, and tummy fetish /////
Also I may not always respond quickly to messages. I can get p busy some days, won’t respond to DMs while at work, and i guess when im Soooometimes touching grass. Please know that I may not be open to meeting every person who comes into my dms. I’m one person and I don’t have the time or energy to establish new connections all the time. Sorry.
It should go without saying but racism, homophobia, transphobia, whatever form of brainless hatred that festers like the disease it is is not allowed on this blog. You’re Not welcomed here.
If you’ve made it this far, thank you for reading! I’ll edit this post if necessary. For now, I’m taking it slow here and I’m unsure as to what I’ll do with this blog.
That’s all I got for you all! Feel free to ask me questions if you’re curious about me or this blog! Enjoy your day, giggly people 🪶
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radfemfyodor · 2 months
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regarding your post about keeping your feminism a secret:
im dating a TIF. we started dating before she transitioned (six months before and about a month and a half since) and there’s been a huge change in her personality. she knows i’m anti porn, pro misandry, etc. but she’s suddenly gotten wayyy more openly misogynistic and started calling every woman she disagrees with a bitch? i told her i genuinely despise that word but she refuses to stop saying it. i looked at her twitter and she even called a female conservative politician a ‘hole.’ i hate this politician as well but a HOLE ??? that’s fucking vile.
her transition kind of came out of the blue as well especially because she makes no attempt to ‘look masculine’ and still wears makeup and skirts. she only started talking about her dysphoria after she transitioned (she came out on her instagram story with they/he pronouns so i found out at the same time everyone else did) and it just seems totally out of left field.
i’m very much a radfem. i’m very open about my ‘more easily acceptable’ feminist opinions like abortion rights and sapphic rights, but i have to keep my more radical opinions to myself irl. a lot of my friends are TIMs and TIFs but i just can’t bring myself to see them as anything other than their birth genders. i use their preferred pronouns, but i have to consciously make an effort not to slip up. i used to identify as non-binary and later ftm for about six years as well, but detransitioned before i went through any major surgeries when i was eighteen.
i hate how so many of my friends don’t see prostitution, autogynephilia, cosmetic surgery, etc. as problems because they’re ‘women’s decisions.’ i hate how i can’t say anything about my negative experiences with being groomed as a child under the guise of ‘sex work’ or my experience with detransitioning without the fear of being labeled a terf. it’s like they don’t even see the ‘radical feminist’ part and just see radfems as conservatives.
i don’t want to break up with my girlfriend, but it feels like she’s just hating other women to feel more like a man at this point. my former connection with her is not worth ditching my feminism for.
Hello, thank you for sharing your story!
I’m sorry to hear that your girlfriend has been acting so misogynistic… Sadly many trans men are becoming misogynistic to “pass” as a men. These women think that hating on other women will make them a man, which is extremely sad. They hurt themselves and other women.
I hate “Choice Feminism” with a burning passion. “Choice Feminists” are in reality people who don’t care about women’s liberation, they pretend that they do. Calling yourself a feminist, yet seeing nothing wrong with, for example, prostitution makes absolutely no sense - how do these people think that they’re helping women while supporting one of the biggest forms of oppression?
Don’t even let me get started on how Sex Work most of the time is not a choice. And even if made by choice, it (very) often still traumatizes Sex Workers.
TRAs are close minded which results in them believing that RadFems are same as Conservatives. Practically there is NOTHING similar about RadFems and Conservatives. Yes, technically Conservatives are Gender Critical too, but Conservatives still uphold stereotypes about women and men - woman has to be warm, caring, be submissive for her husband, take care of her children and do housework. Meanwhile RadFems are against what Conservatives think about women.
Stay healthy and safe! 💕 I hope you will be able to be more open about your beliefs! 💖
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grab-the-bananaguns · 8 months
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this is just a post to bounce ideas off of feel free to interact but I’m hoping this fucker will be looooooong by the time I’m done
so I’m making an alien species im callin ‘em Chchenchankks (mostly due to the fact that I want ‘em to have a very prominent “ch” sound they make)
they can’t pronounce; E sounds
they find if difficult to pronounce; A sounds
but they can make sounds like birds ‘n crocodiles which is an important part of their language so it’s virtually impossible for a human without a translator to speak it
there are goin the be at least 5 sexes one is what the humans have deemed the male (even tho they have have multiple secondary sex characteristics that would be associated with females of earth), the next is female (even tho they have secondary sex characteristics that would be associated with males on earth), the third sex (humans have deemed ‘em the androgynous sex) which is basically an adult that stopped hormones that results in sexual dimorphism in adults which leads to ‘em havin under developed horns ‘n no genitals ‘n can choose at a later stage of life to be male, female, capable of asexual reproduction or hermaphroditic, then there is the fourth sex which is capable of asexual reproduction (humans literally just call ‘em asexual) ‘n finally the fifth sex which is hermaphroditic (‘n so called hermephrodites) ‘n they have both sex organs ‘n have a generally even spread of secondary sex characteristics (the other two non binary sexes lack secondary sex characteristics as a whole)
The horns on their heads have an important part in sexual dimorphism ‘n gender identity ‘n their shape ‘n size indicates sex ‘n development, males have horns the curve back, up ‘n out, females have horns the curve back, up ‘n forward, the sex that has just stopped their hormones until they’re ready have lil nubs cause they haven’t developed a sex yet, the asexually reproducin sex also have lil nubs ‘n the hermaphroditic sexes first set of horns will look more like the female or male horns then the second set will look the other sexes horns
some plot stuff I’m considerin
so with chuck my oc, what if the story takes place while he’s an old man but he gets relapses of his life before comin home until that’s all there is to the story. He’s still livin then he never really left then. Or alternatively he grows up with a good family but then has to leave cause the human government is just like “right we don’t want you here” then goes off planet to fight to see his family again ‘n makes friends, enemies, meets others of his own species learns bout himself, fights the police ‘n Maybe he fucks
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x-honeycomb-x · 3 months
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wow, where do I go with this
firstly, thank you so much for all the messages about me helping you building a better relationship with femininity. It makes me really happy. I am sending a warm hug to all of you.
moving forward I think I will one day study more about shadow work (psychology) and appreciate how detrans kink has helped me overcome a lot of things.
but I also don't plan to stay here.
to answer the big question, how do you feel about your gender after all these? I feel non-binary. sometimes I feel euphoria being mistaken as trans fem and im happy. sometimes i feel really euphoric for being a mlm trans man, and i like being the androgynous one.
I truly just experimented with my gender in early 2023, and I found out it is really fun to be a girl. but I am not one. but i'm happy i experimented with it.
by all means, experiment with your gender. play with your gender. you don't have to make it shame-bound. i stopped doing shame-play because it was impacting on my mental health deeply and negatively.
at first i couldn't stop masturbating to shameful emotions. i went to Sex Addicts Anonymous meetings, left because it has a Christianity origin (although they're so open-minded and religion/atheism friendly) and there's a lot of shame involved there too.
but SAA and the people there really helped me build a positive lifestyle when I was there. I carried the positive changes and influences into my life.
i feel like myself finally. and all that journey was worth it in the end. i felt like myself with finally living on my own, making new friends, healing my own attachment woundings, going to therapy, finding my community and experiencing so much queer joy. and i learnt to be vulnerable in a good way, so i can build authentic relationships. (with a lot of financial and emotional support from family and friends)
i don't know. this is the light at my tunnel end for me i think. i was very miserable when i was starting this blog, and now i have overcome a lot of that misery. i am still struggling with depression and anxiety. but i am having a way better time now.
guys, just between us I wanna share two things. Firstly, I really wanna stop my period but not lose my hair. So i got on birth control (progesterone). But it is pushing me towards a psychological deep-end and I do not wanna risk destabilizing myself. (Took me a long time to become mentally stable.) So I think I will get back on testosterone after taking a year of taking a break.
Yeah, one day I might be as bald as the men on my mother's side. But it's good to look my age. I am a radiant person. I am sure I will still be lovable and beautiful and alternative when I get there. Rocking a mullet on the back with a balding on top.
And secondly, I realize I really like he/they trans boys, and I want to love them as myself. A they/he/she. I wanna be in a gay relationship with them. I want maybe two boyfriends and one girlfriend (or enbyfriends!) and I want to meet the metamours, my beloveds' beloveds. I want to be in a polycule with a lot of queer joy in the household. maybe i'll meet them at 2am when getting pizza wearing baggy sweatpants, who knows!
i am happy and i wanna spread that queer joy here. and i wanna send you guys my love.
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booksandpaperss · 8 months
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some ramble-y thoughts on men's social isolation and women's safety bc this has been on my mind for a bit
I do think it's really sad how men end up feeling so isolated bc of various social expectations as well as people being cruel, but as a fem presenting person I have to say that you can't just expect women and anyone who is fem presenting to just "start being nicer". ive seen a few posts on Tumblr essentially stating that but I have to reiterate it is about safety. I literally cannot afford to stop looking at men with caution and assumed violence until I get to know them really well bc if I stop that could genuinely cost me me life. its true that most men I see probably are not predators and im sure it hurts to be perceived that way, but I have no way of being able to tell who is and isn't going to harm me. I have to assume the worst because it is the only way I can stay safe.
it sucks, it really does, for all parties involved. I have so much sympathy for the men who are genuinely kind and would never hurt me that feel isolated, it isn't fair, and I myself certainly don't enjoy the *necessary* fear that the random guy im passing on the street could see me and decide to hurt me, but this is the reality of the world. there is no easy solution, but what certainly isn't a solution is expecting women to start being kinder to men they dont know because once again: that could genuinely cost someone their life.
The best solution right now I think is to continue to try to deconstruct misogyny and gender roles, and that takes time, patience, and understanding.
I have also seen the notion on here that men feeling isolated socially is misandry, but the reality is that misandry is simply not real on a systemic scale. men feeling isolated is a direct result of the patriarchy and a side affect of misogyny. a lot of things on this website that are perceived as misandry are either not real problems or they are but they're just the impacts of misogyny and the gender roles that come with it.
But it is very surreal to be walking alone at night, clutching my pepper spray and glaring whenever a man I don't know is near me, making sure to stay next to the street and make it obvious I know exactly where I'm going and still feeling the fear that it might not be enough and something horrible could happen to me anyway, only come back to Tumblr and see people saying misandry is just as prevalent as misogyny and women need to start considering how it feels for men to be looked at like they're predators. Touch grass seems like an applicable statement here.
oh and obligatory piss on the poor tumblr disclaimer: I know I am using binary terms so before any of you get on your high horse about it, I myself am non binary. I am not actually a woman, but I certainly look like one and therefore deal with misogyny. I fully understand that trans men and genderqueers of all kinds as well as even feminine cis men also fear for their life on the street so dont even think abt getting on my ass about that. oh and if any of you try to call this a terf post consider yourself blocked with a recommendation to get a refresh on what terf actually means instead of just throwing around the term when you see any post trying to talk about misogyny :D
final disclaimer bc I wanna cover all my bases due to Tumblr reading comprehension: im aware topics like this are very nuanced with lots of layers, please dont act like im obligated to cover all that in a random Tumblr post of all things, I cannot possibly cover everything nor am I obligated to. I simply wanted to remind ppl that actual lives are at risk and fem presenting people constantly and regularly fear for their life bc I feel like that gets left out a lot in conversations like this on here. <3
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candyn-gutz · 6 months
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ok anyway i promised u my internet idols and i am here to deliver. don't mind that there's going to be a lot of the same song... ehehe... i also haven't listened to the unit songs for the two units so like. i cannot send u any of those until i do
so !! lets just start with strpri (strawberry prince) guys i listen to! (riinu's my favorite from strpri btw)
riinu ! the red one. transmasc and i love him so much. if riinu can do it i can do it ! his liddle guy is a dogboy :). shoujorei, magical girl and chocolate, loveit
root ! the yellow guy. very soft kinda voice. love this guy. his youtube channel is mostly minecraft its funny. darling dance, bug
colon! little blue guy. also got that soft kinda voice that i enjoy. devil janai mon
satomi ! pink. has a more mature sounding voice compared to the other three. got a nice bit of power while still being kinda smooth. kinda nice tbh. shoujorei, kamipoina (godish)
nanamori ! purple. had to stop being a utaite for a bit after he kinda got doxxed or smth. like satomi has a more mature voice but still has that smoothness to it (also his voice just sounds neat) one of my faves tbh. he does solo stuff more now :) also he's the founder of strpri!! yellow, loveit, vampire (rlly shows off his power)
nanamori technically isn't active in strpri itself anymore, but he's still active as a utaite and as strpri's like. manager? kinda? so he counts. to me <3
also! lavie (root, colon, satomi, riinu)
KnightA! lets ignore that my favorite enstars unit is knights, and just move on...
vau ! red guy. leader of KnightA. i have mixed feelings on his voice but he has such a unique vocal style that i listen anyway (and im coming to enjoy his voice...). he's got a lot of interesting vocal stuff he does. gets very loud and growly sometimes its impressive. devil janai mon (he sings in a lower and a higher register to mimic deco and pino's styles, and even while singing high he can still growl and emit so much power behind that voice), loveit
soma! yellow. soft but mature voice! usually sings in his normal register but has a few times where he gets a little higher or a little deeper and growly. knightA loves their powerful voices with those growls man. ough. bug, non-breath oblige, gehenna
mahito ! blue. he doesn't do solo stuff very often but has a kinda unique voice to me... very smooth yet a bit low. you don't expect the voice that comes outta that liddle blue guy. goodbye declaration
teruto ! pink. very soft and gentle voice. i enjoy it a lot actually. he does a lot of solo stuff and has covered a lotta songs :) kyukurarin, please play-bite, magical girl and chocolate, goodbye delcaration
shiyun ! green. VERY powerful voice. loves those screams and growls. he gets growly a LOT. when not being all growly he has a very smooth voice, kinda high at times but he's also very good at singing lower ! usseewa, bug, apocalypse now, n ah ah (vocals on this one are very whispery and airy, and then he gets loud for one part towards the end :3)
yukimura ! purple. not actually part of KnightA anymore bc they wanted to go solo, but left the group on good terms! very soft voice. almost feminine sounding? good at hitting highs bc of it. very pleasing to listen to them tbh. also they're kinda controversial in japan bc they're uh ! a fucked up little guy ! read their page on the utaite wiki abt that lmao. also their gender isn't known so :3 ! tensei ringo, ifuudoudou, shoujorei, devil janai mon (w/ utu-kun)
multisongs ! unfriendly haters (shiyun + teruto), identity (vau + yukimura - their voices contrast SO much)
and !! misc guys.
utaranuki ! tanuki guy. got a nice voice. i don't have much to say abt him skdghds. urataneko, ifuudoudou, lavie, magical girl and chocolate
utu-kun ! name literally means depression-kun. most low energy covers ever i love it. also if you run his titles thru google translate they are literally so funny. smooth voice, pleasing to listen to :3 internet overdose (this song in utu's low-energy vibe is so funny tbh), lavie, vampire (shows off his low-energy vibe so well. also the full title is "i, who is afraid of blood, covered [vampire]"), bug (blood in the image, btw),
soraru ! you know soraru. everyone know soraru. soft and smooth voice. ghost city tokyo, kamipoina, menhera janai mon (w/ mazeta)
mazeta! i didn't listen to a lot of his stuff but like he has such a unique vocal style a lot like vau. soft voice with an interesting accent but also just fucking goes ham sometimes. hibana, ego rock (w/ utu-kun. shows off his "go ham" voice where he gets growly and like. sharp. for lack of a better term), usseewa (got some Go Ham mazeta in it :3)
ivudot. i don't listen to a lot of his stuff. has a very smooth like. anime protag voice. but also can sing in a higher and kinda softer register ! nee nee nee, shoujorei
whalewood! fascinating name tbh. i haven't listened to a lot of his stuff tbh but ! soft smooth voice. does some fun vocal stuff at times mostly w/ post-processing effects. gekkou (w/ suisoh), villain, traffic jam
suisoh ! also soft !! i do not listen to a lot of suisoh's stuff though so. yanno. ph, venom
visibly exploded when i saw this in my inbox/pos
thank you so much for being so through with them!!! i love hearing the thoughts. that are being thunked oughbnn ♡♡♡ i will definetely update u as i go through them hoho
but for now i'm really eepy so gonna try to get some sleep...
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Hello! I enjoy your blog and hearing you talk about the another cast! (I got into the franchise in like late August, am addicted) uh what would you say is your favorite hcs for some of the characters?
.....i never answered this i am SO sorry </3 gonna try to list off random hcs for a mix of characters!!
1)yuuki + nikei bond over drinking a absurd amount of soda. yuuki drinking mountain dew will always be real to me, and we knowww nikei likes weird and obscure sodas
2)kizuna struggles with being possessive over her items and doesn't like people borrowing her stuff, but if she actually tried it, she'd realize she really likes buying gifts for people
3)kanata isn't super into fashion but she likes feeling pretty, and often feels cute in like... flowy dresses, but she rarely has the time/energy, and feels a bit weird "dressing up"
4)while he felt more in his element in the killing game/had reason to distance himself from the class, and not try to bond with them, in non-despair verses, tsurugi feels really awkward around the others, and has a hard time engaging and making friends. part of this is because he befriended kouhei via kouhei looking at him and going "is for me?", part of it is because he's. ya know. still extremely traumatized by the uh... other thing that happened with kouhei
5)kinji can't draw for shit. like, objectively speaking, he can't get his pencil to do what he wants
6)yoruko dedicates one day a week to taking care of her hair, nails, skin, etc. it helps her feel in control + comfortable with her experience after being bullied, but once she does some more healing with her past, she realizes it's just genuinely soothing now
7)emma isn't very popular with her fellow actors. she tends to isolate a lot when on set, and isn't close with her co-stars. she's very friendly with reports, fans, et cetera though.
8)haruhiko is very "man i wish i liked dudes, girls are totally sweet, but sometimes i wish i could date guys too..." not realizing he literally just described an attraction to both genders.
9)im just generally a queer yuri truther. i remember seeing people say hc'ing him as lgbt was gross. i for one think that looking at how he acts in canon and going "yeah this is fine and healthy and indicative of a good mental status" is gross.
10)mikako had a "not like other girls" phase which she has officially left behind her, but only semi-recently. while working on undoing that mentality, she realized she's sapphic (i hc her as a-spec too tho, maybe aro lesbian? my identity hcs change every three seconds whoopsie)
11)speaking of. EVERYONE TRANS!!! i esp like transhet shinji tho that has a special place in my heart. he's big bro, ur honor <3
okay i want to say more BUT i have a lab due in a few hours and dont want to fall class so. the end!!!!! oh fuck i have to tag this.
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bogkeep · 1 year
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oh god this week has turned my entire brain to complete mush. "captain it's wednesday" yeah. gonna be okay again now tho
had an incredibly emotionally fraught appointment with the trans clinic on monday, a video call with a By All Accounts very well-meaning nice lady that left me crying for two hours afterwards. like, i Genuinely Believe she WANTS to do well, which makes it all the harder to process a conversation that made me feel like they're going to reject me after basically two years in this horrible torture chamber of a system. after an hour of "i'm a little worried because you seem uncertain in your identity as a man" and "i promise i want to do what's Best For You" and "it's about academic integrity" (AS JUSTIFICATION FOR NOT GIVING TREATMENT TO NON-BINARY PEOPLE) and "i promise we're not an evil institution that is gleefully trying to ruin your life" and "i'm not sure if i understand your explanation, i think it's because of the autism" and uhhhh some tearful begging from my side i was left with "i am going to need to discuss with my colleagues, i will call you back in two days" i basically spent the Next Two Days like
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OH GOD THEY'RE GOING TO REJECT ME FOR BEING TOO NON-BINARY AND TOO AUTISTIC AND FOR BEING TOO HONEST AND BAD AT LYING EVEN IF MY LIFE DEPENDS ON IT OH GOD OH FUCK I'VE WASTED TWO YEARS OF MY LIFE FUCKKKK WHAT IF THEY'RE RIGHT WHAT IF I'M NOT TRANS ENOUGH WHAT IF THE SHADOW COUNCIL DECIDES MY IDENTITY DOESN'T REAL- & touched base with my social circles to have them figuratively snap their fingers in front of my face like "hey. hey. you're trans. they're being evil at you. they're gatekeeping you from being Just Some Guy" to regain my sanity. ANYWAY I'M HAPPY AND EXTREMELY RELIEVED TO REPORT THEY HAVEN'T REJECTED ME I'M STILL IN THE RUNNING TO GET MY GENDER MEDICALLY TRANSED. so NOW i feel stupid for like, thinking they were gonna throw me out EVEN THOUGH I HAD VERY VALID REASONS FOR FEELING THAT WAY JESUS CHRIST, and the lady was like "well you clearly didn't read the journal note" (THEY UPDATED THE JOURNAL????? I COULD HAVE CHECKED IT EARLIER??? MOTHERFUCKER) and sounded kinda offended when i was like "i feel like im not being listened to and respected and it feels kinda bad when a group of people with power over me have to discuss whether or not my identity is real" and she replied "that is NOT what we do" WHAT DO YOU DO THEN???????? AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA anyway the waiting times inbetween appointments are horrid but considering that each appointment kinda feels like getting gaslit for a solid hour maybe it's for the best hahahaha haha ha haaaaaa
im gonna lie down with some choccy milk
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mortiium · 26 days
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     𝐰𝐡𝐨  𝐢𝐬  ..  𝒋𝒂𝒄𝒌 𝒉𝒂𝒍𝒍 ? 
tip  of  the  iceberg. 
full  name :   jack  ernest  hall
age / dob :   twenty - eight  /  january  first  ( capricorn  new year baby ) 
gender / pronouns :   cis man  /  he + him
sexuality :   bisexual 
species :   werewolf
dwelling :   prospect hill
occupation :   history teacher at marina high , assistant coach 
in  a  word. 
nurturing.  honorable.  officious.  arrogant.  warm.  charming.  absent - minded. fervid.  
type a and the a can sometimes be for asshat. respecter of women. friend of the milf.
water tower watching. icarus was never afraid of heights or falling. the smell of an old book. loose thread on a vintage sweater. a house so warm it shimmers under certain light. bones too big. has there ever been one non - tragic hero? old leather. muscles sore from regular use. martyr - you've always been looking for something to die for. dimples and clenched jaw , blond curls framing. every chess piece knocking over. the hungry animal in your mouth.
let’s  talk  about  jack. 
the eldest son born to samuel and melissa hall - two local professors. his partners were both human, though it's been rumored his father's line had once included some wolf.
the hall's lived a quiet life in a farmhouse out in prospect hill, on land that has belonged to his father's families for generations. they still to this day provide a few crops to the farmer's market - though it's little more than room for the family horses to roam anymore.
jack was ten when his siblings were born. the two twins, thomas and mary, were the light of the halls' world.
unfortunately, melissa wouldn't be around to see them grow up. when jack was thirteen and the twins were three, melissa was killed in what was deemed "an accident", and little more. samuel still mourns her terribly, but he did step up into the role of single provider with his whole heart.
despite the loss, jack's childhood was not an unhappy one - he played a big part ( and still does ) in raising the twins, he excelled in school and athletics. he was quarterback of the football team, an outfielder on the baseball team, a forward in lacrosse. it was actually annoying how jack seemed to be good at anything he wanted to be.
the second great tragedy of jack's life was also the one that turned him. the death of his cousin, dominic, and the wolf bite he sustained in the confusion. still to this day jack is unsure if it was dom or another werewolf that bit him that night, but they both surely left him to figure things out on his own.
for over a year jack struggled immensely. he left home for fear of endangering the little family he had left. he flunked out of college for abandoning his courses. it wasn't until he discovered a proper misfits pack of his own that jack was able to settle into himself - to pick up some semblance of a life. since, he has graduated with an associates degree, began work at marina high, and reunited with his biological family.
his only question is was he allowed to linger in the wild for a bit too long? how tamed can be truly be?
hiii everyone im so excited to be here i'm alli (she/her) (24) and im in the cst and i want to be ur friend! this is jack the first of a few muses i am bringing to terrorize marina with pls pls love me. tap dances.
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