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sicnin · 11 months

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"...to lose oneself..."

#weeping !!!!!!!!!!! crying !!!!!!!!!!#totk #totk spoilers #totk fanart #tears of the kingdom #tears of the kingdom spoilers #tears of the kingdom fanart #zelda #zelda fanart #zelda spoilers #light dragon #light dragon fanart #spoilers #so many spoilers #i drew this almost two weeks ago when i found out #i just...#baby girl im so sorry i will fix this #i WILL fix this #my art

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skitskatdacat63 · 5 months

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Fernando Alonso & His Relationship With Cards

I'm sure we're all familar with the cards on the back of Fernando's Vegas GP helmet by now, but did you know his relationship with cards goes a lot deeper?

I. Magic Tricks

You've probably seen or heard someone at least mention Fernando's propensity for card tricks. As far as I can tell he was doing them(publically) as far back as 2003 all the way to as recently as 2018. Even once performing a card trick, with a condom and a teddy bear(!??!?!??!!), in front of Valentino Rossi who said "How was that possible?"(x)

But how did this start? According to James Allen, "Fernando admits to having been heavily influenced by his grandfather, a mercurial figure, who taught him magic and card tricks, still one of his passions away from the race track."(x) And I'm not sure the validity of this one, because I couldn't find an actual source, but apparently he once said: "My parents are responsible for the two things I like doing most - driving and magic tricks. They bought me my first go-kart and a magician's kit."

In several interviews he described it as his hobby off track, and that he loved learning new tricks and surprising others in the garage with them! So clearly cards are pretty important to him both as a hobby but also to who he is as a person since they've been with him just as long as racing has.

II. Card Symbolism in His Helmets

This is the reason I originally made this post, but I thought I should also explain the origins of his card fascination first. As I said, we probably all remember the cards on the back of his helmet in Vegas, but did you know that wasn't the first time he had cards on the back of his helmet?

From 2008-2013, he used to have a pair of cards on the back of his helmets. The symbolisms of the cards themselves as well as the evolution of their design is really fascinating to me! Even more so with the recent development of the card choice in 2023.

Fernando said he wanted to reference his two titles in some way on the back of his helmet and after his friend sent him several ideas, he decided on having two cards(an ace of clubs and an ace of hearts, sometimes pictured with 05 and 06 on them as well), saying: "I picked the cloverleaf [the ace of clubs - Ed] to give me luck, but the only pity is that it doesn't have four leaves!"(X)

2008.

Here's the very first appearance of the cards! They're displayed flat, with the 05 and 06 clearly visible

2009.

Very similar to 2008, but with a slightly different design, and they're maybe a bit more straight with less shadow?

2010.

This is the first major change! I was sad they didn't have the years on them anymore, but then I realized they're sparkly to match with his signature lightning bolts on the top of the helmet!!

2011.

Honestly I'm still somewhat unsure if this is the actual 2011 helmet? It's pretty difficult to find clear photos of the back of helmets from older seasons. It's easiest to find them on replica sites or auction sites so I'm not 100%? But anyways, I like that this has the championship years on the underside of the cards

2012.

This is when I started getting weirdly emotional about the helmets. Do you see how they've progressed from being a centerpoint to being curled up and sad at the bottom of the helmet? Not listing the year anymore??

2013.

Same thoughts as 2012. And after this season, they cease to exist (just like his ferrari chair in the garage, WOAH CALLBACK), until cards make a reeappearance in his Vegas helmet, albeit in a different form

2013 Monaco(Honorable Mention):

For some reason 2013 helmets were easier to find proper pictures of, so I happened to witness this absolute beauty. The creativity of this helmet genuinely blows me away??? Wanting to keep the card motif, but making sure to incorporate it into the rest of the puzzle piece design?? Mwah! There was another special 2013 helmet but they didn't change the cards at all so I really applaud this one

2023 Las Vegas(The Return of The King):

The magnificent return! But look! The cards are different cards! Instead of being two aces, it's now an ace of hearts, a four of hearts(his driver number of course!) and, the, now iconic, representation of himself as a Joker. I literally could not believe my eyes when this helmet was released and I saw the Joker card, what a fucking silly old man....I really wonder if he felt nostalgic having cards on his helmet again or if he didn't think about it all and was just like, "ah cards because Vegas!!!"

III. Why Does This Matter?

*The rest of the post was factual, this is moreso my personal thoughts on the symbolism of the cards/designs

This post spawned from me recently watching the 2010 Bahrain gp and noticing "hey wait a minute...are those CARDS ON THE BACK OF HIS HELMET!?" It's a really tiny detail that's unfortunately covered up by the HANS device pretty much whenever he's wearing the helmet, so it's really difficult to spot! But I became fascinated with the fact that he had cards on his helmet before that recent helmet, and now here we are!

There's something to me about how the design of the cards evolves over the course of six seasons from the cards being front and center to being smaller, more folded up and closer to the bottom of the helmet. As I said, the 2012-2013 ones genuinely made me depressed because it feels, symbolically, like his hopes for getting another Ace are becoming more and more unlikely and falling away until they eventually fall falt and fade away entirely after 2013 and disappear for basically a decade.

But when they return? They're not the same cards! Instead of representing Fernando's championships, they now represent him as a person, displaying his driver number and his persona of being a Joker!! Though I do think it's interesting he happened to keep the Ace of Hearts, even though he talked more about the Ace of Clubs before. I'm not sure it's actually this deep in reality, but I like to think that it's him not letting his championships(and the lack thereof) define him, but rather letting who he is as a person shine and be the centerpoint instead! But on a sadder note, as @suzuki-ecstar said to me, maybe the Aces aren't there anymore because he's lost all hope for a chance at a third Ace entirely :(

#yes its finals week and im up to my eyes in coursework but instead decided to spend like 5 hours researching and writing this post #nah bcs i actually genuinely put more work into this then I think I have all semester dsfjdskjg #that thing about him using a condom and teddy bear in a magic trick genuinely had me crying with laugher. actual tears rolling down my face #<- HOW!?!? WHAT WAS THE TRICK?? its literally inconceivable to me what he did. oh if only there were pics UGH #anyways!! this post was a lot of fun to make!! i really really love the symbolism and design of helmets so this was a rly fun project #and i also went down a lot of rabbitholes while make this and saw many very weird articles from yore #i feel like i make an equal amnt of deranged posts abt seb and nando but i dont know why nando is gifted w all my well researched projects #<- i.e. chair post. that was the same level of research as this one but at least this one i could find actual sources about....#idk theres smth about the extremely long history of nando's history that evokes research posts like this KLAJSLSKDJ #theres just so much that i dont think I ever really see people discussing! so i must create.#haha what was that joke tag i wanted to make abt my researched posts? I think:#normal posts that catie normally makes in a normal fashion #<- one day ill go back and actually tag posts w that. bcs the amtn of research compared to my actual schoolwork is so unwell #fernando alonso #fa14 #f1 #formula 1 #catie.rambling.txt #we do a little bit of f1

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just-null-cult · 5 months

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the way you drew kokichi .. i think im ascending to the heavens .. i see the light .. chest collapsing .. heartbeat flatlining ..

oho, a Kokichi enjoyer!! tysm!! it was my first time drawing him at the time so im glad i didnt fail him. i dont want to fail any of the kyoto group. i love them all!! even w my clear favoritism

he's nice too, a bit more expressive than Noritoshi so i can finally draw something that isnt :| or >:( even if it isnt by much- i like him too

I like how he's both a dick but also kinda sweet. He's a different flavor of tsun... i can use this. my knowledge on him is limited but FROM WHAT I SAW IN THE WIKI OH MY GOD???????? OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!!!!! KOKICHI!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#muta kokichi #kokichi muta #mechamaru #kokichi muta x reader #mechamaru x reader #? i guess #double post lets go im tryna be as fast as lightning #woah a non noritoshi post... crazy.......#my hands feel tingly and weird #my blog is so yume centric that my one track mind made you a love interest right off the bat #fuck it. everyone's in love w you unless stated otherwise #congrats. youre a harem leader/protag now except i have a strong bias towards one guy unless asked abt someone else #AND I JUST FOUND OUT MORE ABT KOKICHI???? WHY AM I FUCKING CRYING????? DUDE WHAT THE FUCK #OH NO THIS IS NOT CORRECT.. IS THIS WHAT SHIBUYA ARC IS???? DUDE #IM GONNA RIP OUT MY HAIR. THIS CANNOT BE. I CANT FAWN OVER ANOTHER CHARACTER W SO LITTLE SCREEN TIME AND CONTENT GOD PLEASE #HE GIVES SO MANY VIBES..... LIKE FUCKED UP 'i'll sacrifice the world for you' VIBES AND ITS MAKING MY BRAIN KRCHAKKRCHAKKRCHACK #kokichi muta... another hidden gem.... wipes tear #we'll treat you right kokichi... sobs. there there

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abaddown · 26 days

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Breakup

OK, OK, I'm going to go home and break up with her. But what do I tell her? "I deserve better." Jesus, no, definitely not that. Even if that's true, only women say that. "You deserve more." Now, that's pretty good. But she's gonna start to get all unintelligent and tell me I'm good just the way I am. That's the way it is. Haha. "I want to live." That'll take the edge off. I might as well say I want to fuck half of Europe. Let's see. "I think we should be apart now so we can be together later." That's not bad, but I don't want to be together later. I'd spare you the hysterics, but I'd be constantly harassed about when that later was. "I'm in love with someone." That seems pretty definitive, but she'd want to know who the bitch was, and it would start a never-ending interrogation about where I met her, when we met, was the sex good, do I regret it, did I think about her, why I didn't tell her, blah blah blah blah... "I cheated on you." Same thing. Oh God, the easiest thing would be to just disappear without a word, never pick up the phone, never answer her texts again. Okay, it's a little bit of a chick thing. "I don't want kids yet." And then she says, "Neither did she. "I want a baby now." She'll end up saying she does too. "I need to focus on my career now." I'm sure her mothering side would come out and assure me that she'll be supportive, patient, that I can build my career, that she's there for me and won't abandon me in the hardest times. Too bad. Wait a minute! I should make her want to break up. Then how much unnecessary crying and screaming would be saved. I'd pretend a little bit, "Oh, no." and then that's it, hat, coat, goodbye. But it would be too long a process to wait. "Something's wrong, this isn't working." I can hear her saying, "But what, tell me what's wrong, I'll change, just tell me what I can do differently! I know you love me, it's just a moment of desperation, believe me, we can work it out!" No, we can't, I don't want to. Okay, I've got a big mouth now, but I actually loved her and I still love her. Just not the way it should be. Like she did me. But I don't want to hurt her. She's a sweet girl. If I said, "I'm sorry, but I don't love you the way I should and the way you deserve. I'm sorry.", you know what? She'd start to tear herself up, eat her insides out, cry for weeks and look for reasons why she'd gone wrong. I don't want to hurt you. That feeling either comes or it doesn't. Or it comes and then it goes. I'm gone, what do I do?

If you break up with a woman, why does she always, at all costs, try to convince you that you're stupid and don't feel what you feel? I can just decide if I want to be with someone or not. Women, I swear, think that we men are so mentally retarded that we don't recognize when we really love someone. God, how many times have I listened to break ups and say "I know you love me. Deep down, you love me so much, you just don't realize it. You're really going to regret this." It's simply impossible to break up cleanly, without scandal. What do you have to say to that? Fuck, is it that late? Look, she's calling again, asking where I am, what I'm doing, when I'll be home. I'm gonna have to talk to her and break up with her. I'm gonna go. I'll call you later.

- Hey, girl, I'm home. What's all this stuff, you going on a trip?

- No. I'm moving.

- You're moving? Where are you going? Why are you going away?

- Out. You know why. I can't do this. Listen, I think we should cut this short. I don't know about you, but I haven't been happy in this relationship for a long time, and I don't think you have either. I think the best thing we can do is just quietly accept that this is the way it is and break up. We have no reason to be angry with each other, so we can separate from each other peacefully. I've got some stuff left here, and I'll pick it up sometime.

- But hey, wait a minute. Just like that? Are you seeing anyone? What's the matter? You want to talk about it or work it out? You're just gonna throw everything away? I don't get it. Is it me? But I love you. Let's talk about it. Let’s fix it!

- Forgive me, but I don't love you the way I should and the way you deserve. I'm sorry..

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Then she walked out of the apartment. And I've never felt more in love with any woman in my life than I did with her, staring at the closed door.

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c28hunter · 5 months

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GUYS WE NEED ALL THE POWER OF MANIFESTATION RIGHT NOW TO MAKE JOKER OUT MAKE MORE SONGS IN SLOVENIAN/SERBIAN 🙏🕯🙏🕯🙏🕯🙏🕯🙏🕯🙏🕯🙏🕯

#joker out #man seeing songs in slavic languages go viral made me emotional #so many people tearing their throats while yelling “mi bomo celo noč plesali”#that made me cry #im not against english songs (lmao i vibe to ssol) but PLEASE THE LANGUAGE WAS ONE OF THE THINGS THAT MADE THEM STAND OUT #if people don't want to listen to them just because of the language then it's their loss #i will love them no matter what language the album is but FOR GOD'S SAKE PLEASE I FELL IN LOVE WITH SLOVENIAN

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opikiquu · 1 month

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.Aventurine. Aventurine. Boy wh y

#★ arin rambles #★ my art #my best friend finished aventurines boss in 1 try #(i was stuck so i never knew what happened after)#wish she never did #im filled with so much sorrow #THE NOTE. THE NOTE THE NOTE THE NOTE #HE. CARES HE CARES SO M #IM DOOMED #IM TOO LITTLE FOR ALL THIS SADNESS #SO MUCH . TEARS . TOO MANY SAD. WHY. WHYYY MEEEE #The note……… Im never ever gonna drop this ever #Aventurine’s story will haunt me forever #(affectionately)#so good….. but like in a painful way. Like ive been crying for 3 days now #today was the worst offense. MY HEAD HURTS STILL #SAVE ME FROM THIS NIGHTMARE CALLED escape penacony obby!#ill stop rambling now . I need . Rest. Or a ratiorine overdose whichever i find first #i hope my best friends dont see these tags they’ll think im pathetic #And i am. But nobody has to know that #THE NOTE— Okay fine ill stop ILL STOP #hsr penacony spoilers #hsr penacony #penacony #dr ratio x aventurine #dr ratio #aventurine x dr ratio #aventio #ratiorine #hsr aventurine

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marymekpop · 8 months

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⟢ highlight of the hour: my dearest [5/20] ⟣

eyes never lie

#my dearest #korean drama #nam goongmin #ahn eun jin #mygif #mmkfav #mdhoth #ep 5 was so good and there were sooo many hoth-worthy moments #but this scene?? THIS SCENE??#i had the biggest smile on my face #look at how wide opened gc's eyes were #she was so happy to see him alive #she was so happy to see him again #MY HEART #i wanted to cry a bunch of tears watching this part #im still not over it

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rusquared · 4 months

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youtube

v big news for annoying people called rusquared. so the song that was my most played in 2023 has a DUET VERSION NOW. fuck.

context: the song is sung in both korean & japanese, as a love letter to a lover on the other side of the ocean. it is assumed the lover speaks japanese and the singer korean, so she translates every line of her letter as she sings it to them.

so a duet, featuring a japanese singer, is just putting it in a whole different meaning. its a conversation now, not just a wistful song sung at the ocean's edge. at the end, the japanese singer sings in korean and the korean singer in japanese. they don't sound natural. they're singing words of love that they're not fluent in, but understand intimately.

the lyrics, to anyone interested (amateur translation i did w/ google's help):

제 마음은 바다를 넘어가네요

시를 싣고 날아가네요

my heart is crossing the sea

it takes flight on top of a poem

心は海を越えて行く

詩を乗せて飛んで行く

my heart is crossing the sea

it flies away on top of a poem

제 마음은 길 위를 이어가네요

별을 따라 걸어가네요

my heart continues down the road

it continues following the stars

心は道を繋げて行く

星を見上げて行く

my heart continues down the road

it continues following the stars

헤메이는 숲에서

작은 아이 같은 마음을 안아주세요

우린 언젠가 다시 만날 거에요

가을비가 내리는 날에

in the lost forest

please embrace my child-like heart

we will meet again someday

on a day of autumn rain

迷える森で幼い心を抱きしめて

僕らはいつかまた会えるのさ

秋の雨が降る日に

in the lost forest

please embrace my child-like heart

we will meet again someday

on a day of autumn rain

하얗게 물들어버린 제 마음을 쫓아가세요

하얗게 타들어버린 그대 마음을 따라 갈게요

follow my heart that has been dyed white

i will follow your heart that has been burned white

제 마음은 바다를 넘어가네요

시를 싣고 날아가네요

my heart is crossing the sea

it flies away on top of a poem

心は道を繋げて行く

星を見上げて行く

my heart continues down the road

it continues following the stars

헤메이는 숲에서

작은 아이 같은 마음을 안아주세요

in the lost forest

please embrace my child-like heart

僕らいつかまた会えるのさ

someday we will meet again

가을비가 내리는 날에

on a day of autumn rain

제 마음은 바다를 넘어가네요

시를 싣고 날아가네요

제 마음은 길 위를 이어가네요

별을 따라 걸어가네요

하얗게 물들어버린

제 마음을 쫓아가세요

하얗게 타들어버린

그대 마음을 따라 갈게요

제 마음은 바다를 넘어가네요

시를 싣고 날아가네요

my heart crosses the sea

it flies on top of a poem

my heart travels down the path

following the stars

please follow my heart that has been dyed white

and ill follow your heart that has been burned white

my heart crosses the sea

it takes flight on top of a poem

#i actually teared up after many months this is insane #its so gentle #its so loving #its a fucking conversation now im going to cry.#there's this little moment where the japanese singer messes up the korean line #but that makes it even more. god.#i dont speak your language. i have something important to tell you. i will try.#FUCK.

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faradyke · 2 months

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Why is it that I had to read a crunchroll YouTube comment to find out Saionji is crying in his part of the Revolutionary Girl Utena op.

I'm gonna freak out. If I had any of the brain power to do so, I'd write a goddamn meta about this rn.

#revolutionary girl utena #kyouichi saionji #saionji has so many times where he is tearing up or so close to crying but we never actually see him cry in the show #and the fact that in his one scen in the OP he is actively shedding tears is- GRRRRRAAAAAAAAAHH #im gonna go kookoo bananas #AND HE IS THE ONLY CHARACTER CRYING IN THE OP IM GONNA MCFREAK OUT

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hwaitham · 17 days

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i call dis m " waiting for 4.6 update cyno story quest update so i cn finally see my one true love after a year even if it is only for 10 seconds bcos a mere second w him feels like a thousand lifetimes to me " moodboard

#𓈒 ۫ 𝓹𝓾𝓹𝓹𝓲𝓮 𐂯 𝓹𝓻𝓪𝓽𝓽𝓵𝓮𝓼 ₊⠀ೀ #al haitham more like al byetham bcos of how long he's been gone . .#why does the sun hv to move so slow . . . . why cant it be apr 24th tmrw . hmpphhh #truly i don thimk Anyone understands exactly how awfully ive been missin him . 🥺#ive js been So Sad . been Crying too many tears over him . n im sure 's only rllie bcos of the added stress frm finals but like . .#what the freaking freak ! ! ｡ﾟ(ﾟ´Д｀ﾟ)ﾟ｡#PWEASE ? ? ! 🥺 does he know how much i love him ? ! ! ! ! 🥺🥺 n miss him ? ? !#pwzzzz jus lemme see himmmm ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! 🥺

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opens-up-4-nobody · 2 days

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#oh lads. its not looking good for my genomics exam on Thursday. its all fucked #i dunno. its just been a weird day. bc one of my lab mates is getting ready to go to the astr0biology science conference #and its just so wild how i got here. into the perfect position. i have a great advisor. a great phd project. a committee member who is super #integrated with n4sa astr0biology projects. and so many of the instructors are amazing. my genomics prof is terrifyingly smart #so is my advisor and his wife. and the program is great. ecology and Evolution. its perfect. its all perfect #and yet. and yet. it just feels like its all falling apart. ive lost that compulsive thing thats always set in my chest #and now all i want to do is lay on the floor and cry and sleep and not do anything. why am i so tired?#its just so frustrating. and im sure ive got the most wretched vibes bc im constantly like 1 comment away from bursting into tears #like 2 weeks and its done. then im off to find a summer job. and find a long term job. and consider throwing away everything ive ever worked #toward. just let it all burn. im so tired. and i dont get to see my therapist until Monday. thats gonna b fun #hi. hello. since last i saw you my life has crumbled into pieces. ugh. i just dont wanna fail this genomics exam but it looks like that's #where we're headed. maybe i should have just dipped out of these last 3 weeks. but no. i didnt want to leave the lady i ta for 100 lab #reports to unexpectedly have to grade 4 days before grades are due. ugh. itll b fine. i mean it wont but whatever #unrelated

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ayakopng · 7 months

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jrwi riptide episode 97. ... WHAT THE HELL.

#DUDE WTF #BRO #DUDE #im INSANE #im crazy im going crazy #that was so good #im crying so hard #so many tears #dude .#jrwi riptide #jrwi #just roll with it #gillion tidestrider

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gio-cosmo · 4 months

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THE GAME ISNT EVEN OUT YET AND IM ALREADY CRYING???

#jaw dropped to the floor when this played in the opening my goddd #the entire opening actually is so good im crying #and I mean that literally! tears are in my eyes!#listennnn this game practically raised me I feel like I deserve to be overly emotional abt it 😭🙏#Junpei my dearest…☹️#does this count as spoilers?? should I be tagging this as spoilers???#it plays in the opening but…just in case…#I’m always so nervous abt spoiling people bc it’s happened to me so many times lmfaoo #persona 3 spoilers #not really??? but maybe???#persona 3 #persona 3 reload

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frogizz · 9 months

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Sometimes I remember Amane is a 13 year old boy who has been dead for decades and is bound to a highschool bathroom. Then I go into a deep mind dive into how much I sympathize for him, how wild his brother is, and then the parts of Amane that we don't know because he doesn't like to share his real feelings.

Then I read the next page of the manga and my eyes tear up for Kou, because he is amazing, I feel like adopting him as a little brother, and I would shower him with hugs and telling him he's strong enough.

And then I look at Nene, and I also tear up because she is just a girl who doesn't only get bodyshamed by her classmates but from a bunch of random paranormal beings. Like, imagine just wanting a boyfriend and you get your calves and ankles bashed on emotionally so hard all of the time?

And then I close the book and totally act normal for the rest of my Barnes & Noble 4-5 hour long reading time.

#tbhk #toilet bound hanako kun #jibaku shonen hanako kun #hanako kun #amane yugi #kou minamoto #nene yashiro #and then I look at Mitsuba #and his friendship with Kou #and start crying #so hard #so many tears #MY BABIES #im officially older than all of them so I can now call them my babies

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tallyhoot · 2 months

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ougHhhj get those stupid fucking guys off my fucking screen

#No im not fucking crying because of them #Nope #<- LYING LYING!!!! HAS SO MANY TEARS IN ITS EYES!!!!#Destroys mannequin mark and wallter #ougHH I hate them both so much #<- LYING LYING!!!!#Wallmark angst is killing me rn #Throws them both off a cliff #eddie’s random rambles

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technicallymaximumkitty · 3 months

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screaming, crying, foaming at the mouth. my lill' autistic heart is content and hungering for more! but like it was awesome and fun i was scared but i had the time of my life!!!

it's alls well that ends well with a huge BUT... slapped onto the end of it!

stupid rambles down below XOXO

ok so, hazbin hotel is total eye candy and the colors, the characters, i really hope other adult cartoons, or heck, cartoons in general embrace the chaos of colors and buttons and spot design of hazbin

i know the pacing seems fast to a lot of people but i dont see it that way. it's about as fast as your average musical in my opinion

i dont care how many times this thing has gotten into hot water, everyone who worked on this show is amazing and i wish them all the best.

it was such a wild ride of emotions and feels and it was so pretty.

also adam has a face, wtf, i thought that mask was his face.

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