On my hands and knees begging mom for a haircut aaaaa

curse my habit of only buying the first book of a series in case i dont like it

pairing: bf!peter x reader

synopsis: peter likes having you close to him. all the time

wc: 630 ish

a/n: surprise! another one oops. im rlly bored can u tell? cuddling prompt with peter. reader is a cheeky and annoying lil shit. one office reference. i saw a tiktok about this a long time ago and thought this would be a cute idea to write about. also does anyone know how cuddling works tho?? if ur laying on ur side, do u just lay on top of the arm ur crushing on? under a pillow? idk lol. anyways i hope u like :D

there's an ache settling in your right side that wakes you up from your sweet slumber. your head lays atop peter’s soft chest, his steady heartbeat against your ears. it was what lulled you to sleep in the first place. but with peter’s body practically being your own personal heater, the warm air filling the room, and the prominent soreness resting on your side, you began to feel uncomfortable.

“pete,” you whisper.

peter is entirely unfazed. his hold on you is strong. his face is towards you, mouth slightly ajar, letting out the softest of snores and drool out the corner of his mouth. although you love your cuddles with peter, you think he could actually suffocate you in your sleep. the boy loved to sleep, especially on top of you.

your limbs are tangled together. your left leg slung around his waist, arms around his torso, while his buff arms embrace your shoulders protectively.

ever so slightly, you begin to move your leg, retreating it back to your side as you push against his body and establish a more comfortable position. you snuggle further into peter as sleep wins you over once again.

it only lasts for a second when you wake from your boyfriend’s murmurs, he seems to talk in his sleep when he whispers your name. he huffs loudly and smacks his lips a couple of times with his brows furrowed. you feel his warm hand reach for the back of your knee to bring it over his crotch.

a confused look paints your face as you gaze up toward him. he’s asleep as dead. did he really just do that? you almost laugh out loud. his quirky behavior never fails to amuse you and has your stomach going in flips. he just wants you close to him. :(

but you think you’re funny, so you test out that theory one more time, this time blatantly stripping your leg away from him.

this gets a reaction out of peter. he seems to wake when he gusts an impatient breath, “no” and grabs your knee again, forcefully holding it against him.

in disbelief, you’re unable to contain your burst of laughter as you hold yourself up with one arm and stare at him wide-eyed, “what is wrong with you?”

“ph’shhh” peter knits his brows together, his eyes shut tight with a cute pout, as he blindly brings a hand to your face and gently shoves your head back against your pillow.

“peter-” “shut up.” he feels you lick the palm of his hand, “yuck,” but he doesn’t care to move it away from you. it’s only when you swat his hand away and settle back down against him to give him peace of mind. only for a moment, though. you have fun annoying peter, almost like a hobby. he’s halfway asleep when he feels you aggressively snatch your leg away from his hold.

“y/n!” peter groans, “stop it.” this time, your boyfriend pushes you on top of him, your entire body weight lays over his while he keeps a tight grasp on you, making sure to keep your leg over his waist and your head upon his chest.

his irritation riles you up, and you’re giggling through it all.

peter’s not having it though, not at all. he heaves another deep breath through his mouth, with the same grumpy look on his face, “why are you the way you are?”

you gasp, “me?!” “yes, you.”

not done yet, you flick his forehead, “you know, you’re so annoying sometimes, pete.”

he scoffs, “oh yea?”

“yea. a total pain in the-”

peter shoves his hand against your face and into his chest one last time, “ass.”

you decided you’ve had your fun but you’re too delighted to go back to sleep. too delighted to know that the boy you love and cherish always wants to be impossibly close to you all the time, conscious or not.

cleaned a corner of my room that honestly hasn't been cleaned for months

WIP tag game!

tagged by @wario-speedwagon ty for tagging me!!

Rules: In a new post, post the names of all the files in your WIP folder, regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous. Let people send you an ask with the title that most intrigues them and then post a little snippet of it or tell them something about it!

here's a ton of shit from my notes app and docs. some of them have actual words done and others are just outlines or vague story ideas that havent been started or even outlined yet, but i vaguely know where im going with them

"doll" (thats it i couldnt figure out what to name it) like half an outline, a bit of maths to figure out the timeline but thankfully it has an actual storyline.

"flowers for the sick and dead" a wip one-shot ive been working on for over a month and still am not even halfway through with

"all good things ch2" my wip longfic (probably.. dont even know where its going) thats on hiatus pretty much because it confuses me.

"get out of my house" unfinished omori crackfic from almost a year ago

"fbc au" no outline, no words written down, but its been through so much and i do want to talk about it

"phasmophobia" one shot turned into a fic with many little chapters instead. no words written down but like half an outline.

"blackjack au" multichapter fic with nothing but half a story going for it rn

"ouroboros" old fic idea that got rebranded into something completely different, but i kept the old ver because i still wanna write it one day

"the incredibly strange little girl ch3" literally just the third chapter of one of my crackfics i for some reason havent finished yet

i wish i had more mutuals who wrote fanfics, so im just going to tag a bunch of my mutuals who have fanfic author vibes and hope im right. if i didnt tag you tho, feel free to join in anyway @p13rr0t @jpuff9 @fastrainbowdas @puppetkirbee

Criminal Minds 3x5 - Live Star Reaction

I have a lil list now of Sunny’s favorite episodes from the season, so I will be doing a lot more CM “postage” <33

Okay at first I thought it was an airport oops

Fun fact ! I almost got lost on a mall once as a kid, my aunt was with me trying clothes in this store and forgot I was with her ? And left when she was done? (8yo me had enough common sense to stay put and wait near women) she came back looking for me soon but still, that’s a memory I had forgotten for a while 🤭😗

The aunt called but she’s not here (?)

A joystick controller ???? Also Garcia taking charge 👀 hello

Oh there there the rest of the family is

ALRIGHT I HAVE 5 MINS OF CONTENT, TIME FOR SOME DETECTING

- person was taller than Kate but not necessarily an adult, could be an older teen

- Either someone she knows or who doesn’t look necessarily threatening (could be a woman?)

Why is the uncle blaming his son ???? Sir yOURE THE ADULT ????

I know this family is going through hell right now but all these adults are so unlikeable, ALSO they’re giving me weird vibes (the husbands specially)

Obviously the girls mom is worried something like the Jessica Davis murder might happen to her daughter, she’s sobbing but the dad ? He’s so calm, physically and they’re both SO INTERESTED in that murder (would a parent really want to know the horrors that might happen to their child in detail, like this man just asked to hear)

Why is the uncle trying to DERAIL THIS INVESTIGATION ???? Maybe she’s “just lost” ?????

Are they in on it somehow ? The “tries to insert themselves in the investigation” is so fucking ingrained in my brain, maybe that’s what the dad is trying to do about the JD situation

I hate when the EP name becomes significant 🙃

“Something else lured her away from the arcade” We did see that pink balloon !

“Why would you say I taught her well and not we taught her well?” Considering that she’s probably a stay at home mom ? If any one parent is teaching Katie is her mom?

“We’re not participating in any affairs” ...that you know of, thats kinda the point of an affair

OKAY! I’m even more inclined to the possibility of the unsub being another an older kid, if Katie did have issues with a classmate/friend an older sibling could’ve taken great offense to it

Also the necklace ? It’s very expensive gift and I’m assuming her birthday is either coming up or just happened (cause of that first scene) so maybe she got it as a gift from someone who told her to keep it a secret, that’s why she told her parents she found it

The unsub didn’t want the necklace tho, they didn’t take it they threw it away (maybe they’re angry at Katie for having it, maybe “she doesn’t “deserve” it?)

Okay wait wait wait, we’re just a little after halfway through the episode, and theyre pretty much sure Katie was being molested by her uncle (and his son probably knew something about it or was hurt too) and i just WANT TO PUT THIS OUT THERE ON THE OFF CHANCE THAT IM RIGHT

When the they just lost track of Katie’s scent, it was because a vent from the food court was confusing the dogs and I thought to myself “huh maybe the unsub knows a lot about this mall, maybe they went there on purpose just in case, also they kept themselves just shy of the camera view AND who mentioned having worked retail a long time ? The aunt

I was gonna mention that to support my claim of it being a tween (this person doesn’t need to work in the mall, just spend a lot of time there, and in this suburban of a town? Malls are The Hangout Spot)

Anyways this is just in case the uncle had nothing to do with it, cause he was acting really weird the entire time (the dad was as well)

OH MY GOD WHAT IF THE COUSIN WAS HURTING KATIE ???? OH MY GOD, IS THIS WHAT REID IS GETTING AT ???

JESSICA DAVIS MAYBE ???? Sunny you were right to send this one my way, this is insane

I’m pretty sure I have said every possibility but if any of them are right, I’m an evil genius

If they’re all wrong, Im a humble genius

I know they’re “officers of the law” and what not but god do i wish they could beat up pedophiles (and Im sure they would agree)

MOTHERFUCKER I WAS RIGHT AAAAAA LETS FUCKING GOOOOO

And the reason why I figured something out was THE SAME THING THAT EMILY REALIZED

Idk how easy this one was to find out but I feel pretty smart right now : 3

Literally holy fucking shit, Emily should get to deck this lady out

AND SHES THE ONE WHO CALLED THE POLICE !!!!

That was the most satisfying scene to watch, I wish Prentiss had yelled more at her actually, I wished she slammed the table, thrown a chair around

THEY PULLED A GREYS ANATOMY ON ME !! THEY PLAYED SAD MUSIC ON TOP OF A MONTAGE TO MAKE ME THINK THAT LITTLE GIRL WAS DEAD

Really fucking good episode, holy shit

I think I would’ve been forever fucked in the head if Katie died so good she didn’t

tuesday again ?

i feel like im gonna have a lot of very boring short ones like this because i dont really get to. do fun things. right now because of grad school workload. so there's that. anyways here she is

listening: same locked tomb podcasts as last week, plus some TDH. (i am once again projecting blorbo of the week onto TDH albums - last time it was the untamed onto act v, now we're doing the locked tomb on act iv, my brain is a circle)

like im SORRY but that song is just john god gaius! "So, will I never know heaven or hell?/Or is eternity something worse?" is my body really part of the earth? and is there blood running through my veins? idk john you tell me!

reading: i lied and did finish rereading gideon the ninth in basically one sitting tuesday night last week, oopsie! however i did also read this songxuexiao fanfic, obsessed with the setting and the vibes of that one.

watching: none this week

playing: none this week

making: continuing to crochet my shawl! i was almost halfway done but then i frogged a bunch of rows because i noticed i skipped a stitch about six rows back. so. gotta re-make up that progress unforutnately

BONUS: what delights have I experienced?

walking around: did a LOT of walking this weekend - me + roommate + her boyfriend all went to her family's place outside of chicago for the weekend to belatedly celebrate all our birthdays! walked around geneva and batavia on saturday, i originally planned on using some birthday money on wardrobe additions but unfortunately nothing caught my eye, but i did get this very cute lamp pull from some woodworking grandpas

then we did chicago on sunday, mainly linkin park zoo, which was so good... got to see some great creatures.

fellowship: pain. too much fellowship. an abundance of fellowship. spent the whole weekend with people which was fun but boy howdy do i need some alone time

deliciousness: paneer my beloved. roommate got indian food last night and bequeathed the leftovers upon me so that was lunch today. we hit the chicago oven pizza grinder on sunday and that was pretty good, roommate really hyped it up but it was ... fine ... i think i just can't get over how weird the concept of "pizza pot pie" is. the dough was really good tho. best meal of the weekend was probably sushi on friday night, the restaurant also had one of those robots and it was very cute

goofing: zoo is probably included in the goofing. certainly saw some very good goofy lil guys. meerkats are for sure goofy little guys. hearing their little toes going tippy tap on the stone was priceless.

transcendence: n/a

amelioration: n/a

coitus: im choosing to treat this one as an experience that made me go "wow this fucks" instead of literally fucking because otherwise it will be Blank Every Week.

enthrallment: still majorly hyperfocusing on the locked tomb ... brain empty no thoughts only lyctors

wildcard: n/a

4/17/24 - sketchbook

Just 3 days after i was eating right i got so sick for almost a week. I couldnt stop pooping water. And everyday i felt so tired. So i had to eat rice again even tho i already stopped. Ofcourse that happens just when i tried to change. -__- anyway today i made a sketchbook.. my tito from abroad came home and gave us 10$ each and i was planning to buy this very beautiful sketchbook on mr diy. But when my sister got there it was expensive. So i just didnt buy it. I need the money to buy make up for my make up business soon. So i just didnt go thru with it. Although my sister had this old sketch. You know those cheap ones. I had this idea to convert it to a sketchbook. And its halfway done. And im proud tbh. But now it made me realize how im good at so many things but because of my crippling anxiety, i may not be able to do it for money. I have been keeping myself busy lately. It has been 3 days since i decided to leave ig. for my mental health. I didnt tell them. I didnt want the group to disband because of me. But i really hate how my friendships/relationships never work. I always feel like im always getting left behind. How its all an illusion at first but when shit happens thats always how i end up. Alone. So im leaving for now. Im just not gonna deact because theyd think of disbanding too. Im just not gonna show my life to everyone. They dont deserve to know. Specially those who hurt me and keeps hurting me. i also reflected that maybe im the problem because im the only thing thats constamt in every scenario but no matter how i remember me from all those scenarios, i wasnt in the wrong. I was always nice and always there for them. I reply so quickly. I match their energies. Yet im still left behind. Im tired. whats wrong with me.

Anyway ill post a picture of the sketchbook here when i finish it.

well.

Hi, rant about the 1986 movie chopping mall for a second (there will be more movie rants briefly but gimme a sec) so like SPOILERS but that movie made me so mad and no not because it’s dumb because I actually adore all the dumb shit and I watched a cheesy looking 80s horror movie literally called fucking CHOPPING MALL wtf did I think I was getting into? Okay my real issue is so the better couple objectively was Rick and Linda (the married couple) whereas Ferdy and Alison (the nerds) sucked and I cannot believe they’re the ones that got to get out alive?? Especially because ferdy almost was dead.. and like at that point I would’ve rather he died and Alison just survived since they were a shitty couple anyways, THEY WERE FUCKING BLAND IM SORRY FACE IT and Linda and Rick didn’t get to survive because what because horror movie sins?? Because they had sex?? BITCH THEY WERE FUCKING MARRIED I’m like also 99% sure that like Alison tried to hook up with Ferdy too but the scene that happened in was lowk rlly confusing to me because she was like suggesting something and then the next time it cuts to them it doesn’t seem like they’ve done anything but they’re still watching the movie?? I think it might just been them kissing but broski ugh and double ugh because they never had any chemistry and they sucked,, also why were Linda and Rick at the party? Because literally all of them seemed like they were supposed to be teenagers except them.. maybe they all weren’t supposed to be teens tho idek the one girl the jock guy was fucking with big tits tho was most definitely not a fucking teenager tho I mean rlly none of them were teens but like cmon like they all seemed like they were supposed to be teenagers sneaking around because they still lived with their parents and couldn’t host their orgy elsewhere I’m also halfway kidding bc it wasn’t an orgy but why were you all in a mattress store just fucking inches away from each other for funsies? also the killbots seemed way easier to outsmart than they made it out to be, like that fire cracker thing Alison did later on with the paint she could’ve easily done to multiple of them before all of her friends had to die and that was very possibly one of the best ways they killed them in the entire movie…

8/10 (kidding I give it a solid 6.5/10 because I love me some cheesy 80s horror and it’s pretty solid if you don’t try to apply logic to it, but man it’s just dissatisfying.)

I'm Back Soon

Where have I been and what ive been up to

So im not sure if I mentioned it here but I actually got a job over the summer working at a summer camp for 3 months and I had to live on site. I brought my laptop with me but obviously couldn't bring my pc so I couldn't really play sims and take screenshots. But I had a bunch of screenshots so I had plan to still post gameplay regularly but suddenly I got too busy when I started working and ended up stop posting without warning. But I had YouTube videos scheduled until I was supposed to finish my job. And I was supposed to record more videos as soon as I was back home but idk I just wasn't interested in playing anymore. And it was pretty hard to get myself to play any video games at all so I was pretty bored until I started my current job. At first I wasn't sure what kind of job I wanted to do until I got a job working at a daycare which usually you need a degree for in my province but I'm an assistant (which I basically do the same thing but just get paid less 😅). Anyways, the pay is pretty decent so I'm happy with it and I'm definitely more stable than I was when I was solely depending on disability support payments. Long term tho I don't think I wanna do this for the rest of my life. I don't even want kids. Not that I hate kids or my job just yeah I want something more. And these kids just get on my nerves. So yeah I'm going to university again next year and doing something in math and science.

What's next

So i still have screenshots for my werewolves gameplay series and screenshots for another series where i play with dream home decorator. But honestly i probably won't post them anymore cause the werewolves series was just a side series and the dhd one i didnt have that much fun with so I dont think its worth posting. So now I've started playing the sims 4 again. I've recorded 1 episode of my 100 baby challenge for my YouTube channel so far. It's hard cause I don't have a lot of time during the week. And I also have a small side series playing with paranormal that I had planned to post but I don't know if I will anymore. But for main series I don't know. Next on my whole plan for my save is to play with high school years but I don't own the pack yet. I might get for rent for Christmas so I don't know if I will play with my series I have planned for that pack next or wait until I can get high school years. I also want to wait for a sale for that pack cause I don't want to pay full price but I don't know when the next sale will be. So yeah not sure when or what will be my next gameplay series. But anyways, for those that are wondering when I'll be releasing my next styled look set, good news I started working on one I was making for Growing Together again. And it has a lot of looks but I'm halfway done or almost. And as for other cc. I'm itching to make some stuff but idk I kinda suck at making cc but I think I'll try it out again. I especially want to make some wedding outfits but we'll see.

my never ending maternal wound strikes again

there is almost nothing in the world that makes me feel smaller or shittier than feeling unimportant to someone

when i talk about my day and they're only half listening it makes me feel like a tiny kid again and so hurt and unloved

im so mad at how deeply her shitty parenting skills have infiltrated my life

its not my fault but once again it is my problem

i need to go to therapy

ive been trying to go for like years i swear

it just never works out

i will give it another go tho

halfway across the world and i feel just as far from her as i did when i was twelve

i ache so bad for maternal comfort

and that is something i dont think im ever going to get

and i don't know how to seek it

and i let myself fall into unhealthy relationship and living dynamics bc that's all i know

all i know is feel unworthy and retreat and hide and like a living burden

and the way she fucks me up fucks up me and boyf

with the graduation thing i think im still reeling from that

what do you mean my graduation is a celebration of you and all the work you've done to get me there

what did you do huh

you paid for i?? okay

and

and what

what else

you went to class? lecture? studied with me? asked about me? supported me? made me feel loved and special? nurtured me? take my tests?

no no no no no no no and no

all she does is see me as a way to pat herself on the back

she's so unsatisfied with her life and has no idea how to be happy

she's a workaholic and cut off from her own emotions

and love is earned through success and accomplishments

that's how her dad treated her (and good lord look at his children) and that's how she treats me

and i'm just really sick of it

and it pisses me off

anyways

i can't wait to disappear from her life and heal away from her sphere of influence and create a beautiful and fulfilling life rich with people and connections and relationships

hi hello hi so this is, as stated, another one of those mfin dropout/d20/naddpod blogs that's trawling around on this site

pretty damn new to the content :p i literally only got my dropout subscription like a monthish ago and started listening to naddpod like less than 2 weeks ago lol

not really any previous experience with consuming or participating in any d&d/ttrpg content, except for finding it intriguing from afar and watchin like a couple of random oneshots, but it definitely kinda has minorly consumed my life atm lol (and by that i mean. i am listening to naddpod 24/7. i cant stop. i wld say to send help but i don’t think i want it.)

current pc faves have been acofaf andhera (adore that fucking loser <33), resident frogman prince gerard, n beverly toegold the fifth ;p

stuff ive watched, am watching, & lookin forward to watching under the cut lol :p

have watched:

- game changer

- dirty laundry

- make some noise

- d20 court of fey and flowers

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in progress:

- d20 neverafter [as it updates ^-^]

- d20 coffin run [ive been almost done with it for weeks now i swear i'll finish it at some point]

- naddpod campaign 1 bahumia [about halfway thru as of this post !!!]

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esp excited to watch in the future:

- d20 mice and murder. hi it's a detective mystery with those little guys??? starring some epic ch peeps? and again a murder mystery featuring little fucking guys???? am absolutely watching this d20 campaign next r u kidding

- d20 unsleeping city! honestly none of the currently-completed intrepid heroes campaigns had necessarily rlly caught my eye even tho i find neverafter super fun and the cast fuckin awesome, but i think this is the one that i've been eyein the most so 👀 after mice n murder, i think this one's next

- the other naddpod campaigns. esp the main ones but the smaller ones i'm super eyes at as well. as of rn i am pretty much obsessed with it and am trying Desperately to finish campaign 1 so i can at least consume some good fucking fancontent w/out worrying about spoilers. anyways yeah naddpod Currently been the thing ive especially been losing my mind over *gnashes my teeth and does grabby hands* it's simply sooooooo. idk even but it is so. girl i literally started it like 2 weeks ago and i've barely been listening to music (something i tend to do very very often) be i'm just listening to it all the fckin time. like as i am typing this im losing my mind a bit over ep. 51 the nannerfly effect which i am halfway thru and having some goddamn Feelings about. ok im gonna stop talking now but yes i Do indeed think naddpod is pretty neat (as probably evidenced by this wholeass chunk of text *flashes u an awkward smile* whoopsie)

Next fic update will either be tonight or later this weekend but it’s in the works!

Man I wanna re watch haikyuu even tho I’m reading passed the show

starting a new story! (because that’s gone so well for me in the past)

is the next fic you post going to be Compromise or the White Hat fic?

COMPROMISE! THE WH FIC IS NOT FOR A WHILE JGHDSGHFK (AFTER COMPROMISE IS BOND, THEN TECHNICALLY ETERNAL BUT THAT ONES ALREADY DONE, THEN HAPPY ANNIVERSARY, THEN THE WH FIC)

I PROMISE THE ONES AFTER COMPROMISE WONT TAKE ME AS LONG AS THIS ONE IS THO, THEYRE NOT AS LENGTHY/COMPLEX TO WRITE AS THIS ONE