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thatfizzyyyy · 11 months

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every 2-3 months i post a "what if i started writing again" post and then i write for 1-3 days and never again. but what if i started writing again.

#oops im rambling #the time will pass anyways yk #im a bit tired though so idk #maybe ill do some world building plotting etc

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lunarharp · 3 months

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What led to this (orufrey comic, cw an uncomfortable/creepy scene)

#witch hat tag #orufrey #er.... i'm too tired to have anything to say..i worked several days on this.#wait.. didn't i say just recently here that i probably wouldn't ever depict 'what if alaira is qifrey's sort-of ex'. What's going on #i don't even remember deciding to draw this..it's all a blur..i'm not sure why i WOULD decide to draw delicate scenes in my head #that i wouldn't really want to share with anyone/discuss so why did i draw it...#some part of me really really wants to draw things that are more and more true to myself...#maybe because of my alienation with most romance/shipping/dynamics the rest of the world depicts.#orufrey really is perfectly suited to me - what i read in the text and what is in my head. well anyway #i am TIRED of drawing poses and angles and..maybe now i will actually take a break from drawing bc of the tediousness of Angles #btw it really is a 'stretch of time' . . . assuming witches graduate age 18-20 #well orufrey are canonically 30-ish. they've only had agott around for presumably about TWO years (?) bc she took the test age 10 #and it feels like oru moving in/unknown atelier acquisition/building (?) .. i guess that could be a year or so before agott at most #(she was the first disciple) so... ????????? What about the other 7 or so years ?!?!?!!?!?! Unemployed Brimhat Hatred era #that time is very nebulous. after qifrey went to the tower i feel like it's been implied he and oru drifted apart a little.#certainly they didn't live together at first... no way. that doesn't feel like how it is based on things oru has said about becoming Eye #idk. I'm tired now. i don't usually think of alaira as necessarily qifrey's ex and this being how things went in that 'sliver of time'.#i usually prefer the idea that they have their first kiss with each other in their 30s cause That's Just The Orufrey Lifestyle #just felt like making a more relatable alternative view of my own Cai Orufrey Canon one time. btw im a big monoshipper and it hurt a bit #let's leave it there. this is surely the most i've worked on a 'single' art - though now i realise just how much longer the fic took :')

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fishlings · 29 days

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a young mare stands in her bedroom...

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alternautxyz · 16 days

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uuhhh in other new that lmk s5 trailer dropped and people are very

mixed

for context the new season is being partly animated by wildbrain i think. flying bark is still working on the show but probably due to all the other projects they've been working on like the atla movie the animation is off.

its understandable that people are upset. lmk has some of the most consistently dynamic and lively animation ive ever seen, and going from that to ok animation kinda sucks. as a culmination of a lot of what the series has been building up to people were inevitably going to be disappointed

at the same time people shouldnt harass animators. like ever. no amount of trying to petition or anything will change the s5, people are just trying to do their job and theres no probably no major changing to the finished product by now. and theres still a lot of that lmk charm in there, and we haven't even seen the whole season yet to judge it. flying bark is still working on it, and even if the animation never reaches the peak of the old seasons it still has the same writers so at least the writing has the chance to live up old standards. idk though we'll just have to wait and see

#i do think they could have just delayed it after dealing with other projects but with the anniversary lego might have jsut forced them????#and with how the animation industry is i guess they didnt have a choice #tbh im still really sad about the downgrade but after rewatching the trailer a bit more its not that bad despite the tweening #we've been spoiled with the other seasons but i think people will get used to it at some point. maybe #though i cant forgive some of the new stuff like li jing and that dragon tiger duo they do not fit the artstyle at all #though for li jing i think the problem is mostly proportions and how small his eyes look #but the dragon and tigers snouts just look bad.#ok looking at it again i think it looks weird because theyre dissolving. the design's still off but it wasn't as bad as i first thought.#but the proportions and shapes feels like it just isn't from lmk #idk i could nitpick but negativity is tiring and these guys have big shoes to fill for a show they werent prepared for it was inevitable #for any last takeaways please do not be mean to the animators #also studio changes are normal so its not some horrible injustice or the sign of the end times im more upset lego didn't handle it better #i still hope s5 is good and i want to believe it'll still be satisfying by the end the plot so far sounds pretty interesting #or atleast that the atla movie is good enough to compensate #and if im feeling greedy there will be a 6th season that gets better #and there are still good shots throughout all of this so maybe it'll work out with the season as a whole #with how popular it is in china i dont think its out of the question #idk though a lot of information is still up in the air so i guess we just wait #lego monkie kid #lmk #monkie kid #alttalks

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woozi · 2 years

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wish me luck ♡

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strangerhands · 2 months

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mmmmm heyyy👁️. ive basically been gone from tumblr for over two days because ive been feeling like a shitty piece of shit. BUT. i finally saw dune part 2 and ohmygoddddd it was so so good. but yes. i was missing leto so bad the entire time. Father come back pls. i need you.

#it was so good tho #like so cool i was internally freaking out about how cool things looked #the fight scenes🤌#the environments/settings🤌#all of the fuckin machinery🤌#the acting🤌#the everything🤌#yum #also i dont find austin butler attractive but funnily enough feyd was the only time ive found him hot😭 yes i have issues. but like. okayyy..#i watched it alone and i wish doing things alone wasnt seen as such a weird or sad thing like. theres nothing wrong with it #sorta vent->#but basically ive been feeling like an annoying piece of shit so ive been staying off of here for the most part #because ive been convincing myself no one likes me and everyone in my life would be better off without me😝😝#just tee bee ehch #and idk i was just feeling like ass and was doing nothing and when i finally would go to use tumblr i was already too tired to do shit #so i just went to sleep #and i was busy today #yesterday*#and ill probably be a bit busy today too but idk maybe hopefully ill catch up a bit #idk ya boys just been hating himself like usual but not as usual bc it was worse but it is what it is #i felt a bit better yesterday though #and also my new antidepressants ive been on havent been doing shit for me so im going back to a previous one i used to be on so yea #hopefully that helps soonish idk #i never vent on here so i feel kinda bad for doing so but i just wanted to puke my thoughts here #also since im already here complaining ive just like. not written at allllllll basically like i got into my head and made myself discouraged #so. that sucks. but also nothing out of the ordinary there #why does Everything i say sound so embarrassingly depressing and pathetic hhhhhhhgggggggggggggghhhghghg #anyways yea i was doing bad im still not doing good but hopefully will be a bit better so ill be back and caught up later today or tomorrow #idk if anyone gave a fuck or noticed but i just like complaining into the void so yea #talkin shit

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dandyshucks · 4 months

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everyone pray for me that i did not just give myself food poisoning (;･∀･)

#i may have made a bad decision with the meat i cooked shdjdkl BUT I THINK IT'LL BE FINE #it was past the date on the packaging but it didnt smell or look or feel off at all so . i decided to risk it #and now im panicking bc i think perhaps that was actually rly stupid fhdkdl #but it was. so much money. i had no idea the date was so soon on the package when i got it from mum #I would've frozen it if I'd known dhdksl i should've looked #alas !!! i think it'll be fine tbh bc it genuinely did not seem spoiled at all so ... now we just pray #i had a fairly small serving of it and I'll see how i feel to figure out if the rest of it is safe to eat or not #im just fhdjdkl crying a little rn bc the past two days have been so awful and im so tired #i rly dont want to get sick on top of everything else going on #i would like one thing to go well fjdkdl just like. one thing. this feels like divine punishment for having the old lady group go so well #im just kind of losing my mind rn i think actually fhfkdl i have a therapy/counseling appt on monday though so we'll see if that helps #i do not have high hopes fjfkdl #MANNNN. can the universe give me a break PLEASE. I've been trying so hard the past three weeks to do well 😭😭#im putting in so much work and effort fhdksl can i PLEASE have this one thing go okay djdksl i do not want to get sick !!!#if i do get sick then im just. hhhhh. idk djdkdl it's just one more thing to add to my pile of Bad ig djdkdl what can ya do djdkdl #i am going to pull myself together and stop crying and go play stardew maybe idk fjdkdl i feel like im starting to crack a little bit #augh. augh. i would love to catch a break djdkdl #dandy.cmd #vent //

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kkoct-ik · 7 months

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my dysphoria is absolutely vile these past two days can somebody sent me a traffic character to draw with big naturals

edit: we got some boys i love you all

#not grian or scar thats too easy #kostik speaks #ive cried twice today granted once was at like 1am #if i can complain a bit. the state of my healthcare is a fucking nightmare #im doing my best i sent some emails out today for my organ investigation #and checking if my doctor will accept treatment plans from transgender organisations #so like tbh best case scenario i can discover wtf is wrong with me. and get hrt prescription processed. and get some dental done this week #though it probably. wont be. god im so tired #so many needles is not a good combination with my little bitch dysphoric attitude at the moment #and also the . joint pain. and the cptsd depression you know how it is👎#i tried to play minecraft but i just kept thinking about how much i wished i was a guy #so #idk guys give me something to draw. maybe thatll work thank you love you

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im-still-watching-anime · 11 months

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binging anime kinda slaps even more since i started this blog because it feels like im hanging out with you guys

#me watching anime alone in my apartment: hanging with the besties :)#idk #im usually more active when im binging stuff so it feels like we’re chilling together #even though im not actually like talking to anyone or anything #if you follow this blog we’re best friends actually #sorry i dont make the rules #spiritually u are all there every time i turn on my silly little cartoons #u get NO choice in the matter #or you do idk #i am tired #in bed going to sleep but my brain was like gotta let the besties know we just hung out for a bit

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midnight-rice · 2 months

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ok tumblr really *has* broken my speaking mannerisms, at work I found two cup lids that had melted together inseparably and muttered "this, too, is yuri" as if that's a normal thing to say on a sunday morning

#life update i am tired and so is everyone else #my sister went to the ER last night for chest pain (she's ok it seems though still not great)#work's had the busiest week of sales ive seen thanks to march madness but we're short staffed #two of my coworkers were arrested this week and one went home after a mental breakdown #and tomorrow after the sun goes out for a bit we're gonna service everyone wanting food for the mm finale #might end up working overtime for a third day though i feel like it'll cancel out w the hours i missed this morning #when i was too nauseous to work due to all the painkillers i took last on an empty stomach last week #but honestly im doing ok i just want a fucking break and so does everyone else i know it seems #feels weird venting here but i guess it's better than silence #and at least i have weird events to explain my inactivity instead of 'idk brain bad :/' like before

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elegyofthemoon · 3 months

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re: hsr 2.1 spoilers (idk has it been long enough since? im just gonna tag it anyways to be safe x - x)

see, here was my thought with trying to find the memory zone victim list: I was really hoping that by getting the victim list I'd be able to see how or why memory zone memes exist/why do they attack, but what I did learn is they just attack whoever. There really isn't any big pattern between the different victims

But what I do notice is that in the victim list they use the word "abducted" rather than killed. So just "missing" instead of "dead." But it's traumatizing enough that eyewitnesses need to get their memory wiped by the Family, so... it could seem like they had been killed.

If you talk to one of the NPCs in Golden Hour Lew Archer, she talks about how she's jumped off the rails in Golden Hour several times now out of guilt for the case she had been trying to work on, which included getting a child killed in action, so whoever dies in a dream only just wakes up in reality. And then even in Black Swan's companion quest, you hear about Sparkle's victims being woken up after the attack and having to be taken care of.

If that's the case, maybe the "abduction" done by the memory zone memes causes the victims to not be able to return to reality.

But it's still weird though: why is it that Firefly splatters into water when she gets killed by the meme and why is that Robin's body remains? 🤔That was also something I was hoping the victim list would give me some ideas on, but guess not slakdajfh

#avil plays hsr #idk everyones asleep so i just thought to throw up here #i have some other thoughts... idk if ill post them though #even this i find isnt very coherent #but i sure love playing detective a bit #anyways! im a little tired from trying to explore golden hour asldkfjah #there's so much reading in it and while it's *fine* for the most part. my eyes are a little tired trying to focus on the screen asdlakfjh #and the thing is too with the memory zone meme #its also apparently connected to the watchmaker according to the npc quest you had to do to retrieve it #is all connectedddd #anyways ok i need to go do something else. pack up and stuff

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wantbytaemin · 10 months

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madrid museums are fucking SICK there’s a temporary exhibition on the occult in the thyssen-bornemisza museum and it’s got themes like demonism astrology dreams prophecies etc and the descriptions next to the paintings are so well made and interesting i want to live here

#it’s like max ernst dalí picasso magritte rubens etc like idk shit about art but i sure am BLOWN Away by it #spent an hour at the bit where you’re meant to be for 30 mins hehe no one was checking though #it was all so cool i literally could’ve done another half hour no problem but i got hungry #also my feet have never EVER been this tired im so glad i only brought my most comfy shoes

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melto · 4 months

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something just like snapped in the back of my head like i Need to go like curl up in my room for like 5 days and play video games and not speak to like anyone

#^ guy who is not out of a depressive ep like he thought he sorta was #dont even like particularly feel the old urge of the anxiety/need to hurt my relationships like i used to..i just feel like shit.#short list of people i think i could handle like really speaking to rn but ultimately. i just want to be somewhere safe and easy #even if that feeling is like making me feel sorta suicidal still.#just dont have it in me to like figure out how to act normal right now. something i have to do around most people and nearly everyone #i intreact with irl right now #not healthy. Ofc naturally i know this. and i can push through it. im just not excited about it.#the exhaustion to like contain myself is greater than my lonliness even though that is rather large #and i would like to get this out of my system before like. the semester starts next week. which i know i cant like control but whatever #this is all sooooo stupid. i need to be alone but i need compaionship of someone i trust.#it feels like there is glue in my mouth and i can barely speak to people im not close with bc of how exhausted and anxious i am #man. thearpy is like. going to really . idk. probably not help my mood. bc it has been hard for me to word what has been happening to me #and im always so scared of saying something that will get me hosptizaled again. Even when it shouldnt. bc im not going to do anything.#but i am scared and tired simply. and while so much has gotten better and ive gotten so much better there are some things that i just.#cant seem to figure out how to fix or ask for help. whatever. Guy who is stupid and helpless and will have to just get over it at some poin #sry i just feel like shit. i should probably just eat something i havent been eating much. and then i will probably feel a bit better #news with isaac

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kellystar321 · 1 year

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#periodical life updates #lets hope this one goes better than the last one </3 #anyway hi everyone. im in an entirely different timezone during this trip so its actually mid afternoon right now #thats not what this is about though this is about how im EXCITED FOR ARTFIGHT AS USUAL!!! lemmy posted his s/is and theyre so cute <3 #also the theme reveal is coming on the 23! i hope its enough time for the theme templates? i love doing the theme templates with everyone :#this'll be my seventh year participating holy sht!! ive been doing this for seven (7) years!!!!!!!!#ive been feeling like ive been improving in art every artfight but idk how i'll fare this year. i feel like ive been a bit stagnant #and i did some PRETTY KILLER PIECES LAST YEAR;;; who knows if i'll top it; especially with summer college classes UGH #miserable about that btw. college my beloathed forever and ever amen. :/ ive been meaning to fix a few characters profiles and add some too #FINALLY going to separate kelly and jace! kelly is now the bureau of balance halfling only <3 ive been redrawing a new design of her :>#she has cute pointed ears now heho!! and actual more fantasy-esque clothes to fit her universe <3 jace is getting a separate profile!#jace is now solely my sona and i look SO much more gender now with the haircut and i can post my refs <33 #i also want to post agent and icarus and all the javelins but that means i have to draw them actually hfjkh <33 #i should also actually add something to shen's profile hfkjfh i care more about xer worldbuilding than xer character i feel </3 #IVE BEEN MEANING TO GET QUEUE BACK UP but everytime i look at my drafts i feel so tired </3 theres ART i want to reblog!!!#ough. some other time. okay! im gonna get my artfight discord channel back up and running for the new artfight season! let's go let's go!#oh and i'll be sure to announce which team im joining obviously hdjfdh it'll probably be the lighthearted one <3 #some of the themes this year are a little off? (stars vs nebula? heart vs soul? arent those the same thing?) but im hoping for the best <3 #okay frfr going now! hope for queue soon maybe if i have time/energy! working on artfight! lets goooooo!! <3

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piningprecussionist · 5 months

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Aside from the delicate touch of a redhead and borderline infidelity, did you get Ramona anything for her birthday?

".... Shit."

Kim stares blankly at her phone for a moment, unsure how to proceed. Did she know that? Did she know it was Ramona's birthday? She tried to recall but kept drawing up blanks. Had she not told them her birthday?

Maybe the panic was making her forget.

Kim bites her lip as she pockets her phone, leaving the ask unanswered; she'd give them some vague non-answer and verbal attack another time. Apparently, she has a birthday girl to tend to.

The guilt feels light enough to ignore now anyhow, as she shuts off the water fully and moves towards the door; she tries not to doubt that Ramona will make her forget about it entirely.

But as her hand reaches for the knob, she hears approaching footsteps, and goes still...

#pine.txt #asks #anon #rp #kim pine #sp comic #spvtwtg #spto #spvtw #ramona flowers #kimona #ship stuff #flowersfromtheapple #(ooc: wow these are taking so long to do as a unit. just. ages. i dont even wanna know how many hours ago the voltfruit ask was initially +#(+ drafted at this stage. but im gonna. anyway hope these were at least interesting done this way? sorry if not lol)#(ooc: was trying something. might have lost the thread a little in the scramble though. so idk how often anyone can expect this)#(ooc: also bc i forget if i talk about it in other tags- i kinda hc that kim answers with video messages usually. that's not the case w +)#(+ these obviously. for the blog i mean if that wasnt clear. i feel like it makes some since just in a making sure she comes across right +#(+ way. A fair bit of Kim's responses to things are added by the body language i feel- if you want how she actually feels anyway.)#(ooc: i probably have other support i can craft for this but i am very tired)#(answer tweaked to reflect flowersfromtheapple's reply elsewhere!)#(if someone wanted to take that seriously for some reason as a canon inconsistency- my recommendation is Save Corruption)#(mostly bc this isnt a memory that it would even remotely make sense for gideon or alter or something?)#(to not or)#SP New Years Party

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hella1975 · 1 year

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I weep for your sleep schedule

ive given up at this point

#tbh this week has been particularly bad for NO SEEMING REASON?#like not only have I not been sleeping (have had 5 hours the past two nights total and now this one’s not looking much better)#but I don’t FEEL tired during the day despite the total lack of sleep?#and bc ive had insomnia since my earliest memories I do genuinely think my body is just accustomed to working on minimal sleep #BUT USUALLY MORE THAN THIS??? AND TO NOT FEEL EVEN A TINSY BIT TIRED???#idk i feel like I’ve accidentally sent my body into survival settings even though mentally I’m doing pretty normal #like normally I only get like this when im REALLY going through something and it truly is survival mode #like my body picks between eating or sleeping or washing PER DAY and we manage one task and clock out again #it gets bad #but like. that’s not this so I’m confused #perplexed even. bamboozled #ask

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