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what are your favourite tracks on the show right now?
i already loved heaven and meltdown, so i am excluding them, but i'm obsessed with if you leave me to the point where i just keep repeating it instead of moving on??? the slinky groove, his vocals, the way he sings, "hope you know that you're sentencin' me to a life on my knees." "can't you stay for the rest of my life"?! A BOP. save my life! the horns, the SAXOPHONE, the VIBES, impeccable. science is so, so pretty. never grow up is so sweet and so quintessentially Niall™, like that's one of those songs where you simply go, yep, that's HIM! must be love because, as previously noted, he wrote that one for the nervous overthinkers and we love him for it <3
...i just named 7 songs off a 10 track album. byeeeee?! on a night like tonight, easy breezy beautiful, i feel like he could match it up with everywhere from hbw in a really cool way on tour. the show is very touching and epic. you could start a cult is romantic with a curious hint of darkness, and i found it a little jarring at first, but it's growing on me. so clearly i love the record overall lol
#if you leave me is that girl though#my only problem with the album is it's TOO SHORT#it's 16 minutes shorter than hbw and that's not including dress and nothing (they SHOULD be included i love them so much)#if we include them it's 22 minutes shorter which is like 75% of the album do you see my difficulty here 😭#and i wish it had one really big banger like small talk. hbw was so perfectly engineered and i said this before#but i think he has the wrong idea about why it wasn't as successful and it's nothing to do with the quality of the album#niall it's been three years and i'm missing like four songs here babe. yes i am greedy and spoiled 😚#but anyway! the show is still terrific#anonymous#letterbox#nialler#the show has big SOTT energy and i don't think it's intentional but it gives me feelings#also JUSTICE FOR CHAMPAGNE LOVERS NEVER GETTING A STUDIO RECORDING#and justice for my best beloved heartbreak weather getting paid dust because of the pandemic she is still EVERYTHING to me
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fairest of the fair
#hi! im alive and back and etc.#six the musical#six the musical fanart#katherine howard#thinking of that post going 'i think eventually you become the person you needed most' and like maybe that's the thing with my art#this started out as a redraw and <improvement meme> i think i've finally reached the stage where i'm making the things that my younger self#aspired to create. like i can do this now! i've reached That level of technical skill! tiny me would be so proud. it's very gratifying#redraw from august this year actually. i've made a surprising amount of improvement HAHA maybe it was the adamandi stuff getting me#back into digital rendering. i think that obsession has quietly slipped away but yknow. one never truly leaves a fandom. just less intensit#also speaking of old fandoms! we're back with the six stuff haha. as of writing i'm in the midst of blog revamp- figuring out how to chill#multifandom status doesn't mean ditch all the old stuff ! but i do feel much freer and less stressed. i think hiatus has been good for me#notes on this piece particularly: redraw about cutting hair and thinking of the lyric above. also lowkey &j ref + pinterest poem excerpts#of female suffering. and maybe a dash of amanda heng let's walk inspo. this work is really just full of contradictions..#1. the mirror and cutting hair as an act of self liberation 2. the & is part of the lyric but also a nod to &j (in another iteration it was#pink but the white looked better) and like. &j is really all !!! girl power!!! etc. and i was like hmmmm. also matching pink shiny aes#3. the frame as a cage; the mirror as a self reflection idea (ie. saville's propped insp) but also as a sign of vanity. 4. sparkly costume#and pretty pose- read one too many poems about women feeling like they have to be pretty even in their suffering. something i wanted to#explore. and also in 5. the show itself... all you wanna do is. despite all the dancing and pink and sparkly the content of the song is#darker. and even though it's a story of her suffering it's still presented as a shiny fun pop song and ajshdhfhfh ok... 6. the lyrics fall#outside the frame. sort of a caught inbetween. sort of a trapped in the narrative and yet#within the frame it's all. vaguely handwavy breaking free vibes. like i said contradictions?#7. cutting off the long ponytail vs the pull my hair lyric at the end. yeah#8. the blocked off & looks a bit like scissors. positioned to cut right at the neck#anyways yeah irl remains hectic! but if i get around to more doodles they'll appear here :)
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Not to get personal but I think the reason princess tutu stuck with me for so long after watching it is like. As someone with low self esteem and abandonment issues seeing our hero hate who she is at her core only to make a friend who not only tolerated her “ugly” side but is so so deeply charmed by who she is under the mask that he wants to spend the rest of his life with her no strings attached? That’s the fucking DREAM
It’s the fantasy of having someone who loves you even when you’ve stopped being useful, when you can’t be funny or interesting or any of the traits you try to cultivate to make yourself more palatable to others. It’s the fantasy of having someone see to the core of you and not flinching, instead, coming away more endeared than before.
Princess Tutu is about hope. When Duck, our hero who brings hope to everyone, falls into despair, her best friend is there to bring hope back to her. And I think it says something that hope is the emotion the show leaves me with too. Hope for a better future. Hope that one day, like Duck, I’ll grow out of the ugly duckling phase and be able to embrace my true self.
#it is 2 in the morning and I can’t sleep#this one is ok to reblog if it resonates#but who knows I don’t know if anyone feels the same way#anyways yippeeeee one of my friends just stopped texting me back#I know she’s busy and she has new friends and she’s moving on with her life#still hurts though#I thought she was a real friend but I’m so bad at judging these things#anyways these are sleepy girl rambles#need a crazy bitch like fakir in my life ASAP#I feel like one true friend who’s there no matter what could fix me#but I feel like as the therapist friend everyone expects me to help them with their problems#and when I stop being helpful and have problems of my own that’s when they leave#and you gotta say fuck em and move on but it’s hard#lea talks
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TO ME, THAT’S CINEMA
#tomgreg#so i've seen this around a lot and ppl have already made points but like holy fuck. hoooly fuck lmao where do i begin#TOM THOUGHT THE ROOM WAS EMPTY FOR UH ... FOR WHAT BITCH??#empty for what. you two just going in there ALONE. what for. strategizing? ok but then why was greg showing you tonight's selection.#even if it was girls it's still sus bc like who tf goes specifically to a room to show that shit.#oh by the way i listened again and tom says first ''why do we have to...'' so GREG asked for the room?#greg asked them to go to an empty room. slut.#anD THEN AFTER SAID ''I WANNA GIVE YOU'' BITCH!!!!!!!!1#are we sure it's girls though...... like does it say later. i'll keep watching but Christ. LIKE. WHAT THE FUCK#how am i supposed to read this other than an affair lmfao and then he says ''go on'' and sends greg off away like a little pet#sick to bastard death of them god#so it's like. greg says can we go somewhere private and tom says why do we have to#greg says i wanna give you... and tom says what do you wanna give me annoyed like#girl we are at work and we are trying to stay alive can't you wait til we are at home for me to clap them cheeks#and then greg says a preview of tonight's selection... of what? could be alcohol could be sexy stuff could be mf. clothes idk#and then they look up like O FUCK the room is in use and it's fucking SH*V and immediately tom is like GO ON and greg#doesn't even stutter or say anything like usual he's just like SORRY and leaves immediately bc he KNOWS he gotta gtfo#sorry i'm just. poetic cinema indeed
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oh so alisaie’s exaggerated bully behavior is 80% fanon. saying this she casually picks up a large rock
#say one thing wrong to me and you will have a wonderful few days with the rock#if angry silly girls have 100 fans etc if they have 0 fans i have died#sorry i saw a YouTube meme i vehemently disliked on principle and got mad at the only child behavior-#kipspeak#she is just short tempered and uses anger to mask other more ‘shameful’ emotions!!! alphy did the same thing with just deciding not#to express them. which is still not good and I think why he breaks and ends up teary so often now#this shortness does not translate to actually being mean to people. she only uses being mean as a shield for herself and being snarky#Is just fun for her. it’s fun for Me. you have to inconsequentually tease people or they’ll never learn to laugh at themselves#the twins and thancred 🫵 do this thing where they have big emotions but they don’t want anyone to SEE they have big weird emotions#so alphy pretends he doesn’t have them under a veneer of dignity and alisaie pretends the emotions are Something Else. thancred is#just so emotionally constipated he has trouble expressing anything. he’s got enough baggage for a flatbed#anyways. alisaie is such a compassionate and kind girl and she learned how to make snarky jokes and went ham. and she hates appearing sad o#weak or vulnerable so she blocks it off with an unapproachable emotion so no one pities her and they maybe get on with the plot#it is in fact also great at getting ppl to move away from the sad or embarrassing topic. even if the tradeoff is being more offputting#she would never (grabs youtube meme) she would never seriously bully her brother. this is sibling ribbing only. Cain instinct#just leave her be she is learning how to snark humor and she loves it she loves being sharp. alphy has wit he just keeps it close#my brother didn’t learn how to tell or receive a joke until he was 14 he took everything so seriously. he can do it now though and he’s#HILARIOUS. Don’t tell him I said that. my man knows exactly where the funny points are even if he hasn’t learned when to stop yet#too many tags. Whatever. jokey snark alisaie who sometimes compliments is happy alisaie grouchy snappy angry alisaie is way too stressed#very easy way to tell between the two. even alphy can tell between the two I believe! He tends to rib back in protest if they’re having fun#and try to stop her if they’re not having fun. case in point ‘what is that supposed to mean?!’ vs ‘alisaie ryne was only trying to help.’#I know they’re twins but that’s such an intensely older sibling thing to do that it reels me#LONG TAGS AND THREE EDITS TO ADD ON SHORT I resent this stereotype taken too far into ooc behavior. it happened with nya#It will happen again and as a postscript let me regale you with Things U Can Notice About Character Motivation and Actions—#I’m not done let me s#she and raha are friends now I decree. ‘haha you like me’ SPUTTERING PROTEST FROM BOTH
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2023 reads // twitter thread
To Shape A Dragon’s Breath
YA fantasy
a young Indigenous girl finds & bonds with a dragon hatchling - the first time in many generations for her people - and is required to go to the coloniser’s dragon academy in their mainland city, to learn how to raise her dragon and the science of its magic
historical inspired setting on the cusp of industrial revolution with steampunk vibes
bi polyamorous MC, Black lesbian SC, nonverbal autistic SC
#To Shape A Dragon’s Breath#aroaessidhe 2023 reads#this is really really good i loved it!#the chapter titles are all like snippets of a story. or like sentence fragments that match up. which is cool#it is definitely more about being indigenous in a coloniser institution than Dragon School - not Super dragon heavy if you want that#I suspect the subsequent books will get into that when she gets big enough to ride and stuff#t’s also def YA! i’ve seen a few ppl assume it’s adult and be like its very young :( but like. I mean its perfectly reasonable for a 15yo m#definitely a Lot of racism and colonialism which is not fun to read! though it's still through a YA lens. there was def a part of me that#was imagining consequences of the narrative as if it were an adult novel#on that line of thought - at the end a lot of it is kind of solved by them going to the king and he's is like. oh no racism is happening?#that's bad i'll deal with those people! which felt like. a little simplistic. but maybe the easiest way to end the narrative for book 1 -#I don't think the author ACTUALLY is going to portray the king as a Good Guy throughout the series - it just felt conveniently like -#a simple YA solution to some very big and complex elements? if that makes sense? (but again - it is YA so it's allowed I suppose!)#some of the worldbuilding (like all the science learning) is probably setup for next books - we don’t really see any practical application#the romances are also subtle and not Overbearing In Book One which i like - leave some space for the series!#also her getting fanmail from a 10yo mixed race girl who looks up to her 🥺#anyway. i really loved it!#oh also it reminded me a little of leviathan. i guess just the steampunk/time period/european culture....#To Shape A Dragon's Breath
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i think one of the most disappointing things is to see that your childhood friends have grown up to represent the kind of people you're disappointed in
#had a friendship break up w like one of my entire friend groups of six ppl?#found out that one of the girls in our friend group had sent screenshots of our private conversation about smth I was hurt over#to a gc with our other friends (but not me ofc)#and they all proceeded to talk shit about me :// I swear the way my stomach dropped when the friend I was having the convo w#sent me screenshots of what our mutual friends were saying about me#she knew how much it would hurt me but still did it just to prove a point (though I'm certain she misrepresented our conversation + my word#to them considering she blocked out what she had initially said to them lol)#my stomach hasn't dropped like that since high school#which is exactly where I thought we left this kind of deceitful behaviour. like how are you guys twenty one and still sending screenshots#and talking bad behind only one (1) friend's back when you know she can't defend herself in that space#I immediately texted our collective gc to explain a text she had sent but failed to give context for#then told them if I'm as selfish as they say I will leave this friend group. and then I left that gc#I also texted two friends who I knew were talking shit and I sent them the screenshots that first “friend” sent and pointed out how#she blocked out what she said so I'm suspicious that she skewed our conversation so they (the two other “friends”) should be wary#I told them I understood it was fair game to stoop. this low considering neither of them tried to reach out to me to hear my side#or defend me + my privacy#for context: the original argument was me voicing out that I was upset bc that first “friend” had invited and planned with with our friend#group an event that landed on my birthday without checking in with me if I was planning to spend time with them that day#and she kept defending herself and saying she didn't know I'd plan smth (probably bc my bday is two months away lmao) and she said#the event they'd be attending is just as important and necessary as being there for my birthday?? it's literally just a party her brother#(who none of us are close to lol) is DJing at. and I brought up how I'm their close friend (not her brother) and it's not fair to call#it equally necessary. but I suspect she skewed what I said greatly considering all of our friends started calling me selfish and unfair#but yeah v v crazy and hurtful and just astonishing#salmaspeaks
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It is some consolation that one day this will not make me bristle
#i am aware that im v tired and sleep deprived and about to be on my period so take everything i say with a grain of salt#also i hate being awake at 1am and i have a bajillion things i need to do that i havent started yet#and im planning 2 birthday things tomorrow#and i have 5 birthday dorm cards to write for tomorrow which is going to take foreber#forever#and hours of class to slog through#and i just want to curl up in a ball and weep!!!!#dont dangle the confounded treat in front of my eyes and then stomp it into crumbs while i watch!#dont make me think im loved and then Do This!#i am so tired! even though i know theres so much to be thankful for!#i am planning two birthday parties because i love you guys#but when MY birthday rolls around i am locking myself in my room i am leaving this place i am not going to tell anyone#i am Not going to sit around like a little girl with such sickeningly high hopes#and watch them be crushed AGAIN!#I will go OUT and not come back to the dorm until evening because i cannot STAND to be disappointed again#just like every other time! THIS MAKES ME SICK#my heart is so tired :) esp after the boy thing
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the way crazy ass boys gang/crazy ass girls gang would genuinely start tweaking if they heard you singing break up songs with a little too much feeling.... girl SING open arms (solo version) a lil too hard as you get ready.... they gon show you they are not mentally stable i tell you
#bee talks#them: you thinking about your fucking ex???#you: no#them even more mad: you THINKING ABOUT LEAVING ME??#im not even gonna hold you though captain fucking with crazy ass girls gang is worse fr#they WILL go kill your ex on gp#dont sing shit like that again adjkl
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nice lie! xd
#ofc you cant Actually Leave bc then the game would be over#but still a little bit funny that she says it like it's an option lolol#laya plays dragon age#dude the only reason june is still here is bc that goddamn mark is still there#and staying here is her best bet of figuring out how to get rid of it#(& also solas is here and apparently he is the one guy keeping her mark somewhat stable so shed rather stay close to him)#dialogue w her is so fun though#fight or flight? no fight AND flight#poor girl is so stressed but it is fun. for me <3
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I *am* going to cause problems for myself at this job by spreading a countless amount of fibs over my relationship status
#unimportant thoughts#its none of your business !#one person I told I have a partner#one person I told i went through a long term relationship ending last year#one person i told i had a hot date last friday after work and thats why i needed to leave early (i didnt)#that person told another person whom decide to give me a pep talk on how to get and keep women#and now thinks that I am single and mingling out there#(he was interested in knowing if it was a ‘new girl’ or an ‘old girl’ i went on the date with#(i told him new and then sat through him telling me how to be confident with women in order to keep their attention)#anyways this is fun and will surely have no consquenes on my life whatsoever :p#cant wait to take meatz to the company party in 6 months :p#genuinely hate people irl knowing ny relationships though like its none of your business#I know uou wont understand and I know if you find out im dating someone youll start assigning us monog traits#which feels so gross#and i csnt be bothered explaining polyamory to people its not my job to make them okay with that
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Summary:
Three little scenes on the theme of singing.
:) I was in the mood for something short and sweet. Hope you enjoy!
#gotta go back to work for a bit but i couldn't resist posting this as soon as i had a few free minutes#i originally meant to post these on here only but the middle vignette got away from me a bit. lol#i think the moment miles complained about rose humming is the moment that cemented my severe dislike of him. like. dude.#your girlfriend is snow-white mary poppins the most adorable princess ever#and you complain? that she hums??? im going to break your kneecaps????#idk what else i can say about dorothy singing 'what'll i do'. that scene is everything it changed my life ngl#i guess i wanted a happier memory related to it than 'oh she sings it and then leaves forever four episodes later'#i hope rose's pov works well! i'm never quite sure about it. i should give a try to a whole fic in her pov soon#please tell me im not the only one who found blanche's beer jingle to be the sweetest thing ever. she sang it in such a soft voice#like it's funny ofc but i just melted#might be because im in love with her though#i always ramble in the tags when i post this stuff lmao. i hope you all have fun#hugs and kisses for you!#the golden girls#golden wives#writing
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the closest ill ever get to being a pick me girl is the joy that fills me when the chefs at work so clearly favouritise me. like im there nicely cleaned up in my smart-casual uniform just a 20 year old waitress smiling my customer service smile and behind me spawns Scary Dog Privilege 10x in the form of several burly middle-aged chefs at least three of which have criminal records and would all stick a bread knife in someone for bothering me
#like it's really funny bc i worked HARD with back of house bc i knew my job would be significantly easier if they liked me#(it speeds your orders through. you can ask for things without being told to fuck off during a rush. they'll get you food on shift etc)#and also there's a stereotype especially in fancier places where floor staff look down on kitchen staff and i think that's shitty#so i was always going to be try with them and be nice but ALSO when i first started my job it was in a peak era so while these days#we're struggling a lot and have had to employ a lot of college kids that dont know what they're doing#when i joined it was all private school girls that would swan about the place very snootily. so the divide between front and back of hosue#was INTENSE when i joined. and there i was a little state school girlie and the chefs immediately recognised that#and took me under their wing. so even though the class angle doesnt exist so much anymore and theres majority state schoolers#im still very much in with the chefs in a way not many of the other floor staff are. and there's also the fact im not scared of them#like chefs ARE rude and a lot of them DONT like or even respect floor staff but i will GLADLY tell them to fuck off if i think it necessary#and that's a language they understand like ironically there's one chef that doesnt get on with ANY of the waitresses#(i talked about him on another post he's the soup one) but he likes me bc when he tried that rude dismissive act i told him to shove it#and now the other waitresses literally SEND ME TO TALK TO HIM when they have questions/want something bc they know he'll listen to me#and me and the head chef are besties and the one kp will talk OVER THE OTHER WAITRESSES' heads and completely blank them#so she can talk to me and it's all just really funny bc the kitchen staff LOVE me and that's not even me being arrogant#it's like a known thing at work that they love me and im just. a 20 year old 5'2 waitress with my little pearl necklace and blouse#and some tattooed ginger mohawked 6ft chef is there getting angry for me when i come in complaining about a table#or the kp that is literally on probation will give me a sticky toffee pudding and tell everyone to leave me the fuck alone LMAO#hella slaves to capitalism
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i've gotten into outer worlds in like the last week and Parvati being wlw & ace has been the best thing in the story so far and i will die protecting her and helping her figure stuff out with Junlei
#i just love her so much#i do wish you could romance companions though only so i could get with Felix#but Parvati is def a permanent member of my party anywhere i go and i've only been keeping Vicar for now bc i want to finish his book quest#if Parvati & Junlei don't end up together i am going to lose it#ALSO I WILL BE HEARTBROKEN IF SHE LEAVES THE SHIP TO BE WITH HER BUT SO ELATED LIKE CHASE YOUR STARRY EYED DREAMS GIRL#Falling Apart and Coming Together#The Outer Worlds#i think i should mention i've only just gotten to monarch so i feel like there's a LOT more story left for me to get through#the game is great while on edibles too but gdi if i don't forget dialogue & and how it relates 2 seconds after making a choice lmao
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i’ve said it before and i’ll say it again, but just a gentle reminder -
if you ask me to tag you in something, please interact with it!! likes are lovely, but reblogs are crucial. comments do make me smile though <3
and I mean a follow wouldn’t hurt so you definitely don’t miss the updates but 😌
#sorry to sound like a broken record#but it’s a bit shitty for a writer when you ask me to tag you in something and then either don’t respond or just like it and leave#girl I worked hard on this and you’ve asked to be tagged… help me out here#so many of you do reblog though and it means the world <3#and comments always make my day <3#thanks babies I love you so much#fandom spaces are dying and becoming too passive… changes need to be made
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Since you like Koro-sensei and splatoon, I wonder what he’d be like as an octoling. Definitely a pretty strong one!
Y'all beat the Side Order secret boss yet?
I can't imagine Koro-Sensei as anything other than, well, Koro-Sensei. Making him an OctoLING is impossible for me, because I just can't see it. It wouldn't like him.
Every time I self insert him into media with me, he still looks like that no matter what. Like people who self insert as their fursona and are the only Furry in the source. I love that for them.
I love the idea of him being a huge Marina simp Fan and constantly antagonizing Pearl, just for shits and giggles, while trying to mentor 8 during their fight, giving tips while dodging. He never attacks, it's a pure battle of endurance. You either kill him or walk away.
If Splatoon ever gets back on board with anime crossovers like every other shooter I think his outfit would be a good mirror to the Squid Girl costume from Splat1! I couldn't think of shoes to go with it though sense Koro-Sensei doesn't... wear shows.... But I miss the friendship bracelet of Splat2 that let you be barefoot so I just did that! They're like the fake contacts.
#Emile's Arts#Koro-Sensei#Splatoon#Assassination Classroom#Korosensei#Koro Sensei#This gets main tags because I'm proud of it leave me alone#The Koro-Sensei in my brain is a self shipper/self inserter so these are notes directly from Him#He does enjoy antagonizing Pearl and self ships with Marina#Though he's an idol not a final boss but... Final boss Koro-Sensei it more fun to me <3#'Eight. Kill that thing.'#I miss you Squid Girl fit........... every day of my life....#Yes Assclass came out in 2014 BUT IS STILL THINK IT DESERVES TO BE IN SPLATOON#The squid girl anime is from 2010 Splat1 came out in 2015 I'm just saying#It's POSSIBLE#What's 10 years between Octopi?#Koro-Sensei lets you unlock the sub weapon Knife#Or Second Blade?#Clap Stunner special......#Okay I'm getting off track fdkgdfjhg#Thanks for this ask btw!!! I really wanted to draw Koro-Sensei tonight but couldn't think of anything#So thankyou for the concept!!!!!#Edit; I just woke up after posting this at 5am last night and.....#Why.... did I give him... inkling tentacles..... why did I do that........#He's an artificially advanced lifeform. Don't question him. It makes him more uncanny.#jfc....
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