#if anyone ever needs to vent about the show i'm your girl
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vent post. There are two stories i was told in my teenage years that even before i had a real concept of trans issues made me uninterested in discussing the supposed sacredness and safety of separated sex-based spaces.
First, when i was like 13 or 14 my PE teacher told us about a time she went to a women's public restroom, some guy was hanging out outside the bathrooms, she didn't think anything of it, went to the bathroom, and he walked in after her and like, creeped on her over the top of the stall. She was ok, she wasn't telling us this to scare us, just telling us what to do in situations like that (and iirc she was telling the whole co-ed class this, not just girls, bc it's useful for everyone), but this taught me immediately and forever that there's nothing actually keeping these spaces separate really, that anyone can be a creep in any space, and that establishing a space like that as for women only isn't actually particularly useful for safety.
Second, when i was 16 i was at an anime convention, a friendly acquaintance of mine and i ended up in conversation outside, and he showed me his bare wrist and told me he'd been kicked out. A female friend of his had stepped in dog poop outside, and between that and the stress of the convention she'd had a bit of an emotional breakdown, so being her friend, he started comforting her and ushered her into the women's restroom so they could wash the poop off her shoe together. And because he was a man who went into the women's bathroom, he got kicked out, no matter that he was doing something that was actually beneficial to a woman. Punishing a woman's friend for supporting her was supposed to... protect her somehow? This made it clear to me that a no-exceptions rule separating the sexes like that wasn't actually inherently good for everyone.
And this isn't even getting into me as a child needing to accompany my younger sister to the restroom when we were out with just my dad because she had certain support needs past the age he felt comfortable bringing her into the men's room with him. And what if I'd been born a boy, or she'd been the first born? Who's helping her then?
And of course even putting all this aside, we should always prioritize compassion and support anyway. But i never even needed to meet a trans person to know that "keeping men out of women's bathrooms" is silly nonsense. But trans people also need to pee anyway and as humans they have that right, so leave them the fuck alone. your precious women's restroom is just a fucking room with a door, holy shit give it a fucking rest, if someone is attacking you in the bathroom that's bad and if someone is in there to pee that's good and it doesn't fucking matter what their junk is or was when they were born.
a woman could have done the exact same thing to my PE teacher and it would have also been bad no matter how "supposed" to be in the restroom she was, and no one should ever be punished for helping a crying friend wash their shoe.
Anyway i know I'm speaking to like-minded folks here, i just think about those two stories literally every time bathroom gender shit comes up and it pisses me off.
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Hi! Is it ok if I request the arcane women (any you want) with a fem s/o with anxiety? How would they comfort her and support her?
If u don’t wanna write this, feel free to ignore my request. Thank you! Love your work 💓
Arcane women with a S/O who has anxiety
VI is, at first, not the best at picking up the initial signs of your anxiousness. If she sees you fidgeting or bouncing your leg, she'll only think you're being impatient or having difficulty staying put for a while. It's not until an incident occurs where she gets badly hurt that she realizes just how much you worry about her every time she goes out. You cry as you bandage her up, shakily asking her what were you supposed to do if she never comes back one day and telling her how much it scares you. From that day onward, Vi makes an effort to let you know her schedule, and when she plans to come back home, and overall just tries to show you that she's there for you whenever you need her.
Hey hey, look at me, baby. It's okay, no need to cry. I'm fine, see? So don't be sad, I wasn't hurt that bad, just a couple of bruises, is all. Why are you so upset? Really? Oh babe, I am so sorry, I had no idea you worried this much. I promise from now on I'll be more careful and I'll always come back home to you okay? Good, now tell me what else has been bothering you, does this happen often? I'm here for you if you ever need anything, you can confide in me, baby.
CAITLYN is extremely observant and has a very calming presence. Whenever she notices your anxiety flare up, she makes sure to take hold of your hand and, if you aren't home, asks you if you wish to leave. She'd be more than happy to set up and pay for a therapist if you wished to go to one. She is ready to do absolutely anything to help you, as long as you're comfortable. She is very insistent on talking things out with you because she wants to learn what makes you feel safe and what doesn't. Betters her communication with you so that you worry less and confide in her more.
It's okay darling, you don't have to tell me if you don't want to. I just hate seeing you so anxious and hurt all the time. If you wish, I could arrange a consultation appointment with a therapist? I'll go with you if that'll make it easier and maybe they'll help me understand better so that I can then help you! But there's no pressure, my love, take as much time as you need to think about it. In the meantime, you can always count on me to be there for you, you just have to talk to me, alright? Good girl, come here and let me hold you for a bit.
JINX only wants to see you with a smile on your face and having the time of your life, so she'll do anything she can to help you. One thing she discovered that helps is when you vent out your worries about the future; the what-ifs and all the scenarios that might go wrong. She listens to you closely and reassures you why that won't happen. Girlie will make charts and hold a whole presentation just to beat your anxieties. She is a very intelligent and logical person so she presents her case well and you have no other option than to trust your sweet girlfriend.
Okay, toots, tell me what's bothering you and I'll tell you why that pretty brain of yours is wrong! I have all the credentials I need to make my case and I passed all the requirements! What were the requirements? Uhh, being your girlfriend? And I'm pretty sure I'm the only one who fills that place out so c'mon tell me what's got you so fidgety. I know you think it seems silly but I know better than anyone not to judge you for the silly things your brain is trying to make you believe. You're always there for me trinket, let me do the same for you.
SEVIKA understands these feelings as she is someone who carries a lot of responsibilities and burdens on her shoulders. But because of her reputation and the threatening image she needs to maintain, she learned early how to bottle these emotions up and deal with them with the help of unhealthy habits (such as smoking and drinking). She doesn't want the same thing to happen to you. In her eyes, you still hold onto the innocence and good in your heart so she will help you as much as she can. She learns how to comfort you through words and uses her fondness for physical touch to reassure you that she's always by your side. Despite the rough and tough image she shows to everyone, Sevika has a huge soft spot for you and will treat you with nothing short of respect and kindness.
Okay babygirl, tell me what's wrong? Nuh-uh, don't even try pretending that nothing is wrong, I can feel your nervousness from all the way over here. Come, sit next to me, you don't have to tell me what's going on if you don't want to but let me just hold you for a bit. Just to calm you down a little. There, doesn't that feel better? You're safe here with me, I'll never let anything hurt you. I love you so much babygirl, never forget that.
MEL is another person who experiences her fair share of doubts and anxieties but cannot show them due to her position. That's why she swears she'll make sure your experience is different. She is aware that you may not feel comfortable completely entrusting yourself to her so she, like Caitlyn, will offer to arrange a therapy appointment for you. Because of her work, Mel is often absent and cannot spend nearly as much time by your side as she wishes. Instead, she always tries to communicate with you through letters and little gifts. You are also permitted to visit her office whenever you wish. There's a special corner of her office designed just for you and your comfort so that you can keep her company when both of you are busy but crave each other's presence.
Ah hello, my love. It's wonderful to see you. No, no, you could never bother me, don't you worry. Is something wrong? Ah, you just missed me, are you sure that's all? If there's something wrong, you know you can always tell me, right? Okay, good, well since you made the effort to come all the way over here, why don't you stay for a bit? Marvelous, go and sit down darling, I'll have someone bring us some coffee and I'll be right there with you. I love you too, I'm glad you came to seek me out.
a/n: i might make a post with the same prompt but with male characters, if that's okay with anon ofc :)
#arcane#arcane headcanons#arcane x reader#requests are open#arcane sevika#sevika x reader#arcane jinx#jinx x reader#arcane caitlyn#caitlyn x reader#arcane mel#mel medarda x reader#arcane vi#vi x reader#arcane x female reader
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Heloow! may i request a youngest sibling! reader x rottmnt turtles(platonic) where the reader feels like shes fat cause someone in their class made fun of them and then they started starving themselves, then the turtles finally found out like after 2 days cause they arent hyper active per usual , then they start venting to their brothers about this and they try their best to show reader that shes perfect and she dosent need to starve their selves, Thank you!
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Warning: eating disorder, starvation
Notes: if anyone ever feels like this my messages are always open to anyone <3 please please don't ever try to starve yourself. You will never feel happier, you won't know when to stop. don't do it, it's not worth risking your happiness and freedom.
You would scroll through your socials always looking at others. How their life is more fun and how happy they look but they look better than you, skinnier than you. You like the way you look… well liked the way you look. You can't stand looking at yourself in the mirror anymore. You feel sick everytime. You're not overweight, you're perfectly average but it doest feel like that. You start saying up later watching makeup tutorials on how to do the perfect winged eyeliner or how to make your skin glow, as well as waking up hours earlier just to do your hair and make yourself look over the top. If you don't try enough you stand out but if you try hard you stand out. You keep getting called out on it at school and it's draining you at this point.
Your alarm goes off as you groan slowly, opening your eyes. 5 am… you sigh, grabbing your phone and scrolling through your socials looking at stalking every gorgeous, skinner, better looking girl from your year. Without noticing you realise half an hour has passed. You groan as you get out of your bed making your way to your bathroom and taking a shower before brushing your teeth. You pick out a mediocre outfit. Just some jeans and a hoodie. You can't help but stare at the mirror. Why can't I look like them? What am I doing wrong? You spend around an hour putting on makeup covering up every small thing you viewed as imperfect. You’ve got around 15 minutes left before you leave. You make your way to the kitchen seeing your brothers. Donnie is helping Mikey cook as Leo sleepy looks at the kitchen counter and Raph tries to wake him up.
Mikey perks up hearing your footsteps. You notice this. Am I that heavy to make such loud steps?
“Morning! I’ve made you your favourite! Pancakes with strawberries!” he says with a smile looking proudly at you. Your stomach drops hearing this. You can't eat that. You're supposed to be on a diet. Supposed to try to look better but you keep a smile on your face.
“I'm so sorry Mikey but I'm not really hungry” you say rubbing your arm hoping he would just brush it off. Donnie however looks at you confused and Leo slowly lifts his head up to Raph giving him a look.
“Dear sister, you must eat. How will you pay attention in class?”
“Really, i'm not hungry”
“ok , just make sure you eat some lunch ok?”
“I will Raph, don't worry” you give him a smile before leo looks at you squinting his eyes
“Hermana! Are you wearing makeup?” you freeze a bit. you didn't put a lot.
“Umm ya” leo looking suspiciously at you
“Not trying impress someone are you?” he grins mischievously and Donnie proceeds to fake a gag. Mikey thought he was actually going to puke and pushed him out the kitchen. You laugh.
“What? No! Just… wanting to try something different. Why? Does it look bad?”
“Of course not! If you start wanting to wear it more often you can ask April for some tips. That might be a good idea”
“Ok ya i will. I’ve got to go now or else i'll be late”
“See you later!”
You nod before making your way out the lair with your lunch that mikey had handed to you before you left.
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Shit. That's how you would describe your day, absolutely shit. You didn't eat your lunch because some of the girls decided to be asses today.
“Are you sure you want to eat today?”
“You know, if you lose a bit of wight you might be noticed”
You cried to yourself in the bathroom stall at lunch. What did I do? You're walking home and pass by a dumpster. You look at it for a few seconds before taking your lunch out the bag and throwing it in the bin without hesitation. You don't need mikey asking why you haven't eaten. It's not important.
You make your way back to the lair and as you enter you see. No one. They must be out on patrol, you thought. You make your way to your room and you see a note on your door.
Hey sis! Your amazing brothers are out on patrol right now but there is some leftover lunch in the fridge. Help yourself!
You laugh to yourself and ignore it before walking into your room and closing your door. You feel so tired, so drained you just pass out on your bed.
Next day is the same but this time you had a bit of breakfast and counted the calories making sure to burn them after. You had also weighed yourself wondering what's the perfect weight. When you came home that day your brothers were out on patrol again. You sigh seeing the same note on your door but probably by Leo because you don't know how in hell you read that. The handwriting was interesting to say the least. This becomes a routine now until You start to feel dizzy all the time. Maybe just sleep it off. You do your nightly routine and pass out.
The door slowly opens. You whine covering your eyes from the light that seeps into your room.
“Raph?”
“Hey ___”
You just close your eyes and sigh as Raph walks closer to your bed.
“You feeling ok? You’ve been falling asleep earlier than usual. School taking a toll on you?”
You just nod your head not knowing what to say
“Thought so, just rest up and we’ll make a good breakfast for you” your eyes shoot open at these words. Your stomach cramps up as you cry
“____! You ok?”
You run to the bathroom as Raph calls for donnie. You crouch over the toilet before throwing up. Your vision is blurry before looking up to see Donnie and Leo. your purple brother visibly cringes at the sight as Leo runs up next to you holding your hair up. You cry as you look up to see Mikey and Raph enter with worried eyes on you. Leo helps you up before Mikey helps you wash your face at the sink.
“What's wrong with her? Does she have food poisoning?” Mikey looks at his brothers as if he was about to cry
“No, she only vomited bile, her stomach is empty, it's not food poisoning” Leo said. You grip onto Mikey finding it hard to stand up by yourself.
“____? It's ok” Raph rubbed your back trying to calm you down.
“Only bile? ___ when was the last time you ate?” you freeze looking up at Donnie
“Answer! When was the last time you ate a full meal? A proper meal?” you burst into tears again
“I dont know!” you shout making mikey and leo flinch
‘I dont know…I'm sorry, I'm so sorry. I didnt think” you breath hitches as it speeds up. Your brother sighs as he crouches in front of you
“Breathe” you take a deep breath slowly calming down. Your brothers look at each other
“Raph will take you back to bed”
“I’ll get you some water”
Raph carries you back to bed as Leo comes back with a glass of water in his hand. He gives it to you as you accept it with shaking hands. You don't like this, you don't like the way they stare at you. You feel so helpless and so lost.
“____… what happened?” mikey starts
“I don't know..”
“Why haven't you eaten?”
“I…i don't know!”
“____.. Answer”
“I don't know! I just feel like shit! I hate the way I look, the way I talk, the way I act, the way I walk. I hate this body! I wanna be better, look better, look prettier! I don't know”
“W-what?” Mikey looks up at you with glossy eyes as you glance back at him with your own
“Hermana..you are absolutely perfect the way you are, ok?”
“Exactly, you don't need to change the way you are. We think you're perfect!”
“Ok but others Dont!”
“Stop thinking about what others think. And starving yourself isn't the right way to go about this! You can die!”
You don't know what to say, you just look at them helplessly.
“You can't keep doing this.”
“You need to get better. Promise us you’ll get better”
You hesitate you’ve grown to kind of like the feeling of being hungry now you crave it
“I…i”
“We will help you ok?”
“O-ok”
“We will help you get better, feel better about yourself”
Before you know it your surrounded by your favourite people in the world hugging you tightly scared to let you go as if you’ll break
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i know you aren’t a hater and you’ll probably not post it but I wish you will so I can feel seen because I am bursting with so many emotions and no one in my real life would get it.
if it’s true that tae is dating that girl, i’mma let hate paralyse my mind. I swear there’s no coming back from this. I mean y’all telling me jimin being hated, slut shamed, defamed, threatened and sabotaged was all for nothing. I’m trying hard to ignore both jk and tae in this mess but y’all are telling they sat there and let your so called friend be dragged for years. There’s no way bighit don’t know about this.
This isn’t even about jikook because deep down I know it’s jimin over anyone else. I will cry for real so I’m hoping it’s not true. After all the mess jimin has gone through, the least taekook should have done is to at least kiss so as to justify all these hate. I know this is a jikook blog but I follow you because I’m curious about him and I am ready to support him in anything. But truly I am sad. I always thought if any of vminkook announce their relationship I will be relieved because jm will be free but today I realize that it’s the opposite. I am angry, I am sad and I feel so hurt on behalf of jimin. All those dc inside, YouTube hate video, death threats, report for jm. I’m going to sort out my feelings for taekook because deep down I don’t hate them… never😭😭
Anon. It's hard to be a PJM in 2023 so I understand. Trust me, I get it. I love this man an unhealthy amount. I see why you're getting affected by the Jimin hate. But here is the thing that I need u to think about before you take the anti route.
Here are the most recent Vmin hugs we have.
This was not part of the choreo
I mean look at Jimin's face
And the very most recent ot7 content. Again look at this hug. Look at V's face.
What I'm I saying? I think these motherfuckers love each other. That's what I think. I think V loves Jimin and Jimin loves V. Do I think they are as close as they used to be? No. But do they still love eo? Absolutely.
3 things 1) An anon made a point that I've been thinking about. The Tannies probably don't see what happens on I-twitter. They probably have their twitter curated and only shows what Karmy are saying. And Karmy are not the ones hating on Jimin. So for all we know V might be missing all this fuckery. I really don't see him seeing the pigmin and bangmin stuff and him being okay with that.
2) Jimin is no push over. Never has been. If V was being a dick to him or if Jimin had issues with V, he would have cut him out of his life. I honestly believe that.
3) Jeon Jungkook would never in a million years hurt Jimin on purpose or let someone else hurt Jimin. Ever. Like that's a thing that will never fucking happen. It doesn't matter who it is. This man defends Jimin even when his man doesn't need defending. Jimin can handle himself but when JK sees some fuckery going on he steps up. So aint no way he would be hanging out with V if the dude was being malicious.
I let u guys vent here and I hear and understand where you're coming from but my stand has always remained the same. As long as Jimin and Jungkook continue to love V, so will I. Clearly there is alot we don't know.
From the outside looking in, it looks bad but I really do think they're fine. If Jimin had an issue with what V was doing, not only would he shut it down, but so would JK.
I'll give you an example. JK came live and V told him to go to insta. A very awkward live happened but that's neither here nor there. What also happened was that live made noise even in the Karmy side. So this is what happened.
Tkk live ---- Jimin comes live for the shortest live he had ever done at that time. And he was busy. But for some reason he still stopped by. It seemed like it could have waited till he finished work---- V shares a Jikook photo for Jhope's birthday.
I think these 3 things are related. I think someone wasn't happy about the tkk live and that was V making it up to him.
I, think if Jimin has an issue he lets it known and handles it.
Jimin is not weak, anon. Jimin is quite strong. Stronger than people give him credit for. I guarantee if V was an issue he would have handled him by now. For all we know the dumpling incident got physical and u know Jimin won that fight.
So, its important to pause. Breathe. Its okay. Everything is okay. I'm about to say something extremely blunt now. Anon, it helps no one when u get affected mentally by Jimin hate. He doesn't know u and he will never hear about it if something happens to you. He and his millions will be perfectly fine. You gotta look after yourself first. Alright?
Love Shazy,
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I need to vent.
Don't feel obligated to post this but: I find it so very funny that TKelc breeder comments (context: on their podcast he and his brother have their mum as guest, they ask her who her favourite is and she picks his brother because he gave her grandchildren. it is all jokes. and during those jokes tk says he needs to find himself a breeder).
What gets me is that this is being heavily explained away/defended by people who will say oh it was a joke, you need to hear it in context. Which - I agree, it was a joke and we shouldn't crucify him over it. But it was still sexist. Deeply rooted in sexism and to me no better than when a man jokingly refers to women as females.
So - his sexism (whether purpiseful or not, conscious or not) gets a pass as a joke. And yet, every single word that has come out of Matty Healy's mouth in the past decade was subject to such scrutiny. Such vitriol. And there was no context allowed. Sentences were being ripped from whole interviews, words have been twisted... let alone trying to justify some things as a joke. That one was met w pushback.
Not to mention the whole situation surrounding TK's teammate's brother (?) and the SA allegations. Or TKs participation on a dating show where multiple women try to date him I guess. Again deeply rooted in sexism. That one gets a free pass because he "needed the money" back then (2016ish?). But Matty's statements about Taylor were dragged around as prime example of his sexism (false statements), with no context, and no understanding of the fact that time has passed.
Like, I am so sorry but I am never ever getting over the treatment Matty got. And it has permanently distanced me from the fandom as such. Not all people are like this but most of them are duplicitous and sheep with no critical thinking skills. And I cant shit on the situation because some nice people I am mutuals with like TK and are excited about all the new things while I'm sitting here having war flashbacks to late spring 2023 and thinking how if this were Matty now they would still be ripping him apart.
Ok. Rant over. Sorry.
I 100000% agree with everything you said.
Add this to it:
And it’s just… ick.
He reminds me of DJ Khalid. I remember the outcry when he said something very very similar and people TORE him to shreds, which is expected.
Another example of why Swifties are down right racist, vain, and performative they are.
I’ve come to the conclusion that Taylor’s Swifties don’t actually care if Taylor is happy. She can stand in front of them, tell them she is the happiest she has ever been and what do they do? They keep acting like pompous, privileged… use your imagination because my word would get me kicked off here.
Orc Boy is, in their eyes, the perfect white man for Taylor. He’s “good looking” (🤢) and he’s white. End of story.
Matty’s looks are… not your traditional hot guy looks. (I think he’s hot as hell) and he’s got that artistic soul, likes reading, poetic etc. Something many of her ex’s are. Travis admits he doesn’t read for fun. He’s not poetic. Taylor likes to collaborate with anyone she is with as we have seen in the past… but the Swifties don’t care. They approve of him because he’s a hot meat head. It’s very high school. Hot guy on the football team. He’s the guy everyone wants. He can say or do whatever he wants and no one cares. Why? Because he’s the hot “football” player.
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Grave Therapy {Larissa Weems}
Headcannon: that Larissa’s grave was never not decorated in different colour flowers, teddy bears and cards. There would always be at least someone at her grave talking to her and Larissa from the other side would sit next to them and respond even though she knows they can’t hear her.
Relationship: Larissa Weems x Nevermore Students
Warnings: angst, death & light talk of depression
Extra: stay safe and keep your mental, physical, spiritual and sexual health safe!
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Each student of Nevermore held a special memory with the old Principal, Larissa Weems and each for a different reason. But Larissa knew and remembered all of them, just like she knew all of her students. But it became very hard to continue making those memories when Larissa had passed away, and a new Principal had taken her spot. Though she was gone physically, she was still with each and every student in their hearts, much to Principal Thornhills dismay.
It was forbidden to go to the grave that held her body, but somehow it was always decorated with a variety of flowers, teddy bears and cards. But other than the presents that laid there, you were almost bound to find a student there talking to Larissa about anything but it was mainly to vent about their new principal or mental health. The main visitor to her grave was Enid Sinclair, who other than talked to her she maintained the site by watering, replacing and organising it and perhaps it was because Enid was the most affected by the death.
"Principal Weems? I've come again." Enid had called that afternoon during her spare period.
"I know you can't hear but I just need to vent, and you told me that if I ever needed to, to come to you." Larissa had sat on the side of the dead, waiting for someone to come and talk to her but this wasn't what she was expecting, usually Enid would've come happy but clearly something had happened.
"It's Thornhill! No teachers nor authorities believe us students when we tell them that it was her that caused it last year." Enid sobbed leaning on the tombstone. Larissa moved closer to the young girl, wrapping her arm around her.
"Dear, Wednesday and you believing is all that matters. You're the only ones that have the most mental strength and endurance to defeat her" She sighed, Marilyn wasn't a normie after all, that suspicion was now fully confirmed.
"She's been going extra hard on Wednesday and I'm scared, what if something dangerous happens to Wednesday?? I wish you were still here.." Larissa knew she'd never let Thornhill hurt a student not even the most troublesome, she'd protect them from the dead, because thats where loyalty lay. Others before herself.
"We aren't even allowed to go to therapy anymore!" The young girl cried burying her head in her knees. "It's getting worse, I'm trying hard! But it's hard to be hopeful anymore, Principal Weems.."
Larissa closed her eyes, it seemed that everything she had built had been destroyed after she had died. The guilt was seeping into her slowly.
"My dear Enid, as long as I'm dead you will be alive. I won't let anyone get in the way of my Nevermore children because you are all mine to look after but for now stay strong, if not for you, for me.." She made a wish to the stars to look after her Nevermore children whilst she figured something out.
Enid looked over at the spot where the tombstone was and smiled slightly, "I'm glad we have you Principal Weems, I'm not sure what we would've done without, " She whispered getting up from her hunched position, stretching and looking down, "I love you nevermore mum."
"Love you too nevermore daughter, go show them what you're made of." Larissa laughed watching as Enid had returned to her 'happy, cheery' self before turning away to plan an intervention in Marilyn's works.
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*Note: there may be bad English due to the writer horrible language skills. You have been warned
Wondaria is such a wonderful place...
F*ck Earth, can I somehow move into Wondaria? I'll gladly sold all my belongings to do that. Heck, I'll even sold my blood and kidney so I can get there.
Wishful thoughts aside, you are a very cultured human from what I've seen on this blog. Good anime taste, nice analyzing abilities - I've never realized how f*cking ableist YuYuYu is, how absolutely and disgustingly misogynistic Symphogear and Nanoha are with it sexulisation of freaking children, how Kill La Kill is just a horrible show that sexualize minors yet somehow got such a huge Fanbase behind it, etc... MGA, you've no idea how happy I was to found your blog. There aren't any other tumblr blog that have a similar, i dunno, Vibe/energy to yours. Hell, there aren't much stories I've found that have a similar CONCEPT to Wondaria.
This is like, the most EPIC fix-it au that might have ever existed IMO. Seriously, because you save the YuYuYu girls, you saved Minowa Gin -my sweet child - and reunite her with her friends (why Tougou-san and not Sumi Washio though...). Then you save the gems from having to continue to live under the rules of the Space Crystal Nazis Diamonds. And then you saved Izuku and his classmates from the apocalyptic hellhole that his home has become. Mate, are you an Angel for these unfortunate characters!? Because god damn you're like their greatest saviour.
Honestly, I really hope that someone, anyone, would be inspired by Wondaria and then went out to create their own Solarpunk Eutopia where they also save characters who suffered in stories. For some f*cking reasons, this is the only instance I've known about an Eutopian world for fictional characters. Shouldn't there be more of these world? Considering how much sh*tty, grimdark, edgy and "mature" shows have popped up nowadays. I'd love to write a fix-it au as well, but I highly doubt that it would be readable at all (I'm just horrible at writing and characters making).
...Have you ever thought of making a book series based on Wondaria? Just wanna ask, I'm rather curious.
Oh, please! It ain't THAT great, you're exaggerating! I only did what any disenchanted but passionate fan would do in such scenarios!
I don't think of myself as an "angel" nor a "savior", because 90% of the characters that I rescue are more than capable to fend for themselves; what they really need is support. They need something or someone to help them to provide them clarity so they can map out their futures with little-to-no trouble.
I am a firm believer that there are no bad ideas, only bad executions. All of these series, their characters, the lore and the worlds that they live in, are absolutely brimming with gigantic amounts of potential...
...but unfortunately, it's all thrown in the trash because of incompetent writers and showrunners, who have 0% of passion and care, falling into outdated clichés and are only concerned about gaining profit. I'm even not mad, just disappointed.
As for the book thing, I really don't have the intention of expanding this story outside Tumblr, because of copyright issues and Cringe Culture bullies. Wondaria was born as a self-indulgent coping method for me to practice my writing and vent my frustrations towards mediocre and horrible series.
However, I am planning on making another MG series that doesn't depend on a pre-existing series for its survival, but still serves its purpose of a whimsical female-driven power fantasy in the future...
But anyways, many many thanks again for the compliments!
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always on my mind
pairing: rhea ripley x reader
summary: you and rhea have a moment backstage after your breakup.
Work had been different since leaving Rhea. Everybody seemed to watch you, as if they were trying to figure out whether or not you were okay. Rhea had been a nightmare, getting into arguments and little fights with practically everybody. You had kept to yourself, not letting her drama affect you. It was hard though, especially because you were worried about her. Even if Rhea had driven you away by dismissing you constantly, you cared about her. Not being around her was incredibly hard, and apparently the norm.
You hadn't noticed Rhea walk into the locker room while you were changing. What you had noticed were the whispers of the girls around you. A couple of them scurried out of the locker room, not wanting to be a part of whatever mess would come out of you and Rhea being in the same place at the same time. Triple H had done a good job at keeping you and Rhea away from each other when the cameras were rolling and separated by time backstage. This was the first time since your breakup that you and Rhea were really seeing each other.
"What the fuck are you looking at?" Rhea yelled as she moved towards Carmella. You quickly placed yourself between Rhea and the blonde. Rhea knew that Carmella was your friend, so you weren't surprised that Rhea directed her anger there first. Rhea reached her hand out like she was going to touch you, but she turned away instead.
"All bark and no bite," you muttered under your breath as you stepped away from Carmella. Rhea's head whipped around to face you, an angry look on her face. "Are you gonna try to fight me now? They'll send guards in here too Rhea."
"Do you really think I'd come in here and fight you? I didn't know you were in here to begin with. Do you think I'd walk in here knowing this was where you were?" Rhea asked you. It hurt a little, the confirmation that she was avoiding you.
"Surely there's got to be something you want to say to me. All that bullshit pent up inside of you is showing," you told her. Talking had never been Rhea's strong point. She grit her teeth and stood up in front of you. For a moment, you were scared she'd do something to you. A few of the girls readied themselves in case they needed to separate the two of you. "You gonna hit me?"
"No," Rhea answered plainly. You were a little surprised by that. Rhea wasn't the type to back down from any sort of fight, not even with you. "I meant it when I said I'd never hit you outside of the ring. That's the one promise I know I can keep."
"You never promised me anything," you told her. You and Rhea hadn't gotten to promises yet, not the ones that were ever said aloud at least.
"I didn't make that promise to you. I promised myself I'd never hurt you, physically or otherwise. Obviously I fucking failed at that," Rhea said quietly. You stayed quiet, allowing Rhea to vent a little more. "I was a shitty girlfriend, I know that. I couldn't give you the things you wanted from me. I'm sorry about that, I really am. I don't know why you put up with me for as long as you did."
"That's what you do when I love someone," you said quietly. Rhea rubbed the back of her neck as she stood up. You could tell that she was on the verge of tears, ones that she didn't want anyone else to see. You watched her storm past the girls and go straight to the showers. You sighed, knowing that it was best that you were gone by the time Rhea got back.
"Come on, I'll give you a ride back to the hotel. I think a wine night is in order," Carmella said as she wrapped her arm around you. You let her walk you out of the locker room. Nobody stopped you on the way out, allowing the two of you to just get out of there. You were almost all the way to the hotel when your phone started buzzing. You looked down to see that you had about 7 incoming texts from Rhea. Carmella snatched your phone from you and put it into her purse. "You can have it back in the morning. It's getting late, you shouldn't talk to her without a clear head. I know you miss her, but this is what's best."
"But I can't stop thinking about her. I want her back," you whispered. Carmella squeezed your knee and gave you a sympathetic smile.
"I know, but if it isn't right, then it isn't right."
#wwe#wwe x reader#wwe imagine#wwe imagines#rhea ripley#rhea ripley x reader#rhea ripley imagines#rhea ripley imagine
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Sorry, late to all the things, but for the fic title ask game: Glory Hounds. And, if you want a second option: I've Always Been a Fan of Sequels.
Is anyone ever really late, if time is a construct? :-) Besides, I'm late too, so there's that.
And you know, at first I was thinking something kinda light and goofy for Hudson and Rex (don't think I don't see what you're doing, giving me targeted suggestions) with something like a team building weekend and Charlie and Rex are kicking everyone's ass because they're the equivalent of "Horse Girl bOnDeD" and they don't need to think about the exercises.
But now, because I'm me, I'm leaning more towards dark - something like how Charlie and Rex's fame has become a problem because everyone recognizes them, and knows there's a solid chance they're going to be in on a Major Crimes case. So it starts getting bad on both sides - every time Charlie and Rex show up to a crime scene, they're treated like celebrities, it's a thousand cameras and journalists and now they're online and like now there's protests that Charlie shouldn't force Rex to work because it's animal cruelty, and making inappropriate comments about Charlie (take your pick - really crass comments like 'I'd bang him like a screen door in a hurricane', to anti-police, etc), and Charlie gets distracted enough that he's not paying enough attention to the fact that the Bad Guys are also using his fame to try and get rid of him and Rex for good.
Hmm. Sequels. My first thought is something along the lines of So Help Me Todd, and the sequel is like..."same old story"-esque. Harry is trying to come back into their lives, Lawrence is freaking out about how his plan to become governor is in jeopardy because SCANDAL, Alison is off trying to discover herself, and Todd is actually managing to be the Least Worrisome Child for once, except now he's the one everyone is venting to about their issues and Todd doesn't have the bandwith or emotional fortitude to deal with anyone's problems but his own, and makes himself increasingly unavailable by throwing himself into his new PI gig - making him a perfect target for Veronica.
#games we play#potential fic ideas#writing games#Maybe I'll actually have time to do some now that new job is 10 shades of crazy but moderately easy crazy#so help me todd#hudson & rex
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TC Challenge, stolen from @too-youngtoloveyou
1. if you could change one thing about your tc, physical or personality-wise, what would it be?
I probably wouldn't. Maybe only for his own benefit that he would be less of a work-aholic but I also like that he's busy with so much stuff at the same time and he's a great teacher imho. He's not physically attractive to me bc I'm lesbian so idc about that. I do wish he would grow out his hair because the buzz cut is not it sir,,,
2. Are they "your type", or was falling for a person like them completely unexpected?
Never thought I would connect this way with him because he's a cishet white middle-aged man so yeah definitely not my type. My type is girls with pretty eyes and a great ass ngl. H doesn't fit that for sure lmao
3. Imagine you have a whole weekend to spend with your tc. what would you guys do?
Definitely watch some movies, cook dinner together. He is such a father figure to me so i would make it a father-daughter weekend probably. Go to a museum would be fun or a football match!!!!
4. If they knew about your feelings, would they confront you about it or ignore it?
Well, he knows I'm lesbian and he knows my family struggles so if he isn't aware that I appreciate his advice and just him listening to what I have to say, than he's way more oblivious than I thought. So I'm assuming he knows.
5. Are they more academic, artistic, or athletic?
This man is so smart and observant, he loves sports a whole lot andd I know he's great at writing so H is a mix of all three and knowing him he loves doing it all.
6. Do they inspire you as a person?
Yes. So much. There's a reason why I wanted him to be my mentor.
7. What do you think their love language is? what's yours?
Mine is physical touch and second is quality time. My wild guess is that H's love language is words of affirmations.
8. What would they have to do to make you lose feelings for them?
Make a move on me, I wouldn't like that at all. I just want to be friends with him if possible.
9. Are they introverted or extroverted? what about you?
Both extroverted lmao
10. Who's more likely to start rambling about their interests while the other listens?
Maybe H? He likes to talk about sports or his work and he has asked me twice what he should make for dinner. In general food is a subject bc we both have GI-tract issues 🤝🏼
11. Do you feel guilty about having feelings for your tc?
Chronic feeling of being a burden, I would've had it with anyone but I'm glad it's him.
12. Are you insecure about them liking another student more than you?
Yes but that's because I have an extremely warped self-image so I don't think there's a reason for me to worry. Still do it tho🥲
13. Have you ever drawn them or written about them to vent your feelings?
I suck at drawing so no. Written about them, yes, literally this whole blog.
14. How do you feel when you're around them? are you so nervous that you can't concentrate, or do you just feel happy that you get to spend time with them?
Nervous at first because I'm scared he'll have changed his mind. But it's like I can breathe normally when with him, like just me existing is fine.
15. Have you ever tried to get over them?
No, there's no reason for me to try that. And I know my need to talk to him stems from me being emotionally neglected and I hope I can move out and get therapy so that need will lessen with time.
16. If someone nice your age showed up in your life and you caught feelings for them, would you move on from your tc?
Again, I'm a lesbian. Literally went on a date last Saturday with a girl. No men!!! Only daddy issues!!!
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I haven't done one of these in a while and I have a lot of new followers so here's the rub. If you don't want to hear Christian bashing then skip the post. I get "not all Christians" "don't judge people" yadda yadda yadda. Whatever. Fair warning you've been warned. If you go farther you can't say I didn't warn you because that's exactly what I did and am continuing to do right here. See. WARNING. Unfollow me I don't give two shits. I am venting about what happened today and I am going to use some harsh ass fucking language! My mood waxes and wanes as the moon. My heart is torn between Fenrir and Tyr and sometimes Fenrir's unbridled rage and aggression towards those who oppress is what speaks to me on an emotional level. I'm not looking for someone to spread my posts I'm not looking for people to agree with my posts. I'm just fucking pissed off at some Bible fuckers and I'm going to get nasty!
With that said. Anyone stayed up until this point let's have some fun!
I tried... Gods help me I tried. But the signs are what do it for me. The assumption that they know what is happening deafens their ears and dulls their minds. Approaching a girl in a parking lot at a planned parenthood who you don't know to tell her she shouldn't commit murder is fucking trash and I hope your God judges you as harshly as you judged her! I hope your God fucking aborts your ass you limp dicked vagina mouthed poor excuse for a fucking skeleton bag!
To All these people who are posting the anti-christian videos because Christians are going nuts again (and fucking Thor on Prozac! one thing you can always count on is a Midwestern Bible wanged nutcase giving you a good show to post.)
I fucking love you!
The Christians in my town are not any different and if I have to continue to drive by that crowd of Jesus ass sniffers every morning I go to work I'm going to lose my shit. "God hates f**s" "hell is real" "repent" oh and my favorite "abortion stops a beating heart." Looks Hitler should have been aborted and you can't tell me every politician doesn't love the fact their mistresses have access to get that regular booty call aborted.
I am pro-Choice! Give the power back to the child bearing individuals whose bodies you claim. If it's not my body it's not my fucking business. If it's not my medical chart I don't give two shits.
I wouldnt want someone stopping me from getting any cancer treatment if I would ever need it. You know some tumors have more function than a fucking aborted fetus. This isn't about the fetus. If it was you'd make adoptions hella cheap, you'd make medical care for the pregnant women fucking free and the cost to give birth to th child would be fucking free, you would give fucking more rights to the fucking mother and take fucking rights away from sexually active men. You would make fucking sure than any time a sperm left a fucking nut it was accounted for because that sperm has more life in it than a fucking egg.
(fuck you and your "God")
Seriously these people have no job other than to harass innocent people seeking medical help and guess what most of them are fucking old white dudes and Karens.
Damn I hate Christians!
I'm not saying curse them... But if you join in my ritual tonight seeking "advice" on these netherspawn Christ pounders i know my gods wouldn't reject your offering.
No on second thought fucking curse their asses! You can't curse them with stupidity that's already accomplished but fucking curse them with a sign that shows the world what they are. Make them known so no one is tricked.
Also genital warts. They really need genital warts.
And syphilis
And may there be no medical treatment facility within reach other than a planned parenthood that can help them.
Ahhhhhh feels so good to get that off my chest. 😌
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The way you describe the dating scene as a wlw sounds so scary but realistic and I definitely get what you're saying. I'm 21 and I haven't truly dated anyone yet, y'know? All of my relationships with girls were during high school and all of them ended up with me being heartbroken because I saw the relationship as something serious while they just they didn't even see a relationship with another woman as something real 💔. It was really disheartening. I often wonder if I will ever find another woman to spend my life with. I want to settle down someday as well, but before that I think I need to work on myself, because I have some terrible self esteem issues. Just the thought of going into the dating pool sounds exhausting. Plus I barely have any dating experience.
Sorry if this post got weirdly deep, I just wanted to show solidarity ✊🏽.
We miss you on this app and I hope you return when (and if) you're ready. I know this is random, but if you ever need anyone to talk to, please make a post and I'll dm you. I really mean that 🤞🏼. I'm awkward and you're going to have to explicitly tell me you want me to dm you 🤣. Even if you just need to vent to a stranger, no questions asked.
Love you!
21? That's still so young lmaooooo
I definitely feel where you're coming from though. It's either they're not interested or they act all flirty and then say something like "oh I'm not looking for anything serious" OR it becomes really obvious that I'm there to give them attention while they're still not over their ex 🙄🙄🙄
But thank you so much for your kind words, I really appreciate you! And yeah, DM me for sure (I am explicitly asking you to DM me lmao). We can talk and possibly complain about dating and life in general
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alright, i'm taking to The Tumblr for this just to get some thoughts and feelings out. I've written in my diary and bitched to friends ad nauseum about this but... And I'm not censoring my fucking thoughts so if this comes off ✨problematic✨, fucking touch grass and cope.
So I had this friend since 2016, and I mean, sure, there were some red flags in hindsight in our interactions. Going back and reading our old conversations, she's extremely self-involved and seems more interested in appearing concerned than actually helping someone's emotional situation improve, and then she fuckin pats herself on the back for her Cracker Jack wisdom. But we became buddies and she made me some edits for one of my old accounts and that was nice.
2017 I had all this drama with guys who, essentially, I'd start dating them, I'd get attached, and they'd ghost me. She was THERE seeing all my fuckin post about what neglect, ghosting, and abandonment did to me and all the shit from my past it brought up to the forefront. That's relevant later.
2018 we have a few fandoms and boy-crushes in common. She knows about some specific *cough* issues I have and recommends me a fic for a ship that 50/50 would have that dynamic. The fic was absolutely terrible and I told her straight-up "I'm never reading anything you recommend me ever again", to her confusion. When asked, I explained what I didn't like about it and she acted all confused, but I figured she wasn't smart enough to get it at my level and I didn't feel like delving into a big conv about it.
2019 (?) this show comes out that's diametrically opposed to my religion and she B E G S me to watch it so I can RP one of the main boys for her. I explained more than once that it was against my religion and seemed too dark for me anyway, to which she replied (gleeful) "It gets SO MUCH DARKER AND COOLER later!" Yeah I dropped the subject again because it's not worth getting mad enough to smash her ✨oblivious✨ head in with a mallet, whatever.
2020 we've both got new babies and I'm quietly comparing and contrasting our parenting styles. Can't remember if it's here or next year when I video call her for the first time freaking out about how to calm down my baby when my husband's out of the house. (Spoilers: Newborns hate EVERYTHING and everything makes them cry. For anyone who needs to see it, you're not a bad parent if your baby bursts into tears at the drop of a hat. They're also highly empathetic so your stress makes them even MORE stressed, which is great for those of us with pre-existing emotional dysregulation, amirite?)
2021 I'm browsing for shows to watch and ooh, this one looks interesting! The title is something I've been called and the premise is something I would totally do if I had the resources! So I start watching it and it's like the perfect mix of hilarious, cringey, relatable, and schadenfreude. Also, it's a musical. So anyway there's this guy who shows up in a few episodes who is EVERYTHING. He's sweet-natured, out-of-touch in that he does things that would be scary out-of-context but he means them in a nice way, BUILT AF, successful, with a great smile and dimples, and his actor just radiates this wholesome energy. He's so much fun to watch and I immediately PM my friend and say, "You've got to watch this show with me, you're gonna love this character." I also vent to anyone who will listen (and catch some heat for it in the fan groups because WAAAH PROBLEMAAATIC) about how the main girl did him dirty, took advantage of his kindness, led him on, etc. And like I predicted, she absolutely fell in love with this character as much as I did.
So we started writing together. We'd had a few casual threads here and there with our OC's and we knew a couple friends in common but I'd never really been invested in anything. This, I was HARDCORE into. We were gonna write a fanfic and it was gonna turn into a book and I was just so excited! Yeah problem was, now I felt obligated to watch the show she had wanted me to watch back in 2019, like a... you scratch my back, I scratch yours. Anyway, yeah so, not to suck my own dick but the ship from MY show would actually work with a little bit of work. The ship she proposed from HER show? uhhhh would not work with the OC she chose; it's completely OOC for the guy she wanted me to play to show any kind of interest in that OC. But I figure, you know what, she's being nice and letting me drag her into this fandom so I'll be nice and not play her dream boy as the misogynistic prick he is in canon.
Then my characters sort into dynamics that intrigue me from a psychological perspective. I'm not sure how much of it I let happen and how much of it I made happen, if that makes sense to fellow writers. Like ok, character A on my side attacks character B for power reasons. Character B has displayed masochistic tendencies in canon, both physically and emotionally, and he gets bodied more than once so ykw I figure he's into it. Problem is, my Character A is shipped with her Character Z, and Character Z doesn't like it.
even though canonically, character Z would totally be down for a devil's threesome.
but WHATEVER, so, her reaction is confusing to me, and I try to explain Character A's point of view, like, now that he's inadvertently got Character B in love with him, he can't just abandon Character B, because he knows firsthand what that psychological damage does (psst: Character Z did similar to character A in canon). And Character Z's reaction is basically, "But you're not responsible for the feelings of those around you." Which fucking BAFFLED ME.
So naturally our minds being so different led to some conflicts that we did manage to sort out in side-chat/DMs. Then we started bantering in DMs alongside the main RPs that were happening. Enter the next problem: her OC for Verse 2. This chick has
☑ a dead mother
☑ an abusive father
☑ a kid brother on behalf of whom she takes extra beatings from their dad
☑ purity culture taken to its logical extreme-- she's not just a virgin at the tender age of 24, she's a SUPER VIRGIN!
☑ her family's been exiled from various different states due to her father's misuse of power
☑ EXTREME UNTAPPED POTENTIAL in a type of magic uncommon to canon!
☑ a crush on the canon her admin wants me to play (who's her married professor expecting children btw)
☑ the jealousy of all her classmates for... no known reason!
☑ a ZOMG WORST ENEMY (also an OC) who shows up in like two seconds
My sister and editor doesn't like the term "Mary Sue", but like... if you've got another succinct way to describe this chick, be my fuckin guest. In the main RP she actually wasn't too bad, but dear GOD, the fucking SIDE CHATS! You couldn't throw a spitball without hitting one of her shills! This rubbed one of my characters-- let's call him Character N, who was shipped to one of her characters-- let's call him Character G-- the wrong way when G was paying unwarranted attention to MS. And when I say "unwarranted", I mean both "What she was doing wasn't worth the OOH'S and AHH'S," and "Canonically, G would literally catch a grenade for N, and wouldn't even THINK of ignoring him in favor of anyone else."
I tried, both in and out of character, to explain what was so fucking annoying about MS, and her admin's response was basically just refusing to get it. At one point there was a conversation between our characters that went something like:
"I don't understand why you hate her so much!"
"UGH I've explained this fifty fucking times. I'm not getting into it with you again because you refuse to fucking OPEN YOUR GODDAMN EARS AND LISTEN."
"See, you can't even come up with a reason!"
But I mean, I was emotionally invested in continuing my verse's RP and she was emotionally invested in continuing her verse's RP so I did my best to just talk to her person-to-person and say, "Listen, this here is a problem for me so how do we deal with it?" Nowadays I don't know why I fucking bothered. Anyway, that conv was in September or so and we were still going pretty strong for a while!
November/December I noticed she was tapering off more. Things kept coming up. They sounded plausible and innocuous at first like "oh my friends kidnapped me to go kayaking" or like "it's really hard to get my son to sleep so i have to go for the rest of the night." I tried not to let it get to me because everyone gets busy, but then I noticed there was a new person she was writing with during the times she claimed she was too busy to talk to me. You know, rather than saying, "Sorry, I'm caught up in this plotline with so-and-so and I'm going to have to put our project on hold for a little while, but feel free to continue it without me," like a fucking adult.
So mental health things started happening with me. Extreme depression, thrill-seeking, taking more of prescriptions than I was supposed to or like multiple downers at a time that I wasn't supposed to mix. She performed concern but looking back, I doubt she actually felt it.
So the person she was chatting with had a screen name that's indicative of one of my lifelong special interests and I thought, "You know, this person seems actually really cool." So I add and start chatting. At the time I thought "him" and this person's pronoun-neutral so that's what I'ma go with. He actually is super fucking awesome. His characters are intricate; he's so creative with backstory; bantering with him, whether or not I know the fandom, is an absolute joy. We're among each other's best friends to this day. Anyway so at first, yeah, we're all bantering and it's chill. Friend 1 suggests a group chat for banter and things. Friend 2 and I have amazing writing chem and bounce off each other sooo fuckin easily, like, there's one ship he actually warned me against because my favorite OC is the opposite of his canon's type... but they actually ended up having great chemistry AND he (admin) helped me figure out how to get his character's attention!
Friend 1 was... weird... about it, like, I remember thinking at the time that she gave off the vibe of a tagalong trying too hard to be one of the cool kids, butting into threads on main that she had no business butting into. At the time I also judged Friend 2 for not asking her to stay out of threads she wasn't tagged in, but present-day I understand that Friend 2 doesn't like conflict or pushing people away & didn't want to get in the middle of things he believed were going on between Friend 1 and me. We both got frustrated and irritated with her and vented privately to each other about things we'd noticed-- first with her characters and then with her as a person.
It was... a while... before Friend 2 told me that Friend 1 had warned him off me. Friend 2 was skeptical of me as a person because he was told that I was clingy, pushy, this-and-that. Which is weird to me because I had asked Friend 1 in the past, before meeting Friend 2, "Am I being too much? I'm sorry to push you on this thread, is this okay?" Like I constantly checked in to make sure I wasn't pushing any real-life boundaries. So for her to say that about me was really disingenuous.
Then I think Friend 2 started noticing Friend 1 had gone off him a bit in favor of another new shiny. I don't remember if this came up before or after the Big Fight, but Friend 2 brought up an excuse Friend 1 had made that didn't match up with either something Friend 1 had told me or something we saw her posting about. Anyway that sparked a whole new series of conversations between Friend 2 and me.
February 2, 2022. I'd started getting fed up with Friend 1's transparent excuses and neglect. I'd started being a bit more passive-aggressive than I really should be and she got super butthurt over things that plausibly could have been about someone else because she knew what she was doing; she was just mad about me """retaliating""" or whatever. She went on this fuckin rant out of ABSOLUTELY NOWHERE, calling my OC a Mary Sue, calling me a hypocrite, saying she's sick of my OC insulting her canon (it's IN-FUCKING-CHARACTER but go off), and then blocking me before I can respond, because you know, she's almost a decade older than me and wanted to showcase her shining maturity, I GUESS.
So about my character-- she KNEW my OC did not like her canon. There were things in my OC's background, Character S, that made them basically the nemesis of hers, Character R. So yes it was fully IC for S to call R a "fat slut", even though I as a person would never fucking say that about R. Meanwhile, she had this OC for another verse-- everything was crossover-- who had healing powers similar to what S has. Mine just happened to get to Friend 2's character first, and she got all jealous and butthurt instead of taking it OOC and saying //hey next time I'd appreciate it if you gave me a chance to heal him, because your character gets 90% of the spotlight// or whatever.
Anyway, things had become so bad by this point that probably on both sides we had people saying "you should probably unfriend them", but it was a huge shock to my system because I didn't even have a chance to defend myself or talk things out. Like, I was SURE this shit was a misunderstanding! And this was... a week? ish? after she'd said something to the effect of "you guys will never be able to get rid of me, I love you so much" to both of us.
I'ma leave out a few of the behaviors I resorted to but none of it was harmful to her. Fast-forward to June (I think?) 2022. I'd been devastated for months, like, Loki noticed I could barely fucking function. He'd sent her a message telling her to get her fucking head out of her ass. Meanwhile Friend 2 had felt caught in the middle and just gone on hiatus. Impetus for that was, I was frustrated with a project I was working on and I didn't tell him because I wanted to keep it a surprise; at the same time, Friend 1 was paranoid about me """stalking""" her and kept asking, "Is this her? Is this her?" to which of course the person who's known me for two months is going to have a concrete answer, amirite?
So out of nowhere in June/July/something, I get a message from Friend 1 on Discord, Instagram, maybe another platform? apologizing and wanting to talk. I was fucking ecstatic! I got to have my friend back?! I hate losing people so I was over the moon and so ready to just put the past in the past. We VC'd for a bit and then she unblocked & re-added my known Facebook accounts. She had posted a status along the lines of, "This is either going to be my best decision or my worst mistake." Two people she'd been gossiping about me with (as told by another source) reacted to the status but neither of them said anything. P sure they wanted me to see it, like, it was definitely for show but I'm not sure how so. We did some karaoke together later that week, we started writing again, like, everything was awesome for a little bit.
Well, then the excuses started to set in again, plausible at first. "My daughter's visiting and it's her birthday but I'll TOTALLY plunge headfirst into writing again when she's gone!", things like that. We did plot and write some new things, but she dragged her feet on the project she KNEW I wanted the first draft finished by August. I publicly announced that I'd replace her as a writing partner if she didn't help me finish the draft and... WELP. She claimed she wanted to, and then didn't, but she got so threatened by the idea of being replaced that she made these promises to get me to stay my hand.
This time round I didn't care so hard. Friend 2 came back shortly afterwards and apparently he and Friend 1 had linked up on Discord. Friend 1 had told him she was gonna add me back like a week or two before she actually did. I later learned she'd read my frantic apologies/attempts at resolution (one message sent to multiple accounts trying to clear things up), and the letter I'd sent to a mutual in a last-ditch effort to find out if she was okay because she'd made some pretty serious claims about her physical health. Friend 2 and I started comparing notes again. I cleared up some things and we started discussing Friend 1 and some of the disingenuous things she'd been saying and doing yet again.
September or October she invited me to an event in November in the city she moved to. At first I wasn't gonna go but my son had a doctor's appointment the day before so I figured it'd be fine for me to leave for a few days, have fun with my friend, come back refreshed. I miss traveling and I needed a vacation. Loki agreed to it and told his boss he needed those three days off.
I did find it a bit weird that leading up to the visit, she barely talked to me, like, she'd already been barely talking to me but now it was she'd pop in with a token "OMG I'M SO EXCITED TO SEE YOU FINALLY" and then bounce every few days. Event got cancelled but I went to see her anyway. I thought we had a great time! I had so much fun hanging out with her, she was a lot cooler in person, didn't get on my nerves (which is SUPER RARE for in-person); nothing I had been afraid of about the visit happened. I got along great with her family and her kid really liked me. I thought things were golden between us. I thought we'd be chatting more, RPing more, doing more banter and skits....
hahahaha nope. I staged a fight with a mutual who found out for me some things she was saying about me, things she was still saying even though I thought for SURE we'd be good after that visit. I video called her to look her in the eye and confronted her about it. I asked her if she has any problems with me that she hasn't told me about, and then I asked her about what was in the screenshots. She made it sound to me different from how she made it sound to my source, and she was putting out heavy "make this not my fault" vibes. At the end of the call I asked multiple times, "So now we're good? We've got everything out in the open, and you're gonna tell me straight-up if you have a problem from now on?" And she said she would. (We'd gone over some things she'd like me to change and I agreed to them calmly, you know, so I didn't think it'd be a problem.)
Next day she's whining to my source about how she "couldn't sleep" and "can't believe [ I ] did that to [her]." We've spoken maybe once since. My physical and mental health took a downturn as a result of just the stress caused by being lied to multiple times. God, that sounds so fucking dramatic but take it up with my stupid body.
Now I consider us basically on meme-sharing terms, like, if I see something I think she'd like I send it to her and then promptly archive the conversation. I'm not going to make a big dramatic statement by unfriending her. I was being a little passive-aggressive again recently, but that's a bad habit, so I've decided to stop doing that.
And like I know this friendship is a dud. I also know that all the things she wants to pretend to be are things I actually am. I know that most of the people she spoke to about me decided to give me a chance & get to know me anyway, and turns out they have some similar issues with her that Friend 2 and I have had, and they DON'T have those same issues with me.
I just wish I could stop thinking about it. I wish these things didn't hit as hard as they do. I feel like anything I have to say is just redundant and irrelevant, and I regret giving her the chances I did. I regret buying her a $300 painting of her BIGGEST character crush (that's an estimate including shipping). I regret sending her a Chromebook with a bunch of books and read-aloud services (along with Facebook and Messenger because she'd been having trouble with her laptop and didn't like accessing them on her phone). I regret growing so attached to our friendship that I felt like I was in love with her. I regret letting myself hope things would be better the second time round.
But I don't regret taking that trip. I was torn for a while between, "I could have saved myself $2,000 and gone to fucking Santa Cruz," and "No, actually, Myrtle Beach is a different experience." I now know the truth about what she's like; if you can talk that much mad shit after meeting someone in-person and claiming you had the best time, then you're two-faced.
And yeah I'm saying a lot of stuff ABOUT her but believe me, I've also tried to say things TO her, albeit phrased far more kindly because I actually don't like stepping on people's toes if I can avoid it.
I just... really hate not being heard. It should be enough for me that I have all these amazing friends, and that I've met people through her who are basically the best people in the world next to my sister. It should be enough for me that most people are siding with me when she's trying to warn them off me. But it still stings that she's gotten a few people to block me for no reason or keep me on their friends list but refuse to interact just to spy on me (you know you have to actually talk to your mark, right?) to see if I'm plotting against her.
Well... I'm not plotting against anyone, actually. I'm sharing the truth about what was said between us. I'm sharing receipts. If I could afford a lawyer I'd go after her for libel, since I was told you can do that if it's online. I talk some mad shit about the story we wrote together, but guess what? I talk equally mad shit about my cringe parts as hers; there's just fewer of them, and either way, I'm getting a lot of help rewriting the story into something that's not cringe.
I'm going to have to continuously recommit to just Being my Awesome Self and not trying to reach her because it's fucking impossible to reach her and it's not worth the effort, but I also can't fuckin help wondering-- and I wish I could stop thinking about it-- how the friends she's retained don't see through her chicken-fried baloney.
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Hey Max,
Last you heard, El and I started school. Is high school miserable in Hawkins. I don't care why it could be, but like its miserable here. Makes me miss you, and the guys.
I try to stick by El, but we don't have all the same classes, I know, I know, I'm a nerd. Can't change that now. Think I could fail a few to be placed in more with her? Its an idea I've been having. So she has a friendly face you know... and so I don't just shut away, I swear I am trying not to. But even here I must have a sign on me that I can't see that tells people to steer clear. At least in Hawkins I had a few things I could pinpoint as to why.
When you moved from California, did it feel like that at all? Like you were surrounded by people but were still alone? I don't think I ever asked you, and if anyone has knowledge of cross country moves its you. Lend me a hand?
I don't really do much. I'm not really in any clubs, not that many interest me anyways. I kind of just go to school, and go home. Sometimes I draw, is there anything you want me to draw, I'm short on material? Which is crazy we're in California, but I always had things to draw in Hawkins.
How are you? Really. I wont show this letter to anyone, I promise. So if you want to vent I'm here. I get it. I know you probably hate hearing that, I know I did. Because some people really just don't. I'd trade places with Billy if I could. And don't tell me that's bullshit, I can feel it in my bones your face is probably squinting getting angry on my behalf. Let me know if I'm right? I could be wrong, I can really only accurately guess Mike. I knew what I said when I told you all to Close the Gate.
I used to be able to accurately guess for Mike. How How is he? El doesn't share her letters, and he never responded to the few I wrote. I don't think he calls either, I mean I know its expensive. I just I just want to know how he is. I know the guys are playing DnD again, Dustin and Lucas told me, so if that's why he's not writing, let him know I'm not mad about that. I'm not mad at all. I get it, for us its comforting. I wanted to play all summer because of that reason.
Can you go to one of Lucas' games when he makes the team. I need an unbiased opinion of his skills. I don't want my compliments to be empty. Does that make sense?
Don't get to in your own head. Skateboard when you do. Trust me. It'll help.
-Will
p.s. For halloween a girl and her boyfriend came to school as Diana Prince and Steve Trevor. She wasn't dressed as Wonder Woman, but like she was Diana. I knew. It was obvious if you knew, you know what I mean.
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Landcaster Legacy Gen 7 Update #29 Part 1
Dear Diary,
Tonight, is Lacy's play. I still don't know whether or not I should go to her play, or the gig Janie set up for the band tonight. I keep thinking what if this is our big break, then I remember Lacy's words. I'm young, I have plenty of time yet. I'm conflicted.
-Violet
Violet decided she needed to talk it out with someone, and since Lacy had already left for her play, Violet decided to have a chat with her mother. She explained how badly she wanted to see Lacy's play, but also about Janie's ultimatum. Mads listened intently as Violet vented.
"I can't tell you what the right choice here is," Mads explained. "But have I ever told you about my ex-boyfriend, Whit?"
"Only that he was a raging narcissist"
"That's true, absolutely," Mads nodded. "My point is, he cheated on me multiple times, and I always forgave him"
"I'd always forgive him, because whenever I caught him cheating, he'd always say, 'but Mads, I love you. I promise I'll never do it again' and I believed him," Mads continued to tell Violet. "He was manipulating me, so I wouldn't break up with him"
"It wasn't until I met your father that I realized that someone who loves you won't try and manipulate you," Mads told her. "I think if Janie really cared about you and wanted to respect whatever choice you decide to make, she wouldn't have given you an ultimatum."
"So, I shouldn't go to the gig?" Violet asked
"I think you need to make that choice yourself," Mads told her. "I won't be angry if you do decide to go to the gig, I just want you to decide on whichever choice makes you the happiest"
"Thanks, Mom. I think I know what I want to do"
Meanwhile, Lacy was busy getting ready for opening night, and things were going less than smoothly.
"Guys," Wade, the actor who was supposed to play Eli said as he began to fall to the floor in exhaustion. "I think the watcher, cheated my energy-"
Everyone began to panic.
Jenna seized an opportunity. "You know since Wade is passed out Owen could go on as Eli, and then I can be stage manager"
"Absolutely not," Owen said quickly "You wouldn't know what to do"
"Oh please I just have to be all angsty and boss people around backstage, it's what you do"
"I don't know Eli's lines," Owen told her.
"Sure you do," Jenna said. "I've seen you practice with Lacy."
"Only once," Lacy cut in
"More than once," Jenna retorted. "So it's settled, Owen let's get you over to hair a makeup and so I can make you look like a totally hot vampire."
"I feel stupid," Owen said to Jenna.
"Just sit still," Jenna snapped. "You're going to ruin it."
"But-"
"If you don't shut up, I will slap you," Jenna told him in her most serious tone.
Owen had very little time to go over his lines before getting thrust onto stage as act 1 began. He was a bit nervous, but Owen had to admit, having Lacy there really helped calm his nerves, she was a pro at this kind of stuff.
Scene after scene began to blur together, and despite the rocky start to the evening, things seemed to be going extremely well. Before anyone knew it was time for intermission.
"Surprise!" exclaimed Violet after sneaking backstage during intermission. "It's your most favorite sim here to tell you that you're doing a great job, and the play is amazing thus far!"
"Aw," Lacy couldn't help but grin. "Glad you're enjoying it. I'm surprised to see you though"
"Why's that?" Violet asked slightly offended.
"Little birdie told me your band has a gig tonight," Lacy told her. "And by little birdie, I mean Janie made a post about it on social bunny."
"Oh," Violet said. "Well, I guess I wanted to come to the play more."
"That means a lot."
"Oh please, I'm a good sim deep down," Violet said.
"Really deep down," Lacy joked. Both girls laughed, and Lacy pulled Violet in for a hug. "It does really mean a lot that you decided to come tonight, but I do have to change into my next costume."
"See you after the show!"
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Hi mom... it's been awhile! How are you? I hpe you're doing great because... I'm not, not really. I thought I was but clearly I'm not.
I want to rant but idk where and I can only think of ranting here :')
So um... Here's the thing, ever since I was little, I've always been alone. Workaholic parents and no siblings until the age of 11. And so I've always had trouble with connecting with people. Often came out as 'strong', 'loud', annoying and some said pushover. I...tried to connect... tried to change myself for the better...but idk. I'm about to turn 20 next year and it's fucking terrifying you know? I'm alone in university (i got no Friends that's from my highschool or during my foundation year) so I basically have to start over.
That was when I met my 'friends' and we immediately have group consist of 5 people including me. I thought everything was okay. Untill they slowly drifting apart from me... And I can't help but keep on questioning myself.... Am I at fault here? Is it me? Am I the problem? I know people would say 'let it be, know your worth' or 'they are probably busy, they have their own life too' and stuff like that but srsly? To the point that ignoring me, going out without me...it makes me feel like they're avoiding me. And it hurts...a lot. I tried not think too much about it but..yea. I can't-
A few days ago, one of them uploaded an edit of them doing some trend that required then to answer google form like... "Who will die first in Zombie apocalypse" kinda questions and then shows the statistics with their pictures (idk how to explain lmao) but in that video...Every girl was there. Like everyone was there. Even the one that's not even in the original group of 5. Everyone except me. And that has to be something... And I think I know where I stand now. Plus...
A few hours ago, I uploaded a status that said maybe I don't have any luck in friendship department. And guess what? One of them replied and she said
"Not everything needs luck, sometimes manners and attitude will do"
And of course I was weirded out cuz what the hell was that supposed to mean? So we talked and she told me about how maybe there's something wrong with my attitude and how I should change and stuff and then we came to the topic about 'am I annoying?' I asked her. And she said yes I am and that sometimes she can handle it but other than that no. And I was...like oh I see so I am the problem. Which is not really surprising because huh... It's always like that
And I told her I understand what she was trying to say and told her that I like being friends with and she said the same which is good but then she said...she liked my confidence but she doesn't like my confidence to the point that I 'downgrade others' and tbh I don't know if I ever did that Because i don't think I ever did that? Not that I know of... Because I swear even if I did...i did not mean it and it was unintentional...but now that I think of this their attitude as of late really said it all...idk anymore.
Maybe idk...maybe I should just stop making friends in general and just accept things the way it is?
It's not that I don't have friends at all..I do have but just that, just...Friends. not the type of friends that will literally be at your beck and call you know? Not friends enough to be able to call "my people" kinda stuff like oh she's my best/great friend! Idk how to explain but i hope you get the point.
Some people might be fine not having anyone. But I'm not. I don't like being alone. It's lonely. I've been living with loneliness ever since I was little and I don't want it anymore. If some people can live with that then good for them... but not me... I don't like being alone. It's more like it's scary to be alone.
I guess that's all...sorry for dumping everything I just need to let it out.
-Tendou anon
First off, I’m doing well! I’m so sorry you are having a difficult time and I promise you can always vent here. It might take me a while to get to it, but if it helps to vent my asks are always open! Everyone needs a safe space!
Second off, I’m going to respond with complete honestly here because that’s how I am as a person and my philosophy isn’t to sugar coat things because I don’t think it helps address the issue.
So there problem here isn’t you, it’s that this group of people you associate with might not be the best fit for your personality and style. There’s nothing wrong with being loud, outgoing, awkward or “annoying” because when you find friends who work with you, you realize that those things aren’t issues in your friendship.
I’m in my 30s and I have two really good friends. I have several online friends but I have two REALLY SOLID friends. One I’ve known for 16 years and another I’ve been friends with less than 2 years (actually I met her on here). My one friend I see maybe every few months and my online friend I chat with everyday and we video chat as well. I have a lot of support from online friends as well that I simply chat with.
Now this works for me, I’m a pretty social and outgoing person. I’m blunt and kind of chaotic but my friends aren’t bothered by that because we compliment each other.
I’m not saying these friends aren’t nice or couldn’t be good support but it almost seems like they want you to change or that they are saying you are the problem which isn’t ok to say. It would be one thing is you were a complete bitch or rude to them every time but it doesn’t seem that way. It seems like they want you to fit into a certain box that you just don’t fit in.
Also, I’m an only child and I was left to play alone a lot as a child so I understand how hard it can be to socialize. But believe me when I say that you will find friends who appreciate you for who you are! You are still so young and now is a great time to find yourself, go out, talk with random people and be outgoing!
Being alone is scary and right now it might feel like you will be alone forever but you won’t be! College is sometimes just as bad as high school, people form groups and think that everyone has to conform to that but in reality, you are all learning to be adults. Technically from the age of 18-25 is considered a “young adult” which means you are still developing, still learning how to be social and function in society!
I know me saying this isn’t really helpful but try not to put so much pressure on yourself. If there’s one thing I wish I could tell my younger 20 year old self, it would be that it’s ok to be weird, it’s ok to be loud and it’s to make mistakes! Be yourself and put yourself first!
I apologize for how unorganized this is 😅 I literally have zero sense of organization 😂
Xoxoxo and just know, you are very loved and we appreciate you 🖤
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