#idk what to do with myself lol
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Can I just quit my job to become a full time fic writer? That would be great. I'd be happy to do that.
#nym rants#nym's thoughts#life is hard right now#idk what to do with myself lol#rip me#might delete later
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autistic at the concert feels like
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Baby boy aged up!
#ts4#sims 4#ts4 gameplay#ts4 perfect life challenge#plc#jamie#my things is#how am i meant to play with him and all the memories and childhood things he could be experiencing after seeing that livestream?#idk what to do with myself lol
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ive had 2 consecutive days off this week and i feel like a caged animal
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Me @ myself, juggling writing 2 longfics while also being brainrotted by sun haven and obey me, both of which I also want to write fics for rn
#I’m in that mode where I have too much to do so I just don’t do ANYTHING whatsoever#idk what to do with myself lol#I’m sorry for the lack of caps but I’m too lazy to change it because#there’s a bug on my app currently where all the text in my text posts is the same color as the background as I write lmao#idk how it looks til it’s posted#luckily tags are safe!!#shut up crisa
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today has been such an emotional day. like you know when you achieved something you been working towards for such a long time and you finally get there and you can't believe it???
that's where im at rn
#idk what to do with myself lol#im just overwhelmed#and taking it in#like holy fuck.............i did it ????????????#crazy ramblings of a troubled mind...#txt
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"We met next day as he had arranged, and inspected the rooms at No. 221B, Baker Street, of which he had spoken at our meeting. They consisted of a couple of comfortable bed-rooms and a single large airy sitting-room, cheerfully furnished, and illuminated by two broad windows."
#holy shit i actually finished it.#sherlock holmes#i still can't believe it#ive been working on this thing off and on for nearly a year#idk what to do with myself now lol#pop the champagne i guess!
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You're still standing off to the side. Somehow, center stage has shifted from under your feet without you realizing, and you're standing in the wings, performing to no one.
Starring Role (Patreon)
#My art#ISaT#ISaT Spoilers#Siffrin#Loop#Technically - you know how it goes#Me when I relate to Siffrin: Oh no haha that's probably not great whoops haha#Me when I relate to Loop: Oh. Oh No.#Lenti has such a deathgrip on my ISaT opinions wtf how is she so powerful I thought my fave was Sif?? But I mean well-#Lol#Does this count as vent idk lol#It was fun to write tho :) Very easy! Done all at once!#As was drawing this! Also done all at once! And black and white is still really fun to work with hehe#I got to use some pretty cool outline/lineart tricks for this one yay :D#The original draft of the fic had a different title but ''Starring Role'' is kinda?? too perfect???#To the point where I looked around and I was like#Kinda shocked that there doesn't Seem? to be another fic with the same title?#Which is.........oddly relevantly thematic to this fic actually hahaha#Not to get too exacting about it but the whole thing of Loop feeling replaceable well#It would imply that other someones could do what they do better than them#What an odd refutation. Huh. Weird#Anyway - behind the scenes fun fact!#I actually really love the song Starring Role but I didn't think of it until after writing this#And now that I sing it to myself it's actually kinda perfect what the heck#So that's something to think about as well#Anyway if you're going to listen to it pls listen to the Axiom remix it is The version in my heart <3#The glitches and stutters are perfect.....#And the clock ticking?? Why is this song so ISaT I'm gonna think about this for a while now heck#Animatic in my head shower thought -core lol
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its so hard to watch time pass when things like careers and assignments exist. what do you mean im supposed to take that seriously
#I have an assignment that was due a week ago and I really really dont want to do it. I have to but i dont want to#im probably making it worse because my brain has built a wall around it so now i can’t do literally anything else until thats done. but#because I don’t want to do it I’m just kinda stuck. turns out this is what they meant when they said emotional regulation is part of#exec dysfunction.. I’ll have a thought like if I get a little bit of it done now i can get it over with. I can just submit something#and then not even 5 minutes later itll be like ugh but I have to draw all the assets out. I have to write things and make spreads ugh#and its just flopping between those two things. i hate it when ppl are like well how much time do you need to work on one thing#because BOY id love to know too. I’d love to know exactly when my brain wants to cooperate with me and work around that but I cant#even my period can’t decide when it wants to punch me in the stomach. which is kinda funny in the grand scheme of things but still#its so weird im just lying on my bed thinking abt all this like damn.. the time will pass anyways no matter what I decide to do.. damn….#if I submit that assignment now and take the L I literally won’t die. it’ll just be a deduction on an assignment nobody will ask me about#I know this but I’m still stressing myself about it so my thoughts aren’t really connecting to my body. weird#maybe its because Im having a hard time looking forward to things. theres definitely a lot I should be living for but I don’t really feel#a strong attachment to it I guess? it’s been like this for a while with holidays and meeting with friends so I just don’t#I kinda figured its because im pretty passionless and its more like passing interest. but it’s not very fun when it feels like I’m going to#be living distraction to distraction for the next 70 years or so lol#idk it kind of feels like slowly bleeding out. which is funny because I actually did experience blood loss this week#had a 30 minute nosebleed and literally could not stand. also it felt like someone was pinching the back of my brain which was interesting#yapping#does this count as vent#vent#Ive just been making an oc carrd and contemplate changing my blog header for the past 3 days honestly
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love is stored in the comfort character edogawa ranpo you are everything to me
#LOL IDK WHAT OVERTOOK ME BUT I DECIDED TO MAKE THIS#this isn’t actually even close to half of all the ranpo drawings I’ve made over the years I just don’t want to#go digging through my files and usbs#and also several sketchbooks whoops#I do believe the very first one is from sometime early 2019..? which is NOT the first ranpo I ever drew#but the very first one I drew is a little scribble one a scrap piece of paper taped into some sketchbook#HES MY BELOVED!!! FOREVER SND ALWAYS#EDOGAWA RANPO#MY DEARLY DEARLY BELOVED#lol ok goodbye now#my art stuff#kind of???#willows rambling branch#really exposing myself with this one hahah… these range from 2019 to..this month
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My angel, my pride and joy, my beloved AKA the Good Hunter Ruza lmao 🧡 ft. Her Lost Chikage and her fun outfit from these screenshots! + some lil headshots of her in the Yharnam Hunter Garb, a look I also care Deeply About ✨️
#sin scribbles#bloodborne#good hunter#good hunter bloodborne#hunter bloodborne#bloodborne oc#bloodborne oc ; ruza#(ITS DONE CAN U BELIEVE IT I SURE CANT!!!!)#(yes. i repeat. this was largely inspired and enforced by me playin d/m/c5 again. LOL.)#(look.......is it my fault my favourite games happen 2 both be about monster hunters with cool swords???)#(anyways whatever AHEM *shuffles notes*)#(i do rly like ruza in the knights garb tbf its fun and flashy. especially in game where everything is dark af)#(very fun to draw. but i prefer her in the actual hunting garb so THATS WHAT WE STICKIN WITH.)#(at least for now idk my mind changes like the weather sis thats largely why i havent given her a new ref sheet)#(or posted her new bio bc tbh im cursed!!!)#(as soon as i post a ref or a bio i immediately want to change it all. so. i just wont LOL)#(if yall still curious about her u can just send an ask or a dm or smth i dont bite 😂)#(this was supposed to be a sketch sheet can u tell i lied deceived played myself to filth)#(bonus cainhurst armor look bc i love that set SOOOOO....much)#(watch out yall sin is back at it with her nonsense cloth physics again)
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day 6: sleep/party (lizzie/pearl/gem)
pearl's secret life episode 2 sleepover makes her realise something about herself. last piece for @mcyt-yuri-week :D please forgive me :D
#mcytyuriweek2023#trafficshipping#gempearl#pearlizzie#ladytay#idk if they have any other ship names lol#cw suggestive#my art#cw partial nudity#im torn on whether or not im gonna do the free day or not#just cus i honestly have no clue what i would do#im putting myself on a training arc after yuri week is done excuse the anatomy here
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sleepyhead lol….
#rick and morty#rick sanchez#NOT GENDERBEND ‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️ TRANSFAG‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️#LOL just smth kinda quick cus im supposed to be. studyinh…..#this pose was crazy hard to work out at first but i think it looks ok now#inspired byyyy. i got a new binder. feels good 👍#used myself as reference Deepest apologies if he looks a little gay.#for the record please imagine bp alseep on the bed just out of frame. my artitsic vision#oh my god my head. i forgkt to drink wortor…..#was gonna jsut post this as flats but i have to be insane in the head abt things so hoepfully this wacky lighting doesnt look too odd LOL#idk why i cant like remmeber how any of my blending layers r supposed to work#oh disclaimer dont sleep in binders LOL. im sure thats not what ppl r gonna get from this#but just to be clear. lolol dont do that#ok i cant tweak this anymore or ill go insane. POST#artsbotz
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its maid day so heres a little falkler! 🍨 + speedpaint !
#signalis#signalis falke#signalis adler#maid day#AHHH i had to much fun w dis..... i got to draw a little parfait so im happy....#i promised myself that i wouldnt miss maid day this year (i actually almost missed it because i completely forgot that it was maid day LOL)#BUT WEVE PULLED THROUGH!!!#honestly though this was a bit troublesome because i didnt exactly know what i wanted to do w the colors . originally i tried to do some Ac#-tual Rendering(tm) but i just . couldnt#my hand was startin to hurt itd been like 3ish hours already was just wuheurheuweiuweeruwuwe#im really glad i went for flat colors tho i think it fits real well :)#U can tell i got real fancy w dis oen cause i pulled out the watercolor overlay#yknow actually its been a pretty big goal of mine to use more decorative brushes in my art; just little things to add to the background so#hat it isnt just purley white with a bit o lace#of course simple goes a long way but idk i wanna add some pizzazz!#myth.art
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never lay down in bed right after eating. don't think about staying on your phone for nearly two hours in that position. don't sleep either. acid reflux is real and i hate that guy
#uhhhh eat healthy and drink water etc etc#yknow. the exhausting but healthy things we gotta do to keep our silly billy bodies workin#i hate how this adds up to anxious thoughts djsfjdsbhjqklfehpiJADAASFGHJIOPA#i tried drawing today but it felt so draining and pointless#the floods + university strike + the cold + lack of routine + overall anxious thoughts but ig everyone is going through it too#i'm just glad my house is not under water now. my pets and things are all here and i do have blankets to warm myself with#but damn.#when your mind is not occupied with the routine it starts bothering you with unwanted thoughts#and it's not good when everyone else at home is going through the same stress#it feels just as hopeless and stressful as it was during the covid pandemic#in a way we are 'under quarantine' and isolated. unsure if it's gonna directly affect our lives.#i heard the water levels are rising quickly and people are coming in seeking public shelters...#lol idk how this went from acid reflux back to the floods. see that it's def something we can't stop worrying about rn.#what if i wake up with water on my ankles tomorrow? the videos we saw showed the water coming in so fast it's fucking scary#there was no way to just pack everything and move before it got worse.#starbstalks
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(also if you say yes, can you explain why?)
#idk what do you guys think#im honestly not sure myself but also ive never rly been in love with someone so i cant say#but i think about this from time to time#i see it sometimes in novels lol#also please note that i said IN love and not just love#because i very firmly believe you can still love someone even after falling out of love with them
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