Misery Meat/People Eater by Sodikken feat lizards!

you will accept chaos, by choice or by force!

also i have this thing

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ya know I just think that if I write a villain being evil and doing fucked up stuff like Eggman (stuff he does in the actual games, might I add) people should assume by default that I do not genuinely endorse or support what I'm writing without having to slap 50 big disclaimers on it saying I know it's bad every time. like yeah I know, that's why I'm writing the villain doing it. and you should know too. as long as I tag it correctly there shouldn't be an issue

like there's no reason to assume that it reflects my personal beliefs and interests irl unless I specifically say that I think we should all do this shit irl, or that I already do myself, or think real people who do this shit are cool or something but I'm not at all. yet people are still quick to jump to the worst conclusions of "endorsement" without thinking about it for a second and realizing that claim is baseless and an awful assumption to make about someone

also making a silly concept with humor involved or saying I love Eggman being fucked up and evil and find it entertaining doesn't mean I'm saying the stuff he's doing is okay irl either, even though I do think it's badass, cool, epic, sexy, fun, interesting, and entertaining from him as a character and the concepts in a story. because guess what? his evil in the games is literally supposed to be entertaining too

there's no difference. if my portrayal of his evil and the entertainment I find in it is endorsement then it is when the game writers do it too because they write him doing the exact same things I do, for the purpose of entertainment too. and they actually make money off writing those evil concepts and that evil character too and I don't. where are the complaints for them portraying these things and making profit?

I feel like this shouldn't have to be said but I feel like it's a part of how people tend to heavily project onto their favorites these days so they think I must be too and that if I write Eggman doing something, it means I genuinely agree and support it and that it reflects myself. and just the way that fandom has become very sanitized and purified with a demand for wholesome these days, so anything darker is assumed to be wrong or intentionally upsetting

but sorry because my mind is forever in the edgy grimdark gritty dark era from the early 2000s - early 2010s where all my stuff would've been very welcome because it was everywhere on DA and YouTube and in fanfic and it was my shit because I'm an edgelord sue me lol. but I never contributed and finally want to now and it's unfortunate that I don't have the peace and freedom to do so as I would've back then- but as long as it's tagged accordingly I should

more sacrifice render progress (once again warning for sacrifice. corpse. blood. you know)

don't tell me this doesn't look like a (n admittedly amateurish) movie poster

i hope that someday i'll be able to write without second-guessing whether or not the thing i'm trying to write is too much

I don’t care which adaptation it is—I just need to visually see qi rong get sliced in half by lqq while screaming about how it doesn’t hurt

gahhhh. im sure it doesn't sound like it most of the time, but wow my degree is so cool and fun 🥰🥰

I’m not too late am I? TwT original art by @/deadsparr0w ! 

AAAAAAA   I MEANT TO FINISH THIS FASTER BUT THEN SCHOOL KICKED ME IN THE ASS AND I HAD A SHIT TON OF STUFF TO DO T-T, and then I ended up only finishing it now ;-;, but here it is now woo!! :D

some more variations and shitpost comic thingy undercut!

ik there's a lot of debate about how palia is mixing heavy lore into what's supposed to be a relaxing, coxy life sim but also like,,, i feel like the way they're doing it now is literally fine?

the lore is definitely part of the world and the quests, but there's literally no in game timer or consequences. nothing bad happens if a player doesn't want to complete the temple bundles or skips lore dialogue or puts certain quests on the back burner (and you can choose to not see certain quests on the main ui so there's no stress there either). like,, i get that the lore Is heavy and that some people don't want that in their cute farming sim but again, there's literally nothing forcing players to interact with or care about it. i genuinely do not see the issue??

finally asked my mom for Actual Clinical Mental Health Help Like Going To A Doctor Or A Therapist Or Some Shit bc I've been rawdogging life (unsuccessfully) for wayyyy too long to a dangerous and unflattering extent and the conversation lasted maybe 5 minutes and basically amounted to "yeah we can do that". i cannot stress enough that I've been putting this off for over six years

Ohhh can you possibly share some of your favourite thought-provoking pieces that are also uncomfortable/disturbing? Or most recent one in your memory if you can't pick!

Yes! :D

tbh I don't watch That many disturbing things, but I'm kind of getting into that area bc of my movie hobby lol

I will say I go for the psychological stuff over supernatural/horror type things because those scare me too much 😭

For super recent films, I saw Beau is Afraid in theaters last month! Intriguing more than Disturbing to me, but results may vary based on your personal experience. A cool thing to see at the movies if you can sit for 3 hours lol

Last year my top Disturbing Films were The Lighthouse and Antichrist. I did not like either of them at first but after sitting and thinking and pondering I like them a lot!! If you have like...any triggers at all I would 100% recommend looking over a list for Antichrist though, that movie is brutal lol, but it is indeed one of those 'the evil and suffering tied to and perpetuated by human existence' type beats.

I already have a long list of movies to get to but if there are recommendations...I will consider 👀

OH and I read the American Psycho novel recently and like. My god. Incredibly disturbing for me. I like to think I'm a fan of gore but the descriptions in that book indeed haunted me for a while 😭 (would recommend if you want something that's the movie x10 in both length and disturbing vibe lol)

What a happy day~

time to torture Ink-

*Dancing the sadist's dance*

ima be real with you I read that as ‘spider dance’ and now I’m just imagining Ink screaming tied to her chair because Gouge left her alone with the extended 10 hour version of Muffet’s battle theme and she’s about to go insane. It’s been five hours. If gouge doesn’t come back soon and turn it off she’s going to start banging her head against the floor.

It was okay for the first twenty minutes and she didn’t understand what Gouge wanted but now she understands please turn it off let her go dear god make it stop

After the bathtub acid scene I am not sure if I’m prepared for the gore in the series lol

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