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They have me in a chokehold what can I say. Sorry bout that

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what if he was in the little wood but his name was also martyn

bastard fox my beloved

Simon season one: Wife guy

Simon season two: Knife guy

Simon season three: Strife guy

In my defence, what was I supposed to do? Leave their corpses to rot?

As a fellow Dovewing lover, it's frustrating how the fandom watered her down into a whiny brat who never cared about Ivypool. I mean, seriously? Not only did Dovewing care about her sister (reacting in horror when Lionblaze, her own mentor and Jayfeather are willing to potentially sacrifice Ivypool's safety by employing her as her spy instead of trying to get her out of the Dark Forest's clutches, hiding a thorn in her nest to cover for her scarring from her training).

Heck, even the scene where she tries to feed Ivypool her catch during a hunting patrol was demonized because 'she was trying to make Ivypool break the code like SHE does, as if it doesn't matter' and because she got upset when Ivypool started arguing with her! But you guys said she didn't care, right? Plus, people act like being forced into a prophecy is something you should be grateful for, as if it didn't irreparably change her close relationship with her sister? As if Lionblaze and Jayfeather didn't still keep her out of the loop (and for all the fussing they made about keeping it a secret, Lionblaze confesses his power to Cinderheart and Jayfeather doesn't even care).

Meanwhile Nightheart is angry he isn't orange and hates his mom for being exiled and the whole world has to stop for him. 🤪 And Bramblestar is simply so tortured by having an evil father, the only choice is to train with him and his evil half-brother and hide this from his wife! (But remember, it's bad when that witch Squirrelflight hides the parentage of the three from him, even when Blackstar and Leopardstar were still around after being complicit in the torture and killing of halfclan cats.) Why are these male characters sympathized with, even when they actively harm people (Nightheart forcing himself into Sunbeam's life by lying to everyone about being her mate without even asking her if she would be fine with that beforehand), Bramblestar (we all know what he does), but when Dovewing or any other female character is upset, people freak out and call them whiny brats or abusive for (checks notes) asking her partner if he loves her anymore after they argued multiple times in a book. Really makes you think! (Sorry this is so long, you just have based opinions!)

dovewing being characterized as this flighty airheaded vain popular girl stereotype in fanon is like. one of those biggest "we didnt actually read the books" things in the fandom. like theres so much fanart where shes grinning and giggling over the prophecy and shes besties with the trio and shes got preferential treatment, and then in the actual books shes basically the autistic kid no one actually likes. people really, REALLY overexaggerate that one scene where she snaps at ivypaw and brags. (and i dont wanna shit on amvs but i am forever side eying how the animation community handled dove back in the day. more than one person animated her getting murdered. normal.)

i do think its gotten better recently at least. but wow does it feel like at least one person on the writing team has a bone to pick

(also awww thank you <3 no need to be sorry i love getting stuff in my inbox)

HANDMADE SHUUEN TOUHIKOU PLUSHIE IS REAL

Jimmy pranking Joel by literally just putting glass blocks in the floor gaps and stilts under the base to claim the floating base was all a facade is so simple but SO funny

hi. i know it's been a while and i'm sorry for that.

i guess if you'd just like to know what's going on click the readmore?

if you don't wanna read that though, tldr is that i'm starting to draw hs characters for art practice, and that i'm doing this art "series" (i guess?) for myself to improve. oh, and that life is hard sometimes.

so this isn't really easy to say, and especially not to the internet with a buncha strangers following me (haha) but truthfully, i've been having a hard time both with art and with life lately.

i feel like i'm not keeping up with consistency or the expectations i set for myself with art both on this blog and off. i keep finding myself unsatisfied, disgusted, or just disappointed with how my art turns out, or the ending piece. i feel like i used to know where my art was going, and now i've somehow lost sight. i know the individual things i need improvement on (backgrounds, objects, animals, feet anatomy, colour techniques, body shapes, etc etc etc) but it all just feels like so much and if i get practice on one thing, i stop drawing for a while and i just lose the practice i learned.

so i kinda came up with a solution. draw all the hs characters again - interesting, right? (/s). but i'm not gonna do this for the blog (so, sorry followers). i'm gonna do it for me. no expectations, i don't have a set time limit so no stressing myself, and i just draw the characters as i'd like, trying to improve. this is also to just help myself with wanting to draw again - i draw IRL almost everyday, but nothing that i want or that's...well, artistic/creative. i want to create, like it's eating underneath me in my soul, but i can't find myself to do anything more than pencil sketches.

that kinda brings me to my other problem lately: real life. haha.

if you've been following me long enough, you know i don't really post about my IRL problems here, or especially not to this extent. yeah, i've had my one or two vent posts, but i try to keep it off here because a part of me knows its no benefit to have that kind of depressing, low-self esteem stuff on an art blog that i reblog minecraft and john/kat to.

but truthfully, i don't just wanna pretend it's sunshine and rainbows on here. i'm so tired, and i'm stressed, and i've been through the emotional woodchipper lately that i can barely keep my head on straight. yes, i'm trying to get help for all this (i have a doctors appointment soon, and i'm gonna try and get all my diagnosis in order and get therapy, etc) but i'm not coping well with everything that's been happening to me lately, and i can't keep trucking on the same way i have been like i'm more emotionally stable than i actually am.

i'm sorry if i've been acting more bitter, distant, or just different lately. i'm just exhausted, mentally, physically, and emotionally, and i'm starting to run out of energy to just function in my day-to-day. i actually cried at work the other day (for the first time!) for feeling so overwhelmed with everything i had to do (both in my job and outside of it, fuck retail btw it sucks). i have small support in friends and family, but they're not the type of support i genuinely need to function and keep myself healthy. and i can't rely on them in ways that aren't their responsibility, or that i truly need help with.

i'm not trying to air out ALL my dirty laundry here (hehehe) but i just felt like it was better to say i'm struggling emotionally then to just pretend i wasn't struggling at all. if i was a healthier person i probably wouldn't be venting here in the first place, but then again i probably wouldn't have all these problems hanging over me either, lol.

just...have patience with me, please. i just want life to be a little kind, or at least kind enough to get me to my first therapy appointment.

listen, i think you can interpret many things from this series that the author didn't intend but, as an afab poc, i think the reading of frostpaw's spaying as anything but the erins trying to create drama regarding fertility is kind of a reach like.... the erins do not care about poc and/or indigenous people and they have made that abundantly clear and trying to hone in on people saying "hey, give this series, who historically has profited off of and appropriated indigenous cultures is trying to talk about forced sterilization" is a naive reading at best and a generous reading all around. these white brits do no care about us please stop giving them the benefit of the doubt when they have made it abundantly clear we are a side show to them. where as with the over arching misogyny its not something they intend to write, it is just a reflection of how sexist brits see the world like for the love of god do not give them this when they time and time again have demonstrated they are just white cishet spectators

I ended up going on twitter to find the thread just to see what was being said and....yeah, I still don't really agree it's to that level, but I read through and I still hesitate to knock down concerns from readers of color, you know? I definitely agree that the authors are definitely not trying to talk about political issues (I think Berryheart and RiverClan's occupation are filling that void for what it's worth), but I can't lie and say I don't understand where dots are being connected.

Anyways, I probably won't continue to answer asks on this. I just feel waaaaayy out of my depth in this discussion, so apologies for that.

@rotten-vivs made this post about divorce quartet as ghost quartet characters, and inspired me to make my own with my thoughts :D they did theirs more off character comparisons while I tend to think of things like this more with story comparisons (also both pearls will be referred to with their full names to avoid confusion 👍)

Pearlescentmoon - Rose Red

Scott - The Astronomer

Cleo - Pearl White

Martyn - The Bear

I feel like I probably went a very obvious route when thinking story wise, but I will explain nonetheless bc most of my mutuals and other people who follow me do not know gq so I wanna at least explain for any of them that want to read it

I'm going off of how with a very basic explanation, in the original timeline in ghost quartet Rose loves the astronomer and spends alot of time with him in his treehouse, but then he steals the poems she wrote, betrays her, and falls in love with her sister, Pearl White, instead. By accepting and stealing him away, Pearl White is effectively also betraying Rose. Rose becomes super angry and plots a way to kill and torture the two of them, and goes to the bear for help. After going through. alot of stuff for his request he also ends up betraying her, and leaving her on her own to do it herself. And she does, she kills Pearl White, but she's not happy with herself after.

To me this is alot like the beginning of Double Life coming off of Last Life, where Pearlescentmoon was close allies with both Scott and Cleo, but then in Double Life when she tries to ally with Scott again, because of the soulbound, he leaves her and goes to live with Cleo instead, and the two of them paint her as a villain. Pearlescentmoon becomes spiteful and desperate, and uses the powdered snow to hurt Scott and get back at him just a little. After the two of them run off, she turns to Martyn as an ally to stay with her, but even after all the time she'd spent with him he too leaves her, to be on her own and deal with things herself. And in the end she kills Cleo (and Martyn), but she's not exctly happy as she wins the game.

That's mostly my thoughts on that timeline but I also have like assigned each timeline basically to an event/group, unrelated to each other though all seperate. Maybe one day I will make another post about them (likely not, unless someone really wanted to know more but its such a small overlap) but here's a brief overview

Subway - The battle of Red Desert/Jimmy's death

Usher - The Southlands, Roxy's death being Jimmy and also Mumbo's death (two jimmy permadeaths in a row oops did not mean for that. he's just silly. Im realizing actually I have alot of Jimmy in this)

Soldier and Rose - This is just very good for any duo, especially based on what you interpret and also ignore about what's actually going on lol, I tend to think Jimmy (again) and Scott but thats just bc they're my favourite duo, it can really work for anyone if you think of it right

Stardust - This one I actually can't decide on one solid thing, each song from it I tend to think of completely differently and from different series, I can't quite decide on one thing to work for the overall timeline (however I do like thinking of Tango Dancer for Shubble in Empires/Kingdomcraft reflecting on each series)

Storytellers - okay this one isn't life series the Kingdomcraft brainrot takes hold of me whenever I hear those songs they're the villains. Four Friends is them frfr

Okay no one talk to me bc I haven’t watched the race yet but I just finished Nightbane by Alex Aster and am currently Losing It. I need the third book rn.

As much as I love any life series content, ngl this whole real life thing has me just a little bit anxious for its discourse potential

I reeaallly want people to have fun with it and move on, and not turn people not taking it seriously into A Thing because it is objectively not at the same scale as any other seasons

ok. sometimes I just want to listen to people talk abt star wars but the youtube results are all men and I refuse to do that to myself. found myself on a reddit thread of good sw youtube accounts/podcasts and it's like....for one dollar name a woman:/

i. get the vibe that the more mainstream zelda fans are allergic to the idea of liking characters who like. do bad things