Fandom girlie

think we need to address s2 ep8 when carmy and fak are talking abt claire and carmy says “I just like, love her a lot” AND ITS CUTS TO SYDNEY????

j saw a tweet ab kiyoomi watching msby play and like using it to help get him through uni cause he can’t wait to play with atsumu which is so valid but ALSO nerd omi who watches msby matches and taking notes on his (future) teammates and their strengths and weakness and how they like to receive sets and receives and where they’re strongest on the court.

idk i can just so clearly imagine him not studying for the fucking exam he has the next day because it’s boring but his entire bed is covered in volleyball notes and written up plays and player configurations like someone going to break into his room with a gun shoot him if he doesn’t have all msby’s plays memorized

have become convinced there's no such thing as overanalyzing aot

its so nice to see the 03 boys actually supporting each other n not just butting heads all the time. when raph is frustrated abt splinter being lost (? ratnapped?? disappearing?) although mikey chides him for being a hothead, mikey also is clearly feeling guilty abt splinter taking the hit that injured him severely for mikey. donnie (perhaps knowing concrete knowledge, a goal he can focus on and a timeframe will help raph who is very action oriented) tells them the battle shell needs time, but that it can help them cover more ground. and leo tells raph to blow off some steam but he doesnt sound condecending or dismissive like he couldve - he sounds like he wants raph to genuinely feel better and knows that as leader (with splinter gone) giving raph express permission to leave is what he needs. theyre 15 or 16 in the show i believe, and im sure they typically ask splinter for permission to go topside or explore outside their lair. but now splinter isnt here, so leo steps into that role. that way everybody, mikey and donnie included, know its ok for raph to take some time, so there are no anxieties of getting in trouble/pissing somebody off. (that last bit may just be me projecting a little too hard, but if leo hadnt given raph permission if i were mikey or donnie i would be scared leo would be pissed off abt raph leaving without permission, and if i were raph i would be mad that leo was ignoring raphs clear distress).

also its phrased very nicely- leo says its ok, go blow off some steam, maybe you'll find a clue. nothing judgemental or accusing, just chill and positive

IM SORRY FOR SPAMMING UR INBOX 😭😭

i notice how different u answer ur asks abt btl, theyre always restatments of what the person sent in, so most of the time it never confirms nor denys things straightforwardly, its always more "maybe yn__" which seems like a theory but it means so much when its the WRITER SAYING IT!?! maybe im overanalyzing but its so cool how youre able to kinda say ur opinion without confirming nor denying theories in a straight forward manner bc if it was id jus be so sus like "maybe or maybe not 🤭"

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how many times do i have to say idc abt spamming my inbox 😤 i love reading and yapping with everyone so every ask i get makes me happy LMFAO ANYWAY!

well i cant spoil my own story 😌 and this way i can tweak the plot depending on the people’s reactions which is usually my fav part !! not only it puts readers into work but it also puts me into work and so we create a beautiful story together 😋🫶

decided to post the pics i missed from last week to forbily but just so u all know if i see any tags overanalyzing sua/the other girls im blocking on sight idc if u mean well why are u dumping that on ME

“until then, i hope you think of me too, and how much i care for you.” arcann i hope you know i am twisting and sobbing on the floor right now

Ana Flores? I don’t know what’s she’s doing I just- her.

Ana and Taylor doodle for good measure

Ana and I have the same hair type~! I wonder what product she uses to keep her curls so neat lol

CAAAAN YOU FEEEEL THE MENTO IWWNESS TONIIIIIIGHT.... I ALREADY EXPOSED MYSELF IN THE LONG ASS ASKS I SENT LAST NIGHT BUT IM HERE LIKE 🤡🤡🤡 ID GET ALONG W ALL OF THEM SURELY 🤡🤡🤡 i mean if were talking zodiacs i get along great w virgos and leos so virgo line plus changbin n i stay WINNING cause leos love the attention scorpios can give and i will Shower him in it and i Will sit w virgo line as we overanalyze society and its flaws and talk abt some deep shit only to snap to the best flavour of zooper doopers and then theres minho who is KIN, double scorpio GANG homie wed be communicating in some sort of fuckin secret code like ok. n then we have chan who id love bc i adore libras but i think i can be a bit too intense for them sometimes, much to my dismay, but he handles minho alright so IDC WERE GONNA BE BESTIES IN MY BRAAAAIN or boyfriends but yall didnt hear me say that n hyunjin is easy bc water signs generally get along w each other rly easily innie is an aquarius which i typically get along w on a surface level until they get sick of me and flake so hed probably be the first to dip but also we have similar wrath of the youngest kid of the friend group asserting dominance and raising hell so who knows.

i. i cannot believe i typed all that out this shit EMBARRASSING 🤡🤡🤡 i will retreat back to my man cave now and get ready for the hell that will be kingdom live voting 🤡 -felix bi anon

It breaks my heart to say it but I don't think I could irl fw Hyunjin on any level whatsoever, I like him IN SPITE OF the fact he's a pisces, but I s2g I have wanted to straight up murder every single male pisces I have ever met 😭 like I'm on the cusp of pisces, I feel like some of my worst traits are from the pisces side, but the detached/objective brain from Aquarius just looks at that degree of extreme emotion that is normal for them and is like "yall are some complaining ass bitches in here" 😭 I feel like pisces are always the type that have the best life ever, and still find a way to complain about how hard it is, and I just like *stares into imaginary camera with completely deadpan expression like I'm on The Office* 😑 so I think we'd like. Not get along. I love him still tho. From a distance. Same for Changbin, unfortunately. Leos play too damn much. Not everything is about you, bro. Not everybody wants to be you or fuck you, bro (this is a general leo sentiment that does NOT apply to Changbin obvi). Love the energy, love the... I know they call it "charisma", I won't comment on that 🤐 and I love the drive. But like. You tryna get a movie roll, I'm tryna hunt down jefd bezos, we are not the same, and that's OK lfmao.

i asked about ne not being necessarily billions of ideas and moreso reading too far into things. the reason i asked was because im HIGHLY considering enxp for myself, and most aspects seem to fit - i get instant intuitive feelings about people i meet and tend to trust them, whether they be right or not, and i generally fit all of the enxp traits. but the one thing i have a tendency to do in most of the situations i find myself in, in almost every encounter i have with a person, is overthink. ~~

~~ i'm always reading wayyy too far into what people say to me. after i have a conversation, i usually take a bit of time to think about what was said and process everything, and i try to find out what people really MEANT by what they said to me. i have a super hard time taking things at face value. when someone tells me something, i'll at first have one interpretation of it, sometimes it's positive, sometimes it's negative. and during the conversation, i'll respond as though i interpreted ~~

~~ it that way. but usually, after the encounter, i'll start overthinking and go something like, "oh no, they probably didn't mean it that way, and now they think that's how i interpreted it, but they meant it differently! instead of meaning it in (x) way, they probably meant it in (y) way, or maybe (z) way. i think they hate me. they said that specifically to piss me off. i wanna piss them off, too. i'm so mad at them... but i want them to like me. whatever, they're a bad person, idc." sO ~~

~~ YEAH, that's how my brain tends to work. always looking for interpretations. and i actually am creative, like, i'm EXTREMELY excited by new ideas and theories, def more than the actual world and things existing for sure. i love to ponder the unknown. and i come up with theories and ideas of my own a lot, and i do think i'm intuitive, because most of the sensors in my life aren't like me at all. BUT, i don't think my creativity is as prominent as my overanalyzing. can i still be an ne dom?

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You can still be a high Ne user if the descriptions otherwise fit, but with the caveat that either your Ne isn’t particularly healthy, your highest judging function isn’t particularly healthy (and I’m thinking it’s more likely Fi given the intense people-orientedness of the question and the emphasis on turnabout is fair play) and/or there’s some social anxiety or other non-mbti factor at play.

who wants to hear me ramble about seventeen's charts because ive got Some Things To Say

i started making ~reactions~ to the songs but then i got distracted by the songs so here’s what i wrote for the first handleful:

AHHHH okay okay woah SIX explicit songs

OK SO THE 1 IS INSTANT LOVE i adore this?????? the clicky beat gets me. i love it. THE BRIDGE WOW. i love this!!!!! so much!!!!! gorgeous. i simply love taylor swift.

oh snap cardigan. i love this too. its been said MANY times but wow her bridges are all so amazing. this song is so SOFT and PRETTY. ahhhhhh. is it a love song or a breakup song or both?? idk and idc because i like it anyway. i’ll overanalyze lyrics later aldkaldlal

ooooo the last great american dynasty. i like this beat. wait i stopped typing bc thunder but its VERY GOOD loved it and how its like about...i assume whoever owne taylor’s house before her?? and how it switches to taylor at the end ooo. or its an elaborate metaphor that i’m not understanding but either way i love

idk who bon iver is...oops? its a band right? i mean theyre very good i just dont know who they are lol. anyway this one is SO GOOD and the ending rly won me over. where they’re like having a conversation in a way. ahHhHh

ahhhhh my tears richocet is so pretty TOO. the vibes!!! of this album!!!! are amazing!!!!! im screaming. this ones also an instant love. not that any of them ARENT but some of them are instant EXTRA love. ohhhh my gosh this one

THIS ONE TOO. idk im just really liking it. the tallest tiptoes lines is so GOOD i LOVE IT. mirrorball!!!!! ice just decided that i love that word

OK, so I haven’t been on here in a long ass time, so here I am just going to casually talk about my feelings (like always).

To start off I chose this picture to prove that I am enough. Im enough for myself and that is all that matters. 

For starters, if its not obvious, because it’s me, it’s talking about boys... From where I ended on writing it was me discussing MJ and what occurred with us. To continue from that, I obviously liked him and was basically in love with him all over again. We had sex, but I already said that, but after we had sex, we lost a connection that we used to have idk. We started becoming less close and hanging out less and talking less. It genuinely hurt, if we are being honest, but it happens. Then one day at my friend Corie’s house we both went over and they brought up a girl he was talking to, that I had no prior knowledge of. As of now they are currently dating and seem quite serious, which on my behalf sucks ass, but he seems happy and at the end thats what I truly care about. Like idc if I'm not happy, I've had my chance with him and i fucked that up, but he really likes this girl and as far as I know this is his first real relationship, so I'm going to respect that no matter if I like him or not. Next, we are bringing Isaac back into the mix, but not in any way more than a friend, because ever since we have become friends again its been nothing more, which i really like. Within the past three months, him and i have gotten a lot closer as friends, and I truly appreciate him as a human being, but this past week it seems as if he's tired of me, like we never snap like we used to or even talk and its weird, because it was all of a sudden, like even at work idk its weird, but i don't want to overanalyze it, because I don't want to annoy him. But overall, i really like Isaac as a friend now. Since I already mentioned work, there is this guy on the Homegoods side, that I find super adorable and attractive and I don't know how to talk to him and get his attention, like Im shy and awkward towards people i don't technically know :// His name is Sterling, and he seems so polite and respectful and I want to get to know him and go on a cute date with him lmao. Enough of him, since I don't know him. My next person is Brandon, and I really don't know if I have ever brought him up in Tumblr, but he is overall such a good person and friend. He is always always always there for me and gives me the best advice whenever i rant to him about any of my issues. And I am just super glad that we have made it this far as friends and have become this close of friends. I will genuinely miss him next year, because we will be 750 miles away from each other and that hurts me, like who am I going to hit up when I'm bored. Overall, Brandon is one of the best human beings someone could ever meet, and I'm glad we are friends and have always stayed as friends this entire time. 

I had to have a separate paragraph for Chandler, freaking Chandler Luzsicza. Chandler and I have gone a whole year back from this time, so we have known each other for a long time, but we were never super close, because we never hung out or were like alone in person together and talked, like we only snapped the entire time we ever talked as friends or more than friends, which is one reason why I don't think it particularly worked out for us, which truly sucks. Chandler is a good individual that I never wanted to lose, but I did. All of the times that we talked as friends and more than friends truly made me value him as a human being, like he is genuinely one of the best individuals in the world and that anyone could ever meet. I am glad that I had the opportunity to meet him, but at the same time I regret meeting him, because I fucking liked that asshole he wasn't as committed as I was, because he was scared and nervous. I mean I can't control that, like he was a shit ton younger than me, but I had hope for us, I figured we could have kept it going and had a future with each other, but that idea vanished once he started playing games. We talked to each other for nearly three months, and miscellaneously he dropped me and started to ignore and avoid me anytime he saw or if I would reach out to him. So we stopped talking and had no contact by any sort and we forgot about each other for a couple months. Then one day I got a dm and just figured it was from a friend who shared a tweet, but nope it was Chandler sharing my tweet to myself. I was furious and went off on him, which I regret, but don't simultaneously. My dumb self forgave him and tried trusting him again and less than a week of becoming friends the same thing happened, he just disappeared. I thought I would have learned my lesson by then, but guess what? A month later he came back and this time, I genuinely wasn't going to take him back, but he said “I’m different” which was bullshit. Then the most recent time was roughly a month ago and I literally ranted to him, everything I hate about him and what he did, and things felt different, and I didn't forgive him immediately. Our conversation dragged on and it felt like old times, so I broke my wall and let him in again... this time it lasted roughly THREE days. And he told me, “Just have faith in me please, i promise I won't disappoint you” and guess what he did??? I have never felt more stupid, because I actually had fucking faith in him, I gave him a chance to prove himself and I came out looking like the stupid one. I just wish we never lost our spark the very first time. 

So basically I'm giving up on trying, Im not attempting to talk to a boy or allow one to get in my life until I have worked on myself and am completely happy with myself, because in the end you only have yourself. To do this, I have started going to the gym every weekday morning. Additionally, I have cut back on eating out as much (particularly fast food) and I’m attempting to eat healthier, which is hard. I have been doing this for about a week and a half, and I have not seen any progress and i don't understand like I'm doing hard cardio. Like I am just a young girl who is trying to weigh 95-100 pounds and look lean and tone for LBK smh, so I'm hoping I will see a little improvement by the end of the month.