#idc if you don't like a show or a song or whatever
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I didn't mean you at ALL btw. Your discussions always seemed logical to me considering you have only found connections between the songs and linking it with what SHE CONFIRMED. I also don't mind talking about her/joe considering she herself wrote about it. But I feel like there is a line in my own brain which I don't like crossing(idk how to explain it but certain topics come and I'm like no honey dont go there)(again I never got it from you). For example I don't mind talking about how Taylor
Had fling with TH and circumstances for it because she revealed it. Or looking back at 1989 gifs knowing about her ED. But back then if someone said she had ED I would have been highly uncomfortable since we would have been making assumptions about her personal life. But her unconfirmed flings ( esp AS because they both DENIED IT or zac efron thing AGAIN BECAUSE OF DENIAL). You are right again. It speaks about the celebrity culture more than anything at this point
i didn't think you did! but thank you <3
since you mention this, i do have to admit i firmly believed she had an ED back then and was increasingly worried about her, and it got to the point where seeing her was so triggering for me that i avoided photographs of her altogether at that time, but it's only because i recognized things i'd already seen and experienced in myself, and i wasn't sure i was right, i was just concerned. if i hadn't had the firsthand experience, it likely would've not felt quite that acute to me. that said, i also didn't discuss it publicly, like i didn't say i thought CH was terrible, or didn't mention her in 2016 when i thought it was evident she was struggling pretty badly. the only person who heard me express any of this at the times it was happening was my mom (and i hate that i was right, especially in regards to her ED, because i wouldn't wish that on anyone, and i'm so proud of how far she's come and her ability to mention it and continue with her recovery). i do think sometimes we see reflections of things we understand in others, but we should still be cautious when talking about it on a public forum out of deference to them as humans.
thinking she's hooked up with people who have flat-out denied it or have only been mentioned as rumor is simply disconcerting/disrespectful to me and feels like leaning into the slut shaming culture even if it's not intended that way. but things she's written about and described in detail herself are public record, they're essential and a part of her art, so we can decide how to approach that and how to respectfully discuss it and its meaning.
I feel like there is a line in my own brain which I don't like crossing no same, and that's probably different for everyone and that's fine! we have to recognize what our own boundaries are and what we see as okay to approach. being interested/curious about artists and their experiences itself is never a negative thing! it's very human and universal, audiences have been captivated by the people who create things for centuries, it's all in how we engage and how we talk about and treat them. the moment it becomes cruel or dehumanizing is the moment i'm not interested in seeing it. but recognizing their struggles/joys and their inspirations and their complexities is an extension of empathy.
#secret confessions from me things got so bad with the mix of people virulently hating on her all the time#and my inability to look at her without serious concern#that i had her blacklisted almost the entirety of 1989 era#hence not only disconnect but simply missing a lot of stuff. i did not see it i did not engage#another thing i was just talking to a friend about too#i do not understand the impulse to leave mean comments tearing down people's work in their replies!#idc if you don't like a show or a song or whatever#how we respond to art is subjective#but you don't need to make that someone else's problem! especially when they've created it!!!#and i know i don't need to put this disclaimer here but obviously it's different if we're talking about actual crimes/abuse/prejudices#what i mean is if you think something is a “flop” that's whatever#but you don't need to harass musicians or actors about it? how is this hard?#ugh we are so damaged by the tabloid press and by this idea that cynicism and mockery is superior idk.#anonymous#letterbox#thrown out speeches
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IMAGINING. . . SOOBIN W TATTOOS !!
p — CHOI SOOBIN × FEM!READER | g — suggestive asfff, slight fluff, s2l!au kinda, | w — sexual tension type like a lot, pool scene, mentions of reader wearing revealing clothing (again it's literally a pool scene), mention of cigs somewhere + not really proofread
A/N — based on a thirst trap I saw on ig you have me on chokehold for the rest of the month <3 idc if the concept doesn't fit I needed it.
🖇️ READ PART TWO HERE !!
PARTIALLY INSPIRED BY ARIANA GRANDE'S “BREAK UP W/ YOUR GIRLFRIEND” MV & SONG
you've been friends with soobin for quite some time now— you kicked it off at a cafe when your friend wanted to meet up after coming back to town. she had a few other friends there with her, choi soobin being one of them. “dude, you have to meet soobin,” you recalled your friend telling you, that you he was this fun guy with a great fashion sense, and you'd just brushed her aside, not paying too much attention.
but now, you kind of wished you did. soobin wasn't anything like you imagined. you probably pictured an average looking guy with a personality that reached depths, maybe wore a few fashionable pieces here and there. but you didn't expect him to have wear the simplest outfits, and yet look like— well, the way he did.
you eyed him in a white t shirt covering all of his arms, the thin material subtilty revealing dark outlines on his skin, a delicate pendant around his neck and fluffy hair brushed aside to make room for his glasses. and when he smiled at a joke your friend made...shit. he was kind of cute.
and soobin made his efforts to talk to you, but you couldn't help but focus on his body language— his fingers gripping his forearm, his jacket riding down to show a few tattoos on his shoulder— and you'd mask a smile at him when you'd hear him repeat a question he asked you earlier, trying not to focus on the way his hand rested on his thigh.
and you'd see soobin when your friends hung out often— usually sitting in one of the corners of the table where you could observe everyone talk, and then driving people home in his car. but, despite his appearance, soobin was a sweet fucking guy. always offering you a napkin at dinner or lending you his jacket on a particularly windy night.
and everytime he stretched while he silently watched everyone talk at the table, you noticed there was something scribbled on his soft skin underneath his full sleeve shirt. and he'd catch you staring sometimes, his bangs falling over his eyes as he bent over to tap you on your knee, asking with a small smile if you're lost in thought.
so maybe, soobin had been growing on you. just a bit.
and the night you left a party after arguing with your ex about how you don't want to “try again,” some back and forth between bittersweet, blaring music & heated expressions flashing through shifting lights— your relationship had come to an end as abruptly as it had started, and you intended to keep it that way. refusing with a harsh pull, you rubbed your bare arms as you walked away, sliding between sweaty bodies in the tight room.
and you remember taking a seat outside, trying to wrap yourself in a shawl as cold wind nipped at your bare legs, muttering curses to your ex. the uncomfortably irritating sound of a couple making out in the corner was making your headache worse, as blaring music from inside muffled with the blowing wind.
you glanced down at your phone, knowing it'll offer you better entertainment than whatever was inside, when you saw a couple of texts from soobin a few hours ago.
SOOBIN
[11:12 pm] hey, y/n, how's the party?
how was the party? you scoffed to yourself, cigarette smoke wafting around in the air as you twiddled your thumbs hovering above the keyboard, trying to think of a response— when you reached over and pressed the call button, not really expecting him to pick up. “hey, soobin. I know it's super late, but can you pick me up?”
and soobin's response was a bit delayed, as if he was shocked you called, but he replied with something that sounded in-between a ‘sure’ and a hum, his voice hoarse. “oh, soobin. did I wake you up?”
“no, no. I was wide awake,” then you heard him yawn. your cheeks flushed as you tapped your foot to the ground, “sorry about that, soobin.”
he ignored your apology, mumbling at you to send him your location with another yawn. maybe you should have thought twice before calling him at nearly 4 in the night. but you didn't know that soobin was secretly over the moon at you calling him, he was just too sleepy to show it— every second he got, he had always picked to be your side. slowing down his pace to walk beside you, or discreetly allowing his fingers to brush against yours whenever he got a chance to, had his heart beating like crazy. you had his heart beating like crazy.
and when you finally sat in the passenger seat of soobin's car after a few more calls he made confirming your location— fuck.
you knew there was something suspicious about soobin always wearing a full sleeve shirt even in the hottest weather possible, but last thing you expected was him having an arm full of tattoos resting on the wheel, the other out the window. his designs slowly circled and disappeared behind the strap of his black tank top. and when your eyes trailed below towards his sleeping shorts, accidentally catching them riding up as he bent over to lower the aircon—
you snapped your eyes forward, feeling a blush settle on your cheeks. your fingers clutching the end of your shawl tightened.
and little did you know, soobin did it on purpose. he'd seen the way you looked at him, your eyes slyly (or not) slipping down to gaze at his arm flex when he scratched the back of his neck or readjusted his hair, a guilty, dark shift to your eyes when you'd notice his fingers on his thighs. and was it that bad to admit he liked it when he saw the expression on your face lightly change when you noticed a tattoo peeking out? you'd slowly press your legs together, a hand moving to hide your face as you'd look the other direction, trying to focus at the conversation everyone else was involved in. but he'd see you slowly default back to him, and everytime, he'd feel a tingle in his stomach when you'd lick your lips, and excuse yourself to go to the bathroom.
“how are you? how was the party?” he gave you a sleepy smile in the car, his eyes glazing over you. you looked towards him, pressing your lips together at the way his hair fluffed up, his hand rubbing his thigh as he leaned his head back to the headrest, revealing the shape of his jaw—“good. met my ex. not doing that again,” you nodded, earning a small chuckle from him.
and throughout the drive, you felt yourself slipping into sleep, accidentally focusing on your reflection in the windshield instead of the traffic. your eyelids closing, the soft bass of a summer song playing in the background, the fresh car scent wafting around you— before the car would jerk, shooting you awake. “sorry,” soobin would mumble, throwing you an apologetic look before he'd suggest you lay your seat back, allowing you to sleep in a more comfortable position. and you remember refusing, curling into a ball to sleep instead.
and occasionally, a speeding car would pass by an intersection, and soobin would lean his arm out to stop you from falling forward as the car came to a sudden stop, a serious expression on his face as he asked you, “you okay?” and the two of you would trail your eyes down to his hand on your bare thigh, hearts skipping beats. and he'd snap his hand back, apologizing and trying to clear his intentions, when you'd just giggle him an, “its okay!” thanking him for looking out for you. and the drive would start again, and he'd yawn after hearing you yawn yet again, eyelashes bearing sleepy tears.
and right before he dropped you off at your place, he turned his body to face you, scratching the back of his neck. he was telling you something about not hesitating to call him, but did he really think you'd pay attention? your eyes watched the way his detailed arms flexed when he ran his hand through his hair, his fingers tugging at the material of his shorts. your eyes watched the stars sprinkled across his collarbones attentively, wishing you could see the designs that hid behind his clothes.
and when soobin held a small ‘get together’ as he called it— was really a party— you thought you'd really never lived. you weren't planning on going, but after being urged by everyone in your circle, there you were, wearing swimming clothes underneath your dress and holding hands with your friend as you walked into the venue.
and eyeing soobin in the crowd, soft giggles and hushed whispers as the bass snuck up your legs— and you felt your stomach tighten when he glanced over towards you, a hand gesturing to come closer.
and dipping your feet as you watched everyone urge soobin to jump in the pool— him shyly refusing with a shake of his hand as he backed away, trying not to glance at you, sitting sweetly as your legs tread in the water. and he didn't notice someone sneak behind him, pushing him in, earning cheers from everyone around. and when he came up to the surface— beads of water dripping down as he pushed his hair back with a scowl and furrowed eyebrows, his dimples suddenly popping out. and he noticed you giggling as he pulled his top off, your eyes glazing over the chain that hung in the dents of his shoulders and collarbones, and he broke out into a smile, slowly walking towards you. “come on, y/n, jump in.”
you refused without actually meaning to, but then, everyone started a chant lead by soobin— and the last thing you remember before your ears crashed against the surface of the water was soobin's chin coming to rest on your knees, tilting his head with a smirk as he snaked his hands around your thighs to pull you in.
and everyone followed suit, splashes of water against your cheeks as soobin held your arms, laughing as the waves hit your face.
and everything happened so fast, his arms clinging to you when someone splashed water on you, or him wiping the water out of his face with a soft gasp. his hand on your waist, your leg slowly wrapping around his waist as he pushed you into a corner when everyone left to grab towels— bending lower, almost underneath the water when you felt his breath hit the cold skin of your lips, a soft, “can I?” as he pulled your hair to the side, his lips against your own, pushing you against the cold walls of the pool.
the sensation of the ripples of water against your hips was sending you over the edge whenever he adjusted your legs around him, softly smiling when he'd hear you mumble something in between, feeling your hands around him. and it was almost horrifying the way you could hear him kiss you, despite the music in the back, despite the water rippling around the two of you.
and you remember you snuck your fingers to pull lightly at his hair, the other hand finding it's way to tug the pendant around his neck when he pulled away— hooded eyes and cute puffy lips, his cheeks pink as he whispered, dragging your hand down his tattooed chest.
“if you keep doing that, we'll have a little problem.”
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Astro notes 🧜🏾♀️
I noticed Saturn in the 9th house might show signs of religious issues like maybe religious beliefs were pushed onto them when they were young and this made them dislike religion or feel uncomfortable with it. I have this placement and I hate when people start talking to me about religion. Especially to fix my problems like girl God isn't gonna fix my crippling depression...enough
This could also show signs of going to college late or not wanting to. Maybe being conservative? But I haven't seen that, quite the opposite surprisingly.
Jupiter in the first house come off as nerdy or like they know a lot or very ditzy maybe both.
I've noticed sag risings, degrees, or jupiter rising have eye problems.
Saturn in the 6th house like to go on diets or they just do for some reason. And they stick to it they take their health seriously probably work out often too.
Pisces venus/5th house love anything with romance, fantasy, magic and spiritual stuff like Crystals. Here's some recommendations for yall 😍
Caraval by Stephanie Garber I love this book SO MUCH just read all 3 books and her other series once upon a broken heart eats too
Idc imma put it here...The Selection series and I don't wanna hear no slander 🙅🏾♀️
Now you see me- the movie I just watched it and omg why is it so good !?
I think the 5th house talks about music taste along with venus. My sister has a sag venus and listens to music in Spanish she also has Uranus in her 5th house and listens to pop. And I'd say music that isn't mainstream she loves Rina Sawayama and Rosalia.
I have pisces venus in my 5th house and I listen to mostly pop-indie music. I'm a pop and rnb girlie. I don't listen to mainstream music really and I kinda write mainstream artists off sometimes. My favorite artists are probably tyler the creator and willow. I also don't really "stan" anyone I really just listen to whatever is good. I rarely stick to an artist or have a favorite. I listen to one or two songs by one artist usually then move on its rare for me to like most of their music. I noticed something similar with my sister.
I have lilith in the 11th house and tell me why damn near my whole grade hated me 😻🤭. It was mostly guys too and I also experienced cyber bullying.
Lilith in the 6th house might show issues with their health or body. I knew someone who has this placement and they have diabetes. But it could just mean being insecure about their body.
Lilith in the 11th house are the ones sending and getting n*des too like unsolicited pictures or sexual comments. Maybe they do s*x work online or thought of it. Anything negative or sexual that includes the internet. Omg this placement reminds me of Kat from Euphoria!! Damn no wonder I related to her 💀
Chiron in the 9th house might show religious trauma. This is the placement for people who grew up in the black church...iykyk.
Venus in the 2nd house have nice lips like plump and little with a prominent cupids bow. My sister has this placement and she has such cute lips!
Capricorn rising and Saturn aspects to the asc tend to be skinny the type to eat whatever and never gain weight. It could be an insecurity I have Saturn square my asc and I've always been insecure about being skinny. I've also noticed they can be tall or look tall. Basically the tall and lanky type.
8th house neptune/pisces idk but something with drugs. May become addicted to substances, die from them, die in mysterious ways.
I knew someone with their sun in the 12th house and they talked about not knowing themself and being a different person to fit in.
Gemini moons love to read but they might struggle to actually read because of their other interests.
Moon in the 8th house might be like their mom. They might look like their mom or just be similar. Just a theory but maybe it would be like that with other planets like sun in the 8th house might be like the father, venus might be like their partner, mercury like their sibling. But I'm not sure.
Leo, 5th house placements, or sun dominant might love yellow, gold, and stuff with the sun. I'm sun dominant and love gold and sun jewelry I kinda refuse to wear silver unless I have to 🤭.
Moon people might love silver I know a guy who had moon in his first house who loved silver.
Capricorn rising/Saturn rising might have something with their bones. I know a guy who is cancer rising with Saturn in his first house who talked about getting silver grills. He also had pointy knees 😭 and his teeth were sharp, fang like? And he talked about hating them. He was also tall (he was so fine chile 😩) but we must stay focused!
Gemini men will tell you anything chile...I was dating (this was middle school so I don't really claim him but anyway) this guy with a gemini venus. He told me he was into black girls (whole time he's racist) and ended up cheating on me with a white girl 😭. Now again this was middle school so take it with a grain of salt ig.
Idc what planets but having a lot of planets in the 4th house is usually not a good thing 😬. Most people with this I've noticed had a traumatic childhood.
#astro observations#zodiac signs#saturn placements#jupiter in the first house#4th house#astrology#Capricorn#leo#5th house#chiron#Lilith
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I'm back baby- oh yeah, it's time for another opinion post!
I'm going to briefly talk about this song. I don't have much to say about it so I'll go over this as quickly as possible..
Alright, so Poison, this song is um.. decent at best and somewhat repetitive at worst. When I first saw the post on the official Instagram account for Hazbin I was honestly pretty surprised that they made a song for Angel Dust already, which is one thing I'm actually going to complain about a little bit.
Like, the show isn't even fucking out yet and they're already posting songs from the series?? It's a bit weird if you ask me. if I was Viv, I honestly would've waited until the show was out to actually post the song on YouTube and hype it up. But whatever, she can do whatever she wants really, (even if her choices are hella questionable) but idc.
Anyway, I already heard the song. And all I can say is, it's not the worst thing I've heard. However I still prefer Addict a bit more than Poison, because the lyrics are actually pretty good and kinda catchy. (Also, I don't care what y'all think about Angel's original VA, it doesn't matter if he could sing or not, he did a pretty damn good job with the song so stfu). Which is another thing I wanted to mention, Angel's new VA is alright, I guess?? I mean, the guy can sing decently, but it's not like super wow or whatever. If anything he sounds like if Beast Boy from Teen Titans had a good singing voice.. yeah, that's all I can say about the voice really. (Although I have to admit, I like the last part of the song, because he actually makes Angel sound super distraught and heartbroken, so I'll give him points for that).
As for the lyrics, I don't really have much to say about them, he just repeats the word poison like twenty times and that's about it, which is the name of the song- so yeah.. The song isn't that amazing- not to mention that Viv only posted a lyric video on YouTube, which is fine I guess, but c'mon man I need visuals! All her other stupid songs have visuals and actually show the characters singing, so how come this song doesn't? It makes no sense!
This is why I think it's stupid of Viv to post the song before the show is even out yet! Because she's hyping the show up, so people get engaged and for what? She's not even going to post the show on YouTube! What's the point of all this damn hype? Jfc it's so stupid.
That's all I have to say about this song- this opinion post was kinda stupid and unnecessary but I don't think anyone else has been talking about this enough, so I felt the need to mention it.
Alright bye, I'll make another one of these real soon-
#vivziepop critical#vivziepop criticism#vivziepop critique#anti vivziepop#hazbin hotel criticism#hazbin hotel critical#hazbin hotel critique#spindlehorse criticism#spindlehorse critical#angel dust#poison#///#by neko loogi#do not repost#neko loogi rambles 😬#neko loogi rants😔
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heyyyy so I was wondering if you write college au for Ellie??
pluck my heartstrings (college!ellie)
a/n: of course i can do that anon!! lovely idea!! also this is lowk based off of something that happened to me irl (kicks feet) BUT its so cute so idc. i hope you like it!!!!!
warnings: UNEDITED!!, teeny tiny alcohol mention
-j
music major Ellie is just something that I think would be so so so so cute
I feel like she'd be making MOVES with that damn guitar
like she's always there at house party's n shit, asking for song requests and kinda being a show-off
not obnoxiously tho
this night, same as any other, she's seated with that guitar, soaking up the attention of like 20 people
You don't go over by her, (you're way too nervous), but it doesn't stop you from nodding your head a bit and singing along quietly when she strums a song you know
Ellie sees you, she's been seeing you at these parties, and always wonders why the pretty girl with the pretty voice never comes over to hear her play up close :(
You were completely oblivious. All dolled up in the corner, singing to yourself and sipping your drink occasionally.
Ellie doesn't hesitate this night, finally gathering up the courage to talk to you, approaching with the guitar still slung across her shoulder.
"You like that one?" She asks you, smiling shyly.
"Yeah, it was...alright."
"'Alright'? I mean you were singin' along so...couldn't of been that bad." She argues, eyes lurking over your sitting figure.
"Fine, it was good. I...I liked it." you admit, almost feeling trapped by her broad shoulders.
It didn't take long before Ellie roped you in fully, bashful smile and confident hands warming you hotter than the alcohol.
She'd begged you to pick a song, and before you knew it, you were being serenaded on a frumpy couch at a house party.
You thought you'd get to sit pretty and listen to her pluck the strings, but no, Ellie had different plans.
She stops playing to grab your hand, and bluntly but gently, places it directly on the cold strings.
"Here sweetheart―put your fingers on this little square―yup, good, now keep em' pressed down," she almost whispers, maneuvering your fingers along the neck of her guitar. "this is a fret. So if you keep pressing, I can do this―"
And with her eyes locked on yours, she strums, thumb lazily catching all five strings. She lets the rich chord ring and die out until it's silent again. Heatedly, her mouth parts and she continues.
"and it sounds...perfect, doesn't it? Me and you?"
Your mouth opens and closes, struggling to find a response.
"Yeah," you breathe. "it's really nice. I―can I try again?"
"Of course." Ellie assures, free hand now resting on top of yours. Her thumb is rubbing small soft circles, almost absentmindedly, as she talks. "get a little closer, c'mon. You can barely reach from there."
Her arm goes behind your back and grips your waist, pulling you flush with her side.
"Oh―okay," you gasp out, thighs now squished against hers and burning from the contact.
Ellie smiles at you, a bit slyly, before retracting her arm to go back to your hand.
"So now, move down one fret," she guides, palm resting atop your wrist. "—yeah, beautiful. You're a natural, y/n. What can I say?"
You let out clipped laugh before responding.
"Yeah—whatever, just strum it again. I wanna hear."
"Ok, ok. Just—just look at me. Look at me when I do it." She says, face so close to yours that you can feel the heat of her breath.
You don't respond out loud, only a small nod. The pit in your stomach is molten and heavy, only growing as Ellie's gaze continuously slips to your mouth instead of her guitar.
"Ellie—"
"It's alright, just keep pressing"
And then, just like before, she strums, lightly playing the song and moving your fingers along the frets when need be.
The music is muted this time, as you're distracted by Ellie's heady eyes and steady hand. You can't contain the way your limbs start to tremble a touch, almost getting needy next to her body.
Ellie notices, and stills, silencing the remnant acoustics with her palm.
"I—I think I really like you." she says, a rosy tint rising to her cheeks.
"Yeah?" you breathe, now unable to keep your eyes from Ellie's mouth.
"Mm—yeah. A lot."
#ellie williams x reader#ellie fic#ellie tlou#ellie williams#ellie x reader#lesbian#tlou fic#tlou part 2#tlou#catsfor2
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i have opinions on half the new songs from hazbin and i'm telling them to the void known as the internet SPOILERS
don't worry guys. i know, i know you've ALL been waiting for MY opinion on the last two episodes- me, someone who doesn't even have a pfp picked out for this blog yet and whos only post is a bad edit i posted just to get the hyperfixation thought out of my head but- you've waited long eneugh. i'm here! i'm FINALLY going to share all my thoughts on the last two episodes of Hazbin Hotel... well, okay, mainly the four songs cause that's more my expertice but. whatever. buckle in bestie, we're going for a ride...
like i said, i'm mostly a song girlie, and as established you don't know who i am so me going "oh i thought that one line was cute" probably won't matter to you. so imma skip right to the first song, "Out For Love." AND HI! HELLO! I HAVE OPINIONS! THERE ALL NEGATIVE! okay, that's not true. i like... the person who plays Camilla's voice?? i think she sounds... nice? but oh my god this song was just. such a missed oppurtunity?
i already had to cut this section down cause i spent so much time making a list of what purpose musical songs tend to serve, but considering my point is that "Out For Love" doesn't do any of those things, i don't think i should waste so much breath on it. like. every form of media has their pros and cons on how to deliver inforation. books you can have the characters full un filtered thoughts. movies you can see all their facial reactions and little moments. musicals? in musicals, you get a song about them. and these songs, espicially in a show with a tight 22 minute an episode deadline and only 8 episodes total, EVERY song has to pull its weight and teach either us the auidence something or them the characters. and by the latter half of the season, it really needs to do both! and Vaggie, is a character who DESPERATLY needed a character establishing song and... didn't really get one. yeah, theres "Whatever It Takes" but.. she has to split that with Carmilla, who... really REALLY didn't need both the songs in that episode. everything we learned about in her half of the song could have just been a pretty quick conversation with Zariel. and as she tells him that she had to do whatever it takes to protect those we love, THEN we go back to Vaggie and she has her whole own song capatlizing on a similar theme, but also.. more? cause. we KNOW Vaggie loves Charlie. that's like. one of the few things we do know about her. and the thing i hate about "Out For Love" is that it doesn't tell us anything else about Vaggie or even Carmilla! AND IT DOESN'T TEACH VAGGIE ANYTHING! in "Whatever It Takes" Vaggie says she'll be Charlie's armor, which is probably the biggest piece of information we get about Vaggie as a person and who she is. cause she said armor. not a sword, that cuts the danger away. not a partner, that helps their lover through the danger. but rather, armor, that stops the danger from hurting their love, even if that ends up damaging the armor. what she could have learned from Carmilla, and what i think they were trying to get at but didn't, is she has to fight like she has something worth going home for? she can't be Charlie's armor cause she isn't indestructable. if she keeps going to take every hit for Charlie she's going to crumble. if THIS was a duet between Vaggie and Carmilla where Vaggie comes in with her martyr-istic opinions about herself towards Charlie, and Carmilla comes in like "girl. no." THAT would have been just. so much. better? cause with how it is, wtf did Vaggie learn???? like i get Carmilla tught her her fighting strat, but idc about that. the song came across as teaching her a moral lesson but it didn't. it's been WELL established that Vaggie loves Charlie. god. i just. really wish it was better. also, the chorus tries to rhyme "If you want to fight without gloves you better be fighting for love" and i just. like okay homie.
Rosie's advice to Charlie about her relationship was fine and all but god why didn't Charlie and Vaggie have a fucking song about it?? like, i'll get into it in a second but my saphic ass has been waiting all season to get my lesbian duet and i got a thirty second reprise of someone elses song instead of the apology/acceptence duet where they reaffirm their love or whatever. and i'm blaming Rosie. ... which i instantly feel bad about cause i really like Rosie and the song she got out of Charlie but. i have to blame someone so. sorry girlie. i don't really have a lot to say about "Ready For This" mostly cause i've listened to the trailer so many times i just think of it as the trailer song? idk, i did like it but it didn't really hit me as much as i thought it would. i mostly wrote this cause i was so mad about Vaggie's two songs and the other two i think are fine. but i do think Alastor's part was really good cause it helps forshadow whatever the fuck is going on with him. love that creepy bastard.
uggggggh. okay. listen. before i say anything else, i want it well established i'm gay af. i came out of the womb with my Doc Martens and thirty different flannels on and ready for action. my hair is short, i played soccer, insert whatever any other saphic/lesbian stereotype you want. go crazy. i've heard worse from people i know better. you can't hurt me. my point is... i was really hoping to get a Charlie and Vaggie duet, and.. i really wasn't expecting one. so when Vaggie walked into the room with Charlie and music started playing i got so excited....... only for it to be thirty seconds long and it being the reprise of Lucifer's father daughter song. like. am i the only one noticing the pattern of Vaggie picking up a second half of songs about a parent loving a child but applying it to Charlie instead? like... i thought this was cute!! but. there was so much they could have sung about to each other or establish for one another or prepare for or just. do. but it was... a reprise of Lucifer's song??? when it ended, i audily said alone in my living room. "awww. i mean. i'll take it". and that's. pretty much my thoughts still i guess but a little more bitterly? like. Dusk and Angel Dust got a whole duet about being losers together (which was also great and i do ship them at least a little) but the canon and supposedly most developed ship got. a. thirty second reprise as their only duet in the whole season. yay.....
finale was good! i also think Nifty killing Adam in the exact same fashion she stabbed all those already dead angels was like. the most fitting way for him to die if not by Vaggie's hand, and sense Vaggie already got at least slight vengence against Lute, this felt good. OH ANOTHER THING ABOUT "Out For Love"! THEY KEEP SAYING VAGGIE IS CLEARLY ALL ABOUT VENGENCE WHEN SHE VERY CLEARLY ISN'T??? LIKE NEVER ONCE HAVE WE ESTABLISHED VAGGIE IS IN IT FOR THE VENGENCE! ITS BEEN ALL ABOUT CHARLIE. BUT THE SONG IS ALL "OH STOP BEING ABOUT VENGENCE AND KILL FOR CHARLIE" AND IT JUST- okay yeah whatever we've established i don't like that song, i need to calm down. i'm gonna listen to my thirty second saphic reprise that i'll take i guess. maybe i'll share more opinions when i've processed anything better. maybe i won't. peace out homie.
#hazbin hotel#hazbin hotel spoilers#charlie morningstar#vaggie#vaggie hazbin hotel#carmilla carmine#i just realized ive been spelling carmillas na#name wrong the whole time#whoops#im not fixing that
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Hiya! 😊 You're now a writer for the show. What three episode storylines are you gonna write? (In other words, what are you gonna make the boys do?)
ohm y god i literally have so many episode ideas but i'll try not to repeat any of the ones i've made posts about (except my first bullet bc im so passionate about it) so i'll give you my big list. most if not all will likely be something i DO end up writing about in my own story because ehehe i love making them do things
ones i think i've mentioned before:
a returning to minnesota chapter!! not for anything but nostalgia, getting to see the guy's favorite places, seeing their friends and families, bringing them back to realize how far they'd come. not so shy spon for my fic but i wrote a chapter like this last month and it's probably one of my favorite things i've written to date. it let me explore some of the boys' past, family dynamics, a little bit about Katie and agh i can't believe btr didn't capitalize on that at least once. ik its expensive to fund sets and hire new actors but idk i imagine it like an hour special where they could afford to shell out a bit more. idc when it happens, could be after they sign their record contract or the last episode or whatever :)
sketch comedy episode, something akin to saturday night live or so random
graduation! like you and i talked about lol i think it would be sweet
get me in the writers room stat:
originally i'd planned a "home alone lost in new york" like chapter for my story around thanksgiving where the boys are going to perform at the parade in town but they end up having their own adventure around the city beforehand. boyish antics, screaming gustavo, beautiful scenes, the works. i was just in too much of a slump to actually put it to paper :)
more tour-focused chapters (again, spon for my own fic lol) the episode in Canada was cute and the one on the bus was fun but idk there's just so many elements toward touring that i think they could've capitalized on; homesickness (for CA or MN), hardship of a go go go schedule, or fun things like being able to travel with your best friends and not ending up on the world's most wanted list lol. i know they tried really hard with this one so i don't blame them too much but my vision is just different and that's okay!
crossovers! while i'm so very happy dan schnider didn't have either of his disgusting hands in big time rush, i do remember watching the icarly/victorious crossover for the first time and wishing big time rush were there. it takes place in LA! the victorious kids are singers! carly, sam, and Freddie are pop culture experts! it would've worked really well :) so i'm writing that as a chapter for my fic LMAO
generally either an episode focusing in on or more scenes including james and lucy since the writers wanted them to be together so bad. inherently there's nothing wrong with them being together, but i do not think the relationship was given enough time to develop. give me lucy discovering her feelings for him, give me james not being creepy and obsessive about her; something more needed to be done on both of their parts to make me believe in it
additionally on that note more with jo/kendall and logan/camille; i love them both but they also had little development, just more than james/lucy. maybe they give carlos a gf (not alexa IMO, sorry. that got into weird territory for me idk why they made him be with a "real" person when he isn't other than they were already together irl) earlier and they can all have like conversations about their gfs and how much they love being together idk
and another generally, there were many songs btr put out that i love so much and feel like deserved their own episodes for hehe. i know not all of them have storylines easily transposed but i think they used confetti falling like four different times in the last season when any other love song from their third album could have been placed instead
and also another generally, and i know the early 2000s would've never allowed this for children's television but they should have and i'm the writer now!!!, but more representation all around. maybe some episodes about cultural heritage that didn't make stereotypes the main focus, canon LGBTQIA+ characters, holidays that aren't christmas, aspects like that where all kids can see themselves represented... LA is such a huge melting pot, it's not all white kids trying to make their dreams come true!
good god that was long SORRY AKJBSKJGBAB i have a lot to say and there's a lot im trying to incorporate into my story to add in what i think enhances the already present storyline. that's what's so beautiful about fandom, i love that we can have conversations like this :)
but what about you? anything you'd like to add in? i'd love to know <3 thank you for the question!
ask me a question! save my life!
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Okay first of all I don't care if people want to call him "a walking ick" or whatever (third movie specifically????? Sometimes) shut the fuck up trend hoppers Peter Kavinsky is still my husband. Idc. I really don't.
No bc how cute would it be if he shows up at your apartment to pick you up for a party with his college lacrosse team buddies, as per the terms of your fake dating agreement (bc it's Peter of course it's gonna be a fake dating au) except he's way earlier than you expected. You told him earlier to just come in when he arrives, so he walks through your apartment, calling your name. He hears muffled music coming from your bedroom. The door is ajar, and he sees you mostly dressed, makeup brush in hand with a few pairs of shoes and the rest of your outfit laid out in front of you. You paused getting ready so you could scream sing along to the Adele song that came on shuffle. Your hair isn't done and you don't have on all your makeup yet. You look so raw and organic like this, lit up by late afternoon sunlight streaming in through your windows. You look more beautiful than anything Peter's ever seen. He suddenly wishes he'd brought you flowers. You look so real and ethereal and sincere, because you are, he realizes. You look like something straight out of an iconic romantic comedy. He doesn't realize it now, not fully, but in hindsight he'll remember this as the moment he fell in love with you.
#drabbles#peter kavinsky x reader#peter kavinsky#peter kavinsky drabbles#to all the boys i've loved before#tatbilb#tatbilb x reader#tatbilb drabbles#he's such a lover man <3
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LOT,
JUST TELL ME ANYTHING WHAT YOU LIKE, IM SURE I LIKE THAT TOO LMAO
Ig i NEED to do list
so yeah
-Music
I love music, all kinds, every songs its new experience Artists i listen atm are cavetown, radiohead, the drums, mitsky, gorillaz, mindless self indulgence and more
ALSO IM A YE STAN ALR?
U HEARD ME CLEAR? 💥💥🔥🔥📣📣📣📣📣🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️
sorry.... lol
Dw tho, im not gonna say 10120312130 reason why he's best or stuff like that, swifties are safe here lmao
-Games
alr im a EPIC PRO GAMER,
Games i play/got are Don't starve together, TF2 (And other valve games) , Terraria, TBOI, GTA V, Gmod, Minecraft (im non premium tho :<) BTD6 Annnnd im sure i missed some
-Fandoms
OKAY FANDOMS OMG ERMMMMM
(no games bc i don't wanna to repeat ms, just games i play im in fandom)
FNAF, SCP, Undertale/Deltarune, Adventure time, Steven Universe, Breaking Bad/Better Call Saul, BFDI/BFB, TADG, Regular Show, MANY MANY MORE
-Hobbies
Okay, i got hobbie's, kindaaaaaaa basic but idc
Programming, Producing Music, Cooking, Playin games (i thought its gonna be longer list lmao)
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Well, Adele did say once that her music doesn't target to kids. Because yes! She makes songs to grown women!
There is no issue making music that appeals to everyone, many artists do this. Like MJ does. ( or Beatles) The difference is that most of Taylor and Adeles music is autobiographical while alot of his music is story telling and has a good beat to dance to.
Taylor Swift seemed like she grown from 1989 to the Folklore Evermore and now with her newest realise she just is back to her same immature self.
These are some lyrics:
"Whether I'm gonna be your wife or smash your bike I haven't decided yet, but I'm gonna get you back. "
"Even if it's handcuffed I'm leaving here with you. "
"Told my friends I hate you but I love you just the same. "
" Once I fix me he's gonna miss me.
"Now I'm down bad crying at the gym. Everything comes out teenage petulance. Fuck it if I can't have him. I might just die, it would make no difference."
" How dare you think it's romantic leaving me safe and stranded? Cause fuck it, I was in love. "
" You swore that you loved me. But where were the clues? I died on the altar waiting on the proof."
"We've already done it in my head. If it's make believe. "
" I want to snarl and show you. Just how disturbed this had made me. You wouldn't last an hour in the asylum they raised me. "
" You shit talked me under the table talking rings and talking cradles. I wish I could unrecall how we almost had it all."
"Cause I'm a real tough kid, I can handle my shit They said, "Babe, you gotta fake it till you make it," and I did "Lights, camera, bitch, smile. Even when you wanna die" He said he'd love me all his life. "
" I'm so depressed I act like it's my birthday everyday. I'm so obsessed with him but he avoids me like a plaque."
"Who the fuck was that guy is that guy? You tried to buy some pills. From a friend of friends of mine. They just ghosted you. Now you know what it feels like. And I don't even want you back."
" You look like Taylor Swift in this light were loving it."
" I feel so highschool. Everytime I looked at you. I want to find you in s crowd."
"Screamed fucK you all Me to the sky. "
" I wrote a thousand songs you find uncool. I build a legacy that you can't undo."
" Everyone knows my mother is a saintly woman. But she used to say she wished you were dead."
Holy this was actually worse than I thought. She really acts some entitled bratty highschool teenager.
Honestly, I haven't noticed any growth as someone who only hears her in passing since Sparks Fly/whatever it was that came after that - Red, maybe? Idc Honestly, but that one.
Up until that point her music sounded like it aged 16-19/20ish, and after that it stagnated. Then somewhere in the last years it's starting reversing itself, until we're back where we started in high school. Her music was never mature, but it grew minimally, then Benjamin Button'd and went backwards.
Meanwhile plenty of artists - Adele, Kesha, and Pink come to mind - have never been "for kids", yet have had great songs that have been enjoyed across ages, and have all gone through significant changes over the course of their careers. The same can't be said for Taylor, and it's interesting that Swifties will literally deny reality just to defend her from the truth.
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tagging game! tagged by @yarboyandy
-three ships
uhhhh. Off the top of my head. 1.lisacreature duh. the whole movie. they're not a healthy relationship but like they're fine they just destroy everything around them. i lurv it . also of fucking course I wanted a zombie boyfriend as a teenager. I won't lie to any of you
2. danbert bc gay people in my phone. classic case of toxic yaoi. so toxic I've been thinking about them for years. if only reanimator had like been gay on purpose we could've had it all
3. also based off of "what's in my camera roll". the evil scientists from mst3k are gay also. Dr Forrester and tvs frank.... is this even disputed. I don't care. I've known this since I was a child. "they're gay married and kill each other in looney tunes esque situations daily" feels like part of the character concepts.
-first ship
Inuyasha x Kagome, most likely. it's like one of the first obsessions I can remember where a show had like, a romantic throughline I cared about at all. although, to be fair, I was still mostly into the comedy and supernatural stuff, and this was Very Young.
-last song I listened to
youtube
I stumbled upon the tiny desk concert performance and well. I am not immune to popular things. chappell roan is pretty awesome. I love the videos and performances, but the pop music is also really solid, and I find myself enjoying it way more than expected. this songs good but I haven't listened to it a lot yet....my first time actually
-currently reading
Perry Mason and the Glamorous Ghost. I'm only like a chapter in. idk it was an impulse buy on my birthday because the cover was awesome. also pictured: my copy of Frankenstein. I read that in October. loved it
-currently watching
uhmmmm. still rewatching always sunny in Philadelphia. forever. watched a couple episodes of space ghost coast to coast earlier. I still want to keep watching twin peaks the return but I haven't because. idk. its hard to be me....
-relationship status
very incredibly single. it is very hard to date when u can't drive where I live. I mean it's hard in any circumstance but whatever shots I had are dust. would love to date sometime in my life possibly. I have been feeling that way for um. like four years now. so. we will see how that goes.
-current obsessions
Lisa Frankenstein, obvs.....my hobbies and such though? kind of in a slump. I've been like.....learning how to apply makeup for once for fun. I'm still very bad at it but idgaf it is what it is what's always made me uncomfortable about it was that it never "looked right" and I didn't want to be judged. instead of just treating it like a for fun thing. ie I want Colors On My Face I don't even cover up my acne atp. oh and the gender thing. like if I didn't do the makeup right I was being bad at being a girl. and now I do not have to worry about that at all.
-currently craving
like, food? um. I hope the brownies I made tonight taste good in the morning. I let them cool overnight so idk how they taste yet.
-favorite color
green, but I'm a big fan of what pink and black (I KNOW it's not a 'real color' IDC) and some shades of blue and yellow and orange have going on. I just like colors lmao
-tagging
hiiii I won't mind if you don't do it this is just a little shout-out okay :) @mahkari @jokeryuri @homokommari @mushroom-in-space
also anypony else who wants to do it can.....I won't be mad
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⋆ ❱ ✧˖°hello!°˖✧ ❰ ⋆
this is just some shit about me
read or don’t I really don’t care lol
dni:
homophobes (transphobes, biphobes, lesbophobes, etc.)
pedophiles
proshippers
bad people
haters in general <3
things I like
favourite food:
whip cream
favourite snack:
those crackers with peanut butter in between
favourite song:
Diet Mountain Dew (demo) - Lana Del Ray
favourite colour:
#49412A (hex code)
favourite show:
murder drones (hazbin’s up there too though, so is helluva boss)
favourite ship:
n x uzi, onewaybroadcast
favourite height:
anything under 5’8’’
favourite movie:
monty python and the holy grail
favourite drink:
Mountain Dew
favourite shape:
heart (the anatomically correct one)
favourite character:
Adam and Fizzarolli (alex brightman is literally the best omg)
favourite line from a show:
“choke on a sandpaper cock” -verosika
favourite quote ever:
“jokes on you, short people are just fun-sized” -me 2014
pronouns n stuff
pronouns:
any, they/them or it/it’s preferred though
gender:
AFAB, agender
sexuality:
asexual (sex repulsed but I make jokes about it)
aromantic
guidelines for commenting or asks or anything
um just try to be respectful? obviously I can’t control what you do but no racial slurs either (they make me uncomfortable)
yeah just go crazy though
names
nellie
phy
nebula
vamphy
call me whatever idc
lil bit o’ extra stuff
birthday:
feb 14th (usually celebrate on the 20th tho)
zodiac:
pisces
favourite aesthetic:
weirdcore weirdcore weirdcore weirdcore
fashion aesthetic:
goth(?), indie(?), or just whatever I have in my closet
dream job:
artist or neurosurgeon
hobbies:
writing (fanfics), reading (fanfics), thinking about meaningless philosophical questions
my ‘dictionary’:
n: and, an
b: bitch
assume everything i post is /lh unless I say otherwise
ok thanks for reading, buh-bye! ✨💖
(I mean there’s more stuff but it’s not really useful)
me vibes:
I've got a gambling addiction
And I confuse love with attention
So I keep betting everything that I have on people who don't stay
I've got a gambling addiction
But I don't raise, I don't call I go all in, all of the time
On people who don't feel the same
So, I keep losing to the house
I'll never learn my lesson
Losing to the house, because it's just a guessing game
I haven't figured out how to play in moderation
But with all of my losses someday, I'm probably gonna win
I've got a gambling addiction
And I place bets based off affection
But I never stay when I should so I always catch 22
I've got a gambling addiction
But I'm bad at bluffing and making predictions
So love is a lottery where I always lose
I keep losing to the house
I'll never learn my lesson
Losing to the house, because it's just a guessing game
I haven't figured out how to play in moderation
But with all of my losses someday, I'm probably gonna win
I wanna be: pulling lucky numbers and praying to lucky stars
Finding four-leaf clovers and counting all of my cards
But I'm walking under ladders
Seeing black cats
Spilling table salt and stepping on every crack
And yet I'm still trying to turn my thirteens into sevens
So I'm crossing all my fingers and I'm pressing all my luck
Cos I know misfortune just won't be enough
To keep me from betting it all on love, again
That's why I keep losing to the house
I'll never learn my lesson
Losing to the house, because it's just a guessing game
I haven't figured out how to play in moderation
But with all of my loses someday
I'm probably gonna win, right?
Sometimes I shouldn't text you
You act just like my ex do
You know I try my best to catch you
She wanna be so perfect, so it's silicone
For the last two years, I've been all alone
For my last few peers, I hope you fucking choke
I'm on the brink of insanity inside my own home
I wanna slam my head against the wall 'til I cannot feel at all
She doesn't really like me, she likes alcohol
I watched my idols fall, I might just end it all
I wanna slam my head against the wall 'til I cannot feel at all
She doesn't really like me, she likes alcohol
I watched my idols fall, I might just end it all
Serotonin, I need you bad, you know it
I know you mad, I'm glowing
I know you mad, I know you mad (and I know)
Sometimes I shouldn't text you
You act just like my ex do
You know I try my best to catch you
And he has a wife but he love his mistress
Blink twice and you might just miss it
So much jealousy, it's vindictive
I'm worthless, a pot to piss in
I wanna slam my head against the wall 'til I cannot feel at all
She doesn't really like me, she likes alcohol
I watched my idols fall, I might just end it all
I wanna slam my head against the wall 'til I cannot feel at all
She doesn't really like me, she likes alcohol
I watched my idols fall, I might just end it all
Dun, dun dun, dun, dun dun (alright)
Got a lot of friends that I can't escape
Sleepin' in my head like a Motel 6
Hold it all together with a little duct tape
It bends, it breaks
Got a lot of dreams but I let them die
Ping pong, drip drop, oh my my
The TV's on but the noise is white (what am I doing now?)
God, can't I catch my breath?
Not even for a second
Chasin' Santa Ana winds
And I obsess, I slow dance with the tension
Can you taste it on my lips?
I'm so scatterbrain
But when you touch me, it all goes away
Scatterbrain
For a second I don't feel insane
Come medicate me
I don't sleep at all, yeah, I've been counting sheep
I look perfect on the surface but a nightmare underneath
I've got anger problems, I say things that I don't mean
Some people pay for therapy, I find it in the sheets (hey)
Catch my breath
Not even for a second
Chasin' Santa Ana winds
I'm so scatterbrain
But when you touch me, it all goes away
Scatterbrain
For a second I don't feel insane
Come medicate me (scatterbrain)
I need you baby (goes away)
I need it daily (scatterbrain)
I need you baby (feel insane)
Come medicate me
Come medicate me
Dude, she's just not into you
Gotta move on, move on
She's just not into you
Gotta move on, move on
She's just not-
You're sitting, waiting beside your phone
The apple of your eye
The one you love is awake, you're alone
And you can't help but realize
That you waste your time
Tell yourself a lie
That you waste your time
Dude, she's just not into you
Gotta move on, move on
She's just not into you
Gotta move on, move on
She's just not-
I love ya
(And I) can't stop thinking of ya
(Oh, and I) love you
I can't stop thinking of ya, of ya
Dude, she's just not into you
Gotta move on, move on
She's just not into you
Gotta move on, move on
She's just not into you
Gotta move on, move on
She's just not into you
Gotta move on, move on
Nice to meet you
I'm a cryptid
I don't scare off many children
They just laugh it makes me livid
I'm not scary
Like I should be
Play with dolls when
No one's looking
Dad is Bigfoot
Mom is Nessie
Can't just say "I tried my best, " see
They're expecting so much more I
Couldn't care less, but I still try
I'll go hairless
Grow some more eyes
Nice to meet you
Nice to meet you
They see right through me
Can I blame them?
Till I scare 'em, I stay nameless
Movies set the bar too high
I need a win before I die
I can't begin to want to try
Yet I still do
Nice to meet you
Nice to meet you
Nice to meet you
At the naming ceremony
Everyone else, their lives were all forming
But maybe I'll earn it
At the naming ceremony
(I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm...)
What if my parents loathe me? Disown me?
(Who am I? Oh, who do I think I am? Think I am?)
If I don't earn it
At the naming ceremony
(I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm...)
Should've been gifted, should've been perfect
(What's my name?)
But I couldn't even learn it
At the naming ceremony
Nobody told me congratulations
I didn't earn it
I don't deserve it
Nice to meet you
I'm a cryptid
Chose my own name
Now I'm Mildred
It's no "Mothman"
"Chupacabra"
But it's mine and
I deserve it
It's my name and
I deserve it
It's my own and
I deserve it
Six legs, tippy tappy toes
Climbing to the podium on Sunday
Now, it remains a dream, a distant memory
That itches my brain
Struck a nerve
That's absurd
I remember when I felt my house was made of sandpaper
That's enough living rough for a lifetime
Looking back for a pass
Take it from me
I've lost my mind
Six legs, tippy tappy toes
Climbing to the podium on Sunday
Now, it remains a dream, a distant memory
That itches my brain
Six legs, tippy tappy toes
Climbing to the podium on Sunday
Now, it remains a dream, a distant memory
That itches my brain
Now, it remains a dream, a distant memory
That itches my brain
Let me lay it down for you
It seems so simple
I'm happy that I'm just under six feet, not six feet under
Where are your hands? No wonder
Take it from me
I've lost my mind
Take it from me
I've lost my mind
Six legs, tippy tappy toes
Climbing to the podium on Sunday
Now, it remains a dream, a distant memory
That itches my brain
Now, it remains a dream, a distant memory
That itches my brain
I feel stuck in a memory
Scratching my itch, who would I be?
I feel stuck in a memory
Scratching my itch, who would I be?
Six legs, running down the stairs
None of them prepared for what they might see
Now there's another face, another name to sing
I hope they're happy
Six legs, tippy tappy toes
Climbing to the podium on Sunday
Now, it remains a dream, a distant memory
That itches my brain
Now, it remains a dream, a distant memory
That itches my brain
Now, it remains a dream, a distant memory
That itches my brain
When you're gone I feel alone again
The voices cannot hold my hand
They keep me company at very best
Distract me from my loneliness
Maybe I'm just an anomaly
Even my demons have their families
Truly something must be wrong with me
To need you as much as I do
I was never meant to win
I was never meant to win
I was never meant to win
(Shut up)
Here's the reigns
Take ahold of me
Please don't let me go
You do the talking
Sew up my mouth if I can't keep it closed
There's a dog barking right around the block
And a big ol' whistle blow
Run for it
I'll keep them occupied
'Cause I love you, I love you so
Left me hanging at the station
But you'll be back for me soon
I'm 'bout to die
Yet the only thing I find I'm worried about is you
Something tells me you aren't coming
Guess that I'm truly doomed
I'm 'bout to die
Yet the only thing I find I'm worried about is you
I'm 'bout to die
Yet the thing on my mind seems to nearly be nothing but you
I overhear your brain when it's close to mine
Oh, I know that we're not the same
My heart's on the line
I'm just a pawn in your game
Not your partner in crime
And you're slowly killing me
Taking your time
You're slowly killing me
Taking your time
You're slowly killing me
Taking your- (I was never meant to win)
You're slowly killing me
Taking your- (I was never meant to win)
You're slowly killing me
And yet I don't mind (You were never meant to win)
You're slowly killing me
But please take your time
I don't feel a single thing
Have the pills done too much
Haven't caught up with my friends in weeks
And now we're outta touch
I've been driving in L.A.
And the world it feels too big
Like a floating ball that's bound to break
Snap my psyche like a twig
And I just wanna see if you feel the same as me
Do you ever get a little bit tired of life
Like you're not really happy but you don't wanna die
Like you're hanging by a thread but you gotta survive
'Cause you gotta survive
Like your body's in the room but you're not really there
Like you have empathy inside but you don't really care
Like you're fresh outta love but it's been in the air
Am I past repair
A little bit tired of tryin' to care when I don't
A little bit tired of quick repairs to cope
A little bit tired of sinkin'
There's water in my boat
I'm barely breathin'
Tryna stay afloat
So I got these quick repairs to cope
Guess I'm just broken and broke
The prescriptions on its way
With a name I can't pronounce
And the dose I gotta take
Boy, I wish that I could count
'Cause I just wanna see if this could make me happy
Do you ever get a little bit tired of life
Like you're not really happy but you don't wanna die
Like you're hanging by a thread but you gotta survive
'Cause you gotta survive
Like your body's in the room but you're not really there
Like you have empathy inside but you don't really care
Like you're fresh outta love but it's been in the air
Am I past repair
A little bit tired of tryin' to care when I don't
A little bit tired of quick repairs to cope
A little bit tired of sinking
There's water in my boat
I'm barely breathin'
Tryna stay afloat
So I got these quick repairs to cope
Do you ever get a little bit tired of life
Like you're not really happy but you don't wanna die
Like a numb little bug that's gotta survive
That's gotta survive
You're no good for me
Baby, you're no good for me
You're no good for me
But baby, I want you, I want
Diet mountain dew, baby, New York City
Never was there ever a girl so pretty
Do you think we'll be in love forever?
Do you think we'll be in love?
Diet mountain dew, baby, New York City
Can we hit it now low down and gritty?
Do you think we'll be in love forever?
Do you think we'll be in love?
Baby, put on heart shaped sunglasses
'Cause we gonna take a ride
I'm not gonna listen to what the past says
I've been waiting up all night
Take another drag turn me to ashes
Ready for another lie?
Says he's gonna teach me just what fast is
Say it's gonna be alright
Diet mountain dew, baby, New York City
Never was there ever a girl so pretty
Do you think we'll be in love forever?
Do you think we'll be in love?
Diet mountain dew, baby, New York City
Can we hit it now low down and gritty
Do you think we'll be in love forever?
Do you think we'll be in love?
Let's take Jesus off the dashboard
Got enough on his mindㅤ
We both know just what we're here for
Saved too many times
Maybe I like this roller coaster
Maybe it keeps me high
Maybe the speed it brings me closer
I could sparkle up your eye
Diet mountain dew, baby, New York City
Never was there ever a girl so pretty
Do you think we'll be in love forever?
Do you think we'll be in love?
Diet mountain dew, baby, New York City
Can we hit it now low down and gritty?
Do you think we'll be in love forever?
Do you think we'll be in love?
You're no good for me
Baby, you're no good for me
You're no good for me
But baby, I want you, I want you
You're no good for me
Baby, you're no good for me
You're no good for me
But baby, I want you, I want you, I want you
Diet mountain dew, baby, New York City
Never was there ever a girl so pretty
Do you think we'll be in love forever?
Do you think we'll be in love?
Baby, stoppin' at 7-Eleven
There in his white Pontiac heaven
Do you think we'll be in love forever?
Do you think we'll be in love?
Diet mountain dew, baby, New York City
Never was there ever a girl so pretty
Do you think we'll be in love forever?
Do you think we'll be in love?
Diet mountain dew, baby, New York City
Can we hit it now low down and gritty?
Do you think we'll be in love forever?
Do you think we'll be in love?
You're no good for me
Baby, you're no good for me
You're no good for me
But baby, I want you, I want
You're no good for me
Baby, you're no good for me
You're no good for me
But baby, I want you, I want
You're no good for me
Baby, you're no good for me
You're no good for me
But baby, I want you, I want
(all lyrics copy n pasted from google)
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for the art ask thingy you reblogged, mayhaps 8, 12, and 17? (don't feel pressured to do them all)
ty for question! there will be a lot of text below bc i like to talk about my art or myself😭 i'm an egocentric😭
8. What do you like most about your own work?
It's hard to say, because i criticize myself a lot or treat my art like idkkk things i have to do while i'm still alive?? like creating (anything) is literally the meaning of my life
so my work to me it's kinda like a "vacuum the apartment" item in to-do list. you vacuum your apartment, delist it, and then forget about it forever
but if to think a little deeper it's hmm
i like the style in which i’m drawing rn, though i’m still not really happy with it. but this whole styling thing is super hard to me after years of academic art 💀 if im super tired my hands automatically draw something realistic and this really upsets me bc i don't want to draw realistic things :(
i don't post many original art here, but i love the sense of freedom it have, that i’ve worked very hard for and still working on it! like replacing "how to do it acceptably?" with "how i want it, how i feel it and how to do it honest" in my mind. honesty and sincerity are the most important things in my life, work, people etc.
there are many problems with this now because of the russian laws and autocracy, which has long been more like totalitarianism.
i have a hard time saying and doing what i think, constantly having to go around/come up with metaphors/not putting something out there at all, even changing ideas and plots. it disgusts me, i hope i can emigrate in the next two years or so, freedom is a key value for me
and ok if to be more abstract, i like the fact that I draw/etc for myself, i.e i create something that i lack in this world. every time it gives me a feeling of satisfaction (though it doesn't last long) that "there! at last I see what i wanted, what i craved to see".
i.e actually i work from "i don't like what there's rn, i want to see it differently, I want to do it other way". as if the store didn't have clothes in your size and and you'd have to sew your own
12. Show your favourite drawing from this year
i realize that this question implies one drawing, but idc and will show several instead of just one :^)
the first drawing that comes to mind is this! well it's not exactly a drawing ofc but still. it's one of 54 illustrations for the play "the shadow". i love this work very much (text here says "your country is like every country in the world" in different languages, and on the color block the phrase is "it's all so mixed up", it's quotes from the play)
and three more illustrations for the same play! best part of this year in terms of art is probably that i finally got into lettering. although it's not lettering in the classic sense here, like these lettering aren't meant to be readable, i just think the letters are very pretty:^)
and the last one. this fanart turned out to be very important for me! i drew it some time after my diploma and finally for the first time in a long time allowed myself to loosen up and not think about what others will think. thanks to this art i realized in which style i wanna work:^)
17. What inspires you?
almost anything tbh. movies, books, theater, songs, science, news, colors, clothes, people, whatever
in personal projects, it's usually a reflection on current events/experiences
talking to people and their stories inspire me a lot
on a more simple level: music/songs. i believe that any visual composition is music (even Kandinsky wrote about it and he himself considered his abstract works as painted music). So rhythm, intonation in songs and other things inspire me af. i always make playlists for every big project im working. it's not even about the lyrics of the songs, it's about the vibe/mood they give. (i had an exhibition this summer with illustrations for "the shadow" and like i put a disco projector there and made a 6 hours playlist 😭 bc all the illustration were based on music (and i hate exhibition snobbery, pseudo-intellectualism, and in general when people consider themselves superior to others. i also think that looking at pictures without music is boring)
aaaaand i'm also inspired by the words themselves? (you can notice in the pictures above, haha). sometimes by the meaning they carry, sometimes just by the way they look. and the letters inspire me bc that, again, is music to me. the rhythm, the plasticity, the contrast. i just love letters ahahh
thanks again for the question and hope it was interesting!
have a good day/night/morning/etc ! 💞
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give your moots a valentine's day ship <3
❛ MOOTS VALENTINE'S DAY SHIP <3 ❜
༊*·˚ rosie's notes — okay okay so first of all, thank you nonnie for this ask & second i'm very sorry for my other moots i haven't added :( i tried my best to include all of you, but it's really hard & the ones who i wrote for were mostly the ones who i knew the best !!
+ for those who have received two characters, I can't really decide which one who goes with u better, so why not make it both?
༊*·˚ if you don't like this i would throw myself out of the window /hj if you're uncomfortable with this pls ignore it and you have the green light to bonk me in the head
@gettinshiggywithit with touya !!
༉‧₊˚ my first ever moot !! i'm pairing you up with dabi, wbk you'll get dabi! touya has never spent valentine's with anyone before and this would be his first time with you. he had planned it out a week before (he might have asked and research for things to do on valentine's, but that's not for u to worry about) and he's so nervous of what you might think about his idea. nonetheless, he had put so much effort in this particular day <33 he'll be giving you his famous hot chocolates that literally melts your tongue!! i now hereby declare that touya would give you matching rings :))
@popkorrn with akaashi !!
༉‧₊˚ love love love my fave moot of all time, you're my sun and the light of my world <33 i would've gone with yamaguchi, but u and akaashi would be so cute together!! please i hope u like this :') i feel like the both of you would be a fashion icon & imagine matching clothes together! the both of you are just being so adorable <33 and omg akaashi with acts of service and words of affirmation as his love language. he would be giving you all the love on this particular day & he just can't help himself fall in love with you more :(( hand holding with him on the street as the both of stroll and just spend time with each other. he has the softest smile on his face when you look at him!!
@uravichii with bakugou !!
༉‧₊˚ now hold on listen to me, i've been shipping the two of you since day one!! ik u like shinsou but idc lmao/j (i'm literally thinking of you and him as an old married couple fr) PLS katsuki would definitely bake you sweets for valentines (took extra classes for baking, when he's supposed to be sleeping early- he didn't tell u that) & when he gives it to you, he gets so shy??? and he would try to be so nonchalant about it too!! like "happy valentines day or whatever" but please give him a kiss on the cheeks as a thank you, he would be expecting it so much ;)
@suguful with shoto todoroki !
༉‧₊˚ vivi it's been so long :(( i'm pairing you up with the one and only shoto! he'll be giving you little gifts, like a matching bracelet with his color scheme on it and him with yours, he'll also be taking you out for a date or maybe simply just spend time with each other <33 omg and imagine hand kisses !! random hand & forehead kisses! by the end of the day, you'll be seeing something from your bag that looks like a love letter (he secretly slipped it while you were distracted)
@loving-august with childe !
༉‧₊˚ you & childe go together (we forgetting about scara & diluc for now🤭) mans would go all out for valentines day!! never expect less from THE eleventh fatui harbinger 😤 a bouquet of your favorite flowers? fuck that he had a field made of it just for you! sweets you say that are from another nation? no worries, he already contacted the owner of that confectionery to deliver boxes of it. or if you're not feeling any of it, he would gladly stay at home with you and cook your favorite meal <33 he's so sweet and tries his best to show you how much he appreciates you!
@escapenightmare with denki & reo mf mikage !!
༉‧₊˚ what can i say, i'm a multi-shipper. denki would literally burn you a playlist of songs that makes him remind of you :( and omg arcade dates with him!! you'll probably make it a competition (he'll get pouty every time you win lmao) and like !! physical touch with him he's so cute <33 okay we have talked about this! and reo would treat u like a royalty !! he would literally rent the whole amusement park just for you — honestly not just that,, whatever you wanted to do or go to he would just make a quick call and bam the both of you had a whole place to yourselves at your favorite cafe/restaurant, resort, island, maybe he would fly with you to paris because he's romantic & corny he loves you a lot <33
@kiiraes with kuroo !
༉‧₊˚ stop i literally just guessed that kuroo would be your fave 😭 I WAS SO GLAD anyways my rae bby, kuroo is a dork fr!! he would be using those table of elements pick-up lines "are you made of copper and tellurium?" because you're CuTe" he's so goofy. but fr he would take you out on a date, he would literally show up at your door in a tuxedo and a flower in his hands <33 or maybe the two of you would go on a trip on a beach house 🤭 he got the money okay? he would be the sweetest partner you could ever have!!
@angelshimaa with aone & kirishima !!
༉‧₊˚ i've gone with both aone & kiri <33 i couldn't decide which one so why not both? aone is so cute and very shy when he asked you to be his valentine :(( he would be standing outside your door with your favorite flower in one hand, he would give it to you without any words — the note attached to it says "my valentine?" please, say yes :(( & kiri would be taking u out on a date, he's so prepared for this day he got lots of things for you to do on that particular day! (imagine going on a picnic date with him !! all the food is valentine's theme — hearts, red, even your ship name was frosted at least one of them! he would give you a mini plushy of him <33
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Hi!!!! Ur blog is so cool and I loved the fanart of Yui in the chanel dress! I just noticed that you don't really talk about the mukamis on your blog and I wanted to know your opinions on them?
Sup anon!
Ok listen.
To me the Mukamis are boys that I honestly could not get into no matter how hard I tried. They were so painfully meh and I sincerely believe that if the roles were reversed and it was the mukamis in hdb and the sakamakis in mb, the sakamakis would hands down be my favorites. Like they don't even hold a candle to Kanato and we all know how I feel about him.
Ruki actually wasn't bad, but to me he lacked that it factor. Do I think he's attractive? Yeah 100%. I even like some of the scenes in his route and his backstory is fairly compelling, but other than that I don't really hold him in a high regard. He's just so...mid. 😭
Now for Yuma.
To me, he actually made sense. Learning about his connection to Shu and in a way Reiji was actually pretty cool, but my god the way this was executed was pure dog water. Like I've seen fanfiction writers whip up a plot better than whatever drug the rejet writing team was on. As for Yuma himself, I do find him very attractive. He is arguably the best looking mukami and I will stand on that hill. But ffs he is so rough.
Like I know all of the mukamis and sakamakis are sadistic as hell (and I am more than fine with it) but his particular brand of violence turns me off so much, I visibly cringed reading his route.
Kou.
Fucking Kou.
There are no words in any language to describe how much I hate Kou. Appearance wise, his hair is god awful and his voice.
UGHHHHHHH IT WAS SO GRATING AND NOT SEXY IN THE FUCKING SLIGHTEST OMG I COULDN'T LISTEN TO ANY ONE OF HIS CDS WITHOUT CRINGING IT WAS THE WORST EXPERIENCE.
WHEN FUCKING KANATO MANAGES TO SOUND HOTTER THAN YOU, THAT IS A SIGN TO REEVALUATE YOUR LIFE.
And honestly.
H o n e s t l y.
How can you like Kou when Laito exists? you can tell kou was supposed to be the 'new' laito of the game it was so obvious
I swear everytime that little bitch showed up in Laito's route I was begging for Laito to end that flop once and for all. I take back what I said about Kanato. When Laito, of all characters, manages to be visibly annoyed by your presence, that is a sign to reevaluate how much of a nuisance you are to society. When Subaru punched him, I was at peace. It was something that needed to happen for the greater good.
Kou babe. You can't outdo the doer. You can't outshine the shiner honey.
And you know what the fuck is the worst? HE GOT BETTER ENDINGS THAN AZUSA FUCKING MUKAMI. THE MUKAMI IN WHICH YOU COULD TELL THE WRITERS WERE ACTUALLY TRYING TO DO SOMETHING DIFFERENT.
He is also so amazingly dumb.
Like he's built up to be this psychological mastermind (which is really fucking easy when you have a magical fucking eye) but this guy is so brain dead, that even my low ass standards for him were so taken aback. I'm not going to get into it because if I did there will be a sequel and scholarly journal with a work cited page to back up my findings.
The ONLY compliments I can offer is that is song Devil's Spire is fire, his overall pink jpop candy aesthetic is appealing and his backstory is pretty good.
Anyways fuck Kou he fucking sucks.
Now Azusa.
The way I feel towards Azusa is the same way I felt towards Bonnie in TVD.
His character is so massively disrespected. That's all there is too it. His endings were all garbage. His voice itself was fitting but it was too slow. Like cmon king I know you can get out more than one word per minute.
His design is camp idc.
Look at that. It's so camp. The bandages, nose scar that for some reason never healed, the knife, the gripping of the hair - it all makes sm sense.
#diabolik lovers#ruki mukami#yuma mukami#kou mukami#azusa mukami#admin#these are just my opinions tho and i do not want to take away from the enjoyment u feel towards these characters#ask#laito sakamaki
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Yeah, I don't disagree that the podcast is unfortunately very boring and that they're really not doing a great job with it, I just don't think it's worth getting upset over. At this point I think it's clear that they're not going to start putting any more effort into it, if anything it's only going to get sloppier as they get more and more bored by it. Of course it's up to you to weigh the few interesting moments vs how much it annoys you. Personally I stopped listening to the guest episodes (which was the only thing I used to find interesting before) because I really don't care about random musical artists who had a song featured on Glee. Still listening to recaps so far, but then I just find those simply boring, but personally I'm not bothered by their opinions and preferences. Like idk idc, let them like what they want to like! I really don't think it would be worth it to me to keep listening if I was constantly annoyed on top of being bored. I will say though, the one time I rolled my eyes hard was when they called When I Get You Alone the cringiest moment on the show that far - which hey, whatever, would be an opinion I could accept even if I disagreed with it - but not in an episode that LITERALLY featured My Funny Valentine. That's just a whole other level of delusion, babes.
I still listen to the guest episode. Even if I don't care about or don't know the guests, they still better/more interesting/entertaining than the recap episodes. I hope they will get guests that worked for Glee again.
I get that they care more about the stuff they did or the stuff their friends did and talk more about that, but they shouldn't ignore some storylines completely. I want the little bts stories again which made the podcast interesting.
I don't care that they have a different opinion on the best song. How will you decide what's the best? But it's weird that they almost every time choose their own stuff.
The discussions on tumblr around the episodes are more entertaining than the recap episodes. Maybe I sound more annoyed than I am. The most annoying part of the recap episodes for me is them complaining a lot.
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