some userboxes made from bleachers lyrics that are kind of haunting

Last Twilight has me conflicted...

I've had some time to sit with the ending for a while and I just cannot find myself definitively deciding whether or not I'm okay with it. And I think the reason for that is because there are valid opinions for both sides of the argument.

From a narrative standpoint, Last Twilight should have been given the room to fully flesh out its story. After episode 10, things began to feel a little rushed and overlooked. This tends to happen too often in Thai QL dramas, that are limited by their amount of episodes, when the meat of their stories are left toward the end of the series.

This is all meant to say that Last Twilight could have benefited from some breathing room: (I'm only touching on three story points because these seem to be the biggest cause for contention among watchers...and I don't want this post to ramble on forever)

The Breakup - I remain firmly in the camp that the breakup was inevitable and not 'unnecessary'. Had it been executed properly and given the deeper conversation it warranted between the two involved characters, it would have absolutely landed a lot better. Mhok and Day are incredibly young and both are still on their journey to find/accept themselves. When your self discovery becomes intertwined in someone else's, stuff can become misconstrued and messy. Mhok and Day each had to stand on their own two feet and realize that they did not need to have the other in their life in order to do so. It was important for the characters to SAY that they did not want to be an anchor in each other's lives. (I personally don't think a solution as simple as 'long distance relationship' would have worked here. LDR's are hard work and it would have detracted from the focus they needed to have on themselves as individuals). After time apart, they could always come back together and re-evaluate. (Blocking someone's number and completely writing them out of your life after one bump in the road may not have been the way to go about this either). In a healthy adult relationship, Mhok and Day would TALK about what each of them want out of a reconciliation and take culpability for what went wrong in the past. IT'S NOT ALL JUST ON MHOK...

Mhok - Which brings me to my next point... I've come to the conclusion that I have to accept Last Twilight as Day's story and Day's point of view. Mhok was, unfortunately, left by the wayside. There was so much to unpack there and the writers really could have delved deeper into Mhok's background and trauma...but they chose not to. Mhok's characterization felt as if it were an untapped well with incredible narrative potential. The added bonus of seeing Jimmy truly bringing this character to full realization would have been glorious, but alas... I digress. Mhok's journey exists only in the land of time jumps.

Day's Vision - The ending is what I struggle the most to find peace with. I think I remain somewhere in the middle where I can see the series working in either direction had the narrative been aligned properly. Whether or not Day's vision was restored does not take away from his journey, yet it still feels like its 'message' got lost in the crossfire. Without getting too personal, how the ending was presented just felt so ableist. There were uses of the word "normal" that I did not like and it felt like a scramble to wrap everything up in a nice, neat, little bow. I think there needed to be a deeper conversation woven within the story as to why Day chose to have the surgery and how, while that choice was available to and worked for him, it is not a universally shared experience/reality amongst the disabled community. Maybe I just selfishly expect too much from these kinds of series, I don't know.

All in all, time skips can be a useful tool... but what happens in the in between is sometimes too important to overlook, especially in a show that is so character driven. I will end this by saying that JimmySea absolutely acted their butts off, and as someone who had never seen them act together before, I consider myself to be a newly instated fan. I look forward to whatever other projects they should have together.

It’s been fun but I think it’s time......

To be honest, this has been in the back of my mind for quite some time (and the reaction to recent world events have pushed this decision even more).

Eight years ago I started this blog to write out my thoughts and opinions on shows or games that I’ve been enjoying. It was something I did just for fun. However, I have now reached a point where I am outgrowing tumblr.

I’m amazed that I’ve lasted this long but I’ve reached my limit. Being here is no longer fun or worth the risk of attracting toxic people with a toxic mentality because I dare to have a different opinion (I’m lucky enough to not have this happen to me but why keep it going?). To be honest I find it frightening. It also doesn’t help that my opinions have changed over the years, leading me to cringe at some of my old posts. 

I could go on about my other grievances but I’d rather not. Like I said, I’m done. I’m getting ready to move on.

I’ll keep my blog up for now but sooner or later I’m likely going deactivate it. 

Until I make that decision, I would like to say thank you to all my followers who have been here for the last 8 years. You’ve been great but it’s time for me to go and try out new things.

texturey vent

he is magnetically attracted to blankets and pillows

daechwita

I've been experiencing some art block lately, so I'm trying to kick it by redrawing some of my favourite Haikyuu volume covers. Here's the originals for comparison:

it's strange, knowing now who it was this whole time...

Crown Prince Wilhelm of Sweden Wille

They’re both so cute, what’s up with that (Patreon)

What people think ADHD is:

So I went to my room to grab sticky notes to leave my roommate a reminder on the dryer but then I saw my week old mug on my nightstand so I went to put it away and then when I was in the kitchen I realized there's no room for it in the cabinet and now I'm measuring the wall for shelving units.

Which, yeah, it is that. It's definitely that. But it's also this series of texts I sent to my friend this morning:

a familiar, ready to get this show on the road and travel to its new home!

it has, in fact, already arrived at this point, but the travel vibe with the little suitcase is cute.

[photos & paintings in the background: @posnakkel]

[commissions reopening in january!]

Life with ADHD is apparently one of two things.

Working too hard on too many things at all times, chasing that newness and the rush of being challenged, and feeling exhausted as a result.

Trying to take a break to get the rest you need, where your brain starts screaming at you about the 400 different, interesting things you could be doing, while you're simultaneously getting bored.

Thanks, brain. Oh, the joy of discovering you're neurodivergent.